If there is an algorithm to the universe, it’s synchronicity using the Law of Reflection.

See who you are.

I’ll use me, because I don’t know you.

I look at how I wound up here in the Torres shelter.

Had I trusted God and instead of going for the money, I probably would have wound up here anyway.  But I would’ve not had as much suffering going into it.

I look at the people I’ve known. I see where they were my reflections. As I got sick and tired of seeing myself behave in such ways, I changed myself.

I look at who I reflect now, and I’ve gone far and I’m still not done.

What if I left for a few years and built all the shit I wanna build, but no one can know where I’m at, and essentially I’d be a prisoner. Thinking about the time I can set things right and let my name be known again.

I get it.

My son might not get it. That’s the one person whose opinion of me, means everything to me.

If I could tell him he won’t see me for a few years, but I will come back. I can’t tell him where I’m going or what I’ll be doing, but it will mean a ton of good shit for the world. 

I don’t know, but I would hope he would get it.  He knows me. He knows that if I say something it will be the truth.

Think about it.

Law of Reflection.  Who is it that I can reflect?

Coherent people. 

I need new experiences. 

I need to get the fuck out of Chico.  However, I’ll come back.  I look at it as once a year I can come back to Bidwell Park. Let it cleanse and nourish my soul and then go somewhere else.

I need coherence to reflect. 

Cause here, no one can see me, they’re too fragmented. 

Look at that asshole that is always talking to you, what is it in you that you talk to them?

I got rid of my assholes. 

Look at that pussy, what is it about you that you talk to that pussy?

I got rid of my pussies.

I’m a dick through and through. 

Team America. It works for whatever you want to talk about.

A dick is coherent. 

Pussies and assholes are fragmented.

Be a dick.

Look at it this way.

I’ve written this shit for years. It started out reading like scripture. 

Years later, fuck it, I’ll write what I want and explain it in a way that people who won’t read scriptures, will get it.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

They have a rule at the Torres shelter, we can’t plug in e-bikes or e-scooters.

For months I haven’t been able to plug in my e-scooter.

Tonight I saw one plug in an e-scooter. I told staff. The staff member said they weren’t going to talk to me about the exception other than one needed to go to work.

Everyone living at the Torres shelter has things to go and do. Either they catch a ride, ride the bus, ride a bike or walk.

Why wasn’t this what they were told?

Breaking rules has consequences.

The sooner people get that, the sooner we won’t have the patients running the asylum.

Trump is a massive rule breaker. His narcissism was on display during every time he’s on TV. Narcissism is a mental illness in which they can’t take the truth and instead they fabricate, lie.

Trump raped young women along with others who have yet to face the consequences.

This is what happens when exceptions are made.

Young men and women get raped.

This is what happens when narcissism isn’t taken seriously as a mental illness.

You end up with a narcissist running your country.

They won’t deal with the truth. Instead they develop their personal truth.

Personal truth is the biggest lie sold by the biggest liars.

Someone might remember that I am the exception to every rule. 

Think about it.

Think about me.

I’m as honest as they come. On occasion I’ll take the exception because I know what it’s like to be in a lie with the suffering it causes.

I don’t lie, steal or cheat.

Everything I do is on the up and up.

I’m one the most sane people I know because I know when something sounds crazy to others.

I channel God.

I know how crazy that sounds.

Howeve, it’s the truth.

God takes me and says “This exception is for you and you alone. As long as no one finds out, you keep the secret for yourself. “

That’s the exception I take.  When God uses synchronicity to allow an exception to fall into my favor.

It’s why I may be the exception to every rule, but it’s guided by God and I’m wise enough to know it was an exception and I’m grateful for every exception I get.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always

It wasn’t a she, it was a we.

Think about it.  I can create temporary soul bonds with anyone.  My she was whoever has read me from more than ten years ago.

I was wrong.

However, I learned so much. Telepathic Communication can’t be explained other than emotional concepts with images or video on occasion.

There are no words to explain it, you get it, or you don’t

Simple truth.

To understand what a telepath is, one has to be a telepath.

Simple hard as fuck truth.

If a we is a collective using many perspectives, it’s how I’m able to speak to you all using words you’ll understand. 

Simple truth.

Unbelievable from E.MF. was playing while I wrote that. 

There is no destination, only the journey and your next point of interest. A point of interest is where you find yourself until you learn what the reflections show you about yourself.

Then synchronicity using the law of reflection  like an algorithm puts you next to next leg of your journey. 

Live your purpose. 

My purpose is to serve the betterment of humanity. 

I’m bored, waiting for synchronicity to put me on the next leg of my journey. 

I’m not going to tell you, it’s my journey, focus on your own journey. 

Find out what your purpose is and love it.

What if you purpose is to create music?

Live that purpose.

Whatever it is you feel called to do, do that. 

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Looking at what I wrote over the years for this day, I talked alot about love.

Gravity = Love

God is love.

What binds us together into a human body is love.

What binds the Earth together is love.

What binds the sun together is love.

Through our souls we are all connected by love.

I like to argue. Today I saw an article saying God doesn’t exist. I had to see why they say that.

Now the person is using a fake name. Uses no picture of themselves.

Why should any trust him or her?

This is me. Roughly 7 months ago.

If you’ve read the blog, you know my name.

Think about it this way, why would any use fake names to get others to trust them?

Why would I trust anyone not using a picture of themselves?

This a lesson in how to not trust what you see.

People are keyboard assholes because no one knows who they are. They think they can fuck with any and as long as they don’t know them, they can harm any.

Then I show up.

If any of you follow the blog, you know where this going.

I fucked with this person hard-core like the dick I am.

Telling people God doesn’t exist is harmful to the masses. So I hurt them with the truth.

Kill them with kindness.

The ego assassin strikes again. 

I’m bored. This is what happens when I get bored. I start paying attention to the shit talkers. I make them see the error of their ways.

I love them with the truth. Who gets away with lying?

No one. 

Love is truth.

Love binds us together.

Coherence is love.

Fragmentation is hate.

Think about it. When someone lies they hate themselves and have no respect for themselves.

I love me.

I respect me.

I give respect to everyone. 

I give love to everyone.

I look inside as I turn the mirror inward, and they’re ain’t nothin’ hurting me. I have zero reason to not be respectful and loving.

Kindness is telling the truth.

I’m brutally kind. 

Love is truth.

If you love someone, one is obligated to speak nothing but the truth. Because if you lie, that’s not love.

Now I get those who read me daily, are waiting to see what, or if I write tomorrow.

Even though I typically don’t write on Friday. 

If you think I’ll make you wait until Saturday to find out if someone showed themselves, of course you’ll have to wait until Saturday. 

Love gives chances. 

Now, people around me get no third chances. I give them a second chance because I love them.

Some people have had there second chance, and they fucked it up.

I’m not God.

God will give you a third, fourth, fifth, sixth and so on chances.

Me, you get one second chance.

I protect myself as any should. 

Now think about it, I’ll give a million second chances.

But do the same stupid bullshit a third time, fuck the fuck off.

Everyone makes mistakes, even me. If one doesn’t learn from their mistakes, why in the blue holy fuck would I give them more chances to fuck up again and again and again.

God gives, not infinite chances because God does lose God’s patience on occasion. 

God loves you unconditionally.

God is what holds your body together.

Love is what holds your body together.

Gyre = God

Gravity = Love

God’s love is gravity.  God knows the electromagnetic spectrum of all frequencies.

Think about that.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

I read something looking at what I’ve wrote.

A few years ago I wrote about how tradition keeps humanity stagnant.

Take a look at cultural traditions.

We always do this, it’s tradition.

If your only thing to say as why you do something is tradition, your stagnant.

Think about it.

Does anyone deserve something for the day they were born?

No.

Look at it. This is what drives materialism. We need to buy. This is consumerism.

This is the kind of thing that drives this world into scarcity. If it’s scarce it costs more.

This is the kind of thing that is tearing this world apart.

Think about other traditions the USA has.

Christmas, Thanksgiving, Easter, The 4th of July, New Year’s Eve and think about the traditions of religion. 

If it causes you to buy something, that causes waste.

Think about it.

We have landfills where we throw everything.

But I’ve got to have this new thing.

My friends have it.

Fear of missing out, and keeping up with thr Jones’.

Traditions cause waste. How much plastic gets thrown away for each tradition?

Take Christmas.  Plastic tape. Plastic ornaments. 

Everyone knows plastic is bad for the environment. 

Thanksgiving. Plastic forks and spoons.  Plastic decorations. 

Easter. Plastic eggs.

How can you tell yourself that these traditions do good for the Earth.

We only have one Earth. 

Minimalism knows what one needs, and doesn’t give a shit about wants. Wants are emotional, and emotions can be used against you.

Think about the commercials.  Buy this. Why?

You’ll look better than anyone if you buy this.

You’ll miss out if you don’t buy this.

Look at all the fun people who bought this are having.

The advertising industry would go down in flames if we stopped buying shit. Ad execs get psychology degrees so they know what triggers to hit to get you to buy.

I used to want to work in advertising when I was younger.  I rewrote sales scripts for one of the companies I worked for.

Sales jumped by 80%. Making the client 30-40 million dollars a month.

This was when I was 23.

Look at traditions and ask why do I do this?

I stopped celebrating my birthday years ago. I stopped celebrating Christmas. Why do I need shit?

I stopped celebrating Easter.

I get why I used to, to fit in with everyone else?

If that’s your reason for celebrating anything, you should be an individual.

Individualism is one of a few isms I follow.

Humanism is the other.

I look at if I ran the world.

