And I’m grateful that he did.

Everything we go through in life has the ability to change us if we accept it.

Using repetitive mantras are the best way to improve oneself.

Everytime he said the thing,  I heard it.

It was a reminder to me that I could do it too, and I had no excuse. 

If I’m The Dude’s Dad, I have to be honest, it’s the hardest challenge I’ve ever loved going through. 

My first blog was titled, Just a Dude.

Over 15 years ago. While I’ve had several blogs, Road Map to Understanding, Souldiers 4 Peace, The Movie Whore, The Movie Whore Revisited,  Khaos Consulting, and a few others, The Church of Rock n Roll is my Church.

Let me explain.

Music is something that touches each and everyone of us. It doesn’t matter what music you listen to, if speaks to your soul, that’s church.

Everyone has different tastes, for me if it’s not rock n roll, fuck the fuck off.

I do like piano.

This kind of honesty is the progress my son has made with me. We did it together.

That’s the thing about parenting, you do it with your kids.  Not doing it to your kids.

Allowing my son to be my friend and my son, is why it worked.

Now, I have zero say over what my son does and I’m glad for that.  He knows what hes doing, so now all I have to do is be his friend.

Now, I use mantras daily.

I woke up today, the rest is gravy.

I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace in my heart mind and soul.

I never try, I do.

I never try, I work at it.

I cannot fail because I never try, I do and I work at all I do.

I have zero control and I let go into the flow.

Things of this nature. 

It takes less than a second to say please.

Please shows respect. Knowing that each has a choice to make as to whether or not they accept the request.

Everyone knows please.

Why is it we don’t say it more often?

If I look at me, when I forget to say please, typically it’s a lapse in memory. 

Why did I forget this simple easy thing to show respect?

I don’t respect the individual I’m making the request to.

I have a job to give orders and orders don’t need a please.

That’s the two I want to focus on.

If I respect myself, why don’t I respect the individual?

For me it’s a matter of how they treated me. Treating me as I don’t deserve respect. I work to give respect to them, but at some point I stop respecting them because they have no self respect for themselves.

If I respect myself, that respect goes to everyone.  As we are all the same. Everyone deserves respect. 

In order to show self respect is to show respect to everything else.  As you know and understand that disrespect leads to unwise choices.

Unwise choices lead to devolution, not evolution.

This is why please is this important.

I have a job to give orders where please gets in the way.

Anyone who has ever served in any military, knows it’s not they don’t respect one, its that we got a job to do and if you don’t get that….

It serves a function. 

Ego.

Ego is who you are.

I choose to join the Air Force.

I choose to follow all legal orders and I was responsible to know the difference between a legal order and an illegal order.

That was a lot of choices that I may not have agreed with, however, my self respect created a character with character and I followed the order because they were legal orders.

I.

Total egocentric statements.

The ego that can evolve is the ego that will evolve whether the conscious mind is aware.

The subconscious feeds the conscious mind what it needs to know right now.

Allowing one to understand that one has no knowledge accept that which the subconscious feeds one.

Thank you to my subconscious for feeding me this information. 

Thank you, why do we say it?

Gratitude is not a spiritual concept.

We are spirits in the material world. The Police got it right back in 1981.

Think about that, 1981, 44 years ago.

Saying thank you gives respect.

Showing gratitude is the ultimate sign of respect.

Please and thank you will guide anyone to evolution, it might take some other stuff.

Getting my son’s attention and asking him, was not telling him what he had done, but he figured it out when I asked the question.

That’s the core of building better children.

Not telling them a thing, instead asking them to notice something about their behavior. 

It puts the onus on them.

At 4 years old is when I started using the question. 

At 20, he doesn’t need anyone to ask him a thing, he knows what he’s doing and he does because of how I raised him.

I built a better man through building a better child.

Children are the future.

We cannot ignore this fact any longer if we are going to say we give a shit about our world.

Children are very intelligent.  They are born geniuses.  Then we devolve them to fit in with society. 

This is where autism is an evolutionary step that must be taken.

They see no authority, because the understand there truly is no authority. 

Authority is a societal construct. 

It’s a lie.

Doesn’t matter if one thinks one has authority based on societal rules, the autistic mind knows the truth.

However, society,  any society must have rules and those who have authority to enforce those rules.

This is why highly functional autistic people are right now, our best chance for a future that will be brighter then the darkness from where it came. 

Highly functional autistic people can take care of themselves and are not a drain on the system.

Social security, IHSS, these are autisms  home. I have a buddy who has an autistic son who will never be able to take care of himself.

My buddy worries about his son and what will happen once he dies. His son is 24.

He still goes to school, with other autistic children, and some are in there 30’s.

What contribution to society do they make?

They are a drain on society. 

The fact is that not all children will respond the same.

If the child doesn’t notice anything in their behavior, that’s when you tell them.

Now, I got down on my son’s level.  Showing him respect. 

Emotions are felt even with no words being spoken.

Everyone is empathic to a certain degree.

This is a truth that must be accepted in order to understand anything.

Showing respect to a child gives the child the ability to respect you.

While he knew he was in trouble,  I was respecting him by not yelling at him.

While he knew he was in trouble, I showed him respect by asking him to notice what I noticed.

Respect is something everyone wants, but so few understand what it is.

Is the being insert name here?

If I had another child I wouldn’t use thr nickname,  I use their name.

Is that being James?

Yes.

I know what it means to James.

Look at the Boy Scouts for the list.  I was a Boy Scout.

The Boy Scout Laws are a set of twelve points of conduct for Scouts, stating that a Scout is Trustworthy, Loyal, Helpful, Friendly, Courteous, Kind, Obedient, Cheerful, Thrifty, Brave, Clean, and Reverent.

I don’t like obedient. I’ve always had a disobedient streak.  I’m working on it all the time.

I know what it means to be James. 

Children are the future.

This is a fact.

It doesn’t matter how you feel about it, it remains a fact.

We need to start with children.

Why is blue for boys and pink is for girls?

