IN THE MEANTIME by Space Hog is about the we as much as the you and me.

When I do Soul Readings I channel your higher self and the me becomes the we. It has given me and interesting view to see the world through the eyes of so many over the years.

It has also given me as much appreciation for the we as I have for the me and the you.  It’s being able to this that has me saying 1 and makes 3, you, me and the we.

Think about the relationships in your life. Does your projection change based on the nature of the relationship?

The ego steps back and becomes what will get us through this situation or in essence we cease to be the me and become the we.

This song gives me the reminder of how much more gets done for the sum by the we than the me could ever do. Here’s why.

And in the end we shall achieve in time, the thing we call divine
When all the stars will smile for me
Then all is well and well is all for all, and forever after
Maybe in the meantime wait and see . . .

We shall achieve.

Well is all for all.

Enough said.

We love the all, the all of you
Our lands are green, and sky is blue
When all in all, we’re just like you
We love the all you

Human is human and I don’t care if you’re male, female, hetro, homo, trans, undecided, young, old, and I really don’t give a shit about the pigmentation of your skin, human is human.

I don’t care about religion or what this god or that god or this prophet or this holy fucker over there said.

Human is human.

We are all human and any other label pass that point is egocentric identification to create our individuality and really doesn’t makes us any better or any worse than anyone else.

Human is human.

And when I cry for me I cry for you, with tears of holy joy
For all the days you’ve still to come
And did I ever say I’d never play, or fly towards the sun
Maybe in the meantime somethings missing

We all cry for the same reasons.

No one had tougher than anyone else.

Emotional pain is not a competition sport.

We overcome ourselves more than we overcome anything else and the first one to start with a “What about this person over here…..”

Fuck off and find something better to do with your time.

Human is human.

Sure there are people who do some extraordinary things, however every human is capable of the same thing, doing something extraordinary.

We give our ability to do this away every time we let it be me and you and not the we we can be.

We love the all, the all of you

Find the we in the me and find the way to create better future days.

Whisper if you feel me.

Time is more or a less a figment of our imagination.

We created it to make sense of our memories and to keep track of our lives.

All that really exists is now and it is infinite.

I call it the never ending now or the progressive moment, whatever you want to call it, we’re always in it right now.

RIGHT NOW by Van Halen (Van Hagar) captures the essence of what now is. Here’s why.

Don’t wanna wait til tomorrow,
Why put it off another day?
One more walk through problems,
Built up, and stand in our way ,ah
One step ahead, one step behind me
Now you gotta run to get even
Make future plans, don’t dream about yesterday

Our ego or who we think we are is defined by the things we allow ourselves to become emotionally attached to.

As long as we put off letting it go and hold on to it, maybe we can do something about it tomorrow or when we feel better about it, however for now, we are holding on to it.

We often are what stands in our way due to our unwillingness to let it go and change our view and move forward.

We cling to the past as if it is some sort of shield against what is happening right now.

We cling to the past to define who we are and why.

We cling to the past to avoid making any real changes in our lives and our projection of self or ego.

We spend so much time dwelling on the problem we miss the solutions and find ourselves falling further and further behind in where we think our life should be.

Our life progresses upon the path we lay out for ourselves. We make that path with our words and our thoughts in every moment of the never ending now.

We get stuck when we stop planning and dreaming ahead to revel in the history of who we have been or sometimes lost in it trying to figure out who we have become.

Miss the beat, you lose the rhythm,
And nothing falls into place, no
Only missed by a fraction,
Slipped a little off your pace, oh,
The more things you get, the more you want,
Just trade in one for the other,
Workin so hard, to make it easier,

Life has a flow and a music to it.

When you are in time or in step with the beat of your life, things move well and right along. When we stop we lose our rhythm and find ourselves out of place for what we were heading to before we stopped.

The endless hunger of want is something each of us deals with. I have noticed for myself the truth of the lyrics in my life as it has been and is on occasion.

There is a cosmic alchemy of sort to life.

To get “________” what are you willing to give up?

My old man always said work smarter not harder.

How I’ve used that in life is to realize I have a sharper intuition than my conscious mind could ever think me into or out of. I’m usually as surprised as everyone else by what comes out of my mouth. I trust myself to say what is needed more or less and not worry about offending or insulting anyone, just trusting whatever comes out will be honest.

When we stop to think before we speak it is usually so we don’t have to deal with the reaction or response we think is most likely.

 Right now, hey
It’s your tomorrow
Right now,
C’mon, it’s everything
Right now,
Catch that magic moment, and do it right,
Right now
Right now, oh, Right now
It’s what’s happening?
Right here and now
Right now
It’s right now
Oh,
Tell me, what are you waiting for
Turn this thing around

Whisper if you feel me.

