I was born long ago I am the chosen I’m the one I have come to save the day And I won’t leave until I’m done So that’s why you’ve got to try You got to breath and have some fun Though I’m not paid I play this game And I won’t stop until I’m done
The spirit within crying out from within.
The spirit that connects us all has been there since the beginning and lives through us all.
Everybody trying to teach you anything about the never ending quest to being the best you that you can be will tell you to breathe. Letting go of your body and allowing it to control your breathing can set you in a relaxed state really fast.
Fun usually involves laughter which we have all heard for a long ass time is the best medicine. Life is not a job and you are not going to get paid for being you alone. We play the game to have a life to show off when we are not doing what we do to afford our life.
None us ever stops until we hit the final dirt nap.
I don’t know why we always cry This we must leave and get undone We must engage and rearrange And turn this planet back to one So tell me why we got to die And kill each other one by one We’ve got to love and rub-a-dub We’ve got to dance and be in love
Look at your life and what you have in it.
Look for the things in your life that make you happy.
What is it again you have to cry about?
Sure you can come up with a list if you want and it will all be valid.
So what?
You have to build your recovery from within.
You have to find the strength from within to overcome.
You must let go of the past and the ideas that anything is holding you back before you can propel forward.
The best way to learn more is engage with real people in discussion about real things if we are every going to fix the issues and make it better for the sum.
I’m a pacifist. It does not mean I don’t know how to defend myself if needed, it means I choose to find every other option first and let my own skills only come forth when everything else has failed.
Dancing is the best soul and body in one nourishing exercise there is. It allows the mind to let go of the body and let the music move you.
But what I really want to know is Are you gonna go my way ?
Something no one can deny is that we all know better than we often behave and it won’t get any better until we find the way through peace and love and understanding and stop the violence.
I use the term The Big U for the connection to God, The Universe or whatever helps you sleep better at night. Here’s why.
Mind = Flesh
Soul = What powers the flesh.
Spirit = The higher self connection to God, The Universal Consciousness, whatever helps you sleep better at night.
Now if we get a little more detailed and stay in the base view that is Psychospirilosophy I think we might be able to explain this in a way that will clear it up for some of you that made it abundantly clear to me how simple life is.
Mind and soul are the small you.
Your Higher self is the Big U.
I pray to the I am that I am to provide for my life.
I am asking my higher self to let Gods will move through me to fulfill the desires I have.
I ask The Big U to drop whatever you need to heal your soul in your lap.
I am asking your higher self to help you out on your behalf because I see the need for the healing only you can do for you and you are not connecting for some reason to the guidance within.
Can someone please explain to me why we need religion in any form?
I remembered my Gandhi last night.
God has no religion.
It’s as Lynyrd Skynyrd put it.
All you need is in your soul.
Within your soul is the connection to God you will never find out here. Within you is the power to save yourself by allowing yourself to be guided from within to those with similar view and values that will support you in your being.
The Big U guides the little you from within you if you know how to listen.
If not call a Shaman, it’s what we do, we teach you how to listen to yourself.
If knowledge is power than wisdom is understanding.
That’s an original Max J. Carter quote.
I have been using that for several years after spending more than 15 with the riddle if knowledge is power than what is wisdom?
I posed this riddle to many over those 15 years as I also spent time in inner refection with it myself.
Wisdom understands which knowledge is the false details of complexity that is The Devil’s tool to keep you from the simplicity of understanding.
They have done research studies to back up what I’m about to say.
If you feel the need to argue, ask yourself why and act accordingly.
Intelligent people do not do well in school.
It takes a lower level intellect to memorize for a test later. The science has come back on this. It is a fact and not an opinion.
The higher the level of intellect the greater the desire to use what is presented as a jumping off point. The higher the intellect the greater the desire for simplicity.
It takes a simple mind to make something complex so that it can feel good about itself in showing off.
It takes a complex mind to make it as simple as possible so that more can be stored.
When you allow yourself to get bogged down in the details of knowledge you give up memory space. You fill your hard drive with knowledge that could have been better saved for future understanding.
The search for knowledge alone is a fools quest as it limits the true power of the mind for creative exploration and expression.
To seek understanding is to seek wisdom and allows you to apply what knowledge is truly needed and simplify concepts to simple understandings. It is allowing for the mysterious ways of God and the beautiful bliss of ignorance. The more you learn the more you understand how evil it is to live.
I have a gift of sight that removes the beautiful ignorant bliss life can be. There is a bliss that can be found within and it’s not easy to find. One must remove all ignorance to embrace the beauty of the truth.
God is love and we are made manifest of that love to be that love in various forms we call individuality.
The Devil is in every detail that removes that understanding from our minds.
For The Devil there is no greater joy to steal than that of inner exploration and self realization of what lives within each and every one of us.
God is that feeling that comes from within when everything feels right.
The Devil is in the outer details that tell you why you should ignore that feeling.
A simple understanding that you either have the experience to understand or you are going to see what some book says to explain it further or let it settle in and let go for a while and see what bubbles up on the topic.
The choice is always yours to seek within to find understanding or to seek out here and be tempted by every Devilish detail.
Have fun with whatever you choose, I’m enjoying my choices.
I wanted to get deeper into what I call The Cinematic View.
There are many rock bands that will tell you they’ve lived their THIS IS SPINAL TAP moments. For those who don’t know, the film is a fake documentary about a fake rock band on tour. Life imitates art and art imitates life.
Could it be that life and art are one in the same?
Could it be that you and I are living performance art pieces?
Could it be that there is an unseen audience watching the show we put on?
Think about how your memory leaves out huge chunks of what would be the boring stuff in life. Yet the exciting highlights and things that are character defining moments are forever caught in the highlight real that is the film of your life.
Movies and TV shows only give the highlights of the characters’ lives and often only one short piece of it at that. They leave out all the mundane day to day to stuff that the characters are normally dealing with. You know the boring hum drum routine that so many of us find ourselves in. It can have you feeling as though your life is the film GROUNDHOG’S DAY, living the same day over and over with little to no change.
The Cinematic View simply stated was beautifully illustrated by this film. To change the story, make changes in your character. It was not until the main character had made a real authentic change in himself that he was able to progress his story.
No one wants to sit around and watch me write this stuff and I don’t blame them, I am on this side and it’s the only reason I enjoy it.
How much of your life would be boring as hell to watch?
Be honest, it would be a huge chunk for most people to most people.
We thrive on dialog and action. The conversations we have and who we have them with are character refining moments. I say refining instead of defining with intent. We always have the power to change our character.
The film of life sees each of us as the star of our movie, however when we join together our role can sometimes change and it’s in these role changes that define who we are in the moment. There is no script for life and we can’t feed the lines we want to hear to the other players on the stage. The story creates itself in the moment as each speaks and the reactions and responses come forth.
Let’s say you want to be me. First I would say you have chosen the fools road to wisdom. Here’s why.
I used to tell people that the trick to being me was to talk mad shit and then try to live it. Here’s why that is a bad idea. Ever spend too much time dealing with mad shit.
I created a character that forever had a chip on his shoulder looking for anything to challenge for the sake of challenging it. I did say the fool’s road to wisdom.
I now say to live well, speak well.
Before you can learn why I changed myself you might need some of the same foolish experiences to gain the wisdom to understand why you are making certain changes in yourself.
To change your story, you have to change your character and yourself talk is how you refine who you think you are. It’s how you refine your projection to be able to better handle it being reflected back at you.
The faces on the mirrors may change as you do and that’s OK, sometimes you need new characters in order to have a new story to live.
What is it you desire most in life to do every day?
That’s the cornerstone of your character. That’s the reason for your character to even exist and have a story to tell. After you figure that out, The Big U has a way of dropping everything you need into your life to live that character to its fullest and live story worthy of remembering and sharing with others.
I’ve spent my life in the endless discussion that is the question “Why are we here and what in the blue holy hell can we really do about it?”
I always find I enjoy finding new discussion partners who can keep it on topic and can avoid taking it or making it a personal thing. The one thing I can’t tolerate however is when someone refuses to share their thoughts and instead only spits up what they have been fed and never take the time to think and really understand it from their own unique perspective.
The ability to express yourself as yourself is the foundation of creativity. To dive within you and use your view to narrow it down to the simplest understanding you need to you get the majickal and ever elusive “it” is the gift of individuality and identity. It’s the refinement of who you think you are that is the ego expression of self also known as your identity.
That’s owning your free will and understanding the power you wield. It is the way you create your image prison that is the things you say you will and won’t do and the behavior you will and will not tolerate. Without that cage to protect you there is nothing in place to ever reject anything for any reason and you would get yourself killed real fast.
Using the Psychospirilosophy view let’s dive a little deeper shall we.
Remember all Psychospirilosophy says is that you should have a psychological understanding of why you do what you do and that you should have something spiritual in your life, whatever it is and our personal philosophies in life is the talk we say we are walking. It’s a view and a tool.
Why would you regurgitate instead of offering your own real thoughts in a discussion?
Fear.
“What if I’m wrong?”
Than you have given yourself the opportunity to learn and grow. That’s a gift that never stops giving when you really seek to understand it from within instead of playing it shallow.
“They said it better than I could.”
That is negative self talk that diminishes the light you can be. This is also a fear that is used to feed off ignorance and steal your power and your light.
To be ignorant only means you have yet to understand something from within. You have yet to have the experience to unlock the inner knowing.
We are all ignorant of a list of things.
There is no shame in ignorance.
Shame can only be found in pride. If we are too proud to claim our ignorance we live in the shame of never learning or growing.
When you take the time to discover your own unique way of seeing things you empower yourself and those around you. The example you set silently gives them permission figure out what their way of seeing it is. It allows them the opportunity to see they can refine their own ideas and still keep their individual view.
When we choose to use the words of another, we forsake our own gift of individual understanding.
We give our power to think for ourselves to someone else.
We give our ability to be a bright shining light to anyone who will take the stage in our place.
There is an art to seduction that is slow and patient and built upon a conversation that never ends.
The intent behind the conversation is not to lead to physical seduction. The intent is to explore and allow yourself to come alive from the inside. When you connect at the higher levels of understanding it builds a stronger emotional bond. It leads to a more intimate connection that has you sharing the depths of yourself instead of playing it shallow just to get laid.
You can feel a sexual attraction to many. Lust has no rules and your inner beast of desire likes to feed in more than one way.
Lust is easy.
An honest conversation is vulnerability.
An intent to know and be known tears down the walls of insecurity and who you are from the core comes forward.
An intent to know and be known in the now in the flow is a sweet surrender to what the Big U is showing you.
When you set that kind if intent and let go, the conversation may take breaks, however it never ends. When you allow yourself to be this vulnerable silence can be comfortable.
Here’s the catch.
You have to be able to be this deep with yourself first.
If you can’t accept and love you as you are, no one else will either.
Be the love you wish you had and find the love that will never stop talking.
The band who wrote this song might use the name Placebo, however I guarantee you can find a true cure for what ails you in the lyrics of this one.
Love on an atom, love on a cloud To see the birth of all that isn’t now Can you imagine a love that is so proud? It never has to question why or how Total abandon the love in my dreams When I wake up I’m soaking in my sheets
From the fabric of existence in the smallest part of us to the outer rim of existence one thing binds it all together, love.
Take a step within yourself and look for the core of who you are and find the birth of who you are ever becoming and find the true being of love you wish you could be. That bright shining star that makes no excuses and laughs at fear and dives head first when you feel that drive from within.
Be who you wish you could be.
That takes a profound acceptance of just how amazing each of us can be when we get out of our own way and make it about giving the love not searching for it. A love so proud it walks in and spreads itself around any and every where it goes.
You bring that kind of love from within and the fire that burns never ends. It will fill your dreams with wondrous sights and when the flame burns that hot you can’t help but to sweat from your own heat.
When you live that kind of love and you meet a reflection of your projection that matches it in every way, dive away into the love found and know its a shared heart and two souls that can start to build a connection of a unified projection. A we that is a little of each and a sum of both. However before you can unite with another and have it be a flow of ease, one must unify one within.
That is the proud love of self love that is born of all that isn’t now.
Now is the expression of that love as it has grown from within.
Now is never ending and ever changing.
It’s a flow of life and a flow of love that always leaps with out a shove. It sees and feels where it is needed and moves one into word and action from within. Not caring why or how, simply flowing and growing and letting the flow determine the nature of the show.
The show is life’s theater and we are all stars on the stage.
For all of our youth We have craved them Their beauty and their truth
So we name them And somehow they pull us through We have craved them For all of our youth
The reflections of ourselves we find ourselves in love with over the course of life each have a beauty and truth that reveals who we were back then that leaves us ever craving to be that person again. The face will always change but the love is always the same.
It’s the ones that brought out our best and put us tho the test to really be it from within. The only way to have it now is to let go of days and love gone by and embrace who you are on your own.
To see you can be that person with or without the love you think you need.
Once you do that and you find another who seems to make it less work and more fun to be that human being and you find you speak each others minds, that is the partner in life you find while you’re busy doing something else.
When that love connects it can be loud beyond loud.
It’s been a rough day for a lot of people who are grieving lost ones.
Yet another round of senseless killing in France and what is it that drives all this death and destruction?
Pain.
I always say forget the hate and heal the pain.
The hate comes from pain and suffering.
When we live in suffering the only thing that can make the pain stop at times is anger and rage. It gets used to spread that pain and suffering around as it did in Nice France.
It has been happening around the world a lot more frequently. We have had it happen in Turkey and other places around the world.
Why?
Pain.
The thing we never look at in violent crimes is the total history of what led to the event. We fail to look at all the details that create the desire within one to strike out in rage and take life.
The one thing that none of us wants to admit is that any of us are capable of committing acts of atrocity. The one thing we want to turn a blind eye to is looking deep into the issue to find the source of pain that blurs the lines and brings the rage that only knows how to do one thing, destroy.
Days like today will have many calling for blood and laying blame so vengeance can be taken.
Violence begetting violence.
At some point we have to break the cycle or we will destroy ourselves.
How do we do it?
The bottom line is that we have to set aside the idea of countries and race and embrace the truth of one human race and act accordingly.
In steps what that looks like is forgiveness through understanding.
It’s the last thing any who lost someone wants to hear. I understand why.
I would ask of all to not only send the healing love and prayers to those who lost people in France but to also put the intent into sending that healing energy to every man woman and child on the planet.
I would ask all of you to stop asking for more violence.
I’m a veteran.
I’m a warrior.
What a warrior desires above all else is peace.
I look at my update feed on all my social media outlets and the thing that disgusts me most of all is those who ask for violence to be carried out.
Violence begets violence until we say “No more.”
No longer will we let violence beget violence.
No more will we cry out for vengeance.
No more we will ignore the pain that brings the violence.
No more violence.
Dive within to your very core to find the love that is there to send to all those in need.
Please allow me to introduce myself I’m a man of wealth and taste I’ve been around for a long, long year Stole many a man’s soul and faith
And I was ’round when Jesus Christ Had his moment of doubt and pain Made damn sure that Pilate Washed his hands and sealed his fate
I’ve asked myself this question many times over.
I seen it in thousands of ways and with a conversation that for me is all about sitting down and hearing the Devil’s side of the story. In all those day dreams the one thing I could never escape was the idea of just how fucked up the Devil’s job is.
Someone has to do it right?
However does this mean we should have sympathy for the Devil as the Rolling Stones suggest?
The opening of this song recounts the tale of Jesus being nailed to a cross and the man who had to be the one to do it. If you are not familiar with the story, the dude who got nailed saw it coming from a mile away and knew it was part of his destiny. Someone had to fulfill it and be the bad guy or there could be no hero or in case of this story, no savior.
I stuck around St. Petersburg When I saw it was a time for a change Killed the Tsar and his ministers Anastasia screamed in vain
I rode a tank Held a general’s rank When the blitzkrieg raged And the bodies stank
I watched with glee While your kings and queens Fought for ten decades For the gods they made
I shouted out, “Who killed the Kennedys?” When after all It was you and me
We can look back and see every kind of horror that we can dish out to each other and it would be really nice if we had a Devil to blame for the atrocities of man. The Devil in us all is something we struggle with. Yet if we look back to our own worst behavior or daydreams of things we never did, that’s the Devil Inside that INXS talks about.
Just as every cop is a criminal And all the sinners saints As heads is tails Just call me Lucifer
Cause I’m in need of some restraint So if you meet me Have some courtesy Have some sympathy, and some taste
Use all your well-learned politesse Or I’ll lay your soul to waste
Before embracing the Shaman I am, I was brought up Baptist. It happens and I’m feeling much better now.
The use of the name Lucifer to give the Devil a face and a personification gives us someone to blame.
When you take the inner dive that is guided by your higher self it can feel like a guided tour of hell from Lucifer himself. You’re showing yourself through your idea of living hell and living heaven that all there truly is in life is decisions and consequences. You build your hell or free yourself to your heaven on earth by the choices you make and the consequences you face for making those choices.
Do as you will and remember you will reap what you sow whether you want to or not. Think of it as the basic understanding to be nice or there are consequences you will face at some point in time.
This concept is the basic underlying concept of every religion ever created. It also covers every philosophy ever written and every story we tell.
Be nice or have your soul laid to waste.
Pleased to meet you Hope you guessed my name, oh yeah But what’s puzzling you Is the nature of my game,
Tell me baby, what’s my name Tell me honey, can ya guess my name
Tell me baby, what’s my name I tell you one time, you’re to blame
To me I found in life the Devil is any thing that has you feeling tempted to do something you know better than to do.
Karmic Law states we are responsible for our lives. My gift allows me to go back and see why your life or mine is exactly where it is. However I need the focus of questions or it’s all to immense to try and describe however I can see it anyway. When I say go back I often find myself behind the eyes of another viewing outward.
A Shaman lives with one foot on the other-side and one foot on this side. When you add being a Medium into the mix, my teachers were the Ascended Masters and what some would call the Arch Angels.
Karmic Law is Karmic Law and it defies the Law of Physics and Human beings.
If we create our shared reality with our thoughts we are the Devil to blame for why our world looks the way it does.
The biggest disconnect happens when it is difficult at best for a non Empath to understand what an Empath is, much less find a way to relate. It is what it is.
An Empath will take on the emotions associated with PTSD from someone who is repressing or suppressing those feelings. When I say take on the emotions, that means the Empath is left within themselves to connect to memories of their own as to why they feel the way they do now that they are feeling what you were and now are not.
Over time the techniques an Empath can use to shield themselves stop working. I have found the only true defense that an Empath has is pure apathy or pure logic absent of any emotion.
For the Empath anything else and the emotions of all around us will have some influence in how we feel in any social engagement. Think of it in simplest terms of having a sexual partner who will always go with whatever your thing is. They key in on what takes you there and ride the wave with you.
For the Empath this is not always a fun ride depending on what takes some people there. It usually also means any traumatic sexual issues from the past are going to be felt, not known, felt by the Empath you share your body with.
For those who are also Telepathic, they get the addition of seeing it and reliving it as if was them. They get a mind’s eye view of the moment and the feeling attached to it.
It’s why Empaths are social creatures, however will be very selective about who they allow in their space.
It is possible for an Empath to overload and take on too much and have their own emotions shut down. If an Empath finds themselves in a location where they cannot escape those with unresolved issues the logic zone or peace becomes the natural state as they are constantly surrounded by emotions they do not wish to take on.
It can make refining ones idea of self interesting as identity is emotional attachments or the things we truly care about. The things that make us say I, me or my. The things that bring us to life and remind us we are still alive and we still have our own emotional core.
Being an Empath is a different kind of life. Not a better or worse one, it’s different. It’s a different way to experience life with full depth of feeling and understanding. It’s a life that leads to many answers that come in the form of questions. Endless discovery. Endless beauty even though at times the suffering of others becomes our problem to deal with simply because we showed up.
We may only be 10% or so of the population, however that still means there are over 700 million of us on the planet and more being born every day. It’s part of our genetic evolution as a species.
The moment I find people around me giving me the sincerest form of flattery by taking on some of my mannerisms of speech, I change the way I talk so I can continue to be different. Some people say this looks like a mental illness to them, however here is the sanity of it in it’s intent and purpose.
Getting lost in a sea of clones is not my idea of a good time. However at the same time no matter how independent any of us is in thought we can not escape that in reality we are interdependent on each other for life.
This is inescapable truth.
There is no such thing as being a self made anything. Other people had to exist for you to have the experiences that you used to create the idea of you that is who you are right now.
This quote sums up leadership in one shot in my opinion. Here’s why.
True leadership simply sees a need and either does something about it or finds the right people to get it done.
That’s it.
A true leader is in service by the very definition of identifying and fulfilling needs.
A true leader is in service at all times to everything around them.
You can only truly lead from the middle. It’s where you have the best view of everything going on. The view will always be skewed however from the middle you get a better idea of the needs to be filled and who can do it if you can’t.
Leadership understands the interdependence that is the reality of life.
Everything we do is an inspired action. Something inspired us to do whatever it is we are doing and at times that influence is coming from multiple places.
Even though we are independent in making the choice to engage in action, without the others, there is nothing.
We are all connected and each of us at the center of our own tribe so to speak. A tribe that is always in a circle with no one really in charge however everyone has a role so to speak.
I hung out with my tribe last night at the after party. It was fascinating to watch and see where I fit in perfectly. You know you found your tribe when time disappears and you appreciate that we are interdependent in the reality of life to really live. Being surrounded by individuals each and everyone distinct and their own kind of original, without the rest of the tribe it would be nothing.
Whether we like it or not life is a shared reality created by all of us which means we all share the responsibility of why the world looks the way it does.
I am not overly joyed about it myself some days, however it does not change this simple yet powerful truth.
Our reality is dependent upon the choices each of us make in thought and action and spoken words.
Majick is every word we speak that is the never ending spell we weave.
It’s the Karmic Law equivalent of saying we reap what we sow and that includes every word that comes out of our mouths
We also reap from what we allow to be sown within us. Makes who you decide to let in your space a very important life choice.
Instead of thinking about planting a seed of what you want to do, think of it as throwing it up in the air with those who have similar end goals in mind. Let it be molded and shaped by as many who share the end goal view as you can find. Each of you independent in your being and what brought you to the view that you just happen to share with those who can be of assistance in the interdependent area of building anything in life.