That’s the first thing we need to fix.

My son used to have two pink bunnies. 

I never saw a problem with it. I let him keep those bunnies.

When he was an infant, he didn’t know pink is a girls color. That’s when he took the bunnies away from his sisters.

Who was it that marketed blue is for boys and pink is for girls?

It was marketing that told us blue is for boys and pink is for girls, a lie.

Honesty is how to gain abilities through your DNA.

Being able to assimilate truth is paramount.

Being able to accept truth, and live in truth is exactly how one can access one’s DNA.

There’s no one that can teach you how to accept truth. 

All any can do, even me is confirm or tell you it’s a lie.

The acceptance comes from you. It’s your choice.

Hence why choice is the most powerful thing in the universe. 

This is why telling lies creates a devolving run through society.

Manipulation is devolving.

We live in a world where we get ads based on our browsing.

That’s manipulation.

We get ads selling everything with sex.

That’s manipulation.

We as a society are devolving at a rapid rate.

Those who appreciate the truth are those that will evolve. 

Learn to be wrong and it’s OK, because now, you know the truth.

I could go on and on about the lies that built this society, however, if you are intelligent,  you’ll figure it out.

Gyres, God is love.

Every emotion thought to be seperate is the one emotion love.

Gravity = Love

Think about it.

When you see a loving family, you want to be closer to them.

When you see a dysfunctional family, you stay away unless you have to.

The fact that we can see these things must mean we are gravity.

Let me explain.

Gyres are in us.

Gravitational waves pull our bodies together.

Gravity = Love.

They are synonyms.

Only we don’t understand they are the same thing.

Romance has a ton to do with this. Romance is love with lust.

Lust is one of the deadly sins, why?

Why do we use models to sell everything?

Because we respond to lust.

Why do we buy things that have no models selling them?

Because we need shit. 

I’m a sex addict, recovering. I used to mastubate 3 times a day.   Now, I don’t at all.

Even though medical science says ejaculating 3 times a week reduces the risks testicular cancer.

I can’t use that as an excuse.

I’ve been celibate for 11 years.

What I noticed was disturbing. 

What I noticed in myself was disturbing.

I was a sex addict after my last marriage.  We had great sex 2-3 times a day.

After the divorce what was I going to do?

I started looking for a girlfriend.

I found a literally crazy woman, several.

I understand now, but back then lust colored my judgements red like roses.

At one point I told a woman I was the actual devil and she played along.

Crazy.

Then there was the one that left her husband and kids to have a sexual exploration. 

What she didn’t understand until a sex therapist told her, any sexual exploration should be in the confines of marriage.

We exchange pieces of our souls with each person we have sex with.

We destroy our souls with lust.

Say this once a day for 21 days to reclaim your soul.

I reclaim all soul facets and I give back all soul facets that are not mine.

I’ve done it and I noticed a distinct difference. 

So, lust is bad, mkay.

I love South Park.

Back to it.

However, lust is needed for sex to happen.

If we waited until we got married before we ever had sex, it would clear up a ton of issues.

If we stopped using sex to sell everything, it would do a ton of good.

Now, I hear you, those going, if I can clean my soul, I can have sex with whomever I choose.

Really.

Think about it.

You’ve reclaimed your soul. 

I think about it from time to time.

11 years celibate by choice.

And I hear you, it’s so old fashioned. 

Think about it.

As we have God inside us, we have the devil too.

Sacrifice is what is needed.

Personal sacrifice and discipline are the cornerstone to enlightenment. 

Personal sacrifice and discipline are the cornerstone for evolution.

What does lust have to do with love?

We love people and we get close and hug them. We don’t have sex with those people.

However, we can feel the love bringing us together.

Love = Gravity

Unlocking abilities through the DNA is something science works at, and science fiction has given a few movies, and books about it.

However, has anyone thought that it could be a cipher lock on the DNA, meaning one has to be the behavior in order to unlock new abilities. 

Why a cipher lock?

A 4 year old with a fire arm.

Not understanding what could happen is why a cipher lock is used. One must attain the wisdom to use the unlocked ability wisely. 

Think of anakin in episode 2. Using the force to grab fruit instead of using his hands.  He was trying to impress padame. 

That’s what I’m talking about.

The meek inherit the earth because they know what they can do, but don’t do it unless there’s no other way.

The intuitive mindset is trusting that the conscious mind could, however, the subconscious is much faster and makes no mistakes.

Think about it.

We’ve all done something just to do it,  and if we tried again, it will never happen.

Now if we use our consciousness mind to do it,  we probably could given enough practice, years and years of practice.

Allowing the subconscious to run the show is the intuive mindset.

No thinking, more doing.

Now, what does the intuitive mindset have to do with the cipher lock on our DNA?

We are the soul.

We have a body.

We get put into a body.

It’s an organic machine.

Think about it.

How do you understand that your a soul and have a body?

Everything in this world says we are our bodies and we’ve been duped.

How do you get into the DNA to wrap stuff in that you want instead of the behavior?

Crispr gene editing is what someone is going to ask.

Have you heard of any telepaths popping up because of crispr gene editing?

We’re evolving. 

Many of us are proof, millions and millions of us are the next stage of human evolution. 

We we’re born doing it.

I have unlocked several abilities within my DNA.

I don’t want to talk about it, because I’m not interested in impressing anyone.

Truthfulness is the way to unlock abilities within the DNA.

One  must be able to take the truth. 

Simple truth.

Hard truth.

Cold truth.

It’s this simple and it was complicated,  it would have been a lie.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

I’m sitting here listening to piano. I’m not worried about a thing.

I made the right choice in calling in until I get fired.

I’ll find work.

I’m as peaceful as I’ve been in months.

This is what life is supposed to be, peaceful.

Who needs excitement?

I thought I thought I did when I was younger, but the excitement gave me scars, and pain. Sure I’ve got some killer fucking memories,  but when I look back and see how I could have done it differently, I’m glad as fuck I’m pig headed. 

Or at least I used to be.

