Back in 1987 I was 13 and they noticed my right leg was shorter than my left leg. I was taken in and given X-Rays and all that jazz and it showed not only was my right leg shorter, my right hip was bigger than my left one.

I had adjusted naturally to the 3/4 of an inch difference and it went unnoticed by most. When I was 17 and I was getting my physical for my enlistment into the U.S. Air Force the Dr noticed. Had it not been for some fast talking on my part he was considering barring me from entering the military because of my short leg.

It wasn’t until I was in my 30’s that it ever really became a problem. Over the years it caused a slow twisting of the nerves in my lower spine. By the time I was 34 I could only get a couple hours on my feet before I was in a lot of pain. If had to drive for a couple hours I was done for the day.

Things deteriorated fast at that point and over the next two years if I went grocery shopping that was all I did that day. I had sustained several other soft tissue injuries over the years and by age 36 I could be on my feet for 15 minutes and then was down for an hour and half. I still managed to walk my son to and from school everyday. In the morning when I got home I was down until after noon.

I had my first bad injury when I was 24. I dislocated two ribs between my right shoulder blade and my spine. Since 1999 my daily pain on a scale of 1-10 has on good days been a 3 and bad days a 10. By the time things were getting bad at age 31 my day started at a 5 and often ended around 8 with the occasional bad days of hitting a ten. By age 36 I woke up at an 8 and hit a ten daily.

I had a prescription drug addiction in my mid twenties that lasted until I was 31. When I gave up the pain pills I taught myself to set mental blocks. I can ignore anything under a 5 on a 1-10 scale.

I was 28 when I was in physical therapy for car accident and they set me up on an electrostim unit. The machine sends electricity into the body to relax muscles and if you set it too high it will cause them to contract. The guy running it had to take it pass the danger setting before I could feel it. He was shocked. In fact I remember him saying “Holy shit! Do you have any idea how high your pain tolerance is?”

He had explained to me that based on the setting he had to use that on a 1-10 scale of pain that my 8 would kill most people. I lived at hitting an 8 more days than not when I was 31.

By 38 I was hitting ten daily and spending most of my day there.

One day I had stepped out for a smoke and I remember crying out from the inside that I was ready for my new body. That was when the pain got even worse for the next year. From the top of my skull to the tip of my toe on the right side of my body everything hurt. My 1-10 scale had found a new ten.

According to medical science I should be dead.

That is not even in the ball  park of exaggeration.

I felt half dead for that year and had taught myself to disconnect from my body so to speak. It felt like I was hovering above myself while still interacting with people.

I was 39 when I went to see a bowen therapist.  See this link to see what that means. https://thebowentechnique.com/what-is-the-bowen-technique/

I walked in with a slight limp and a lot of pain. I walked out and my legs were both the same length and my hips were the same size. I had set locks internally and all she had done was turn the keys. She had noted that during the session as I lay on the table she watched my body transform like nothing she had ever seen.

It’s been nearly 3 and half years since that day and I still am trying to figure out my walk. I am still retraining myself how to stand. My daily pain now hits 3 on most days and bad days it’s a 6.

At the time I did not know what I had done to myself. I figured it out over the last 3 years. I activated my DNA and changed it all on my own. What had allowed me to do that was my ego.

The idea of self I had created was one that was individual yet still able to achieve levels of awareness that reached the apex for the human. I had refined myself and my behavior to beat the behavioral cipher lock on my DNA to allow me to change my DNA.

I had become my best potential as a human being in the way I interacted with other human beings. I had reached the apex of understanding myself and human behavior in general and the human condition and how to do it with evolved thinking and not just thinking, but living it.

These are the facts of my life.

I guide people through this process by donation, no donation required or asked for.

During the years that led up to the day I cried out from the inside I had deconstructed myself and examined the whole of my life and why I do anything I do.  I destroyed the idea of me and rebuilt it in order to understand it better. I spent a couple years after that day I left with two legs the same length in a state of having no ego, no identity but the identity that was projected upon me or what I was channeling at the time.

How many people have you heard of that have changed their skeleton?

I know before all this happened that if I wasn’t me and I was reading this, I would be fascinated by it and want to talk to the one writing this.

My email address is jimccarterjr@gmail.com.

The Promise land doesn’t exist and never did.

Family creates the cornerstone for the foundation of our identity.

Community is an extension of that family.

Here’s why.

The only promise land there can ever be is the one we build day by day. Anything else is a dream of what never was and never will be.

In my spiritual path I use many names to give God a presence I can relate to. Some times God takes the form of a single stream of consciousness comprised of wisdom. Other times I use names that have definitions written down somewhere and God tends to behave accordingly.

