Today was a day.

I saw my patient at 11am. We looked for any place in Chico they could get free food delivered. My patient is 75, and they’re slipping, but they don’t think they are.

Most people if you tell them their slipping, the mental cognitive is not firing on all cylinders, they tell you no, they’re not.

This is typical for most Americans. However, most Americans are not veterans, most Americans have a place with family or they don’t.

Family is the worst for dealing with this. They think of who they know, but they aren’t there, they’ve changed. It’s heartbreaking for you both.

I look at my dad and his life and how Parkinsons disease cut his life short. Much shorter than the day he died.

My dad was a contractor, self employed. There were things my dad hadn’t tried, everything else was an art form.

Now, parkisons took my dad’s ability and shit canned it. What made my dad was broken.

I took care of my dad for the last 7 years he was alive. He fell down frequently, and all I could feel was my dad’s hate, that I had to pick him up.

That hate was at himself.

Anybody, everybody has shit to say, however I’m the one that felt it every time. That means your opinions mean exactly shit to me.

Now to the rest of my day. I went down to Ital imports, a crystal shop I hang out in on occasion. I had a therapy visit to give.

Think of it this way, I know before you do whether or not you need me or someone like me. The force is strong with this one.

And it is the force, not the star wars force, the real force that exists within everything.

An empath can feel when something is strange is going on with most people. Even I have the occasional error, however this time I was right on target.

I let them know, if anyone comes looking for Jim Carter, tell them where to go.

Think of it this way, why would I say that unless people were actually coming.

This is what I deal with, daily.

Tomorrow, dementia patient who has no clue who I am, where he is, and is essentially delusional. I may miss a couple days depending on him.

There is no control, only the flow, just let go and enjoy the ride.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.