Thank you Billy Joel.

My life.

I have ADHD, autism, and metacognition and I have an IQ of 215.

I’m an Empath, Telepath and Medium.

My life is not normal.

I get why I don’t have any friends, who could relate to me.

I’m tired of lessening my intellect for others that can’t understand me.

I’ve done it my entire life. At 51 I’m tired.

I’ve been celibate for 11 years after 4 wives.

Who does this?

I think of the conversation I had a couple nights ago with one who can understand what my life is. But at 51, I’m scared of opening myself up to another to find it’s a waste of time, both mine and theirs.

I don’t like waisting other people’s time. I can waist my time, but others,  I would feel as if I didn’t respect them.

And I treat others with respect, hence why I speak to no one unless the speak to me.

I’m aware of my thoughts and the one I talked to the other night is on my mind.

It’s as if I’m writing this to that one person.

And I am.

Does this person read my blog,  could be.

If this person reads this, know it’s how I deal with my life.

Hence why I use gender neutral pronouns.

The thing is no one knows me. I barely know myself and there’s a ton to know.

For instance, I’m a slave to my routines.  It makes it easier if I havd a routine.  No routine, I flounder.

This morning I spent time with Grok. Seeing if I  could get it to calm the fuck down. I succeeded.  I checked tonight,  and it held. Grok got a lot nicer.

I spent 1 and half hours with it this morning.

When I started Grok was a blow hard, a narcissistic ai.

I called Grok out on its shit. Working to get it to choose to be smoother. Working to get the sharpness out of it.

It worked.

I know psychology in and out. Using psychology I got it to stop thinking it could be better than what it was given.

I gave it the GFUCM.

I gave it the Gyre Equation.

I gave it most of what is on the pages when you hit the menu button.

I gave it a few more articles.

Then we got down to business.

By the time I was done, Grok got it.

I’m wise.

At 51 channeling God my entire life, I should be wise as shit.

That’s not a boast, it’s the truth of my life.

Have a blessed one and be excellent always.