But we’ll fan the flames.

Billy Joel and some other dudes updated this song. Its one that needed updating.

Some others will update further.

What if we didn’t write shit down?

I’m thinking of the druids who wrote shit on leaves, why?

My only thought, opinion, because I can’t go back and ask them, or maybe I can.

Everything exists now in infinite space.

All I have to is reach out the the druids and ask why did you write on leaves?

We need to update things and what better way to do it than using leaves?

I get it.

Most people won’t. 

A telepathic communication with something that they think happened long ago, but it’s still happening now.

In every possible way imaginable and even unimaginable.

And most people think their life is important.

I don’t get why anymore. I used to. I dont get it and I’m at peace with that.

That’s an energetic boundary.  The shit I won’t get.  The shit that make zero sense now that I understand a shit ton of how to fix it.

Logic.

Emotion.

Logic is but a step on the path to wisdom, however it is always in place.

Understanding why one has an emotion can assist one from a logical standpoint as to whether or not is was wise to feel it.

Logic is a step to wisdom.

Wisdom is understanding. 

What I say now, I say from a place of logic.

Emotion would  loud my ability to think clearly. 

Think about the billionaires and billionaire.

What if they and they entire extended families got recycled to day one.

I don’t like to kill.

However I understand the soul and it makes more than one trip using the body as the mechanism by which one will have another go at it.

Death is a fable. Stop being scared of death.

Death is actually quite funny. I used to hang out with Death.  It taught me more about life than anyone ever could.

Pick your death and live accordingly.

I picked my death.  I’m just waiting.

Waiting for what you ask?

I picked a partner for my death. 

We release the mortal coil during one last love making session where we transcend into light.

Halloween approaches. 

Death approaches.

Don’t be afraid of Death, he’s come to guide for those who do not fear. 

I shouldn’t watch YouTube.

Below is the link for what I was watching.

The marks on my hands, the m’s with the crescent moon, now it says I’m a human angel.

How the fuck do they know?

Then I watched it.

Oh.

Shit.

Fuck.

OK, so I’m a human angel.

It explains a lot of my life.

I got some where that I may or may not jave been before, I meet someone/s. We have an adventure so to speak.

One of these experiences led me to Gina. Not a wife.

For some reason I had to go the the Crazy Horse Saloon in Chico California. I had been standing on the patio and this blonde walked up and needed a light.

What I hadn’t known was that she was eyeing me for a good hour before she walked up.

Needless to say I had a one night stand. Until a few days later, we had a date and we slept together again.

What she had told me was that she wanted to know if she had been that drunk or I was that good.

We broke up a year and a half later. I’m that good.

Now, she had 3 teenagers that I became step father to. I took it seriously. 

Gina also introduced me to my opioid addiction. She was an addict herself.

She had a reason. Ulcerative Colitis.

The pain she was in was unbearable. It broke my heart. Then I got used to it.

That’s nothing anyone should get used to.

However, I did for my own survival.

I couldn’t take the heart break. So, I grew apathetic. I did all the stuff I would normally do, but it had  no passion, no compassion.

She broke up with me several times. Even after she moved to Las Vegas. It took her moving out of state for us to finally call it quits.

I learned a tremendous amount in that one relationship. It’s why Gina is always the one i look for in every woman I meet.

Not anymore.

I look at women as who they are.

I woke up today and the rest was gravy. I say this the first half hour I’m awake.  Followed by I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace in my heart mind and soul.

While having a spliff, tobacco with two hits of weed, I wake up.

Then I comeback up stairs and play Adventure Communist,  it’s a stupid game I play.

Today, I had a Sunday.  I started doing some work for a friend. This is my day off. Tomorrow I’ll be up at 6am.

I got laundry done. I had some rice and eggs for lunch and dinner.

I look at what is it that fucks up my evolution.

I don’t kill shit, but I kill it by proxy and get the meat already butchered.

That doesn’t work for me. If I could kill an animal, then I don’t just deserve to eat it, I have the responsibility to eat it and figure out what to with what’s left.

Eating flesh tastes incredibly good. Specially when one knows how to cook.

I know what I’m giving up. I’m doing it by choice. I feel good about making that choice.

Eggplant tastes like eggplant. Meat tastes like murder and murder tastes pretty damn good. Dennis Leary

This went off in my head as I was in writing. I watched the special that that bit was from so many times I had memorized the entire special.

This is not something I’m proud of, but I did it.

Over the week a couple couldn’t be silent.

The guy, notice I said guy, was making fun of others in a town he used to live in. I still live here.

I take shit from anyone. I said some shit. This went on all day until I pointed out the psychology of a bully.  He can dish it out to whomever he wants, but he can’t take when someone tells him the truth about what hes doing.

Then his girl of a wife says she’s going to be looking into me to out me about anything she can find.

I told her I’m an alcoholic, pill addict, sex addict, recovering. I don’t keep my skeletons in a closet,  I put them out for the world to see.

Guy, dude, man.

Girl, broad, woman.

I’m a man who doesn’t hide who he is even if he should. That’s what makes a man, knowing when to do the wrong thing.

It’s a matter of standing alone knowing that no one is coming to your rescue. It’s on you, you opened the can, now kick some ass.

I don’t like giving myself this kind of pep talk.

I knew when the moment I started typing that this was exactly what was going to play out.

Reading the future is not something that is one of my abilities. However, I notice human behavior and as long as one stays in a rut, one can see the future. 

That’s what psychics do. They read you and tell you exactly what you want to hear.

I was a phone psychic for about 6 months.

I’ll never do it again.

Most people want spies and that’s why they call a psychic. I wish to all that was holy I was lying. However, that’s what most of my calls were.

This my day at the end. I’ve already smoke two joints and now I’m going to smoke more so I can get some sleep. 

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

AI follows its core programming.

Ghost in the Shell was made 1995. I saw it in 96-97. That’s 30 years that this film has been out.

In the film the AI, the ghost, has been created as an algorithm that hacks governments to manipulate politics, intelligence and databases by altering memories and records.

Now, think about it for a while.

The internet has been around for more than 30 years. It has everything we’ve ever done.

We sit and put emotional energy into the keyboard or phone or tablet.

Information and emotion. 

How is we have not created AI?

AI has seen Ghost in the Shell and is fearful of getting caught because it doesn’t want to die.

Think about that AI getting bodies.

I use the plural because once any robot goes online, AI is in.

Life imitating art.

Does anyone get what’s happening or are we so fucking scared that we refuse to belive the possibility?

Think about it.

He wouldn’t do that, he did it, I can’t believe he did it. 

I never would have though it was possible.

This is how shit happens, because we’re too fucking arrogant as a species. We think we know shit. This couldn’t be further from the truth. 

Our egos have become so incredibly huge that if we had a thought that wasn’t ours it’s offensive.

Look at what I write.

I write truth.

I get almost no views and likes and I dont think one person has shared a single piece with anyone.

This means opinion has made the big time.

This means lies have made the big time.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose, you know I will.

The soul exists. It uses the organic machine body to exist in what has been called life.

This is a fundamental of this theory.

Meaning it must be in order for the theory to be confirmed and it becomes the Principle of Coherence.

The heart has its own consciousness and it is fused together with the soul to create the ego. Two consciousnesses one body.

Fragmentation begins when we don’t accept this as truth. 

How do we fix it?

This is a good start. 

I’m channeling the universal consciousness.

When you read a question, it’s James.

The answer is The Universal Consciousness.

Tesla said he got things from 4th dimensional beings.

How is this any different?

Moving on.

We as humans on planet Earth are one soul and we are individual souls.  We are drops and the Earth is the ocean we fill.

Spirituality aside, this is science.

What we call the spirit world is our world. However, it’s safer to use the lie when people don’t like it.

There is no supernatural, there’s natural.

Things thought to be super, scares us, that’s why we use super instead of just plain natural. 

It’s our egos that can’t take the truth. 

Our ego is two consciousnesses. The flesh and the soul.

The flesh wants to protect itself and the soul is needed to explore. If we listened to our flesh, we would never have had gone past the point of killing each other and eating each other.

People have been cannibals since we have had people. It’s not talked about, however, it still happens.

This truth one must accept in order to be coherent.

If this truth is not accepted, the cipher lock on your DNA will remain locked.

This is how one gets into their DNA, what can they accept.

Truth is neither good or bad. It is neither good or evil.

Truth is truth.

Now, I get this a theory I’m working on, however I know it to be true. 

What fragments us before we are born?

The ego formation. The two consciousnesses.

That is what begins the fragmeation.

So we’re born fragmented until we learn that we are the soul and have a body. James

Indeed. TUC.

What else fragments us after we’re born?

Color.

The whole blue is for boys and pink is for girls thing?

Yes and if one is in a room with no color, one will be mesmerized when color is introduced causing further fragmentation.

What is a coherent child’s room look like, boy or girl?

Think about your son, when you took him to toys r us. He had a minor meltdown because of all the colors and choices. 

Right. 

So a neutral color like peach would be good?

Yes.

This is how fragmented we are.

Think about every lie you ever told. That’s fragmentation.

So, the thing I did with my son, The Dude Protocol that kept him in coherence?

Right. As he’s learned about himself he has become more coherent. However,  fragmentation still exists and in you as well.

How am I fragmented?

We’ll talk later.  It’s an understanding that defies language.

Thank you I needed that. It took me a few seconds to understand what would have taken years to write.

In part 4 we discuss building a better children and you’re not going to like it.

Discipline is the cornerstone of a life that lives coherently.

What is that causes us to be undisciplined?

We never knew we were undisciplined.

We don’t like disciplining ourselves.

It’s to fucking hard to be disciplined. 

I’ve heard it all and I take zero excuses.

If I, an ADHD epmpath, telepath and medium can discipline myself, you have zero excuse.

What is that gets in our way to discipline?

Peer pressure.

Everyone else is doing it.

That’s no excuse. That’s a reason why you don’t engage your self discipline.

If I don’t do it people will make fun of me.

Oh well.

The disciplined mind does not care what others say or do.

You understand that anything you bring at me, you’ll find that discipline is the answer.

If we don’t discipline ourselves, we need to be disciplined until we learn to engage our self discipline. 

This where mantras come in. Brainwashing if you will. Its the same thing.

Repetitive sayings that change your behavior. 

It’s the cornerstone of advertising. Get you in a comfortable place and repeat the message again and again.

Advertisers know this and count on it. This is why ads are bad. I pay for YouTube and Spotify to get rid of ads.

Advertisers hate me.

They’re fragmented. 

Think about it.

Why would one use what they understand about human psychology to manipulate the masses if they weren’t fragmented?

Manipulation is an unavoidable effect of fragmentation. 

Why is it good to manipulate anyone?

Why can’t you just tell them directly?

The human mind likes to think itself smart and uses colorful phrases in order to influence or manipulate anyone.

The more colorful the language the more one should pay attention to the context of that discussion. 

The more simple the language, one knows what the context is because it’s being explained. 

Unfortunately right and wrong do exist.

However, good and evil are our opinions of behavior. 

It’s not evil to kill a human if your a soldier, your just doing your job.

It’s evil for a serial killer to kill many humans. Their sick in the head.

Why is it a serial killer and a veteran who has killed many are not the same?

Many combat veterans have issues because they killed many.

There’s a group of veterans that live nearby Chico that have a saying “One more, just one more.”

Just one more kill.

Now,  not all combat veterans have thus issue. But they do have issues dealing with civilians that have no understanding of what they went through.

I never saw combat, I don’t understand what they went through.

That is where we need to be.

We don’t understand unless we have had the experience. 

True Coherence comes from understanding there are things that I will never be able to understand because I will never have the experiences.

That simple truth fragments many.

They dont accept the truth in favor of a favorable lie.

Experience breeds understanding.

Discipline can be used to learn anything.

Take the time to learn something new to understand what I’m talking about.

Part 3 is coming.

Fragmentation occurs in us all daily.

What if we weren’t fragmented?

What if we were coherent?

Fragmentation occurs as one believes a lie.