I’ve changed so much in the last 11 years.

No longer a sex addict.

Been celibate for 11 years.

I never thought that would be possible,  but I was wrong.

Narcissism check. 

I check myself daily.

If you get as much right as I do,  you’d check yourself daily as well.

I’m a Táltos, I’m supposed to get things right. 

I’ve been told many times that I’m a prophet.

I get who I’m speaking to, you have to have a certain level of consciousness to read me.

If you can, your in the great company.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose. 

I am calling off until I get fired.

Here’s why.

Angel was my coach, manager, boss.

I never saw her unless I was in trouble for something. She never got to know me. She said “you know, I’m your boss.”

That’s a form of intimidation.

So is telling some one you have ears all over so you better watch what you say.

That’s a threat.

When I first started working for Wal-Mart I got hired to do overnights swapping the tags to digital tags.

Angela was the coach.  I spoke about my life and what I had done. Manager, redesigned the operating model for customer service,  I have ADHD. 

And Angela felt I should be a janitor with those skills.

That’s how I got to be a janitor.

I took half hour breaks.

I couldn’t believe that no one cared.

I felt as if no one cared about me.

Brad is a coach that I had a few conversations with. He doesn’t like it either. No I didn’t tell him I took half hour breaks.

He’s intelligent, probably smarter than me.

Even he is part of the problem.

Ryan, a coach, I gave him the perfect opening to give an educational lesson plan to us.

I had seen a set of fireworks sitting for over a day on the drinking fountain. Everyone to the store manager walked right on by and never touched it.

Instead of giving an elp he left the fireworks on the table. I put them away after the meeting.

Latanya, I got nothing to say about her, I didn’t have much experience with her.

The store manager,  Michael, couldn’t even have a conversation with me in over 8 months that I worked with him.

That this is what this store is, falls on him.

Wal-Mart as an entity represents cheap shit. It’s low vibration. 

I’m high vibration.

We don’t mix well.

Let me explain.

When I walk through the door of Wal-Mart, I feel like I’m being crunched. As I walk through the heart of the store, it gives me physical pain. It hurts me to work at Wal-Mart. 

I don’t do well with abuse. Me having to go into that store is abusive to me.

Think about it.

Low vibration attracts low vibration.

On a Saturday, it’s the lowest vibration.

When it’s the first and all the homeless come into the store, taking the vibration lower.

I decided that I can’t take the abuse.

Knowing that Walmart will never believe me.

I watched as one coach got made fun of in a meeting because of something on the moon.

Donovan, I believe you’re right.

And Shada is a bicth who doesn’t even listen when she asks how you are.

Had she listened she would’ve heard what I said.

I like Donovan. 

I met a few, only a few that I would talk to outside of Wal-Mart.

The rest, fuck em.

It’s not that I don’t care, it’s that I care too much. There’s too much narcissistic behavior in Wal-Mart. 

I was watching Farscape again, the episode where John goes down the wormhole to talk with Einstein.

Einstein spoke of unrealized realities, that’s the fiction.

In a wormhole you can only go where you can imagine.

Think about it.

This is theory, meaning my opinion until it can be proved. 

If you entered the wormhole not having a destination in mind, you would comeback to where you were.

It connects with our consciousness. 

If one can see on a chart where one wants to go, even if they haven’t been there before they will get there.

It’s consciousness itself that enables the journey.

Think about it.

Consciousness in the form of the soul took a body to build some shit so we could learn some shit and so on and so on.

As we evolve we learn more about the universe and what its doing to and through us.

As our consciousness evolves at some point we will be able to travel through space. 

In space suits that will equalize gravity for earth gravity.

Otherwise it is unsafe to travel in space. 

Look at the astronauts, they have health issues from their time in space.

Every reality is realized even the one we’re making.

If this theory holds true, it would be that free will is a myth.

We have choices, but we’ve already made the choices.

Its a matter of what choices leads to what reality.

What if imagination is a window into other realities?

I channel what I write in fiction from others.

I hadn’t thought about before.

What if I channel from other realities?

That’s how I write fiction, in this reality its fiction, but the reality it came from, it’s reality itself. 

If this proves true, wow the fuck wow!

Pennywise is the one to blame for this.

I work for a low vibration company.

I work for Wal-Mart.

I’m a janitor at Wal-Mart.

When I hang the sign the says “Restrooms are closed for cleaning.”

What in the blue holy fuck is it that makes any decide to walk in?

Narcissism.

Now, Wal-Mart has a policy that if anyone walks in, your just supposed to let them use it.

I spray chemicals that take 10 minutes before I can wipe them up.

It’s an unsafe policy that Wal-Mart has.

However they have another policy that when the trash hits 75% then pull the bag.

Everyone except me ignores this policy.

They pull it if its full at all. 25% or less.

That’s bad for the environment.  They don’t care about the environment. 

My boss tells me she’s my boss as if it means anything.

I write leadership material.  Telling someone your their boss is a form of intimidation.  As well as telling them you have ears everywhere. Angel if you hear this know your a bad boss. 

That’s threatening.

Saying ro someone that they talked to the store manager, even though they had zero conversation with the store manager is lying.

This is what my boss tried.

I wouldn’t say that I talked to the store manager. I still haven’t even had a brief conversation with a shit store manager.

I say he’s shitty because Sam Walton the dude who started Wal-Mart,  I’m betting he knew personal details about everyone working with him.

In the store they have this sign that says “your associates are your family share your profits with them…”

I don’t see where they share the profits with the employees.

It took me nearly 6 months to get my employee phone. I still jave trouble getting a radio.

I have adhd,  meaning janitor is the worst fucking job I could have.

And recently they could have put me somewhere else that I would have enjoyed, but they said no.

I hate my job.

I’m looking for another.

As humans, we don’t like the earth’s ecosystem.

This is evidence through the way we destroy ecosystems in the name of us.

Now, if we look at business, we find the culprit of the destruction in the name of money.

Look at hemp.

It can be used to make paper, plywood, hempcrete, biodegradable plastic, and much more.

