This is where I left off.

I’m a jr.

The reason for this is my father knew his work wouldn’t be finished, so I got to have the same name, but the job is different.

My dad never felt he was good enough to do what he was called to do.

This is where I broke the generational bullshit.  I understand not a single one of us isnt any better than anyone else.

I accepted my calling.

I gave my son his own name. I wouldn’t do to my son what my dad had done to me.

I get it. It wasn’t a conscious decision for my name. It was a high self decision. 

My higher self, all higher selves are the same God. 

Why wouldn’t I forgive my father for my life?

In fact I’m grateful as fuck for my life.

I healed more than one generational issue.

My son.

I used his nickname to get his attention when he would act up or out as any child will do.

Instead of punishing him, I reminded him who he was. The Dude, and The Dude says “Please,and thank you, work at being friends with people and whatever I caught him doing. “

My dad used a belt across my ass. My mom used wooden spoons and a hair brush.

As I  grew, the belt stayed on, and I got smacked in the face.

His dad and his mom, my dad, they used to beat him.

Their parents used to beat them.

Spare the rod and spoil the child.

Everyone has heard this at least once. And I get i used everyone. Everyone in the universe has heard of it.

Why did I change?

My higher self guided me to do it.

Instead of arguing with my higher self, I listened. 

If one wants something, ask yourself how to get it.

The words you use create the synchronicity that brings it right to you.

I’ve seen it.

I live in a dream location in Chico. I looked when I left and I found this place. When I was ready to move, nearly 6 months later, it was still open.

I get i need to be funded somehow, but I don’t give a shit.

There are people at work i actually like, and they need my assistance with some shit. 

But I get i could be doing more and when that path opens, I’ll walk that path.

Until then, i walk the path i created for myself.

If you need to ask questions, do so, please.