As I walked in from a smoke, you guessed it this is what was playing.

And as I heard it, I got it.

When I was 17 my parents signed the waiver the got me into the Air Force.

Until last year I had never been homeless. I get it.

I just ordered a bunch of stuff from temu.

Most of it is stuff that will be used repeatedly.

I’ve been wearing the same 8 outfits for more than a year.

My wardrobe used to be designer. I had 4 leather jackets and when I dressed myself I looked shit hot.

Now, I look like a homeless dude.

I used to go into a store at around 2 pm and find the sales women and say “I don’t know how to dress myself, can you help me?”

Hence why I always looked good to the women.

This was my twenties, I’m 50 now.

In my youth I wanted to women to notice me. Hence why I made an ass out of myself at every opportunity.

It takes intellect to act stupid.

Goldie Hawn anyone?

Laugh in was a show she was on and she played the dumbest fucking blond ever.

However she has the intellect to never marry Kurt Russell.

She produced some of her films.

She’s smarter than the average man, woman, don’t matter she’s smart as fuck.

What was my point?

At 50, I don’t like to be noticed. Hence why I look like a bum most the time.

I’ve seen life from many sides.

All I know is life goes on with or without you.

I’ve been possessed for over 4 years. How do I describe the suffering I’ve seen done to me by my body with no way to stop it?

If I think about it the possession took years to take me over.

I’m glad I kicked it out.

I’m glad I keep it out.

What was it that possessed me?

I don’t know for sure, however it said it was Satan, Lucifer, Mephistopheles, and others.

How do you trust anything that takes you over?

How do I know for sure what it was that possessed me?

I don’t know.

It feels good to say I don’t know. I am at peace without knowing.

I take care of myself to keep it from happening again.

What I learned for years was nothing I can ever explain, however I understand it.

I get why 42 is the answer.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.