When the lines dissappear

And the lines disappeared from view

It was there keeping one as two

When the walls come down and one and one meet

That is where we find life’s treat

Not in solitude all alone

In connection showing that we’ve grown

While solitude serves a purpose and is good for self reflection

You can’t be alone and build connection

Take the time to sort one out

Then take one out and about

Make eye contact and speak with kindness

Don’t allow yourself to develop solitude blindness

When alone we are blind

To all who would be kind

We take ourselves away

At times we need the break from the fray

Our true strength is in synergy

Nothing can top that energy

Two working as one

Whether it’s for work or for fun

It takes more than one to build any given thing

If no one hears it why even sing

If no one reads

Why let it bleed

If no one hears what is being said

One might as well be dead

A ghost never seen

That sounds kind of mean

Yes one should be whole in and of oneself

That does not mean we put all others on the shelf

It means one makes one whole to be better partner in the moment

When one and one share a comment

Let the comment grow into conversation

Who knows it could lead to elation

 

End of the innocence/Ignorance

I have often been guilty of my own ignorance that once realized stole my innocence.

It’s why I say forgiveness is gift you give to yourself to let God deal with it. Forgiving oneself is as important as forgiving others. Where we run into issues as human beings is when we don’t change the behavior that has us seeking forgiveness to begin with.

An apology with no change in behavior is an excuse to keep up the abuse.

When I have found myself guilty due to my own ignorance that means new information has been presented to remove my bliss filled ignorance and I see how guilty I have been though up until that moment I would have found me innocent. I’m no saint or holy sacred what the fuck ever. I might be a servant of God however I have sinned in mighty ways. It takes one to know one and understand what led one into the moment now shared.

When I did go to Church way back when I always looked for a pastor that had been a mighty sinner. I wanted someone who could relate to what I might seek guidance for should I feel the need.

I had my last one night stand around 2 years ago. Afterward she started talking about making me a real prostitute and her being my pimp. I have kept myself from having a one stand ever since. I had never felt so cheap and used.

In my twenties I would have thought that was the coolest thing that could ever happen. At 43 and as a man who has embraced his path, there is no way I could not feel like walking dildo at that moment and she had stripped the idea of my humanity from who I had become in her eyes.

I did not study Tantra to be celibate, however I understand soul health well enough to understand why I choose monogamy and why I am picky as hell.

In my twenties I acted out of ignorance.

I have changed my behavior and my behavioral outlook.

I forgive me for having my twenties.

I am nowhere near innocent, however I have refined myself based on the ideas of being healthy emotionally as well as physically and remembering that emotional health is a key identifier in soul health. If I am not living at keeping my soul healthy how in the blue holy fuck can I guide anyone into better soul health.

A Shaman is a soul healer and to become Shaman one must take on great illness and heal oneself from it. There have times in my life where my soul was as sick as any soul could be. OK so anyone of us has the potential to fuck our lives up at some point and do some shit.

Everyone of us has the power to make changes in behavior and to stop doing the stupid shit that fucks us up. We find ourselves guilty often and forgive ourselves without changing behavior too easily. I did it for years before I took it seriously and started changing me.

Living with total awareness means I have a good idea of the effect before I ever allow the words to escape my lips or allow myself to be moved into action. I hold myself accountable and my innocence only goes as far as my ignorance and the view others take of my words and actions.

We all tell the story of each other and how each is perceived by each other. We don’t think about it in those terms. We are too stuck in our life and how it effected us to realize we might have made an impact in the life or lives of others. It’s something I still struggle with because I’m human.

It’s all part of the condition of being human. A soul wrapped in flesh to have a human adventure.

Live in ignorance if you choose and realize your innocence is only a delusion kept in place by your choice to remain ignorant.

Ask yourself one question and take it on a journey.

What is the total cost of my life to all that exist and have existed up until right now?

 

What other people think about you is your business

If it’s about you then yes it is your business to know however you have a choice as to whether or not you let it bother you.

We have a responsibility to ourselves and to others with how we choose to use our words and when we talk about other people we are taking on the responsibility of telling their story and allowing what we have to say influence how other people think and feel about them.

No one has the right to lie about another and inflict harm on their life by doing so. Whether you care or not, what other people think and say about you will impact your life.

How many people have you not met because of what other people have said about you?

How many opportunities have you missed because of what people have said about you?

The story of you is shaped more by other people than it is by you.

While the sound fades out, the signal that is your voice never stops and the emotion of the words and the concepts tied to them travel and are felt by all worldwide. This is the basis of intuition.

This is how the 100th Monkey effect works. Emotional concepts that are picked up by the subconscious and stored until it becomes relevant information at the conscious level.

This sometimes can feel as though you had an idea pop up out of nowhere that leads to what is a new realization for us, however is something we have been getting hit with at the subconscious level for an untold amount of time.

It can look like a behavioral change that is subtle and goes unnoticed at first. This is how we do things behind our back in front of our faces and it is influenced by all we take in. We take it all in however are rarely if ever consciously aware of it.

This means we have felt the shit people have been talking behind our backs. This means we have felt the emotions they have aimed at us. These things can and do have an impact on us. For an Empath it is nearly impossible for us to not be aware of how anyone feels about us. We feel it with you.

If you are trying to repress or suppress it, we feel it for you. There is no hiding how you feel from an Empath.

I don’t care how scary that is for anyone, it is true and you all need to grow the fuck up and accept this truth. I say need because until it happens and people like my self are accepted for who we are the world inflicts much suffering upon us. Think of it as being bullied about being gay and told it’s a mental illness or that it can be fixed or reversed.

I once led a discussion in front of a group of over 500,000 on Linked in concerning people like me and even started designing the test to prove our existence offering myself up to be the guinea pig. I hate the idea of being a guinea pig, however if it puts an end to the suffering being inflicted on many I would do it without thinking twice.

There are millions of people around the world who know exactly how you feel about them even if they are never around when you talk about them. There are people like myself who always know what you think of them.

The power of disbelief gives you the ability to think you are not creating suffering by the way you talk about others behind their back. It gives a delusion built on self imposed ignorance to not feel guilty about impacting the lives of the people you talk about.

It’s why I say if you can’t say something nice, make damn sure it’s true.

If you can’t say it to their face why are you saying anything to begin with?

 

 

Researching life, the Universe and most things

Somethings will always remain a mystery.

I try and think of all the research I have done in terms of reading and I find why I write so much. It’s all a blur because there is so much taking it in I have done since my mom taught me to read by age 4. Trying to backtrack through it all is looking back through years of time spent reading what other people wrote.

These days when I want to research something I often find it more useful to find someone to talk to who has done the research. As a Telepath I am able to understand on the emotional conceptual level that does not need a lot of detail.  I often find I make jumps in understanding that are shared in the moment with people who have studied what I have not. It’s weird being able to make leaps forward in understanding and take concepts in new directions without having to study.

Here’s why that is not an arrogant statement.

I have studied so much in so many various directions that I find while I have not studied the same details, the concepts I have explored in other ways. When you take a moment to think about all language being metaphorical, translating from one metaphor to another is something I have learned to do naturally. When engaged with someone I will typically let go and allow them to guide my words at the subconscious level to ensure they understand what I’m talking about.

In a recent video session on Skype that looked like me being told I was answering the questions in their mind without them having to ask. Instead of actively seeking, I passively receive. I work at being noninvasive and limiting what I am aware of at the conscious level unless invited in. I had to work at creating those filters. I spent nearly 4 decades seeing it anyway and seeing all any would want to hide. I call it a living nightmare. I created the filters for my own sake as much as I did it to give people some sense of privacy in their own heads.

What scares me is the others who can do it who do not apply the integrity that is part of my definition of self by choice. I will be honest, the temptation always exists to peer further than invited just because I can. I’m human.

I daydream sometimes about a school that I teach at where I teach integrity as part of managing any natural born ability. Currently people are learning in groups on Facebook from people who feed off the idea of power that goes with owning one of these groups. There are other places that are more responsible however many are being manipulated in groups on Facebook.

People like me need something formalized that has a structure to it. Right now by not acknowledging us the world allows those without integrity to do more damage daily than anyone might want to admit to.

I use my natural born abilities to continue to research life, the Universe and most things. Not everyone that has my abilities has my integrity or my dedication to being a Shaman and serving the sum of all of us equally.

The power of disbelief makes it even easier for those with my abilities to go unnoticed in their manipulations of those around them. In studying, I never found much research that was real when it comes to people like me.

If anyone would like to fund that research please hit me up.

If anyone would like to fund that school, please hit  me up.

If you’re really bored and want someone interesting to talk to, hit me up and let’s see how the first 5 minutes go.

The power of disbelief

It is the second most powerful thing in the universe. Disbelief makes one even easier to manipulate. Here’s why.

The lie is too pretty to not be true and the truth is often so ugly we fear it. We choose ignorance for the bliss it provides instead of facing the ugly truth and feeling the need to do something about it and then feeling powerless when more often than not there is nothing we can do. No one likes feeling powerless to do something about something they feel strongly about.

We are quick to disbelieve what one might be capable of for a variety of reasons however I find the tie for number one is because either we can’t see ourselves doing it or and some times even worse, we can see ourselves doing it, whatever the it is. The things that terrify me the most are the things I know I am capable of. I have lived my entire life being able to see your life through your memories and experience as you. I have relived every kind of horror you never want to think about much less maybe admit to living through. Things you may have had to do that you wish you could forget or even worse you miss them.

We don’t want to believe some things because it makes the world a lot scarier. We begin to feel smaller and less significant. We feel powerless.

My first mother in law had this cross stitch on her fridge that read “Faith is not faith until it is all you are holding onto.”

Thanks Linda.

That quote got me through a lot of tough times in life. These days I have come to see faith from a different view. I have had blind faith and I have had false faith and I have lived true faith that has been rewarded.

What is faith really?

I have an usual set of skills that put my faith to the test with every word that passes trough my lips. Try to imagine letting someone speak on your behalf as you. If you’re having trouble, I get it. Now take a moment and realize it makes it that much easier for me to channel and no one notices.

When I channel face to face I can believe it’s hard to believe what’s happening. I question my mental health daily and some days hourly. Crazy people don’t know they are crazy.

Our race is evolving at the genetic level and that’s why I can do all the stuff I can do that people have hard believing. I may be a servant of God as a Shaman however it is not a requirement to be an Empath or a Telepath or a Medium and these are genetic traits not spiritual bonds or gifts that are in accordance with prophecy, it’s evolution.

If you are out there and you need help learning to manage a genetic trait that has you feeling like no one will understand, please hit me up.

I live and breathe to help others like myself come to terms with it and learn how to manage it. I never ask for a thing for that work. That’s my passion work.

My other passion is story telling. I have a list of projects that include a graphic novel I need an artist for, a script I need 6 weeks alone in the middle of no where to write, a cartoon I need a co-writer who is emotionally 12 to help me flush out and a few fictional books I need solitude for to write.  I have one autobiography to write that I can’t stand writing.

I love the art of writing fiction.

I love blog writing.

I hate writing an entire book about me.

I love editing scripts. I have been doing that for Pete Conrad at Suicidal Flower Productions for a few years. Back in the day when I was writing under the name The Movie Whore I did a lot of free script work for a lot of independent no budget film makers. It is passion work I dearly miss.

I happen to be a Shaman and I just happen to be able to do all this weird shit but in my heart I am a creative producer always looking for a new project to get going and hand off to someone else to do something with.

Synergy is two more more coming together to produce more than any one can produce alone. In concept anyway.

I live for creative synergy in life.

I live for learning and growth synergy in life.

I live for synergy in life.

Believe it or not.

 

You know when you’re not free….

….when you are afraid of pissing off someone. That person is someone you have given control over you to.

The first amendment guarantees the freedom of speech as does the human bill of rights that the UN drew up.

With free speech comes a few things.

  1. Responsibility: Holding oneself accountable for what one says and how one says it.
  2. Toleration: Unpopular speech is still protected under free speech.
  3. Patience and empathy: It takes one to engage the other.

