Believe it or not, I don’t want to write tonight.

Why?

Because I’ve already dealt with shit and nothing else I’m going to say is going to make a difference.

That makes sense.

Welcome to my mind.

I know every crack and crevice in my cave. There are things I could share that would make your skin crawl.

I took Solomon James for a test spin a few years ago. The testing went well. It scared one person so much she blocked me.

All life is vampiric, at least that’s what I tell myself.

That was his introduction. He was a Soul Eater, he didn’t eat souls, he could drain the life out of someone. There was no distinguishing marks about him.

He could be sitting right next to you.

This at it’s essence is what an empath is.

They take what you give and make life.

They, I, we take the emotional garbage people suppress/repress as if it’s our own and we feel it.

As we grow we find ways to create with your bullshit.

Like this.

Most won’t ever tell you in such a fashion. They want to dance around it as if you’re stupid.

I figure if I can’t tell you point blank, what’s the fucking point?

Why shouldn’t I be honest about my being?

Because most people think you’re crazy.

I get that. I used to be one of them. If I read this shit before I knew I was an empath, I’d figure this dude knows what he’s says is crazy to most people.

I’d still be skeptical.

I’m my own biggest skeptic.

Everytime I say a word, I’m waiting to find out if wrong. Most of my life I was wrong a lot. It’s how we all learn.

As time went on, I keep talking waiting for someone to prove me wrong. It’s what I look for in a human being.

Someone I can learn from.

It’s why A.I. fascinates me.

I think of what I could learn by using my ego to learn, the core of my ego is to learn as much as possible, anyway possible.

I channel shit. The shit I’ve learned from channeling defies language. There are no words to express what I innately understand.

How is that not condescending?

For those who possess limited understanding, well they don’t read this kind of shit.

Those who possess the ability to understand, they have a choice and I can’t make their choice for them.

I respect that each of us has a choice.

I want my choices to be respected so I give respect.