THIRD EYE by Florence and the Machine is not only on my “ME” playlist, it also is one I use frequently to kick off my “Turn the mirror inward” playlist I listen to each night as I recenter myself. Here’s why.

Hey, look up!
Don’t make a shadow of yourself,
Always shutting out the light.
Caught in your own creation.

Our life, whether we like it or not is something of our own creation. Science has proven in recent years that our thoughts do indeed create our reality. We have a shared reality and that means this world as it is, we created it.

We can keep creating and create better than we’ve done.

Hey, look up!
You don’t have to be a ghost,
Here amongst the living.
You are flesh and blood!
And you deserve to be loved and you deserve what you are given.

So many feel like they’re stuck in the background and no one notices. Fuck that noise.

Too often we question the good things that come to us in life.

Too often we are looking for romantic love we forget to feel the love without romance all around us.

We are love at the core of our souls and to feel the love we give the love.

‘Cause your pain is a tribute
The only thing you let hold you
Wear it now like a mantle
Always there to remind you

If you never cared it wouldn’t hurt.

As long as you let it hurt, you definitely give a shit.

There is no escaping that.

As long you mask that hurt with anger, you ain’t dealin’ with jack shit or letting go of anything.

As long as you keep you there, there’ ain’t nobody that is gonna be getting close to you any time soon . You keep that reminder going so you revel in the pain that gives the reason to get angry and feel powerful.

As long as we own the pain we have a reason to hate.

‘Cause there’s a hole where your heart lies
And I can see it with my third eye.
And oh my touch, it magnifies
You pull away, you don’t know why.

As long as you hold onto the pain that perpetuates the hate there will be a hole in your heart. I look into your eyes and I can see straight into your soul.

Not as cool as it sounds, some of you are really fucked up inside. It is what is and some of you are incredible to look into.

I can see the pain through the hate no matter how hard someone brings it or throws it up as their mask. You can try to lie to this guy all you want and I don’t give two shits how many years you been doin’ it, I see right through you.

When we hurt, we feel weak and we attempt to project strength through anger and rage. We lash out as the savages we are. We pull away from that which could heal the hurt and we don’t know why.

It’s because the anger and rage makes us feel powerful.

Who doesn’t love to feel powerful?

Liars.

I am the same, I’m the same
I’m trying to change.

There are few songs I have heard that are what I would call a perfect inspiration of hope.

IMAGINE by John Lennon is one of those songs, however that is not the one we are going to talk about today.

Bruce  Ciccarelli is a friend of mine and the song he wrote, CARRY ON is one I call the perfect companion piece to John Lennon’s IMAGINE. Here’s why.

There’s a light that’s shining
and there’s no denying it’s
burning bright in my soul

There’s a light that’s shining
and the warmth it’s providing
is bringing hope to me
Can I carry on

There is a light in us that we forget to acknowledge. It’s that light from the core that we often dim to fit in. The times I have been at my lowest in life, it was my own inner light that kept me going to just get through another day the best I could.

Too often in life we forsake our own inner glow to trade who we are for who “they” think we should be. Yes the infamous “they.”

Who are “they?”

If you feel like you can’t simply be you around some people, you found “they” or “them” as they are also known.

There’s a song that’s singing
and the words it’s bringing
are ringing loud in my mind

and the songs that’s singing
keeps me believing
in dreams of happy times
can I carry on

There are so many songs that each of us cling to that just seem to make everything better, even it’s only for a few minutes. There are songs that each of us listen to when we hit that point and need some hope and some inspiration to keep on keepin’ on.

And if you feel you can’t go on
I’ll be there to be strong
because together
we’re going to make it through

There’s no shame in needing a helping hand as you help yourself.

As a Taltos part of what I do is work with people as they get it back on track.

As an Empath I often give my strength to those I find in need while I hold the emotional turmoil for them.

It’s what an Empath is and what an Empath does.

When the night turns into dawn
It’s another victory won
and I know
I can carry on

I woke up today and the rest is gravy.

It doesn’t matter what happened yesterday because I survived to make it through to see another day.

For some, some days just waking up still alive is a victory in and of itself.

Break those chains that bind me
Break those walls that confine me
To a world spinning out of control

I often find the chains that bind me and the walls that confine me are my own doubts of whether or not I can do it.

How many Shamans you know that quote Rock ‘n’ Roll as the holiest of holy scriptures?