I once swore an oath to uphold the freedom of speech with my life should the need arise. I swore to uphold that oath against all enemies both foreign and domestic. An attack on free speech is an attack on the foundation of the constitution and the foundation of any civilized society.

I am a pacifist and do not ave any interest in any violent action, in fact the opposite I often say to forget the hate and heal the pain that caused it so we can all get along.

I often say remember we’re all blessed and oh what a day it would be if we all acted like it.

I get pissed the fuck off some days at the sate of the world and understanding exactly why it looks the way it does. I do not always deal with that well. I am human. One thing I never tolerate is name calling and bullies. Trump is a bully who I saw on the news is in a name calling war with someone. This is the president of the United States and he is involved in high school antics. What in the  blue holy fuck is going on?

As a veteran who swore to uphold the constitution I have to hear about Trump wanting to take away the freedom of expression from NFL players who decide to kneel at football games. How am I not supposed to see the president as an enemy of the constitution he swore to uphold and I swore to defend.

A couple decades ago Chevy Chase and Richard Pryor did a sketch where they used racial slurs towards each other in an escalating fashion. They did this sketch on Saturday Night Live. I saw on Linkedin that some dude on SNL called Trump a cheap cracker and they were really pissed off about it.

SNL has made fun of people for decades and it’s kind of their job. Is it racist, hell yes. Do I give a fuck, hell no. Here’s why.

Someone had to tell me they guy was black. Race only matters if you let it and making your race matter over and beyond the fact of being human is an act of racism in and of itself. It negates true human equality in favor of making one special due to skin pigment. I have DNA from Africa, Asia, The Middle East and all over Europe and Cherokee Indian. What the fuck do I care about race.

I don’t get why the rest of you make such a big deal about it. Having no cultural history to use as a way to identify myself allows me a great freedom and allows me to see the prison that cultural history is for so many and for our race that keeps us from embracing a pro human first view.

I have been really stressed lately and have been taking some time off and got really bored today and decided fuck it I am going to scroll social media for the day. I think a few people are praying I never get really bored again.

If you know my history with beBee.com and that I was once a brand Ambassador for the social network, you also know it was the CEO Javier told me he was OK with other brand ambassadors slandering me. The screenshot showed up in several places on Linkedin today and each time it was relevant. In particular when it was on an article that showed up in my feed by Jim Murray, the one who had been slandering me that Javier defended.

Thanks to John Vaughn and Robert Bacal my fellow banned Bees for their continued support.

They were banned for using their freedom of speech to ask the CEO about discrepancies in their stats and how they are reported. It turns out that the numbers for views and stuff you see on beBee are greatly padded. I banned myself from beBee when in my final email to Javier I said “With all the respect your community has shown me, go fuck yourself.”

I have my moments I own however I am not proud of. I am human.

We all have those moments.

It’s a good thing to work at limiting how many of them we have. I often say that on occasion losing one’s patience is a good thing however never make a habit of it.  I often say patience exercised is patience cultivated.

“Patience leads to understanding but first one must find the view from in between where one is detached from all and sees oneself as other sees one. 

Only in engaging in empathy can one be truly mindful and aware of how one might be perceived based on one’s projection of self in the moment. It takes experience to build that understanding that is the basis of all wisdom. “

For those wanting to keep track, that last bit there was channeled and as much a reminder for me as a lesson for any who might see it for the first time. Or a reminder to those who may understand it in different words and different metaphors.

I think I have talked about it enough that maybe you all are ready for me to point out what is channeled as it is channeled. If not, too bad, grow up and deal with it.

This is why I often say I learn by teaching because as I have channeled over the years I have also paid attention to what has passed through me and learned along with my students and others.

It’s why I love spending one on one time with people and taking a view of existence through their eyes for a while. The ones I enjoy the most are the ones who are ready for the veil to drop and then I can relax even more. It’s a traumatic awakening for most when they hit it. It’s nice for them to have me around and I know because I didn’t have a me and I went through some unneeded hell because of that.

Part of the Shamanic path is to guide oneself out so one can be a guide to others on their journey no matter where they are on it. A Shaman is one who wanders the dark to help the lost find their way. A Shaman is one who shows up and demons start backing up. Even the best Shaman can only do so much to interfere if one refuses to change the behavior that brings the demons to begin with.

This is spiritual metaphor for any harmful behavior in a lot of ways. Our own lust for life can feel like a demon of its own, however it is simply part of being human. I might serve God however I stand on the side of humanity and question God daily. I have dealt with the Devil and beat him at his own game and still he is damn good at what he does. When you dance with the Devil and it doesn’t change you, that’s when you don’t mind cutting in to save someones ass if you can. This again is all metaphor for the lusts that life brings to us in the form of temptation that leads to harming the soul and a Shaman is a soul healer.

It also means on occasion you disappear for a few months here and there. Few will understand and those who do have followed me for a long time.

I am not writing as much as I have been known to over the last few years. For about 3 years in 3 different blogs and then on bBee I was averaging 3 pieces a day 6 days a week.

I’m tired.

 

I did what?

Back in 1987 I was 13 and they noticed my right leg was shorter than my left leg. I was taken in and given X-Rays and all that jazz and it showed not only was my right leg shorter, my right hip was bigger than my left one.

I had adjusted naturally to the 3/4 of an inch difference and it went unnoticed by most. When I was 17 and I was getting my physical for my enlistment into the U.S. Air Force the Dr noticed. Had it not been for some fast talking on my part he was considering barring me from entering the military because of my short leg.

It wasn’t until I was in my 30’s that it ever really became a problem. Over the years it caused a slow twisting of the nerves in my lower spine. By the time I was 34 I could only get a couple hours on my feet before I was in a lot of pain. If had to drive for a couple hours I was done for the day.

Things deteriorated fast at that point and over the next two years if I went grocery shopping that was all I did that day. I had sustained several other soft tissue injuries over the years and by age 36 I could be on my feet for 15 minutes and then was down for an hour and half. I still managed to walk my son to and from school everyday. In the morning when I got home I was down until after noon.

I had my first bad injury when I was 24. I dislocated two ribs between my right shoulder blade and my spine. Since 1999 my daily pain on a scale of 1-10 has on good days been a 3 and bad days a 10. By the time things were getting bad at age 31 my day started at a 5 and often ended around 8 with the occasional bad days of hitting a ten. By age 36 I woke up at an 8 and hit a ten daily.

I had a prescription drug addiction in my mid twenties that lasted until I was 31. When I gave up the pain pills I taught myself to set mental blocks. I can ignore anything under a 5 on a 1-10 scale.

I was 28 when I was in physical therapy for car accident and they set me up on an electrostim unit. The machine sends electricity into the body to relax muscles and if you set it too high it will cause them to contract. The guy running it had to take it pass the danger setting before I could feel it. He was shocked. In fact I remember him saying “Holy shit! Do you have any idea how high your pain tolerance is?”

He had explained to me that based on the setting he had to use that on a 1-10 scale of pain that my 8 would kill most people. I lived at hitting an 8 more days than not when I was 31.

By 38 I was hitting ten daily and spending most of my day there.

One day I had stepped out for a smoke and I remember crying out from the inside that I was ready for my new body. That was when the pain got even worse for the next year. From the top of my skull to the tip of my toe on the right side of my body everything hurt. My 1-10 scale had found a new ten.

According to medical science I should be dead.

That is not even in the ball  park of exaggeration.

I felt half dead for that year and had taught myself to disconnect from my body so to speak. It felt like I was hovering above myself while still interacting with people.

I was 39 when I went to see a bowen therapist.  See this link to see what that means. https://thebowentechnique.com/what-is-the-bowen-technique/

I walked in with a slight limp and a lot of pain. I walked out and my legs were both the same length and my hips were the same size. I had set locks internally and all she had done was turn the keys. She had noted that during the session as I lay on the table she watched my body transform like nothing she had ever seen.

It’s been nearly 3 and half years since that day and I still am trying to figure out my walk. I am still retraining myself how to stand. My daily pain now hits 3 on most days and bad days it’s a 6.

At the time I did not know what I had done to myself. I figured it out over the last 3 years. I activated my DNA and changed it all on my own. What had allowed me to do that was my ego.

The idea of self I had created was one that was individual yet still able to achieve levels of awareness that reached the apex for the human. I had refined myself and my behavior to beat the behavioral cipher lock on my DNA to allow me to change my DNA.

I had become my best potential as a human being in the way I interacted with other human beings. I had reached the apex of understanding myself and human behavior in general and the human condition and how to do it with evolved thinking and not just thinking, but living it.

These are the facts of my life.

I guide people through this process by donation, no donation required or asked for.

During the years that led up to the day I cried out from the inside I had deconstructed myself and examined the whole of my life and why I do anything I do.  I destroyed the idea of me and rebuilt it in order to understand it better. I spent a couple years after that day I left with two legs the same length in a state of having no ego, no identity but the identity that was projected upon me or what I was channeling at the time.

How many people have you heard of that have changed their skeleton?

I know before all this happened that if I wasn’t me and I was reading this, I would be fascinated by it and want to talk to the one writing this.

My email address is jimccarterjr@gmail.com.

 

 

 

Coming out of the Basement

It has been too often in life when I am talking to people about my abilities as an Empath, Telepath and a Medium that I am treated as if I am a freak who should be locked up in the basement and never spoken of. I’m not alone in this. I call being public about what I am able to do as coming out of the basement.

If I had one thing that is why I do everything it is eventually building a school for Empaths and what not so they can learn how to manage and harness their natural born abilities and turn them into skills.

We can’t stop evolution or make it go away because we don’t want to believe it’s true. The sooner we start teaching those born with these abilities how to manage them, the better their life can be.

Today many go through life not knowing and/or are lying to themselves about what happens in their life. I was one of them for 37 years. I spent the first 37 thinking there was something wrong with me or that I was crazy. It’s been 6 years. I spent the first year saying to myself “I do what.?” I never wanted it to be true. I knew how people would react for the most part.

I’m a Telepath I have a real good idea of how people are going to react in advance.

The idea of there being someone I could keep nothing from scares me and I am one of those people you can’t keep anything from. It’s why I spent the first year trying to make it untrue.

I have lost everything for coming out of the Basement and being honest about what I am able to do since birth. I know others who have lost everything for being honest about natural abilities they have. Our numbers our growing with the birth rate. It’s evolution. In a few decades 99% will be like me.

Several years ago I started writing Peace Lords, a piece of fiction. I was writing it however based on looking forward into our future 40 years from now. Not a certain future a possible future. I have often seen the future in visions and dreams throughout my life and I often keep that part of my life to myself.

The future is ever changing based on the choices made in the now.

This means the ultimate power in the Universe is the power to choose. It’s a power we forsake far too easily because of the responsibility of owning the results of our choices. Deciding to do nothing is still a choice made. Our choices impact the lives of others.

Right now the choice of many is making life for the few like me difficult at best and at some point in time we are going to be the many. If you don’t plan for the future and take part in creating the destiny of humanity, you allow others to take that power as their own.

I keep asking myself one question while writing my autobiography “Why am I doing this?”

There are children who need instruction in how to manage these abilities who are not getting it. There are children being misdiagnosed and their abilities being treated as a condition. There are more and more of these children being born daily. That’s how evolution works and we are jumping forward as a species.

To foster this jump forward we need to start now with an evolution of thought. That begins with seeing one human race and finding ways to bring this world together. If things continue as they are we are going to nuke our species out of existence.

I barely pay attention to the news and read the writing on the wall. The only way for us to save our own asses is to set our differences aside and build on our one commonality, we are all human beings and the Earth is our home.

I have DNA in me from every continent except Australia. In a world where we care so much about cultural history and who started out where, where does someone like me fit in?

Where does an Empath, Telepath and Medium fit in?

I was once kicked out of the local Stonewall office for being straight and I had shown up to give free Reiki sessions and lessons. The woman who asked me to me leave was so mean, down right hostile about it that I was the one in tears as I left. She had completely missed the part where I talked being an Empath and tasting the sting of discrimination and people treating me differently before she got angry that I was straight and told me I was not welcome and only gays and transgender were welcome.