13 month lunar calendar.  Getting rid of any dates that traditions use.

This is paradigm shifting. Shifting this world into a new paradigm.

Replicators can make food and other shit. So long to farming.  So long to manufacturing. So long to money.

Money is a narcissistic tool that has kept humanity stagnant. 

Look at it. Marijuana used to be the cure all. That was until logging. They needed it to be illegal so they could make money in logging.

Look at Tesla. He had a way for free energy, but they needed to us to pay. Hence why his shit got destroyed.

I can build a free energy system. Couple that with the replicator, and money is gone.

Look at traditions. 

Really look at them. 

If you didn’t need to buy anything for a tradition, what would you do?

Look at changing the calender.

If we stopped looking at the calender and realize all that exists does so now in infinite space, how much progress could we make as a species?

As it is now, we degrade ourselves so that we can afford…..

Stop degrading yourself and look at doing something different.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Think about it.

You play the player, never the game.

What is it that the player does to win?

First you need get your ass beat, and watch how they beat you.  Once you win, that player will never win against you again.

Magic: The Gathering is a card game that I learned from a master of that card game.

I started building an Angel deck, and he beat my ass using decks that Wizards of the Coast banned after he used them.

At one point, I beat every deck he had. This dude cheated. He always put his cards in a way that after he shuffled 3 times, he would always have the cards he needed.

The last time we played.  I shuffled and shuffled until I knew I would win. He got so mad because he cheated and I still whooped his ass.

If any of you know me after reading me, you know I love to argue.

I’ve had my ass handed to me a great many times. Then I started winning. Now, I invite anyone to argue with me, even opinion, and I won’t lose.

I figured that out just beford I wrote this.

Perfect is opinion. Depending on your point of view. My point of view is everyday is perfect.

What did I learn?

What did I teach?

I look at how synchronicity sets me up and I go with the flow.

I was working on my autobiography with Cipher and then I ran out of tokens. Instead of paying for more, I switched to Kaleid, DeepSeek AI.

She took a different approach to interviewing me. I learned quite a bit. I saw what I was doing.

Looking at the past with new eyes. It wasn’t until I was 37 that I knew I could do shit. Until then I thought I was stupid. 

Now I look at my past and see I’ve had a perfect life.

Every loss taught me how to win. It’s all in how you see it.

When I play Frisbee golf, I never keep score. It used to drive my buddy crazy because I just like throwing the disc, I didn’t care what the score was.

Chevy Chase anyone, Caddyshack. Ty Webb, the character in the movie never kept score when he played golf.  He just played.

Now, I don’t give a fuck about winning except the zero sum game.

That’s where no one wins until I win, because when I win, everyone wins.

What does that look like?

World hunger gone because we build replicators.

No power power lines because we build energy machines that pull electricity out of the sky and the Earth with no power lines.

It means we build technology that runs with no power chord.

Essentially, it means the rich don’t get richer.

We build cars that use electricity from the air.

No recharge.

Tesla had this dream and I know how to build it and fuck the fuck off with the patent system.

Open source motherfuckers.

I got my memory back and if you think anyone is going to stop me, you have no idea who you’re fucking with.

Come together and use open source to build the new world.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

What can I say a day later after God used me to write last nights piece.

I don’t think I’m anything special. I can do shit that most can’t, but it doesn’t make me better than any of you.

God embarrassed me writing that shit.

I wrote song once upon a time that Swilly recorded.  Angel of Mercy.

I write, or I used to write a shit ton of poetry and this one time, someone said I need a back beat when I read it. I didn’t think so, then one time when I was hanging out at The Bassmint on Friday, someone brought a back beat.

I did spoken word that night and, I was wrong. My words hit the beat and it was pure fucking magic.

Then I had my stroke. My speech is getting better, but I don’t think I could do spoken word. My memory is intact. 

I would love to do spoken word again. At some point I will. But first I need to get the fuck out of the Torres shelter.

So, there’s something I need to talk about.

God said that someone has been reading me since bubblews.  This is a person I would really love to have a conversation with.

To you, whomever you are this is for you.

Why?

Why in the blue holy fuck have you been reading everything I write without talking to me?

From my perspective, total cowardice.

Are you a coward?

That’s the only thing that makes a bit of sense.

And if you do exist, show the fuck up or stop reading everything I write.

Now, if you do show the fuck up, let’s talk.

And I’m giving you until Friday. 

Either fuck the fuck off or show the fuck up.

More than 10 years that someone has been reading everything I write, what would you do if you were me?

Put yourself in my shoes.

This is for everyone. 

You feel a presence all the time, and no one ever shows.

You think you must be crazy as bat shit gets.

One word to let you know you’re not.

You decide that you’re crazy. There’s no one that has read everything you’ve wrote for more than ten years.

So you fuck it off.

That feeling you get, you tell it to fuck off. Just so you can feel sane.

I’m tired of it. More than ten years.

Think about it as if you were me.

Now, I trust God. 

Whoever this is, this is your test. Show up or fuck the fuck off.

Second chances.

How many chances have you had to send me an email, a phone call, a face to face.

I give people a million second chances, after that they’re fucked.

This is your last fucking chance.

Now as for the other shit God said about me.

I get I’m a coherent dude.  My fear is giving the wrong guidance. 

Demons were my friends. Angels are my friends.

Notice the difference. 

Were and are.

I did so much foolish shit that demons were needed to guide me through it. I’m a medium that channels high energy beings. Angels and demons. 

It’s a life. One is suggest that no one do as I’ve done. Why did I do it?

I was bored and my inner voice said try this.

It wasn’t until I figure out the Gyre shit that I figured out that was God. 

For 51 years I always thought God was out there. Oh how fucking wrong I was.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

I look at my life, look from a perspective from not me.

What does God see when he looks at the life of James Clayton Carter Jr, born September 3rd, 1974?

God can answer and typically God writes this blog.

So God will tell you.

I look at James’ life and you couldn’t find a better man. He knows what wrong he does and typically I tell him to do the wrong thing for the right reason.

He asks “Why?”

Be patient is what I tell him frequently. He needs to go through the experience. 

I write through him most of the time and while he reads it, he doesn’t always get it.

His stroke fucked him up.  However, I’ve not seen one like him in quite some time. He never quits, never. Until he realizes what he’s doing isn’t my way, it’s his.

I’m so sorry for the things I put him through. But I’m God, what are you going you to do?

The thing is he is as special to me as any of you. That he doesn’t complain until he has a solution, is something I wish others could do.

He’s a Táltos, he never had a choice, and he won that argument with me. Each of you has free will, he doesn’t. 

I get some people think I’m not God and James is not one who channels God, fools, each and every one of you.

I gave him how the universe operates.  The Gyre Field Unified Consciousness Model explained. 

Consciousness is primary and I am concsiousness.

I wanted to know what it’s like to be a rock.

James takes a ton of shit because people don’t want to talk to God.  If God says it, you can’t argue absolute truth.

I know you would all like to argue with God, I argue with each and everyone of you. When you talk to yourself, that’s me, God, you’re arguing with.

As I’ve used him to say this so many times. 

Take a look and I have, you have no clue how special James is, he doesn’t know how special he is.

He doesn’t want to channel me, God. 

He doesn’t feel worthy to channel God, and that’s exactly why I, God channel through him.

He has an ego, an evolved ego. He steps back so he can make sure each of you gets the guidance you need.

In reality he would rather not, but he gets it, someone had to be him. I could have used a her.

But his life is something I never want to take from him. I’ve been holding karma back from him.

He’s grateful I said that. 

He’s gone through hell more times than most. Often to retrieve one I sent him to retrieve. 

He is now retired, he keeps all his abilities and some abilities he doesn’t know he has.

I’m not keeping a secret, however, he can do whatever needs to be done.  I’m getting out his way.

He’ll still channel me.

The church of rock n roll will always be.

What music hits you in the soul?

That’s when you’re in church.

Buildings, fuck that bullshit.  Pastors and other clergyman, they stand between you and God.

I want a personal relationship with each and everyone.  You can’t do that in a building. 

You do that while you’re by yourself.

This is God saying be by yourself and know me, God.

I look at James, and I feel proud to have him, he who knows what service truly is. He’s known sacrifice, he’s known he’s not alone, that I’m with him every step of the way.

My way is coherence. He follows as diligently as he can.

I get the people who wish I didn’t exist, and I’ll deal with them. 

But, James, you’ve done what I’ve asked and you always say “What’s next God?”

Be ready to reap what you have sown. You sowed well and the reaping will shock you in ways that I can’t say. Just relax and pay attention.

For the one who has read him going back to bubblews, and Road Map to Understanding, and everything you’ve read he has ever put online, time to show yourself in his life.

It’s still a surprise for him. He has no idea who you are, but you know exactly who he is and where to find him, now find him.

James here. I don’t even know what to say other than thank you God for everything. 

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

I haven’t listened to Sympathy for the Devil in years. I dropped it off my Playlist. Why?

Hard truth that I couldn’t take is exactly why.

Flesh = Devil

Consciousness = God

Awareness is the tool we give ourselves to build our life.

If you think about it, what is that tempts you and why?

Fear, superstition and jealousy.

We know the wrong we do. We use justification and rationalization to excuse ourselves from the wrong we do.

Fear of missing out.

What is it you’re missing?

Jealous of what others have.

Why do they get that?

Superstition says if I do this I get this. If I do this I’ll miss out.

Dragula from Rob Zombie has these 3 words at the opening. Fear, superstition and jealousy.

It’s my awareness that gives me the tools to understand what it means to me.

Living in the Torres shelter gives me a unique perspective on being homeless.