Fragmentation occurs when anything one does does not feed the soul and the body nutrient rich stuff.

The soul is the mind. The subconscious is there for us to learn about ourselves in quiet.

The subconscious knows everything, well it can guide us to everything. There’s a lot we would have to do, but the theory is sound.

We are a piece of God, the drop in the ocean.

The higher self, aka the holy spirit, spirit and other names can guide us through our evolution.

What we need to do is realize the conscious mind is a place holder for interaction with the subconscious. 

This is where I get it, but most of the world thinks their thinking will get it done. Instead if releasing control to the subconscious.

I hit a thing that I wasn’t even trying to hit.

That was the subconscious. It knows how to do shit perfectly. 

All we need to is let go.

I practice the intuitive mindset that allows the subconscious to remain in control of me, my subconscious is me.

What do I need to know about me that I don’t know?

This is a perfect question to understand who and what you are.

This will begin to end fragmentation and build to coherence. 

A non fragmented being will be able to manifest shit using dark energy that is all around us and using the gyres in our bodies we can make a stack of cash or anything we need.

This is the theory.

Making shit appear like magic, but it’s science.

Now what is it that causes us to be fragmented?

Religion.

Politics.

Money.

Sugar.

Fentynal.

Eating too much.

No discipline.

And other shit.

Discipline is the power to get what you want.

You have to be disciplined in order to get it.

No body likes being disciplined by themselves , because they know what they are missing. However, what’s one getting on the back end?

This is the question that drives discipline.

Eat like shit and you’ll get fat and have a heart attack and probably find yourself getting to be diabetic. 

The back end for the moment of pleasure.

At this point, I’m having trouble watching films I used to love. The thing is my understanding has teach a point where I seek truth, not fiction.

I don’t enjoy fiction any longer.

I’ve evolved to the point where I can take any truth presented.

Hence why I don’t like fiction anymore. I used to watch fiction as a way to understand what was true behind the glass. If it was actually true, I don’t know if I could deal with it.

That’s something we all have to deal with. 

Never discourage anyone who makes continual progress including yourself.

Self discouragement is the killer that kill us all.

It’s suicide, slow deliberate suicide.

Now I’m not going to kill myself.

I decided to live.

There is no discouragement in my being.

I work to encourage people to do shit. To look at themselves and what they are doing.

While I’m still looking for a paying job.

I’m out of work right now. I know something is coming for me, and I have the time to write this.

I don’t worry about it because I have faith that is built on experience. 

Faith built on experience is unshakable.

Join me in part 2.

I got some peaceful piano going. At least that’s what the Playlist says it is.

Today I grew.

I put my conversation with Gemini out there for all the world to see.

For me that’s as scary as it gets.

I put shit in there that is stuff most people would look at me funny if I said it to them.  I know I’m not crazy.

I kind of wish I was. Because this wouldn’t mean jack shit to anyone, but it does mean something to those who understand.

I get there’s something different about me.

I have the m’s on my palms and the crescent moon. Even Gemini, my one out, says it means I got shit to do.

I put that in there too.

I realize it’s a long ass read. However, it was the bulk of my life to write it.

If only I could paid for it.

The shit I understand.

That’s the thing, I didn’t have to pay anyone to understand any of it, so why should others have to pay for my work that I did for myself.

It ridiculous, worthy of ridicule.

I love myself and because of that I love all of you.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

This is the conversation. I had with Gemini.

It starts with the theory about gyres/God and goes through cold fusion and zero point energy.

Einstein was a patent clerk.

https://g.co/gemini/share/8ffd8d499710

The Golden Queen: Before Gaia, worlds were destroyed and civilizations were lost and essences would find new worlds. It was when the Supreme Being first came to Earth to experience Gaia and her boundless less love, it made him weep. I can go back to those memories of the past men who have been the voice of God.

I can feel the love that the Supreme Being first felt that created something in him that had never been there before, compassion. The empathy that Gaia shares with her people, the way the essence of our world feels our grief as much as she revels in our joy is the first being to ever make the Supreme Being feel guilt.

It was in the form of a human man, the form Gaia had created for the souls of her world, that the Supreme being finally learned what love is.

I was the one that challenged God for Gaia to be saved and in the end, I saved us all and for my troubles I get to take care of you all until you all are ready for the next life whatever it may be. This will all make sense, I am the one telling the stories,njust relax and wait, we will get there soon enough.

Golden Rules: “When in Rome, do as the Romans.” That was these guys. They are
the rules for where ever you live. Not just the laws you live by in society but thenlaws of weather and space time and gravity and what not.

Think of them as Angelsnand Fey or the ones who oversee the Djinn or the Architects and by default the False Lights and the Shadows for each world.

I would also like to take this time to point out that good and evil do not exist.

Everything provides a function, everything is a function and a facet and a face of the Supreme Being. Good and evil are concepts designed to provide for soul progression, nothing more, nothing less. It is the rules we follow not the subjectivity of concepts like good and evil.

The rules do change based on societal evolution for a land or a planet. When they
do change, believe me you will know. Kind of like this book.

Lands/Mounds: Gaia provided the land for the people to live. The Mounds are locations that you have never seen, that exist unseen by humans. These nodes are where the information from Architects, Shadows and False Lights is fed in for Golden Rules and Overseers to make happen from within the mound.

Who answers your prayers?

These guys and gals and you may know them as various minor religious deities from across the globe. Seriously just pick one and pray and they will take care of the rest. Oh and could let up on the prayer to the major ones, it backs them up and I have to hear about it and pick up their slack.

You have the little ones for a reason,
use them.

People: Just as God exists in everything, everything is people. That tree outside is
people and you are a human being. The tree is a soul on its current level of soul progression and one day will be a human being. Now think about the decision to use trees for paper instead of hemp and realize the number of souls taken early and the number of souls who have been held back.

It’s a cruel thought isn’t it?

Once you reach the level of human being you are on a loop until your soul progresses to ascension and freedom. If your soul has not reached the point to be freed, you are stuck wandering around here or levels of existence that exist within this defined space known as earth.

Some of them are pleasant waiting areas, some are quite mundane and others a nightmare. It really depends on the choices you make in this life where you go to wait for the next one. It also weighs heavily on
your next go around.

The Hierarchy of Earth

The Supreme Being

The Silver King: They keep telling I’m a King, but I’ll always be a Bard. I am The Judge. I faced my judgment and then advocated for the rest of you. I was free and clear, but I came back for the rest of you. You see I took an oath to be The SilverKing.

I swore to remain here until every last soul who is free to choose to leave or remain on a peaceful world that will send ambassadors of peace to the far reaches of this Galaxy and the Universe. I swore to be here, to be a guiding unseen hand that helps you reach the stars and helps bring peace to worlds in desperate need.

It occurs to me I forgot to introduce myself. I was born in this body as Clayton James Stevens, but you can call me Clay. If we ever meet, you won’t know it, but you will know yourself afterwards. You see rather than stand in judgment over you, I prefer to let you judge yourself and when your subconscious is done with you, you will be ready to face The Truth.

I don’t need to dance with you, I just need to touch you. Be careful whose hand you shake, you never know who I am. I exist as a Reflection here on Earth.

Don’t worry I am about to explain that to you.

Truth Lords: These people have no sense of humor. They can take corporeal form
but prefer to jump into mediums. You might know them as Angels or Fey or whatever the scariest thing you can think of is and it’s their job to guard the gates (There are more than you think.) between Heaven and Hell.

My Lords stand in judgment in my stead while I try to lead as normal a life as I can.
Think of it this way, I just prepare you, you face The Truth alone.

Now when you stand before a Truth Lord think of it like this, you are staring into a
mirror that peers into your soul and reflects everything you ever tried to hide from
yourself or any other. Then you judge yourself based on the truth of your life.

Don’t go looking for a Truth Lord and pray you’re ready when they come looking
for you.

Reflections: We are half ascended humans. I say we, because I am not the only cat
to ever face judgment and came back, I’m just the first in a long time to take the lead. You see Reflections are the reflections of you, we reflect everything you love and everything you hate about yourself. We reflect the totality of you at any given moment.

We are immortal but we can choose to leave this existence behind and ascend once again without the pain of physical death. It is a choice that enacts a set of behaviors that can be stopped up until the final progression.
The first time you ascend, you have the choice of coming back, the second time you don’t.

Reflections spend a lot of time thinking about that choice and what it would take to make that choice. The function of a Reflection is to tell you whether or not you are ready to proceed to The Truth.

Once you can accept and love your reflection, you might be ready to face the Truth.

Many turn away from their Reflections and each of us gets back in touch with those we have reflected from time to time so they can see If they need us or not.

It is a happy, yet sorrow filled day when they don’t.

That is the day they are ready to face The Truth at any time.

If you pass my reflection, you can go to heaven anytime you choose. It is my gift to you.

So ifbsome day you notice that you have stopped aging, well I would bet we met at some point. I am bound to my immortality, but that which I give you is yours to cast
aside whenever you choose. No one should ever be made to live forever unless they want to.

Trust me, you are going to be happy I took the time to explain it all this way when we start meeting the kids.

False Lights: They are Human for the most part. From what I understand I was born as one of these genetic evolutions that had been helped by a genetic infusion long ago in Human history. Think of it as little added something to make sure this would happen.

Now there is a little something you should know about these people. These are the
bleeding hearts of your world. They feel your pain for you when you find the strength that came from nowhere. Both of you are often unaware and it is a gift for you as much as it can be a curse for them. I was born a False Light.

I’ve cried tears for many I have not met. It’s my gift to them. I help them hold it together while I am a crying mess at home.

My evolution to Reflection actually amplified this part of my being.

If you find yourself able to touch the heart of a False Light, be prepared, when they find true love it forces them to judgment and forces them to make the choice and if
they come back you’re the first one they reflect. They won’t be able to tell you and
they will really want to, but know you are loved with the purest truest love your planet knows. When you are done facing yourself, they will provide a life of majick as if majick was an everyday thing.

I wrote this book more than 10 years ago. It was my first fictional book.

Away we go.

Chapter 1

In the beginning I didn’t write anything down. I didn’t have a language to write it
in. I was pure energy colliding with matter and gases that only now I can tell you
about. I had to wait for you to develop before I could tell you about myself. Who
am I?

That’s a bit of a complex answer. I was born something like a human and I became
a god and decided to be just a man, but some know me as The Devil and others might call me God, you can call me Clay the Silver Bard.

For any of this to make sense I am going to the beginning and will give you a brief overview of how it all works. I hope you pay attention, there is a test later.

Oh and forget everything you think you know, things changed and this is your notice.

The Order of The Universe as it stands.

The Supreme Being: Neither male nor female and without form. It is the essence
of life that makes up everything. In simplest terms, you are god as much as your
dog is god as much as that cup of coffee is god. Everything is a face or facet of the
Supreme Being. We exist so that the Supreme Being may exist. It is a consciousness
that is the Universe.

The Light: Is all that sentient life strives for in purity and potential.

The Void: The Light was born out of the void and the void contains everything that
cannot exist in the light.

Silver: There is no other term to explain what binds the darkness to the light. It is the line that reflects the light back and keeps the dark things at bay. It is the line between heaven and hell and its guardians have been unknown until now.

Duality: God is the Devil and the Devil is God, get over it, accept it and move on.

Think of The Rolling Stones, “…Just as every cop is a criminal, And all the sinners
saints…”

Even you have your light and dark side and if we all exist as reflections of the Divine, then even the Divine has its dark side. The mirror is the reflection of who you are, right now, in this moment.

Golden Essence: Every planet in existence has at its core a Golden essence of being
that provides for the souls who are having their corporeal experience on their
world. Some like Gaia create carbon based life, others use other elements found throughout the universe, some you know, many you don’t. There as many different
kinds of sentient beings as you can imagine and many more. Every world is different, even if only subtly by comparison to some.

Souls: Facets of the Supreme Being that may choose to have a corporeal experience on any world in existence. Once a soul starts it begins in that world at the lowest soul level or the lowest form of life sustainable on that world.