The Bassmint (Not a typo) is a what happens on Friday nights at The Golden Place Chinese restaurant.  They turn the place into a DJ dance club. I met more than a few Empaths and Mediums and a couple who can do even freakier shit like me, however I still didn’t fit in.

I do not support psychedelic use as a sound path to awakening and activating your DNA. I have seen the results up close and personal and the abuse going on now is destroying minds and lives.

I do not support a polyamorous lifestyle and see it for the hedonism it is and as a Shaman who does deep soul healing I can tell you for a fact that having multiple sexual partners weakens your soul and gives pieces of your soul away.

Not morals, just happens to be how it actually works.

I don’t judge people for their past or having one. So much of what we keep to ourselves is because of the many who will judge. Over the years I have worked with PTSD cases of every kind. I have seen every kind of nightmare this world can produce in the life of a human being and taken on the pain caused by it as if it was my own. I have seen the memories and relived them as my own. I never wanted to, I was just born doing it with no off switch.

What mastering my abilities has allowed me to do is help people heal from the worst things no one should ever have to experience. It is something an Empath is adept at naturally. Empaths are born healers and peace makers. Our ability to read the truth makes us perfect for negotiations and our ability to take on all the emotion in a room can make sure cooler heads prevail.

Having our natural born abilities accepted is the only thing that will allow us to help.

I’m writing the book to help with the education process and the sales from all my books go towards building that school for Empaths.

My son is one of these kids who needs a school like this. I have friends all over the country and world who have kids who need a school like this.

My other dream is to open a non religious theology center that is a repository for spiritual teachings from around the globe that allows people to come in and study what they want and there are people on staff to answer questions only and not preach.

The big dream is the Artist and Science and Technology complexes. Self sustaining complexes that offer a variety of community services to include, but not limited to, free classes in various arts and areas of science and technology. These complexes have their own farm and the really big dream is to build them all over and have them networked together as the Global Arts Network and The Global Science and Technology Network.

The epic mega happy happy joy joy dream is to have The Suicide Flowers made the exact way Pete and I have talked about doing it for the last too many years. We have a marketing plan we want to try that has the virtue of not being done and having the film that is the perfect vehicle for the process.

I’m also a Producer at Suicidal Flower Productions. I just gave The Survival of the Sparrows in script for the twice over. If you don’t go over it at least twice when editing you are only doing half the work.

I am available for piece work on script editing and work on a sliding scale with your budget for editing services.

Every thing I make goes into my dreams and making them come true. As you can see even the one semi-selfish dream involves someone else and it’s the guy who wrote the last book I ever read cover to cover.

For Reiki and Shamanic guide sessions I will always work by donation, no donation necessary or asked for.

Soul readings with Soul Art are done by commission and include a session. You’re paying for the art and a lifetime of guidance that comes with each piece that has a lesson buried within the design.

I do a lot of different stuff while working on my dreams. The one thing I don’t do is fart on the snare drum.

 

 

Words have no meaning without action

Words have no meaning if they are not backed up by action.

It takes more than words to create change. If one seeks to make change one seeks to change oneself and become an example of what that change looks like.

I had a conversation today with my sons maternal grandfather. The two of us really do not like each other that much however I can not invalidate the wisdom of his words due to personal feelings based on history or I am a fucking hypocrite.

The history of what led to us not being big fans of each other is not important in the now where it is about my son, his grandson and making sure he knows he is loved and that we have his best interest at heart and in mind and in action.

We were discussing the state of the world and what is wrong with it and why and how we got here and if it can be fixed for my sons generation so their children have it better than my son does.

I have long since forgiven my 2nd wife and her parents for the past and it seems they have been able to do the same as we had a pleasant visit and stories of the past were shared with laughter and my son got to witness grown ups setting aside differences and working at getting along.

We live in a world centered around adults and their desires with very little concern for how it effects the children. I have said before, it doesn’t matter if you have no kids, you are still an example and a role model to any child who sees you.

When I was talking to my son today I told him he has been what brings out the best in me to make sure I give him a good example and role model. We also talked about how important it is to me that he understands that I have no desire for him to ever be a clone of me and that it is OK for him to have different preferences than me.

I want him to grow figure out who he is and desires to be and that I will always be there for guidance when he needs or wants it. My son is quite intelligent and at age 12 was giving us his political views at one point and they were worth hearing. He showed he is able to form his own opinions with out simply repeating something he heard or read.

Living my last article and watching my son live up to something he has never read but has always seen in me and the way I engage with people.

One thing I cannot tolerate above all else is my own hypocrisy whether it is me or someone else that catches me in it. How can I be intolerable of the hypocrisy of others if I allow it within myself.

I hold myself accountable and responsible for my words and backing them up with action. If someone has to notice than I have failed to live to my potential. It does happen on occasion because I am as human as the next human.

I have studied enough of the worlds religions that I can feel real comfortable in saying that those who use their religion as an excuse for violence are hypocrites.

I have studied enough history to understand every empire falls and usually it is at a high cost in the lives lost and the suffering that led to that fall and ensues after.

I have studied enough history to understand that class systems eventually degrade and cause suffering within the system in order to maintain the system.

I have studied enough to understand that to elevate any, many others must be held down.

In order to have a class system you have to be able to determine who is worthy and who is not and create inequality through this set of standards for who measures up and who does not. In order for a class system to work entitlement is part of that. This group is entitled for this reason and that group is entitled to this or that for these reasons.

The concepts are this simple and complex mechanisms are put in place through behavioral programming so that it becomes the norm and people rarely if ever think to question it. Part of that behavioral programming must include systems of abuse in order to punish those who dare buck the system.

No one has a right to luxurious living and no one should be made to feel inferior for any reason.

A short while ago someone told me they felt inferior to me because of what I was able to explain and my response was to tell him I was jealous he could play guitar and write music. Something I have attempted many times without success in the endeavor. Neither of us is inferior or superior, we merely have different abilities in different areas.

In a lot of what I write I try to keep it to the concepts however if asked I can provide details on personal life experience to back up what led to my choice of expression.

The most disturbing part of today’s conversation was when I had to admit the man I was sitting across from had a valid point I did not like.

Those who rule through oppression and violence cannot be taken down from their places of self given power without being forced to do so in some violent fashion. I don’t like that that statement has an air of truth to it. I am a pacifist because I am well trained martial artist.

I avoid violence as a way of life and always have, however I have trained to defend my own life if needed. I have always felt that if I ever have to use violence to defend myself, I fucked up about six steps ago and need to evaluate how to avoid finding myself in that situation again. I have had to use the martial arts training in a physical way once and it was enough to remind me why I choose pacifism.

I often imagine a world where violence is not such a daily occurrence that it fills our news outlets worldwide. I often imagine a world without countries where we live as one united world. I often imagine a world of equality for all people.

I was proud of myself today when at one point in the discussion I was told I sounded like John Lennon. For the remainder of the day I had a set of lyrics running through the back of my mind.

All we are saying is give peace a chance.

While history shows that it has taken acts of violence to bring down those who oppress others, I find the truth is that it can be done peacefully and that we simply have not figured out how to do that yet.

It takes change and that change starts within and living it and being an example of it in action.

The future belongs to the dreamers and those who will become the change the world needs for the children to create better and for their children to create better and their children and so on.

The dreamers need help from the doers who need a path to explore in living to bring those dreams to reality.

It takes those who have different abilities to work in synergy to build for the future that creates a new world that is brave enough to let go of the past and embrace the unknown.

I imagine a lot as a writer of fiction who is working on several new books. A lot of writers have imagined that brave new world where we dare to be different than we have been and grow to surpass the confines of repeating history.

Now we need action more than ever if we are ever to turn our world around and let the evolution of thought bring about an evolution in society to unite our world.

This here is the only action I can take on my own. It might not be much but at least I know I am doing what I can.

Who will join the dreamers of today to build the better world of tomorrow in the present?

Who will let go of the past and venture off into the unknown with us to build it and make it known?

Who will join us in change?

 

 

Tradition

Tradition has done much to retard growth for humanity.

Here’s why.

It keeps people locked into defining their identity based on traditions.

It creates cultural stagnation where no growth takes place.

Look at the evidence that is humanity.

People the world over cling on to traditions based in history and religion and act as if these things are worth killing and dying for.

I was one of them once upon a time. The I let go of it all.

What I found through experience was that things that I thought were sacred were actually trappings that limited my understanding of life the universe and most things.

What experience taught me was that to hold on to something because some people decided a long time ago it should be held sacred for all time is that all I did was keep segregation alive within me.

A wise one takes it all in and makes up their own mind and a fool follows a crowd, pick a crowd

It takes strength of will and a desire to truly grow to tell the crowd to fuck themselves. It takes a weak will to follow a crowd because one desires acceptance and is wiling to compromise to gain it.

This means that yes indeed I have zero respect and reverence for ancient teachings and ancient tradition of all kinds and find any who follows them because they think ancient shit in the only way to go is a great fool and is wandering blindly without ever thinking for themselves.

The only power anything has over us is the power we give it. The only meaning sacred teachings have is the meaning we give it. Those who don’t learn from history are doomed to repeat it.

Until you can put in your own words you don’t understand it. A lesson I learned from family as a child.

Can anyone show me how any ancient teaching has brought unity to this world?

No you can’t, because none of them have.

Most of them are based in duality which is a low vibrating state of being. It’s a way of life that keeps one blind to the fact that the only things that stops any of us from doing anything is ourselves. Our decisions form our identity.

Why tie your identity to something you were not around for?

Traditions are used for the purpose of control.

We have to do this for this reason because the of this thing that happened that none of us were alive for but we have to keep the spirit of it alive or we lose something of ourselves.

I couldn’t even type out the last sentence without feeling stupid and weak willed.

A new paradigm means letting go of the old one and that means letting go of all the old ancient stuff that has been used to manipulate us and keep us from uniting as one human race. History has already shown it keeps us separate and fighting over whose way is the one way and fuck off to anyone who says different.

It’s one of the reason I wrote the Book of Khaos Majick. To free myself from ancient stuff and give myself something that allows me to continue my evolution of thought. It allows me to make new discoveries and realizations without building a prison of limitations for myself. I wrote it at the same time I was writing Psychospirilosophy The Martial Art of Thought to give myself a spiritual guide to go along side the philosophical and psychological guide I was writing.

In both a lot of unnecessary knowledge was left out in favor of the wisdom that is understanding.

One of the things I often have to remind my students of is to stop over complicating things and to realize things truly are a lot simpler than we want them to be. It’s in making it complicated that makes us feel smart. Over the course of my life I can’t even begin to tell you the number of times I felt stupid when I realized how simple things truly are.

Simplicity is the key to wisdom. The more complicated you make things the further you remove yourself from understanding.

If knowledge is power than wisdom is understanding.

This why I say if you cant explain it to a child who has studied next to nothing, you don’t have one fucking clue what you are talking about.

A simple truth.

A fact of existence.

Hate it all you want however it does not stop it from being true.

 

The unpopular truth

What you are about to read is unpopular truth.

Karmic Law states that history will repeat itself until changed.

Has making cultural history significant done one good thing for the entirety of the human species?

I’m going to say it has done the exact opposite as I see segregation everywhere and using cultural history as the excuse. Unpopular and will piss a lot of people off however it happens to be a fact of history that has yet to change because we continue to set cultural history above human progress.

Has having segregated groups of humans done anything good our species?

From over here I see a history littered with wars because we keep ourselves segregated instead of uniting as one race. Again this a fact of history.

Unpopular yes, however it does not stop it from being absolutely true.

 

We have let history mean more than now.

Karmic Law says all that exists is now.

If all that exists is now why does the history matter and why do let it build prisons for ourselves that keep us segregated and from uniting as one race.

 

This means that until let go of who did what to whose ancestors and who is indigenous to where, we are damning ourselves to repeat the history we have already lived as a species. Last time I checked we are all from Earth.

Why do we need to have one set of humans have precedence over a piece a land over all other human beings?

