Ok, I get I’m getting a bike but what in the blue holy fuck?

Today at 130p I was riding my scooter. The front wheel stopped while I was going 15mph. I flew, I fucked up my knee.

I worked 8 hours being fucked up. I also fucked up my hand.

Then at 11pm on my way home, less than 500 yds the front wheel stopped again and I went flying.

Fucked up my finger and my other knee.

The scooter is fucked. The throttle broke.

This is what is actually happening in my life right now.

As I got myself cleaned up and got my PJs on and smoked a spliff with mostly weed.

I was pissed as pissed gets. Yet I don’t want anyone else to get hurt. In the past I would have found somebody to hurt.

That’s what building peace on the inside has done for me. I forgive everyone….

I did this while I smoked.

I’m at peace with everything.

In still in pain like a motherfucker.

But I can deal with pain.

But what I can’t deal with is using pain as an excuse to be hurtful to anyone.

I remember when I was in the worst pain in my life, I still didn’t want to hurt anyone.

There are people who use pain as an excuse to hurt others. There is no excuse.

I’m thinking of one in particular that likes to hurt me because they are in pain.

That’s why I set myself up to be in this much pain.

Why wouldn’t I have set myself up for this?

I know how much pain I can take.

It’s more than most people.

I crashed to second time less than hour ago.

I’m writing this.

What would you be doing?

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