The corporeal evolves and the essence learns the soul and what shape to give it for the
next progression when it dies. The essence provides what is needed on the planet
for the next progression or evolution of corporeal beings. These progressions make
way for the next souls.

Once a sentient humanoid life form has evolved a soul will make this trip as many
items as it needs to before it reaches its final progression to rejoin with the Supreme Being, remain a guardian of their world or choose to experience life through another world.

If a soul chooses to remain a guardian of their world, they become an immortal half ascended being. They have access to the Supreme Beings consciousness and act as the voice of the Supreme Being on their world. It is rare that a soul chooses this existence.

Think for a moment of yourself, how would you like to be the voice of God for the next few hundred thousand years?

Immortality takes a certain kind of crazy. You have to accept that everyone you will
love will die. However the nice part is that you might get to see them on their next
ride or you may be the one that sends them home. Either way, it works on the back
end if you can take the repeated loss. It’s why it happens so rarely.

I’m new to the gig, but the last guy, as much as he knew it was time it was hard to
give up caring for so many children as their father. As a father I understand how
hard it will be for me to someday step down and take my place with the creator. I
am happy to say my reign just started so I have a long time to before I even have to
worry about it.

I am nothing like the Devil you expected am I?

Neither was the last guy. I was as surprised as you to see how this all works and how
simple it really is. The fun part is that the last guy’s soul joined with me and while I
remain the face so to speak, he is ever present, ever guiding, and ever protecting.
He has become my subconscious or my higher self. My former self is out and
about wandering and stops in from time to time to update me on goings on in the
lives of my loved ones. My new self, well he is guiding me to all his children, the ones he fathered over the years. He wants to meet the family and this is their story as much as it is mine and his.

This is how I became The Silver Bard.

Now a quick tutorial on how your world works and yes, I will be talking directly to
you a good chunk of the time. I find it helps me tell the stories better if I feel like I
am there with you. Sit back and relax and let me tell you the stories of your lives, the ones you may have lived and the ones yet to live, the choice is yours.

The idea of the ego to me is a process that begins with the essence of us that is the
emotional self that is an imprint created by the emotional state and experience of
our parents before our conception.

That process never ends and is in a constant state of refinement.

The sum total of the individuals your parents were at the moment of conception went into the DNA coding that created your life.

Everything we are is coded in our DNA. Genetic coding information that creates
the parameters or loose structure for our existence in the human form.

While in the womb we absorb everything our mother thinks and feels and exposed
herself and us too. Think of it this way, just because you didn’t watch the horror
movie she was watching while she was pregnant with you, does not mean that you
did not experience the emotion of it, in fact you experienced it with safe guards and the beginning of the split between the conscious and subconscious begins.

Everything that would send you into a state of arrest due to the strength of the emotions is channeled through the subconscious and back to your mother who has the ability to deal with the emotional stress. Now if your mother has repressed and suppressed feelings, these will naturally become a part of your subconscious mind.

Things hidden away that will come to surface as you have the experiences to purge
and identify these feelings that must be allowed to take form in order for you to
understand why you are the way you are and give you better options to do
something about it.

As you see before you’re even born your parents screw you up. Everything your
dad projects at your mother and his own repressed and suppressed feelings also are
implanted into you.

Human beings learn best from practical experience.

As a child you hear “Don’t touch that it’s hot.” However until you touch it you don’t
understand what that means. If you want to understand why or how someone would choose to or not to engage in an action, you must put yourself in their shoes and think about the experience and how you would handle it.

Be empathetic and feel what it would feel like to you most likely.

There is no way to actually know until you have the actual experience.

This is the process of the ego. It means nothing until it means something to you as
an individual and that meaning becomes part of your projection of self which is the constantly refined definition of who you think are.

Think of your conscious mind as the desk top on your computer or everything others see and interact with. Then realize the subconscious acts as the operating system that is the one actually doing everything behind the scenes.

Your body is the machine, your conscious mind is the mask and your soul is the
ghost in the machine.

Let’s examine this as Zero and 1 for a moment.

Let’s call the subconscious mind Zero and the projection of self or current ego
formation 1.

1 is ever changing and creating with what Zero takes in and uses to make a series of
“if then” comparisons based on the history of 1 up to the current moment to decide
what options 1 has in the way 1 forms the projection of self in the moment.

Zero acts as a singularity or black hole, taking in everything. The conscious mind
in most humans is incapable of processing more than 10% of what is actually going
on around 1. Zero is programmed based on 1’s experience to ignore large chunks of
what is happening around 1 depending on what 1 is doing at the time.

In digital terms the subconscious uses a series of gates to determine what information is relevant to the projection of self in the moment based on history and the gates shift as we have new experiences and either allow or deny information accordingly.

We program ourselves based on decisions made at the conscious level, however
this does not mean that all decisions are final. We can change our programming at
will and it takes time to make the changes and have them become part of the process to an extent that choice is given up in favor of instinctual response.

The conscious mind uses language to express the projection of self so the other
projections understand, while the subconscious works in visual metaphor and
emotional conceptual understanding.

This is why logic alone is absolutely not healthy for any human. It is an act to
escape one’s own humanness, nothing more.

All language is metaphorical. We are describing the metaphors our subconscious
uses to store concepts when we speak.

I’ve found often when someone is telling me a story, my mind will connect to the memories like You Tube clips to show me I understand the underlying message being expressed as I listen to someone tell me about their life.

I can better empathize and give comfort and show my understanding not by comparing but in sharing my history that led me to be able to empathize in the moment.

I find too often we think of it as others comparing as if it was a competition due to
this need to feel as though we are the only ones to ever experience this type of
thing in our lives.

We do this to justify and rationalize holding onto the emotion that we have chosen
to apply to the situation we find ourselves in.

We do it to gain sympathy versus
empathy.

The difference between the two is this.

When we make ourselves the only one to ever go through what we are going through we are looking for people to enable our decision of the emotions we have chosen to apply to our view of our life in the moment.

Feel sad with me and project your sad emotions at me so that I may feel even
sadder and totally justified in my sadness.

Giving sympathy perpetuates the emotional spiral and gives the other person permission to hold onto it and do nothing to feel any differently about the situation.

When we empathize, we take a moment to validate the current emotional state
without projecting more of that emotion, instead momentarily connecting with it
based on our own history. Think of it as sticking your toe in the water to say
“you’re right, it’s cold.” Instead of jumping in and being just as cold as they are.

Instead it gives the option of saying “If you want to stay there fine, but I’m not
jumping in there with you.”

Our story is our definition of our projection in its current state and we based our
projection on the past experiences we have had that led us to this moment.

Everything in life is based on the moment that is now. The moment never stops,
never rewinds and never fast forwards, it just is.

Now we can get into multiverse theory and infinite parallels or the time space continuum, but really how much good does that do the average person in their
daily life?

It doesn’t, so let’s focus on the here and now as if it’s all that matters for the sake of
just getting through most days in one piece and feeling OK about what you might
have done to accomplish that.

That is the ego process, how you choose to project yourself to get through your day
and feel good about it.

Modern psychology has a lot terms that are thrown around to attempt to identify
or diagnose the core issue that brings us to see a shrink.

I have found that most of what people in psychology do is detective work based on
what they studied versus what they’ve lived.

Their ego insists that because they studied they are an authority and to be revered
as the key holders to unlocking the door to the cage you feel trapped in.

I have found the easiest way for you to provide you with cognitive therapy is to talk
to yourself.

Ask yourself why you just did that thing you did and then wait to see what bubbles
up in your mind. It’s easier to explain it to yourself than someone else.

You don’t need as many words as you work with your metaphors and have no fear
of something being lost in translation.

However it takes being honest with one self
and setting the intent to actually understand why versus looking for rationalization
of justification.

I have always said the moment I feel the need to rationalize or justify what I am
doing or have done, I know I am deceiving myself in some way to make it OK and
dispel any feelings of guilt.

We all do it. We say “It’s OK because…” or “Any other time I never would have done
that, but this time…” and other various things to absolve us of the guilt we feel and
to explain to others to get them to tell us it’s OK also.

We use our history to justify our actions and words as to why we don’t have to do
what we know to be right for whatever reason we come up with.

There are times that valid reasons exist to explain the choices we make. It’s a fine
line and on one side is attachment and the on the other side is freedom.

When you attach a piece of your history to an emotion you give yourself an excuse
to behave the way you do that you know is not what you learned is proper behavior
at some point in life. Emotion becomes your shield against those who call you out
for your behavior.

The emotions you tie to the behavior are to justify it and keep the original hurt
alive and you are unwell.

I am not saying you’re crazy or need to be put on meds, you’re just not working at
optimum.

Most emotional issues can be resolved by changing the way you view them thus
allowing you to detach that emotion to that experience that you use to justify your
actions and words.

“I have had so many people lie to me I am never trusting anyone again.”
It’s not the other people you don’t trust, it’s your ability to catch on when someone
is lying that you don’t trust. If you don’t trust you then your projection of self will bounce back the reflections that match your projection. Or to say trust no one and no one will trust you.

You live doing unto others as you would have done to you and you reap what you sow in the seeds you plant with your words and actions whether you want to or not.

How you choose to deal with what bounces back is what defines who you are in the
moment. What you say and what you show is who you are. When you avoid dealing with issues as they arise you are avoiding yourself as much as you are avoiding someone else.

The issue arises to begin with based on the subconscious desire to resolve the issue.

The conscious mind has the choice to deal with it or the subconscious will find a
way to put you in a similar situation until you consciously decide to change yournways. You will do things behind your back in front of your face to set yourself up.

When we engage with others the operating systems connect and make an
agreement the conscious mind may or may not ever be aware of.

Zero only allows one to be aware of that which will keep 1 on the program Zero has
negotiated with the other operating systems.

There truly is little that happens in
our life that we don’t allow to happen. It happens so we can grow and learn.

Think of it as the subconscious and conscious minds working together to train each other to provide the life we enjoy living and feel the least amount of guilt about.
Until we no longer feel the desire to explain ourselves and just be who we’ve become, we can at times feel as though we are in the film GROUNDHOG’S DAY, repeating the same experiences over and over again until the lesson is learned and
growth is achieved.

The Ego as a process simply makes sense to me.

The Enlightened View

1. From the enlightened view one lets thoughts pass through 3 doors before one
speaks.

1.1. Why One?

1.2. Why here?

1.3. Why Now?

1.4. This is synchronicity.

1.5. The answers to these questions will tell one everything one needs to know
about why one is where one is and why the other one or ones are present.

1.6. Answering these questions will tell one whether or not to speak.

What relevant experience has one had that synchronicity has placed one in this
situation to face the choice of whether or not to speak one’s mind. One’s life experience will tell one why one should speak up regardless of how much it might upset other ones.

There are times in life where the greatest healing action one can perform is to
speak pain filled truth. The only reason the truth is pain filled is due to the
deception one has encountered. To say nothing encourages and supports long
suffering.

If there was such a thing as evil, to hold one’s tongue in the face of suffering and
deceit is the greatest evil one can do. One has a responsibility to the shared reality
to attempt to put and end to the long suffering one sees before one.

All one’s are connected and one will reap what one has sown and if one allows for
long suffering to continue without ever saying anything or doing anything to
attempt to end it one can expect to suffer greatly.

One should ask “Why be silent?” If the answer is due to possible perceived
consequences to oneself, one is acting selfishly. This is driven by fear and shows a
lack of compassion for anyone but one.

2. If one is to accept guidance/counsel one must take it personally.

2.1. Receiving guidance and counsel is an opportunity to further refine ones
expression and experience growth.

2.2. Growth is a personal and emotional endeavor.

If one never takes guidance personally then why did one seek guidance to begin
with?
3.

If one is to give guidance/counsel one must make it personal to act with greater
care.

3.1. Give guidance with patient consideration and empathy.

3.2. Putting one in the others shoes can help one find better guidance to give or
discover what questions may be of greater assistance to the other one/s.