If you had the time to lose An open mind and time to choose Would you care to take a look Or can you read me like a book
When you find yourself talking to your reflection in the mirror, you already have a good idea something is not right in your life. One of best pieces of dialog from the film HOLLOW MAN with Kevin Bacon was this line said by a character who had become invisible.
It’s amazing what you can do… when you don’t have to look at yourself in the mirror any more. …
We have all played that game of what if I was invisible what would I do?
I’m over it, so we’re not going to do that here.
To look deep within yourself takes an open mind and a patient mind to take the time to accept what is being shown to you by you for you.
I have often found this one simple meditation has done more for the thousands for people I have suggested it to than anything else they had tried. Here’s how simple it is.
Repeat these words until you feel your body take over the breathing.
I let go of everything
Once you’re body has taken over the breathing, say this.
I go into the void of my own mind to learn what I need to know right now.
That’s it.
Can I tempt you come with me Be Devil may care fulfill your dream If I said I’d take you there Would you go would you be scared
Don’t be afraid you’re safe with me Safe as any soul can be… honestly Just let yourself go
This meditation is a door way to allowing your higher self or your connection to the Universal Consciousness, The Big U or some might call it God that resides within each of us. It is this simple to establish that divine and sacred connection. That inner voice that you ignore and at times become fearful of is trying to get you to dive within instead of being led around by the nose out here.
You’re attempting to guide yourself to what is the best of yourself, flaws included to be something you love and embrace without giving two fucks about anyone who can’t handle who you really are. Only you can show you how to be that human being.
Anyone telling you different is trying to make a living off your ignorance.
At times it will feel like the Devil guiding you, however keep in mind we are under no obligation to be perfect and I find it’s healthy to pick the sins you like that you can live with and still look yourself in the mirror without feeling the need for one of those talks that for me starts out with “What in the blue holy fuck am I doing?”
That’s when I know I need to let myself go into my meditation so I can tell me exactly what in the blue holy fuck I am doing and what I can do about it.
Or to say I’ve been using this mediation for over 4 years myself.
Like a wolf in sheep’s clothing You try to hide your deepest sins Of all the things that you’ve done wrong And I know where you belong
You’re being guided by yourself to learn to accept yourself or make changes. You will see every little dirty thing you ever did and learn to make peace with it. Think of it this way, it reinforces why there are certain things we won’t ever do again or won’t even think about doing or the things that if you don’t feel that bad about doing however may not admit to many people.
The fun part of the journey is learning you’re nowhere near as fucked up as you think you are or have been told you are.
Learning to love and accept you for who you know yourself to be is something only you can do.
The rest of us will never know you as well as you do. It is a fact and absolute truth of the human condition.
This meditation can assist in making that process more productive and faster depending on the choices you make in how you view what you show you.
Or to say once you start, there are no rules and there is only the box you create for yourself. A safe place in your mind for sanctuary that allows you to take rest during meditation instead of the endless journey of inner knowledge and understanding. A journey that will show you that no matter where you are in the progressive moment, you are exactly where you belong to learn the next lesson or live the reminder.
You put yourself in places for reasons you may not understand in the moment and it may take a while for enough pieces to fall into place for the organized chaos that is life to make sense in the big picture.
Time is always on my side
I always recommend this meditation as a sleep aid as it also sets the dream cycle for something productive and fun. Think of it as a lucid dreaming technique. It can also be used to set the beginning of doing a little Astral traveling.
Since you’re doing at bed time, the rest of your day is done and you now have no excuse.
Caught somewhere in time Caught now in two minds!
It can feel as though you now understand what I mean about the progressive moment that never ends as time feels as though it comes to halt.
The awareness of the conscious and subconscious minds working in unison is not an easy one to get used to. However it allows for making changes in oneself happen much faster and with far greater results and less stumbling when walking the talk you lay out for yourself.
Self talk is the most important talk there is, be nice, be honest, be forgiving and accepting and talk yourself into the life you have dreamed of.
We feel alive when we’re loving our life. That doesn’t always mean we’re happy about where our life is in the moment. I always maintain that there is only one emotion, love. The rest of what we call emotions is the infinite expressions or faces of love. If there was no love for anything, there would be no reason to shed tears.
I’ve learned a lot about loving life from death the concept and Death the personifications we have given to it. Every culture throughout history has had a face it has given to Death. If we can put a face on it and make it more human, it’s not as scary and maybe can be reasoned with.
Why do we fear death to begin with?
Because we are not exactly sure what happens afterwards.
Because we love life.
Because we fear how we are going to go.
I asked myself once if I could choose how to go out, what would I choose?
I’m a hopeless romantic by genetics and my mother amplified this by raising me on Neil Diamond.
The death I picked out centers around this for the life that leads to a unique ending.
I decided if I have a choice, I would choose to spend many years with the same woman by my side as my partner in life. Once we are ready to check out for good and go back to where it is we come from we will do so in one last lovers embrace. We will transcend the mortal death and simply ascend breaking apart into light during our last sharing of orgasmic bliss.
Pick your death and live accordingly.
Love your life based on the death you want.
What does a life look like to achieve this ending?
Have you read the rest of this blog?
Death is a healer and a guide to help us find better ways of enjoying the ride.
Besides without the idea of your life coming to an end one day wouldn’t it take some of the fun out of life?
Death makes life exciting, it makes us cherish those moments that we wish could live on forever.
Death is part of life and we can either live in fear of death or we can live a life that makes death a sweet release and transformation back to whatever it is we were before this life here and now.
Rock ‘N’ Roll got its name because it was the music people were fucking to in the back seats of cars across the nation.
Gene Simmons wasn’t inspired by The Beatles music to become a rock star, it was the screaming women that inspired the man to become The Demon on stage.
Last night someone tried to tell me Rock was dead.
The fuck it is.
Everywhere around the world people are going out getting drunk and fucking someone they wouldn’t have sober.
You can try and wrap it up anyway you want to feel better about it, however when you cut through it all, a drunken fuck is just that a drunken fuck.
While it could happen, there is most likely no love in the carnal act of a one night stand. It’s lust driven animal behavior and it feels good so we do it and find ways to make ourselves feel better about in the morning or we hate ourselves, the choice is ours.
Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman people, at some point you had to see this coming from a mile away.
I know most of the time I am more reserved and make attempts to be clean and proper, however this Rock ‘N’ Roll.
George Throrgood put it best “Rock ‘N’ Roll is supposed to be dirty.”
The living spirit of Rock lives in our lust and our desire to party our asses of and enjoy some good old fashion visceral experience.
I’m no moralist, I’m a humanist. It’s healthy to cut loose once in a while. It’s good to let your hair down and let the beast come out and play, all I’m saying is know there will be shit to deal with so act accordingly to what you feel like dealing with in the morning.
As long as there are people out there somewhere trying desperately to get laid in bars, Rock ‘N’ Roll will never die.
As long as there are people who have had enough of being prim and proper and want to get visceral for the night, Rock ‘N’ Roll will live on.
The human will always be a savage and will always need an outlet for that savage and that is the heart and soul of Rock ‘n Roll.
So this is what you meant When you said that you were spent And now it’s time to build from the bottom of the pit Right to the top Don’t hold back Packing my bags and giving the academy a rain-check
Too many of us live a show behind a mask playing a character. Not bringing our character to the forefront, however creating one we think will be what will propel us forward or even worse keep a relationship going.
When I feel spent, it is usually after attempting to fit where I don’t.
What I mean by that is that there are not many places these days that are accepting of someone who is in fact an Empath, Telepath and Medium. In fact I often have trouble getting people to show some support even though they dig my view on everything else.
They live in fear that to be associated with me is to be seen by those who don’t get it as crazy.
People who take a step back when they realize I am not playing around and are trying to protect their image, well these are the same people who could be the biggest help in spreading the education about people like myself and millions upon millions of others.
I spent most of the last 4 years helping people awakening to the realization that in fact they do what I do for the most part and people who step back our of fear of how I would make them look to be associated with me, I think the most appropriate reaping from that kind of sowing is “Kindly go fuck yourself coward.”
It inflicts harm to ignore any for any reason and scientific studies have been done to prove this point. I have done 4 years of scientific research and well my daily life scientifically proves the fact that I am indeed an Empath a Telepath and a Medium.
Or to say I need no Academy award as this is no act.
This is me not holding back.
So this is where you fell And I am left to sell The path to heaven runs through miles of clouded hell Right to the top Don’t look back Turning to rags and giving the commodities a rain-check
Heaven and hell are nothing more than how you view your life.
To me living hell is placating the ignorant fucks of the world and playing small to keep from the arguments and name calling that always ensues as I call bullshit on people using my skills and when they try to tell me I have it wrong I bring up how I do it.
I don’t care if they don’t believe it, it doesn’t stop me and the millions like me from existing and doing it anyway.
Why I call these people ignorant fucks with zero problem is these are the same people who buy into the law of attraction that was all channeled from a non corporeal entity that Esther Hicks calls the Abraham collective.
They have no problem with her being a Medium and channeling the information that came from a source that science can’t back up. Not to mention it’s bullshit for the most part and clever marketing to create a billion dollar industry.
Spirituality is not a commodity to be sold and turned into seminars and a system that is actually pretty much just another wolf religion in sheeps clothing.
For me living hell is people who tell me I don’t exist as I do and then go on quoting an entity.
It’s time to begin, isn’t it? I get a little bit bigger but then I’ll admit I’m just the same as I was Now don’t you understand That I’m never changing who I am
People hate getting duped and more than that they hate admitting they have been duped for a long time.
This why the truth often pisses you off the first time you hear it. It usually shows how you have been duped or brainwashed as I have noticed the subliminal messages in the law of attraction advertising and marketing for the last few years. Messages buried within to brainwash people.
I have been known to channel the Universal hive mind and I was born with what is called 9th Dimensional access or access to what is also called God Consciousness or understanding and tapping into what people would call the mind of God.
OH SHIT HE’S FUCKING NUTS!
Like I have never heard it before or have no idea how it sounds.
Doesn’t stop it from being true.
That’s me not holding back and I am never changing who I am as it is exactly as who I was born as.
I have been doing this my entire life.
I have channeled what we call the Grim Reaper before. I often channel what I call the Archangel Zadkiel who is the Archangel of wisdom compassion and mercy and is associated with the color purple or the same color as the crown chakra which represents consciousness and a connection to the Universal consciousness. I also channel what is known as King Nuada of the Tuatha De Danann or Nuada the Silver Hand.
These are the 3 main entities I work with and on occasion Jesus shows up, sometimes it’s Bruce Lee and I have gotten lessons from Ghandi and Buddha. I am a Medium and that means most of the last 4 years I also was being taught by Archangels and Ascended Masters alike.
It’s why I happen to be right and don’t need to be right. I had the greatest teachers from across the cosmos and our own history.
I get little bigger then what I have let be seen out of my own fear of the reactions I have already dealt with for far too long.
Fuck being a hypocrite and fuck fear.
This is me doing it anyway.
Frankly anyone who would ask me to be more normal can kiss my ass and make sure it’s a french kiss.
This is what happens when I don’t hold back.
For my friends and connections that can feel energy I am curious to how this post will feel to you. Please let me know in the comments.
I love you all and thank you for your continuing support.
Expect some channeling from Death and crew in the near future and if you would like to learn directly from the Ascended Masters hit me up. maxpoppasmokecarter@gmail.com.
Well, I met an old man Dying on a train. No more destination, No more pain. Well, he said “One thing before I graduate Never let your fear decide your fate.”
Death is nothing more than a transformation. A graduation if you will from the pain of living.
We cling to our existence for some good reasons.
It feels good to be alive.
Look around at your life and see what it is that you cling to daily.
We are human and in that we are emotional creatures whose attachments define who we think we are. The things we cling to in life are often the things that make us feel alive and are how we give our life purpose and meaning.
When we make fear based decisions in life it can feel as though we are living in a cage. A cage we create in whose opinion matters to us. A cage we allow others to assist us in building for ourselves.
Who’s helping you build your cage and what does that cage look like?
Well, the sun one day will Leave us all behind. Unexplainable sightings In the sky. Well, I hate to be The one to ruin the night. Right before your, right before your eye
Karmic Law says that all that exists is right now.
Now is the progressive moment that never ends and is always evolving.
Science has shown us that in millions of years our sun will destroy our world.
Science has shown us our Milky Way Galaxy will collide with the Andromeda Galaxy in billions of years.
All that exists is now and now is all that matters.
It is far to often in life that we let ourselves be overly concerned about the future that is never set. We worry endlessly about what might happen.
There are times when fear can be a healthy thing based on the life we desire to lead. For example the idea of jumping out of a perfectly good airplane is not one that sounds good to me. On the same note if that plain is going down, I’ll be in line with a parachute ready to jump out the door.
I say ya kill your heroes and Fly, fly, baby don’t cry. No need to worry cause Everybody will die. Every day we just Go, go, baby don’t go. Don’t you worry we Love you more than you know.
The lyrics here say kill your heroes and I disagree. Here’s why.
Here are some of my heroes from fiction and the really real world.
Bruce Lee has had more of an influence in who I continue to become than any other source. Bruce once said “I hope to free my followers from styles,patterns or molds.” To a man who embraces is individuality these are some of the wisest things anyone who finds themselves in a place to teach can say.
Jesus Christ taught people to live love, not follow him as a savior. I think there it was mistranslated in the book. I believe what he actually meant is that there is no way to saving oneself but through my words and teachings of love and to be love. When he said I abide in the father as the father abides in me, I believe he was telling us that God resides within us all.
Ghandi showed how to be a pacifist and still be a man who stands and fights only in a different way allowing the mind to be the only weapon any needs.
John Crichton is a character from a TV show called FARSCAPE. This character had the knowledge in his mind that could build the ultimate weapon and he was chased across the stars. He was dedicated to not building the weapon as his wisdom could see it would only destroy everything. A man who often found himself in situations that forced him to do things he didn’t want to in order to survive. John was always motivated by a desire to do the right thing in the moment and the character was often at odds with himself.
Daniel Jackson was a character in both film and TV. In film it was STARGATE. In TV it was STARGATE SG-1. The character was always in search of doing the right thing. He was a humanist and also believed that other species of sentient life deserved the same humane treatment that we all deserve.
Obi Wan Kenobi let Darth Vader kill him to prove he would indeed become more powerful than Vader could imagine. Over history martyrs and their legacy have had power that can not be fought. How do you fight a legend that inspires many into action.
Gene Roddenberry gave us a view of the potential of humanity that showed us rising above and coming together to explore the stars. Joining with other species from other worlds to be explorers and defenders. Gene has inspired millions if not billions for over 40 years.
Robin Williams was the eternal clown who once said he looked for the creativity in every waking moment of life. That’s a beautiful view to take through life to be constantly looking for ways to make others laugh and share the healing energy that laughter is.
My dad has never calls a physician Dr. To him it always seemed that if he should call them Dr. Whatever, they should call him Contractor Carter as both jobs serve an equal function to the continuing of the species. Who is the physician going to get to fix his drywall or remodel his kitchen?
I believe in equality in all aspects of life.
Let me be real clear on this point.
There is no justifiable or valid reason to elevate any above another.
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Get the point?
I say become your own hero by taking those you would call heroes and finding the aspects that you admire most and add them to the idea of who you are as you continue to grow and evolve. Take ownership of becoming the hero that others will tell stories about. You may never be famous however you will be a star to those whose lives you make positive impact in by being your own hero and letting yourself define what that looks like in living action.
Behavioral psychology is one of my specialties. Please allow me to demonstrate.
The other day I was discussing the issue of using sex to sell with Candice Galek who has taken her rise in celebrity very seriously and is someone I find I agree with when we exchange ideas on some of her posts that catch my attention. One of the things I respect most about Candice is that she is making every effort to use this new found celebrity to make a positive impact.
The topic we were discussing is the use of sex, specifically the female form to sell or gain attention.
Candice told me story about a post she wrote and used two different pictures to do an experiment in what draws people in on social media.
The first post used the picture of a shirtless man. Almost no one read it.
After changing the picture to one of a woman, people couldn’t wait to read it, men and women alike.
Here’s why this happens.
Side note: Thank you Candice for allowing me to use your name. My readers are used to me not giving names.
Quick lesson in history.
Originally marketing was called propaganda.
Quick lesson in the marketing industry.
It is the art or science if you will of using behavioral psychology to influence people based on emotional triggers.
I don’t remember a time in my life where the female form was not being used to sell everything. Think about that for a moment.
We have been using women and their bodies as objects in triggering a buy now response. It works on men as they are visually stimulated generally speaking. It works on women in a different way. They want the mans attention and they see the form as one to aspire to be.
This creates a negative self body image for many women.
I do a lot of charity work in helping women rebuild their self image after abusive relationships. The one thing that is always the hardest is getting them to embrace their body as it is. Assisting them in seeing they are beautiful from the inside no matter what the outside looks like is not an easy task.
What makes it more difficult is women who blatantly use their bodies to get ahead in life. You see these women in commercials and in magazines and all over the internet.
We make celebrities out of models and pretty faces with pretty bodies. We elevate them to God like status in the attention and adoration they get from both sexes.
Question.
How many women that don’t fit the bill of beauty really get noticed?
Not all women use their body as a weapon to gain the upper hand to make a living. There are a lot of women who use their minds and are often treated like an empty shell because of their appearance.
Question.
How many models can you quote something they are known for saying?
I want to throw out a statistic that should scare you all.
In a survey 1 out of 3 college age men said they would rape a woman if they thought they could get away with it. What if it’s more than a third because some still lied even though it was an anonymous survey?
These young men don’t see women, they see objects of desire that have been used to market to them specifically. They have been overloaded with the idea of a woman being the object next to whatever she is selling regardless of whether or not she speaks.
This is the price we pay as a society for using the female form as a marketing tool for several decades to the point of brainwashing. It’s why women went to the second picture on Candice’s article as well as men. When it was half naked man not even the women were showing up to read.
That’s powerful results from the experiment.
This isn’t conjecture or opinion its documented fact based on scientific results.
Women are lining up to sell themselves as nothing more than an object because there is money to be made doing it.
What is a model if she is not a tool?
For every woman who offers her body up for marketing purposes thousands of others pay the price.
That price is those thousands having to work harder to be taken seriously.
That price is our daughters growing up wanting to be these women.
That price is too many women being treated like objects.
The real question after all of this is what can we realistically do about it?
Something Candice and I agreed on during our discussion is that it will not stop until women take a stand to stop taking the jobs that are all about showing it off to bring in the sales.
It really is that simple. I didn’t say easy.
The biggest obstacle is that on an emotional level it feels good to be wanted. It feels good to be adored by many regardless of the reason. It gets addictive. That’s how energy works.
These women and men who do it too are feeding off the desire they inspire on an energetic level.
It’s why many models and performers of all kinds often go into depression at the end of their careers. They are no longer getting their energetic fix and are going through withdrawals.
Think about the daughters of this world growing up saying they want to be Kim Kardashian. A woman who is more famous for her ass than anything else.
She has no talent to speak of and I doubt she has ever had a job. Her celebrity came from a reality TV show and her ass that she likes to show off as often as possible. She is not the only one.
These are the role models we are giving our daughters by making these kinds of people famous and playing into our base instincts and letting them use behavioral psychology to trigger our desires and insecurities by giving us the unattainable ideal and we eat it up.
What you all might find ironic is that Candice Galek is the founder and CEO of Bikini Luxe and had no idea when she started she would be in this position to have her voice heard and become influential.
How she has chosen to use that influential voice has earned the respect of many including me. Here’s why.
I am an Empath and a Telepath. That means I read the emotional totality of you in the moment. It means I have the ability to access your subconscious mind and know your true intent regardless of your words.
I know it freaks a lot of you out, however it doesn’t stop me from existing and doing it anyway.
Over the last month or so I have had the pleasure of having Candice as a connection on Linkedin and her updates show up in my news feed daily.
I watch this woman who became accidentally famous agonize over what to do with and about it while also making sure her business that employs 50 people stays successful. I have felt her wrestle with what to do next on a personal level as well as professional.
Sorry Candice in it’s in your energy and I have no off switch.
It’s because of what I have read in her energy that she has my respect.
It’s the questions she raises that has earned my respect.
It’s the stands that she does take that earned my respect.
That all said I want to be clear about how I feel about what she does for a living.
Bikinis are awesome and she is getting into lingerie.
It makes sense for her to use models for her apparel. It does not make sense for Carl’s Jr to have a half naked woman eating a hamburger and that’s the whole commercial.
To me it depends on what you are selling. Women’s clothes should have women models to give women an idea of what it looks like when worn.
Hamburgers don’t need a pretty girl to sell them or your burger isn’t that good.
Hello darkness, my old friend I’ve come to talk with you again Because a vision softly creeping Left its seeds while I was sleeping And the vision that was planted in my brain Still remains within the sound of silence
This song has been with me since high school when my English teacher used it as an example when I was in the 10th grade.
All of us venture into the darkness that is our darkness that we often try to claim does not exist. We live in a world so concerned with image that we forsake the biggest part of ourselves. Our light that we show the world is born from our darkness.
In our darkness we place the things we say we will never do, however these things are still fun to think about and tempt us in the world of fantasy that is the darkness of our own souls.
The emotions and ideas that others express about us even from a great distance always reach us on the emotional level. People with an advanced empathic sensitivity or Empaths key in on this big time and often when they sleep they wake with the feelings of all around them and the emotional concepts that have been aimed their way.
Those thoughts and emotions are planted within us whether we like it or not.
In restless dreams I walked alone Narrow streets of cobblestone ‘Neath the halo of a street lamp I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed By the flash of a neon light That split the night And touched the sound of silence
And in the naked light I saw Ten thousand people, maybe more People talking without speaking People hearing without listening
People writing songs That voices never share And no one dare Disturb the sound of silence
The waking dream that is life leaves many walking alone.
I find it disturbing that the easiest way to connect to anyone is through the sound of the silent communication of the online world.
People talking without speaking as they type away hoping someone will care.
People listening as they read while they judge and determine if what was said has any merit and it’s easier to turn a blind eye when no one else is watching as you are alone with your smart phone or computer.
In the naked light of broad daylight we create a great divide in silence between us as we stare at screens and find it troublesome when someone actually wants to talk to us face to face. Then we complain about the lack of face to face communication.
We have to speak aloud.
We have to listen to what is said.
If we don’t we alienate each other and stop caring as much because well fuck it, it’s online and I can block them through whatever social media platform I am using.