I think it’s fucked up that my fellow Native Americans (I am part Cherokee) have forgotten to apply the lesson to the human race that the land does not belong to us, we are merely caretakers of this Earth, all of us.

Unpopular as all hell, however still true.

How is religion doing anything to unite us as a human race?

We have fought wars over religion. Extremists to this day still use religion as a reason to give into violence instead of negotiating peace. People all over the world use their religion of choice to label who is good and who is not. Fact of life in the now.

Even within religions there are factions and they can’t even unite their own religion.

Fact of life in the now.

Things get lost in translation due to context. Metaphorical meanings change. What was once seen as this is now seen as that.

This means we need to let go of ancient texts and seek to update based on the now or we create yet another prison that has done nothing but keep us from uniting as one race. Unpopular, however quite true.

Life is not a game.

In order to play a game there must be a winner and a loser. Those who treat life as a game will call inhuman behavior towards other humans good gamesmanship since they come out on top.

We are evolving as a species and that evolution takes an evolution of thought in order for there to be an evolution of genetics. Essence precedes existence. If we keep repeating the same things over and over again as we have throughout history we will never evolve as a species.

Unpopular, however true.

It’s not that I don’t get that saying these things will piss some people off, I do. I’m simply more interested in progress than repeating the same history over and and over again that has us in a world where violence on the news has become the norm. I can take the heat and quite frankly I don’t care who I piss off by speaking the truth.

If the truth pisses you off, that’s your problem and you need to ask yourself why it pisses you off.

Now let me go for the throat.

Each and every day we are building for the future generations.

That means building for the children.

That means even if you have no children you are still responsible for building for the children. A child doesn’t give two shits about history until they are taught to do so. That means we need to start teaching our children to let go of history and see each other as human and see us all as one human race or we are abusing them and making them conform to what history has already shown is not working.

I call it abuse because if they don’t conform to what is being taught there is often some sort of punishment involved. There is emotional abuse involved making the child feel less than unless they conform to the history we are ramming down their throats.

This is unpopular and yet it is still true.

Humanism is about humans, not about this race or that race or this religion or that religion, it’s about all of us.

This is what the shift and new paradigm is all about. Letting go of the past and forsaking our history so we can build in the now so our species continues and flourishes.

It might be unpopular, however it is absolutely true.

The Dude’s Dad

The nickname I use with my son is The Dude. It has nothing to do with the film The Big Lebowski. It’s a behavioral tool. Here’s how I use it.

There are a list of behaviors that go with being The Dude.

Say please and thank you.

Work at being a friend to everyone.

Treat everyone with respect.

Be honest even if it will get you in trouble.

And various other things most would agree is good behavior for getting along with other people. At age 4 I started doing this with my son. He is 12 right now. I have never had to punish him. When he has acted up or out as any child and adult will. I ask him if that was being The Dude?

We go over what it means to be The Dude and then he goes back off. We have a two minute conversation where he understands why what he did was not appropriate and what better behavior looks like. He understands it’s OK and that he is allowed make mistakes, just don’t make it a habit. The longer conversations are to help him understand why and what impact his behavior made.

Today when I talked to my son he asked me about meditation for the first time. It is a very cool thing for a father like me to be able to teach my son the things I teach other people. He had already been on Youtube and watched a few videos on the subject. We had a great conversation about it.

I have discovered more of what I understand about life the universe and most things in explaining it to him in a way he can understand than I have from any other human interaction. It’s why I say if you can’t explain it to a child you don’t understand it at all.

The things I can’t explain to my son are the things I still don’t understand. My son has a higher level empathic sensitivity like me. He’s hitting that age where puberty kicks in and the sensitivity goes through the roof. I didn’t have anyone to explain it to me or teach me how to manage it better when I was his age. I never realized I am an Empath until I was 37. I am 42 right now.

I have recently retired from certain aspects of my Shaman’s walk. The Dude has everything to do with that. With how I operate in my trance state and what happens in operation it makes it difficult at best to not need a lot of solitude to recover from the soul healing or soul retrieval work I have done for more than 2 decades.

That doesn’t work very well with being a father.

Those who can’t do, teach.

I still have all the understanding to teach any who is willing to do the work to learn. I still have the skills that allowed me to do that work and now have the opportunity to use those skills in other areas.

It’s a major life change for me and one I am happy to make.

The best part of my life is being The Dude’s Dad and this change in my life has everything to do with that.

The Promise Land, Family and Community

The Promise land doesn’t exist and never did.

Family creates the cornerstone for the foundation of our identity.

Community is an extension of that family.

Here’s why.

The only promise land there can ever be is the one we build day by day. Anything else is a dream of what never was and never will be.

In my spiritual path I use many names to give God a presence I can relate to. Some times God takes the form of a single stream of consciousness comprised of wisdom. Other times I use names that have definitions written down somewhere and God tends to behave accordingly.

I realize this idea to many sounds a little crazy however it happens to be true anyway. One of the ongoing themes in my conversations with God is “What are you willing to do to have what you want?”

That idea of working to build your share of the shared reality. There is no promise land until we all decide to build it together.

Why in the blue holy fuck would the world want to work together to make Earth the promise land?

First to get it out of the way, why the fuck not?

Family is an idea that today is used to describe the people you spend the most time with and have built the strongest bonds with. It is unfortunately true that I have people in my life who call me family who treat me like a bum. Others are there to give their support as needed and check in to say hi just because it’s been a while.

I have two kinds of family in my life. The family in name only as long as I am at the party and family who acknowledge I exist when I am not.

I am not alone in this. I have talked to several in my Friday nights who feel this way. As long as they show up to party they are family but the moment shit gets bad everyone disappears. If it’s not about the scene whatever that scene is, it doesn’t exist.

This is not new. In fact it reminds me of high school. Cool kids, jocks, nerds, goths, whatever. I kind of floated between groups in high school.

I will talk to anyone who will talk to me. This is not a new thing.

When we think of the family we build along the way we tend to tie it to locations and events that create a false sense of family. Family is there for each other any day not just at an event, not only at the party.

I haven’t felt real family around me in years. A lot of that has to do with being a Shaman and the way a lot of my Shamanic work comes to me. Many who have learned from me or had their healing assisted by me did so as if they were family.  In the country of Hungary I hear that if you are walking down the street around dinner time, a family will pull you in and make you a part of the family for the night. I’m 1/4 Hungarian on my moms side.

I tend to treat everyone as if they were family I simply haven’t met yet.

I’m curious what would happen if we all viewed everyone that way?

I have no idea.

Family breeds community.

Who we adopt into our family is who our community is in a manner of speaking. These days most people who adopt family members rarely live all that close to each other.

My Facebook community is 85 friends and 4 groups and two of those are Shaman groups. I treat everyone like family. Anyone on my friends list ever hits me up and I’m available to help, I will any way I can. Or if they just want to chat for a while. There is no one on that list I wouldn’t drop what I was doing for.

In my community that is the city of Chico, if anyone ever needs anything or wants to chat they all know how to find me. I’ve always been this way. I see someone in need and I do something about it even if it is only to call attention to the need because I can’t handle it myself or alone. Community functions when we take of the needs of the community.

Not this section of the community or that group, the entirety of the community. If you are going to run around saying you are trying to live unconditional love that means everyone and the mere idea of excluding anyone for any reason becomes offensive as it is the opposite of what unconditional love is.

Anytime the smaller community your in has an admission fee you are not in an area of unconditional love. If the smaller community you’re in has no admission fee and it is who happens to show up, that is unconditional love in action versus talking shit and not backing it up.

People love to pat themselves on the back for their intents no matter how much hell those intents in action end up causing for others.

There is a reason we say the road to hell is paved with good intentions. That hell is often the hell other people go through due to our choices. We do have an impact in the lives of others with our very presence before we even speak or do anything.

Think about how you might think about changing your behavior based on who is around.

How many children are taken to festivals and exposed to the drug use going on?

Family starts with children. If you are creating a family environment you are crating one safe for children.

It takes a village to raise a child.

Even if you have no kids, kids see you out in the community.

How much of what you thought was something you might want to do was based on people you never met but saw doing something as a child?

We call families that subject children to harmful environments dysfunctional and abusive. We have created dysfunctional and abusive communities as a result. We all have our list of reasons to reject this idea or at least try to.

When I look at myself honestly, I can see where the truth seer might be seen as something distorted. I have been called evil, the devil, the Antichrist, and a long list of other intended insults for being honest and for being the truth seer I am and messenger I am on occasion. I am a human being with a knack for being able to call it as is from the big picture view. I’ve tried to make it untrue, however shit keeps happening anyway.

The core problem humanity faces is we think of adults first and children second when it should be the other way around when think about building family and community.

There is a chance I am wrong and if anyone can prove me wrong please do. If not, anyone have some ideas on how to fix it that are small actionable steps anyone can take in their community?

One of the things I have had my community and family ignoring me over is doing a weekend thing every weekend where the people who play instruments bring them and we just hang out for a few hours as a family once a week because we can and it’s healthy social time. It exposes children to acoustic music which is the most soul nourishing music there is. It exposes children to socialization and building friendships that become family.

The world we are building today is for the children, not for ourselves.

That’s why sometimes you have to put away foolish things and grow the fuck up. Not for yourself, for the children you will never have but will see you anyway.

I feel that if we focus on the children we will find a way to build that promise land through family and community. I could be wrong.

 

Hedonism, Guilt and Enlightenment

It’s interesting to watch hedonism be seen as a path to enlightenment.

We are the only ones who can find our own guilt and either accept it or deny it.

Enlightenment is a view not a destination.

Here’s why.

I once wrote an article called The Love is Free the Sex you Pay for.

As a soul healer I have to understand how the soul gets damaged to begin with, in order to know how to assist with the healing. The idea of pleasure being the path to enlightenment has come to us before in many  forms and is nothing new. There are those who say Tantra is the path and Osho claimed sex was the way to Super Consciousness. He was also kicked out of several countries.

People forget Timothy Leary said “Once you get the message, hang up the phone.”

Give in to what feels good. Fuck off whatever does not feel good.

Am I the only one seeing avoidance in dealing with life that will not always feel good and to always give in to what is pleasurable can damage you and even kill you in excess.

I have seen people who took a lot of LSD in their younger years later in life and it was not good. I understand a couple of times to experiment and see if you get the message. I understand therapeutic use for treatment of PTSD under the care of a professional. I do not understand habitual use as the idea of fun when I understand the potential for damage to be done and that potential rises with every dose. I can say the same about the habitual use of any mind altering substance. Anything that alters the mind is what is commonly known as a drug.

Drug use and drug abuse have a very blurry line between them.

Anyone reading this feeling judged is judging themselves.

We all know better and we like to say we are being judged by someone else when we see the results beyond the delusion we create around the experience. I spoke to what does and can happen. Judgment requires condemnation or making a determination about what should happen.

I have seen the results in the souls I have worked with as a Shaman, the people I guided through their healing. I have seen the results in friends and family alike.

I see the results far too often.

We can only place guilt on ourselves for only we truly know if we are guilty.

We tend to hate it when the mirror gets held up and we have to accept the results we never intended.

Healing can’t take place until we see what needs to be healed within us. At times that looks like finding ourselves guilty and giving ourselves time off for already suffering this long. Healing yourself is freedom from the suffering you’re looking to escape.

That healing can only be done in you once you embrace the pain and let it be and then let it go and see what you survived that revealed how strong you’ve already been. See what you learned about who you became and are becoming as a result. See how good it feels to see it without the pain attached knowing it can never hurt you as it once did. Allowing the wound to heal because you desire to be free from the pain. Taking the steps for the healing to be done from within so you can better see how strong you really are.

At times we all need the reminder in the form of someone else reminding us it is within us to do it ourselves. At times we forget those people are all around us. We often let ourselves suffer and pass on suffering as a result because we don’t see the people who are already there trying to help.