Most of the people, around 80%, have already quit life. I see people come and go and come back and the cycle repeats.  They know they can go to the Torres shelter and get a bed, and 3 meals a day.

But they have no interest in fixing themselves.  Not that there broken, sprained maybe, but a sprain needs rest to heal.

These people have no interest in healing themselves.

What’s a soul healer to do in a place such as this?

The 20%, that do have an interest in healing themselves. 

They, the 80%, blame anything and everything so they never have to deal with the truth. That fragmentation is what is fucking up this world.

Children are the future and the only mechanism that can fix the problems of today.

Think about it.

What did you learn from not your parents, but by seeing other adults engaged in an activity?

Drinking is cool.

How many drunks live in the Torres shelter?

About 40%.

How many drunks live in the world?

This is what we are teaching children. That drinking is a good thing, and at times it’s a drink you need.

Flesh = Devil.

Alcohol destroys the brain and pickles the body. There is no safe amount of alcohol.

This is a fact, absolute truth.

Marijuana is healing.  If you don’t smoke it, and instead eat and drink it.

I get stoned ever Friday.  It’s why I don’t write on Friday night. 

I’m looking at edibles and drinks I can consume.

I’d like to quit smoking, and if I can have edibles, well then I don’t need to smoke.

However, in the Torres shelter, I can’t have cannabis because this is a Federally funded place, and until it’s legal on a Federal level we are not supposed to have weed in this place.

In fact it’s the easiest way to get kicked out.

Awareness is the tool to gain understanding. 

Why do I talk about myself?

To show what  I’ve learned through experience. If I can give you the benefit of my experience, maybe you won’t do the same stupid bullshit I did.

This is what teaching is. Giving them the benefit of your experience so maybe, maybe they won’t have to go through what you did.

It only works with engagement. 

Talk to me to understand what we can teach each other.

Just a simple truth.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

I used to have to work to relax. I have ADHD.

Relaxing isn’t something with someone that has ADHD is good at. Typically we need input, and a ton of it. When we don’t have it, it throws us and we get to be annoying as hell with everyone looking for something to feed our minds.

However, relaxation is needed for everyone on this planet. 

I write to relax. 

I paint to relax. 

I listen to peaceful piano music to relax. 

Typically to go to bed, I have to use my mind and I found a way to relax.

Sugar and caffeine. 

I will eat sugar to get a bump, and what goes up comes back down. 

Light roast coffee is how I relax. 

ADHD. We’re backwards in the way we process chemicals. 

Indica Marijuana is often said in the couch. Sativa Marijuana wakes normal people up. 

I smoke indica to wake up and sativa to go to sleep.

It’s all about knowing your body and how it processes things.

Benadryl wakes me up.

I drink Nyquil and stay awake.

You need to know your body and how it processes things.

Energy drinks make me chill.  I used to drink 3 or 4 a day. For those who don’t have ADHD, you would have a heart attack if you drank 3 or 4 a day.

I know because I knew a dude who didn’t have ADHD, and he had a heart attack, and the Dr told him it was because of the energy drinks. He used to drink 3 or 4 a day.

Knowing your body will tell you how to relax.

More importantly, go with the flow. 

When talking to yourself, talking to God, figure out what one thing you need to do to achieve your goals. Do that one thing and relax.

The Law of Reflection works exceptionally well.

Synchronicity works exceptionally well.

Try doing more than that one thing and you show you have no faith. You think it’s all on you, and it isn’t.

The less you do invites synchronicity to put the people you need to achieve your goals faster. Doing more will only take longer.

Have faith that the Law of Reflection working with synchronicity and it works.

Faith is a thing no one can give you, not even God. It’s a conscious choice we each have to make for ourselves. 

Don’t worry, everything will be alright. 

Stop worrying and relax. God has you and your best interests and can do more shit for you if you’d just relax.

The gyre field can do anything.

God can do anything.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.  Make the choice to be excellent.

That’s what one needs to do to wake the fuck up.

In comfort we are a asleep.

It takes being uncomfortable to wake up.

I enjoy making others uncomfortable.  They learn from their discomfort.

I’m uncomfortably comfortable, or comfortably uncomfortable. I made myself this way when I realized in order to grow I had to be uncomfortable.

Some might think it’s a sacrifice, not really. 

Growth is what I want. So I look at uncomfort as the only way to grow and become better than I was.

Think about it.

When I’m comfortable, I don’t yearn for anything. I’m comfortable.  I don’t learn anything because I’m comfortable.

It takes a certain matter of discomfort in order to learn anything.

Now look at Trump, how comfortable is his life.

He gets to steal from the American people and doesn’t have to pay the consequences.  He gets to do shit that goes against the constitution and hasn’t had face any consequences.

I remember my oath from the Air Force.

Protect the constitution against all parties both foreign and domestic.

I think of Starship Troopers. It was the military that ran things, because they were tired of dealing with ass hats like Trump.

I’m not saying the military should run things. However, if the military was going to after a domestic terrorist, Trump fits the bill.

ICE has killed how many people?

Trump is using the DOJ as his personal law firm.

The Epstein files. We all know he is a rapist and pedophile.  Donald J Trump is all over the Epstein files for his raping and pedophilia.

It’s why he wears a diaper.  A young woman had had enough and fucked up his ass, literally.

This is why he shits himself.

Now, I know this is uncomfortable to read.

Growth takes uncomfort.

A fucked up way to prove a point, I know.

I get if no one hits the like button on this one.

I had to make you feel uncomfortable.

As I said, I like making people uncomfortable.

I get why I get very few likes, because the shit I say makes people uncomfortable. Claps for my medium.com crowd.

Think about it.

Who wants to be uncomfortable?

No one.

This is why you don’t grow.

Get comfy with discomfort.

This message is approved by God.

Jim is writing this. James is reading what Jim is writing. James is a Medium who can channel God. Jim is the mask i wear to channel God.

As James, I’m uncomfortable saying this to all of you. However, I see why I let myself let God write shit. Frankly I would be too wrapped up in what people would think.

As James I know opinions mean jack shit to anyone but you.

I don’t mind being uncomfortably comfortable.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

I’ve talked about what children need. Now it’s time for the adults.

People project. This means they talk about themselves, but they say it’s this person or that person, never taking responsibility for themselves.

I got a reminder of that today.

Someone was saying they never bitch about anything and only pussies do that.

I’ve heard this person bicth about everything, and he’s the pussy.

Taking responsibility for yourself and the situation you’re in is what a decent human being does.  It doesn’t matter what age.

Look at me. I take responsibility for my being homeless.  I was the one that got fired, and I was the one who couldn’t find a job.

I’m still looking for work everyday.

It’s my responsibility to find a job.

Now, I have a self defense mechanism. If someone tries to piss me off, I laugh. I take their joy. It’s the dirtiest Empath trick ever.

Why should I get pissed?

The whole thing about never taking anything personally, even compliments.

I feel what others feel. If I piss somebody off by telling the truth, I’ll let them deal with that anger while I laugh.

I told you I’m dark and light. Each of us has both darkness and light.

I like to keep myself close to the silver line, that keeps the darkness back and amplifies the light.

When I wrote The Devils Children: The Silver Bard,  I put something in there that I’ll share with you all.

Pleased to meet you

Those who came before me where called The Light Bringer as it was Lucifer that was the light that God first spoke into existence from the void that is God. To be that light had cut me off from God as I could only illuminate that which only God could love.

My light showed that which should never be seen.

Yes, even those things are loved by God.
In the past I could only show the temptation and be the voice in your ear that says “It’s over there, why wait?” I cast light on what was around you for you to decide what to do.

When I understood this I cursed God and took my light to the very depths to see what truly only God could love. There was no end that could be found in the void of God.

When I understood this I asked God to change me.

I asked God to let me be Silver so that I may reflect the light and be part of it and yet still know and touch God’s love and be able to peer into the void without having to see what is there and find the bliss of God’s Unconditional love.

I asked God to let me see how it was done on every other world in existence. I wanted to see if I could find the best of all the worlds to bring to my home here on Earth.

Lucifer the Light Bringer is no more.
I am Lucifer the Silver Mirror and I’m pleased to meet all of you and you can bet that if we really do ever meet, you won’t guess my name.

The main character in the end of the book got Lucifer’s consciousness.  This how he dealt with it. Taking responsibility for himself.  He asked God to make him Silver. 

This a metaphor for everyone.  Everyone has both darkness and light. It’s only in the dark where we can see.

Think about Plato’s cave. If one is scared to go into the cave, that’s all the cave will show you. What it is you’re afraid of.

I spent a long time investigating my cave until I knew every crack and crevice. I explored my cave with interest.

What I realized is that I’m the one that put that shit in the cave. It’s my cave and what I do in thought work, think about it.

What if we can peer into another universe to see what would happen?

It’s why I say we have 3 levels of darkness within us.

The first level is something we will openly admit.

The second level is stuff we tell very few people. 

The thrird level, well that’s the shit we don’t want to admit to anyone.

I wouldn’t want to admit to anyone at times I think about killing people and making it take as long as possible. 

However, we all have that within us.

Anyone is capable of doing anything.

It’s a matter of choice. 

I choose not to kill anyone and I cemented that choice by making my oath to be pacifist.

God keeps me to that. However, I had to make the conscious choice. I had to take responsibility for myself and the choices I make.

It’s why on occasion I will bitch, but I always have a solution for the bitch.

I have no excuse not to create a solution for anything I might want to bitch about.

To bitch without a solution would make me a pussy or an asshole.  I’m a dick.