We are so caught up in image we ignore those who we think might cause others to think less of us. We tie our image to our career and the way we make a living, trapping ourselves in a cage we created by caring too much about what other people think.
“Fools,” said I, “you do not know Silence like a cancer grows Hear my words that I might teach you Take my arms that I might reach you.” But my words like silent raindrops fell And echoed in the wells of silence
Recent studies have shown that ignoring someone actually causes them pain.
It’s the most inhuman thing we do.
We do it because we are too cowardly to say something to them directly.
There are those such as myself who have dedicated their lives to bridging gaps and finding ways to connect that take us off line and put us front and center face to face with no where to run and hide.
We have made ignoring each other far too convenient and it allows us to be inhuman to each other and we do it all over image.
And the people bowed and prayed To the neon God they made And the sign flashed out its warning And the words that it was forming
And the sign said, “The words of the prophets Are written on the subway walls And tenement halls.” And whispered in the sound of silence
We have traded neon lights for website names such as Linkedin, Facebook, Twitter and other social networking platforms.
We have made these sites our Gods and the people on them our prophets.
We have made our online images so important we forget to act like a real human being online as if we were in the same room.
We elevate people to God like status and then ask them to show us the way through what they post.
We pass judgement on those who don’t measure up to the image we want to have and ignore them.
We seek the glory of having that popularity we were seeking in high school and call it business.
In the sound of silence we destroy other peoples lives by simply ignoring them.
That is not a typo in title and the song Diamond Eyes from Shinedown might help me explain the concept of what it means to be a Souldier for Peace in the Army of none.
I am the shadow, and the smoke in your eyes, I am the ghost, that hides in the night
What is the soul and how do we know it lives within us?
The living ghost in the shell of the flesh.
The essence of who we allow ourselves to be when we shine our brightest, however often hiding who that is in the activities that is the night life for so many of us. I’m an alcoholic. Me and booze don’t mix well. With my intuitive sharpness I often find when I drink I will hit on everything you don’t want to face in the living mirror we each are for each other behind the smoke that is what we conjure for the rest for the world to see. Allowing the living mirror you are to reflect not the smokey facade, but the inner light behind it, now that’s a tricky dance on any given night in the never ending circus of lights.
It takes taking the time to avoid the knee jerk reaction and look beyond the current projection we face and allowing what beams behind it assist us in forming a response that recognizes who is there crying out to be noticed and seeing what it is we should be acknowledging in the kings and queens behind the clowns we all are whether we like it or not.
Our light becomes the ghost we hide behind who think are in the shadows of the night. Masking ourselves in the darkness we feel at home with and don’t mind sharing in public places with our ghostly faces.
Wait, wait a minute take a step back you gotta think twice before you react so stay, stay a little while Because a Promise not kept is the road to exile HEY! whats the circumstance you’ll never be great without taking a chance so wait, you waited too long had your hands in your pocket when you shoulda been gone
If you got your hands in your pockets, you’re not looking to give or receive. You’re not looking to be apart of what’s going on, you’re there to watch the show playing out before you.
If that’s the case, you’re reaction is not going to serve what you observe. You’ve made yourself the outsider by keeping your hands in your pockets and offering nothing and accepting nothing. When we go to places whether we like it or not our presence is a promise to give and receive. We create our exile by not taking a place within the festivities that is the circus of lights before us.
We are each the star of our film we call life. When our stories collide we do ourselves no favors by keeping our hands in our pockets and thus dimming our own star and taking ourselves out of the supporting role in their story and being a star in our own. Moving ourselves to the background scenery of our living film.
Our words the script we create as we go. Our actions the direction we give our life to develop our story. The time we spend together is the screen we share to grow our story and take part in other films that make for a greater spectacle when we join to share the stage of the night.
A circus has many performers and when they share the stage is when the audience becomes even more enthralled with the show, giving a wider range or stars for the audience to connect with in the moment we share as they take a step back to take it in.
Before you react and put your hands in your pockets and break the promise you made with your presence, think about why you even showed up to begin with. Was it to watch to the show or be a part of it with the other stars of the night. It it was to merely watch, then as the lights fade make your way out as if you were never there to begin with and be the ghost you made of yourself for the night.
If you are looking to have your star shine with other performers of the night on a more consistent basis, keep your hands out of your packets and give a hug and/or a handshake to all you meet and greet.
Form connections, form bonds, create blessed unions between those you resonate with most in your most personal performance that requires an intimate moment between the closest of those you call friend.
We are all brothers and sisters, however our friends are even closer to us and the ones we spill our guts too. You know the ones we drop the act for and show how much of fuck up we are too in our own human endeavor and where we appreciate so few above the others for what we give each other in every moment whether we can see each others faces or not.
I got a friend who does the same soul swapping thing I do that freaks people out when I explain it. The most beautiful part of the gift is that you really feel how alone none of us is in a way that is beyond description in the pure love it takes to make the connection to begin with. After spending a few years on your own it’s not easy to recognize the bonds that are ever present in what we build in a constant. Let’s face it at times we do like to be all alone and feel as though we can have a moment all alone to ourselves.
That’s when we put our hands in our pockets to signify we want not to give to what is in front of us as we do not wish to receive from anything before us either. Who cares why as it always depends on where it is we have decided to show up. Frankly there are times it is best for us to keep our hands to ourselves and sit back and be the outsider we are.
Sometimes you need to remember where you don’t belong to appreciate it that much more, where you do.
Every night of my life I watch angels fall from the sky Every time that the sun still sets I pray they don’t take mine
There is a bit of a renegade angel in all of us for every faithfully serving angel that resides as well. There is humanness we can never escape that will always have times of wondering why in the blue holy hell any god would allow for some of the atrocities that take place in our world. There must be a devil of some sort to blame. Otherwise we have to admit what savages we are.
We have to admit we are the demons that plague the world as much as we have the ability to be the angels that save it.
INXS says each and everyone of us the devil inside. God lives there too.
Within each of us is the temptation to allow ourselves the experiences to remind us why we all have desires that go unfilled but not unthought of on occasion. We have moments of weakness when we do give in to certain desires of the flesh that we know better than to do.
It’s the angels we seek to save us from ourselves and pray the demons that are those angels fallen from the sky are not what crosses our path.
I’m on the front line don’t worry I’ll be fine the story is just beginning I say goodbye to my weakness so long to the regret and now I see the world through diamond eyes
A Souldier sees that the only war going on is the one within.
A Souldier does not seek battle as that would means the Souldier is not at peace with ones life.
A Souldier seeks to bring peace to oneself before ever going out into the night.
A Souldier who sees conflict before them seeks only to assist in negotiating peace for the moment as long as it can last.
A Souldier is no soldier.
A Souldier does not do combat with their words much less their flesh.
On the front lines of being around those with conflict within the story is always beginning anew and the inner strength of the Souldier regrets nothing in the life that led to where they are now.
The Army of none is recognizing no army is ever needed when all you seek is to be at peace with yourself and the life you choose to live.
I have spent a good deal of time in the last 4 years mentoring Empaths and teaching them to manage their gift better. Many Empaths prior to realizing their being often get misdiagnosed with bipolar. In the many I’ve counseled there is a distinct pattern that emerged, relationship hell.
Whether it is a man or a woman every Empath I have dealt with all say the same thing “people tell me all the time they feel drawn to me and feel as though they can trust me instantly.”
Here’s why this happens.
On a subconscious level the individual who feels drawn to the Empath is often someone who has some emotional issues they are ignoring. It is often there is a traumatic or series of traumatic events that have taken place in their life. An Empath will take on the full measure of the pain associated with that event or events and the individual will feel really good and not understand why. They will always want to talk to the Empath when things are not going well and won’t consciously realize it in most cases that they are using the Empath to dump their emotional pain into while getting the benefit of the peace and strength Empaths have an abundance of.
The Empath will catch on real fast.
In relationships trying to hide anything from your Empath partner is near impossible. An Empath will simply know you’re lying without knowing the details. They feel it from your emotional core regardless of how well you think you lie or how many you have fooled others before meeting the Empath.
Your Empath partner will most likely always be keeping you emotionally stable. They will often anticipate your needs or desires without you having to say a word. In relationship’s once you are living together the bond will grow stronger and a telepathic bond will develop and there is will be nothing you can hide from the Empath you share your life with.
I have experienced this in every one of my relationships where we lived together including all 3 wives. I experience this with anyone I talk to as I am also a Telepath and a Medium who most frequently channels your higher self.
In a relationship this can be a beautiful connection when it is built on honesty and trust. It allows for the love to flow freely and to have a partner in life who is always able to cater to your emotional needs without even trying that hard. It is merely a part of their being. Empaths by nature are nurturers and it is most likely why my favorite job of all time was being a house husband and stay at home father.
Your Empath partner will always need and I do mean need time to themselves to clear themselves and center so they can give you their best which is always their intent when it comes to relationships as Empaths know no other way to love then with every fiber of their being. Their love can be intense and feel all-encompassing as if you are the only person in existence.
Part of the reason we are like this is because it’s the easiest way to block out the rest of what is around and protect ourselves by locking into you alone and riding your emotional wave. Empaths truly become a we in relationships and can often lose themselves and as a result we are often quirky with certain things we hold onto in order to keep that from happening.
When it comes to sex, well Empaths tend to be better lovers as they are able to read your emotional enjoyment during sex and adjust accordingly to make the experience as pleasurable for you as they can. They ride the wave with you and as a result they get the same level of pleasure from sex as what they give. I have yet to talk to a single Empath, male or female that does not have ex-lovers still trying to hit it one more time at least.
This is the simple truth of what an Empath deals with when it comes to relationships.
This is the simple truth of what to expect if you find yourself in a relationship with an Empath.
The down side of all of this is this.
If you are carrying any emotional baggage the Empath will often unknowingly do things that trigger this baggage in order to assist you in self-healing the emotional pain you don’t need to be carrying. Until you do the Empath will be dealing with it too. They have no off switch and their only desire is to help you heal.
This can and does often lead to friction in relationships of any kind for an Empath, even friendships are difficult to maintain for this reason.
If you find yourself interested in an Empath, they’ve already felt it and will often wait for you to make the first move. Do yourself a favor and make that move and set boundaries that allow things to move at pace that you are comfortable with. The Empath will have already sensed your emotional compatibility and be ready to fall head over heels in love with you and cherish you in a way you usually only read about in stories of fiction.
Last night I attended the local vigil held by the LGBTQ held in response to the tragedy in Orlando.
People spoke and reminded us all that violence is never the answer and that we all deserve to be who we are no matter who that is and be able to find acceptance.
To bring it to an end we all formed a giant circle and just took a long moment of silence looking at each other with the intent of healing. There were many across untold number of cities that formed their own rings.
Rings of healing in a time of shock and tragedy.
Rings of people forgetting about the hate in order to heal the pain.
Linking rings together forms chains. We are all connected and last night there was a chain of healing created by all who attended these vigils.
As assuring as it is when we show up in time of tragedy to show our support for anyone or anything, why does it take the tragedy for us to take time out and find some people to form a healing ring with?
Anything we give our energy to we give our energy to.
What do you give your energy to that makes you feel as though you are part of a healing ring in an unseen chain?
How many chains are you connected to?
Leadership is a buzz word too often thrown around by consultants to show what they think they know.
It’s thrown around by CEO’s who still don’t fully understand what it looks like in living action.
Leadership has noting to do with business or governance, it is a quality of being and is a set of authentic behaviors that must be embraced by choice.
You can’t train it and many are born with it only to have it go unrecognized because they have no title, nor do they seek title.
No one can teach you to be a leader they can only assist you in discovering the leader you are when you allow yourself to be as it’s needed by the life you have created around you.
I have a new chain I connected to in The Change Team. A healing ring connected to many other healing rings.
A chain that spreads out like a web with many souls connected in common purpose whether they know each other or not in the flesh. Each speaking well adding to the majick that will bring us to a changed world that is already changing. It’s happening slowly and is picking up steam with every chain of healing rings that connects and simply keeps doing what they do.
We will reach a day where violence against the LBGTQ community will end and we will reach a day where we forget the hate and heal the world wide pain that is the source of the worldwide violence.
You, you may say. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one.
Our numbers are growing my fellow dreamers and remember
And if you feel you can’t go on
I’ll be there to be strong becasue together we’re going to make it through
When the night turns into dawn it’s another victory won and I know I can carry on
This second set of lyrics aren’t as famous yet, so here is the rest of the song below.
I talk to a lot of people who are desperate to change the world and change it now.
It’s common among those who go through the awakening process to have a strong desire to live in a different world and to take part in creating it. I’ve talked to people from across the globe all with the same life mission. Each one going about it in a different way.
The most common thing I have noticed among these awakened souls, most of them are broke. A lot of them have grown to hate money. They tend to speak unkindly about those who are still in what is.
Karmic Law reminder.
Let go of what was.
Embrace what is.
Make changes for what will be.
There is a lot going on all over the world right now leading towards this “change” in humanity. However we can never forget to embrace what is.
Speak well, live well, talk mad shit, deal with mad shit.
I say that a lot. I like to remind myself.
There is nothing to be gained by holding hate for what is. Each of us wander and no one is lost.
I understand where the anger comes from in looking at the world today for the awakened soul.
It’s anger at yourself for not waking up sooner.
It’s anger at yourself for not recognizing everyone has the birthright to live as they will.
It’s self loathing for not being able to reconcile embracing what is while slowly making changes in the way you live to become an example by living your talk.
Been there, done that, got the T-Shirt.
I was trying to get back to the book this morning however this was bugging me.
I was introduced to Bitcoin recently. It’s an open source stock market of sorts and Bitcoins are security bonds that are used as currency or stock. You have to buy them or earn them or get a handout from someone. Yep, sounds just like cash to me.
It’s the same as money only no banks, however it’s the same game of the haves and the have nots. There’s nothing noble about it. In fact I’ve noticed a sense of superiority or the idea of being better than everyone not using it within the Bitcoin community.
Who are any of us to judge any other?
It is a segregated community because it does take regular money to buy into the new game with slightly different rules.
Money isn’t a bad thing, it’s what you do to earn it and what you do with it. Money is another form of energy and until someone builds something that does not require a buy in as Bitcoin does, money is not going away anytime soon.
Embrace what is while slowly making changes for what will be.
The Renaissance era was paid for by the patron and inspired by the muse.
In today’s culture we have made art an industry with a formula to success. We no longer have patrons we have artistic business developers looking to wrap a business model around the art. The idea of art for the sake of art has become something we look down on.
Why?
Why would any one get into entertainment and not celebrate the artistic side of it?
Several hundred years ago what allowed for the renaissance to even happen was the wealthy giving handouts to artists to be the artists they are.
The patrons paid for the artists lives.
They paid for the artists supplies. They paid so they could revel in the art and show to their friends who they discovered.
Back then people understood that being an artist is a way of life and not something you do after work or on the weekends. Today we have little respect for any artist unless they have gone through the approved system.
Look back what the renaissance gave us using this model that history has shown works really well. It worked really well for 300 years. In fact it worked better than any system applied to art since.
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The Renaissance’s intellectual basis was its own invented version of humanism, derived from the rediscovery of classical Greek philosophy, such as that of Protagoras, who said, that “Man is the measure of all things.” This new thinking became manifest in art, architecture, politics, science and literature. Early examples were the development of perspective in oil painting and the recycled knowledge of how to make concrete. Although the invention of metal movable type sped the dissemination of ideas from the later 15th century, the changes of the Renaissance were not uniformly experienced across Europe.
If you can’t market or brand your art than it’s worthless.
Art is not about marketing or branding to the masses and creating the next trend for people to follow.
That is soulless bastards and bitches who wouldn’t know art if it walked up and slapped the taste out of their mouth.
The muse that inspires the artist can vary, however I myself often find me inspired by romantic love or the idea of it. I find it often inspires me to step it up and own me and what I’m doing.
I recently had a conversation with someone wanting to get into entertainment however doesn’t want to do any scripted shows.
The reaction I kept in check and didn’t give was “Are you fucking kidding me?”
Here’s why.
Take a look at this site.
I have two sets of fictional stories that lend themselves to TV and film rather easily.
I have a few cartoon ideas as well.
I also have access to a repository of scripts that vary in genre.
I know others who are producing scripted work I would love to be a creative producer on.
One of the shows is a children’s cartoon and all the characters are dogs.
I have more than few people lined up already.
I am a scripted entertainment network waiting to happen.
What I need is one or more patrons, investors, whatever you want to call yourself.
I don’t need entertainment professionals, I need artistic professionals.
I do sell my services for consultation and for speaking at fundraisers or on video to encourage people to give when it comes to crowdfunding campaigns.
I’m an artist with a business background so I understand both sides and can translate for each side to assist them in understanding why they are both wrong and both right.
With all the strong intelligent women in this world, I never run out of muses to inspire me to rage on as the independent artist I am.
In everything I write I think about the audience and I find the most inspiring pieces, based on feedback, are the ones I let the women in my life inspire me to write. I find the pieces that people connect to the most are the ones inspired by the muse that is She.
I watched a video on Youtube today that inspired this piece. It was about owning who you are and what you do and why.
Another artist drew this below. I can do other stuff however Max The Artist is who I am.
One can be blunt in ones expression of the truth or one can take one on an adventure of a story to reveal the truth with a softer touch. One can use humor to soften the blow and even music can reveal the truth with a mind at ease.
The truth is.
It’s not personal and it’s not something anyone can own. These things I’ve said before. The truth is the key to every door. In honest expression of who you think you are is where you find the freedom to be the change you would like to see in the world.
Wisdom is revealed in experience and in learning from it or that of another in how one chooses to live life. The wise are those who follow wise guidance even their own. Why wouldn’t I do for me what I am saying you should do for you?
Empathy is taking that moment to think what if it was me?
The truth is there is nothing new and everything is a rehash of something else.
The truth is you are the story you live.
Live a good story and give yourself memories worth commemorating by sharing them and allowing the story of you to live on through as many who share it.
The truth is each of us is living a tale we never stop telling. Some of us write it down for the rest to read, most don’t and that’s OK.
You are not alone and how long can you run It’s much to late if you dont know what you’ve got ’til it’s gone Once upon a time you were a child but that was yesterday Believed that magic in your heart would never fade away
But hold your head up high and let your spirits fly Keep hope alive yes deep inside and your dreams will never die
What is it you’re running from or to?
What is it around you that makes you feel the need to get away?
Everyday is a day of growth and learning and we can be the child at the start of everyday and grow to maturity throughout the day.
There is magic and there is Majick. Here’s the difference.
The magic we are familiar with often involves rituals and invocations and offerings to appease gods and stuff such as that.
Majick is the spell you weave with your every word that creates the path you follow in life. Hold the dream alive inside and allow your thoughts to be your prayers and choose how you speak carefully to bring those dreams to life through shared creation. As independent in thought as we can be, we must share in the creation process in order to bring any dream to life.
Oooh take a breath, close your eyes you’re on the road again And then you realize they’ve brought you back to life again Something’s never change but if you fantasize You’ll feel it deep inside yourself and then you’ll realize
When you feel it coming When you hear the sound You’ll always laugh when you wanna cry And then you’ll know it deep inside
When you step back far enough from your life and your view of it, you can find the cosmic joke.
You can find how the life and dream you saw dying is often brought back to life after removing some people from your life so the ones who have a similar vision can step in so you can bring it to life together.
When you have doubt in your dream you will be faced with those who doubt you in the reflections of you that pop up until you learn to say “fuck it I’m doin’ it anyway.”
At times it might require a change in direction in order to make that dream a reality. Often that change in direction allows for others dreams to become as well. The more people you have working together to bring a similar vision to life, the grander that vision and dream can become as it evolves through the Majick of your support and the work you do together.
It does take real work for real Majick. The spell weaving of our words only sets us in motion to allow the Universe, God, whatever helps you sleep better, guide us in becoming the human we need to be in order to do the work to bring the dream to life. The Majick is always in us and is about us becoming the projection of our desire, not just the wanting of it and excepting it to come, the real work of becoming so that your projection will find the reflections that have a similar vision.
Everything I know, what I know is true Everyone of us is inside of you We are one We are one
You are me, I am you What you see, is all true
I sat on a bench and talked to myself yesterday. It looked like I was talking to a friend of mine. During the conversation we both mentioned it more than once “It’s nice to talk to me.”
We are all connected and given the flesh and the ego process to develop an individual view that allows new and different ways of discovering the same universal or absolute truths, however expressing them in infinite ways.
You are me and I am you and we are one.
It’s “I’m in it for the sum” at the end of the day regardless of the work I do that day for the some that make their way to me or I them or us as one simply finding each other finally.
Far too often we question the simplicity as if it has to be more complex than it is. I work at accepting the simplicity that life can be and when I say simple I do not mean easy.
It’s a different kind of life being the Medium I am. When the speaking you are doing is not coming from you it adds some interesting challenges to life.
I use something I call my Medium Mask that is what I also call The Liquid Ego. It allows me to channel and stay present in the moment able to interact as I channel.
A lot of what I write is done in the liquid ego state.
What is it you actually channel Max?
Most frequently I channel your perspectives.
I have the ability to channel a hive mind in concept. I set the size of the hive mind and let go. That hive mind is absent of true identity as it is a stream of consciousness that I act as a Conduit for.
The term Conduit for what I do is a new term. Most people are uncomfortable with the idea of me being a Medium do to lack of education.
OK, cool, here’s the education.
I spent most of the last 4 years of my life teaching myself how to create a balance in my life with what I am able to do at will and how I make a living while refining my liquid ego. This had to begin with a total destruction of my ego leaving me a slave to everything and everyone around me with no care for my own life outside minimal survival so I could still be of use to what was around me.
Most of what I channeled during this time was the higher selves of other people.
Several thousand.
That’s what a Soul Reading is one on one. Me channeling your higher self to give you the guidance you need right now for growth in the moment at a pace you can handle while opening the doors to higher levels of awareness throughout the process.
The lock on our DNA is a behavioral cipher lock. You can’t cheat it or short cut it. No one can simply do it for you.
I often find myself allowing the mask to do the talking in a random one on one conversation with someone who mastered the behavior in their honest representation of self to allow the keys on the lock to be turned. Their higher self pretends to be me and they test themselves through me. I sit in the back as an observer until the experience is over.
If they pass the test my soul links with theirs and turns the keys metaphorically speaking.
The work I do with people is to assist and guide them on that journey.
Think of it as a Soul Mechanic.