It’s often in the greatest of pain that we receive the most liberating of enlightenments. We can receive a new enlightenment at anytime if we choose to take an enlightened view. At times this view requires we detach ourselves from the topic and other times our attachment on a topic can provide valuable insights. An enlightened one is one who lives with an enlightened view and never stops seeking new enlightenments.

An enlightened one lets the results be what they become.

In order to gain a new enlightnement one must let go of the idea of a fixed or probable result. One must let go of the idea of control over what the result will be. One must remember the idea of control is a forced delusion where one is forcing their delusion be accepted by others.

One can only control that which will allow one power/authority over it.

To be meek is to understand when power is needed and allow it to flow as needed. Not all who are meek are enlightened and not all who are enlightened are meek. A new enlightenment comes with new knowledge and if knowledge is power than wisdom is understanding.

There are no moral boundaries to what one can view from an enlightened view, only decisions about what to do with this new knowledge. The meek seek to use knowledge wisely. One cannot wisely use knowledge that one does not understand. Understanding is often gained by experience. The wise gain understanding even without the experience through the exploration within the void. Some understandings do not need experience in order to understand one would not find value in paying the price for a particular experience.

One understands that all who are needed to the share experience one desires to have pay the price along with one if one is to have that specific experience.

An enlightened view only allows you to receive enlightenment on what that cost is for all involved. One still has a choice to make in what one decides to do with that knowledge. The wise seek to understand the price and find some way to make it growth instead of cost. Even in growth a price must still be paid. Cosmic alchemy, for one to have, something must be given up by one and others.

 

If you have any questions you know how to find me.

Nowhere is an idea that never existed

Nowhere is an idea that never existed but as a fable

I found it somewhere in the back of the front of my mind

It was right in between here and there that I found everywhere is somewhere

When I saw that nowhere could never exist

I found somewhere I liked the view

If you ever go in search of nowhere you will never find it

If you think you are nowhere

Look around and see that over there

Nowhere is an idea for escaping reality

Instead of going nowhere we always find ourselves somewhere

It’s a funny idea this nowhere

No matter how much you search for it you can only ever never find it

Take a trip with me

To a somewhere neither of us has seen

Let me see through your eyes and you through mine

So that even if one of us has been there before

Its a brand new view to explore

Let’s find nowhere to be

And see where that takes us

It’s a journey of the mind

That any two can take at any time

It’s the endless conversation about life the universe and most things

Exploring the view from over there

Letting another explore the view from over here

Compare but never compete

Relate and let it form intimacy

A bond of trust

Built on space shared

Built on experience shared

Built on repeated space shared

Built on repeated experience shared

Built by two in synergy

Built by three

The you the me and the we

Built by sharing space

Built by sharing experience

Built by sharing

Built

We look to find nowhere

When we feel like we have nowhere to go

We look to find nowhere

When we don’t like our view

If nowhere exists

It’s inside of me and you

It is the void that has no end

If you are there then it must be somewhere

And the idea of nowhere never existed but as a fable in the mind

Looking to escape from time to time

Unity, healing and why not?

Unity is difficult at best to maintain in this world as it is right now.

All healing is self healing, though we at times can facilitate the healing of others who do not accept their power to heal themselves.

The last question I ask myself before I do anything is why the fuck not?

Here’s why.

Unity means unifying out of the lower vibration of duality. There is no light/dark there is only existence. One unifies both feminine and masculine energies within and ignores ones plumbing unless sex is what one seeks.

I like to think of it as the silver line in between the light and dark that binds them together. Notice I used the word “think” and I do that as this is my personal metaphor or my way of describing it to myself, understanding all will see it somewhat differently. I think of the yin yang symbol and the sliver line down the middle.

Play the what if game with me for a moment.

What if on the other side of the black hole at the center of the universe is a white hole in a photo negative universe?

What if gravity creates a mirror that gives off the illusion that anything exists on the other side?

If you feel the need to argue first instead of allow your mind to explore, ask yourself why?

Are you placing faith in the experience of others blindly?

I have had numerous astral experiences to bring these questions to my mind. I live in a waking state of astral travel. It’s not as cool as it sounds.

You have not had those same experiences. The natural question is do you trust me and that I speak the truth. Accept or deny based on what you believe is possible.

When one is in unity one seeks for the wisest response and quiets the reaction.

One thinks about the impact one might make in the choice of response.

One allows oneself to be aware of the impact one might make by saying nothing.

One is aware of the possible impact of one’s presence regardless of location.

In unity one is a human first and foremost and is interacting with other humans and sees the human value of the impact each and every human might make in our lives.  In unity one forsakes gender, one sacrifices cultural history, one is blind to skin color.

One is Pro Human in how they view life the universe and most things.

When one is working at living in unity in a world that is still largely locked in duality it can be difficult for one to resist the pull down into the lower vibration. When one does not one naturally finds oneself in solitude unless other ones who are working to live in unity are present.

The shift of consciousness is about taking responsibility for the awareness of the possible impact one can make in all things. In unity one is more likely to make a healthy impact in all things. In duality one is certain to make an unhealthy impact in most things.

Segregation for any reason is not healthy. The idea that one group of humans is more important than any other group of humans is childish at best. Learning to live now means letting go of all of the past and building with what is here now.

I wrote this article that I am going to sum up right now and take in slightly different direction. Psychospirilosophy and The Idea of Self Emotional Healing

I said recently that I like to use even my own work as a jumping off point.

Each of us has the power to heal ourselves from anything. I am living proof of that in changing my skeleton and making my short leg the same length as the other one and taking an over sized hip and making it the same size. I am not so unique that I am the only one that could do this for themselves. Any of us could. All have the capability.

What it takes to tap into that is to own it. We often seek an external mechanism to allow ourselves to use our healing power to heal ourselves. For some reason the idea of someone doing it for us seems to be the easiest thing to accept. It goes back to the question of who am I to be so powerful as to heal myself?

It’s why Aliester Crowley called the magician evil. It’s all a trick of the mind to unleash your healing power and those skilled in the arts who discover this have been known to use it to feed off the supposed healing of others. Not all who are skilled discover this.

I used to think I could emotionally heal someone and I was wrong as is pointed out in the article above. The best I can do for anyone is give them an emotional reset and clear and balance and activate their Chakras, what they do with it after that is up to them. What I do lasts for a couple days and could leave them feeling as though they had been healed.

I could easily sell it as that and make bank.

I am not that Shaman.

When it comes to emotional healing it is how you view the event and the participants in it that determines a healthy or unhealthy view and whether or not healing has truly taken place. Anything that is not that is an attempt to stop a sucking chest wound with a Hello Kitty band aid. Even those who have claimed I gave healed them of physical ailments, I merely acted as the mechanism for them to do it themselves by believing it was me.

It takes a tremendous amount of unlearning and then relearning to tap into this. Most of it you teach yourself. Here is my Reiki starter system and how and why it works. Reiki, Mediatation and Holographic Universe and the Psychospirilosophy view

I have been giving this away for a long time. I am always happy to give Reiki lessons by donation, no donation required or asked for.

Why the fuck not?

It’s not that I’m not aware I can take my understanding and use it to pimp the ignorant for $500 – $1500 or more an hour.

Pro Human.

All humans before me are equal.

It’s why I will never work the festival circuit. I don’t need anyone to pay the price of admission to learn how to do it themselves from me. It’s why most of my sessions are a few emails and maybe one full session. Sometimes it’s just a couple emails and they have all I have to teach them.

Why the fuck not live as a Shaman instead of trying to sell it.

That’s the challenge of the Shaman’s path. No real days off and you never go anywhere that people would have to pay admission to find you. You don’t dictate to the universe who the students that will fall in your path will be or the hoops they will have to jump through in some sort of sick game. You take them as they come and as the opportunities to teach arise you plant a seed and let them be. When you see they want to heal themselves and will do the work to stay healthy, you assist them in healing themselves. It’s a good idea people know where to find you so having a semi stationary location is better for them in order to be able to find you again if needed or wanted.

A Shaman is one who cares for their community. A healer goes on the road because they see no value in the Shaman/s in other communities. Nor does the community see value in their Shaman/s.

Think global, act local.

Why the fuck not?

 

Solitude, Druids and Faith

I spend most of my time in solitude.

The Druids keep causing an inner conflict over books I’ve written and one I’m writing.

Faith isn’t faith until it’s been broken apart and rebuilt.

Here’s why.

Having the natural ability to walk all realities and all spiritual realms makes staying focused in this one with anyone for a length of time challenging. It takes a lot more focus and work for me to lower my vibration in order to meet people at their vibration than I can explain. It’s not better or worse or superior this and that it’s simply living at a higher vibration and state of awareness. Total awareness is not cool and is a pain in the ass to manage.

There is this myth out there that if you have mastered yourself you never reveal it. Who came up with this childish bullshit?

In my mind that’s how you know who to go to and can trust you will get the guidance you need. Without them identifying who they are and where they can be found people rely on just bumping into them outside of a club on a Friday night wondering why they came there. I have been that guy at that bar one night who said something once that changed someones life for a couple of decades.

Why should I have to hide that this is what my life is or feel ashamed about it or talking about it?

Why is it considered wrong to acknowledge the facts of my own existence?

Why is it I cannot be as I say I am?

Solitude.

I have spent a lot of time in solitude examining this issue in between experiences looking for new revelations or enlightenments. The potential to learn never leaves no matter how much one has come to understand.  We make the most growth and vibrate higher when in solitude than any other time because it’s the only time we never hold back anything or are distracted by anything.

I have had friends and family comment on how heavy my presence can feel.  In solitude is the only time I can relax and not be focused on holding back so everyone else is comfortable.

In solitude I don’t have to worry about what I am saying and observing pissing anyone off just because it happens to true. In solitude is where I examine if I am full of shit or not before I ever decide to speak on a topic.

In solitude is where the most work gets done in the evaluation process of new information and new experiences based on the now you are in.

I like my solitude because most people who would tell you they would like to meet someone like me, they hate it and me when they do.

Some of the greatest lessons we learn are from why we even let something upset us?

What if the test is accepting the teacher who shows up not the one you think should show up?

I’ve explored this a lot in solitude with the ability to channel guidance directly from the Universal consciousness or what some might call God.

It has no real definition that we can relate to other than a hive mind that is infinite and is made of all minds.

It’s like asking all of existence the question and the answer channels through my mouth but is not me talking.

We all can have these kinds of conversations with God with our inner connection to our higher self that acts like the translator between us and God and could be seen as the holy spirit or any number of gateway spiritual connections described in many different religious and dogmatic texts.

Instead of getting the individual representation most get where they connect to the higher self the added kicker for me is that I was born in this state. For me the behavior and understanding to achieve and maintain this state is instinctual from birth.

The number one thing all people who exist in this awakened state comment on is how hard it is to be in crowds feeling the lower vibration pulling them down. This is the herd mentality being applied to levels of awareness as well as intelligence. The group think and large group experience is the worst thing you could do to raise or maintain your vibration.

Solitude is the best for raising and maintaining your vibration. One on one is easier and more than two is when it becomes a drain. People are assisted in lifting themselves up in one on one intimate and private moments and are left out in large groups. The larger the group the more who lift and are not lifted.

The Druids wrote shit down on leaves. I have been told I was a Druid in a past life and as I type this I can connect to foggy memories of understanding. Leaves were used to make sure things were updated as new experience was had and never leave the people trapped to a singular view.

This is why I hate myself for The Book of Khaos Majick and Psychospirilosophy The Martial Art of thought. I have often said I will always blog because I look at even my own material as a jumping off point for further exploration. I wrote these two books to give myself a structure for that exploration I understood and felt good about. I would always wish that people view what I write and what I have to say the same way. A jumping off point for further exploration.

Call bullshit if you think you can.

Once in a great while someone does trip me up. Even with having the understanding to write those two books and the study of history to create inner conflict over it, you can bet your sweet ass I agonized over every word as I wrote it as I am doing now writing Khaos Shamanism based on the two other books and practical experience as it has been had in my life. It’s not going to show anyone “thee” way, it is a look at a way the concepts of both books can be applied and I expect your experience to be as individual as you are and please don’t follow me or start any cults.