Another voice has spoken
to heal this heart that’s broken
with words of hope
to carry on

It’s the words we speak with the emotion behind them that can be the greatest healing that anyone could ever need. Our words have more power than we are comfortable with.

It means having to ignore the idea of saying “well don’t take it so personal.”

There are things that should be taken personally and some ignored, however when someone reaches out with a helping hand using words of hope, that has power to help you carry on. Shut the fuck up and listen.

Let it sink in.

Let the emotion behind the words wrap around you and move through you to give you that inspired and hope filled feeling that says

“Hell fuckin’ yes! Not only will I carry on, I’m gonna rock this bitch til the break of dawn and then do it again and again.”

I’m not your average Shaman.

DON’T DAMN ME by Guns ‘n’ Roses is the first song on the playlist simply titled “ME.” Here’s why.

Don’t damn me
When I speak a piece of my mind
‘Cause silence isn’t golden
When I’m holding it inside
‘Cause I’ve been where I have been
An I’ve seen what I have seen
I put the pen to the paper
‘Cause it’s all a part of me

Be it a song or casual conversation
To hold my tongue speaks
Of quiet reservations
Your words once heard
They can place you in a faction
My words may disturb
But at least there’s a reaction

Experience is the greatest teacher there is. We like to share our experiences with each other to show what we’ve learned. We also shape our opinions based on our experience.

How often do you remain silent simply because you figure the person or people you’re around will probably give you some shit?

We start doing this in grammar school and continue through middle school/junior high and on through high school and throughout life. Try and deny it all you want however think about the last time you held your tongue and why.

We often seek to validate ourselves through sharing our experiences and our views with other people in hopes of finding someone else who sees that way too. When we find an opposing view we often too quickly damn people for thinking the way the way do.

Some people say if you have nothing nice to say don’t say a word.

Fuck that noise. I say if have nothing nice to say, make damn sure it’s true. Here’s why.

The temporary sting of the truth hurts less and is over rather quickly where as the suffering of deceit even in lies of omission is cruel and long lasting.

I often think about the words I know will disturb when I am posting a status update on any particular topic and sometimes find myself in debate with someone who I pissed off.

Honestly I just told all of you that most of you still behave as children no matter how old you are. I am self aware and realize that might hit a nerve, at least it’s a reaction and it means there must be some truth to my words.

Sometimes I wanna kill
Sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna destroy
Sometimes I wanna cry
Sometimes I could get even
Sometimes I could give up
Sometimes I could give
Sometimes I never give a fuck

No shit really, me too. Who hasn’t lived this list?

It’s only for a while
I hope you understand
I never wanted this to happen
Didn’t want to be a man
So I hid inside my world
I took what I could find
I cried when I was lonely
I fell down when I was blind

No one ever really wants to grow up.

To grow up and become a man or a woman is put aside childish things and take responsibility for your actions and words.

For me to become a man, I became a father.

I look back at my life and at 25 I was with a woman who was 10 years older than me and she had 3 teenagers. I stepped up and into the role of stepdad. At 25 I took it very seriously. To this day when I run into that woman’s sister, she still tells me I was the best thing that happened to her sister and her kids.

If you want to know what it really means to man up, it means to step and be a father even if the kids aren’t yours. That wasn’t the only time I took on that role and I do have a son of my own.

In life we often find ourselves locked into our own world trying to figure it out and find some way to do something about it. In life there will be tears on occasion, we’re human. In life we will stumble and fall. It’s unavoidable.

Life moves forward, never in reverse and there is no pause button and we get no do overs.

How can I ever satisfy you
An how can I ever make you see
That deep inside we’re all somebody
An it don’t matter who you wanna be
But now I gotta smile
I hope you comprehend
For this man can say it happened
‘Cause this child has been
condemned
So I stepped into your world
I kicked you in the mind
An I’m the only witness
To the nature of my crime

I take a lot of shit for being very honest about being a Taltos and what that means.

It means as an Empath, I know what you’re feeling regardless of what you say or try to show.

As a Telepath I can see into your subconscious mind.

As a Medium there are things without bodies that use my mouth to speak on occasion.

In all honesty, I simply share my experience to show my understanding. Since I started being public and honest about those things above 4 years ago, I lost everything including a marriage. Just the historical facts of my life.

I also spent those 4 years working with many Empaths and teaching them how to better manage the gift to make it less of a curse.

I’m proud of the work I’ve done to help other people simply because I was there and so were they and I just happened to be able to give them what they needed.

There are times in conversations that we miss what someone may have said at the conscious level, however the idea still gets planted and has time to grow.