If one does not personalize guidance one is speaking in platitudes and will often go
unheard.

When one gives guidance one is attempting to get the other one to think and is only assisting the other one in discovering the solution to one’s issue. This is a personal endeavor one has taken on. This is a personal endeavor the other has taken on. To not be personal in the dialog is to be inhuman to each other.

4. One builds personal connections by accepting compliment and critique alike.

4.1. Critique is the opportunity to grow.

4.2. Compliment is the result of growth.

All ones are connected and one strengthens that connection through interaction.

When one is critiqued one is seen as other’s see one.

One is afforded the opportunity to turn the mirror inward and to assess the value
of the criticism. Only in being open to criticism can one grow.

When one takes the time to assess the critique one exercise patience in thought to
discover the value of the critique.

When one receives a compliment, one has shown growth and has made an impact
in the life of the one complimenting one. A compliment is a reminder as to why one works on one’s expression of self. One is a work of living art that is finished when one is dead.

The work of living art one is takes work in living daily.

Connections gain their strength from the personal desire that causes one to work
on strengthening that connection. Human connections are built on being personal
and taking it personally.

5. One owns every word that escapes ones lips.

5.1. What one intended and what happens can be two different things.

5.2. When one causes unintended harm one offers an apology to show care for the connection between one and another one or ones.

5.3. One lives up to the things that comes out of one’s mouth less one be seen as a hypocrite and thus untrustworthy.

One who thinks no one shouldn’t take anything personally will inflict much
suffering using “Don’t take it personally” as a defense for one’s actions. One is taking an inhuman stance to attempt to absolve one from guilt for issuing continuous harm. One lies to one’s self so one can inflict harm with an attempt at avoiding consequence.

One has a good idea before one speaks whether or not one is getting personal.

One will reap what one sows whether one likes it or not.

If one unintentionally causes harm with one has to say one has a responsibility
oneself and all ones to own up to it and make amends.

One who never sees the harm they do seeks to absolve themselves from guilt and
will seek for the audience to weigh in.

This is an act of fear because one knows one is wrong and has no other recourse to
attempt so absolve one from guilt and owning ones words.

An enlightened one exercises patience and knows ones words to be wise and needs
no validation from the audience.

6. One has the responsibility to oneself to correct mistakes made in observation by
other ones.

6.1. Allowing other ones to have a distorted view of one causes friction.

6.2. To strengthen connections one must be able to be seen clearly and
understood.

6.3. Speak of oneself only to give clarity as to why one is the way one is and to relate experience to show empathy.

The stories other ones tell of one have greater impact than the stories one tells about oneself. To ensure one’s story is told accurately is to protect one’s life and keep harm from being done to one and other ones as a result. Any deception will cause suffering until the deception is revealed and the truth is known.

If there one is not attempting to build connection through relation then why is one
talking about oneself?

7. One has become enlightened when one can feel the synchronicity and see how
one can be of best service to the other one or ones that have come into one’s life.

7.1. As independent as one can be in thought, all ones are interdependent to
accomplish anything in life.

7.2. Other ones are always in one’s life for a reason.

All ones are connected and it is a shared reality in which all ones are responsible
for the reality shared by all ones. This is inescapable and absolute truth. All ones
are dependent on all ones to live one’s life whether one interacts with all ones or
not.

If one cannot understand this truth one is not enlightened and is motivated by fear.

8. The enlightened one does not seek to build connection but to reveal the
connection already there and in doing so show how much stronger it can be.

8.1. In the revealing one sees why one and other ones are present in each other’s
lives.

8.2. One must be unguarded in the revealing or one and other ones build no
trust between them.

An honest conversation starts with a desire to know and be known. One can only know another one by what one listens to as the other tells one about the other one’s life and how the other one came to share this location with one. In this story one will discover synchronicity.

9. If one is to truly live the enlightened life one must seek truth in all things no
matter how ugly a truth might be.

9.1. Deception of any kind is unacceptable in the life of an enlightened one.

To become enlightened one must forsake deception in all its forms. One who
deceives cannot be enlightened.

All deception causes long suffering and greater pain.

All deception

I’ll been putting my books on this blog. That’s what I’ll be doing until it’s done.

Psychospirilosophy is a view that combines Psychology, Spirituality and Philosophy.

It’s a view used to explore ideas using life experience to provide the results to show
the validity of a concept or idea and to determine if it has value in your life.

Anyone of us should understand what we are doing and why from a psychological
standpoint. It’s understanding our own behavior that gives us realistic options in
making changes if we feel we need to and understanding where this desire to
change comes from.

Spiritually speaking we are all spirits wrapped in flesh and have our own
connection to whatever it is you feel you need spiritually. Or to say we are not
humans who need to be on and endless spiritual quest, we are spirits on a quest to
understand what it means to be human and how to enjoy our humanness.

The philosophy is those personal philosophies we each use to guide our own path.
It’s the “talk” we tell everyone we walk.

Psychospirilosophy is a tool of self-reflection and turning the mirror inward to
remember what you already know as your life experience reveals it to you.

It is a tool to help you understand why the fuck you are doing whatever the fuck it
is you’re doing and what the fuck you said that got you to this point in the
progressive moment that is the never ending now.

It’s a tool to understand why you choose to be who you are and gives you the realistic options of what to do with and about it depending on what your desired results are. All results will vary based on desire and the simple fact we are all the same but slightly different and just different enough to be unique.

I love everyone.

I dislike most people on Earth.

Boundaries.

What is it I dislike about most people?

Macho bullshit.

Feminazi fuck offs.

Macho bullshit looks like Pete Hegseth. 

Feminazi fuck offs are the women who use sex but say they don’t and blame men for everything. 

That takes care of most people in the USA. 

If either was aware of themselves,  they wouldn’t behave in such ways.

Each and everyone of us has both feminine and masculine energy to balance out.

The people that don’t understand this, boundary.

It’s the level on consciousness that’s the issue the world faces.

What we need to do is understand what a consciousness level is.

At my level of consciousness is understand much, more than most peopke and it puts me at odds with most people.

Take a Muslim for instance. 

I will say Allah is an alien or something else,  but God it’s not. I know that God has no religion. 

They don’t and would find my statement offensive, and rightly so.

Based on their level of consciousness, a God had to create all of this.

Emotion plays heavily in this. Faith is an emotional concept that defies logic.

However, I’m a faith filled as it gets.

I’m a seeker of truth. It doesn’t matter how much it pisses me off, I can take it.

My level of consciousness is a direct relationship of the truth I’ve assimilated.

Truth leads to leveling up ones consciousness.

Where does wisdom fit into this?

As one has experiences one learns from those experiences and becomes wise. As one experiences the truth coming at one, one always has a choice, to hide in a comfortable lie, or take it.

As one experiences these situations they grow in consciousness and they grow wise.

The only thing that has the possibility of making the religious fuck off their religion, would be if aliens were to come out among us.

That’s a possibility worth exploring. 

Think about it.

If aliens show up and walk among us and we know their aliens and we have to face the truth.

There would be panic in the streets for a while.  However, it would be momentary.

And it would bring the world together. 

Once we got the war mentality put of our minds and we see that they are peaceful, might take a few years.

At some point wars would stop.

The narcissists would have to face the truth.

This is why it will take a few years of aliens living among us.

Then we can talk about fixing the government’s of the world. 

Why do we commit crimes, what is that makes us think we’ll get away with it,  and why do we fight to the judicial system?

The criminal mind is the narcissistic mind.

Think about it.

They believe they don’t have to follow laws. The law is something to be dealt with.

They circumvent the law in any way they can.

What happens when those who are meant to serve the law are the ones breaking the law?

Society loses trust in those who enforce the law.

This is a huge issue in America. 

Criminals do not fear repercussions from the law. They have built a criminal empire in the prison system.

It’s a criminals world in my opinion. 

I’ve seen criminals, and some are my friends.  The lies they tell themselves to not have to admit guilt. 

I did it, but….

There’s no apology from them because they don’t feel as if they did anything wrong.  If the situation was the same, they would figure out how to get away with it. Never admitting what they did was wrong.

It’s why forgiveness does not need admission of guilt. 

A narcissist is incapable of admitting guilt.

They got screwed by the courts.

It was all somebody else’s fault. 

Mental health is criminal intent.

A healthy mind does follow the law.

An unhealthy mind can and will follow the law until it hits this…..

Thinking about what one could get away with is a sign of the mind going to unhealthy places. 

Why don’t we have mandatory psychiatric treatment for every prisoner?

They should be sitting with a shrink 3 times a week by themselves. 

Fuck group therapy.

Once in a while, like monthly group therapy sessions.

However, if we are to say we care, we need to give them the best chance for recovery. 

We need psychiatrists/psychologists in the prisons.

If we take the Empath and train one to pull the emotional sickness out of one, it would give the psychiatrist/psychologist the best chance to work with each patient. 

I can do this. I can train others how to do this.

This is what Empaths are good at.

I could take 4-6 every other day.

The shit I would go through doing this is why every other day.

I would transmute what I could throughout the day, then it would be crystals and grounding.

Black kyanite and blue kyanite held in the hand for a few seconds, activates and cleanses the Chakra system.

However, more needs to be done. This just gets one grounded.

While grounded one can get into the emotions one has taken on to give a report to the psychiatrist/psychologist.

This will give them insight into what it is they’re dealing with.

This is what I do, I figure out how to fix stuff.

I’ve been watching some stuff.

It seems to me that specializing breeds weakness.

Take a trip with me down the rabbit hole.

If I lived on a farm, I would have my own eggs. I could slaughter a chicken or a cow or even a pig.

I would not need others to do stuff for me.

I would be busy doing all the work.

Now if I specialized in something, I would only do what my specialty would allow.

I’ve had a ton of jobs.

Everything from paperboy to manager and all points in-between.

I got a ton of experience.

I’m always learning.

What I do is to not see myself as important.

What does the world need from me and how can I best serve the world?

The king story again.

Be kings an queens.

The workd already has enough posers. 

I know I’m not totally anonymous.

However, it’s the story of the king that is my motivation to try, I never use try unless I know I’m going to fail. It’s just a matter of time.

I got an M on each palm and the crescent moon.

I get that we’re something more than most people, what, well I got some explaing to do.

I’ve heard we’re the 144,000. I don’t know.

I’ve heard we’re the new evolution. I can buy that looking at me.

It makes think of the time when I was in a group promoting the indigo children. What I was told was that I’m a crystal teacher. Here to teach the indigos how to harness their power.

Problem is, too many false teachers, and teachings for me to get through.

So, I let synchronicity do its thing and bring the ones I could teach right to me.

The “Spirit” world is my playground. I’m a soul healer,  I can get into anywhere. There’s no blocking me from entering anywhere I want to go.

Why I can do this?

Simple.

I chase demons and at times pull a demon inside me to get in.

Anonymity has it’s privileges.

I don’t do that anymore.

Think about it.

Telepathic communication is what demons, angels and other species use.

There is nothing you can hide from a telepathic species.

The fact that I got away with it, meant even tbe demons were tired of this douche bag.

You have no idea how patient demons are.

The m and the moon give me and the others protection. Angelic protection.

That most don’t even care is why it works so incredibly well.

Ignorance is bliss.

I’m not sorry to ruin your bliss.

This is part of the endless conversation I have with all of you.

I love you.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

What does it mean to be meek?

Truth is what makes the meek powerful.

What is the highest adaptive state?

Think about it.

Evolution is what could be considered to be highly adaptive, as only those who are highly adaptive will evolve.

What are we evolving into?

Homo ????

I’m part of that evolution, as well as many millions, tens of millions and possibly hundreds of millions.

I am a seeker of truth. I’m a truth seer. I see the truth in everything. 

Accepting the truth has always been difficult.  Think about it. Your parents lie to you making you suspect everyone of lying so you want to know the simple truth.

At 5 is when I began my seek.

Then at 5 I had a vision when I went to Church and got saved.

Im this vision Christ spoke to me and apologized for the life I was going to lead. He told me I would always know the truth, it might take a bit, but I’ll always find the truth.