Why do we cut down trees?

We destroy ecosystems to cut down trees.

Trees give us oxygen.  If we don’t have trees, we don’t breathe.

It’s this simple. 

The complication of money is what makes it difficult.

The ocean is filled with plastic. 

Why do we still make plastic?

Rhetorical.

It should be a crime for anyone to make plastic that is not biodegradable.

The ecosystem will be grateful.

As it is, humans are the worst threat to the earth unless we change our ways.

Nuclear war. Human concept.

Why do we still build cars that run on gas?

We know it hurts the environment. We can build electric cars.

What narcissism is this?

It’s ok to pollute a little. 

That is straight narcissism.

Do you understand we’ve done this because we think we know so much.

What do we know?

The ego is who you are. It incorporates the lower self and the higher self. Until it evolves and the higher self is what remains.

The lower self, the body, and what it needs. The heart has a consciousness in it. It’s why your body breathes even when you hold your breath. It’s why you can’t pick a time to pee or shit. 

The higher self,  the soul you are.

How do you evolve the ego?

One needs to understand that the only thing in existence that is a constant is change.

Look at what you do and how you live,  I’ll look at me.

I live simply.

I don’t eat out. 

I live in a house where I rent a room.

I don’t need to be important.  Meaning I’m a janitor at Wal-Mart. 

The least important job at Wal-Mart. 

I take half hour breaks daily, because I can. I would have fired me so fast.

I’m looking for another job. However I live in Chico and the unemployment rate is higher here than the national average because every year college kids decide they like Chico and fuck off their degrees.

Bitching about having to pay back student loans for a degree they don’t use because theu would have to move out of Chico. 

They didn’t want to change, and because of this, they put locals out of work.

I’ve heard back from one company that didn’t hire me.

I get the people I was hiding from found me. I hid in plain site. I just didn’t verify my LinkedIn with my ID.  I did that a couple months ago.

If they read this, message me, and we’ll talk.

These are the kind of people who read everything.

Oh, and I recently found out that ADHD is highly functional autistic.  I never felt autistic.  But it explains why others react to me the way they do.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

I figure we’re getting close to the end of the world as we know it. 

How to rebuild?

What do people need?

Shelter, food, water, something to keep them busy.

Food, water, and shelter has zero cost.

Now, there will be some sacrificing we all will have to do.

First off, whose going to grow food, and what will they grow?

What is it the average human body needs in the way of sustenance?

This needs to be determined using hard facts.

These facts will be available to the public.

No secrecy will be tolerated. 

Look at the world. You see what secrecy has got us?

We need to find a way to have energy that is resonance with the earths electromagnetic field and build technology to suit.

It’s electric cables and wifi that cause free radicals,  free radicals cause cancer.

Doing it this way will take a while but will save untold lives.

I get that people will want shit and not everyone will be happy to sacrifice. 

We need a world council.  Splitting the world into quadrants, sections, states, counties, and cities.

Each quadrant has 5 civil servants. Each section has 5 civil servants, and so on.

The world gets a council of 13.  There will always be a tie breaker.  Hence, why 13.

This is what i got right now at 3am.

There’s going to be a full moon tonight, and I’m not sleeping because I have no choice.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

I’ve been spending time on quora.

I’ve been answering questions from many.

It’s good to feel as if you can do something for someone.

No one here asks me a thing.

Find me on quora and I will not give you my profile in this.

You have to find me like everyone else. 

I answers questions from a diverse study of life.

It’s all connected.

And there’s no way I can fit in here.

So find me on quora.

We are all one organism spread into many parts.

If i forgive anyone, I forgive me.

I forgive me of everything. 

I forgive me of everything I have ever done and will do.

This is how I became peaceful, peace filled.

This simple.

I love me some Boston, and this song is a reason why.

Thinking about looking back, can you do it without emotion?

If not, that’s what’s holding you back.

If you can look at the past without emotion, just the facts of your life. The truth of your life.

No one owns the truth. 

You have a truth about your life but it’s not your truth.

Everyone goes through some shit,  and others have gone through what you have gone through.

If i look back without emotion, I can see what is truly holding me back, and it’s me.

I had a stroke more than 5 years ago.  I lost the ability to communicate.

I got possessed.

It’s only been recently that I’ve dealt with the possession. I have new safe guards in place.

There’s no way to know who is possessed.

I’ve seen it as people thought it was me.

I couldn’t do a thing.

It’s not fun.

But don’t feel sorry for me.

I had my stroke while I was taking care of my dad. A friend of mine had just found out his girlfriend had died. 

We hadn’t spoken in over a year, and he calls me. 

That moment I had my stroke. I couldn’t speak for a week. My parents didn’t notice.

Took me 2 or 3 weeks to remember the password for my computer. 

I know exactly what it’s like to fight for your life.

This is how I can be one that can sense possession and help them gain their lives back.

Most people who are possessed,  you wouldn’t know it.

He’s just there for you to be recycled.

Yes, indeed, it’s a fact that we do this more than once.

That means it doesn’t matter how you feel about it. It’s still the truth

Death as a personification can teach you everything you want to know about life.

Why fear the reaper?

If you know you’ll go on, why fear the reaper?

Death is one of my best friends.

I’m a Táltos,  I speak with Arc Angels,  Arc Demons, Jinn,  Fey, and other entities.

How would I not know what happens after we release the mortal coil?

Aksshic records. I’m a librarian.

There’s more shit that I can do than I can think of. That’s what my abilities are. 

Anything I need.

Too often, we are inundated with noise.

Enjoy silence.

Most people can’t do it. It’s that in silence there is no distraction from dealing with themselves. 

You must deal with yourself. 

Enjoy the silence.

Think about it.

Why are we separate?

Because life would be boring as fuck otherwise. 

This is why God made us. However, for the human,  God had help. 

Jehovah, Allah, Krishna, Ra, Odin, and others made us.

Those beings are not God.  They understand how God works and can convince us mortals that they are gods.

