Midnight Rider by the Allman Brothers Band is playing.

When I think about the song, it always puts a video reel in my mind. Things I have done, things I shouldn’t have done, learning experiences.

I wish I hadn’t had to learn some of what I did. The people who were part of it, I’m pretty sure they could have done without the experience.

How often do we think, and then put others first?

I think back to my dad. He always bought flowers just because. He saw them and he knew his wife would like them. Thinking of her first.

Thinking he’ll get head for sure.

I did the same thing for women in my life, and the head I got tells me why my dad did it.

I get no one wants to think about me getting head.

The point is, when one feels appreciated, the extra mile ain’t extra.

I used to be the guy he did gallows humor, take fucked up shit and make it funny.

It’s been a while, but it’s coming back to me.

Looking at the next 4 years, I figure it’s better to laugh than to go insane getting angry.

I’m practicing.