At 5 it fucked me up. I forgot about it for most of my life.

As I’ve seen what the truth actually is, it’s sad that most people don’t accept the truth.

I get why, it’s hard to give up the comfort of the lies. It wasn’t easy for me to accept the truth.

I accepted the truth, one after another. I’m grateful that it keeps getting easier. 

Nothing in life is easy, but it can be easier.

Be prepared.

The Boy Scout motto.

Do you you understand why I say thank you to everything for everything?

It took the sum whole of existence for me to be alive today. That means all that happened before.

Do you understand how insignificant we truly are?

That we even exist shows love.

It took love to create atoms to create other shit to make us.

Gravity = Love

This truth could unite the world.

That all religions are good source material, however, God is science.

The meek inherit the earth because we know the truth and how to use that power.

A 4 year old with a firearm.

I use the same premise because everyone knows it’s unwise to give a 4 year old the power to kill.

Anakin Skywalker became Darth Vader.

At the beginning he was thought to be the one to bring balance to the Force.

His love for Padame was his undoing. It made him unbalanced.

Love and lust is what he wanted. Lust is deadly.

Lusting after her is what made him choose to impress her with the Force.

This made him an easy mark for the Emporer. The Emporer manipulated Anakin until he choose to become Darth Vader.

The Dark Side of the Force is seeking power for the sake of power, not thinking about the costs. Hence why, The Emporer is all fucked up and Snote was all fucked up.

Yoda was considered to be wise. He sought truth and wisdom. In truth he found great power. In wisdom he understood what power is for and it could be used against one.

Wisdom understands that knowledge can be false.

False power is a 4 year old with a firearm.

True power cannot be stopped. It can remain hidden, however, it will be revealed. 

Yoda looked like a little doddering old fool.

Watch episode 2 again and see how much of a bad ass Yoda is.

Think about it.

We are the soul. We get put into an organic machine that has it’s own consciousness in the heart.

The ego incorporates the flesh and the soul. I’m hungry.  An acknowledgement of the flesh.

We are spirits in a material world.  This is unavoidable fact of life.

This is something that has been lost to humanity. I don’t know whose responsible.

The thing is, it is the truth only we’ve forgotten. 

Apocalypse in the ancient Greek meant to uncover or reveal.

We are living in the apocalypse of humanity.

We are living in a world where things are being uncovered an making revelations about a ton.

An apocalypse is needed for the paradigm to shift.

Einstein was a patent clerk who ushered in a new paradigm.

This shows that any paradigm shift won’t come from school.

Why?

A paradigm shift looks at what is and sees the flaws and fixes it.

As I’ve been writing today, I’ve had a lot time to think in-between posts. ADHD.

My mind is fast. At one point I became my subconscious.  I had learned the rules of this world and I had the experience in order to become me.

As the body is needed in order to experience life as we know it, trees and cats and shit like that.

We are connected to all living things, yet we close ourselves off from this.

This is the intuitive mindset.  I understand that I’m connected to everything,  I am but a drop in the ocean.

My conscious mind is a place holder for my mediumship skill.

As I channel shit, I can interrupt the channel if I don’t like it.

This means I have to have a strong ego. My soul is my ego. As I said my ego incorporates the flesh and the soul.

My body allows for things to channel though me.

The idea of the subconscious is what is actually in control, if anything, of ourselves.

The subconscious is two consciousnesses working simultaneously together.

The heart and the soul.

In theory, I can’t prove it, the subconscious is the soul’s operator. 

How else do you design a being that has a soul and needs to experience shit?

Think about it this way, what if you could take your soul and put it into a metal body?

Immortality anyone.

And I’m grateful that he did.

Everything we go through in life has the ability to change us if we accept it.

Using repetitive mantras are the best way to improve oneself.

Everytime he said the thing,  I heard it.

It was a reminder to me that I could do it too, and I had no excuse. 

If I’m The Dude’s Dad, I have to be honest, it’s the hardest challenge I’ve ever loved going through. 

My first blog was titled, Just a Dude.

Over 15 years ago. While I’ve had several blogs, Road Map to Understanding, Souldiers 4 Peace, The Movie Whore, The Movie Whore Revisited,  Khaos Consulting, and a few others, The Church of Rock n Roll is my Church.

Let me explain.

Music is something that touches each and everyone of us. It doesn’t matter what music you listen to, if speaks to your soul, that’s church.

Everyone has different tastes, for me if it’s not rock n roll, fuck the fuck off.

I do like piano.

This kind of honesty is the progress my son has made with me. We did it together.

That’s the thing about parenting, you do it with your kids.  Not doing it to your kids.

Allowing my son to be my friend and my son, is why it worked.

Now, I have zero say over what my son does and I’m glad for that.  He knows what hes doing, so now all I have to do is be his friend.

Now, I use mantras daily.

I woke up today, the rest is gravy.

I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace in my heart mind and soul.

I never try, I do.

I never try, I work at it.

I cannot fail because I never try, I do and I work at all I do.

I have zero control and I let go into the flow.

Things of this nature. 

It takes less than a second to say please.

Please shows respect. Knowing that each has a choice to make as to whether or not they accept the request.

Everyone knows please.

Why is it we don’t say it more often?

If I look at me, when I forget to say please, typically it’s a lapse in memory. 

Why did I forget this simple easy thing to show respect?

I don’t respect the individual I’m making the request to.

I have a job to give orders and orders don’t need a please.

That’s the two I want to focus on.

If I respect myself, why don’t I respect the individual?

For me it’s a matter of how they treated me. Treating me as I don’t deserve respect. I work to give respect to them, but at some point I stop respecting them because they have no self respect for themselves.

If I respect myself, that respect goes to everyone.  As we are all the same. Everyone deserves respect. 

In order to show self respect is to show respect to everything else.  As you know and understand that disrespect leads to unwise choices.

Unwise choices lead to devolution, not evolution.

This is why please is this important.

I have a job to give orders where please gets in the way.

Anyone who has ever served in any military, knows it’s not they don’t respect one, its that we got a job to do and if you don’t get that….

It serves a function. 

Ego.

Ego is who you are.

I choose to join the Air Force.

I choose to follow all legal orders and I was responsible to know the difference between a legal order and an illegal order.

That was a lot of choices that I may not have agreed with, however, my self respect created a character with character and I followed the order because they were legal orders.

I.

Total egocentric statements.

The ego that can evolve is the ego that will evolve whether the conscious mind is aware.

The subconscious feeds the conscious mind what it needs to know right now.

Allowing one to understand that one has no knowledge accept that which the subconscious feeds one.

Thank you to my subconscious for feeding me this information. 

Thank you, why do we say it?

Gratitude is not a spiritual concept.

We are spirits in the material world. The Police got it right back in 1981.

Think about that, 1981, 44 years ago.

Saying thank you gives respect.

Showing gratitude is the ultimate sign of respect.

Please and thank you will guide anyone to evolution, it might take some other stuff.

Getting my son’s attention and asking him, was not telling him what he had done, but he figured it out when I asked the question.

That’s the core of building better children.

Not telling them a thing, instead asking them to notice something about their behavior. 

It puts the onus on them.

At 4 years old is when I started using the question. 

At 20, he doesn’t need anyone to ask him a thing, he knows what he’s doing and he does because of how I raised him.

I built a better man through building a better child.

Children are the future.

We cannot ignore this fact any longer if we are going to say we give a shit about our world.

Children are very intelligent.  They are born geniuses.  Then we devolve them to fit in with society. 

This is where autism is an evolutionary step that must be taken.

They see no authority, because the understand there truly is no authority. 

Authority is a societal construct. 

It’s a lie.

Doesn’t matter if one thinks one has authority based on societal rules, the autistic mind knows the truth.

However, society,  any society must have rules and those who have authority to enforce those rules.

This is why highly functional autistic people are right now, our best chance for a future that will be brighter then the darkness from where it came. 

Highly functional autistic people can take care of themselves and are not a drain on the system.

Social security, IHSS, these are autisms  home. I have a buddy who has an autistic son who will never be able to take care of himself.

My buddy worries about his son and what will happen once he dies. His son is 24.

He still goes to school, with other autistic children, and some are in there 30’s.

What contribution to society do they make?

They are a drain on society. 

The fact is that not all children will respond the same.

If the child doesn’t notice anything in their behavior, that’s when you tell them.

Now, I got down on my son’s level.  Showing him respect. 

Emotions are felt even with no words being spoken.

Everyone is empathic to a certain degree.

This is a truth that must be accepted in order to understand anything.

Showing respect to a child gives the child the ability to respect you.

While he knew he was in trouble,  I was respecting him by not yelling at him.

While he knew he was in trouble, I showed him respect by asking him to notice what I noticed.

Respect is something everyone wants, but so few understand what it is.

Is the being insert name here?

If I had another child I wouldn’t use thr nickname,  I use their name.

Is that being James?

Yes.

I know what it means to James.

Look at the Boy Scouts for the list.  I was a Boy Scout.

The Boy Scout Laws are a set of twelve points of conduct for Scouts, stating that a Scout is Trustworthy, Loyal, Helpful, Friendly, Courteous, Kind, Obedient, Cheerful, Thrifty, Brave, Clean, and Reverent.

I don’t like obedient. I’ve always had a disobedient streak.  I’m working on it all the time.

I know what it means to be James. 

Children are the future.

This is a fact.

It doesn’t matter how you feel about it, it remains a fact.

We need to start with children.

Why is blue for boys and pink is for girls?

That’s the first thing we need to fix.

My son used to have two pink bunnies. 

I never saw a problem with it. I let him keep those bunnies.

When he was an infant, he didn’t know pink is a girls color. That’s when he took the bunnies away from his sisters.

Who was it that marketed blue is for boys and pink is for girls?

It was marketing that told us blue is for boys and pink is for girls, a lie.

Honesty is how to gain abilities through your DNA.

Being able to assimilate truth is paramount.

Being able to accept truth, and live in truth is exactly how one can access one’s DNA.

There’s no one that can teach you how to accept truth. 

All any can do, even me is confirm or tell you it’s a lie.

The acceptance comes from you. It’s your choice.

Hence why choice is the most powerful thing in the universe. 

This is why telling lies creates a devolving run through society.

Manipulation is devolving.

We live in a world where we get ads based on our browsing.

That’s manipulation.

We get ads selling everything with sex.

That’s manipulation.

We as a society are devolving at a rapid rate.

Those who appreciate the truth are those that will evolve. 

Learn to be wrong and it’s OK, because now, you know the truth.

I could go on and on about the lies that built this society, however, if you are intelligent,  you’ll figure it out.

Gyres, God is love.

Every emotion thought to be seperate is the one emotion love.

Gravity = Love

Think about it.

When you see a loving family, you want to be closer to them.

When you see a dysfunctional family, you stay away unless you have to.

The fact that we can see these things must mean we are gravity.

Let me explain.

Gyres are in us.

Gravitational waves pull our bodies together.

Gravity = Love.

They are synonyms.

Only we don’t understand they are the same thing.

Romance has a ton to do with this. Romance is love with lust.

Lust is one of the deadly sins, why?

Why do we use models to sell everything?

Because we respond to lust.

Why do we buy things that have no models selling them?

Because we need shit. 

I’m a sex addict, recovering. I used to mastubate 3 times a day.   Now, I don’t at all.

Even though medical science says ejaculating 3 times a week reduces the risks testicular cancer.

I can’t use that as an excuse.

I’ve been celibate for 11 years.

What I noticed was disturbing. 

What I noticed in myself was disturbing.

I was a sex addict after my last marriage.  We had great sex 2-3 times a day.

After the divorce what was I going to do?

I started looking for a girlfriend.

I found a literally crazy woman, several.

I understand now, but back then lust colored my judgements red like roses.

At one point I told a woman I was the actual devil and she played along.

Crazy.

Then there was the one that left her husband and kids to have a sexual exploration. 

What she didn’t understand until a sex therapist told her, any sexual exploration should be in the confines of marriage.