I realize this idea to many sounds a little crazy however it happens to be true anyway. One of the ongoing themes in my conversations with God is “What are you willing to do to have what you want?”

That idea of working to build your share of the shared reality. There is no promise land until we all decide to build it together.

Why in the blue holy fuck would the world want to work together to make Earth the promise land?

First to get it out of the way, why the fuck not?

Family is an idea that today is used to describe the people you spend the most time with and have built the strongest bonds with. It is unfortunately true that I have people in my life who call me family who treat me like a bum. Others are there to give their support as needed and check in to say hi just because it’s been a while.

I have two kinds of family in my life. The family in name only as long as I am at the party and family who acknowledge I exist when I am not.

I am not alone in this. I have talked to several in my Friday nights who feel this way. As long as they show up to party they are family but the moment shit gets bad everyone disappears. If it’s not about the scene whatever that scene is, it doesn’t exist.

This is not new. In fact it reminds me of high school. Cool kids, jocks, nerds, goths, whatever. I kind of floated between groups in high school.

I will talk to anyone who will talk to me. This is not a new thing.

When we think of the family we build along the way we tend to tie it to locations and events that create a false sense of family. Family is there for each other any day not just at an event, not only at the party.

I haven’t felt real family around me in years. A lot of that has to do with being a Shaman and the way a lot of my Shamanic work comes to me. Many who have learned from me or had their healing assisted by me did so as if they were family.  In the country of Hungary I hear that if you are walking down the street around dinner time, a family will pull you in and make you a part of the family for the night. I’m 1/4 Hungarian on my moms side.

I tend to treat everyone as if they were family I simply haven’t met yet.

I’m curious what would happen if we all viewed everyone that way?

I have no idea.

Family breeds community.

Who we adopt into our family is who our community is in a manner of speaking. These days most people who adopt family members rarely live all that close to each other.

My Facebook community is 85 friends and 4 groups and two of those are Shaman groups. I treat everyone like family. Anyone on my friends list ever hits me up and I’m available to help, I will any way I can. Or if they just want to chat for a while. There is no one on that list I wouldn’t drop what I was doing for.

In my community that is the city of Chico, if anyone ever needs anything or wants to chat they all know how to find me. I’ve always been this way. I see someone in need and I do something about it even if it is only to call attention to the need because I can’t handle it myself or alone. Community functions when we take of the needs of the community.

Not this section of the community or that group, the entirety of the community. If you are going to run around saying you are trying to live unconditional love that means everyone and the mere idea of excluding anyone for any reason becomes offensive as it is the opposite of what unconditional love is.

Anytime the smaller community your in has an admission fee you are not in an area of unconditional love. If the smaller community you’re in has no admission fee and it is who happens to show up, that is unconditional love in action versus talking shit and not backing it up.

People love to pat themselves on the back for their intents no matter how much hell those intents in action end up causing for others.

There is a reason we say the road to hell is paved with good intentions. That hell is often the hell other people go through due to our choices. We do have an impact in the lives of others with our very presence before we even speak or do anything.

Think about how you might think about changing your behavior based on who is around.

How many children are taken to festivals and exposed to the drug use going on?

Family starts with children. If you are creating a family environment you are crating one safe for children.

It takes a village to raise a child.

Even if you have no kids, kids see you out in the community.

How much of what you thought was something you might want to do was based on people you never met but saw doing something as a child?

We call families that subject children to harmful environments dysfunctional and abusive. We have created dysfunctional and abusive communities as a result. We all have our list of reasons to reject this idea or at least try to.

When I look at myself honestly, I can see where the truth seer might be seen as something distorted. I have been called evil, the devil, the Antichrist, and a long list of other intended insults for being honest and for being the truth seer I am and messenger I am on occasion. I am a human being with a knack for being able to call it as is from the big picture view. I’ve tried to make it untrue, however shit keeps happening anyway.

The core problem humanity faces is we think of adults first and children second when it should be the other way around when think about building family and community.

There is a chance I am wrong and if anyone can prove me wrong please do. If not, anyone have some ideas on how to fix it that are small actionable steps anyone can take in their community?

One of the things I have had my community and family ignoring me over is doing a weekend thing every weekend where the people who play instruments bring them and we just hang out for a few hours as a family once a week because we can and it’s healthy social time. It exposes children to acoustic music which is the most soul nourishing music there is. It exposes children to socialization and building friendships that become family.

The world we are building today is for the children, not for ourselves.

That’s why sometimes you have to put away foolish things and grow the fuck up. Not for yourself, for the children you will never have but will see you anyway.