This is the simple truth.

No complication.

Come together to see how true it is.

As truth gains ground, the planetary vibration rises.

Let the truth be told.

No matter how much or how many it hurts. 

I’ve been on the side of God while God is arguing through me with some idiot.

I say idiot, because you have to be fucking stupid as hell if you think you’re going to win an argument with God. 

Think about it.

God knows everything.

You don’t.

God wins.

I know its not fair but life isn’t fair. If life was fair I wouldn’t be working at Wal-Mart,  I would be a dude who sat and waited for people to visit and ask questions.

Kind of like the Dali Llama.

Buddha.

Other Buddhists.

That’s the thing, i was prophesied about by many, but they didn’t make the cut through nostradamus and the like.

And for the Bible thumper, read the dann book, specially the red words, the words of the christ.

Now in i think it was in acts, that they wrote about gifts of the spirit and spreading it around.

What the fuck do you think I do?

I teach people to go within to find the higherself,  the holy spirit, to figure out what they can do.

And i do it free of charge.

I never charged anyone for what they need.

Like the Buddhists,  and the like,  and as the Christ commanded.

He never said anything about a church or pastors or priests or any if that shit.

That’s the devil.

In the 1980’s this song was written and performed by many on an album.

What in the blue holy fuck happened?

It’s 2025.

40 years.

It looks as if we have gone downhill since then.

What happens when everyone turns on the rich, even their own security?

I know people such as myself who can possess others to do whatever they want.

This is not fiction.

This is the truth. 

There’s no way to catch any of us.

That’s why you don’t believe. 

As we exist we can do whatever the fuck we want and no one can catch us.

That’s some scary shit if you’re not one of us.

I get why people want to deny our existence,  it’s not fair.

Life isn’t fair.

But it can be balanced. 

The balance on this world is dire need of being restored.

I’m not going to hurt even a fly. 

However, if I’m in someone and they kill a fly. 

They killed the fly,  not me.

Think about that.

Godsmack is the inspiration for this.

I channel God,  and God understands that most people don’t want to hear from the true living God. 

Do you understand how much shit I’ve taken for channeling God?

I’m not the approved one to channel God.

What right do you have to channel God?

I don’t belive you. 

Why?

I just don’t believe you.

And much much much much more.

I’m bulletproof.

Hit me with whatever you got, cause God’s got me covered.

Do you think a prophet for God has anything to worry about?

The safest place anyone could be is next to me.

Call me delusional because you can’t accept the simple truth.

Yeah, I’ve heard it before.

I’m bulletproof.

I’m going backward through this.  Since my stroke more than 5 years ago, it’s the freshest.

I took divorce after being threatened with it more than a few times.

This is abuse.

This wasn’t the only abuse I suffered.

Her mother once said, “You know my daughter is a liar?”

My ex-wife at one point said, “Everyone knows I’m a pathological liar.”

She looked shocked when she heard herself admit it.

Until then,  she had memory issues. That was how she got away with lying.

I remember conversations that happened years ago, so that didn’t work for her, and she got mad at me for remembering correctly. 

She worked from home.

I came home from working at Toys R US and she was smoking a joint playing the ps3 while the kitchen was a disaster.  Pots and pans and dishes all over the counter space. 

This is an example of what I put with because the sex was that amazing.

I did things to her at her request I wouldn’t do.

Her request. 

She had a porn addiction. I got porn sites from her. She had them bookmarked under porn.

She didn’t want me to be a telepath because I know when someone’s lying.

She didn’t want me to be a medium that channels the soul. She didn’t like the messages that she wanted to give herself through me.

She didn’t want me to be public about being an Empath.

That’s where she got abusive.

Then there was my healing.

I had a short leg and a limp.  When I showed up with both my legs the same length, she was so pissed.

She was trying to siphon my energy. 

When we would go to sleep at night,  we would hold hands. I got the thought in my head,  siphon.

It was her, I’m a telepath. 

Essentially, she was trying to kill me. I saw my death by her more times than I can count. 

Abusive.

It’s why I haven’t wanted to deal with relationships since then.

Since then, I turned down two marriage proposals.  I got scared as shit.

It’s been years.

There is a direct correlation between how well some can make you orgasm and how much shit you take from them.

She was the fuck of a lifetime.

I took an amazing amount of shit from her.

As judgments fall upon us all, I’ve accepted the shit I’ve done.

It’s interesting the things I would’ve tried like hell to deny, now, it’s just the facts of my life.

I’ve been married 4 times.

I’ve been celibate for over ten years because of this.  I figure it must be me.

I was wrong.

The first one,  she came from money and I had none.

The second one was a cheater.

The third one wasn’t strong enough to talk to her own parents and they wanted her to get an abortion. 

The fourth one was a pathological liar.

I’m healed in and of myself.

I’m just looking for a woman who is the same.

I’m a soul healer.

Do you have any idea what I can do?

Empathic amplifier.

What i take in i have choices in What to do with it.

I take orgasmic energy and ramp it up and give right back to you.

I’m the best time women have had and miss dearly just for the sex.

It’s my day off.

My guidance is to chill the fuck out and ignore how fucked the world is.

It’s not normal for me not to pay attention to the world around me.

It hurts. 

I’m an empath, and for me, it goes into my back and my legs and then my arms.

I’m also a physical empath.

When shit hurts one of my friends, I feel it.

Fuck the fuck off with what I do as a medium who channels the soul. I have to be filled up, or something takes its place. 

Can you imagine having to have someone in you that wants to do shit, and you have to manage them and yourself. 

This is what my life is.  I know how alone I’m not. I wish I could be alone, but that ain’t gonna happen.

We are all one being .

This is what God taught me long ago. And most people didn’t want to listen.

Why?

Because their egos have not evolved enough to take this simple truth. 

They deny, and they suffer in their denial.

I am everywhere.

You are everywhere.

We are the same,  only our egos seperste us.

Tesla said roughly the same thing close to a hundred years ago. 

Now, being everywhere has its disadvantages.