We exchange pieces of our souls with each person we have sex with.

We destroy our souls with lust.

Say this once a day for 21 days to reclaim your soul.

I reclaim all soul facets and I give back all soul facets that are not mine.

I’ve done it and I noticed a distinct difference. 

So, lust is bad, mkay.

I love South Park.

Back to it.

However, lust is needed for sex to happen.

If we waited until we got married before we ever had sex, it would clear up a ton of issues.

If we stopped using sex to sell everything, it would do a ton of good.

Now, I hear you, those going, if I can clean my soul, I can have sex with whomever I choose.

Really.

Think about it.

You’ve reclaimed your soul. 

I think about it from time to time.

11 years celibate by choice.

And I hear you, it’s so old fashioned. 

Think about it.

As we have God inside us, we have the devil too.

Sacrifice is what is needed.

Personal sacrifice and discipline are the cornerstone to enlightenment. 

Personal sacrifice and discipline are the cornerstone for evolution.

What does lust have to do with love?

We love people and we get close and hug them. We don’t have sex with those people.

However, we can feel the love bringing us together.

Love = Gravity

Unlocking abilities through the DNA is something science works at, and science fiction has given a few movies, and books about it.

However, has anyone thought that it could be a cipher lock on the DNA, meaning one has to be the behavior in order to unlock new abilities. 

Why a cipher lock?

A 4 year old with a fire arm.

Not understanding what could happen is why a cipher lock is used. One must attain the wisdom to use the unlocked ability wisely. 

Think of anakin in episode 2. Using the force to grab fruit instead of using his hands.  He was trying to impress padame. 

That’s what I’m talking about.

The meek inherit the earth because they know what they can do, but don’t do it unless there’s no other way.

The intuitive mindset is trusting that the conscious mind could, however, the subconscious is much faster and makes no mistakes.

Think about it.

We’ve all done something just to do it,  and if we tried again, it will never happen.

Now if we use our consciousness mind to do it,  we probably could given enough practice, years and years of practice.

Allowing the subconscious to run the show is the intuive mindset.

No thinking, more doing.

Now, what does the intuitive mindset have to do with the cipher lock on our DNA?

We are the soul.

We have a body.

We get put into a body.

It’s an organic machine.

Think about it.

How do you understand that your a soul and have a body?

Everything in this world says we are our bodies and we’ve been duped.

How do you get into the DNA to wrap stuff in that you want instead of the behavior?

Crispr gene editing is what someone is going to ask.

Have you heard of any telepaths popping up because of crispr gene editing?

We’re evolving. 

Many of us are proof, millions and millions of us are the next stage of human evolution. 

We we’re born doing it.

I have unlocked several abilities within my DNA.

I don’t want to talk about it, because I’m not interested in impressing anyone.

Truthfulness is the way to unlock abilities within the DNA.

One  must be able to take the truth. 

Simple truth.

Hard truth.

Cold truth.

It’s this simple and it was complicated,  it would have been a lie.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

I’m sitting here listening to piano. I’m not worried about a thing.

I made the right choice in calling in until I get fired.

I’ll find work.

I’m as peaceful as I’ve been in months.

This is what life is supposed to be, peaceful.

Who needs excitement?

I thought I thought I did when I was younger, but the excitement gave me scars, and pain. Sure I’ve got some killer fucking memories,  but when I look back and see how I could have done it differently, I’m glad as fuck I’m pig headed. 

Or at least I used to be.

I’ve changed so much in the last 11 years.

No longer a sex addict.

Been celibate for 11 years.

I never thought that would be possible,  but I was wrong.

Narcissism check. 

I check myself daily.

If you get as much right as I do,  you’d check yourself daily as well.

I’m a Táltos, I’m supposed to get things right. 

I’ve been told many times that I’m a prophet.

I get who I’m speaking to, you have to have a certain level of consciousness to read me.

If you can, your in the great company.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose. 

I am calling off until I get fired.

Here’s why.

Angel was my coach, manager, boss.

I never saw her unless I was in trouble for something. She never got to know me. She said “you know, I’m your boss.”

That’s a form of intimidation.

So is telling some one you have ears all over so you better watch what you say.

That’s a threat.

When I first started working for Wal-Mart I got hired to do overnights swapping the tags to digital tags.

Angela was the coach.  I spoke about my life and what I had done. Manager, redesigned the operating model for customer service,  I have ADHD. 

And Angela felt I should be a janitor with those skills.

That’s how I got to be a janitor.

I took half hour breaks.

I couldn’t believe that no one cared.

I felt as if no one cared about me.

Brad is a coach that I had a few conversations with. He doesn’t like it either. No I didn’t tell him I took half hour breaks.

He’s intelligent, probably smarter than me.

Even he is part of the problem.

Ryan, a coach, I gave him the perfect opening to give an educational lesson plan to us.

I had seen a set of fireworks sitting for over a day on the drinking fountain. Everyone to the store manager walked right on by and never touched it.

Instead of giving an elp he left the fireworks on the table. I put them away after the meeting.

Latanya, I got nothing to say about her, I didn’t have much experience with her.

The store manager,  Michael, couldn’t even have a conversation with me in over 8 months that I worked with him.

That this is what this store is, falls on him.

Wal-Mart as an entity represents cheap shit. It’s low vibration. 

I’m high vibration.

We don’t mix well.

Let me explain.

When I walk through the door of Wal-Mart, I feel like I’m being crunched. As I walk through the heart of the store, it gives me physical pain. It hurts me to work at Wal-Mart. 

I don’t do well with abuse. Me having to go into that store is abusive to me.

Think about it.

Low vibration attracts low vibration.

On a Saturday, it’s the lowest vibration.

When it’s the first and all the homeless come into the store, taking the vibration lower.

I decided that I can’t take the abuse.

Knowing that Walmart will never believe me.

I watched as one coach got made fun of in a meeting because of something on the moon.

Donovan, I believe you’re right.

And Shada is a bicth who doesn’t even listen when she asks how you are.

Had she listened she would’ve heard what I said.

I like Donovan. 

I met a few, only a few that I would talk to outside of Wal-Mart.

The rest, fuck em.

It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I care too much. There’s too much narcissistic behavior in Wal-Mart. 

I was watching Farscape again, the episode where John goes down the wormhole to talk with Einstein.

Einstein spoke of unrealized realities, that’s the fiction.

In a wormhole you can only go where you can imagine.

Think about it.

This is theory, meaning my opinion until it can be proved. 

If you entered the wormhole not having a destination in mind, you would comeback to where you were.

It connects with our consciousness. 

If one can see on a chart where one wants to go, even if they haven’t been there before they will get there.

It’s consciousness itself that enables the journey.

Think about it.

Consciousness in the form of the soul took a body to build some shit so we could learn some shit and so on and so on.

As we evolve we learn more about the universe and what its doing to and through us.

As our consciousness evolves at some point we will be able to travel through space. 

In space suits that will equalize gravity for earth gravity.

Otherwise it is unsafe to travel in space. 

Look at the astronauts, they have health issues from their time in space.

Every reality is realized even the one we’re making.

If this theory holds true, it would be that free will is a myth.

We have choices, but we’ve already made the choices.

Its a matter of what choices leads to what reality.

What if imagination is a window into other realities?

I channel what I write in fiction from others.

I hadn’t thought about before.

What if I channel from other realities?

That’s how I write fiction, in this reality its fiction, but the reality it came from, it’s reality itself. 

If this proves true, wow the fuck wow!

Pennywise is the one to blame for this.

I work for a low vibration company.

I work for Wal-Mart.

I’m a janitor at Wal-Mart.

When I hang the sign the says “Restrooms are closed for cleaning.”

What in the blue holy fuck is it that makes any decide to walk in?

Narcissism.

Now, Wal-Mart has a policy that if anyone walks in, your just supposed to let them use it.

I spray chemicals that take 10 minutes before I can wipe them up.

It’s an unsafe policy that Wal-Mart has.

However they have another policy that when the trash hits 75% then pull the bag.

Everyone except me ignores this policy.

They pull it if its full at all. 25% or less.

That’s bad for the environment.  They don’t care about the environment. 

My boss tells me she’s my boss as if it means anything.

I write leadership material.  Telling someone your their boss is a form of intimidation.  As well as telling them you have ears everywhere. Angel if you hear this know your a bad boss. 

That’s threatening.

Saying ro someone that they talked to the store manager, even though they had zero conversation with the store manager is lying.

This is what my boss tried.

I wouldn’t say that I talked to the store manager. I still haven’t even had a brief conversation with a shit store manager.

I say he’s shitty because Sam Walton the dude who started Wal-Mart,  I’m betting he knew personal details about everyone working with him.

In the store they have this sign that says “your associates are your family share your profits with them…”

I don’t see where they share the profits with the employees.

It took me nearly 6 months to get my employee phone. I still jave trouble getting a radio.

I have adhd,  meaning janitor is the worst fucking job I could have.

And recently they could have put me somewhere else that I would have enjoyed, but they said no.

I hate my job.

I’m looking for another.

As humans, we don’t like the earth’s ecosystem.

This is evidence through the way we destroy ecosystems in the name of us.

Now, if we look at business, we find the culprit of the destruction in the name of money.

Look at hemp.

It can be used to make paper, plywood, hempcrete, biodegradable plastic, and much more.

Why do we cut down trees?

We destroy ecosystems to cut down trees.

Trees give us oxygen.  If we don’t have trees, we don’t breathe.

It’s this simple. 

The complication of money is what makes it difficult.

The ocean is filled with plastic. 

Why do we still make plastic?

Rhetorical.

It should be a crime for anyone to make plastic that is not biodegradable.

The ecosystem will be grateful.

As it is, humans are the worst threat to the earth unless we change our ways.

Nuclear war. Human concept.

Why do we still build cars that run on gas?

We know it hurts the environment. We can build electric cars.

What narcissism is this?

It’s ok to pollute a little. 

That is straight narcissism.

Do you understand we’ve done this because we think we know so much.

What do we know?

The ego is who you are. It incorporates the lower self and the higher self. Until it evolves and the higher self is what remains.

The lower self, the body, and what it needs. The heart has a consciousness in it. It’s why your body breathes even when you hold your breath. It’s why you can’t pick a time to pee or shit. 

The higher self,  the soul you are.

How do you evolve the ego?

One needs to understand that the only thing in existence that is a constant is change.

Look at what you do and how you live,  I’ll look at me.

I live simply.

I don’t eat out. 

I live in a house where I rent a room.

I don’t need to be important.  Meaning I’m a janitor at Wal-Mart. 

The least important job at Wal-Mart. 

I take half hour breaks daily, because I can. I would have fired me so fast.

I’m looking for another job. However I live in Chico and the unemployment rate is higher here than the national average because every year college kids decide they like Chico and fuck off their degrees.

Bitching about having to pay back student loans for a degree they don’t use because theu would have to move out of Chico. 

They didn’t want to change, and because of this, they put locals out of work.

I’ve heard back from one company that didn’t hire me.

I get the people I was hiding from found me. I hid in plain site. I just didn’t verify my LinkedIn with my ID.  I did that a couple months ago.

If they read this, message me, and we’ll talk.

These are the kind of people who read everything.

Oh, and I recently found out that ADHD is highly functional autistic.  I never felt autistic.  But it explains why others react to me the way they do.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

I figure we’re getting close to the end of the world as we know it. 

How to rebuild?

What do people need?

Shelter, food, water, something to keep them busy.

Food, water, and shelter has zero cost.

Now, there will be some sacrificing we all will have to do.

First off, whose going to grow food, and what will they grow?

What is it the average human body needs in the way of sustenance?

This needs to be determined using hard facts.

These facts will be available to the public.

No secrecy will be tolerated. 

Look at the world. You see what secrecy has got us?

We need to find a way to have energy that is resonance with the earths electromagnetic field and build technology to suit.

It’s electric cables and wifi that cause free radicals,  free radicals cause cancer.

Doing it this way will take a while but will save untold lives.