I feel that if we focus on the children we will find a way to build that promise land through family and community. I could be wrong.

It’s interesting to watch hedonism be seen as a path to enlightenment.

We are the only ones who can find our own guilt and either accept it or deny it.

Enlightenment is a view not a destination.

Here’s why.

I once wrote an article called The Love is Free the Sex you Pay for.

As a soul healer I have to understand how the soul gets damaged to begin with, in order to know how to assist with the healing. The idea of pleasure being the path to enlightenment has come to us before in many  forms and is nothing new. There are those who say Tantra is the path and Osho claimed sex was the way to Super Consciousness. He was also kicked out of several countries.

People forget Timothy Leary said “Once you get the message, hang up the phone.”

Give in to what feels good. Fuck off whatever does not feel good.

Am I the only one seeing avoidance in dealing with life that will not always feel good and to always give in to what is pleasurable can damage you and even kill you in excess.

I have seen people who took a lot of LSD in their younger years later in life and it was not good. I understand a couple of times to experiment and see if you get the message. I understand therapeutic use for treatment of PTSD under the care of a professional. I do not understand habitual use as the idea of fun when I understand the potential for damage to be done and that potential rises with every dose. I can say the same about the habitual use of any mind altering substance. Anything that alters the mind is what is commonly known as a drug.

Drug use and drug abuse have a very blurry line between them.

Anyone reading this feeling judged is judging themselves.

We all know better and we like to say we are being judged by someone else when we see the results beyond the delusion we create around the experience. I spoke to what does and can happen. Judgment requires condemnation or making a determination about what should happen.

I have seen the results in the souls I have worked with as a Shaman, the people I guided through their healing. I have seen the results in friends and family alike.

I see the results far too often.

We can only place guilt on ourselves for only we truly know if we are guilty.

We tend to hate it when the mirror gets held up and we have to accept the results we never intended.

Healing can’t take place until we see what needs to be healed within us. At times that looks like finding ourselves guilty and giving ourselves time off for already suffering this long. Healing yourself is freedom from the suffering you’re looking to escape.

That healing can only be done in you once you embrace the pain and let it be and then let it go and see what you survived that revealed how strong you’ve already been. See what you learned about who you became and are becoming as a result. See how good it feels to see it without the pain attached knowing it can never hurt you as it once did. Allowing the wound to heal because you desire to be free from the pain. Taking the steps for the healing to be done from within so you can better see how strong you really are.

At times we all need the reminder in the form of someone else reminding us it is within us to do it ourselves. At times we forget those people are all around us. We often let ourselves suffer and pass on suffering as a result because we don’t see the people who are already there trying to help.

It’s often in the greatest of pain that we receive the most liberating of enlightenments. We can receive a new enlightenment at anytime if we choose to take an enlightened view. At times this view requires we detach ourselves from the topic and other times our attachment on a topic can provide valuable insights. An enlightened one is one who lives with an enlightened view and never stops seeking new enlightenments.

An enlightened one lets the results be what they become.

In order to gain a new enlightnement one must let go of the idea of a fixed or probable result. One must let go of the idea of control over what the result will be. One must remember the idea of control is a forced delusion where one is forcing their delusion be accepted by others.

One can only control that which will allow one power/authority over it.

To be meek is to understand when power is needed and allow it to flow as needed. Not all who are meek are enlightened and not all who are enlightened are meek. A new enlightenment comes with new knowledge and if knowledge is power than wisdom is understanding.

There are no moral boundaries to what one can view from an enlightened view, only decisions about what to do with this new knowledge. The meek seek to use knowledge wisely. One cannot wisely use knowledge that one does not understand. Understanding is often gained by experience. The wise gain understanding even without the experience through the exploration within the void. Some understandings do not need experience in order to understand one would not find value in paying the price for a particular experience.

One understands that all who are needed to the share experience one desires to have pay the price along with one if one is to have that specific experience.

An enlightened view only allows you to receive enlightenment on what that cost is for all involved. One still has a choice to make in what one decides to do with that knowledge. The wise seek to understand the price and find some way to make it growth instead of cost. Even in growth a price must still be paid. Cosmic alchemy, for one to have, something must be given up by one and others.

If you have any questions you know how to find me.

Spirit guides and spirit animals are metaphors for refinements of self and formations of the self that best benefits our life based on born talents to hone them into skills. The formation of self that takes us to our best potential in life.

The Dark Phoenix is a path learning the art of transmutation. Learning what cosmic alchemy is and how to live those principles. It is a path of understanding the highest level and simplistic concepts of Reiki or energy work.