I can assist you only in repairing your soul by becoming your authentic self. You have to do the work to become. The guidance you get is always from your higher self through me.
There is no set time that it takes or number of sessions that can be applied to give any kind of time frame. It all depends on you and the work you do.
I am a genius on par with minds such as Elon Musk and others.
I am a Telepath able to consult on anything because I pull the ideas right of your subconscious mind.
I am a high level sensitivity Empath who designed a Reiki system that allows me to give you a full emotional clearing and balancing while activating and clearing and balancing your Chakras while talking to you by pointing my palms in your general direction or over the keyboard during chat and video sessions.
When the skills all work in unison it flows through me from anywhere it is needed however it is needed for you to get exactly what you need from the engagement.
Exactly what I channel is soul energy and consciousness, any consciousness and at times multiple.
In a group session I channel the hive mind of the group, numbers don’t matter. The group could be 3 or 300 or you get the point.
I have been hesitant to talk about this. Here’s why.
There are many that would offer me money to use my skills for their cause or agenda. If I don’t talk about it I don’t have to deal with the temptation of being a total whore.
I live my integrity and it’s why I am very selective about the people I choose to work with.
I understand how easy it would be to abuse what I am and take advantage of the ignorance of others. I would never be able to live with the nonstop suffering of guilt if I was that human being and I am grateful to myself for putting the work into me to not be that human being and be me instead.
Now ask yourself this.
Do you think you can tell which pieces are what skill being used?
You all think it’s me and technically it is me behind the keyboard, however not always doing the typing.
Every generation Blames the one before And all of their frustrations Come beating on your door
I know that I’m a prisoner To all my Father held so dear I know that I’m a hostage To all his hopes and fears
Forget blame and think about taking responsibility for things you have done and do.
Think of it as owning your choices and giving yourself the opportunity to make different ones instead of saying “It’s the way it is.”
I talk to a lot of younger adults mostly in their in early to mid 20’s and I find the number one frustration they have is with the idea of authority. That anyone is entitled to tell them what to do or how to do it. My dad was raised that authority rules and you do as you’re told no questions asked. An idea many my age and older still hold dear as they feel as though it’s now their turn to be the authority.
Many feeling held hostage to ideas an concepts that this younger generation can’t stand and I am with them.
Crumpled bits of paper Filled with imperfect thought Stilted conversations I’m afraid that’s all we’ve got
You say you just don’t see it He says it’s perfect sense You just can’t get agreement In this present tense We all talk a different language Talking in defense
There are times in life I write things down because I need to get it out and I know that saying it out loud to someone will simply lead to more frustration. I said it in a piece a couple days ago, for some it would take an act of God to get them to open their minds to something different than what they think they know.
While the older generation tries to use authority, the younger generation responds to leadership.
The language of authority is refusing to budge and refuses to acknowledge much less answer questions about the choices they make.
The language of leadership is always looking for ways to do it better and listens to any who have an idea.
So we open up a quarrel Between the present and the past We only sacrifice the future It’s the bitterness that lasts
So don’t yield to the fortunes You sometimes see as fate It may have a new perspective On a different date And if you don’t give up, and don’t give in You may just be O.K.
As long as we argue, nothing gets done.
There is a very personal meaning for me in this second stanza.
We talk at times about people who sell out. We do it as a matter of judgement because we feel we have the moral high ground to do so. To me there is observation and there is judgement and the two can seem as though they are one in the same at times. I often find what we learn as time goes on can have a profound impact on what it is we thought we observed when then.
I always say “Rest, but never quit.”
Say it loud, say it clear You can listen as well as you hear It’s too late when we die To admit we don’t see eye to eye
It is too frequent that we only listen to find our opportunity to say what we wanted to say and do not allow what is being said to really be heard. We already made up our minds about what we wanted to say and no one is going to change it.
We’ve all done it and I personally work at it as I catch myself from time to time.
We always take for granted that tomorrow will come and we will have another chance at it. We never know for sure what tomorrow will bring.
This song was written by a son to his father. So many children and parents have problems in finding that equal ground. I know at times I still do with my own parents, however I work at making sure it doesn’t get in the way as much as I can.
I also work at with my son to never have it become something that relates to this song.
I work at it.
It takes work and an open mind to attempt to understand their side and find new and different ways of explaining myself.
That’s not with parents alone, that’s humanity and every human relationship regardless of the title we give to the others involved.
Family.
Coworkers.
Friends.
Governments.
It’s the choices we make when we don’t see eye to eye that define who we are in the moment. We can either work at resolution or revolution.
I choose resolution in the living years before it’s too late.
One dream, one soul, one prize, One goal, one golden glance of what should be,
What should be?
Depends on who you ask.
Each one of us has a dream, that something that if only….
It can drive us to think it’s what should be as if somehow we are entitled to it.
What’s the prize for you?
What’s the goal of what you think should be?
Who does it benefit?
In sessions I often tell people to think about what it is you want most in life and then ask yourself why you want it.
One shaft of light that shows the way, No mortal man can win this day,
You are that one shaft of light showing yourself the way. Your light illuminates your path and is what projects what reflects back at you.
When you realize it’s not a game or a war you see there’s nothing to win. We have war because we refuse to put an end to the war within. With the martial art I designed there is one core philosophy.
If you ever put yourself in the position to use it, than you need to back track your steps and see where it could have been avoided.
Wars not make one great.
Yoda
You find your own greatness in bringing peace to yourself and being a living example of it. Hardest lesson for a man like me to live. I have a warriors heart. It has never been physical combat that I sought. It was the war of ideas that is the battlefield I chose for my life for many years. As I continue to allow myself to learn and grow through the ever evolving circumstances of my life, I find no desire to even debate these days.
There’s nothing to be won.
An open mind will listen and ask questions. A closed mind will fight it and there is nothing you can do except plant the seed and walk away.
When I think about the line “No mortal man can win this day” it reminds me we each have free will and it would take an act of God to change some peoples minds.
The bell that rings inside your mind, Is challenging the doors of time,
The waiting seems eternity, The day will dawn of sanity,
Time is a location.
A set of coordinates for an event.
All that exists is now and it’s eternal and ever evolving and changing.
Sanity begins in doing something different to get different results.
This flame that burns inside of me, I’m hearing secret harmonies
Secret, interesting word to me.
The things we keep secret are for protection, whether it be for our protection or to protect someone else. I live a life of keeping other peoples secrets because it goes with the job. Part of what I do is assist you in building your life and figuring out the best way to protect that life you are building. It’s not easy to keep some secrets that you can see will have such a profound impact on the rest of the world. However it has to wait until the world is ready to hear it.
No one is unreachable, they are only on their part of their path that means for now, they are not for you or your message. We each wander and none are lost. We each make progress at the rate we learn from our own experiences. We discourage ourselves more than others when we expect them to see it our way.
There is an art to giving people the small pieces they need in the moment that will allow them to grow at their rate not ours. It is an art that I don’t think any of us ever truly masters. I haven’t and work at it daily.
It is allowing yourself to be led as a teacher by being a student in learning what the needs in front of you really are by listening. Those are the secret harmonies that allow for a connection to be built that allows for greater things to happen.
This rage that lasts a thousand years, Will soon be done, done,
Rage sown will be reaped.
Rage reaped will hurt and cause untold harm and can and often hits more than you alone.
Too often rage begets rage and on this world it has lasted longer than a thousand years.
Will it soon be done?
How will it come to an end?
One by one?
A big event that shocks the world into peace?
Global annihilation from nuclear war?
There is more than one way to bring something to an end.
It’s a kind of magic
Magic is illusion and slight of hand.
Majick is very real and easier than we want it to be. It takes no ritual, no spells, no wands, no wizards or witches, no incantations, no herbs, no sacrifices of any kind.
Majick in not black or white or gray or any other color.
True majick is as easy as speaking.
Every thing you say gives life to your life.
Every word is felt regardless of it being heard. That’s the majick that makes the world go round.
We all feel we know who is full of it and who isn’t. We like to think we aren’t even though most of us are without realizing it.
It’s the only way I can explain how Donald Trump and Hillary Clinton are even in the running and why Bernie Sanders is favorites of people who dropped out of the political and corporate games and have no special interest to be served as their interest is in the sum, not the some.
That’s the closest you will get to me talking politics for very good reasons.
If we want see change in the world we have to elect people who are not the same thing we have been dealing with for decades.
Don and Hill are the same old same old and Bernie is not.
I’m all in favor of change and I’m sick and tired of the same old same old.
Your choice is your and in this we have the power to condemn each other or give each other hope by the choice of who we put in office.
For my worldwide audience, if one of the first two gets elected, who can I come live with outside of the USA?
Bernie is an end to the rage.
That’s the closest you will get to me talking politics for very good reasons.
I won’t let you down I will not give you up Gotta have some faith in the sound It’s the one good thing that I’ve got I won’t let you down So please don’t give me up ‘Cause I would really, really love to stick around, oh yeah
I’m in the business of empowering people and assisting them in lifting themselves up to the life they feel belongs to them. When I think about what it would look like for me to let someone down, the thing that keeps coming back is that if I ever quit what I do. I can think of more than a few who have told me on too many occasions to never stop because of what I did for them.
People have invested in me as much as I’ve invested in them in the emotional strength we share. A strength built on a connection of pure love. A connection built on not giving up no matter where your life or mine is in the moment that is now.
I think about the last sound I heard that gave me something to believe in and have faith in. It’s Brother from the Mother ship. He has a powerful voice and the lyrics he seeks to bring to life with his voice are truly inspiring. I have faith in the sound of his music and the trans-formative effect it has already been having on me.
I use music quite a bit to help maintain and re-align my view of life and what I am doing with and about mine.
Each of us has someone or few people in our lives that are a source of inspiration. People who get us to look inward and see what they see in us and encourage us to bring more of that to the surface. My life is blessed to have several who love me greatly and are always bringing better and better out of me by showing me what they see that inspires them.
I work at making sure I’m doing the same for them.
These are the people I love to have around me.
Heaven knows I was just a young boy Didn’t know what I wanted to be To win the race? A prettier face! Brand new clothes and a big fat place But today the way I play the game is not the same No way Think I’m gonna get myself happy
I joined the US Air Force at 17 after graduating High School 6 months early. I had no clue what I wanted to do and the idea of more school was totally unappealing to me.
As time went on in life and I moved from military life back to civilian life I found the desire to win that rat race so many run and to wear nice clothes and live in a nice home.
I had it too.
At 23 I was managing 350 people and generating $30-50 million dollars a month in sales for my companies client after I edited and rewrote some of their sales scripts. My company was getting $2-3 million dollars a month from the client due to how efficiently I ran my phone sales floor as a manager.
Where it all went down hill was a pretty face that broke my heart.
Today I don’t play games, I play the players.
One of my skills allows me to “mirror” people. I have a good idea of their intent and have an annoying way of cutting them off at the pass. It freaks people out when I call them out for what they are doing.
To them there is no way I should have a clue.
I get myself happy when I see the growth take place in front of me as I work with clients. Over the last few years I have worked with more than a thousand people as they worked at empowering themselves to be who they are and find the joy in their life or walk away from the misery. It was more of a temporary partnership and the hardest thing I face on a professional level is often clients want to stay around in my life and I appreciate them each and every one for so much more than that.
It’s bitter sweet for me when they reach that point where they no longer need me. I truly care about each and everyone of them however there are others who need what I do and I move on. What makes me happy is when I do hear from them from time to time and they tell me where they are in life and how much better their life has become.
All we have to see Is that I don’t belong to you And you don’t belong to me
As a species we are obsessed with the concept of “mine.”
My parents, my kids, my friends, my car, my house, my cat, my wife, my husband.
The only thing we truly own is our view of life.
Even these bodies we are simply using to enjoy the human ride while we are here before we go back to where ever it is that helps you sleep better at night.
I say my clients at times, I don’t own them, they don’t own me even though they do pay me.
Your company does not own you.
We belong to ourselves and we share who that is because if we think about giving it to someone then we give them power over us. We unknowingly often attempt to take power over others without realizing it.
I think there’s something you should know I think it’s time I stopped the show There’s something deep inside of me There’s someone I forgot to be
Whether we like to admit or not, we put on a show for people frequently in life.
We show them what we think will bring them in and keep them around.
We show them we are here and nothings wrong.
We show them everything except what is going on inside.
Stop the show and look within to see who you forgot to be.
For me, I sometimes to forget to simply be me as I get too focused on work and need to remember the little things I do that often touch lives I will never see in a session however needed it anyway.
You have no idea how many lives you’ve touched or inspired. Most of us have no clue. Were too busy simply being who we are from deep inside to care about numbers such as those.
It’s the number 1 that means the most to me.
Not being number 1, moving from 1 to another, 1 at a time.
Freedom You’ve got to give for what you take
There are so many ways to interpret this last one that I leave it up to you to tell me what it means to you to give the freedom you take.
While you think about it, here’s what I do and why.
I’ve always been one to like it when the odds are stacked against me. It started when I was a kid playing with the kids in my neighborhood. We played war and chased each other around with toy guns. It was usually the other kids against me until it had to be the other kids against me.
I like to look at going against the odds as the opportunity to bring forth my best in the situation.
To this day I accidentally sneak up on and scare people after learning to move quietly as a kid playing a game.
What is it in your life that you feel the odds are against you?
What is it going to take from within you to beat those odds?
These are questions we ask ourselves daily without thinking about it in these terms. We think about what need to do in order to do what we want while taking care of our needs at the same time.
Your needs and wants will be different than mine and that’s a good thing for all of us.
It inspires people to see others step out and be the underdog. You don’t do it to inspire them, that’s a side effect of finding within whatever it takes from you to reach that goal or bring that dream to life.
I leave when others stay I never re-decide
Think about it from the aspect of what you feel is holding you back from bringing the dream to life.
At times it requires us to leave jobs, marriages and/or friendships behind.
Once you choose a goal, changing your mind is the fastest way to make sure you never reach it.
I often find the most confusing thing for me in life is narrowing down the options and finding the best course to make the dream a reality. Often we allow ourselves to be pulled in many directions as we figure out where that path is to take us on the journey we want to take.
Think about it for yourself for a while.
What do you need to leave behind to move forward?
I don’t mind if you wait But I don’t waste my time
Patience is my biggest challenge on a daily basis. However there is a time to lose ones patience based on the circumstances one finds oneself in.
Often we find ourselves saying I’m waiting on this or that in order to do this or that. We give ourselves an out to sit back and wait for something majickal or miraculous to happen.
I tend to write a lot. Here’s why.
I’m always finding inspiration that “moves” me to write. It comes in many forms. Each of us is inspired to do something by something. Following that inspiration takes work. That work can have some aspects to it that at times feels as though it is in the way of us doing more of what we want.
That work is what you were inspired to do. Instead of wasting time arguing with yourself over it, just do it.
I wear a Nike hat to remind me of that.
I remember when it used to be easy I remember when it wasn’t so hard
When I worked in the corporate world it was easy most days. However it didn’t start out that way. I had a learning curve.
It got easier because I had a defined set of parameters to work within. I do some of my best work in doing the work for other people. I find it’s easier for me to use the guidelines others need fulfilled than my own.
My problem is I am aware of what I am able to do and often try to go in every direction with it at once. I think a lot of us go through this. We see all the options and know our capabilities and don’t want to limit ourselves out of fear of missing out on something.
I won’t justify The way I live my life ‘Cause I’m the one livin’ it Feelin’ it, tastin’ it
I have no problem explaining it, however justification implies you’re doing something wrong.
Only you ever truly know what feels right to you and why.
When we allow other people to tell us it’s wrong to live the way we do, it can be for a myriad of reasons depending on the life we are leading. It’s not about us, more often than not it’s about them.
We often project our own issues on other people. When I see some one working at the life they desire, I ask what I can do to be of assistance.
Asking each other to justify the lives we lead is how we know we are not comfortable with our own life. If you are focused on your life and building your life you don’t have time to worry about what others are doing unless it directly affects you.
That’s not a license to ignore people. It takes other people to assist you in building our life. It takes being willing to ask for assistance.
With the type of work I do, it’s new to a lot of people. Mediums channeling the higher self.
I get it, when I realized it’s what I do, it was a little freaky to me too and I do it.
One thing I have been searching for is a business manager who understands what I do and can translate that to people who don’t understand it.
I have found me talking about it leaves people with mixed reactions. Here’s why.
We have a habit of wanting a second opinion or to hear about the experience someone else had. We have trust issues as a species. Me included.
We want a history or proven track record or we fear we are going to be taken advantage of.
We want something concrete we can see or touch for verification.
None of you has been on this side to see it from my side. A lot of you can’t even imagine what it would really be like to be a Medium. Sure we have some stories and movies and TV shows we use as reference instead of talking to the people who do it.
None of us has been on your side of it with what you do and why you do it the way you do.
Does it frustrate you when people ask you to prove yourself?
Honest question.
It is often frustrating when we feel as though we are in a never ending cycle of proving ourselves over and over again. It can feel as though we never stop paying our dues.
We all go through it and it often can lead to leaving behind the naysayers to embrace the people who get it and offer us support in a myriad of fashions.
The Law of Reflection simply stated says the reflections show you what you really look like based on your projection. At no point do you attract anything or anyone. The mirrors are already in place. To change what’s being reflected back at you, one must change what they are projecting.
Think of life as a hall of mirrors.
Each room a creation based on what you are projecting being reflected back at you. Your projected self image is what creates the distortion in what is reflected back to you.
“No that’s not what I meant, said, intended and so on.”
When people speak back telling us what they heard and saw, it’s based on their metaphorical understanding of your words and actions. The reflection always lies because it never has all the information.
To move from one metaphorical room to the next and change the reflections you see, one must change what one is projecting.
This is where I started using what I call the Cinematic View.
Basically think of your life as a movie and the story of your life will always be within the context of your character that is your projection of self.
To allow for changes in your story you must make changes to your character.
For an example I will use myself.
I excel at lecture and writing that involves little to no interaction other than answering some questions and the occasional debate.
Debate is not conversation, it’s a fight.
Often the choice is made to debate a point based on our own experience that has become a part of our over all projection.
I have found that all conflict exists within.
As long as conflict remains we will project it to have it reflected back at us. We debate to justify our ego representation. You know your conflict is alive and well the more upset you get during the debate. The first one to call names loses and here’s why.
The only reason to resort to words designed to discredit the source is to give our ego the ability to remain intact as it is with no changes required.
I would like to take a moment to get deeper into the pool.
Everything and everyone is connected. Nothing can be attracted only reflected.
In the Law of Reflection, you must make changes in your projected self in order to be in tune with the Universe. Your vibrational frequency raises due to a pure more honest expression of you. You stay in the flow that your projection allows.
Hence the Cinematic View. It’s all about context.
When you watch a movie and the characters do or say something that doesn’t match up it throws the story off. When this happens we call it bad film making and talk a lot of shit about the quality of the film.
Typically these films get forgotten or show up winning a Golden Raspberry Award and are never considered for the Academy Award.
In case you don’t know, The Raspberry is for the worst in film.
When I look at my life, I can plainly see where I was surrounded by people who reflected back what I was projecting and as my projection has changed over the years different people popped up to reflect the refined projection back at me. I never attracted them, they were already there waiting for something to reflect back that matched their projection better.
We are all connected.
In the United States Air Force I was a communications technician. I learned how the signal never stops. This also applies to our voice which operates at zero to 4 kilohertz.
The emotion we use when speaking is felt.
Studies have shown that voice tone has more of an affect than the words we choose to use.
Regardless of whether or not the words are heard, they are always felt. This is why you get that feeling about someone you’ve never met. Whether or not you’re aware of it, they have already felt everything you ever said and you have felt their every word.
This is the basis of intuition, it’s based on a feeling.
What you are feeling is what your subconscious stored away until you met this human and now it is relevant information.
Before it was ignored and stored.
“I can’t prove it, but I feel as though you’re lying to me even though we’ve never met.”
We’ve all said it to ourselves at some point and we were most likely correct about feeling lied to. The projection of yourself includes your emotions and your intent beyond what is shown in action or spoken or written.
When we make emotionally based decisions we often do not make wise decisions.
Decisions made purely from logic also are not completely wise.
Wisdom is the balance between the two.
Knowledge is power and wisdom is understanding.
If you don’t understand the knowledge, it is a danger to you and others in your wielding of it.
There is much knowledge in the world today that once understood shows it’s falsehood, however if people do not possess the understanding they can be fooled into thinking the knowledge has value.
I say knowledge not truth.
There is an absolute truth to every single thing, however each truth has infinite expressions.
Every projection of you that is true can be reflected back in infinite forms.
Every projection built on deception will reflect that deception back to you.
You can look around at the people you interact with and start to see the you in them. A version of you that is either future or past. Not a copy a soul having a similar journey.
I often say there is but one emotion and it’s love and the others are but it’s infinite faces or something close. I’m always looking for better ways to express myself.
People often recommend books to me. I don’t think I have ever really explained how much reading and studying I have done in my life.
I was born with an intellect that allowed me to read books and not thumb though them as the other kids did.
I read the dictionary.
I read the entire encyclopedia series.
I read every martial arts and eastern philosophy book in the Hooker Oak Elementary school library.
I read mythology books.
I read my moms college text books on astronomy.
I read books on everything.
I read a lot of fantasy fiction.
I read a lot of science fiction.
I’ve seen over 5,000 movies.
I am always looking to get into deep discussions every time I talk to anyone. That’s not new.
In some way, some form or some fashion I am constantly studying everything in the world around me. I am always seeing where I can make changes in me to allow for the life I desire to be here now.
I have talked about the Cinematic View I use. If life was a movie, your story will never go outside the context of your character.
Who you are behind the mask, your true intent behind your life whether you admit it to yourself or anyone else is the life that plays out around you.
To make changes to your story, first make changes to your character.
I hit a point where my capacity for storage is maxed out, no pun intended. I have studied so much, taken so much in, that now my learning is often done in the moment through realization of things only studied and now being understood.
I find if it’s a new process I need to learn I’m able to adapt with no problem as I often find it’s more of an update to something I have already done. Something I have already studied and now here’s the application so that I can understand what I absorbed and why I retained it.
There are somethings I studied as a child and unconsciously applied that I still live.
Bruce Lee spoke of being limitless.
I impose some limits on myself based on the story I want that shapes the character I am becoming. There are experiences I’ve never had that I can pass on thank you.