I get that people will want shit and not everyone will be happy to sacrifice. 

We need a world council.  Splitting the world into quadrants, sections, states, counties, and cities.

Each quadrant has 5 civil servants. Each section has 5 civil servants, and so on.

The world gets a council of 13.  There will always be a tie breaker.  Hence, why 13.

This is what i got right now at 3am.

There’s going to be a full moon tonight, and I’m not sleeping because I have no choice.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

I’ve been spending time on quora.

I’ve been answering questions from many.

It’s good to feel as if you can do something for someone.

No one here asks me a thing.

Find me on quora and I will not give you my profile in this.

You have to find me like everyone else. 

I answers questions from a diverse study of life.

It’s all connected.

And there’s no way I can fit in here.

So find me on quora.

We are all one organism spread into many parts.

If i forgive anyone, I forgive me.

I forgive me of everything. 

I forgive me of everything I have ever done and will do.

This is how I became peaceful, peace filled.

This simple.

I love me some Boston, and this song is a reason why.

Thinking about looking back, can you do it without emotion?

If not, that’s what’s holding you back.

If you can look at the past without emotion, just the facts of your life. The truth of your life.

No one owns the truth. 

You have a truth about your life but it’s not your truth.

Everyone goes through some shit,  and others have gone through what you have gone through.

If i look back without emotion, I can see what is truly holding me back, and it’s me.

I had a stroke more than 5 years ago.  I lost the ability to communicate.

I got possessed.

It’s only been recently that I’ve dealt with the possession. I have new safe guards in place.

There’s no way to know who is possessed.

I’ve seen it as people thought it was me.

I couldn’t do a thing.

It’s not fun.

But don’t feel sorry for me.

I had my stroke while I was taking care of my dad. A friend of mine had just found out his girlfriend had died. 

We hadn’t spoken in over a year, and he calls me. 

That moment I had my stroke. I couldn’t speak for a week. My parents didn’t notice.

Took me 2 or 3 weeks to remember the password for my computer. 

I know exactly what it’s like to fight for your life.

This is how I can be one that can sense possession and help them gain their lives back.

Most people who are possessed,  you wouldn’t know it.

He’s just there for you to be recycled.

Yes, indeed, it’s a fact that we do this more than once.

That means it doesn’t matter how you feel about it. It’s still the truth

Death as a personification can teach you everything you want to know about life.

Why fear the reaper?

If you know you’ll go on, why fear the reaper?

Death is one of my best friends.

I’m a Táltos,  I speak with Arc Angels,  Arc Demons, Jinn,  Fey, and other entities.

How would I not know what happens after we release the mortal coil?

Aksshic records. I’m a librarian.

There’s more shit that I can do than I can think of. That’s what my abilities are. 

Anything I need.

Too often, we are inundated with noise.

Enjoy silence.

Most people can’t do it. It’s that in silence there is no distraction from dealing with themselves. 

You must deal with yourself. 

Enjoy the silence.

Think about it.

Why are we separate?

Because life would be boring as fuck otherwise. 

This is why God made us. However, for the human,  God had help. 

Jehovah, Allah, Krishna, Ra, Odin, and others made us.

Those beings are not God.  They understand how God works and can convince us mortals that they are gods.

This is the simple truth.

No complication.

Come together to see how true it is.

As truth gains ground, the planetary vibration rises.

Let the truth be told.

No matter how much or how many it hurts. 

I’ve been on the side of God while God is arguing through me with some idiot.

I say idiot, because you have to be fucking stupid as hell if you think you’re going to win an argument with God. 

Think about it.

God knows everything.

You don’t.

God wins.

I know its not fair but life isn’t fair. If life was fair I wouldn’t be working at Wal-Mart,  I would be a dude who sat and waited for people to visit and ask questions.

Kind of like the Dali Llama.

Buddha.

Other Buddhists.

That’s the thing, i was prophesied about by many, but they didn’t make the cut through nostradamus and the like.

And for the Bible thumper, read the dann book, specially the red words, the words of the christ.

Now in i think it was in acts, that they wrote about gifts of the spirit and spreading it around.

What the fuck do you think I do?

I teach people to go within to find the higherself,  the holy spirit, to figure out what they can do.

And i do it free of charge.

I never charged anyone for what they need.

Like the Buddhists,  and the like,  and as the Christ commanded.

He never said anything about a church or pastors or priests or any if that shit.

That’s the devil.

In the 1980’s this song was written and performed by many on an album.

What in the blue holy fuck happened?

It’s 2025.

40 years.

It looks as if we have gone downhill since then.

What happens when everyone turns on the rich, even their own security?

I know people such as myself who can possess others to do whatever they want.

This is not fiction.

This is the truth. 

There’s no way to catch any of us.

That’s why you don’t believe. 

As we exist we can do whatever the fuck we want and no one can catch us.

That’s some scary shit if you’re not one of us.

I get why people want to deny our existence,  it’s not fair.

Life isn’t fair.

But it can be balanced. 

The balance on this world is dire need of being restored.

I’m not going to hurt even a fly. 

However, if I’m in someone and they kill a fly. 

They killed the fly,  not me.

Think about that.

Godsmack is the inspiration for this.

I channel God,  and God understands that most people don’t want to hear from the true living God. 

Do you understand how much shit I’ve taken for channeling God?

I’m not the approved one to channel God.

What right do you have to channel God?

I don’t belive you. 

Why?

I just don’t believe you.

And much much much much more.

I’m bulletproof.

Hit me with whatever you got, cause God’s got me covered.

Do you think a prophet for God has anything to worry about?

The safest place anyone could be is next to me.

Call me delusional because you can’t accept the simple truth.

Yeah, I’ve heard it before.

I’m bulletproof.

I’m going backward through this.  Since my stroke more than 5 years ago, it’s the freshest.

I took divorce after being threatened with it more than a few times.

This is abuse.

This wasn’t the only abuse I suffered.

Her mother once said, “You know my daughter is a liar?”

My ex-wife at one point said, “Everyone knows I’m a pathological liar.”

She looked shocked when she heard herself admit it.

Until then,  she had memory issues. That was how she got away with lying.

I remember conversations that happened years ago, so that didn’t work for her, and she got mad at me for remembering correctly. 

She worked from home.

I came home from working at Toys R US and she was smoking a joint playing the ps3 while the kitchen was a disaster.  Pots and pans and dishes all over the counter space. 

This is an example of what I put with because the sex was that amazing.

I did things to her at her request I wouldn’t do.

Her request. 

She had a porn addiction. I got porn sites from her. She had them bookmarked under porn.

She didn’t want me to be a telepath because I know when someone’s lying.

She didn’t want me to be a medium that channels the soul. She didn’t like the messages that she wanted to give herself through me.

She didn’t want me to be public about being an Empath.

That’s where she got abusive.

Then there was my healing.

I had a short leg and a limp.  When I showed up with both my legs the same length, she was so pissed.

She was trying to siphon my energy. 

When we would go to sleep at night,  we would hold hands. I got the thought in my head,  siphon.

It was her, I’m a telepath. 

Essentially, she was trying to kill me. I saw my death by her more times than I can count. 

Abusive.

It’s why I haven’t wanted to deal with relationships since then.

Since then, I turned down two marriage proposals.  I got scared as shit.

It’s been years.

There is a direct correlation between how well some can make you orgasm and how much shit you take from them.

She was the fuck of a lifetime.

I took an amazing amount of shit from her.

As judgments fall upon us all, I’ve accepted the shit I’ve done.

It’s interesting the things I would’ve tried like hell to deny, now, it’s just the facts of my life.

I’ve been married 4 times.

I’ve been celibate for over ten years because of this.  I figure it must be me.

I was wrong.

The first one,  she came from money and I had none.

The second one was a cheater.

The third one wasn’t strong enough to talk to her own parents and they wanted her to get an abortion. 

The fourth one was a pathological liar.

I’m healed in and of myself.

I’m just looking for a woman who is the same.

I’m a soul healer.

Do you have any idea what I can do?

Empathic amplifier.

What i take in i have choices in What to do with it.

I take orgasmic energy and ramp it up and give right back to you.

I’m the best time women have had and miss dearly just for the sex.

It’s my day off.

My guidance is to chill the fuck out and ignore how fucked the world is.

It’s not normal for me not to pay attention to the world around me.

It hurts. 

I’m an empath, and for me, it goes into my back and my legs and then my arms.

I’m also a physical empath.

When shit hurts one of my friends, I feel it.

Fuck the fuck off with what I do as a medium who channels the soul. I have to be filled up, or something takes its place. 

Can you imagine having to have someone in you that wants to do shit, and you have to manage them and yourself. 

This is what my life is.  I know how alone I’m not. I wish I could be alone, but that ain’t gonna happen.

We are all one being .

This is what God taught me long ago. And most people didn’t want to listen.

Why?

Because their egos have not evolved enough to take this simple truth. 

They deny, and they suffer in their denial.

I am everywhere.

You are everywhere.

We are the same,  only our egos seperste us.

Tesla said roughly the same thing close to a hundred years ago. 

Now, being everywhere has its disadvantages.

One must coalesce, become something substantial if one is going to make an impact in the universe. 

I use empathic reiki.

I use the state of peace to transmute what I take in into pure love healing energy that goes like an orb across the entire universe.

That’s what people feel when I’m at peace. 

That wave of energy is what every empath can do.

It takes peace.

It’s why I use a mantra throughout the day.

I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace in my heart, mind, and soul.

Just do it, like Nike said.

It’s been a mantra of mine for a very long time.

I work at Chico Walmart, where the last 7 days we’ve had ,ero toilet paper and zero paper towels.

How in the blue holy fuck can they not get 2 day air?

This is the dumbest place I’ve ever worked.

I get away with pretty much anything because none of the managers care, even the store manager.

If he didn’t see my name on my badge, I bet he couldn’t remember it. 

This is why I’m not writing.

I’m dealing with the stupidity of Walmart 

I was listening to Def Leopard, and it appears to me we are in the middle of Armageddon.

Let’s look shall we.

Fucked up weather.

Volcanoes.

Earthquakes.

Wars, plural.

Life is as fucked as fucked gets.

However, humans have been racing towards this as if they would win something. 

You got it, it’s not James,  it’s God talking. 

Let’s see where you fucked everything up for yourselves.

Long list. 

Starting with Tesla, I gave him free energy for the world.

Then Einstein split the atom. Them humans built a bomb. 

Then aliens said we shouldn’t be doing this because is fucks the universe up.

Humans said “fuck you.”

Make up.

It’s not a right.

And it’s fucked up more people than even i can count.

Why look like a whore ladies?

Used to be whores were the ones that wore make up.

Painted up like a whore.

Used to be said frequently. 

Cosmetics, that entire industry is narcissim deluxe. 

It’s as if you people are scared to death about growing older.

Dudes use cosmetics as well.

And while  on males, what in the blue holy fuck do you need a hard on pill for?

Most who take it abuse the holy living shit out of it.

The male body is built to have 3 orgasms a week for good health.

I get it with all the painted whores, men want to have sex with them.

Genetic memory.

It’s in your genetics that you see a whore and want to fuck.

How do you tell the whores from the women?

Make up.

It’s the truth that no one wants to hear.

What else?

I gave you hemp. Why do you cut down trees?

You know they create breathable air for you?

That’s just as stupid as a thing you could do.

Truly idiotic.

Oil.

What the fuck?

Tesla had a system that oil would never be used again.

You made plastic even though you knew it fucked up the environment.

Now it’s in everything.

You fucked up the world.

What is it with you and loud shit?

I get music. That shit should be loud.

Anything else should be quiet so you can hear.

You protect stupid people from their own stupidity and you don’t understand why that’s a problem?

The fact that you put directions on everything that doesn’t need directions, for instance shampoo. Rinse and repeat.

I never followed those directions.

I’m smart enough to know i dont need to.

Letting stupid people fuck themselves up is how they learn not to be stupid.

If they die,  oh well, the world IQ gets higher.

The university system is fucked.

