I woke up and I said “I woke up today and the rest is gravy.”

I should’ve said the rest is the rests gravy.

I started my day walking an hour to work and I didn’t have my sun glasses. My eyes are extra sensitive to light. On a cloudy day I wear my shades. On a rainy day I figure I can do without them.

Oh how wrong I was. As I was walking I could see blue skies, I was about half way through the walk to Sarge’s.

By the time I got there, the sun was out and it was killing my eyes.

Sarge is a disabled Army veteran.

I use Instacart to get his groceries. Today he had to wait until after I left before they got there. I was annoyed.

Actually by this time I was irritated. Annoyance happened before I got there.

Then it rained like hell and I did need to walk. And I was grateful that my brother was out and about and picked my ass up.

He had been having a heart attack over his mom. We went to his place.

I listened and I listened.

And it seems we kind of got some shit figured out. His mom sleeps through the day and then she gets lively around 5 to 6 pm.

She used to work all day and then at night she used to be a dance instructor.

This is why she sleeps during the day and gets lively at night. It’s what her life was for 50 years.

Then Sarge called and he didn’t get the ham he ordered that was our Christmas dinner. In the morning I’m going to go and get a ham for our Christmas dinner.

I know I yelled when I got off the phone with Sarge. My brother was taken a back. I don’t yell. My brother has seen me pissed, and he knew I was pissed.

I calmed down rather quickly. I used to be quick to anger and quick to cool down.

It took all day for me to feel angry.

That’s an improvement. I used to take shit like this all the time, however I can allow myself to get angry when I look at the situation and if most people would get angry, I get it.

However, my anger has levels and I’ve said this before. A few days or weeks ago.

I live now, and I don’t worry about what happened and I don’t worry about what will happen. I focus on the here and now.

For the shit I can do, I have as fucked up time living life as anyone else. Just because I have shit that most people can’t do, doesn’t mean on the basic level of human being I don’t do fucked up shit.

I think or the story of Saul/Paul from the bible.

The dude stoned christians. Then God said you will do my work.

What are gonna do when God says…..

God is in everything.

However, if we had no idea what technology was, we would believe others were gods.

That’s where we get religion. Posers pretending to be God.

You don’t have to be a sinner, but it helps. How else can you give guidance to people if you have never sinned?

It’s how we all learn.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.