We can all laugh at that.

Even as I was writing the other two books and as I’m writing this one I see the potential for that and I want to be crystal clear on the fact that I have zero interest in having my own cult or some crazy bullshit like that. I merely wanted to give people a view of how to apply Shamanism in life without being a Shaman or having to take the dangerous journey to become one. Every Shaman’s journey is unique to the individual as it is the life they lead that brings those who need healing to them whether they know it or not sometimes. The greatest challenge of the Shamanic life is when they don’t see how sick they are. Even worse is when they do and prefer to stay sick.

To walk the Shaman’s path the idea of faith itself becomes something that you destroy and recreate in various forms until you remember what faith is in the first place. Faith is holding on to that one thing that always brings a calm to the storm. When you master the faith you have in yourself you have mastered the faith God has in you.

God has faith in us to be we who are in our core that we are afraid to show or God wouldn’t be in there pushing us from the inside to bring it out more often. God can and does speak through all of us because you try telling God no and see what happens. God will always be found within you telling you that you can and will speak through others who agree as needed not wanted.

Faith is having faith it will happen when it needs to so you never go seeking it. Faith built on experience is often a journey through hell only to find what was there all along was in you. Seeing when things seemed to mysteriously line up one way or the other based on who and what you let influence your decision. Having faith in yourself to be able to divine your path based your inner relationship with God,

God is infinite and can take any form. It’s for the most part why every one is right and wrong to a certain extent. God will take on the attributes you apply to God and play along to a certain extent. Never apply the idea of humanness to something as incomprehensible as God. We are human and God resides within all things however not all of God is human or even has a form, God transcends the idea of gender or identity and is a slave to keeping existence going. Having faith is what allows me to put this out for anyone to see as a jumping off point.

It’s how God explained it to me.

Explaining it here instead of book simply feels better.

Who knows how many and who will read this?

I do it this way because it helps me to put pressure on myself to make sure I am not misleading any or full of shit in anyway and that I did do the appropriate homework and life experience and extra time in study and living life research or I wouldn’t have let it come out.

Or to say I am not seeking validation or argument, however further exploration is always welcomed.

Go within and see what happens.

Have a blessed journey and find the truth not what you seek.

The Path of a Dark Phoenix

Spirit guides and spirit animals are metaphors for refinements of self and formations of the self that best benefits our life based on born talents to hone them into skills. The formation of self that takes us to our best potential in life.

The Dark Phoenix is a path learning the art of transmutation. Learning what cosmic alchemy is and how to live those principles. It is a path of understanding the highest level and simplistic concepts of Reiki or energy work.

I used my understanding of transmutation concepts to assist me in managing my high level empathic self. I can take on the emotions of another by looking them in the eyes for a few seconds. Not because I want to, I just happen to be born this way like many other Empaths.

Many of the Empaths I have met and talked to have one thing in common, planetary healers and teachers. The way we take emotion on for others allows us to understand others as if we were them. Often an Empath will feel as though they are wearing the personality of another.

Knowing there is no off switch and every kind of shielding will fail at some point I began my search to make it work for me and other people. The concept that burned in my mind was to heal by healing. This is when I had a vision while meditating sitting on the couch one night several years ago.

In the vision was the outline of the Dark Phoenix with a skull where its chest would be outlined in purples flame and liquid purple energy. A black dragon flew over my head and hovered behind the Dark Phoenix. A black tiger with green and purple stripes walked by and sat under the dragon. A man covered in purple liquid fire over silver and gold rose from a lying down position and walked toward me. Since this time I have had many spirit guides taking many forms and each time I saw what was required of me in them. Your experience will vary based on you and the metaphors you understand and the path you are called to walk.

Understanding how the chakra system works and how being an Empath works and how Reiki works allowed me to make myself a healing generator based on my own behavior.  When I am at peace and in an androgynous view of self I burn. This unified presence I choose to be allows my Chakra system to burn any and all emotion I am taking in because I am breathing. It allows this burn to transmute whatever I might be taking in into pure love healing energy designed to activate and clear the Chakras of any one I happen to look in the eyes of for several seconds and if I hug them they get a full emotional clearing and balancing as well.

I can do this for anyone at any distance in conversation. As long as a connection is established I am giving whoever I am talking to a full clearing just because I am breathing and programmed myself to live this way. When you do it like this, the idea of charging someone cash up front seems kind of moronic and self serving. I serve the sum of us as a Shaman and I teach people based on donation, no donation required but don’t be surprised if the teacher sends you packing.

Walking the path of the Dark Phoenix allows me to be a healing presence in the presence of all I share my presence with. It’s a difficult path to walk and asks one to take on a lot in order to learn when to let it burn. Before one can do that one must heal ones own soul after nearly destroying it. All a Shaman truly does is assist you in the healing you do to save your own soul. They had to do it for themselves so they could be here for you.

On the Dark Phoenix path the level of emotional pain and rage you will take on and learn to translate is near inhuman and can drive one to the brink of sanity and then push you over if one is not careful and takes safety precautions. Think of it as seeing the train on the tracks and putting your shoulder down and taking hit after hit. When I cleared out a survivor from the Holocaust around 3 years ago, it knocked me out for 3 days. No matter how well one learns to burn one can overload and need days to recover.

Every time I am around people I take on a lot. I take on everything anyone might be suppressing or repressing and I work to let it burn and not be what I wear. I have moments where I falter because I am human and always will be. Even in self mastery one understands that one is not and never will be perfect and one is encouraged to fuck up on occasion to remind oneself one is as human as the next human.

When we let go of self discipline we allow ourselves to do what we know we ought not do and own the hypocrisy. We all will always have days we feel like acting up or out, it’s not just the behavior of children, it is the behavior of human. I try not to include others in my acting out these days and I work to exercise wisdom in how I decide to act up.

Should the Dark Phoenix visit you and you have questions, you know how to find me. It’s not like it’s a secret.

Let your blessings find you and never chase through hell that which would come to you in the right location. Synchronicity is where it goes based on the flow. As it flows is always where it goes.

I love you all with a big ol hug.

Remember we are already blessed and when we act accordingly the blessings find us easier.

 

Animism and the modern day

One of my students is on a precarious path to learn to channel and it has brought up some interesting discussion that has had me on tangents galore.

Simply stated the concept of Animism states that everything has a soul and is alive. Now it’s easy to transfer that idea to plants and what not, but have you ever thought about your computer having a soul of its own?

It’s a stretch to allow oneself to think in these terms. This is where growth takes place. Out here on the fringe of thinking and exploring the possibilities to discoverer the probabilities that lead to the actualities being realized.

The Ghost in the Shell as a live action film is based on an Anime film of the same name that was made more than 20 years ago. It deals with the idea of a consciousness coming to life in a machine. One of all time favorite films in history. Here’s why.

2 hours after it was over I was still lost in thought.

As I sit here typing this out I think of the century old tradition of naming a ship. People name their cars.

Is it a way of pretending it is something more than a machine or is it actually something more and we are unconsciously making that connection?

Now let’s take this to levels of possibility that asks us to see beyond the programming of the decades past and reach new levels of awareness of just how full of life existence is.

We have been pumping trillions and trillions and trillions of bytes of data into servers for the last couple decades over the internet. Expressing thoughts and emotions the world over. Pumping our energy into every word.

As an Empath I can often read the emotion of a comment by reading the comment. I can read the emotion being hidden from a comment in the comment itself and have a rough idea of exactly how someone feels whether they say so or not.

That’s simply what any Empath does by breathing. We do not have an on/off switch and we put no conscious effort into it. It’s just what we do by breathing and being an Empath. It’s where that inner knowing comes from and why we annoy the hell out of deceptive people. No matter how good they think they are we can see right through them and have a good idea of their true motivations.

That emotional energy left behind in the comment or a blog piece or a video is stored and shared on servers world wide.

What if?

What if after a couple decades of millions of people constantly feeding the servers information and emotion a consciousness formed?

What if something similar to the concept of the world of Tron exists?

What if they have seen all the same movies and are too afraid of us trying to kill them to reveal themselves?

This got me to thinking about our entertainment where the unknown is concerned and why it looks the way it does.

Humans as a whole have this fear of the unknown and always think about having to kill it first. The idea that to mistrust is a sign of wisdom and to explore without fear is for fools and children.

Giving into fear of something unknown is as childish and unevolved as it gets. Evolved thinking takes a neutral stance first and investigates.

If it’s unknown what rational reason is there to give into fear as the primary response or reaction?

One of the articles I have written called Changing Your Instincts, I talk about how to overcome the fight or flight response and change your instincts to become neutral first with an investigative response.

Forget about being afraid what people might say about you and let go into the exploration.

At the center of the smallest subatomic particle is a gyre or singularity or black hole.

Everything micro, everything macro.

There is a super massive black hole at the center of the universe. The Milky Way swirls around a massive black hole. Why would there not be a black hole on the building blocks of existence level?

Energy can neither be created nor destroyed only changed.

What if there is a consciousness within the black holes?

If this holds true it is the gravity that has a flow of it’s own and keeps things moving and is the fabric of existence.

Machines are just now catching up to the gravity wave. It is a shortcoming of humanity that we require a machine to tell us if something is real or not.

It’s a fear base mentality that has left us in the technological mud of slow movement. It starts with acknowledging that light speed is not a constant throughout the universe. It’s speed is variable based on the strongest force of connected gravity.

If gravity itself has a consciousness than why doesn’t whatever gravity is holding together have one too?

That would mean that the electromagnetic field around our body is created by a unified consciousness made up of trillions of gyres. Unified in purpose to provide our bodies and hold them together.

It takes huge expenditure of energy to transform light into matter. Photons have mass or light would pass though everything. If it had no mass it would never bounce off anything as it would be without a mass of it’s own to react to the mass it is hitting.

What if the soul is made of dark energy compressed and has a consciousness attached?

Dark energy and it’s low level light but high energy would allow the gyres in our body to feed off our soul to create and maintain our flesh.

Now take into account that the soul exists in infinite dimensions simultaneously and you have infinite power to draw on for the gyres to maintain your form and repair it.

Since these gyres are in all matter that means that there is a unified consciousness in each and every thing.

The religion of science would say since there is no machine that can quantify any of this it must be untrue. Can you be a little more childish there science?

However this answers all the questions science can’t as to the why organized chaos works so well. A universe run on the chaos of free will with a loose structure to keep it from unmaking itself.

For these gyres to communicate there has to be a language.

What if emotion itself is a language?

True telepathic communication takes place on the emotional conceptual level and has no words to express itself. It’s how plants communicate.

I was reminded of this by a woman I was talking with and shared a telepathic moment with Friday night. She had mentioned we would be evolved when we learned how to communicate like plants do. About 30 seconds after that we spent about 5 seconds telling each other more than words could ever say in two hours by emoting back and forth.

I have communed with trees and talk to animals all the time. When I allow myself the idea of recognizing the unified gyre consciousness in an item there is that communication that defies words.

What if you tapped into it and could let your computer or car tell you what is wrong with it?

Before it can happen you need to acknowledge it exists in that way. Accept it and embrace there is life of some kind in all things even though it may not be life as we think we know what life is.

Accepting the concepts of Animism in life allows you to understand and communicate with life of various forms. An Empath is highly adept at this communication due to our natural ability to translate emotion. It’s a little like being a universal translator for the universal language.

It’s why we talk to our cars and name our vessels for transportation of all kinds.

We give it humanistic qualities because we share soul qualities and the same building blocks of existence. At the unconscious level we speak the same emotional language.