One must coalesce, become something substantial if one is going to make an impact in the universe. 

I use empathic reiki.

I use the state of peace to transmute what I take in into pure love healing energy that goes like an orb across the entire universe.

That’s what people feel when I’m at peace. 

That wave of energy is what every empath can do.

It takes peace.

It’s why I use a mantra throughout the day.

I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace in my heart, mind, and soul.

Just do it, like Nike said.

It’s been a mantra of mine for a very long time.

I work at Chico Walmart, where the last 7 days we’ve had ,ero toilet paper and zero paper towels.

How in the blue holy fuck can they not get 2 day air?

This is the dumbest place I’ve ever worked.

I get away with pretty much anything because none of the managers care, even the store manager.

If he didn’t see my name on my badge, I bet he couldn’t remember it. 

This is why I’m not writing.

I’m dealing with the stupidity of Walmart 

I was listening to Def Leopard, and it appears to me we are in the middle of Armageddon.

Let’s look shall we.

Fucked up weather.

Volcanoes.

Earthquakes.

Wars, plural.

Life is as fucked as fucked gets.

However, humans have been racing towards this as if they would win something. 

You got it, it’s not James,  it’s God talking. 

Let’s see where you fucked everything up for yourselves.

Long list. 

Starting with Tesla, I gave him free energy for the world.

Then Einstein split the atom. Them humans built a bomb. 

Then aliens said we shouldn’t be doing this because is fucks the universe up.

Humans said “fuck you.”

Make up.

It’s not a right.

And it’s fucked up more people than even i can count.

Why look like a whore ladies?

Used to be whores were the ones that wore make up.

Painted up like a whore.

Used to be said frequently. 

Cosmetics, that entire industry is narcissim deluxe. 

It’s as if you people are scared to death about growing older.

Dudes use cosmetics as well.

And while  on males, what in the blue holy fuck do you need a hard on pill for?

Most who take it abuse the holy living shit out of it.

The male body is built to have 3 orgasms a week for good health.

I get it with all the painted whores, men want to have sex with them.

Genetic memory.

It’s in your genetics that you see a whore and want to fuck.

How do you tell the whores from the women?

Make up.

It’s the truth that no one wants to hear.

What else?

I gave you hemp. Why do you cut down trees?

You know they create breathable air for you?

That’s just as stupid as a thing you could do.

Truly idiotic.

Oil.

What the fuck?

Tesla had a system that oil would never be used again.

You made plastic even though you knew it fucked up the environment.

Now it’s in everything.

You fucked up the world.

What is it with you and loud shit?

I get music. That shit should be loud.

Anything else should be quiet so you can hear.

You protect stupid people from their own stupidity and you don’t understand why that’s a problem?

The fact that you put directions on everything that doesn’t need directions, for instance shampoo. Rinse and repeat.

I never followed those directions.

I’m smart enough to know i dont need to.

Letting stupid people fuck themselves up is how they learn not to be stupid.

If they die,  oh well, the world IQ gets higher.

The university system is fucked.

There’s no good way to say it.

If i can learn what God truly is, and I haven’t been given a Nobel prize…

I can’t even see it on the news. 

Some dude discovered what God truly is.

I figure someone would want to know.

This is the stupidity that I was speaking of.

Denying the truth is stupid.

As a people we have fucked up at every turn. 

Then we cry about it.

What the fuck for?

We did it to ourselves. 

We are the responsible party.

The only way it gets better is to get rid of stupidity. 

Intelligence should be running things.

That’s all for now.

It’s a choice.

It’s that simple.

That i love my life means there’s a ton of shit I won’t put up with.

Lying, stealing, murder, rape,  and shot that we have laws for, including littering.

If you do these things a look at you, well I don’t look at you, I don’t even see you.

I’ve done a ton of shit in my life. I lied, I stole, and some other shit.

However, i dont do those things now. 

When one is ready to repent, meaning owning up to the shit one has done, one will reveal oneself as a hole human, healed through and through.

One must repent in order to be forgiven.

Look at Donald Trump.  Zero repentance in him.

He will not be forgiven.

His hell will only get worse.

Those who follow are going straight to hell with him.

Don’t be a Trump supporter. 

I talk to people,  I can’t avoid them.

I dont like talking to people who talk about others.

I like talking about ideas.

Recently, I was talking with a friend, and it came up. What would I do with millions?

Buy a farm and plant hemp.

If I had thar kind of money, I would also build a refinement center.

There, the hemp can be turned into other shit, paper, hempcrete, plywood, hemp plastic,  all biodegradable. 

I give more than a shit or a fuck about the earth.

Building something that is better for the earth and the humans,  makes sense.

However, I don’t have the money. I do have everything else, just no money.

If you’ve followed me for any time, you know I’m super intelligent. 

Intelligence figures shit out.

Non-intelligence regurgitates shit that is already known.

I like intelligence.

I don’t do stupid.

I live my life simply.

I love my life.

I’m absolutely grateful to everything for everything just that I’m alive.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose,  you know I am.

Thank you, Bon Jovi, for writing this one.

I play my part, and you play your game.

I always play my part, and it’s a part worth playing.

What is my part?

I channel God for any who gives a shit.

Think about it for yourself.

Why don’t you accept this truth?

What are you afraid of, that it’s true.

That you can’t argue because who wins arguing with God?

That’s a you issue.

You make it my issue, but if no one talks to me, it’s on them.

It’s their responsibility, not mine.

That’s what love is.

You accept what is told.

Lying to yourself is never a good thing.

That’s the way to the pit of suffering.

That’s what Psychospirilosophy is.

Psychology.

Spirituality.

Philosophy.

What is working at Wal-Mart doing to me psychologically?

I was in the Air Force.

I was a manager.

I got respect.

I’m a janitor who gets no respect. 

I gave janitors respect long before I became a janitor.

Why is it people have no respect for the janitor?

This is my quandary.

In spiritual terms. They are what they are because of who they choose to be.

Philosophy.