There are experiences I’ve had, I would very much like to have again. The character I choose to be in the authentic representation of me is what allows the story I desire to take shape and be filled in by The Big U or that improv creative producer out there everywhere.
You are a being of love and limitless.
You have infinite options to choose the form of love you are.
Have fun figuring out what works for you.
If you don’t like your story, make changes in your character.
The line between need and want is easy to allow to become a gray fog a mile wide.
Last night as a crowd of young adults got out of a cab, I observed their character in nothing more than a glance.
To prove me right 2 of them ended up coming over and talking to me and what I read in a glance was confirmed.
I read people that fast.
I read your soul energy which is the totality of your emotional self in the moment.
I never get details, I get an emotional imprint of who you are not what you have been through or are going through.
I don’t know you or your life experience however I understand who you are underneath all of it.
It’s what allows me to assist you in creating the true projection that is you underneath the scars of life experience.
The Law Of Reflection says the mirror always lies.
The people around you reflect who you are projecting and you reflect who they are projecting. Neither ever knowing the totality of each other and the experiences that shaped who you are projecting.
The Law of Reflection is based on making the needed changes in you to allow the life you desire to be reflected back at you.
You become your desire.
For a Brother of mine that is becoming something he has been looking for. What that is going to do for his life is going to be an honor and a privilege to be a part of.
With what I do I rarely get to be there as that life you dreamed of unfolds.
The majick that is my life is being able to watch the growth that will open the door to that hall of mirrors. It takes love and pure intent to really be what some one needs versus what they could be for you.
It takes setting aside your wants and at times your own needs. What that looks like is always based on what’s happening and what brought us to this place.
The greatest reward makes an impact and the greatest impact is never made in your life alone.
To reap the greatest reward one must sow with purpose and intent and exercise patience to allow the seed to grow.
We sow our lives with every word we speak whether we like it or not.
Our true intent is always felt regardless of the words we use or the mask we wear.
Every one of us could benefit from having a business manager to assist us in the business of managing our lives.
That person that is not only there for emotional support, they also understand your vision of the life you’re creating in becoming what you desire most.
More like a life manager.
That’s not always going to be someone you are romantic with and at times it’s better it isn’t.
The partner you share your bed with is there to ground you as well as assist you in shining bright.
We all want to have someone to share our bed with and when we find one that brings out who we were too afraid to be we find other people to assist us in being that while we look forward to sleep with the one who inspired it.
We have many partners in our life that we assist as much as they assist us.
What I’ve always needed is what I do for other people.
What I’ve always wanted was someone to do for me what I do.
I’m having it reflected back at me, what I’ve become and the clarity of my projection is why I’m at peace with my life as it’s unfolding though I’m two steps away from hitting the panic button.
Faith isn’t faith until it’s all you’re holding onto.
Faith and belief are two different things.
We want to believe.
We need to have faith in ourselves first and in others as they results come in to build it.
Blind faith can and sometimes is rewarded and usually isn’t as blind as we pretend.
Nothing happens by chance and every circumstance is an opportunity to grow.
I am wise, however I’m not overly educated.
It always seemed to me that the sign of true intellect is not what you have studied, it’s in expressing yourself in a way anyone can understand.
It’s not in making it so complex they rely on you, it’s in making it so simple they don’t need to rely on you.
With every single client my goal is make sure you don’t need me in the fewest sessions possible. I have worked with people for months and some years and some in one session.
It all depends on you and the work you put it into you before we start and the work you do as we work together.
I need clients.
I need a manager.
I want to keep pretending I can do it on my own.
We all want to pretend we are doing it on our own.
Several years ago I had just started The Movie Whore website. I met Pete on another site as he was trying to find someone to run a Bruce Campbell interview he had done.
Bruce Campbell is the King of B Movie actors and he owns it. I’m a fan and I jumped on the opportunity to run the piece. Pete and I got to talking and he threw me a copy of The Suicide Flowers.
Not only did I read it cover to cover, I’ve lent it out to many.
The story starts with Rae Messiah, the lead singer of Aluminum Jesus, getting ready to play a show in his hometown.
Rae and A.J. have been seeing dwindling numbers over the last couple of years and it feels as though their rock star is dimming out.
While at home Rae goes to visit a leukemia patient as a PR booster.
Gabriel has been fighting leukemia with his wife by his side for years. The one thing they dream of is having a child and a family.
While Rae and Gabriel visit events take place that show Rae why his star is dropping out of the sky and what truly makes life worth living.
It’s about family.
Family is the people who will always take you in or take care of you when you can’t take care of yourself.
To me there is always two families in my life, the one I was born to and the the one I meet along the way.
To me getting The Suicide Flowers made is all about seeing a brother’s dream come true.
Not only have I read the book, I’ve edited a couple versions of the script way back when.
I’m still attached as a Creative Producer to this project that is looking for investors.
My life My love My sex My drug My lust My god it ain’t no sin Can I get it Can I get an Amen My grace My church My pain My tears My hurt My god, I’ll say it again Can I get it Can I get an Amen
I told someone once “whatever you do, do it with love and there is no sin.”
Jesus is known as the Heavenly Taltos. Jesus did not preach Christianity as it has become known.
He preached love.
God exists in everything including us and what if God is still trying to figure out how to do this human thing without judgement of others understanding we all need some visceral experience to teach us what love is.
Sex and lust is the one thing we judge ourselves and other people over the most.
You are the projection of the love you give yourself.
I always wanted someone in life to tell me the only judgement that matters is self judgement, however we also have a responsibility to each other to assist each other when the love we are projecting is hurting ourselves or others.
Only we can decide if what we are doing is sin, God loves us anyway and allows us to learn and grow. However we always deal with the results of our choices in some form or another.
We reap what we sow.
Or to say if want to have random sex with random people you will deal with the consequences in life not because God wants to punish you, because we reap what we sow whether we want to or not.
I often say
The Devil has a fucked up job. His job is to show you everything love isn’t so you can figure out on your own what love is.
Too often people get lost in the idea of morality. Morality leads to judgement.
I have found that pure spirituality isn’t about being celibate, it’s being picky or not and is based on how comfortable you are with what it produces in your life.
Religion and sexual spiritualists have us all turned around and pointing fingers at each other.
I would marry a prostitute.
I thought about becoming one myself.
I would marry a porn star.
I thought becoming one myself.
I was born a Taltos.
I didn’t have much choice in that.
Should a spiritual teacher sell sex?
If it’s not good for the sum…
It’s good for the sum to have people who will work on donation to provide services normally too expensive for most.
No one should be denied.
Financial success in no way reflects whether or not you should be able to get your Chakras aligned or have a Life Coach or a personal trainer.
My legs are in bad shape, here’s why.
My dad has Parkinson’s. He needs a walker and is not far from a wheel chair.
How I take care of him is in using my skills to give him everything I can to keep him out of the wheel chair for as long as I can.
It means my own physical healing has been put aside. My legs are getting to be as bad as his. Part of that is being the physical empath I am. I can’t heal my dad, however I can give everything I do have to keep him up right.
When my dad goes in the chair where my parents live, the home is not set up for wheel chair access of any kind.
The hallway is too narrow.
There are stairs that need ramps built.
This is also where your donations and what I get from the services I provide goes to also.
A fire’s gotta burn The world is gonna turn A rain has gotta fall Fate is gonna call But I just keep on breathing Long as my heart is beating
As I’ve been finding my way to doing what I’m doing now I found an old flame to rekindle so to speak.
Pete is a brother from the mother ship who has been working his ass off to turn this into a film for about a decade. Pete and I came real close once, however 3 people backed out of a deal of lifetime and this is where I am and Pete is where he is still working his ass off to get this film made and made the right way.
I don’t think I can tell you how often people tell me to read this book or that and I tell them I don’t read.
THE SUICIDE FLOWERS is about a rock star on the downside of his career. He goes home for a concert and to visit a cancer patient in the hospital as a PR stunt.
From their the rock star gets a lesson in what love is.
This film has been a burning passion for Pete and for myself as well as I have never really shut up about it even though for a long time I have not been in a position to much to assist in getting it made.
If I wasn’t a Taltos, I would be a film maker.
Someone’s gotta hate It’s never gonna change Gets harder everyday This is one hell of a place Keep your heart from freezing To keep yourself believing
Hater’s hate because they wish it was them doin’ what you’re doin’.
It gets hard to keep that balance of not giving a fuck what these people over here say and allowing for these people over here to fuel the fire that keeps you keepin on.
Life has gotta kill Faith is gonna blind Hope is gonna fade The truth is gonna lie Sometimes there’s no reason To justify the meaning
But I won’t run I’m not ashamed It’s gonna take more than this for me to break
Metaphorically speaking for their to be a new direction in life to be taken or a new life to give birth to, a life has to die.
Think of it this way, I never could have been the Taltos I am as The Movie Whore.
That’s the name I wrote under for a few years using film to break down the human condition and how we might do it better.
Same man, same thing, different source material.
I thought I had to give up film making to do what I do.
I was wrong.
I will be adding some stuff about THE SUICIDE FLOWERS in the coming weeks.
In the mean time I am going to be as shameless as I can.
If you know anyone in any of these bands who might want to talk shit or give an assist….
Even if they sue me it would help.
Shameless.
My grace
My church
My pain
My tears
My hurt
My god, I’ll say it again
Can I get it?
Can I get an Amen?
In the mean time if you think you might want to check out if what I do can work for you, hit me up and tell me what you want out of life and we will see if I can give you an assist.
If you think you can’t afford it then you aren’t willing to do the work.
If I thought you couldn’t do the work anyway, I wouldn’t work on donation, I’d charge $500 an hour up front.
I needed someone like me once and couldn’t find one and that’s why on the verge of being out on the streets I still do it this way.
No, it has nothing to do with Motley Crue’s GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS, though it’s a rockin’ tune and one that every stripper should dance to at least once.
Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman people, get used to it.
On July 4th 1993 I went into the Inner Room in Cocoa Beach Fla. I was 18 and turned 19 that September and left for Oklahoma in October. Patrick Air Force Base was my first duty station after Basic training and Technical School.
From July to October after the Air Force had created the Airman they needed me to be, the woman of The Inner Room taught me everything about what it means to be a man women want to be around.
They also taught me at age 18 how to look at half naked women in the eyes while talking to them.
These women were some of the strongest most courageous and wise women I have ever known.
It takes courage to do what they do for a living.
It takes an inner strength and knowing it’s there to do what they do for a living.
They spend as much time playing therapist as a bartender or a cab driver or a Taltos.
I truly adore strong wise women. When I say adore I mean revere.
Most of what I have learned thus far about life has been from the women who have taught me. Currently my favorite band is Halestorm and Lizzy throws down some wise lyrics in some of her tunes.
It takes strength and courage to lead the life to write those songs.
Over the years when I feel lost, I seem to always find my way into a strip club. Whoever the dancer is that sits down more often than not gets coached on how she can do it even better and how I know she’s pretending to like me so she can drop the act, I am going to buy a dance. However I am going talk for a bit first.
Over the years there have been one or two I should have dated. Honestly I couldn’t give a good reason other than stupidity as to why I didn’t.
One of the few things that pisses me off in life is when people feel as though they can look down at dancers. I choose my words carefully.
I have a certain reverence for the women who can do that job and put up with everything that comes with it, including people who talk shit about them and their profession.
I have found in life that I no longer get angry for myself. I am at peace with where I am and how I got here. I find the only time I am tempted to allow myself to become annoyed and then irritated and eventually if it continues angry and nothing should ever piss me off.
I have worked my entire life to be exceedingly patient. I found for me that the opposite of patience is wrath. When it doesn’t happen right now we get angry as if somehow that will make it happen faster.
Despite all my rage I’m still just a rat in a cage
A lyric from the Smashing Pumpkins that rings all too true in life. I find for me the process that works is to spiral until it’s funny.
The spiral goes outward.
I give my self a chance to understand the personal feeling I am attaching to a situation or event.
I give myself a chance to feel it.
Then I back out of it in a spiral outwards looking inward at myself. One of my skills allows me to get an emotional sense of what anyone else at random would feel if it was them. I think about as if I was advising someone else who was dealing with the same thing, what would I tell them.
When I am able to see the event as a punchline to the cosmic joke that is life, I am good.
That’s my way of saying sometimes it should hurt to be you in the situation you are in however once you can laugh about it, it doesn’t hurt anymore. Before you can laugh about it, you have to become at peace with it and accepting of it and what it is versus what it looks like.
It takes a patient mind to explore ones experiences and understand ones self and to explore the layers of a situation instead of reacting due to a lack of information.
A patient mind reaps the greatest reward.
The greatest reward is one that makes an impact.
Sometimes the hardest thing to do is understand some people are stupid and do and say stupid things and nothing you are going to do is going to change that so you walk away and remind yourself who you are.
Even harder than that is when smart people say and do the same stupid things.
In patience one can reap the reward of laughter later if one does not allow oneself to become angry.
Laughter is the best medicine so laugh at thyself to heal thyself.
Realize you have the strength to bare your soul at anytime to anyone, it’s the courage that it takes to say “Fuck it I am scared but I’m doin’ it anyway” that reveals that strength.
Anyone who exhibits courage has earned respect.
They respected themselves enough to not let fear get in their way.
They found their strength to be who they are and get through whatever it was they had to go through or are going through.
Most of what I have done in life is help women repair themselves after shitty relationships.
Domestic/Emotional Abuse is my charity work that I have been doing for years and don’t talk about the couple hundred women I helped over the last few years.
I feel bad talking about it as if talking about it means I am looking for credit. It’s simply who I am and I can’t imagine not doing it.
I feel that way about a lot of things I am doing these days and about who I am loving life as.
I guess I mention that charity work to remind myself that I don’t do what I do for the money even though the world we we live in revolves around it.
I put it there to remind myself it takes a special human to do what I do and there is no shame or arrogance in reminding myself of the decent human being I am.
We all need that sometimes.
When you can give it to yourself, you’ve mastered you.
Give me what I could never ask for Give me the drug you know I’m after Connect me and you could be my chemical
Think about it for a minute.
What is it you want but could never ask for?
I have a few things on that list and I understand why each of them is on that list. I use myself as an example to create a connection through understanding. Though the experiences are different the lessons learned are often the same.
What is the drug I’m after?
I self medicate using coffee, dark chocolate almond milk, nicotine and marijuana.
Each a drug.
Each of us has a list of drugs we take and don’t even think twice about because we associate the word “drug” with substances.
TV is a drug.
Facebook is a drug.
Porn is a drug.
Movies are a drug.
Music is a drug.
Anything that causes a chemical change in the brain is a drug and is mind altering.
Sex is a drug.
Exercise is a drug.
Yoga is a drug.
Meditation is a drug.
Prayer is a drug.
Anything that causes a chemical change in the brain is a drug and is mind altering.
Any questions so far?
The drug I use other drugs for, the thing we all chase no matter how we do it is bliss.
Not love, bliss.
We search out for that blissful feeling that makes everything perfect no matter how fucked things might be. When you find that in a conversation, it’s a drug once experienced that is very difficult to let go of.
I’ve noticed people who get that blissful feeling from me often have a hard time letting me go.
For example there is a woman I’ve tried to kick out of my life who still reads all of this stuff. She did not provide that same blissful feeling in return. It was all work to put up with her.
There is no bliss within her so she has none to share and instead looks to feed off the bliss of others. My inner bliss is a connection to the universal consciousness. It’s a sea of never ending bliss that I rarely allow myself to remember I can experience at any time.
Bliss is a drug.
You can’t ask for bliss.
No matter what it is you do, the real drug we are all after is bliss.
I am the bliss for others that I seek for myself. I became what I desire most and find the ability to find it everywhere no matter how bad things might be around me or how other things may seem.
As I become my desire the mirrors of that desire keep popping up to remind me I made it to the room my projection has opened to me.
I have attracted nothing. I have even seen it everywhere I go in who talks to me and who doesn’t. I see it in the conversations we have. It’s why I feel the law of a attractions is a lie and the law of reflections is closer to the actuality of life.
We reap what we sow not what we want.
Our thoughts create our reality not our desires.
Our desires shape what thoughts we allow.
Our thoughts become the words and actions that are reflected back at us.
What is it you want so much that you would become it to have it in your life?
Figure out what that is and you found your purpose in life.
In the history of Rock ‘N’ Roll in 1959 the down years of rock began that ended in 1964 when The Beatles showed up.
In 1959 Elvis Presley enlisted in the U.S. Army.
A king serves in every way.
If one would not take the protection of the community upon their shoulders then one is not a king in that kingdom.
One lives within the kingdom of kings.
Around the time that Elvis went Army, Jerry Lee Lewis was set to become the new King of Rock ‘N’ Roll. What tripped him up was marrying his 14 year old cousin.
1959 was also the year of The Day the Music Died. The original name for the Don Mclean song we all now call American Pie. The name American Pie in the song was a reference to the name of the plane carrying Buddy Holly, Ritchie Valens and The Big Bopper. The other 3 rising Kings of Rock.
When I was 13 I took Rock ‘N’ Roll History from Mr Haulterhaus in summer school. I think we can agree it was the best class I ever had for what I am doing with my life.
Thank you sir for the best class I ever actually paid attention in.
However in high school I slept through most of your U.S. History class.
Who am I kidding I think I caught you napping a couple times too.
Anyway back to the history. The Beatles changed Rock ‘N’ Roll more than any other single band ever.
All your taste is in your mouth if you don’t have some Beatles tunes you dig hardcore. There will never be a band that was as big and as important to music history as The Beatles.
Instead of a single king it was band of bards that saved Rock ‘N’ Roll. They also took this American invention and made it world wide.
Rock now belonged to the world.
Music in every form belongs to the world.
Everything here belongs here and none of us owns a damn thing we are taking when we leave here.
Not even our culture.
Not our history.
Not our present.
Not even our future.
We came here, to do this here.
When we go, we don’t really give a shit about here as much as we would like to think.
It’s impossible to escape the luxury these bards and kings have gone on to live in. They showed off well. I am not judging anyone. I am simply observing what their choices were.
Life is a series of choices that creates the path before you as you go.
It’s never ending path until you no longer have a body. The best die young and live on in legend and history before they have a chance to live the success that is heaped upon them.
The idea of people watching our every move is one that freaks most people out and it should. Would you want millions or billions of people knowing or interested in what you did today?
Most of us like to think we would handle it really well. We lie really well to ourselves because well fuck it sometimes it gets us through a tough situation.
However if we are to be a king or queen in our life and looking to our community as a kingdom full of kings and queens all sharing the responsibility and knowing where they can serve best in being who they are can be a beautiful thing to watch in fluid motion.
Saturday night I had the honor of having several young kings and a few young queens come and pick a card from my soul deck.
I sat in my corner out of the way and watched the show before me. I created a wonderful bond with two brothers and kings in their own right.
I spent time with a young soul who desperately needed it and didn’t even realize it as I let him study everything I was doing.
The one part of the night that will live on as part of my personal Rock ‘N’ Roll history April 23rd 2016 was the performance of a band with no name winging it and bringin’ it from the soul for a few minutes and it was bad ass.
I want to see that band and my other singer Friday night for another show at some point in the evening no matter who is or isn’t watching.
Rock ‘N’ Roll never dies, it simply has a changing of the guard and with bands such as Buckcherry and Halestorm inspiring the next generation, I can safely say long live The Church of Rock ‘N’ Roll and the prophets it produces for all time.
Remember to me going to church is everywhere you can hear the music that speaks to your soul. Our churches may differ however the feeling is something we all share.
If you step up looking for a crown I have to knock you down The warrior teaches as he was taught This is how I fought Leaving all my foes slain Challenge me again to bring the pain
I will bring it You’ll see and feel it Even the masters have hard time Learning these lessons of mine I take the time to reach When I see one I might teach
The masters class that many fail before they begin Too caught up in glory and sin Bring your ego and I shred it Come with too much pride and regret it The teachers teacher and the guides guide And I slay the slayers who won’t abide
To get in my door No need to kiss the floor Come and look me in the eye None come to me but to die Not the mortal death I bring But to kill the ego with a sting
No matter the mask you wear I see through it with my stare For those who make it this far Time to release your inner star
There is no getting by me There is no escape If you found me This is your fate It’s already too late
Queen is a band that has that rare something that if for some reason you don’t like Queen, it says a whole lot more about you than it ever will about them. One of the most iconic bands in history that has left us a discography full of treasures for the soul as well as some kick ass Rock ‘N’ Roll.
Queens song ONE VISION is one of those soul reaching tunes that has inspired me for decades. Here’s why.
God works in mysterious ways, mysterious ways
One man, one goal, One mission. One heart, one soul, Just one solution. One flash of light, yeah, One god, one vision.
One flesh, one bone, One true religion. One voice, one hope, One real decision. Wowowowo, gimme one vision, yeah.
No wrong, no right. I’m gonna tell you there’s no black and no white. No blood, no stain. All we need is one worldwide vision.
We are all connected.
From the view of this Taltos everything in existence is a face and facet of God and Goddess who are the unity of masculine and feminine essence.
I like to think of it as “one human” instead of “man.” We have limited ourselves through speech to the masculine only for far too long.
What we say and how we say it shapes our view of life the Universe and most things. Somethings we all agree on while everything else we debate endlessly.
As a Taltos I have but one religion, love.
There are no holy scriptures that could ever encompass what love is and what it means to live love and make yourself love personified. Here’s why.
If everything is a face and facet of what God is and God is love, than we are the living breathing example of love in our life.
That’s the only religion we need. Anything else is an attempt at subjugation and controlling a mass of people.
We get lost in the ideas of right and wrong, good and evil, light and dark and forget that it is unification of self not segregation that brings peace with a side of bliss that can spread through the world and change everything.
Right and wrong are just that, ideas.
We debate about the degrees of evil as if somehow it matters.
What if all we truly have is decisions and consequences?
I had a dream when I was young, A dream of sweet illusion, A glimpse of hope and unity, And visions of one sweet union.
But a cold wind blows, And a dark rain falls, And in my heart it shows. Look what they’ve done to my dream, yeah.
One vision!
So give me your hands, Give me your hearts. I’m ready. There’s only one direction. One world, one nation, Yeah, one vision.
No hate, no fight, Just excitation, All through the night, It’s a celebration, wowowowo, yeah.
As children we hear stories and begin to daydream of what a world as one looks like.
As we grow the machine that is society strips that dream of what could be away from us in favor of just surviving and making a life in what is.