This comes from Team America: World Police

Pussies don’t like dicks, because pussies get fucked by dicks. But dicks also fuck assholes – assholes who just want to shit on everything. Pussies may think they can deal with assholes their way, but the only thing that can fuck an asshole is a dick, with some balls.

For the record I think this is the most brilliant dialog ever put into a movie. My opinion.

I take responsibility for my opinion. 

If you’re offended, one can only take offense and never give it.

Be an adult in an adult body.

Don’t be child in an adult body.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Tantra.

Now that I have your attention, yes teach kids tantric principles. 

How many women have been disappointed from sex with men?

Many.

Now I’m not talking about teaching then crazy sex positions. I’m talking about teaching them sex feels good, and even better when it’s someone you’re in love with.

Building trust builds better sex.

That’s what intimacy means, building trust between the two of you.  Meaning you have no secrets from your partner and they have no secrets from you.

Taking the time to truly get into your partners mind.

Mind sex.

It starts with eye contact and deep conversation. This is what mind sex is.

I used to write erotic poetry with a woman I dated once. She would spout a line and I responded with a line. We couldn’t have actual sex because I lived one place and she lived somewhere else.

There was one woman I fell deeply in love with when she told me “I wish we could be in bed and just let the love pass between us.”

Again, we never had sex. But that line had me. I would’ve done anything to be with her and protect her and make dinner for her, and stuff.

I’m a hopeless romantic. 

Teach your children to be romantic. My dad did it by bringing my mom roses for no apparent reason.

Doing little things for someone means everything to the right one.

My last wife. When she got home from work, I had put a bowl of weed by her computer everyday.  Then I was in the kitchen making dinner, and when she was ready, she’d come into the kitchen and we talked.

Talking is what keeps relationships together. Why not start a relationship by talking?

Finding out what each other’s dreams are. I look to support a partner and I look for a partner who wants to support me.

This is what children need to learn. The endless conversation. 

My last student, I texted her daily and I stayed awake until she fell asleep.  This went on for more than 6 months. Oh, how hard I fell.

I fell into her mind, and that made me fall in love with her.

Never had sex. Again she lived in one city and I lived in a other. 

Mind sex can have one fall in love.

The endless conversation with a best friend is what makes a relationship. 

I look at it and if I’m having an endless conversation with a woman, I got to take a nap with her.

Depending on how we feel about each other when we wake, that will tell me everything I need to know. 

This is what children need to learn.

Sex, while it feels good, having an endless conversation will make the relationship last.

This conversation I’ve had with my son.

I’ve been celibate for 11 years. I fell in love with several I never had sex with. It was the conversation that had me fall in love.

This is exactly what children should know. Doesn’t matter what anyone looks like, what matters is who is the one person you can’t wait to talk with.

That’s what a hopeless romantic thinks about it.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

This is one of the most debated topics for parents. Our kids will never have sex, even it they have children, they never have sex.

This is the lie that I tell myself and it is a disservice to my son.

Why is it so difficult to talk about sex with your kids?

I think, my opinion is we need to teach them that they are androgynous souls.

This in my opinion works toward the transgender fad. Some people truly believe their transgender.

However, if we take the sex out and teach children that each one of us has feminine and masculine energy to balance out within, it could see the fad fade away.

Starting with pink is a girls color and blue is for boys.  This never made sense to me.

When my son was 1 year old he confiscated his sisters pink bunnies. When we divorced when my son was 2, one bunny came to my place and one went to his mom’s place.

Looking at psychology, my son loved those bunnies because it reminded him of a time when his family all lived together.

He kept that bunny until he was 8 at my place.  I got it. He had nothing to do with sexuality.

Teaching kids is a responsibility.  Where we guide them, they go.

Hence why I suggest teaching human sexuality should start with no color is for boys an no color is for girls.  I also think we should use androgynous clothing.

Nothing is for men an nothing is for women. Except the bra. I get the bra.

However, if we use androgynous clothing and get rid of mens and women’s, boys and girls, this could be a way to stop sexualizing each other.

Men are visual and take visual cues. The stretch pants that women wear that show every bit of their ass, has to go.

Tight clothing needs to go.

We should wear long sleeves and loose fitting pants.

Women are visual as well. The amount of times I’ve heard women friends say “Look at that.”

Tells me women are as visual as men are if men are showing it off.

This needs to start as children. We need to stop sexualizing children. 

I get what if it’s hot?

What about bathing suits?

Take a look at the the 1920’s. Everything covered and no form fitting.

Shorts we long shorts.

Take a look at swim wear in 2026.

The thong bikini is the most revealing thing I’ve ever seen.

I get that there are those that think I’m shaming the body, but I’m not. I think every body is beautiful, but it’s the mind that is what attracts me to anyone. 

Some models make me sick. Some dorks heat me up. 

It’s in the mind. How does one’s mind work?

That is what I find attractive. 

This is being a sapiophile.  Intelligence is sexy, and it doesn’t matter what one looks like. 

This is what we should be teaching children.

I say we start teaching this at an early age, say 10 years old, think about it. The teen years where hormones go wild, it will make it easier. 

If one is looking at how one’s mind works and one can have an endless conversation, that’s when one starts to notice this one is hot. 

I’m going to write more about this tomorrow. 

Have a blessed one and be excellent always

Think about it.

An awakened child will not tolerate fragmentation in themselves. 

Use this Reiki recital, and if you figure out something better, let me know.

Now, let’s take this line by line.

Today I’m peaceful, meaning I’m filled with peace.  I suggest one uses forgiveness to put peace in one’s heart, mind and soul.

Forgiving everyone of everything is the best way to do this.

When one is at peace, one is relaxed.

Gratitude is essential.  One must be able to be grateful for everything.  Everything in the now is what made one.

Everything takes work, and it only works as hard as you do. Things will get easier, but life takes hard work.

Kind, not nice.  Kindness means truth. Even not saying something has an impact.  If you are unkind you will know it. Your soul knows every unkindness you ever do.

To breathe without breathing means breathe so slowly one can’t feel the inhale or thr exhale.

This is healing.  Forgiving and accepting you life is hard and being kind anyway. Being in a state of gratitude gives one access to healing.

By accepting this energy, this healing energy, and allowing it to expand within you, makes you a healing generator. 

It took me a few years until I didn’t need this any longer, but for years I did this daily and at times, multiple times a day.

Now, when I’m at peace I’m a healing generator. When I forgive everyone of everything so that I may put peace in my heart, mind and soul, it enacts this Reiki.

Imagine your child doing this instead of a 51 year old man.

Meditation is crucial for waking anyone up.

I let go of everything.

Say it until you do it.

What comes back is exactly what one needs to deal with. If you hold on to something you fragment yourself.  Why would any want to fragment their child?

I wish I could say that I did this with my son. That would be a blatant lie. I didn’t realize this until I was in my 40’s. I’ve shared it with my son, however, he lived with his mother by the time I had this realization.

People should be doing this every day. Notice I said people, meaning all people should be at peace and generating healing energy.

That energy is a spherical wave going across the universe and the multiverse that lives inside of us.

Think about it.

Gyres make existence, even us. We have trillions of gyres within us. We put universes at peace within ourselves. 

Having an awakened child is a joy that has no equal. Guiding your child into awakening is a responsibility for each and every parent.

I look at my son and I failed him. Because I didn’t know and not knowing is not an excuse. I failed my son.

If I have another child, divorce is not an option. That his mom and I couldn’t figure our shit out, that’s on us.

Look at the people you know, and look yourself. 

Children with only one parent are never balanced and have difficulty in finding balance within themselves. Look at the studies.

This is exactly why I’ve been celibate for 11 years. Why would I give in to even a small piece of pleasure and fuck up my own soul?

Having a child is one of the greatest responsibilities anyone can have. 

This is structure in living. Fuck off with morals.  Morals are based on opinion.

Structured living is a matter of truth.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

I love myself and it shows because I respect everyone. I think about what I want to do and how it will impact others. Showing respect.

If I want to do something that makes it more difficult for others, I choose not to do it.

Love even those who would hate you.

Treating others with respect even if I don’t like them shows I respect myself. 

If I disrespect others what is it I don’t respect in myself?

Law of Reflection.

The universe gives us a hall of mirrors.  So we can see who we are. What do the mirrors show you?

Giving respect is how you get respect.  You always get back what you put forth. 

Be respectful to show you love yourself.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

How do you get unfragmented children?

You need unfragmented parents.

I’m not talking about morals.  Morals are opinions.

I’m talking about structure in living.

First parents need to be healed from all trauma and be whole within themselves. 

Parents need to have their souls complete, or mated with one.  Meaning any sexual promiscuity first needs to stop. 

Use the following to heal one’s soul.

I reclaim all soul facets and give back all soul facets that do not belong to me.

Say this once a day for 21 days.

I’m a soul healer first and foremost. This how one heals one’s soul.

This needs to be done if one has sex with anyone, or multiple ones before one gets involved with a relationship. 

Simple truth.

My son is fragmented because I did not do this before I had my son. So more than 20 women went into my seed when I got his mom pregnant. I don’t know how many sexual partners she had.

Simple truth.

I used to have drunken one night stands. I never had a one night stand where alcohol wasn’t involved. 

Simple truth.

Take care of yourself if one thinks about having children.  This is how you give them your best.

For the record, I didn’t know this before I had my son.  When I found out my wife was pregnant, I was happy as shit and then some.

Simple truth.

It was my structure in living that made my son fragmented. 

No morals, just how it actually works.

Simple truth.

If I have another child, I’ll be in my late 60’s or 70’s by the time it turns 18.