There’s no good way to say it.

If i can learn what God truly is, and I haven’t been given a Nobel prize…

I can’t even see it on the news. 

Some dude discovered what God truly is.

I figure someone would want to know.

This is the stupidity that I was speaking of.

Denying the truth is stupid.

As a people we have fucked up at every turn. 

Then we cry about it.

What the fuck for?

We did it to ourselves. 

We are the responsible party.

The only way it gets better is to get rid of stupidity. 

Intelligence should be running things.

That’s all for now.

It’s a choice.

It’s that simple.

That i love my life means there’s a ton of shit I won’t put up with.

Lying, stealing, murder, rape,  and shot that we have laws for, including littering.

If you do these things a look at you, well I don’t look at you, I don’t even see you.

I’ve done a ton of shit in my life. I lied, I stole, and some other shit.

However, i dont do those things now. 

When one is ready to repent, meaning owning up to the shit one has done, one will reveal oneself as a hole human, healed through and through.

One must repent in order to be forgiven.

Look at Donald Trump.  Zero repentance in him.

He will not be forgiven.

His hell will only get worse.

Those who follow are going straight to hell with him.

Don’t be a Trump supporter. 

I talk to people,  I can’t avoid them.

I dont like talking to people who talk about others.

I like talking about ideas.

Recently, I was talking with a friend, and it came up. What would I do with millions?

Buy a farm and plant hemp.

If I had thar kind of money, I would also build a refinement center.

There, the hemp can be turned into other shit, paper, hempcrete, plywood, hemp plastic,  all biodegradable. 

I give more than a shit or a fuck about the earth.

Building something that is better for the earth and the humans,  makes sense.

However, I don’t have the money. I do have everything else, just no money.

If you’ve followed me for any time, you know I’m super intelligent. 

Intelligence figures shit out.

Non-intelligence regurgitates shit that is already known.

I like intelligence.

I don’t do stupid.

I live my life simply.

I love my life.

I’m absolutely grateful to everything for everything just that I’m alive.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose,  you know I am.

Thank you, Bon Jovi, for writing this one.

I play my part, and you play your game.

I always play my part, and it’s a part worth playing.

What is my part?

I channel God for any who gives a shit.

Think about it for yourself.

Why don’t you accept this truth?

What are you afraid of, that it’s true.

That you can’t argue because who wins arguing with God?

That’s a you issue.

You make it my issue, but if no one talks to me, it’s on them.

It’s their responsibility, not mine.

That’s what love is.

You accept what is told.

Lying to yourself is never a good thing.

That’s the way to the pit of suffering.

That’s what Psychospirilosophy is.

Psychology.

Spirituality.

Philosophy.

What is working at Wal-Mart doing to me psychologically?

I was in the Air Force.

I was a manager.

I got respect.

I’m a janitor who gets no respect. 

I gave janitors respect long before I became a janitor.

Why is it people have no respect for the janitor?

This is my quandary.

In spiritual terms. They are what they are because of who they choose to be.

Philosophy.

I know what I said to get me into this and I know what I’m saying to get me the fuck out of Wal-Mart. 

It will be like I got paroled. I used to say that about the military.

I wish I hadn’t.  I never had it as good as then.

I’ve had better times, but this time in my life, I fucking hate that I work for Wal-Mart. 

It’s the people that work there that make it such a fucked place to work.

The arthritis in my knees has gotten so bad that walking hurts. 

I used to take walks all the time to clear my head. Now, it hurts.

Never get old, it hurts. 

All in all, I could be doing a fuck ton worse.

I got a job. 

I can survive with what my hours are.

What’s my problem again?

I fucking hate working as a janitor at Wal-Mart. 

I get why.

But until something else comes along….

How often do you notice who notices you?

Like most people,  hardly ever.

Noticing who notices you is the first step in defending oneself.

It’s this simple. 

Looking at one’s phone is the stupidest thing you could do while walking. 

I don’t care that a bunch of people do it. That simply means they are engaging in stupidity.

Don’t be stupid.

When you walk, hold your head up. Look around and  notice what thete is to be noticed.

At work, it really pisses me off that we are supposed to fix as we see it.

Most employees let it hang.

If we all simply did what we are supposed to do, shit wouldn’t be so fucked. 

Noticing is the act of waking.

Until you notice you’re asleep and anyone can have you for lunch.

Noticing is that important.

When I woke up today, I was pissed as pissed  gets about several things. 

I raged and screamed my head off.

It was the leaf blower that pissed me off, and I was already pissed.

My neighbor who is not home when the landscaper is there.

The leaf blower reaches a level of over 75db. This is the sound level. Db, or decibels, is how sound is measured.

Anything over 80db is considered to be hazardous noise and requires hearing protection. 

In the Air Force is drove vehicles that were rated over 130db.

My equipment rated 100db.

It’s why i was required to use ear plugs.

Chico has a huge fucking problem with the college.

As they come and don’t use their degrees and make the unemployment rate go higher making it more difficult for a local to find a job.

That’s totally irresponsible. 

That’s not thinking.

That’s feeling. 

Wisdom says if you love a place and you have a degree, you need to use your degree, otherwise you blew how much  money?

I don’t give a shit about anyone who thinks their feelings mean a damn thing to anyone.

The facts are what we make decisions over.

Not feelings.

Feelings will fuck you up the ass like a notherfucker and half. 

Now, for what really pissed me off today.

I can feel that there is someone that is watching me.

I know thst they could help me pay my bills and shit but they are afraid of me.

Just show the fuck up.

That’s how pissed off I am to be waiting for you to show the fuck up.

I know you read this blog.

Show the fuck up.

Everything is a soul. 

Everything has a soul.

Don’t argue with God.

This is what my life is like.

Think about it and watch the film Branded.

In this film, we get to see the souls of the companies.

Think about it.

Where you work has a soul made up of every soul in the place, and every customer interaction with your company feeds its soul.

Now, this is where I look at my life, and you look at yours.

Wal-Mart as an entity represents cheap shit.

It attracts the cheapest people,  both customers and employees. 

I don’t get why I got the job.

However, I have an idea.

This idea can not be proven.  Meaning there is no quantifiable data to sort through.  It’s a feeling. 

Data is not feelings.

We are feeling people.

What if God made shit to figure out how to make shit?

Gyres talking to gyres using emotional concepts. 

God feels.

What does God feel about Wal-Mart?

Don’t ask.

If I say, “Don’t ask. “

Leave it the fuck alone.

I realize you people don’t get this is a conversation with several entities.

I’m a Medium that has no off switch. I tried installing one, but  it didn’t work.

What do you think the health of the soul is for Wal-Mart?

I know. However, I want others to see it my way.

See the soul for what it is.

Energy. 

Energy that is consciously aware of itself.

Think about handmade shit.

Thst shit don’t break and if it does it took some shit to break it.

Cheap piece of plastic.

Breaks easily, so you need to replace it often.

This is how Wal-Mart feeds on everyone that walks through the door.

The soul of Wal-Mart. 

I’m a soul healer.

I can’t heal this soul.

For me to be able to heal this soul, would take about a year. Management would be gutted to  the region.

I would need to take time with each individual to ensure they heal themselves from their shit.

Here’s where me and Wal-Mart differ on opinion.

Fuck the bullshit being of shit being on the floor where customers have to walk through it.  You have an overnight stocking crew for this reason.

This is why I haven’t shopped in Wal-Mart by choice in years.

Security needs to be tightened. 

Having associates walking the floor and not stocking shit cuts down on theft.

I could go on and on.

I was a Manager, and a damn good one.

Anyone hiring, email me at jimccarterjr@gmail.com.

If you’ve read the blog, you know a little about me.

Thank you to Faith No More for this one.

You want it all but you can’t have it.

It’s in your face, but you can’t grab it.

It’s life.

Always in your face, but you can’t grab it.

What if you could actually grab life as if it was a person?

What would you do now?

Remember to breathe by Sturgill Simpson just came on.

Take the time to remember to breathe. Let yourself be washed over by situation. 

Only then can you formulate a response.

This is why breathing is the most important thing we do.

Breathe without breathing.

The Reiki recital.

Breathing without breathing, means you breathe so slowly you can’t feel the wind from each inhale and exhale. 

Remember your breathing.

For me, if life was a person, I would give it a hug.

I don’t get hugged.

I love hugs, but no hugs for me.

That’s why I would give life a hug, I know what it’s like when no one wants to hug you.

I’m sitting on a bench in Bidwell Park.

I love this park.

This park is why I’m not leaving Chico for the foreseeable future.

This park is the greatest soul cleansing and nourishing place in the world.

I’m a soul healer. I would know.

Thinking about my life, Wal-Mart doesn’t feel like a blessing.

However,  I’ve had other things to do other than clean toilets. I’ve had a few things to say to few people that was a blessing for them.

My life is blessed as all lives are blessed.

I actually right. 

I don’t act like a fool.

My foolish days are behind me.

I wish I hadn’t acted so foolish.

I see what it gets. If I act as a fool, everyone acts as a fool, and society crumbles right before our eyes.

It’s why I’m responsible.

I see what it does.

Look at your life and see it for yourself.

In case you didn’t know, Bob Seger wrote this.

Every time I hear this song, the thought is, “It’s the only way to fly.”

I appreciate the wind. 

It gets hot in Chico. Today, it hit 98 degrees.

We get the wind coming from the bay area through the Sacrsmento River delta.

From the north, it’s Mt Shasta. 

You ever fly a kite?

You need it to be windy. 

I’m old.

I’m good with it.

I never have to worry about my records from before the internet. 

None of that shit got recorded, or did it?

I remember. 

Those who were there remember.

Those that we can’t see remember,  and probably have video.

What if there was a world within our world that we can’t see, they can see us, but we have zero clue.

Why would this make sense?

Electromagnetic signatures.

Phase variance.

If one of these two things get switched up, that’s what you get.

Star Trek:TNG did an episode using this,  as well as Stargate SG1, and several films.

It’s not a new idea.

However, it’s an idea science needs to explore.

Science fiction gave you the idea,  now go make it happen.

I would,  but I work at Wal-Mart. 

Neil Diamond inspired this by writing the song “Create me.”

It’s talking about a woman.  I get what it means.

As an empath, it’s how we are.

We are ever being created by those around us.

Look at you life, I’ll use mine. 

I work at the most negative place in this town.

I’m not a negative dude.

However, they break me every day.

This is my Friday night.

I don’t like that they can break me.

I’m a veteran.

I’m a professional with years of experience behind me.

When I hate a task, I become a master of the task. 

Why?

So i don’t have to worry about doing it again.

It’s why I mastered every job ever thrown at me.

I get most people don’t Master what the have doing,  but I’m not most people.

I like that I’m not most people.

I have skills going to waste wear i work.

I need a job that employs these skills.

I feel someone creating me again.

Someone i don’t work with.

I’m an empath, telepath and a medium who specializes in channeling the higher self of others.

I might not know who,  but I can feel it.

It’s weird being me.

I took my new scooter for a ride to my favorite place in Bidwell Park.

It’s 7:43 as I write this, and it’s still over 90.

I took the time going no more than 6 mph.

I took the time to see all there was to see.

I wasn’t in a rush, and I knew I would get here. 

Patience allowed me to notice what I hadn’t noticed before.

Tomorrow I go to work.

I could quit, however I would have to deal with shit.

Me working at job, any job, I hate it.

I loved being a house spouse.

It’s the only job I ever loved. 

It allowed me to be multi-skilled.

It allowed me to use all my skills to do the job and do it right.

Right now, I’ve been celibate for so long, a woman would have to tell me she’s interested.

It doesn’t have to be much, just say hello, my name is…

I hate my job, which makes me extremely good at my job. I just want to get it over with every day I work.

How many fit this bill?

I have no excuse for doing a shitty job and not arriving on time. 

They pay me to do my job.

I would love it if someone would pay me for my skills.

I can track energy. I can tell you where someone’s at.

All the shit I’ve written, is shit i can do.

When do i get paid for being able to do the shit I do?