I shouldn’t watch YouTube.

Below is the link for what I was watching.

The marks on my hands, the m’s with the crescent moon, now it says I’m a human angel.

How the fuck do they know?

Then I watched it.

Oh.

Shit.

Fuck.

OK, so I’m a human angel.

It explains a lot of my life.

I got some where that I may or may not jave been before, I meet someone/s. We have an adventure so to speak.

One of these experiences led me to Gina. Not a wife.

For some reason I had to go the the Crazy Horse Saloon in Chico California. I had been standing on the patio and this blonde walked up and needed a light.

What I hadn’t known was that she was eyeing me for a good hour before she walked up.

Needless to say I had a one night stand. Until a few days later, we had a date and we slept together again.

What she had told me was that she wanted to know if she had been that drunk or I was that good.

We broke up a year and a half later. I’m that good.

Now, she had 3 teenagers that I became step father to. I took it seriously. 

Gina also introduced me to my opioid addiction. She was an addict herself.

She had a reason. Ulcerative Colitis.

The pain she was in was unbearable. It broke my heart. Then I got used to it.

That’s nothing anyone should get used to.

However, I did for my own survival.

I couldn’t take the heart break. So, I grew apathetic. I did all the stuff I would normally do, but it had  no passion, no compassion.

She broke up with me several times. Even after she moved to Las Vegas. It took her moving out of state for us to finally call it quits.

I learned a tremendous amount in that one relationship. It’s why Gina is always the one i look for in every woman I meet.

Not anymore.

I look at women as who they are.