But look at what we’ve done
To the innocent and young
Whoa listen to who’s talking
‘Cause we’re not the only ones
The trash collected by the eyes
And dumped into the brain
Said it tears into our
conscious thoughts
You tell me who’s to blame

Look at kids these days carrying smartphones and looking down and not looking at each other or talking to each other.

Look at what we teach our young through our example.

Even if you don’t have kids, they see you and want to be like you. It doesn’t matter if you don’t want to be a role model, to any child any adult they see is a role model and you don’t get to choose, they do.

Monkey see,monkey do. What do the monkeys see you doing?

I know you don’t wanna hear me cryin’
An I know you don’t wanna hear me deny
That your satisfaction lies in your ILLUSIONS
But your delusions are yours and not mine
We take for granted we know the whole story
We judge a book by its cover
And read what we want
Between selected lines

I have seen these people who insist the meaning of life is to be happy. Do you have any idea the state of total fuckin’ delusion it takes to be continuously happy?

I do, I tried it and my response is fuck that noise. Life is messy and you are not always going to be happy. Get the fuck over it.

How often do you dig deeper into any issue before runnin’ at the mouth about what you think?

How often to you only pay attention to that which reinforces your view and ignore that which might give you pause?

Don’t hail me
An don’t idolize the ink
Or I’ve failed in my intentions
Can you find the missing link
Your only validation is living your own life

Vicarious existence is a fucking waste of time
So I send this song to the offended
I said what I meant and I’ve never pretended
As so many others do intending just to please
If I damned your point of view
Could you turn the other cheek

No one deserves to be elevated above any other for any reason.

No one else is living your life.

No one else is there when it’s you all alone.

No one knows what you know about you and why you do the things you do. So fuck anyone off who can’t take you being you, doin’ it your way because it works for you.

I realize it’s probably difficult to accept a Shaman who says fuck as much as I do, doin’ it my way anyway.

George Thorogood once said “Rock is supposed to be dirty.”

The true difference between debate and argument is this. In debate you can listen to someone damn your point of view to hell and back and instead of getting pissed off, you find the counter point to their every point. It really is that simple, not easy by an infinite shot, however quite simple.

But don’t damn me
When I speak a piece of my mind
‘Cause silence isn’t golden
When I’m holding it inside
‘Cause I’ve been where I have been
An I’ve seen what I have seen
I put the pen to the paper
‘Cause it’s all a part of me
Don’t damn me
I said don’t damn me
I said don’t hail me
Don’t damn me

This song is one I have been listening to for so long that the lyrics have become a part of how I view the world, though I would choose different words to describe my view.

Find your view in your words that makes sense to you and fuck ’em if that can’t hang with it.

Nikki Six is a prolific songwriter as the main writing force in Motley Crue for over 3 decades. As Motley wraps up their career, Nikki isn’t done and SIXX: AM is his new band. When he wrote his autobiography called THE HEROINE DIARIES, well of course he wrote and recorded an album to go with it.

I remember the first time I heard LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. I heard the road map to life in Nikki’s words. I listen to the song at least once a day. Here’s why.

You can’t quit until you try
You can’t live until you die
You can’t learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie

Perfect lyrics filled with absolute irrefutable truth. It takes wisdom to understand the truth of these words. Nikki Sixx is the kind of cat who lives it before he ever puts the pen to paper.

Some would say how could live after dying?

Ever kill your ego?

It’s a metaphorical death of self that leads to greater understanding of who you truly are and what your options are to do something with it.

As the Shaman I am, I had to go through the process of totally destroying my ego and reconstructing it. It’s taken about 4 years and this blog is the result.

I’m a spiritual guide and teacher and it is something that I never wanted to be. I was born a Taltos which comes from Hungarian history and is a genetically born Shaman. The me I had become before I learned this about myself 4 years ago, was not happy to learn this.

To become who I am, I had to kill who I was so to speak. Your ego is the definition of your projected self or to say the idea of you. You can kill that and bring it back to life as many times as it takes to finally bring forth the true you from within. Until you do that, you don’t live, you survive life.

I know some things that you don’t
I’ve done things that you won’t

I’ve noticed something over the years. When someone says I know things you don’t, people tend to get defensive automatically. Here’s why.

You challenge their ego and everything they might hold sacred and dear. To most people the idea of learning something that changes everything is a scary thought. We like to have what we think to be the truth to never be altered because it is part of what gives us comfort in life.

It is our source of strength to an extent, this view that may or may not be totally out of whack with what actually is. The only way to know the truth of any one thing is to detach from it and view it with out bias.

Some say that’s impossible. I have done things that you won’t such as destroying my ego removing all attachment from all things.