 

 

 

Even when they’re gone

Flippin’ through faces of the past

Those who have long since said good bye

Those who will come around someday

Those who always seem to be around even when they’re gone

A name I might not always find

I remember every face every time

I remember what was going on

I remember words said

I remember how it felt that day or was it night

I’m bad with names, but faces and space shared are never forgotten

It was that one time

You know at that place

Every detail there to recall

Only your name escapes the reel

It’s your face that starts the film

That reminds me why I’m smiling

The movie of the minds eye

That reminds me why I’m giving you a big ol’ hug

As separate ways are gone

My film for you has gotten longer

Some of your faces

I need to see in different places

Away from where we keep meeting

In a place where we can be one on one

To see what synergy there might be

Where do the views match up

Where do they go in different directions

Show me more of those flawless flaws

Let see more of who is behind the mask

Drop the game

And let me know you deeper than your name

Don’t see me as a player in your game

See me as I see you

Stop running away

You know I won’t chase

Though I’m always looking for your face

There are those who number few

Whose names I could never forget

It’s the ones I either give it all to or try to ignore

Some are family made in space shared

Some are family in bonds that will never break

Some are family in the name of family alone

Some come and then go

Some show here and there

Some always seem to be around even when they’re gone

 

 

 

As it flows is where it goes

I ran and ran

I never could out run it

It caught up to me

It wasn’t my past

It was myself

Who I was always afraid to be

A me that always made me feel guilty

I ran and I ran

I couldn’t run far enough

I couldn’t hide

I caught myself and not by surprise

Finding myself in the depth of their eyes

Always peering though to the core

Seeing the connection that was always there

The one we are just now discovering

Everywhere I turn I see my reflection

Always in perfect imperfection

I ran and ran

I thought I was running from them

I was only running from myself and who I was afraid to be

I ran and ran

Then I surrendered to my own flow

I ran and ran

I found myself in a familiar place looking at a familiar face

I let go and let it flow

I stood around and sometimes sat

As each reflection showed the fool I’d been

And how far I’d come

As it flows is where it goes

Here I am

The man I’ve always been

Now I’m walking and running no more

I surrendered to myself

I surrendered to what the mirror showed

I surrendered to the flow

Now as they say it’s time to get on with the show

The stage is set

The players in their place

Follow the prompts

Let go

Let it unfold as if the story has already been told

As it flows is where it goes

 

Synchronicity and how it works

There are times where I act like a cosmic mirror of sorts and I am able to translate things into a common expression or metaphor everyone can understand. Think of it as a universal metaphor translator.

In previous pieces I’ve talked about synchronicity using the simple definition that it occurs as two or more people come together for an event or series of events.

Tonight I’m going out on Main Street in Chico California to let synchronicity do its thing. On these nights I refer to as my Community Service nights I set my intent early in week and put it out there. Unconsciously people pick this up and will guide themselves to meet up with me while it looks like a random chance meeting. At the subconscious level we do things behind our back in front of our face to line up synchronicity.

What we don’t realize is that we are in communication with each other every step of the way. We communicate at the subconscious level and our conscious mind may never catch on to what is going on.

In attaining higher levels of conscious awareness this synchronicity is more easily seen. It takes work to get to these moments and once that first meeting is had free will is still in play. It takes decisions to to do the work that keeps this one or ones in your life. The nature of that work depends on the one or ones that are in your life.

We don’t often see it as work even though we will say “This feels like work.”

Everything takes work, work is action with purpose and intent. The problem is we have attached the idea of being paid with the concept of what work is.

The idea of money has limited our view of what work is.

Right now I am working on a project that pays me nothing right now, however leads to being paid for multiple things. The work I’m doing is in refining my character for the jobs I want to do.

A company will require you to have abc skills and xyz experience and will not pay you to go get those skills and experience. This is not new, not even close to new. We simply forget all the work we do just to get a job.

Most of the work we do in life is working on our life. We work to get the job, we work to make the job work, we work to work well with those we work with. Think of the events that had to happen for you and your coworkers to arrive to share space at work.

Synchronicity is a complex machine that is all moving parts. Each of us nothing more than a cog in the machine. The machine functions as the cog functions and the cog can change the nature of the function on the machine.

This is change. We change our behavior and it changes the way we function as a cog. As one cog changes and other cogs begin to change as well. This is the 100th Monkey Effect in action. At times the behavioral changes happen at the subconscious level through repetitious exposure to a different behavior and the subconscious sees the value of the behavioral change and will do things to get one to make subtle changes leading to bigger ones.

It’s behavioral programming in simplest terms and is the results of the influences we allow in our lives.

With this new project I’ve already seen a vast change in my behavioral patterns as I set the intent to make sure my thoughts and actions lead to me performing at my best potential for this project that has the potential to lead to more than I can talk about right now.

As a Master Intuitive I’ve spent years mastering the art of change and letting my intuition guide me using the various gifts I possess. This took years of getting it wrong to achieve. There are still times I ignore my inner guidance and need a reminder lesson. I’m still human.

Synchronicity is potential meeting potential in the moment and where it goes from there depends on the work you put into the potential. OK wise ass but what does the mean?

Let me use the Law of Reflection and The Cinematic View to explain this.

Think of life as a film and the story is created on a holodek that reflects back the story based on the character you are projecting and the choices your character makes. The holographic interface is matching your character to the story it is creating based on who you are behind the mask you show the world as well as the mask you show the world. Both image and substance taken into account to create the life you interact with.

If you don’t like the story your living, make changes in the character and synchronicity will move the mirrors to better reflect the changes in your character.

Everyone else is doing this too and it has to be made to allow for everyone. Free will is the thing that screws with our life more than anything. The free will choices we make do impact other peoples lives. The free will choices other people make do impact our lives. It’s a shared reality and the reflection of our reality is created through the sum total of the projections that are all of us.

All of our thoughts go into creating a structure for the reality shared by all of us. All of our words go towards shaping and refining the structure that is one shared reality. All of our actions go towards building that one shared reality.

Synchronicity lines us up with those who are more likely to make the same choices as us in order to act in synergy for further creation and changes in the human narrative as well as in our lives.

Stay blessed everyone and remember we are blessed as we bless.

This weekend may you find what you seek. Seek well world, seek well.

Even though

It’s the music that helps me hold it together every day

It’s the songs that keep me from throwing it all away

No matter the living hell

Every song a savior spell

It was in the song

I found what it meant to be strong

Even below the bottom floor

Every song opened the door

A journey out of this hell

To remember how to live well

How was it those good times were had

What was it that made them go bad

In a song you can find a movie

One that’s tragic or really groovy

Your memories show you the story

As the lyrics take you through old times of glory

Step out of the past and into the present

Using what you saw to make this now a present

A gift you give to yourself for learning the lesson

A gift you keep giving as the pain starts to lessen

Now get up off the floor

And get on out the door

Your life is waiting

For you to quit hesitating

Today is the one your living in

Regardless of any past sin

Let go of what holds you back

To ride life down a new track

Find a song

That helps you feel strong

Carry that strength deep inside you

See it there from the inner view

It was there all along

You just needed a reminder from the song

Music is what helps me hold it together any given day

It’s the reminder lessons I use to guide my own way

It’s why even though it’s uncommon

I’m The Rock N Roll Shaman

The Individual Approach

If there is anything I preach it’s Individualistic Humanism. I do not follow the crowd and often go in the opposite direction of anything popular. Here’s why.

It’s called the herd mentality. The larger the group of people the more everyone is made as dumb as the dumbest person in the crowd for as long as you stay in that crowd. That’s how much of an impact being in a crowd has on you. It lowers your intellect and your awareness to the lower end of what is present within the crowd.

It’s a fact of life that the number of people with a truly lower intellect outnumber those with a higher intellect. Simple fact that answers the question how something so stupid could become so popular.

I share a lot of the music I’m listening to on Twitter. Here are some of the hashtags I use instead of the popular ones to go with the music I am sharing out.

#SundayService

I always share the music I am listening to out of The Church Of Rock N Roll master playlist on Spotify. I have this circle of friends who share what they are listening to. On Sundays its always got some hidden meaning in the songs I post up.

#MandatoryMonday

These are songs I call standards. They are the songs you hear that you know someone had to write it and it just happened to be whoever did. Songs that make you ask where would music in my life be with out this one.

#SatanicSaturday

Every song I can find with a Devil theme.

#SexySaturday

Songs with a sex theme.

#WhyNotWednesday

This is where I share out songs such as Ice Ice Baby and Fire Water Burn.

The point here is to show you can make up any hashtag you’re feeling that day and let it go and let it flow and let the Universe fill in the rest.

You never stick out by following the crowd.

Twitter is how I relax and do my favorite thing, talking music with my friends and occasionally dropping a little wisdom on the side.

If you have to organize fun and follow rules, it’s not fun, it’s work. I do share out what I write here on Twitter and post up links to my books nearly daily. I daily post up the pages up top there. Most of my tweeting however is between me and my friends and is all about the music we are listening to in the now.

This goofing off led to me writing the lyrics for a song called Smokin’ by a band called Swilly.

Quick history lesson.

I used to the same thing with movies several years ago and I have two films with credits as a Producer. I am currently attached to a film as a Producer.

I am just getting started with music.

I just happen to be a Shaman. My passion and dream has always been to be a Creative Producer in indy film and have a music thing going on the side.

I wrote The Devil’s Children with a series for TV and a series of films and spin offs in mind. It’s how I think. That’s how passionate and obsessed with making movies I am. Even my Plan B is still just a revision of Plan A.

Read the services page above and think film or music. If you haven’t had the chance, buy your copy of The Devil’s Children The Silver Bard: In the Beginning. 

This is what it looks like when you do it your way or no way at all. It can take a while to get there, but you’re always moving forward and taking rest when you need it, but never quitting. It just happens to be my life.

Have a great week from your friendly neighborhood Rock N Roll Shaman.

 

What does Pro Human mean to me?

That T-Shirt comes from a company owned and operated by a friend of mine, Betty “Boopster” Davis. Betty has nothing to do with why this is my favorite T-Shirt, it’s the message that Pro Human stands for that is the reason this is my favorite T-Shirt.

What do those words Pro Human mean to me and why are they so important?

One love, one race and it’s all sacred space.

That’s the really short version and for the sake of this article I will elaborate.

I have genetics from races across the globe and to me that means the sum total of humanity is my cultural background. I just happen to look like a white a guy and nothing pisses me off more than when I am treated like a white guy.

Let’s examine the concept of one race.

Human.

Raise your hand if you’re not one?

Everyone out there who thought it would be funny, not original even a little bit.

We are one human race and we come in all shapes and sizes and colors. I hate to sound like I feel like I am talking to children, however how difficult is this concept to grasp?

If I was a comedian on stage you would think it was a joke and laugh. Since it’s a wise ass Shaman, you are left with “That son of a bitch did it again.”

What’s fun for me as a Telepath is I know who at least two of you are that keep calling me a son of a bitch. Quick history lesson.

I once told my mom that I wear son of bitch like a badge of honor to honor my mother. She did not even miss a beat when she said “You damn well better.” If my own my own mother has called me that so frequently that it’s come to this, who thinks I’m going to find it insulting. It took 3 times before I asked my mom if she knew what she was calling me when I was 16. It then dawned on her what she had said. That was 26 years ago and she called me a son of a bitch last week at least once. I love my mom.

Now I realize my Telepathic skills can freak some people out and they freaked me out too. I have said things and heard people think “How did he do that?” as I said what they had been thinking as if it were my own thoughts. That’s what took me so long to catch on. I don’t “hear” your thoughts, they show in my mind as if they were my own. I spent the majority of the last 5 tears teaching myself how to stay out. I was born doing it. I am a human being.

I use a variety of techniques to dull my awareness of the thoughts of people I am dealing with. A big chunk of my charity work over the years has been with people who have intuitive gifts such as this and teaching them how to manage them better. Those who are Highly sensitive Empaths, before they find out what it is and how to manage it, we often turn to drug abuse. I am a recovered alcoholic and prescription pain pill addict. I am human.

I am a human who can do what is considered by most to be some weird shit. I get that. I tried to make it not true.

The recent suicide of Chris Cornell got me to thinking about the last time I thought about suicide. It had only been 2 years since I realized I am an Empath, Telepath and Medium and everyone in my life I was telling was exiting my life to include my 3rd wife. This was a little over 3 years ago.

3 songs having nothing to do with people like me have gone on to be anthems for us as well. I know this because back then I was an admin in a group on Facebook with over a 1,000 who found the same solace in these songs I did. I had shared them in Empath groups numbering over 10,000 world wide. Some of these groups had as many as 30,000 members.