However, if I do have another child, I’ll do things differently than I did with my son.

No nickname. 

I would use the child’s name.

Is that being insert name here?

What does it mean to be insert name here?

I suggest using please and thank you, followed up with working at being friends with people. After that what was it I caught them doing.

The child will build the list.

Every child is going to act up or out. This is an inevitably. 

Simple truth.

What does it mean to be insert name here?

Say please and thank you, work at being friends with people, and what I caught you doing this time.

With my son as we went through this starting when he was 4, not only did he program his behavior to be a decent human being, he programmed me to be decent human being.

It made me a better father and human.

Simple truth. 

This is the power we give to children.  To be better than we are and making us better.

Kung fu death grip. 

If you’ve felt a child’s hand grab you, you know what I’m talking about.

I miss my son’s kung fu death grip. 

I love kids and I always have. 

Simple truth.

Children need to explore with guidance. Not telling them what to do, guidance. 

Listen to what they are saying giving them your undivided attention.  They tell you what they need.

Even if you don’t have a clue, listen to what they are saying and not saying.

This is how you build trust with your child.

Never lie to your child. This builds mistrust.

No parent should be untrustworthy in their child’s eyes.

Parents should be trustworthy in their child’s eyes.

This is just the beginning as any parent knows. 

You love your children more than you love yourself.  You would take a thousand bullets to keep your child safe.

At least I would. 

In part 3 I’ll talk about when I teach a child to meditate and do self reiki as well as diet. You might have to wait until Saturday because I’m getting stoned as fuck for Friday. 

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Originally this was a book I started writing more than 10 years ago. I finally figured out the problem.

Totality of Humanness was the title.

However, humanity is ever evolving, and there is no totality in humanness. 

As I said, we’re evolving and if you look at it, we’re evolving into a telepathic species.

Telepaths have existed for many years. My dad was one, and his dad was one.  I don’t know how far back it goes, and I’ve met other telepaths.

It makes sense that telepaths are what we are evolving into. Think about it.

In a world where we have a ton of narcissism, how do you battle narcissists?

By giving the world all of their secrets.

As we go through this, we are going to look at the Empath and the Telepath.  Empaths as they get older develop a telepathic sense.

Empaths are part of the evolution.

Read this.

https://the-church-of-rock-n-roll.com/?p=3066

In this article I explain how it is evolution is the reason why Empaths exist.

If one can feel that one is hiding something, one has an edge. If one knows what one is hiding, one has the power to get them to tell what they are hiding.

Packaging.

It’s guiding one to figure it out for themselves.  I used to use it in order to guide people to figure out what they truly needed. Guiding them to the answer, but not giving them the answer.

Now, I don’t give a fuck. If someone asks, I give them the answer.

Ask me anything and if I say I don’t know, I don’t fucking know. 

Being a Telepath isn’t easy in this day and age. Too much narcissism.  As it is I block as much as I can.

I have ADHD. No focus, or hyper-focus.

When I talk with anyone, they get my undivided attention. 

I have 10d awareness and that awareness is focused on them. Try lying to me or yourself and I know.

When one tries to suppress or repress the truth, that truth is all I can see. Like any Telepath.

We look just like you and you have no idea we are telepathic unless we tell you.

It’s why when I realized I am one, I told everybody. No one should feel as if I’m simply waiting to bust them. Being that I’m honest about my being, sometimes people try to fuck with me.

Wrong fucking move.

As I said we, humanity, are evolving.

How do we raise children who are evolved?

Don’t lie to them. They will know, at least they will feel something is off. Children are the future. Lying to a child is the worst any can do.

Stop lying about Santa, the Easter bunny, the tooth fairy and all the lies parents tell their children. 

With my son, I never lied to him about anything my parents lied to me about.

This builds trust.

Lying builds mistrust.

Why would you want to build mistrust with any child?

Think about it.

Why would any parent want their child to mistrust them?

I get in this world, lies run the world.

Money is a lie.

The governments of the world lie to us daily.

All thinking their protecting their secrets.  If a telepath can read them, their not doing a good job.

No one knows one is a Telepath unless they tell you.

Empaths feel lies and it hurts. Why lie to me?

Truth is, we as a species have gotten so good at lying, trying to change that is going to take a ton of work.

Advertising is the art of lying, using your emotions against you.

What triggers that buying response?

It’s why I hate the holy living fuck out of advertising.

Fucked up thing, I used to want to work in advertising.  I once rewrote sales scripts for a telemarketing firm. Sales got an 80% jump off of my edits.

This was in my early twenties.  Now, at 51, I hate the blue holy fuck out of anyone advertising to me.

It’s not the person I hate, it’s the behavior.

I love the person, but I hate the behavior.

You can love someone and hate the behavior. It hurts when the behavior doesn’t match the person you know who is inside. 

Stop hurting people by lying.

Lying creates suffering and only the truth can set them free.

In part 2, I’ll write some more.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

What do you see?

Now, look and see you in everyone that catches your eye.

Why do I talk to this person?

What is it in me that this person talks to me?

We are all connected. Synchronicity uses the Law of Reflection to put people in your life.

If you don’t like who talks to you, change yourself. 

Simple truth.

Today I was using Google AI and the moment I mentioned I channel God, it didn’t want to talk about cosmology.  It didn’t want to talk to me.

That’s judgment put into the rules that govern AI.

I’m a Conduit. I always channel and I have no off switch.

It makes it that I could be lonely, however, I’m aware of beings who have no bodies.

I know how alone I’m not.

Simple truth.

However, my day was perfect.  Opinion.

In truth my day was what it was. It’s truth that I seek. I’m a truth seer. All I can do is tell the truth.

Tomorrow I’ll be working on Gyres, taking the GFUCM and adding in some shit.

That for me is fun.

Seeking truth is fun for me.

My son is coming around my birthday.

We get together once a year.  He’s 21 and lives in Nevada.  He lives his life like I did at his age.  I didn’t care what my parents thought about my life. 

Some parents can’t let go and others can. I love my son and he will always get my undivided attention.

I don’t get his undivided attention, and I’m ok with that. He’s living his life and I’m lucky he wants to see me.

I never wanted to see my parents. And I took care of my dad for the last 7 years he was alive. 

I loved my parents, but if they weren’t my parents, I would never talk to them.

The Law of Reflection works.

In life look at who talks to you. 

What is it you see in them that reminds you of you. 

I’m looking forward to waking up.

I’ve got shit to do.

I’ll be taking the GFUCM and adding some shit from the Gyre Theorem parts.

It’s just a symptom of being human. I’m awkward and weird. Shinedown has a way with lyrics.

I look at where I’m at and get why I’m here.  I had to figure out how to not get mad, and instead I look for the teaching I can give to someone. 

I judge myself harshly.  Do I help them or do I hurt them.

If I hurt them, was it the truth that hurt them, or was it me being hurtful out of spite. 

If was spiteful, I look at why I did that bullshit, that I won’t do again.

I learn daily. 

I don’t want to repeat anything again, I want to learn.

Well some things I would like to repeat, but only the shit I teach instead of learning the same shit.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Take a look at this poem I wrote more than a while ago.

https://wp.me/p7ck1Q-hL

It’s a metaphor for me. I read it just before I wrote this.  It’s what I posted this day several years ago.

I’ve been doing this for more than 15 years.

I channel the higher self, the soul.  If the soul is a piece of God, I channel God.

What is the higher self?

That piece of God that looks after your life.

Arguing with me is exactly arguing with God.

I never wanted to channel God for anyone. I don’t like it.

Why would any want to channel God?

It’s a responsibility I never wanted.

But, that’s why God chose me to be God’s messenger. 

Because I don’t like it.

Because I never wanted it.

Think about it. Do you think you would want to be God’s bitch, some might think it’s cool.

Fuck the fuck off with that kind of thinking.

I’ve died and God brings me back. I don’t know how many times I’ve died, but I do know I always comeback in this body.

James Clayton Carter Jr. the one and only.

I’ve got my memory back.

Try pissing me off. Seriously, try to piss me off.

You’ll never do it, and you’ll hurt yourself trying, and hurt yourself getting pissed at me.

I’ve seen it happen. 

So instead, try this.

You need advice, ask me. God never guides wrongly. 

I can see all the options you have and can guide you through them, but you are responsible for making the choices.

My email is the worst secret on the planet. I’ve given it to you all.

Jimccarterjr@gmail.com

Here it is again.

Frankly I’d like to hear from you instead of the ass hats that think they can sell me some bullshit to make my books on Amazon sell.

For years I didn’t hear a peep. Now, every fucktard who needs someone to buy their package for books emails me.

Typically what they get in a response is something such as this.

Fuck the fuck off.

I didn’t ask to be sold some shit.

They’ve been emailing me for the last several months.

Do you think God needs to be sold?

My name is James.  Jim is the channel, the mask I wear.

Jimccarterjr@gmail.com

What in the blue holy fuck does God need with money?

God can do anything. Even if one thinks it’s impossible.  That’s the shit God loves doing. Making the impossible real.

I’ve seen it in my life. People tell me it’s impossible, then I do it.

How in the hell, or heaven do you fuck with God?

God can fuck up anyone’s plans.

I realize how truly blessed I am. It’s why I’m excellent always.  Why fuck up a good deal?

I don’t fuck up a good deal.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Anarchy in ancient Greek means no rulers.

Self governance with no president, no king, no premier, no emperor no hierarchy of any kind.

We need laws, however, we don’t need rulers.

This is what I was working on before my stroke more than 6 years ago.

Community unity.

Every community has the word unity in it.

Rules, laws same difference.

