I’m an idea, and that is the absolute truth.

Here’s why.

Consciousness is primary, meaning awareness is emergent. What is it you are aware of?

How does one form the ego?

Where does the I come from?

Awareness, self awareness.  If there is no self to be aware of why bother doing anything?

We are aware of ourselves and that gives us an ego.

The ego is a gift that is created through the body and the soul and it meets at the mind.

The body craves shit, and we love our body. We have bodies in order to use our unique perspective to assist God in figuring out what God made and what to do with and about it.

Think of the flesh, the body, is the devil. It takes the soul saying no to the body otherwise we would fuck and kill each other like animals. 

However, animals don’t kill their own, that’s what makes us savages. The animals are better than we are.

They live within the ecosystem.  They don’t try to force the ecosystem in anyway. It’s hot, the deal with it instead of crying for air conditioning. 

Humans need a ton of shit to live in this world.

Now, for me.

I’m a martial artist, and a pacifist. The one time I had to defend myself, I nearly killed someone in less than 10 seconds. 

As I ran it over and over in my head that night, I was totally emotionless, and was doing what I needed to in order to kill, not hurt, kill.

It wasn’t a savage move, one had attacked me, and the soonest I could disable or kill my opponent is what Martial arts is.

This is why the UFC can go fuck itself in the goat ass. It’s not fighting.  It’s combat with rules. 

This is my ego. Built on memories and truth. It’s the idea of me and that idea is subject to change at a moments notice, or no notice. 

It’s all on me to make choices. 

If I don’t own my choices, taking the reward or consequences, I don’t own me.

This is ego evovled.

If I blame anything, anything owns me.

This is the world for the most part.

Awareness is something that one must accept in order to become more aware.

If one denies one is aware of anything, it fragments one. Until one can’t deny it any longer. If one dies fragmented, one will leave a remnant of that fragmentation. 

Remnant, meaning a piece of the soul, most commonly referred to as ghosts.

That you are aware of this, you have the choice to accept or deny this, and this is what life is, and how our ego forms.

The ideas that we accept or deny defines who we are, not who we think we are, no one gives a shit about who you think you are. 

Who you think you are is your opinion and that makes you right and wrong simultaneously. 

Truth is, your an idea, and ideas can change.