It’s only when we become truly interested in the sum instead of the some that we will even begin to move towards that one vision of a world at peace for the most part. There are always going to be fucktards trying to ruin it for everyone, that’s just human nature. There will always be those who feel they have the right to just take because they can.
I have always said to forget about the hate and heal the hurt.
You might be surprised the feeling that rises up from within when you focus your life on helping where you actually can. Think of the party if we all were dancing to the same tune in our hearts.
That music from within is love.
When you let love throw down the tracks and follow, it always leads right where you need to be.
It leads you right to where you personally can be of the greatest service to the sum and not just the self interest of your own life.
You may or may not be engaged in grand deeds, however the lives you touch will be forever changed.
That’s worth putting in the work to become whole and united within. It’s only in this unified projection of self that any has any hope of changing the reflection that is the rest of the world.
I have one vision of a world whose only religion is love.
It’s a dream big enough for all of us, however it’s a dream that leaves the choice to every other dreamer to make before it can happen.
We both lie silently still in the dead of the night Although we both lie close together we feel miles apart inside Was it something I said or something I did? Did my words not come out right? Though I tried not to hurt you Though I tried But I guess that’s why they say
Every rose has its thorn Just like every night has its dawn Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song Every rose has its thorn
Yeah it does
I love that this bands name is Poison.
Think of it this way, when our romantic relationships are going down the toilet it feels as like we’ve been poisoned by that which we love most.
We all experience those relationships that end for whatever reason. I have been married 3 times however I have been heart and soul broken 8 times and I am working on 9. I forgot one when I was talking about this last night with a brother.
People grow at different rates and often find they grow apart when one has no interest in growing and the other feels the need from within to grow and continue becoming.
The loneliest feeling there is, is when that which we hold dearest to us as we sleep feels as though they are anywhere else. That our presence once loved is now becoming tolerated in hopes things can go back top the they they used to be.
It hurts to grow a part. It hurts to rip that mating of two souls a part as two grow at different rates that can lead to leaving the bliss behind that once was to allow the rose we are to close as the bloom no longer has that sweet smell.
Instead it’s the thorns that make us bleed as we hold on to the stem of what we once had no need to hold. It bloomed always there for us. It offered it’s scent to us alone.
We hurt ourselves by holding on that which was. The stem was the rose before it ever bloomed. If the rose can not be held gently then it will always cause you to bleed.
I listen to our favorite song playing on the radio Hear the DJ say love’s a game of easy come and easy go But I wonder does he know? Has he ever felt like this? And I know that you’d be here right now If I could have let you know somehow I guess
Though it’s been a while now I can still feel so much pain Like a knife that cuts you the wound heals But the scar, that scar remains
Some songs in my life I have let go of. I let go of them so I can find a new song that inspires that feeling based on who inspires that feeling. I let go of the love not lost, the love whose chapter came to an end so a new chapter can begin.
We have all felt like this at one point in our lives or another if we are doing it right and loving hard. Wearing our hearts on our sleeves and being the fools for love that for some of us has led to wisdom.
I met a new sister last night who wise and fiercely strong. Courageous as they come in my opinion.
I needed a new sister I could relate with though our life experience is vastly different however the ones we have become are the reminder we each need on a occasion that sometimes it’s nice to be noticed for who we are and not what we are showing in the moment.
How the pain truly goes away is two stages.
One is to be at peace at the thought of them.
Two is to thank them for the lessons learned so that you could learn to better love who you are.
To love the rose you are ever becoming.
We all have our scars, I call them my lessons of what to not do again if I am to truly love myself as I would want to be loved by another.
When love is pure it is true bliss that becomes what is felt in the present moment as you connect in love pure and true.
When we let the spirit connect the love it creates is the bliss that has no need of the flesh.
There is the sweetest of bliss to be found in connecting the flesh and it is the purity of the love that allows the flesh to connect as needed in the moment to keep the bliss flowing.
That rarely involves sex and always involves intimacy or letting someone in your room for the moment when you need and it’s there for you.
Be love, sow in love pure and true and always reap bliss pure and true no matter it’s form in the moment.
There’s nothing you can do that can’t be done Nothing you can sing that can’t be sung Nothing you can say but you can learn how the play the game It’s easy
I love it when people tell me that what I’ve done, doing or say I will do is impossible. I’ve enjoyed, enjoy and look forward to enjoying doing what others think is impossible.
I love to sing.
I live to sing.
If you can say it, you can sing it.
Some call it the game of love for reasons that are as childish as we seem to act when we fall in love. The fear of rejection has us dancing around each other instead of talking to each other.
It’s when we talk to each other that it gets easier. First we have to break through that fear barrier that keeps us silent.
There’s nothing you can make that can’t me made No one you can save that can’t be saved Nothing you can do but you can learn how to be you in time It’s easy
It’s all been done before.
Think of the life you would make for yourself and realize other people probably have had the same idea. Some have made that life. Some chase it like a dragon thinking if they slay the beast, they can claim it’s treasure that it has been hoarding in it’s cave.
That’s the metaphor of the dragon. Hoarding.
Hoarding riches and wisdom.
Dragons make heroes of the those who slay them.
What do you want to make yourself into that provides the life you want to live?
The only one stopping you is you.
No one can save you, they can only be there to accept the hand you reach out showing you’ve been working at saving your own ass. It’s their choice whether or not they save themselves from whatever it is they feel they need saving from.
I don’t feel as though I need to be saved from anything.
I saved myself years ago when I looked at the world as it is and turned my back. It’s not easy being an Empath with high level sensitivity. I saved my own ass the other night from an Empathic overload by simply walking away.
There was nothing I was going to do in that situation as a man of peace. I had already attempted guidance from this cooler head.
Rather than allow myself to be a part of what had degraded I set the example I would expect any to follow who claim to have given up violence in anyway. I lived the integrity of my words in my desire to never be a combatant ever again.
I’m more shocked than anyone who may have known me in my younger years to have become a pacifist. What locked it in was the last time I had to defend myself and I nearly killed someone in less than 10 sec.
I have trained myself in martial arts since I was 9. There is no school or belt that goes with what I taught myself over the years about the art of defending oneself.
The martial art I developed in response to my fear of my own capability is called Protection through Right Action. Simply put, never put yourself in a position to defend yourself and the Universe will give you a big assist in avoiding it.
It has not been easy to learn how to be me however it is getting easier every day.
There’s nothing you can know that isn’t known Nothing you can see that isn’t shown No where you can be that isn’t where you’re meant to be It’s easy
There is nothing unknown only that which has been forgotten or hidden.
We look for deeper meaning an understanding in the things we see. We forget to feel what’s around us as well. What we feel can tell us much more than what we see and can often explain it.
If you’re there, there is no mistake about it. If you have a desire to be somewhere, you can go. Simply change your flow to allow yourself to be moved down the river of life that will bring the reflections of your projection.
Let go of the idea of controlling your life and get comfy with the terror of letting it all go and allowing yourself to be given what you need by The Big U to bring that life you wish to create to life.
It is scary to think about taking a leap of faith and trusting, not believing, trusting that where you drop into the flow will take you everywhere you ever wanted to go.
All you need is love Love is all you need
There is only one emotion and it is love. Every other name we give to the states of love are simply that the state of this being of love.
Our souls are made of emotional energy and we are love wrapped in flesh.
Think about what makes you sad or happy and the form love takes that shows a happy face or a sad one.
Our natural emotion is love.
Our natural state is to be love.
All you need is love to guide you in wisdom.
Love is patient.
Love is understanding.
Love responds not reacts.
Love is compassionate.
Love is merciful.
Love is what we are when we allow ourselves to be, instead of trying to be what they are selling us we should be.
When I find myself in times of trouble Mother Mary comes to me And in my hour of darkness She is standing right in front of me Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
In my life I often find the ones who guide me through my dark times are women. I think of all of us as having the ability to be a conduit for divine and sacred energy.
I’m a fan of the sacred darkness that accepts all as a mother would her children.
It’s why I love being out at night and will definitely be out for tonight’s full moon hangin’ at Children’s park.
We have a habit of asking The Big U for stuff and then asking over and over again as if we weren’t heard the first time.
It takes time for the Universe to do it’s thing and not upset the natural balance in fulfilling your request. I’ve been waiting to continue a conversation and I don’t ask repeatedly for that opportunity.
I’m attempting to live Karmic Law.
A patient mind reaps the greatest reward and the greatest reward is one that makes an impact.
That next conversation could have a profound impact on my life and the lives of whoever I find myself around afterwards.
And when the broken-hearted people Living in the world agree There will be an answer, let it be For though they may be parted There is still a chance that they will see There will be an answer, let it be
For a parent separated from their child, it is heartbreaking. For myself and what I’m doing right now, it’s good for my son to be with his mother.
The time will come when that will change.
And when the night is cloudy There is still a light that shines on me Shine on until tomorrow, let it be I wake up to the sound of music,
The light within is always reflected back.
Remember you are blessed being of light regardless of the darkness around you.
First thing I do most days after I wake up is turn on music. The words and the melody bringing me to life and helping me to remind myself “I woke up today the rest is gravy.”
Today is still the never ending best day of my life as it rolls and unfolds before me. I love my life as it unfolds and keeps getting better slowly but surely. Of course there will always be a stumble here and there. There will be reminder lessons of things I forget in the moment.
I trust the Big U has heard my every request to provide the life I’m living. It’s really difficult to get to the point you can put that in black and white knowing it will be tested.
All I can do is let it be and let it flow and move with the flow. Simply be me and allow all the work I put into myself reap what I have sown, I’m going to anyway, so why worry or allow myself to be impatient?
This song plays heavily into the metaphors I attach to color. Here’s why.
Loving would be easy if your colors were like my dream Red, gold and green
Poppa Smoke personal color metaphors 101, please feel free to create your own.
I use purple as I associate it with the crown chakra and the enlightened view one gets in using what red means to me by exercising patience.
To me the opposite of patience is wrath.
Love requires patience to find the understanding that allows wisdom to flow from the heart which to me I use green, which is the color associated with the heart chakra. For an Empath our heart chakra is our energy powerhouse.
I also associate green with friendship.
Laughter is healing energy and you always find ways to laugh at and with your friends and often find yourself being the target of the joke.
I tell people “The more you get to know me, the meaner I get.”
What that means is that as we spend time together we learn from each other what can be taken in jest and the laughter is shared versus anyone feeling disrespected.
It takes patience and time to learn each other’s boundaries. While anything can be funny, not every thing is funny in the moment and some things are only funny to us in the moment.
What good is healing if it can’t be shared?
To me it ain’t worth much.
Get what you give.
That brings me to gold. A color I associate with purity. Let the love be pure to be best friends giving each other the patience to learn from each other why you fit together like pieces to a puzzle.
Every day is like survival You’re my lover not my rival
I play Magic: The Gathering to compete with my friends.
You never compete with a lover.
When they say “All is fair in love and war.”
It’s not a challenge to make a war out of love.
It means when your lover says “It’s not fair what you do for me and I don’t feel like I do enough for you.”
It’s when you both feel as though there is no way I could be this lucky.
It’s not fair with who they are and everything.
Yet still we love each other and desire to have that conversation that never ends, however gets interrupted by life and naps.
It’s not fair to those who don’t have that in life.
All is fair in love and when in love, fuck fair and enjoy what the Big U wanted give you that you could never ask for.
To do that and have that perfectly flawed flawless reflection of the projection you’ve become, Red, Gold and Green meet another color that only lovers share.
I am a man who walks alone And when I’m walking a dark road At night or strolling through the park
When the light begins to change I sometimes feel a little strange A little anxious when it’s dark.
The light we become is born from our darkness. We put things in our darkness we would not want the rest of the world to see out of fear of being judged and seen as if there is something wrong with us.
We always walk alone in our darkness whether we walk the streets or take a stroll through any park. It doesn’t matter if it’s day or night our darkness is always around us.
Have you run your fingers down the wall And have you felt your neck skin crawl When you’re searching for the light ? Sometimes when you’re scared to take a look At the corner of the room You’ve sensed that something’s watching you.
No one likes to be watched unless they have put themselves at the center of things. When we sense the unseen taking interest in us it can sometimes bring about fear. You feel it there, however you can’t see it or touch it and it can be unnerving.
I always say that if there was a personification of God it would make God the ultimate stalker. That idea of something or someone ever present ever watching is a scary one when we are not at peace with who we are and the things we do when we are alone.
However we always get a sense of the people we meet.
We are spirits wrapped in flesh and we are all connected.
I say everything in existence is a face and facet of what God truly is. We have a lower self that enjoys all the pleasures the flesh has to offer. No matter how dark the desire is, the flesh can find a way to enjoy it.
The higher self is our connection to what some call the Universal Consciousness and I call the Big U. I call it the Big U because it’s all of you in spirit. We are a hive mind that takes the form of flesh to enjoy what individuality is and can be.
Watching horror films the night before Debating witches and folklore The unknown troubles on your mind Maybe your mind is playing tricks You sense,and suddenly eyes fix On dancing shadows from behind.
At times setting ourselves up to be scared can be fun.
A scared woman will cuddle closer to the one next to her.
A scared man will cuddle closer to the one next to him.
I’ve had a lot of conversations about Majick recently. Real Majick not illusion, not some long forgotten secret art, something we all do every day in every way without realizing it most of the time.
The Universe manifests for us and will allow us to think we are doing it ourselves and play into our ego expression.
This often leads many to feeling as though they are Wizards or Sorcerers or Witches and for some, they go off the deep end and think they are a god or a Djinn or something other than human.
We want to feel as though we have the power because we fear being weak. Funny thing is the ultimate power in the Universe is choice. Our choices create the path before us.
Karmic Law says and science has proven, our thoughts create our realities.
I forget who I was talking to the other night who said “Our thoughts are our prayers and our words our spells.”
Wise words and a simple way to view the Majick we all do.
When one becomes their light, they leave their darkness behind.
For me, I am a recovering sex addict. So for me I became a Tantra master in order to leave my desires at home and I go out in search of growth, learning, friendship, family and pure love connections.
My darkness is nothing for any to see except those I become lovers with. I have no need to be a lover with every woman and I’m not into men. I’ve thought about it, simply not my thing. However I enjoy hanging out with gay men, they tend to be entertaining. They also have strength and courage as many of them came out to families who don’t get them.
I respect them, they have been through some shit and probably take more than they should from a world still homophobic.
What’s to be afraid of?
I often find those who experience homophobia are often denying the desires they have within them.
Courage is not the absence of fear it’s knowing you’re afraid and saying “Fuck this shit, I’m doing it anyway.”
“I’m going to be me anyway”
“I’m going to talk to ______ anyway.”
“Fuck fear!”
It’s finding a way to do what you’re afraid of not because the fear is gone, you do it because you refuse to let fear run your life. I often find on the other side of my fears is the life I never would have thought I could have.
It’s scary to do what I do in this world as it is. It’s scary to tell the world “I’ll give you the benefit of what and who I am and what I can do without ever asking for anything in return.”
My desire is to never let fear make my choice.
My choice is to stand, face my fears and do it anyway.
As for what I keep in my darkness, my peace and my side of bliss.
It’s what creates that bliss in the light I choose to be. I give all that I am to any around.
Tonight I’m taking my Magic cards out to hang with some new friends who also play Magic: The Gathering. I’m bringing bliss with me, the bliss I find in allowing my higher self to connect me to the bliss all around and within us.
I’m also looking forward to kickin’ some ass on the table.
If you’re going to play a game, play to win. The only game I play right now is Magic: The Gathering and I look forward to the gathering around the park bench tonight.
I go out in the dark because there is nothing fear but fear itself as JFK once said.
I’m also nocturnal and I spend most of my day giving my energy to my parents so they can do what they need to do. It drains me all day long and I sleep off and on through out the day.
Fear of the dark, fear of the dark I have a constant fear, thought you heard Fear of the dark, fear of the dark I have a phobia that someone’s always there.
I find comfort that there is always something or someone there. Understanding we are never truly alone and that loneliness is nothing more than a choice.
When I go out to do what I do I strap my boots on. The boots I wear I received 24 years ago in June. They’re my basic training combat boots from the Air Force.
I thought about using the song THESE BOOTS ARE MADE FOR WALKING, to tell this tale, however I found the song has no relation to me and my boots.
I walk all over no one and see no reason to ever to do that.
I walk to people and I walk away, to walk all over is to insist the need for vengeance or vindication or a sense of victory.
The victory is when the war within comes to an end and you can walk away because there is nothing to fight or fight for.
I wear my boots to remind me of where I came from.
To remind me that the Air Force taught me integrity.
To remind me to walk my talk.
To remind me to live my integrity.
I am in an entirely new line of service to the people and the land and my boots help me remember that.
Friday night a Brother reminded me who I was and who I have become when he said “Warrior Love”
I replied “I am on the pure love mission but you stay on warrior duty.”
It’s a new role for me. I have a warriors heart and always have. However the time for me came to be nothing more than a teacher and a guide. I am no healer and I am no protector and I am no longer the warrior I was.
I’ll confess I have studied martial arts for decades and I have the ability to rip an attackers throat out based on the warrior I was. I am not interested and if I could, I would forget everything I know about physical combat, all combat for that matter.
I’m a Hippy with a Rock ‘N’ Roll heart. A man of peace. A man of love, the pure love the world needs more of. I’m not even interested in debate.
My style of fighting for my life these days is to simply say here I am and if you can’t hang with me, walk away, because I am going now where.
I find the people who have a hard time being around me are fighting their own war and I have no desire to be apart of it. Instead I like to help people see how to end that internal conflict as this reflection has no rage to project.
There is a difference between standing your ground and refusing to move and fighting.
Look at Gandhi.
A man of peace who never fought, he stood his ground and refused to be moved. If I am in the home of another you bet your ass I leave if they ask.
However stadnin’ out on the street, I am not going anywhere. I am going back again and again. I found a new favorite Friday night place to hang out and talk to people outside. It upset some people who like to use it as their personal feeding ground.
Feeding off the energy of others. Me I find my presence negates their feeding.
Like it says in HUNGER STRIKE, I won’t feed on the powerless.
Some people have no problem feeding on anyone and the powerless make it easier and sweeter to stalk. There are Empaths who like to feed off your light to fuel their dark desires.
They often make themselves the center of things and show off and draw attention to themselves.
When you watch someone trying to feed all night in this manner it’s pathetic. You see how hollow they are allowing them selves to be the mirror of your light in order to feed on you.
It’s disgusting.
It’s the lowest form of using the gift it is to be an Empath.
It’s inhuman and vampiric in nature. These would be the energy vampires you hear about. Nothing more than Empaths who have decided to feed off the energy of people without giving back.
I stood my ground Friday night and did no fighting. I stood my ground and ruined the feeders feast and I will be around to make sure that one never feeds around me again.
I don’t have to fight, I just have to show up and let it flow.
A Taltos is often their communities early warning system, feeling what’s coming from a mile away giving the community time to prepare. In history a Hungarian King was thought to be Taltos as his early warning prepared the country to fight off would be invaders who thought it was easy pickings.
I wear boots to remind me to live my integrity and walk my talk.
I look back at the free love movement from decades ago and I can clearly see why it failed.
Today I wander about and talk with many and the common theme is psychedelic drugs and taking that kind of trip to expand consciousness and awareness. For me total sobriety is what most describe an acid trip as.
I was born with that total awareness.
The drugs are a cheat and a shortcut to use instead of doing the work. I’ve spoken with many who have taken so much LSD that it has forever changed them and not in helpful ways.
Cosmic Alchemy 101.
To receive one must give.
When we shortcut it we give up chunks of ourselves to what or whoever we are using to shortcut it.
Some use sex.
In fact there was a guy, you know someone who will fuck you because they can, that was selling sex as a way to super-consciousness with the idea that a man should only orgasm once a year.
Quick biology lesson.
For men it’s actually healthy to orgasm several times a week and reduces prostate swelling over time. It actually keeps the prostate functioning better over time.
Another part of Tantric art is to self induce the orgasmic state alone with out the pay off. To me that’s selfishness to only experience growth on your own for yourself.
The free love movement of long ago included fuckin’ anyone because “Hey man it’s all about the love so why not?”
Here’s why not.
In sex we exchange pieces of our souls with each other. Over time we become ingrained into each other and telepathic communication increases. When we give our bodies to whoever, we’re creating a chaotic mess within us and sharing those we have taken on with whoever we are exchanging pieces with now.
We are the sum of all we take on and in.
We fracture our soul and give away facets of our soul in exchange for a fuck, an orgasm that we feel entitled to because it was consensual and it was legal so why not.
You can damage your soul to the point where no matter how good you look on the outside you need to take on more and more from others. What does this look like?
We don’t always exchange the best of us for the best of them. Often one gets the best of it and the other is left with the rest of it or worse yet, left feeling hollow as if there was no return, no exchange.
People who use people for their good time rarely if ever give anything back. They take and take and take.
The other night I set myself with the intent to give pure love. I received it back up until I met one human. After that I had nothing left to give as this human unknowingly drained me out. They thought they were doing me some good and it backfired.
The intent was a good one, however they made an assumption about what I needed instead of talking to me to find out.
Then I was led into an environment that for me is harmful. Again an assumption was made without finding out why I stay outside and don’t go in.
Again the intent was to attempt to assist me, instead it injured me and required I take protective measures to protect myself.
I often find myself in position to teach other teachers and guide other guides. I often find myself showing the masters that they have become masters for themselves and need no further teaching or guidance.
If you think about the idea of community and mix it with the idea of it taking a village to raise a child, you begin to see that a lot of what we think of as a good time is harmful to the community and the children born from it and in it.
A child conceived while in altered states brought on through the use of drugs and alcohol will have a profound effect on the child created. Who you are in that moment has a profound effect on the child conceived.
Our essence begins with the emotional state in it’s totality of our parents, we are the essence of them preceding our existence in conception.
Being free with love negates protecting oneself, being free with sex gives pieces of ourselves away that may never be found again.
To me it has nothing to do with morality and everything to do with understanding how energy works.
It has nothing to do with being a downer on the party and everything to do with understanding the cost of the so called fun.
We grew up waiting for our turn to get drunk, throw up and be somebody.
We grew up waiting for our turn to take Acid or Mushrooms or DMT.
Personally I want to try Mushrooms and DMT, however I will never touch Acid.