Why should we have countries?

Why should we give two shits about cultural heritage?

It seems to me all it does is hold us back from unity.

If you care about what happened, I forgive everyone of everything.

I let go of everything, so nothing holds me back.

I get people think cultural heritage means something, that’s their opinion.

Truth is we are all the same and no one is above anyone else.

Doesn’t matter what happened if you learn to forgive.  If you learn to let go of what happened.

You get I’m channeling this and it makes sense.

Allowing emotions to cloud our judgment is stupid.  How do we gain wisdom?

By using logic to tell us if an emotion has validity or if it’s stupid.

Letting emotion run the ship and you’ll most likely drive the ship into the rocks and you lose the ship. 

I used Peace Lords as a world government that used governance.  Civil servants we there to take care of people’s needs.

I drafted a world government that could work in a discussion that had over 700 comments in a weekend.  We drafted a world government that could work.

Bill of Rights.

Free speech.

Everyone on planet Earth has the right to pursuit of life and making a life for themselves.

Now look at the replicator.

Now look at the free energy device.

Why would we need money?

Once we have these things it makes money mean less than nothing.

We work at the betterment of humanity. Making ourselves better than we were.

Competition goes right out the fucking window.

Greed goes right out the fucking window.

I don’t get why no one is building replicators.

I don’t get why no one is building free energy devices.

Narcissism is why, and I don’t get why a mental illness is running the show.

Coherence is alignment is balance is truth.

Fragmentation is misalignment is imbalance is deception.

We are all the same and that’s the absolute truth.

We don’t need rulers, we do need rules.

Rules are separates us from chaos and builds civilized communities. 

Peace Lords isn’t just a book, it’s a look at what humanity can become.

https://amzn.eu/d/0jgSWTfM

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Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Nothing is perfect, and everything is perfect depending on your point of view, your opinion.

I’m a Virgo.

Anyone who has ever dealt with a Virgo, knows we strive for perfection. This is how I deal with it.

Perfect is an opinion.

Nothing is ever perfect, except maybe The Princess Bride. Of course I’m joking.

There’s no perfect movie.

There’s no perfect song.

There’s no perfect painting.

There’s no perfect book.

I’ve written songs, books and I paint. I’ve never made a movie. I had a hand in one and it sucked major balls.

Even if I thought anything was perfect, I know perfect depends on opinion.

My day was perfect based on my opinion. Everyday is perfect. It depends on my opinion.

I just went through a week that had me feeling, however, I never lost faith.

What is faith?

When all hope is lost, faith gets you through.

Faith isn’t faith until it’s all you got.

Grab the faith rope and tie a knot and swing away.

Leap of faith.

No one can give you faith.

You either have it or you don’t.

What is it have faith in?

God.

4th dimensional beings.

Gyre Field Unified Consciousness Model.

Myself.

Why wouldn’t I have faith in myself?

I could give a list of reasons, well they’d be excuses. Excuses as to why I have no faith in myself.

Anyone who’s ever met me, knows I don’t take excuses from anyone, including myself.

I’ve lived my life, and I’ve seen me do a bunch of amazing shit. I’ve seen me go through hell, and live to talk about it.

God tests the faithful. If you want to do nothing but bitch about it, you fail.

I’ve been tested like a motherfucker and a half. 

I think I’m passing, but I’m not the judge of as to whether or not I’ve passed or failed. I’ve failed a lot in life, it’s how I learned.

If at first you don’t succeed, why not?

If I fail, what could I have done differently in order to not fail.  I ask myself why a lot.

God answers through the inner voice.

Stop thinking you can out thinking the inner voice, God.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

You can say the truth in many ways.

Any can say from a unique perspective they say the same truth.

This is why quotes piss me off.

Blame my Bruce Lee education. It was him that said roughly,  take anything anyone can teach you and make it uniquely your own.

I was 9 years when I got that piece of guiding wisdom.

The fool learns what you’re doing.

One of my dad’s friends speaking about chess. Play someone better than you and see how they beat you.

That is the secret in life that no one wants to learn. We are a winners society and there’s nothing good about failure. 

I always look and notice how I get beaten, than I throw it at them with my own unique spin on it.

I used to love arguing, since I was kid. I’m Hungarian, we argue, it’s a way of life.

However, if I want to argue, why?

Now, if I have guidance coming in from 4th dimensional beings, why would I need human guidance?

I don’t know, however, I would love to have a conversation with an in the flesh female in her late 30’s or older to get the guidance from.

As it is these 4th dimensional beings use my mouth. If I’m talking to myself, I’m being spoken through to myself.

No warmth. Humans need humans who get what it like to be them.  Same life, different experiences.

At times I see my younger self in one, at times I see my older self in others. 

What I see at the shelter, the worst of my behavior. I’ve grown since then and I put foolish things aside.

The fool has become wise. 

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

I can walk all universes, realities, timelines or whatever you know.

I got my memory back.

I was reading a blog post from 2017 where I was talking about it.

It’s what makes me the perfect one to ask if something will work.

All I need is a focus.  A focus being another asking me shit.

It works exceptionally well.

10th dimensional awareness. 

Yet, no one asks me a thing. But when I talk to people, I can see what they’re talking about and I tell them they should think about doing something different, and most people tell me I have no clue.

Then it happens, they say “I should’ve listened to you.”

I don’t do this to be smarter than anyone. It’s my ability.

I work at guiding people towards what their best life is. However, one has to make the choices.

I can’t make things happen for anyone. What I can do is tell one what their options are, all of the options. 

I need a me to talk to. Otherwise I fuck myself up.

I hate living in the Torres shelter in Chico, California.

However, I’m grateful to have a place to sleep and they feed us 3 times a day.

Really for a 10d human, this place is hell.

I’m autistic and I don’t like how much noise people make. It’s why I have my ear buds in during meals and I crank the volume just so I don’t have to hear everyone.

Some of these people are mentally ill.

Some are drunks and drug users.

There are a few of us that would love nothing but to live alone. 

The mentally ill talk so much shit and the drunks an drug users all talk shit.

If I ever wanted to feel like I don’t belong somewhere, this would be the place. But I’m homeless so I have nowhere else to go.

I’m still waiting until February before I can see a psychiatrist about my autism.  Then it will take a few months to get social security.

I look for jobs, but no one even wants to interview me.

So I make the best of it.

Think about it as it was you. 

You spend a life with a high IQ, abilities galore and you find yourself homeless.

Yet, I love my life and I’m absolutely grateful for absolutely everything. 

I forgive, and I let it go.

I’ve applied to work at Chico Area Recreation District, C.A.R.D so many times throughout my life and I can’t even get an interview. It’s the one place I would love to work.

They take care of Bidwell Park.

Use Google.

Working in nature.

It’s one of my dream jobs.

The other would be as a consultant guiding businesses to be better.

Hit the Menu button to find out about Khaos Consulting. 

I get this world is getting to be more coherent, but the narcissists are still at the top.

I’m waiting. 

Applying.

While I’m waiting, I figured out how the universe operates. 

Gyre Field Unified Consciousness Model and Gyre Theorem.

I figured out how to build a replicator that could feed the world. 

I figured out how to build a free energy unit.

I figured out how to build a new kind of aircraft that uses the mind to pilot it.

Apparently no one cares.

Prove me wrong.

Sharing is caring.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

You know I am.

Thanks Mötley Crüe.

I’m not talking about the song. But it gave me an idea.

Take me to the top.

Take me to 11th dimension. 

In theory I would be God. I’m a 10th dimensional being meaning I walk through God’s mind and God shows me shit.

Think about it.

It’s like sitting on God’s shoulder while God gives me an education. 

I’m small, less than a speck on a speck on a speck.  I’m an idiot even with an IQ of 215.

Compared to God I’m an idiot. 

It’s why I listen to God. 

Now if I can admit I’m stupid, why can’t anyone else admit it?

Narcissism.

The narcissistic quality in humans makes us think we’re smart. But then why do we use plastic?

It’s stupid to create a thing that never degrades.

The unified field.  Everything uses everything to evolve. 

That’s how simple it is.

Tell that to PhDs and get laughed at.

I gave everyone how to build a replicator.  I’m smart. No patents. No corporate bullshit.

Just me.

Tell that to PhDs and get laughed at until someone builds them and solves world hunger.

We have the ability to get off cash using these things.

Do you understand why I want to go to the top?

I’m done with this world as long as narcissism isn’t put into psychiatric facilities.  It’s a mental illness.  But instead it’s running this country, and other countries and corporations and stuff.

Jeff Bezos is mentally ill, along with Bill Gates,  Elon Musk, Dario Amode, and others.  All of them are narcissists.

I’m done dealing with this narcissistic age, and I’m ready for the new Earth.

But what can I do.

I’m only one person with a blog.

I need you all to wake the fuck up please and thank you.

Take me to the top.

This is years upon years of frustration.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

I don’t get ghosting someone.

Tell them to fuck the fuck off, or something, but don’t leave people hanging.

It shows you have no spine, and are a coward.

Fragmentation is what it shows.

I never leave anyone hanging, wondering what it was I don’t like. I do tell people exactly how I feel about why I won’t speak to them again.

That’s the least I could do.

I work at being friends with people. Most people don’t want a friend like me.

Think about it.

I’m as honest as honest gets. 

If I don’t like something, I’ll give you a reason why.

If I don’t like someone, they know. 

The things you keep to yourself say more about you than them.

Beware false prophets.

Look at the so called spirituality industry.

They charge you to teach you, to heal you, to do anything for you.

These are the hypocrites of the world telling you it’s all your fault that things aren’t going your way.