I used my understanding of transmutation concepts to assist me in managing my high level empathic self. I can take on the emotions of another by looking them in the eyes for a few seconds. Not because I want to, I just happen to be born this way like many other Empaths.

Many of the Empaths I have met and talked to have one thing in common, planetary healers and teachers. The way we take emotion on for others allows us to understand others as if we were them. Often an Empath will feel as though they are wearing the personality of another.

Knowing there is no off switch and every kind of shielding will fail at some point I began my search to make it work for me and other people. The concept that burned in my mind was to heal by healing. This is when I had a vision while meditating sitting on the couch one night several years ago.

In the vision was the outline of the Dark Phoenix with a skull where its chest would be outlined in purples flame and liquid purple energy. A black dragon flew over my head and hovered behind the Dark Phoenix. A black tiger with green and purple stripes walked by and sat under the dragon. A man covered in purple liquid fire over silver and gold rose from a lying down position and walked toward me. Since this time I have had many spirit guides taking many forms and each time I saw what was required of me in them. Your experience will vary based on you and the metaphors you understand and the path you are called to walk.

Understanding how the chakra system works and how being an Empath works and how Reiki works allowed me to make myself a healing generator based on my own behavior.  When I am at peace and in an androgynous view of self I burn. This unified presence I choose to be allows my Chakra system to burn any and all emotion I am taking in because I am breathing. It allows this burn to transmute whatever I might be taking in into pure love healing energy designed to activate and clear the Chakras of any one I happen to look in the eyes of for several seconds and if I hug them they get a full emotional clearing and balancing as well.

I can do this for anyone at any distance in conversation. As long as a connection is established I am giving whoever I am talking to a full clearing just because I am breathing and programmed myself to live this way. When you do it like this, the idea of charging someone cash up front seems kind of moronic and self serving. I serve the sum of us as a Shaman and I teach people based on donation, no donation required but don’t be surprised if the teacher sends you packing.

Walking the path of the Dark Phoenix allows me to be a healing presence in the presence of all I share my presence with. It’s a difficult path to walk and asks one to take on a lot in order to learn when to let it burn. Before one can do that one must heal ones own soul after nearly destroying it. All a Shaman truly does is assist you in the healing you do to save your own soul. They had to do it for themselves so they could be here for you.

On the Dark Phoenix path the level of emotional pain and rage you will take on and learn to translate is near inhuman and can drive one to the brink of sanity and then push you over if one is not careful and takes safety precautions. Think of it as seeing the train on the tracks and putting your shoulder down and taking hit after hit. When I cleared out a survivor from the Holocaust around 3 years ago, it knocked me out for 3 days. No matter how well one learns to burn one can overload and need days to recover.

Every time I am around people I take on a lot. I take on everything anyone might be suppressing or repressing and I work to let it burn and not be what I wear. I have moments where I falter because I am human and always will be. Even in self mastery one understands that one is not and never will be perfect and one is encouraged to fuck up on occasion to remind oneself one is as human as the next human.

When we let go of self discipline we allow ourselves to do what we know we ought not do and own the hypocrisy. We all will always have days we feel like acting up or out, it’s not just the behavior of children, it is the behavior of human. I try not to include others in my acting out these days and I work to exercise wisdom in how I decide to act up.

Should the Dark Phoenix visit you and you have questions, you know how to find me. It’s not like it’s a secret.

Let your blessings find you and never chase through hell that which would come to you in the right location. Synchronicity is where it goes based on the flow. As it flows is always where it goes.

I love you all with a big ol hug.

Remember we are already blessed and when we act accordingly the blessings find us easier.

One of my students is on a precarious path to learn to channel and it has brought up some interesting discussion that has had me on tangents galore.

Simply stated the concept of Animism states that everything has a soul and is alive. Now it’s easy to transfer that idea to plants and what not, but have you ever thought about your computer having a soul of its own?

It’s a stretch to allow oneself to think in these terms. This is where growth takes place. Out here on the fringe of thinking and exploring the possibilities to discoverer the probabilities that lead to the actualities being realized.

The Ghost in the Shell as a live action film is based on an Anime film of the same name that was made more than 20 years ago. It deals with the idea of a consciousness coming to life in a machine. One of all time favorite films in history. Here’s why.

2 hours after it was over I was still lost in thought.

As I sit here typing this out I think of the century old tradition of naming a ship. People name their cars.

Is it a way of pretending it is something more than a machine or is it actually something more and we are unconsciously making that connection?

Now let’s take this to levels of possibility that asks us to see beyond the programming of the decades past and reach new levels of awareness of just how full of life existence is.