It takes a village and this is what our villages have been producing. People, human beings hell bent on destroying their bodies, minds and souls because it’s what they grew up watching.
I heard some kids telling me How they’ve lost all the faith, in the way They’ve been talking world peace And the wars in the streets
It was 27 years ago that Motley Crue first released this song. I remember buying the Dr. Feelgood album on cassette with Jimi Hendrix Are You Experienced. The first two cassettes I ever bought.
This was the last song on the album. I was 15 and I was one of those kids who had lost faith in the way. I find it disturbing that nearly 3 decades later the song is as relevant today as it was in 1989.
Look around at all the violence in the world and so much of it taking place on the streets not between soldiers, between kids with guns and the adults who hold the reigns and keep pumping them full of whatever it takes to keep them fighting whoever they want fought.
Old, tired fools tell our future With tarot cards, and lie of crime
We hear it and see it all the time, yet we keep going along with it out of fear of the unknown and the easiness of cold comfort. For the most part as long as we can watch TV or goof off online, we really don’t care to do anything that might upset that comfort.
Even when we see it right in front of us and have irrefutable evidence shoved in our faces, we would rather turn the blind eye than actually do something that might upset what is.
I feel the the future In the hands of our youth No more lies
I like spending time with younger adults in their early 20’s. I feel the honesty in them and the desire to do something, maybe not knowing what, however feeling the dire need that something has to be done.
It starts with honesty.
Honestly I get along better with people half my age than I do with people my own age. Being a teacher, it’s easier to teach a mind that is not already made up. It is easier to reach a mind that is still open to new possibilities.
A revolution, or reach out And touch the day We’re overdue, child
Change Now it’s time for change Nothing stays the same Now it’s time for change
I’m a man of peace. When I speak of revolution I speak of a revolution of ideas with no violence.
If we look at history, violence begets violence. It’s undeniable. Yet still we fight thinking at some point it will achieve peace.
What in the holy blue hell is wrong with us?
It’s time for change. A change in philosophical ideology. A change in allowing religion to be an excuse for hate.
I am a man of God and I can see where religion has done more to bring us to the brink of destroying ourselves more than any other influence.
History is littered with the deaths of millions over whose God is the right one and whose book is the right one.
In my opinion every organized religion should be banned.
I am a man of God and not an atheist and I am not suggesting a new religion by any means. I use Rock ‘N’ Roll.
I talk to more and more people who are against religion and for spirituality. Spirituality is an individual relationship between you and God and does not need a hall or a choir and God doesn’t need or want our money.
Change is inevitable. The options for us is to change our ways or destroy ourselves. Seems pretty simple.
The future is in the hands of our young however we need the old people to get out of the way and step down and let the new blood run free.
In my twenties I got a fortune 100 company to do it my way. At twenty I had the Us Air Force telling me they were going to do it my way after seeing the results.
I am not that special. There are a ton of people in their 20’s that could have mass influence in turning this around if we just get out of their way. Give them guidance, however let them do it their way and see what happens.
Change is inevitable. Change is existence. With out change there is no existence.
Perhaps the greatest impact that can be made in this world can be made by the 20 somethings of the world.
The payment silenced the masses Sanctified by oppression Unity took a backseat Sliding further into regression
Look around at the world you live in and the things that motivate your life.
Look at those who you see as being free.
They live based off of the oppression that raised them up.
They singled themselves out to take because they felt they deserved it or had earned it or had paid their dues or came from the right family or just really wanted it and they were willing to step on anyone to get it.
This is the effect of the law of attraction.
Basing life on desire and having your desire fulfilled.
Forget about earning it, if you want it bad enough you can create the energy vibration to bring it to you.
Let me tell you a story about someone I used to know.
They spent years wanting the one who got away.
When that other came back, well my friend was nothing that could satisfy the others desires for life.
My friend didn’t get what he wanted, he is getting what he needs to show him his belief in the law of attraction is a false belief based on desire not reality.
The time they spent together the second time around was a round of endless pain and misery. Even though he got what he wanted it was not what he needed and his life spiraled downward until he saw what he needed not wanted.
He lost sight that we are in and of our selves whole. We are 1 not 1/2.
Unity begins and ends in you.
Until you find the unity of one within, everything out here will be a painful lesson that is attempting to teach you that unity begins and ends within.
Until each of us can be whole as we are there is no unity within the world.
Until we see that if it is not good for the sum then we are lying to ourselves to feel OK about being apart of the some.
I feel angry I feel helpless Want to change the world I feel violent I feel alone Don’t try and change my mind
Who doesn’t feel helpless when they look at what we live in and think about how to change it.
It takes more than want.
It takes change.
That change absolutely must come from within.
This is an inescapable truth whether you like it or not. If no change is made within as Karmic Law says:
History repeats itself unless changed.
Look at the repeating history we are living.
We haven’t changed as one race in centuries.
We have been stuck in a place of endless desire and letting desire be our guide and that trip has led to this place of thinking if we want it bad enough we can have it.
What if we created it together with a focus on the sum not the some and what is best for one human race?
I am dedicated to the idea of one world, one race, no borders, no wars, globally one.
I am not alone.
It’s not about some new world order, it’s not about the next version of subjugation and control, it’s about recognizing the fact we are one race and need to act accordingly before we destroy ourselves.
Why hold down one to raise another Discrimination now on both sides Seeds of hate blossom further The world is heading for mutiny
We may rise and fall, but in the end We meet our fate together
For everyone we raise and elevate we hold down so many others.
We are equal and there is no justifiable or rational explanation to live another way.
To live any other way is damaging to the human spirit and to the sum.
We discriminate using a lot more than race.
Currently the one thing we use to discriminate more than any other thing is money.
If you don’t have it, it must be because you did it to you. You are responsible for your life and no one else.
That might hold true if we lived in a world that sought to live in the balance of the natural order of things. Instead we seek to go outside that natural order to satisfy our desires.
We are effected by the decisions of others.
Our lives thrown into turmoil because of the desire of someone else.
The results of the law of attraction.
In the law of attraction the only one that matters is you.
Fulfilling your desire, bringing your dreams to reality.
It’s an egocentric creation to forgo the labor of becoming and to let desire guide your life.
It forgets we are all one.
Look around the world at all the hate because a group of people wants this and another group wants this and instead of comprising on what’s best for the one human race we let it become about what’s best for this one group or that group or these groups over here and so on.
The world is heading for mutiny, not a violent one, one where the ideas of what is are thrown away in favor of something that is good for the sum not the some that currently reside in seats of authority dictating to the sum based on what is good for the some.
I have seen thousands that are spreading the same message world wide in various ways.
In my estimation that would mean there may as well be millions.
That means it is an inevitability that we will return to a natural order of things and that our wants will fade away to let us see our needs as one race.
Want still matters, however it must be tempered with need. It must be tempered with wisdom that thinks about what fulfilling our desires will cost the sum.
The goal is to be unified Take my hand be my brother
Society blind by color
When all we want is unity
The only way is one
My son told me something disturbing yesterday.
He told me that the kid who has been giving him problems at school is not getting addressed because the school is afraid of being seen as racist.
The kid giving my son problems is the only African American kid in his class. Because of this they have been lenient as to avoid being thought of racist.
A child’s behavior is being overlooked because of the color of his skin. He’s being allowed to be abusive towards other students because instead of seeing a child being a dick head, they see an African American.
Blinded by color.
Until we can see beyond the color of our skin and see each other simply as humans, how can we ever be one race?
My family is not the people I was born to. My family is one human race. The people I was born to just got me here. Think about how we feel as though we are obligated to take care of our family.
Now open that view up to include the whole human race.
It takes away the ability to to say no to giving a helping hand simply because you happen to be there.
Unity is in unifying yourself as one human being unified in mind body and spirit. Understanding you are whole as one and we are all connected as one is unity.
Unity is understanding what happens to one effects the sum that is one race.
Too often we let the idea of borders and countries allow us to forget the sum in favor of the few or the some.
It must hold true for all or it is a lie.
There is no personal truth.
Anyone who would tell you different is trying to sell you something.
There is a personal understanding of the truth and any one truth can be expressed infinite ways however the truth is not a personal thing, it simply is.
Why would someone tell you it’s OK to have a personal truth no one understands?
Could it be so they could hold on to their delusions as well?
Could it be so they can feed off the masses?
As long as the masses are buying it, no changes need to me made.
This is the law of attraction, a delusion sold so they can feed off you and never have to become one themselves. They can live off their want to live off of your want.
Their desire is feed off your desire. That is what the law of attraction is simply stated, desire feeding off desire.
As an Empath I can feel the rebirth that is spring. I can feel life coming back to that which lay dormant for the winter. I can feel that urge to get it on and produce more life.
I feel as though we originally came up with the Goddess Ishtar (pronounced Easter) to give us a metaphor to explain this overwhelming feeling of fertile of life all around us as the seasons change.
We have the opportunity to renew or lives every day, however we often wait for occasions such as full moons and the like to give us a structure to transmute ourselves through. We are obsessed with the timing of things.
The simplest way to encourage our own renewing of our life is to simply embrace the following Karmic Law.
Accept what is, let go of what was and make changes for what will be.
If we are holding on to the past we are not allowing ourselves to move forward and we keep ourselves stuck. We often want everything to change except us. My biggest continuous struggle with my own path is to make changes in me.
When we accept ourselves for who we are we can become complacent. We can become bored and we seek out something to spark life into us again.
Often we seek out the same old vices instead of trying something new and letting our life become something different the moment we make that choice. That choice sets our subconscious into motion for us to do things behind our back in front of our face to create the desire to change our projection to match the reflection of our desire.
Simply wanting it will bring it to you in a way, a form or a fashion, however until we become what is needed to have our desire it will never live up to it and always leave us wanting more.
This is why I do not support the law of attraction, it seeks to be a work around to actually doing the work to become your hearts true desire to turn the reflections around to match your projection.
Think of it as a character in a film. When the character says or does something out of context for that character, we call it bad film making. Life is about becoming the ever evolving, ever changing character that allows for the pursuit of your hearts true desires.
The Cinematic view simply stated says that our character, our projection of self will allow what story unfolds in our life. Who we show ourselves to be is what allows The Big U to manifest the opportunities to take our character on an adventure.
In my research on myself and what a Taltos is, I came across something that explained me to myself however I did not want to readily embrace.
I was a workaholic most of my life. I liked working 70 hours a week and that it gave me the excuse to be recluse. I like my solitude, always have.
A Taltos never asks for anything in exchange for whatever it is we do for you. We take what is offered and if nothing is offered, oh well. Embracing my being in a world that revolves around getting paid, well let’s say it’s not as easy to accept.
We live in a society of compensation for everything. I did something now give me my reward. Sometimes that compensation is in telling people about that thing we did just because we could. We seek to have our ego stroked and have recognition for being us.
In this time of re-birthing maybe we should slow down and think about what our hearts true desire is and what changes to make in ourselves to become to projection that will turn that reflection around.
A memory that once hurt to think about can become a lesson.
It’s often not easy to see the lesson to be learned through the pain that was endured that is attached to that memory. One must detach emotionally from the memory and look at it from multiple angles and examine the depth of the situation.
We got hurt and we hold onto that emotion to stay shallow in our understanding of that moment. In order to dive into the depth we must let go of emotion and attempt to understand what we see as a result.
Grosse Point Blank put it best.
I say forget about forgiving and just accept.
At times the lesson is to see what we survived, not as a victim, as a survivor who was in a situation and found a way out.
That takes strength and acts of courage for some who survive horrific things and find a way to keep on keepin’ on.
I always say “Forget about the hate and heal the pain.”
Often our anger stems from pain. We use the mask of anger to feel strong. Feeling hurt, feels weak at times. We use anger to feel strong and seek retribution.
Somehow we think this will make the hurt go away or at least now they hurt too.
This kind of thinking will destroy humanity.
Big picture view shows if we are all acting like this, it explains the wars and the clear path we seem to be on to destroy ourselves in the name of whatever is the reason to kill this week.
Leadership in my opinion and simply stated is the choice to serve a need you happen to notice because you noticed and could do something to fill that need.
The only ego driven part of being a leader is in identifying that you do in fact posses the ability to serve this need you noticed.
There is a story I like to use that to me illustrates what it means to see oneself as a King or Queen in your own life.
The term landlord comes from the term Lord of the Land and the Lord cared for the people who cared for the land and saw to their needs. The Lord of the Lords or the King cared for the Lords as he cared for the people. Most people don’t realize that the true king never sits on a throne nor does he wear a crown.
He is wandering his kingdom and finding those who have a need he can fulfill. As he helps these people, he gets to know them and he gets to see how it is they came to have this need. The king is a wise man and as he gets the full story he can see if these people live by the king’s law.
If the king found these to be good people, then something wonderful would happen after he left. If these people were in foul of the king’s law, something horrible would happen after he left.
Either way no one ever really knew who the king was and that was his power.
If you knew you were in the presence of the king, you would put your best foot forward and make sure you were doing everything right, but that is not a fair look for the king.
There are two points to this story.
The first is to always be doing what you know you should, because you never know who is walking by and second, the king’s subjects do not serve the king, the king serves his subjects.
You over hear conversations all the time, what makes you think no one over hears your conversations. “Oh, but that was just between us and no one had the right to be listening.”
Does saying or thinking that ever change the result?
Why do we get mad at the cop for catching us?
Why do we get mad when getting caught by anyone?
Why do we think it was OK for us and yet will condemn others for similar behavior?
Why do we think authority and leadership have anything to do with each other?
To have authority in my opinion is to have the function of enforcing a set of rules or laws.
It has nothing to do with being a leader. It can have aspects of leadership in the performance of the function, however authority is not the equivalent of leadership.
What are the behavioral traits of leadership?
What does leadership look like in living action?
There are traits that define a leader and they are traits that are visible in the actions and attitudes of any true leader.
It begins with the acknowledgment that a leader’s first duty is to identify the needs of the people and serve those needs until the goal is accomplished.
There are times that a leader will need to make sacrifices in order to meet the needs of the people who are taking care of the greater needs.
It is by the example that is set by the leader that the people follow.
Every true leader understands that not even the King or the Queen is above the law, they exemplify it.
No one ever has to question what a leader is doing, they see it in their actions and their attitudes and they operate with transparency.
A leader has nothing to hide and everything to share in order to provide for the greater needs. The key word for me when thinking about leadership is “need.”
What need does what I’m doing serve?
To understand leadership one must understand the difference between need and desire or want. One must be willing to give up want or desire in favor of need.
One must allow for want and desire to be fulfilled, but never at the expense of the needs of others.
Think of it as when you were a kid and tried to tell your parents you needed that thing and you know it was a want, not a need.
In exploring leadership from a spiritual view I looked at different teachings and how they applied in the view of living the concept.
When I hit the Wicca concept of do no harm, I laughed my ass off. Here’s why.
Take a minute to think about the harm done over the course of existence so you could wake up today.
Even in filling needs, harm gets done. A leader evaluates the harm to be done by filling the need versus the harm done in allowing the need to go unfulfilled.
How much environmental harm do we do to drive?
The scarring of the earth to get the materials to build it.
The pollution in manufacturing the oil to have fuel to power it.
The pollution from driving it.
The scarring of the earth to provide roads for driving.
That is one common item in society currently.
Look around and think about where these things come from and find the harm we do to fulfill our wants as well and our needs and we often blur the line between the two to feel OK about it.
A leader never blurs the line and calls it as it is.
The leaders interest is in what is best for the sum, not the some.
Being a leader is not a function, it is a mode of life.
Leadership is not associated with title it is the quality of the walk of your talk. The people we call leaders are closer to being authorities.
We authorize them to decide what’s best for us and trust them to act with leadership in the best interest of the sum.
That is the simplest explanation of every form of government or political structure I could give.
We give the authority to others to govern over us.
We show how we lead ourselves by the type of governance we allow and the authorities to enforce that governance we allow to be and stay in place.
We follow authorities in the form of our governments and the men and women we give title and authority to that make up those governments.
There is nothing that shows being a government authority makes you a leader.
Being a leader is a mode of living and anyone can be and many are leaders without title or authority.
When there’s nowhere else to run Is there room for one more son One more son If you can hold on If you can hold on, hold on I wanna stand up, I wanna let go You know, you know – no you don’t, you don’t I wanna shine on in the hearts of men I wanna mean it from the back of my broken hand
I will never know how many people I have actually helped.
I do know that each of them was at a point where holding on felt like an option that was being taken away.
The energy work I do allows me to take the total emotional you in one shot and give you strength and peace and clarity in return. It’s something most Empaths do simply as a matter of their being.
Another head aches, another heart breaks I am so much older than I can take And my affection, well it comes and goes I need direction to perfection, no no no no
Most Empaths have a life that has them seeing people coming to them when they are heart broken for a myriad of reasons.
You start to feel old when you have taken on so much and given so much.
It also tends to give Empaths an edge.
People will want to spend time with an Empath and not realize why they are doing it.
They want that good feeling they get every time they are around or talk to the Empath in their life. At times as an Empath you develop personality quirks that discourages people from wanting to be around you.
Every interaction for an Empath has the potential to be a drain on them.
We do it to protect ourselves. If we don’t we spend all our time working out your emotional issues.
Yeah, you know you got to help me out Yeah, oh don’t you put me on the back burner You know you got to help me out You’re gonna bring yourself down
No one ever says “Yo my life is fucked, however take your sweet ass time to getting around to me.”
We can become even more frustrated when no one seems to see the urgency we feel.
We can feel ignored or even as though we may not even exist.
When we don’t get what we are looking for, what we feel we need, sometimes we can get spiteful.
These changes ain’t changing me The gold-hearted boy I used to be
My mother tells a story that even when I was 3 and 4 I could just sense she was feeling sad and I would come give her a hug. Being an Empath means I feel what you need emotionally much clearer than you could ever tell anyone. At times a hug isn’t it. At times it’s a hammer shot of clarity.
People will wallow in self pity and misery and the best thing you can do for them is to give them that hammer shot up side the head. It’s not an easy thing to do as we often get a lash out reaction.
Tough shit, if you care enough to be there, you care enough to be honest instead of feeding the suffering.
Love is not always a cuddly thing and sometimes tough love comes in the form of hard truth.
We often don’t want to hear the truth we want to stay in the hell we created for ourselves.
We don’t want to do the work ourselves, we want someone to show up and save our ass.
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
The difference between a warrior and a soldier is a soldier is ordered into battle a warrior chooses their battles.
Life is a war.
The battles are fought daily and the war never ends.
Life is a war of ideas.
Look around and see the truth for yourself.
Do you fight the battles you are told to fight or the ones you choose?
Your only weapon is your mind.
How sharp is your sword?
Who wields the sword you are?
Over and in, last call for sin While everyone’s lost, the battle is won With all these things that I’ve done All these things that I’ve done
To win your own inner battles at times everyone else has to lose so you can take care of you.
Your life is a culmination of all these things you have done. However this does not absolve the rest of the world for turning their back on you.
No one accomplishes great things on their own. No one.
Anyone in history or in current day that has notoriety for their accomplishments has not done one damn thing on their own. They had assistance, a lot of it.
For you to get where you are you had assistance and a lot of it.
How often do you think about the assistance your life has been given from a big picture view?
How often do you step outside yourself to look at your life?
How often do think about yourself as it was someone else and then think about what you would think about that person?
They say when you dance with the Devil, you don’t change the Devil, the Devil changes you. I have often said the Devil has a fucked up job.
His job is to show you everything love isn’t, so you can discover on your own what love is.
Sometimes you need to take your life and SHAKE IT OUT as Florence and The Machine suggest in order to get that Devil off your back.
Regrets collect like old friends Here to relive your darkest moments I can see no way, I can see no way And all of the ghouls come out to play
And every demon wants his pound of flesh But I like to keep some things to myself I like to keep my issues drawn It’s always darkest before the dawn
The memories only hurt because you care. The memories stop hurting once you learn to see it as the lesson in life it was. Learn to let go of the regret. Until you do that those memories are the waking nightmare you have chosen them to be.
Keeping it all in and keeping it to yourself only makes it worse. Until you deal with it, you will push yourself into situations that will keep bringing it up. It can feel as though a nasty demon has it’s teeth sunk in deep to get that pound of flesh. It’s that pain that never ends until you realize you’re the one making it hurt.
And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind I can never leave the past behind I can see no way, I can see no way I’m always dragging that horse around
All of his questions, such a mournful sound Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
Often we feel stupid for missing what was right in front of us all along.
Blinded by our life and what we want to do with it that we miss something.
Blinded by the pain of the past we won’t let go of.
Blinded by the desire to never let it happen again.
Holding on to the misery of days gone by is not much different than dragging a beaten half dead horse behind you every where you go. It’s cruel to think of someone actually doing that to a horse.
Why do we do it to ourselves?
Bury the fuckin’ horse already and let go of the pain of the past that holds you back from seeing what is right in front of you.
And I am done with my graceless heart So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
A heart in pain knows no grace.
To let the grace of love flow true, let go of the pain of the past and embrace the now. Understand why it happened to better be prepared for what’s either right in front of you or around the next corner.
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back And given half the chance would I take any of it back It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone
And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t So here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my road And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope It’s a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat ‘Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back So shake him off
Think of the pain of the past as the Devil on your back that is keeping you from knowing what love is now.
Love is.
It’s messy as all hell and is at times is a whirlwind of joy and suffering wrapped in one. If you have never suffered, you have never loved. When you act out of love your ego dies and you sacrifice yourself for another so to speak. You become what they need you to be versus what they would want any to be.
It’s harder to be what they need than it is to give them what they want.
When you start to look for heaven, you begin to desire and see heaven as everything that has nothing to do with what love is.
As much as God and Goddess reside within each of us, The Devil is taking up residence as well. We give forms in our life through our experiences to these metaphors.
Those we exalt, those we despise.
We pretend it’s something different, however the behavior is the same.
Our inner divine allows us to forgive and learn and grow while our inner Devil holds onto the pain. The pain becomes a way to justify and/or rationalize why we do what we know we ought not do.
Shake The Devil off your back by letting go of the pain of the past and grow from the lessons learned and love now.
The song SAD BUT TRUE gets sung from the back seat when it comes on my shuffle. Here’s why.
Hey (hey) I’m your life I’m the one who takes you there Hey (hey) I’m your life I’m the one who cares They (they) They betray I’m your only true friend now They (they) They’ll betray I’m forever there
If the subconscious mind is the operating system, this song may as well be sung from within.