The cruelest thing we do as human beings to each other, is to insist that since we ourselves can’t do it or haven’t done it then neither can anyone else. We throw up walls and cast insults on those who can do what we can’t instead of accepting it. We do this out of fear of being inferior.

None is any better than any other. It doesn’t matter what anyone is capable of, they are no better and should never be elevated above the rest. When you do this to a human you inflate their ego and give them the potential to become narcissistic or develop a God complex.

This why I call physicians by name. It’s why I refuse to use any title when addressing anyone. The work you chose to put into your life to become what you are does not require the rest of us to treat you any better than anyone else.

It disgusts me the way our society treats celebrity as demi gods.

I dig Nikki’s music, however he’s also a dad and I would be willing to bet that being a husband and a father has become a bigger part of who Nikki is compared to who he was before that first child was born.

I have watched masses of people quote celebrities as scripture bearing prophets. I don’t see musicians as prophets. They are people with a gift for teaching through experience and then singing about it.

In days long gone it was the Bard and the Minstrel who traveled from town to town to share their tales through story and song to teach and entertain the people.

The modern day Bards have become our rock gods and goddesses and we do this to them unfairly. They are just as human as we are.

 Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Speaking for myself, looking back at my life, at my funeral there won’t be a dry eye in the house. Some say that is an arrogant fuckin statement. I say talk to people who’ve known me over the years and ask them if it’s true.

How do you feel about your own funeral?

It’s the life you lead and how beautiful you try to make it for those around you that will determine how many eyes are dry and how many let a river of tears come forth because of the hole now left in those lives.

That life is work, it doesn’t just happen, it’s created through the living example of you that you allow yourself to be.

As a Taltos, (Hungarian genetically born Shaman) I have a way of finding the spiritual truth in just about anything. You would be surprised how much of our life is spiritually driven even if we don’t think of it in those terms. I am not talking religion, in fact I would like to see every religion wiped off the face of the planet.

Let’s take a look at HEAD LIKE A HOLE by Nine Inch Nails and see if there might be some spiritual truth.

God money I’ll do anything for you.
God money just tell me what you want me to.
God money nail me up against the wall.
God money don’t want everything he wants it all.

“God money” is a concept that we live without even thinking about it. We need money to live in this social paradigm of human existence right now.

What can you do without money?

Think about what it is you put yourself through for a job or to just survive another day for some.

People sell their bodies for money.

We justify selling our lives to our jobs because we need the money.

Some of us never stop doing whatever it takes to get God money in our pockets because we want it all and right now God money is the only way to get it.

God money’s not looking for the cure.
God money’s not concerned with the sick among the pure.
God money let’s go dancing on the backs of the bruised.
God money’s not one to choose

Pharmaceutical companies have been working to keep Marijuana illegal for several decades because it cures cancer and all they do is treat it with expensive drugs and torturous treatments such as Chemotherapy. If you have never seen what someone goes through when they are receiving Chemo treatments, it’s inhuman.

What does it take to accumulate large amounts of money?

Typically speaking you will have other people working for you and make that money off their backs as your slaves. We call them employees and even though it is their work that accumulates our God money we keep the biggest chunks for ourselves and pay them the bare minimum of what we can get away with while worshiping our God money, because as long as we have it, we can do whatever we want.

Get a good enough lawyer and you can get away with murder, just ask O.J. Simpson.

Got enough money and you can make sure you don’t have to pay taxes, ask Donald Trump.

Money is our God in this current social paradigm. Everything is about the bottom line and how much will it make me.

Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
You know who you are.

Think of the CEO’s and the like that run businesses large and small. I have seen the same behavior from the guy who owns a local bar or two as I have from the CEO of a multi-billion dollar corporation.

Their head is like a hole, a black hole sucking in everything around them for them. They feel good about the way they don’t have to do jack shit but can tell everyone that works for them what to do or take their livelihood and basically their life away.

Take away a human beings ability to afford to live and you take their life.

Think about the number of massive lay offs over the last several years. Think about the number of people in the USA alone who had to apply for extensions on unemployment benefits.

The rich bitch about the poor living off the government tit when they are the ones who put it in our mouth by taking away the God money and keeping it for themselves.

If you want to bow down and worship the God money, you’ll get what you deserve, that cold lonely empty feeling that won’t go away no matter how many things you buy or fake friends you have because, well you have money and they should be lucky you even let them hang out with you.

If you look at the idea of greed and then look at our current socioeconomic landscape, it’s hard to miss how soulless we are as a people in search of God money.

Do you serve God money?

Nine Inch Nails: Head Like a Hole (Remastered) from Nine Inch Nails on Vimeo.