Matthew Sweet wrote a song called Girlfriend.

I’ve been celibate for close to ten years and this is why. I’m a sex addict.

Looking at my life where sex is concerned, I’ve done what I need to do to heal my soul.

How do I tell everyone I’m a sex addict.

Writing this works.

Sex is something that can be amazing between two people. I didn’t say that love each other, here’s why.

I’ve had sex without love and it was amazing.

The sex I did have where one loved the other, it was amazing.

The sex I had when we loved each other truly, I don’t know, I’m still waiting for that.

I didn’t know myself so how could anyone love me. I didn’t love myself. What I thought was love, was lust.

I understand the difference, have for many years, but why am I gunshy about the idea of having sex.

Because I trained myself to be a Tantra Master. I did it with my wife. I didn’t do it for everyone else.

I can give sexual advice. I remember telling a lesbian how to please her lover, and it worked like a charm.

Yet for me, I’ll probably live alone, I don’t want to say for the rest of my life. I don’t like the finality of that.

Think about it, how long am I going to live?

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.