I know what I said to get me into this and I know what I’m saying to get me the fuck out of Wal-Mart. 

It will be like I got paroled. I used to say that about the military.

I wish I hadn’t.  I never had it as good as then.

I’ve had better times, but this time in my life, I fucking hate that I work for Wal-Mart. 

It’s the people that work there that make it such a fucked place to work.

The arthritis in my knees has gotten so bad that walking hurts. 

I used to take walks all the time to clear my head. Now, it hurts.

Never get old, it hurts. 

All in all, I could be doing a fuck ton worse.

I got a job. 

I can survive with what my hours are.

What’s my problem again?

I fucking hate working as a janitor at Wal-Mart. 

I get why.

But until something else comes along….

How often do you notice who notices you?

Like most people,  hardly ever.

Noticing who notices you is the first step in defending oneself.

It’s this simple. 

Looking at one’s phone is the stupidest thing you could do while walking. 

I don’t care that a bunch of people do it. That simply means they are engaging in stupidity.

Don’t be stupid.

When you walk, hold your head up. Look around and  notice what thete is to be noticed.

At work, it really pisses me off that we are supposed to fix as we see it.

Most employees let it hang.

If we all simply did what we are supposed to do, shit wouldn’t be so fucked. 

Noticing is the act of waking.

Until you notice you’re asleep and anyone can have you for lunch.

Noticing is that important.

When I woke up today, I was pissed as pissed  gets about several things. 

I raged and screamed my head off.

It was the leaf blower that pissed me off, and I was already pissed.

My neighbor who is not home when the landscaper is there.

The leaf blower reaches a level of over 75db. This is the sound level. Db, or decibels, is how sound is measured.

Anything over 80db is considered to be hazardous noise and requires hearing protection. 

In the Air Force is drove vehicles that were rated over 130db.

My equipment rated 100db.

It’s why i was required to use ear plugs.

Chico has a huge fucking problem with the college.

As they come and don’t use their degrees and make the unemployment rate go higher making it more difficult for a local to find a job.

That’s totally irresponsible. 

That’s not thinking.

That’s feeling. 

Wisdom says if you love a place and you have a degree, you need to use your degree, otherwise you blew how much  money?

I don’t give a shit about anyone who thinks their feelings mean a damn thing to anyone.

The facts are what we make decisions over.

Not feelings.

Feelings will fuck you up the ass like a notherfucker and half. 

Now, for what really pissed me off today.

I can feel that there is someone that is watching me.

I know thst they could help me pay my bills and shit but they are afraid of me.

Just show the fuck up.

That’s how pissed off I am to be waiting for you to show the fuck up.

I know you read this blog.

Show the fuck up.

Everything is a soul. 

Everything has a soul.

Don’t argue with God.

This is what my life is like.

Think about it and watch the film Branded.

In this film, we get to see the souls of the companies.

Think about it.

Where you work has a soul made up of every soul in the place, and every customer interaction with your company feeds its soul.

Now, this is where I look at my life, and you look at yours.

Wal-Mart as an entity represents cheap shit.

It attracts the cheapest people,  both customers and employees. 

I don’t get why I got the job.

However, I have an idea.

This idea can not be proven.  Meaning there is no quantifiable data to sort through.  It’s a feeling. 

Data is not feelings.

We are feeling people.

What if God made shit to figure out how to make shit?

Gyres talking to gyres using emotional concepts. 

God feels.

What does God feel about Wal-Mart?

Don’t ask.

If I say, “Don’t ask. “

Leave it the fuck alone.

I realize you people don’t get this is a conversation with several entities.

I’m a Medium that has no off switch. I tried installing one, but  it didn’t work.

What do you think the health of the soul is for Wal-Mart?

I know. However, I want others to see it my way.

See the soul for what it is.

Energy. 

Energy that is consciously aware of itself.

Think about handmade shit.

Thst shit don’t break and if it does it took some shit to break it.

Cheap piece of plastic.

Breaks easily, so you need to replace it often.

This is how Wal-Mart feeds on everyone that walks through the door.

The soul of Wal-Mart. 

I’m a soul healer.

I can’t heal this soul.

For me to be able to heal this soul, would take about a year. Management would be gutted to  the region.

I would need to take time with each individual to ensure they heal themselves from their shit.

Here’s where me and Wal-Mart differ on opinion.

Fuck the bullshit being of shit being on the floor where customers have to walk through it.  You have an overnight stocking crew for this reason.

This is why I haven’t shopped in Wal-Mart by choice in years.

Security needs to be tightened. 

Having associates walking the floor and not stocking shit cuts down on theft.

I could go on and on.

I was a Manager, and a damn good one.

Anyone hiring, email me at jimccarterjr@gmail.com.

If you’ve read the blog, you know a little about me.

Thank you to Faith No More for this one.

You want it all but you can’t have it.

It’s in your face, but you can’t grab it.

It’s life.

Always in your face, but you can’t grab it.

What if you could actually grab life as if it was a person?

What would you do now?

Remember to breathe by Sturgill Simpson just came on.

Take the time to remember to breathe. Let yourself be washed over by situation. 

Only then can you formulate a response.

This is why breathing is the most important thing we do.

Breathe without breathing.

The Reiki recital.

Breathing without breathing, means you breathe so slowly you can’t feel the wind from each inhale and exhale. 

Remember your breathing.

For me, if life was a person, I would give it a hug.

I don’t get hugged.

I love hugs, but no hugs for me.

That’s why I would give life a hug, I know what it’s like when no one wants to hug you.

I’m sitting on a bench in Bidwell Park.

I love this park.

This park is why I’m not leaving Chico for the foreseeable future.

This park is the greatest soul cleansing and nourishing place in the world.

I’m a soul healer. I would know.

Thinking about my life, Wal-Mart doesn’t feel like a blessing.

However,  I’ve had other things to do other than clean toilets. I’ve had a few things to say to few people that was a blessing for them.

My life is blessed as all lives are blessed.

I actually right. 

I don’t act like a fool.

