I never thought my life would be what it is.

I used to think I was stupid.

I used to think I was lazy.

I never thought I would ever make it to 30.

Oh well, I was wrong.

I’m actually really intelligent.

I have ADHD which means what takes others all day hmming and hawing over it, takes me less than half the time.

I’m 51 so that blew that completely put if the water.

The king/queen story comes to mind as I look at how I serve the universe.

Really, no one knows who the fuck I am.

A couple hundred subscribers.  Nearly 9 billion people in the world.

I’m not famous.

Not trying to be famous.

I used to day dream about building something, and everything I tried, tried meaning it was an epic failure of incredible proportions.

I took years of fucking up.

I got a lot of shit right too.

What I fucked up would have fucked up everything I got right.

I’ve been through the fires of hell, metaphor.

However, hell is as real as heaven if you look around and notice.

I see demons go down the street while I sit on my heavenly porch.

Is it metaphor?

Christ said if you look to the sky for heaven, the birds will proceed you. If you look to the ocean the fish will proceed you.

Look the fuck around.

Get the fuck out of the city.

See heaven in everything.

It’s a choice made at the subconscious level.

Until you read this agent of chaos the fucks your world and is high as fuck.

I don’t ever intend to fuck anyone’s world up, I just do. 

Somebody will ask me something and I answer truthfully. 

This is what fucks people up.

They ask.

What do they want me to do, lie to them, fuck that noise. 

I use fuck an awful lot. It truly is my favorite word. I really enjoyed the documentary made about my favorite word.

Purity has nothing to do with language.

You can be a pure soul,  and say shit, ass, motherfucker, cunt, tits, and other various words that others think are obscene.

Their mental.

If a word, fuck. Not aimed at you, but you hear it and it offends you, you are mentally imbalanced. Seek professional help immediately. 

Who created swear words and why did they  make them swear words?

This is a question I’ve had since I was 4 or 5.

As I wrote the question I thought, Gemini.

However, I don’t like using it for shit even though most of my articles get critiqued by Gemini.

After I publish.

I don’t want anyone fucking with what I write, well I write several people in a post.

I channel your soul. 

Get the fuck over it.