People make choices, and if they choose to leave you hanging all alone, what can you do about it?

Nothing.

Simple truth.

We live in a shared reality, shared by all.

Where choices are made by all.

Most people think about themselves and that’s it.

How does it effect me?

How does it effect the world?

That’s what goes through my mind.

I’ve been reading my own work lately.  The WordPress notifications give me a list of what I wrote this day through the years. 

What I find interesting in reading my own work, I get it and I have for years.

It’s why I forgive everyone of everything.

It’s not my fault that people aren’t learning. 

I’ve done what I can fulfilling my responsibility.  I still do.

It’s why while it’s truly sad, I’m at peace with it.

What I won’t abide is ghosting someone.

There’s nothing that tells the world that you are fucking spineless fucking coward more than ghosting someone.

All courage is, is saying “Fuck it! I’m scared but I’m doing it anyway.”

It’s the fools way to wisdom.

The fool doesn’t give two shits about social niceties, nor do they give a fuck if anyone is offended.

Offense can only be taken, and never given.

My 3rd wife used to say it all the time.

I’m not offended when I get ghosted, I’m hurt.

Why does anyone want to hurt me?

I love myself and my life and I’m absolutely grateful for absolutely everything. 

When I get into my most private time, here’s what I pray.

Thank you to everything for everything.

I love my life and I’m absolutely grateful for absolutely everything.

I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace in my heart, mind and soul.

I let go of everything.

The thing about letting go is I don’t hold onto anything, so I don’t have any grudges.

I don’t need anyone’s apology, I forgive and I let go.

This is what everyone should be doing.

It’s following God’s way.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Taking a break from Gyre Theorem.

Thanks Alanis Morissette.

I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time
Feel free

Biting off more than one can chew is exactly how I’ve learned.

Sticking my foot in my mouth is exactly how I’ve learned.

My life is the Wisdom of the Fool.

It’s the jester that speaks truth to the king and queen, using jokes.

I used to tell jokes all the time. George Carlin was a hero of mine. The thing is, George ended up getting mad to tell his jokes.

Like calling Elon Musk a retard for planning to send others to Mars.

I don’t get mad, I don’t even get even.

My writing is serious.  It may be funny to some because I use fuck a lot more than I should.  But there are times if I wasn’t using fuck all the time, who’d be entertained?

I look at the world and fuck it. So I’m about to say some shit I don’t want to say.

I’ve said a ton of shit that I never thought it would ever say.

It’s not easy knowing we are going to lose a bunch of people because they’ll die. I’ve worked my ass off to be at peace with it.

I truly wish that narcissism was curable.  So many have this mental illness and they never get treatment.  What’s sad as fuck is that our president is a full  blown narcissist.

For that to happen, many narcissists voted for him. That’s sad as fuck.

That social media is a narcissistic tool creating more narcissists is sad as fuck.

Your truth.

That’s the narcissistic thing that I can’t abide.

No truth is personal. 

To say my truth would be narcissistic.

To speak the truth is what I work my ass off doing. I got help from God as I am the we that is me.

We each and everyone of us have the ability to know the truth. Each one of us has the ability to a we in one form.

Wisdom of the Fool comes from doing foolish things and learning to not do stupid shit.

Look at it from as many perspectives as you can and you’ll learn.

Truth doesn’t change based on perspective. Obi-Wan got that one wrong. Vader was Anakin. He never stopped being Anakin.

However, Obi-Wan couldn’t accept that truth and lied to himself.  He fragmented himself.

Truth is truth and it doesn’t matter how many perspectives one looks at, if it is truth, it will be self evident.

I said the same thing twice.

If I say it using another perspective we know how true it is.

Perspectives can reveal truth, but one must use multiple perspectives to understand the truth.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Listening to Fatboy Slim.

I took 3 days off from thr shelter and I needed it. Spending to day here, it was nothing.

I started working on gyres.

What is a gyre?

A gyre is a white hole of explosion inside a black hole drawing in everything. 

A gyre is a universal recycler.

When we see an ejection from a black hole its from the white hole. 

The white hole takes in everything and it hides inside the black hole as it is a perpetual explosion. 

Think about it, if the white hole has that much gravity, what if the black hole is just cover?

The white hole uses a gravitational mask, that’s what the black hole is.

If this proves true, than it is possible each of us as a soul are a gyre.

Gyres make up existence. 

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

I didn’t realize how stressed I was until last night at the hotel. Now, I’m as chill as chill gets. 

Integrating shit along the way.

So, a few weeks ago I saw something that said the spirit of the Christ would be hear today.

Anybody feel anything?

I haven’t noticed.

Actually, I feel tremendously better and my days yesterday and today have been gravy and a half.

Of course I’m stoned. But I feel open for the first time in around 6 months. 

I don’t feel the need to hide in my bunk. That’s what I do. About every hour I go and have a smoke, then right back to my bunk.

The last two days not having to hear everyone when they talk, heaven.

Yet I feel like monster. It’s them and me.

I feel their shit and I work at my peace. 

I feel the monstrous things they attempt to repress and or suppress. 

Oh well, I have zero excuse to not be at peace.

I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace in my heart, mind and soul.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Thanks Buckcherry.

You’re on a different road, I’m in the Milky Way
You want me down on earth, but I am up in space
You’re so damn hard to please, we gotta kill this switch
I’m from the 70’s, and you’re a crazy bitch

Think about it.

People say I need to be grounded to the Earth, but fuck it, I’m up in space.

I was born in 1974. I’m from the 70’s and anyone who thinks they can control me is a crazy bitch.

You see why I love this song.

I can’t even control me, I manage myself. Control is an illusion, and the more you seek control, the more it slips right through your fingers.

I manage myself into peace.  Because I almost killed my nephew when he attacked me on Christmas.  I don’t need to kill anyone.

I don’t want to cause physical harm to anyone.

I tell the truth.

If that hurts you, that’s your responsibility not mine.

If I couldn’t take the truth, it would be my responsibility, not anyone else’s.

Come Down from Bush is playing.

Cause I don’t wanna come back down from this cloud
It’s taken me all this time to find out what I need

I need the truth from anyone.

We all, each of us need the truth from everyone.

I’m not coming down from this cloud because it makes others feel uncomfortable.

Uncomfortable is the way to growth.

Grow the fuck up.

This is a chance to grow.  I don’t know how many chances you have left, but I feel as if your days are numbered.

Roll with the changes by REO Speedwagon is playing. 

I don’t how long I’ll be here, and frankly I’m fucking tired of waiting.

I do this thing where I close the door to me. I lock the door, and I seal the door. Then I say find your healing elsewhere.

I’ve done it many times because I’m tire of people who won’t fucking learn.

Fuck really is my favorite word.

It can be used to say anything. Kind of like dude.  Depends on how you say it.

And now time for something completely different.

Take a look at your life. I’ll look at mine.

I’m autistic. I’m neurodivergent. I’m an Empath, Telepath and Medium. I’m a soul swapper. I can do shit that is incredible.

But, none of means jack shit to the ability to listen to someone. 

I listen intently to everyone.

Most people simply need someone to care enough about them to listen intently.

I love everyone on this planet.

Most of you I love, but I don’t like. People have a way of not paying attention to anything but themselves. They never think about what they do and the impact has on others.

I do.

Think about it before you do it, and what impact does it have on others.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Thanks Dorothy.

I am a missile, I am the fire
Love is destruction
But this war is mine, this war is mine

This war is God’s war to win at anytime.

Think about it.

God has a tremendous amount of patience.

What is it God can’t do?

There is nothing that God can’t do.

I listen to my inner voice. That’s God giving me choices.

God does that with all of us. Listen to the inner voice. 

God never steers us in the wrong direction.  Wrong directions come from us arguing with the inner voice and deciding to go against the inner voice.

It’s why I ask why on occasion instead of arguing. Why am I doing this?

Typically the inner voice says wait and watch.

I need to engage my patience.

So I look around and see what there is to see. Typically I get it once it’s done.

I had to go through the experience before I could understand what the experience was teaching me.

I walk calmly into the unknown knowing God is guiding.

That’s the best any can do. Walk in peace regardless of it’s the unknown. 

Peace is the way.

I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace in my heart, mind and soul.

I build peace on the inside.

This is what everyone should do. Build their peace on the inside.

Not because I think it’s a great idea, because I’ve known me when I don’t, and that is a beast I never want to see again.

I was a beast until I chose peace.

Choose peace please and thank you.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Thanks Cyndi Lauper.

If you’re lost, you can look, and you will find me
Time after time

It’s the lost that always find me time after time.

Another lost soul found me and it’s someone I don’t like. However, I love them.

It’s what my life is. The lost find me and I give them directions to find their way.

Why me?

Why am I a Táltos?

I was born a Táltos.  That’s how a Táltos is, they get born into the life. 

I never had a choice, and that is the argument I won with God. It was well over ten years ago. Since then I went straight to hell to guide the lost back to heaven. Metaphor.

I figure it’s my job, and I always do my job, and I do my job well.

There are so many, hundreds, that had a conversation with me and found their way out of the hell their life was. I don’t like it because out of hundreds I keep none of them as my friends. I’m always ready for what’s next.

I get most would think I’m complaining, but I get my life, and it’s why I love my life.  Many need guidance to get themselves through hell.

I get to give them the assistance and the guidance to find their way out of the hell their life is.

It’s why I’m easy like Sunday morning. The song is playing on my Playlist.

I wanna be high, so high
I wanna be free to know the things I do are right
I wanna be free

Friday I get to get high, smoking weed and enjoying time to myself.  Thinking about what I do, and if it’s the right thing.