My foolish days are behind me.

I wish I hadn’t acted so foolish.

I see what it gets. If I act as a fool, everyone acts as a fool, and society crumbles right before our eyes.

It’s why I’m responsible.

I see what it does.

Look at your life and see it for yourself.

In case you didn’t know, Bob Seger wrote this.

Every time I hear this song, the thought is, “It’s the only way to fly.”

I appreciate the wind. 

It gets hot in Chico. Today, it hit 98 degrees.

We get the wind coming from the bay area through the Sacrsmento River delta.

From the north, it’s Mt Shasta. 

You ever fly a kite?

You need it to be windy. 

I’m old.

I’m good with it.

I never have to worry about my records from before the internet. 

None of that shit got recorded, or did it?

I remember. 

Those who were there remember.

Those that we can’t see remember,  and probably have video.

What if there was a world within our world that we can’t see, they can see us, but we have zero clue.

Why would this make sense?

Electromagnetic signatures.

Phase variance.

If one of these two things get switched up, that’s what you get.

Star Trek:TNG did an episode using this,  as well as Stargate SG1, and several films.

It’s not a new idea.

However, it’s an idea science needs to explore.

Science fiction gave you the idea,  now go make it happen.

I would,  but I work at Wal-Mart. 

Neil Diamond inspired this by writing the song “Create me.”

It’s talking about a woman.  I get what it means.

As an empath, it’s how we are.

We are ever being created by those around us.

Look at you life, I’ll use mine. 

I work at the most negative place in this town.

I’m not a negative dude.

However, they break me every day.

This is my Friday night.

I don’t like that they can break me.

I’m a veteran.

I’m a professional with years of experience behind me.

When I hate a task, I become a master of the task. 

Why?

So i don’t have to worry about doing it again.

It’s why I mastered every job ever thrown at me.

I get most people don’t Master what the have doing,  but I’m not most people.

I like that I’m not most people.

I have skills going to waste wear i work.

I need a job that employs these skills.

I feel someone creating me again.

Someone i don’t work with.

I’m an empath, telepath and a medium who specializes in channeling the higher self of others.

I might not know who,  but I can feel it.

It’s weird being me.

I took my new scooter for a ride to my favorite place in Bidwell Park.

It’s 7:43 as I write this, and it’s still over 90.

I took the time going no more than 6 mph.

I took the time to see all there was to see.

I wasn’t in a rush, and I knew I would get here. 

Patience allowed me to notice what I hadn’t noticed before.

Tomorrow I go to work.

I could quit, however I would have to deal with shit.

Me working at job, any job, I hate it.

I loved being a house spouse.

It’s the only job I ever loved. 

It allowed me to be multi-skilled.

It allowed me to use all my skills to do the job and do it right.

Right now, I’ve been celibate for so long, a woman would have to tell me she’s interested.

It doesn’t have to be much, just say hello, my name is…

I hate my job, which makes me extremely good at my job. I just want to get it over with every day I work.

How many fit this bill?

I have no excuse for doing a shitty job and not arriving on time. 

They pay me to do my job.

I would love it if someone would pay me for my skills.

I can track energy. I can tell you where someone’s at.

All the shit I’ve written, is shit i can do.

When do i get paid for being able to do the shit I do?

Any Master knows that what they have to teach, is it.

The student grows beyond the Master, mastering things the Master only dreams of.

Why?

The Master had to learn what they became.

The Master shows others another way that is not as difficult.

A Master doesn’t give two fucks if they surpass them.

A Master expects them to surpass them.

Master thyself and one will be able to Master anything.

Patience is the key.

If you think waiting for an hour, a day, a week, a year is too much for you, I’ve waited over ten years.

I can do it, you have zero excuse. 

Life doesn’t give a fuck about your excuses.

Nor do I.

Avenged Sevenfold is the inspiration.

Hail to the kings of this world.

Hail to the queens of this world.

We are the ones that rule the world.

We have no title.

We are poor.

We do things the right way because it’s right.

We call out deception  every time we hear or see it.

We, not I.

You have no idea how many we are.

There is no head for any to cut off.

It’s a we thing.

Everyone has the power.

Use it.

Pennywise is the inspiration.

People are talking civil war in the United States.

Why aren’t they going after the rich people?

Why are they going after the poor?

We have the numbers.

We have the numbers.

We have the numbers.

It’s time for retribution.

It’s time to fight.

Buckcherry is the inspiration for this.

Sitting on my porch listening to music.

How in the the blue holy fuck do you not know your music pisses people off no matter what music it is?

What music do you hate?

Why on earth does anyone think it’s ok to ride a bike, drive a car, sitting at a place of work, with music blaring?

Say fuck it, do what they do.

Make sure it’s real loud and pisses them off.

Motley Crüe wrote this and it’s fucked.

You know it’s a violation.

In the first set of lyrics we know it’s fucked.

Why do I publish on Amazon only?

Because publishers kill trees.

Kindle is a free download. 

I didn’t want any tree to die because I wrote a book.

I thought of others before I started.

Everything affects everything.

What you do affects us all. 

This is the issue that most people do not think about.

They do what they want and fuck everybody else. 

I have roommates.  My volume doesn’t bother them. 

I clean up after myself.

Look at your break room. 

If people were responsible and respected this planet is our home, no trash would ever fall to the ground without it being picked up immediately. 

If I drop shit, I sure as fuck don’t expect anyone else to deal with it. I pick that shit up.

That’s what I got for now. 

The American Rejects wrote this one, and it’s a good one.

I channel God,  and God is pissed. 

Take a look at the world, and you can see we are at the end times that everyone has foretold.

It’s time for judgment so that we understand the hell we’ve made earth.

I don’t like it. However, all will be judged.

Not because I want it, fuck I don’t want to be judged, I’ve done some fucked up shit.

However, this is where we are.

Trying to make it go away doesn’t work.

Enjoy the judgment that you will face.

I’m enjoying mine,  because I’ve done a lot of good shit, way more than I fucked up.