How often do you feel like you know the right thing to do, however you listen other people anyway?
We are sold a harmful lie.
You can’t possibly know what’s best for you.
We tell ourselves and each other that we need to listen to what the other is saying, however we never shut up long enough to let it sink in.
Typically we listen only long enough to start saying what we wanted to in the first place.
Your subconscious mind will push your buttons from within to get you to see you know what’s best for you and to get you to start following you’re own advice.
Following your own inner voice.
I’m your dream, make you real I’m your eyes when you must steal I’m your pain when you can’t feel Sad but true
I’m your dream, mind astray I’m your eyes while you’re away I’m your pain while you repay You know it’s sad but true Sad but true
I don’t know why I just did that.
How many times have you said it?
The subconscious mind will shut down the emotions in times of need. It doesn’t mean it’s not there, just set aside and ignored to get you through whatever it is until you can deal with it.
You (you) You’re my mask You’re my cover, my shelter You (you) You’re my mask You’re the one who’s blamed Do (do) Do my work Do my dirty work, scapegoat Do (do) Do my deeds For you’re the one who’s shamed
The idea of who you are is nothing more than a mask used to get you through this thing we call life. It’s there so experience can be had and we can grow.
We all do things behind our backs in front of our faces.
The subconscious mind understands that all that exists is decisions and consequences. We program ourselves to feel guilty or not to feel guilty about any given thing we do.
The idea of who we are evolves as the desire for new experiences evolves. We become that which will allow us to have the experience.
It’s the idea of who we are that we project that has to deal with it. The mask is what speaks and the mask speaks to the mask.
Hate (hate) I’m your hate I’m your hate when you want love Pay (pay) Pay the price Pay, for nothing’s fair
Hey (hey) I’m your life I’m the one who took you there Hey (hey) I’m your life And I no longer care
We find ourselves in the state of wanting love and hating instead because we hate ourselves for what we have become. Only when we become that which we would love ourselves in the opposite sex do we find who we truly are.
For me that’s a woman who is a workaholic and very intelligent. She takes no shit and could be considered to be borderline narcissist with the faith she has in herself based on the life she has lived. She has taste and class but knows when to use the fuck for fucks sake. A woman who has a hard time finding anyone who can keep up with her mind.
Yes I am describing myself as a woman and yes I realize that has some narcissistic overtones. However that also means a woman who helps out simply because she is there and she can. A woman who let’s her passion get away with her at times. A woman people don’t really know because she chooses what she shows very carefully.
With as much of my life and myself as I expose in my writing I hold back quite a bit as well.
You know you have gotten the breadth of experience you wanted out of life when you no longer care what you do.
That’s when trying to find and give meaning to your life becomes your only reason to live. Was it all worth it to get to where I am now?
Now what?
When people retire they hit that place where life becomes and endless search to alleviate the boredom.
I’m your truth, telling lies I’m your reason, alibis I’m inside, open your eyes I’m you
Sad but true
No one can screw with or level with you better than you can.
No one can get you on and off the hook like you can.
Simply be you and be true and you never find yourself on a hook or needing a story to tell.
It is possible to change the program up and make changes in the operating system and that takes work and there is no quick hit fix I could give you in this piece. That’s something I teach one on one. The lessons are different for each based on who you are right now.
You know you got it right when your reflection pops up and slaps you in the face one day and you say thank you.
And the men who hold high places Must be the ones who start To mold a new reality
If those we give authority over us to rule do not begin the change at the top it takes a lot longer and looks more like a revolution.
That raises the chances of something violent happening.
I’m opposed to violence.
If you look back at the French Revolution it was those at the top who refused to mold a new reality for the betterment of the sum that were executed.
Again I’m opposed to violence and will never support any violent action taken by anyone, though it can’t be ignored that I am a rarity and many people don’t have a problem with violence.
In fact our leaders in the USA encourage it through the wars they send our troops into and ask the American people to support the choice of violence.
The men and women who hold high places must be the ones to start to mold a new reality to put an end to the violence and find solutions that don’t involve dropping bombs and sending young adults to die.
The blacksmith and the artist Reflect it in their art They forge their creativity
Film makers, TV content providers, musicians, gun makers and others forge the mentality that comes from the top.
I see the newest gun looks like a cell phone.
It has a handle that folds down and fires two shots.
I wonder how many people will get shot for pulling out a cell phone that isn’t a gun.
If I was a cop I would be scared.
Our obsession with finding new and different ways of killing each other is a direct reflection of the wars that go on for whatever reason.
We have the technology for building non lethal combat weapons. Yet we have people using 3D printers to create firearms.
The blacksmith is merely reflecting what the people who hold high places have in their hearts.
We have a ton of movies and video games dedicated to killing. Celebrating it even. Desensitizing us all to violence.
Even in music there are those who sing to burn it all down or rise up against.
Philosophers and plowmen Each must know his part To sow a new mentality
Political pundits do a great job of giving the public reasons to support wars and violence. The press in general.
Philosophers offering their interpretation of world events and why it should be happening or why we should look at going another direction.
They sow the ideas in the minds of many. They also have the power to sow better ideas aimed at finding solutions to help us all get along and see we are all in this together as one world whether we like or not.
We don’t need a captain and we all draw the chart with our every word and thought and action.
I write a lot on the topic of love.
If we are not going to mold a new reality closer to the heart now, when are we?
If we are not going to forge with creativity that new mentality closer to the heart now, when are we?
If we are not going to sow a new mentality closer to the heart now, when are we?
Eric Clapton is a legend in his own time. The first time I heard IT’S IN THE WAY THAT YOU USE IT, I was watching the movie THE COLOR OF MONEY. It was one of Tom Cruise’s earlier films and costarred Paul Newman.
The song fit the films themes well. The song fits life well. Here’s why.
Nobody’s right till somebody’s wrong. Nobody’s weak till somebody’s strong. No one gets lucky till luck comes along. Nobody’s lonely till somebody’s gone.
I don’t watch TV. Instead I get involved with or lead discussions in a group online of over 500,000 people worldwide. I enjoy the exploration of ideas and seeing how many different views come out that are basically saying the same thing in different ways based on how each individual has come to understand it.
I’m odd.
I like that about me. Hungarians are known for their individualistic approach to life and work at being different from the crowd. We cherish the gift of individuality. To be as we choose because we choose.
I’ve found the need to be right often stems from low self esteem. We feel weak and want to feel strong. We feel strong when we are right and they are wrong.
At times we don’t feel our weakness. We hide from it. No one likes to feel weak. It sucks. We will unconsciously look for ways to make ourselves feel strong by being right.
We will fight and argue to the bitter end to try and get rid of this weak feeling by scoring a victory in a verbal sparing with anyone.
We feel weak and want to feel strong.
The difference between being alone and being lonely is choice. I often prefer to be alone. It’s my choice. When someone chooses to leave and chooses to not be around, well, depending on who it is and why, it can leave me feeling lonely.
We all go through it.
It’s in the way that you use it, It comes and it goes.
And if you lie you will lose it, Feelings will show. So don’t you ever abuse it, Don’t let it go.
Our idea of who we are, our expression of self, our ego can come and go depending on how we use it.
Allowing your projection of self to be anything less then an authentic expression shows the feeling we try to hide under the mask that is our current expression of self.
When you lie you lose who are to be who you fabled yourself to be. We lie when we feel weak and we feel if we don’t, our weakness will show.
There is a fine line between a healthy and unhealthy ego expression. It’s a fine line between confidence and arrogance. On one side of the line is confidence backed by experience of things one has actually done or is actually doing currently. Arrogance is what one thinks one might be able to do with no experience to back it up.
Arrogance is abusing the ego expression and using it to bolster ourselves and feel superior in some way for some reason.
Confidence is simply letting you know what one is capable of based on experience and is only expressing it to be of service.
If you look at your life you will see when your ego comes and goes. When you act from a place of empathy and forgo thinking of yourself first in, your ego goes into hiding until needed.
We hold onto our ego, to the idea of who we are in order to have individuality, however it’s not a license to be an asshole.
I have been a fan of the music of Lizzy Hale and Halestorm since I first heard FREAK LIKE ME a few years ago. However it is the song LET ME IN YOUR ROOM that touched my soul and showed me a map to follow to intimacy. Here’s why.
There are few songs that are perfect in their ability to be felt and heard with such clarity. Lizzy and Co. did one hell of a job putting this one together. Let’s take a look at the lyrics and see if we can define why it is that I find this song to be a perfect inspiration to me when it comes to the idea of being truly intimate with a woman.
Let me in your room I’ve seen the rest of you But I know there’s something more in your room I’m right outside your door Show me things you’ve never shown before
What a request to receive from someone.
Take a moment and think about the things you have never told anyone.
The things you think make you unlovable.
The things you think make you a freak.
If someone loves you enough to ask you to share those things, that is what intimacy is all about.
You can fuck 3 times a day for years and never share an intimate moment with someone. Sex has nothing to with intimacy and anyone telling you different is trying to fuck you, really fuck you.
A few pictures from your past
And those walls you painted black
And the secrets that you keep under your bed
All you have to do is let me in your room
You can be yourself You don’t have to hide from me, I won’t tell I know everyone you’ve ever trusted has let you down And you don’t want to come out And show me, show me
What we hide within keeps us from truly connecting and experiencing the intimacy of love.
When you have someone you truly love in your life there is nothing from their past that could ever change that love. It can only make it stronger to share and be completely open and honest with each other.
You know every part of me
I let you in, I let you see
All the dark and every color of my room
Let me do that for you
And tell me all about your past
Why you painted those walls black
Baby it’s all right, you’re safe in here with me
Open up so I can see
When was the last time someone made you feel safe and secure?
Who is it that when you are with them, you feel nothing could ever be so horrible that it would make them walk away?
Who saw your demon and loved you anyway?
Intimacy is about sharing those darkest of dark places that are within you and knowing that it’s OK.
The two of you probably have the same demons to let play together when the dark desire of lust takes its form for the fuck of a lifetime versus the slow building passion of love making.
Who is it that is your Madonna (no that one) and your whore wrapped in one?
Who is it that is your knight in shining armor and the man who will fuck you as the devil himself wrapped in one?
You’ll never know until you let them in your room to see all of you, even the dark side and the dark desires you never share.
Intimacy can lead to the best lovemaking you’ll never find any other way and it also opens the doors to every fantasy you never thought you should have.
Before you can get there I would suggest listening to Mz. Hale and taking her advice, let them in your room or its just a fuck and will never live up to the hype.
You’ll be looking for the next one and be just as let down by the sex you thought would be just what you needed to connect.
To truly connect, to truly be intimate is to reveal all your secrets and hold nothing back. Anything less and me personally, I’d rather go to a real whore and pay cash up front than forgo the intimacy that leads to orgasms I still fantasize about on occasion.
There was a time in my life a few years ago that I considered suicide as an option. Here’s why.
I had awaken to my being an Empath and Medium. I lost every friend I ever had and lost my marriage all because I refused to hide being what I am. There were 3 songs that kept me from doing myself in.
WE ARE THE OTHERS by Delain is one of those songs.
Just so you all know, as a symbolic gesture to commit to never thinking about suicide again, I took the dagger I was going to use and wrapped it up and tossed it in a dumpster.
As simple as air in your lungs, As simple as words on your lips, And no one should take that away, No one should argue this Now with our heads up high, We’ll carry on, And carry out, That we won’t let them get us down Or wear us out ‘Cause we are not alone…
Originally this song was not written to be an anthem for those who feel different because they are Empaths and a lot of people still don’t get what that is and treat Empaths as if they were crazy.
A big part of my life the last few years has been working with people who are awakening to being an Empath.
I’ve seen groups as big as 20,000 and was an admin in a group of over 1,000.
A lot of people who are full blown Empaths who don’t realize it are often misdiagnosed with conditions such as bi-polar disorder, schizophrenia and others. They are medicated and told they are ill and that something is wrong with them.
If they assert anything else they run the risk of being hospitalized.
I have 2 causes that I dedicate my life’s work to.
Raising the awareness of what I call the Genetic Jump. As I see it we are in the midst of our species taking an evolutionary jump forward. Empaths are just a natural result of our evolution, no more no less.
My other cause is putting an end to Domestic Abuse/Violence.
The abuse does not have to be physical to leave its scars. Many of the Empaths I’ve worked with have also been survivors of domestic abuse.
Every time I share this song with another Empath or group of Empaths, they feel as if they found an anthem to cling on to and inspire them to keep on keepin’ on.
We are the others, We are the cast-outs, We’re the outsiders But you can’t hide us We are the others We are the cast-outs You’re not out there on your own If you feel mistreated Torn and cheated You are not alone We are the others
I’m not sure if I could ever truly find the words to adequately describe what it’s like to feel so different from so many yet at the same time still be just as human as any other.
Feeling like an outsider and a cast out is something I dealt with on a social level off and on throughout my life. Typical school shit and what not.
It wasn’t until I publicly said “I am an Empath” that I truly began to truly feel what it’s like to feel cast out.
I also found that I was not alone. I have been in several groups over the last few years where Empaths support each other and teach other how to manage our being better and make the gift less of a curse in our lives.
None of you are alone.
Normal is not the norm, It’s just a uniform… (We are the others) Forget about the norm (We’re the outsiders) Take off your uniform, (We are the others) We are all beautiful, (We are the others)
Normal is an idea, a dream that never was.
None of us is normal.
We’ve created this idea of what normal is and wear the uniform hoping no one will find out how not normal we are.
You don’t have to be an Empath to feel not normal.
Many people feel not normal.
Fuck normal.
The truest beauty of anyone of us is what comes from within us.
Fuck the nifty flesh suit.
It’s what’s in your soul that brings the beauty from within to the surface.
I had what some might consider a torturous childhood when they hear that my mother basically raised me on Neil Diamond. To me, it gave me one of the true lyrical masters of our time to soak in. Here’s why.
If you’re thinking that my life Is a hoot and a holler From the start of the day To the dark of the night And that its ringin’ like a bell That you only want to follow Gotta trust me when I say I’m just trying to get it right
If you can’t relate to those lyrics, you’re full of shit.
There isn’t a single one of us who isn’t just trying to get it right and right for our life whatever that is. I use Psychospirilosophy to figure that out for myself.
The one thing I tell myself is that if it doesn’t hold true for all than I’m about to start rationalizing like a mother fucker to feel OK about what I’m about to do or have done. I like to step outside myself and think about it as if some one else was telling this story of how they got to be where they are with the current issue they are attempting to either deal with or side step.
People have told me I’m pretty good at giving advice and well it does kind of just go with being a Taltos.
I never discovered wisdom until I starting following my own advice.
The psychospirilosophic view is one that takes the psychological effects on the human and it’s evolving condition into consideration first.
Why am I am feeling this way about what I am thinking about doing or have done?
There are times it’s not easy to know what the right thing to do is and sometimes that can change based on the situation you find yourself in. It’s never the same as what it was that one time or those times.
It’s always different.
I find at times it’s necessary for me to step back and take as long as I need to check myself before I totally fucking nuke myself into oblivion.
Still I think about myself As a lucky old dreamer If you’re askin’ me to tell Is it worth what I paid You gonna hear me say
Hell yeah it is And I say it loud I loved it all And I’m not too proud I freed my soul…just let it fly Hell yeah this crazy life around me It confuses and confounds me But it’s all the life I’ve got until I die Hell yeah it is
When the video clips that are the highlight reel of my life start playing, I’m never that disappointed and often quite entertained by the life I’ve led thus far.
Just last night I was telling a buddy about the time I was in a helicopter and the pilots decided to do their emergency restart training while my ass was strapped into a seat next to no door, just a wide open space.
This training maneuver required the pilot to shut the helicopter off and allow it to free fall like a brick out of the sky with my ass strapped in.
The pilot of course restarted it and got it flying right. Then they did it 3 more times.
If for some reason anyone ever asks me to get into a helicopter again, I’m fairly certain you all understand why I might respond with the words “FUCK THAT NOISE!”
While my life was not always as death defying as that moment, it has never really been boring.
Is it worth it?
Is everything that has happened up until right now been worth it for what right now is and where it is going?
Hell Yeah!
I often say and even threw it on a picture of Poppa Smoke “Pick your Death and Live accordingly.”
Lesson in my personal metaphors.
When I say the word “Live” I attach the meaning “to love life.”
Pick your Death and Love Life accordingly.
Up until a few years ago I lived at maximum speed never slowing down and always looking for the next kick ass memory to be made.
It gave me a lot of experience that aged me quite a bit.
I had lived letting my soul be free and it never mattered what crazy situation I found myself in, I just rolled with it and attempted to do what I felt was the right thing in the moment.
This is the second time in my life I bought a domain name for what I was doing at the time. The first time it led to me becoming a film producer with 2 independent film credits.
With this my goal, the whole reason I’m doing this is this simple. At some point I stopped doing foolish things and had to come to terms with accepting I had become somewhat wise as I was following my own advice and it was working just as well as it did when other people did it too.
Some of us never reach that stage and are the eternal children.
Some of us reach that stage at a young age that robs us of our childhood.
My life is weird as weird gets and realize the metric fuck ton I don’t tell you all compared to the stuff I do that even I admit pegs the weird shitometer.
However I wouldn’t trade my life for anything. I am exactly where I need to be to bring any dream I have to life.
Current dream.
Be the Taltos I am and keep doing this until the day I die.
I hear you wondering out loud Are you ever gonna make it? Will you ever work it out? Will you ever take a chance And just believe you can?
Hell yeah you will You’re gonna be okay And you might get lost But then you’ll find a way Don’t go alone Can’t be afraid Hell yeah This life is here and it’s made for livin’ And love’s a gift that’s made for givin’ You give it all away and have it still And Hell yeah you will
I think about the work I do with Life Designs and it’s purpose to teach people how to design their life to create the path to their dreams. There are times when we need someone who believes in us to be in our corner and motivate us to keep on keepin’ on and find the changes to make in the character to change the story.
I also think about the students I’ve had over the last few years. It’s bittersweet when they no longer need my guidance. It means we rarely if ever speak again.
Each and everyone of them are amazing human beings.
Each and everyone of them is missed.
Part my dedication to my life is to live love.
I give love freely.
Pure love not romantic love and no I don’t go around sleeping with women. Pure love, the kind of love that sees the soul and might notice the nifty flesh suit wrapped around it.
I give it away all day and I have an over abundance of pure love in my life.
The wealthiest man I know is me.
I’ve been living in a bowl With a lot of people staring With my feet on shaky ground And my head up in the sky But it’s where I want to be It’s a life that’s made for caring Got a song to pass the day And a girl to share the night
So if they ask you when I’m gone Was it everything he wanted? When he had to travel on Did he know he’d be missed? You can tell them this
Hell yeah he did! He saw it all He walked the line Never had to crawl He cried a bit But not for long Hell yeah He found the life that he was after Filled it up with love and laughter Finally got it right And made it fit Hell yeah he did!
I would rather have a woman to share the night with.
However, after 3 divorces, I’m in no hurry to make it 4 even though I am a monogamy addict. I think the 3 marriages prove that.
The death I picked out.
To have spent years with one woman, my 4th and final wife. To live love to the extent that we are able to transcend the body and simply ascend in one last physical expression of our unity in the flesh when we have had enough and are ready to go back to where ever it is we came from.
Call me crazy, I’ve heard it before.
I’m an Empath, I always feel when I’m missed and by whom, whether I want to or not.
In a weird way life has been exactly everything I ever wanted, just not the way I might have wanted it.
Embracing being Taltos made everything else drop into place to finally feel as though my life fit me. It unlocked the door to the room of my true reflections. No longer is it distorted what I see in thee that is also me.
It’s a nice room of mirrors to be in, however to get here you have to be truly you from the core.
I’ve been listening to Powerman 5000 for a few years now. Funny thing is I didn’t really start diggin’ in to the tracks Spider was throwin’ down until a couple years after I insulted him.
How many people become a fan of a band after they’ve met and insulted the lead singer?
I met Spider once through a mutual friend. That night while he was trying to tell me a funny story, I jumped the gun and said some smart ass hit I have apologized for since.
I have WHEN WORLDS COLLIDE on my “Me” playlist for a good reason. Let’s dive into the lyrics that for me are all about diving within.
what is it really that is in your head, what little life that you had just died i’m gonna be the one that’s taking over,
Taking the inward journey begins with letting the mind die and letting your higher self take over. Your higher self is your connection to what many would call God, in reality it’s our connection to existence and each other.
Those who’ve taken the journey get it, those who haven’t want to argue about it or want you to provide some sort concrete evidence that is all around them and they don’t even notice.
Somethings simply need to be experienced to be understood. The inward journey is about letting the world you think you know collide with the world as it really is.
now who’s the light and who is the devil, you can’t decide so i’ll be your guide
When you begin to see the functions of everything it turns it all upside down for a bit and trying to make sense of it without your high self there to be your guide is the fastest way to an I love me coat.
When I took my journey, I hit that point myself.
Like many others for a short period of time I had developed a God complex.
I was having trouble assimilating the massive understanding of what existence is and the role of each of us in it.
I’m human, no doubt about that.
I did see God’s job and I’m way too lazy. I also saw the Devil’s job, again way too lazy.
I have run into more than a few people over the last few years who have some interesting views about who they are and why. I have had people claim to be the following:
Isis
A Djinn
The Supreme Being
Loki
At one point I thought I was being trained to be the new Devil.
I was wrong.
I’m glad to be wrong.
Way too lazy.
Along this journey I had the guidance of my higher self showing me how I am just a human who can do some weird shit. With each of these other people I found a human who can do some weird shit.
I’ve met many others who can do the weird shit I do and weirder and we have come to the conclusion none of us is any kind of deity.
We are evidence of evolution and it’s continued effect on our species.
Many so called “Autistic” humans have a grasp of the working of the universe but no way to express it because the language does not exist for a lot of it.
It’s a constant stream of information that would leave most people catatonic.
Just because you can’t do it, don’t rule out the existence of those who can.
what is it really when they’re falling over, everything that you thought was denied i’m gonna be the one that’s takin over, now this is what it’s like when worlds collide
Once you start this journey you realize it never ends and that you only undergo a transformation that allows your living spirit to be present in everything you do and who you are. There is no way to explain what that existence is or even a road map to get there.
The only way to do it is give up control over to your higher self and let the worlds collide on the inside.
The Church of Rock 'N' Roll 
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