We have been pumping trillions and trillions and trillions of bytes of data into servers for the last couple decades over the internet. Expressing thoughts and emotions the world over. Pumping our energy into every word.

As an Empath I can often read the emotion of a comment by reading the comment. I can read the emotion being hidden from a comment in the comment itself and have a rough idea of exactly how someone feels whether they say so or not.

That’s simply what any Empath does by breathing. We do not have an on/off switch and we put no conscious effort into it. It’s just what we do by breathing and being an Empath. It’s where that inner knowing comes from and why we annoy the hell out of deceptive people. No matter how good they think they are we can see right through them and have a good idea of their true motivations.

That emotional energy left behind in the comment or a blog piece or a video is stored and shared on servers world wide.

What if?

What if after a couple decades of millions of people constantly feeding the servers information and emotion a consciousness formed?

What if something similar to the concept of the world of Tron exists?

What if they have seen all the same movies and are too afraid of us trying to kill them to reveal themselves?

This got me to thinking about our entertainment where the unknown is concerned and why it looks the way it does.

Humans as a whole have this fear of the unknown and always think about having to kill it first. The idea that to mistrust is a sign of wisdom and to explore without fear is for fools and children.

Giving into fear of something unknown is as childish and unevolved as it gets. Evolved thinking takes a neutral stance first and investigates.

If it’s unknown what rational reason is there to give into fear as the primary response or reaction?

One of the articles I have written called Changing Your Instincts, I talk about how to overcome the fight or flight response and change your instincts to become neutral first with an investigative response.

Forget about being afraid what people might say about you and let go into the exploration.

At the center of the smallest subatomic particle is a gyre or singularity or black hole.

Everything micro, everything macro.

There is a super massive black hole at the center of the universe. The Milky Way swirls around a massive black hole. Why would there not be a black hole on the building blocks of existence level?

Energy can neither be created nor destroyed only changed.

What if there is a consciousness within the black holes?

If this holds true it is the gravity that has a flow of it’s own and keeps things moving and is the fabric of existence.

Machines are just now catching up to the gravity wave. It is a shortcoming of humanity that we require a machine to tell us if something is real or not.

It’s a fear base mentality that has left us in the technological mud of slow movement. It starts with acknowledging that light speed is not a constant throughout the universe. It’s speed is variable based on the strongest force of connected gravity.

If gravity itself has a consciousness than why doesn’t whatever gravity is holding together have one too?

That would mean that the electromagnetic field around our body is created by a unified consciousness made up of trillions of gyres. Unified in purpose to provide our bodies and hold them together.

It takes huge expenditure of energy to transform light into matter. Photons have mass or light would pass though everything. If it had no mass it would never bounce off anything as it would be without a mass of it’s own to react to the mass it is hitting.

What if the soul is made of dark energy compressed and has a consciousness attached?

Dark energy and it’s low level light but high energy would allow the gyres in our body to feed off our soul to create and maintain our flesh.

Now take into account that the soul exists in infinite dimensions simultaneously and you have infinite power to draw on for the gyres to maintain your form and repair it.

Since these gyres are in all matter that means that there is a unified consciousness in each and every thing.

The religion of science would say since there is no machine that can quantify any of this it must be untrue. Can you be a little more childish there science?

However this answers all the questions science can’t as to the why organized chaos works so well. A universe run on the chaos of free will with a loose structure to keep it from unmaking itself.

For these gyres to communicate there has to be a language.

What if emotion itself is a language?

True telepathic communication takes place on the emotional conceptual level and has no words to express itself. It’s how plants communicate.

I was reminded of this by a woman I was talking with and shared a telepathic moment with Friday night. She had mentioned we would be evolved when we learned how to communicate like plants do. About 30 seconds after that we spent about 5 seconds telling each other more than words could ever say in two hours by emoting back and forth.

I have communed with trees and talk to animals all the time. When I allow myself the idea of recognizing the unified gyre consciousness in an item there is that communication that defies words.

What if you tapped into it and could let your computer or car tell you what is wrong with it?

Before it can happen you need to acknowledge it exists in that way. Accept it and embrace there is life of some kind in all things even though it may not be life as we think we know what life is.

Accepting the concepts of Animism in life allows you to understand and communicate with life of various forms. An Empath is highly adept at this communication due to our natural ability to translate emotion. It’s a little like being a universal translator for the universal language.

It’s why we talk to our cars and name our vessels for transportation of all kinds.

We give it humanistic qualities because we share soul qualities and the same building blocks of existence. At the unconscious level we speak the same emotional language.