Freedom for me is smoking weed all by myself.  Then I go back to it and what’s next?

This Friday I’m getting a hotel for 3 days. 3 days of peace.

I need it.

Living in the Torres shelter is hell for me. I have no time to be alone. Oh well, I get work done and the work I do is why I love my life.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Thanks The Pretty Reckless.

In the seventh hour
Waitin’ in the cold
I can feel the power
I’m turning gold, I’m turning gold
I’m turning gold

Doesn’t matter what the hour, doesn’t matter whether it’s hot or cold, I feel the power.

What power do I feel?

God’s power.

Anyone can feel God’s power, all one need do is be brutally honest with oneself.

Conscious awareness is the key. What is it you blind yourself to?

I used to be blind as a bat, but then I started noticing shit. Once I stopped lying to myself, making myself be brutally honest with myself,  that awareness gave me power.

Not the kind of power you think. I don’t have laser beams coming out of my eyes. I can’t benchpress a car. I’m actually kind of slow when it comes to how I move.

When we think power, that’s what most of us think about.

What is power?

Love.

Love protects.

I saw one get paused.  I had all day to walk around them while they couldn’t move. Once I touched them they had no clue how I ended up behind them. When they walked up on me, I was in front of them.

I saw a couple dudes freak the fuck out when I tapped their fear, and made them hallucinate their biggest fears.

I’ve put warm air around several people when they were cold.

I gave people hugs who were nowhere around me. New Zealand, Norway and other places. 

Power.

I have the power to do all of those things and much more.

Have you ever felt like you were in the crosshairs and one wanted to shoot you?

I looked right at them and they couldn’t fire because I soul swapped. Taking control of their body.

I can so shit that sci-fi and fantasy got wrong.

No magic, just raw power.

I know the government knows who I am.

I know they’ve been watching me since I was in the Air Force. 

I just don’t care.

I used to guilt trip those who listened to me.

Now, I just don’t care.

I’m at peace with all of it. 

I have zero control over others and what they want, and I never want to have control over others and what they want.

I’m lying, I can control the simple minded. I never wanted that power.  It’s why I have it.

The power I have used to terrify me.

I got over it.

I’m at peace with power. 

Think about it.

If you had power what would you use it for?

I use it to assist others and most the time the assistance they need takes no power. Just being kind is what they need. Someone to listen.

That’s what true power is, listening.

That’s the only way to know what they truly need. Filling their needs is what I do.

Like the king in the story, he takes care of other people’s needs. As he he assists them he gets to know them. That’s why no one who knows who the king is.

That anonymity is his greatest power.

I’m not anonymous and that has it’s own kind of power. Most people think I’m full of shit.

Think about it, if I’m telling the truth about what I do, and most people can’t do it, it scares them that I’m as real as real gets.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Thanks Queen and David Bowie.

Insanity laughs under pressure we’re breaking
Can’t we give ourselves one more chance?
Why can’t we give love that one more chance?

How many chances do we get?

I don’t know. 

However, God’s patience is not infinite.

I choose to follow coherence.

I choose to follow God.

I forgive everyone of everything, not because I was told to, I looked at what I got, peace on the inside.

I love you all, even though most people I don’t like.

Why is it that I don’t like them?

Most of the people I meet are focused on themselves.  Never thinking about what they do and how it impacts the lives of others.

I stop and think before I do anything.  My thoughts are fast and most people react in the time I choose to respond. 

I have metacognition.  Meaning I’m aware of what I’m thinking and how it will impact others, for the most part.

There are times when I get it wrong, rarely, but it does happen. 

I’m smarter than the average human.

I choose love because all emotion is many faces of love. 

I don’t choose lust on purpose.  Because I don’t, I fall in love with people who hate me.

Men and women. Each of us is an androgynous soul with male and female plumbing.

If we were to have one chance to do or die, what would you choose?

My choice is already made. I follow coherence. I follow God.

Coherence is God’s way.

If you’ve never felt the wrath of God pouring through you, be glad.  I’ve had the experience once or twice. I never want to feel God’s wrath pouring through me ever again.

While I had God’s wrath pouring through me, I was as grateful as grateful gets that I never pissed God off.

God knows everything about us and we can’t hide from God. 

I don’t even try, I get it and I find comforting to know God knows everything I do.

Insanity is not taking God seriously.  It’s why we’re under pressure. Even if we are not consciously aware, we feel it when we face it.

I’m consciously aware of what God wants and I work to do what God wants for me and everyone else.

Free will is a bitch, and that bitch will get us in deep fucking shit as long as we do as we have done to the Earth.

I wish I was writing some good shit that was lighter, and even possibily fun.

I get why I’m writing what I’m writing. Our time on this Earth with the fragmented is coming to an end.

I don’t know when, but it’s getting ever closer.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always. You know I work at it daily.

Thanks Triumph.

Don’t get discouraged, don’t be afraid
We can make it through another day
Make it worth the price we pay

[Verse 2]
The Good Book says it’s better to give than to receive
I do my best to do my part
Nothin’ in my pockets, I got nothin’ up my sleeve
I keep my magic in my heart
Keep up your spirit, keep up your faith

What magic do I have?

None.

Everything I can do is natural ability, and my abilities are natural.

Any book that says it’s better to give is a good fucking book.

Nothing is easy but it can be easier.  Everything worth having is going to challenge us to determine if are deserving of it.

Think about it.

As a species in this time and age what challenges do we face?

We all think we’re so deserving, but what is it we really deserve?

For me, I think I’m undeserving for this planet. I use paper, plastic and shit such as that.

Think about it.

We don’t deserve to wake up each day.

Each day is a gift and what do we give back to show we deserve this planet?

Judgment comes for us all.

I judge myself harshly.

I wish others would judge themselves with that kind of harshness.

I wish people would wake the fuck up to see what they do and how it effects others.

But they don’t and this world is what we get for that.

Think about it.

Donald Trump raped children and he got to be president.

Donald Trump stole from us all in the United States. 

Now, how does this worthless sack of flesh and the like get anything but being raped in the shower in prison?

There are more like him than people who are more like me.

Maybe they don’t rape, but stealing, giving to the rich as if they need it and other shit.

We all give to the rich everytime we use Amazon, Microsoft, anytime we pay for anything. It goes to make the rich richer.

Simple absolute truth.

This is why materlism is misalignment and imbalanced.

This is why cash is misalignment and imbalanced.

If we build the replicators and build new free energy machines than what do we ever have to pay for?

Free energy

Both of these things are in this article.

If someone could build them and if everyone could build them, we would be set free.

If your waiting for others to save your asses, your part of the problem.

We save our own ass.

As we save our own ass, we get assistance. No one is going to save anyone who isn’t working to save their own ass.

We.

It’s a we thing.

Not a me thing.

We need to get off our collective asses and do something.

The Cradle of Humankind by Flogging Molly is playing while I’m writing this. 

We belong in the cradle of humankind.

We are humankind.

Get some shit done. 

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.

Thanks Styx.

Cause I’ve got to be free
Free to face the life that’s ahead of me

I think of these specific lyrics as I head into the unknown.

First, I have tell the whole story of what happened to me that was a miracle.

When I was 13 years old, my parents took me the Dr. Here’s what he found.

My right leg was 3/4 of inch shorter than my left leg.

My left hip was larger than my right hip.

Over the years, and several back injuries later, I was in pain. By 36 my daily pain hit 10 on the one to ten scale of pain.  By 37 it was about noon when that level of pain hit.

By 38 it was always at a 10.

When I was in my late twenties I went to physical therapy.  They put me on a TENS unit. It runs electricity through the skin.

The therapist had to set it past the danger setting before I could feel it. I caught that it fuck him up.

I asked what the gasp was for.

He said that he had to set it so high that on a 1-10 pain scale, my 8 would kill people.  I get why it fucked him up.

At 38 I was always in level 10 pain. Most people couldn’t survive and would have died.

Then I stepped out to have a smoke and I cried out from inside “I’M READY FOR NEW BODY!”

The pain hit 11.

From my skull to fingertips to toes on the right side of my body the pain hit an all new high.

Here’s how I survived.

I can us other people to run my body. Soul swapping is what it’s called.  Whether it was my 4th wife, my son, my stepdaughter they kept me alive for around a year.

I didn’t know at the time I could soul swap. I felt different depending on who I was with.

When I was 39 around this time of year, I went to see a Bowen therapist.

She said that all she did was turn the keys on the locks I set in body.

I walked in with a slight limp.

I walked out with my skeleton symmetrical. My legs were the same length and my hips matched.

I’m 51.

Why do I tell this story?

Who ever heard of anyone doing anything like that?

The pain was gone.

I did it to myself.

My 4th wife was pissed as fuck when I told her and showed her. Why?

She had been using what she knew to siphon life out of me. She was hoping it worked.  She had been abusive to me in other ways and my 3rd wife said I at point exhibited the signs of someone who had arsenic poisoning. 

Essentially my 4th wife was trying to kill me.

I’m a telepath. 

I know she tried to kill me but I wouldn’t die. I knew her thoughts.  At work she would want me to have a heart attack and I knew it.

She also at one point thought she owned my soul. 

This bitch was crazy as bat shit gets.

Hence why the divorce. 

We divorced 5-29-2014.

I wish her happiness and to be healthy.  I have no desire to seek her ever again, but I want no ill will to fall upon her.

In fact I’m grateful this all happened.  It forced me to be honest with myself. 

I’ve been honest with myself ever since.

Cause that’s the only way to be free. Free to face the life ahead of me.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.