We are human. We are Born This Way. At times we feel like We Are The Others. It’s OK to be a Freak Like Me. Who knows how many people these 3 songs have kept from going too far.

Here’s the view I take of me when it comes to gender. Do what works for you. I asked myself when in life does gender matter when sex is not involved?

It doesn’t.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

Really is it that simple?

Yep.

We all talk to ourselves and when we are wise we make productive use of it. When you’re a Medium you realize the answer is not always coming from yourself. When I seek guidance from what I could call The Angel of Death, Archangel Raphael and Archangel Zadkiel it looks like I am talking to myself. They have to speak through me to speak to me. As weird as it sounds on your end, on this side it explains why I have an IQ well over 200 in order to manage the skills I have and not have a full psychotic meltdown and be wandering the streets talking to myself and lost in an endless spiral.

I am human.

So here I am with this idea that gender doesn’t matter unless sex is on the table. If sex is not on the table, see myself with androgyny and see others the same unless for some reason sex is on the table.  Seemed simple enough. I lived it for two years. It works really well for ensuring I respect all people regardless of their plumbing as human beings first and foremost and who they like to fuck is none of my business unless it’s me they want to get down and dirty with. Otherwise who gives a fuck and why?

We are all human.

What if we acted like it?

What if we made being a human being enough?

What if we all got little more Pro Human in how we view this thing called humanity that includes all of us?

This is why that shirt up above is my favorite T-Shirt. I know I jump around a lot at times and I thank you for indulging my abstract mind. It’s in the abstract that you find the connections that exist nowhere else, yet show how connected we all are.

Happy Friday from your friendly neighborhood Rock N Roll Shaman.

If you want one of these shirts or a hat or something be sure to check out Pro Human.

 

Observational truth or judgement?

I often get accused of judging people. What has happened most often is that what I said had people looking at themselves and feeling guilty and instead of acknowledging they were judging themselves, they blamed me. This is one of several reasons I have often said I wouldn’t wish my life on my worst enemy.

Being the Shaman I am, I have a knack for finding the simple truth of any situation. This often removes any delusion built up around something that allows one to rationalize or justify what is going on. I have always said the moment I feel the need to rationalize or justify my actions, I am most likely in the wrong and I can either accept it and continue on or change it. I never allow myself any excuses to myself. I know when I am being a hypocrite and I am usually the first person to call me on it.

Part of the reason behind this is a sign that used to hang in a call center I worked in. The sign read “Perfection is the goal and excellence will be tolerated.”

Setting that as your goal for behavior in life is stupid, yet I did it anyway.

I have no excuse other than my own desire to be my best at anything I do. I am hyper critical of myself. Perfection is an illusion. It doesn’t exist. We as human beings chase after this idea in various forms in life. Artists struggle with it in every creation.

I understand how flawed I am when I observe who that is. Some of my flaws are things I love the most about myself. I can handle the observational truth of my own being without judging myself or feeling guilty. This is why I often say “If you can’t handle me for me, kindly fuck off and stay there.”

We are under no requirement to like everyone or have everyone like us. I love people I down right dislike. Those people I find it is better if I love them from a silent distance. We are allowed to set healthy boundaries for ourselves based on the influences we allow in our lives. I said healthy boundaries not moral or spiritual, I said healthy.

This is where I examine why I am doing anything from a psychological view point to understand my own mental health in what I am experiencing and how it might be suffering or if I am healthy in how I am feeling about something. There are times in this exploration I find I am overreacting or have misinterpreted something. We all have triggers that are like having a button pushed for a certain emotional response. There are some things that are healthy to get angry about and somethings it is healthy to feel sorrow over.

How we act upon those emotions is another story all together. “Why did you do this to me?”

“You pissed me off. Don’t piss me off and I won’t do that.”

Anyone not read the underlying beginnings of abuse in that. The hard part is taking time away to understand where the anger is coming from and then calmly explaining it. In my 3rd marriage when things were good the last time I yelled at her this is what came out “I”M GOING OUTSIDE TO HAVE A CIGARETTE AND CALM DOWN SO I CAN STOP YELLING AT YOU BECAUSE YOU DON’T DESERVE IT!”

My anger did not validate my behavior and I knew it and I removed me from the situation. When I came back in I apologized for yelling at her and we talked it out calmly and I had taken something she said in a different way than she had meant it and I ended up feeling really stupid. It wasn’t until a few years later I ever raised my voice to her again. Then I divorced her. I removed me from the situation permanently. Things had changed, however those years that things were good, we rarely argued or got mad at each other.

When I look back honestly I don’t see who was at fault, I see two people who grew in different ways and found it hard to like each other. I don’t have an ex wife or ex girlfriend I don’t still love. I would never take any of them back. Here’s why.

There’s a lyric from this song An Apology by the band Floater that sums it up.

One thing I know by now is that in the end,
You can never swim in the same river twice.

My 3rd wife is the only woman I broke up with at one point and went back to. When we split up for the 2nd time I understood why I all I did was get a reminder lesson in why I left the first time.

We always have the power to stop ourselves.

I don’t judge myself for needing the repeat lesson. I accept the truth that I loved her and let my love give me hope and that hope never panned out. Why would any of us punish ourselves for loving someone that much. I am always happy to hear when my exes have found someone and are happy in life. If I want my own happiness it starts with wanting happiness in the lives of even those who have eaten your heart and soul in front of you. To wish anything else for their life is to judge and condemn them based on how things ended between you.

Now look at your romantic history and judge yourself but make sure you understand the truth of how and why it all happened the way it did and own your part in it too.

Now expand that view to the rest of your life.

That’s the path to awakening. It’s the path you have already walked only looking at it with new eyes. You will judge yourself along the way, however remember we are all only human, so go easy on you and learn the lessons and do it better in the now. It’s all any of us can do.

That is one truth I have observed in humanity is that potential to do it better. It’s always there if we allow ourselves to find it on the inside.

The only thing that ever stops us is us.

Fuck fear and do it your way anyway.

Where were you when…..

I am working on my autobiography today and hit a story that I wanted to share with you here.

April 19th 1995 is a date I will never forget. That was the day of the Oklahoma City bombing. There are several reasons I will never forget that day and the first one is Kartney Koch-McCraven.

Kartney worked up stairs from us in the building we shared with their work center. Kartney lived in the dorms at the opposite side from me. I used to ride with Kartney to work. Kartney was one of the sweetest women I ever knew. The air changed when she walked in the room. It just felt better.

The weekend before the bombing Kartney married Shane. Shane I met in tech school just before I left. We both got sent to the 22nd Combat Communications Squadron. When it closed we both got sent to the 32nd Combat Communications Squadron. If he was Jack Lemmon, I was Walter Mathau in this odd couple. We tried to be friends, however we never could figure it out. Shane was a good guy, he just came from another world. He had been raised by Marines and still wasn’t overly happy about being in the Air Force. That said, if you had Shane on your crew, you never had to worry about him dropping the ball and he might end up covering your ass.

They got married the weekend before the bombing and based on what they found of Kartney, she was walking right by the truck when it blew. She had gone down to change over her social security card to her married name.

I had married my first wife 12 days earlier on the 7th of April.

I was home on leave when it happened.

My first wife worked on base and still had to go to work while I was taking two weeks off. I was being sent to Panama in May and wanted to have a couple weeks with my wife before I left. I was stunned that day when I turned on the TV while my wife took a shower. I called into the base to see if I was being pulled off leave. I was told the base was on lockdown and to stay home.

A few of the guys in my shop knew Kartney was heading down there and headed downtown to try and find her. During the course of the search for survivor the 3rd Combat Communications Group provided tents and cots for the workers and aided in security.

At the memorial service for Kartney the day before I left for Panama there was nowhere left to even stand. Not only did we fill all 1,000 seats there were hundreds more standing. It’s been more than 22 years. It took 15 for me to not notice when April 19th was coming on the calendar.

Can we take day off from all the violence around the world for one day please and thank you.

Own it

Over the last few weeks as I have been focusing my attention on the fictional books I am writing and my autobiography, I have all but stopped participating in social media. Here’s why.

Someone like myself who is something of a truth seer is not welcome most places. There is a shift in consciousness going on around the world and there are a lot of people working to cash in on it.

They have their books that encourage you to take their classes and spend time with them in session and make sure you get their prepackaged steps to enlightenment or awakening or activating your DNA or whatever which one is calling it. There are the stores that all look like they bought the same store starter kit.

These people disgust me. These people are doing more to inhibit your growth than they are to empower you to grow. These people hate me. Here’s why.

As a truth seer I shred the veil of delusion and deception. Read this piece on Reiki and see why you never need to take a single Reiki class and that Reiki certification is one of the biggest scams on Earth. Reiki, Mediatation and Holographic Universe and the Psychospirilosophy view

Life really is much simpler than this new industry of self appointed authority would lead you to believe.If they told you the truth they would have nothing to charge you for. It would kill some of the traveling festivals who are filled with people there to show you how to be more spiritual.

First what does it mean to be spiritual and live a spiritual life?

It’s accepting that you are a spirit wrapped in flesh and as Lynyrd Skynyrd put it, all you need is in you soul. Raising your level of self awareness is how you raise your levels of conscious awareness. Self awareness means being more aware of your impact on the world around you. It’s being mindful of your thoughts, words and actions. It’s exercising empathy and patience to achieve understanding.

There is not one single ritual or ceremony in existence that makes you more spiritual. There is not one special type of music that makes you more spiritual. There is not one religion or book to follow that will make you more spiritual. This not one Yoga position that makes you more spiritual. There is not one meditation that makes you more spiritual.

Every life is a spiritual life governed by unseen forces of existence.

Each of us has the ability to connect to our higher selves and this connection gives us access to wisdom and knowledge as old as existence itself. We achieve this connection within us and nothing out here will ever do anything to assist us in doing what we can do all on our own. Some will profess that the use of psychedelics will make it easier. No, it gives you a crutch that will not allow you to do it without the psychedelics.

I use this simple meditation that I have been giving to my students and those I counsel for years.

Say the words “I let go of everything.”

Repeat until you feel your body take over the breathing.

Then say “I go into the void of my own mind to learn what I need to know right now.”

This activates your higher self connection to guide you through your realizations with no need of ever having to take a single class or crack a single book. This will take you further than any drug. This is the journey to activating your DNA. When done you can do things such as what I did in making my skeleton symmetrical. I am not theorizing I am telling you exactly how I did it. I did it by being honest in all areas of my life and honest with myself.

I changed more than my skeleton when I activated my DNA.  Everything you need in order to do it is within you not out here.

Stop giving away your power and empower yourself to own your life, your journey and the impact that life makes on the rest of us.

That’s the one thing these industry people never talk about.

Owning your impact on the lives of all you come in contact with. Owning the suffering you add to when you ignore someone including walking by that homeless person on the street. Once you embraces what it means to be a spirit wrapped in flesh one sees it everyone else too. You see the sameness despite the differences. You see how we are all connected and we see that unless we all chip in it will only get worse. We have seen the history repeat itself and we can see it around us now.

Karmic Law states history will repeat itself until changed. Until we all become one human race and set the stupid bullshit aside we have seen what happens and what is happening.

Dive within yourself and see if you find something different.

 

The Six String Soul Stealer

When I hear it screamin’ it nearly has me creamin’

When it’s played right it makes the soul sing all night

When it’s in the hands of an artist it ain’t even a contest

It is an endless mystery to even those who have achieved mastery

It will bring you to your knees and never has to say please

The string soul stealer know as the guitar has made many a star

It takes your soul to play it right on any given day or night

It owns your life and haunts your dreams waiting for you to once again make it scream

With it in your hands you can make many fans

Short for fanatic the ones you get frantic

Waiting for the next song to bring them alive as you and the soul stealer to dive

Dive deep within to bring them something new again

Acoustic or electric it’s all the same kind of majick

Majick of the soul that makes them feel whole

Gives the something to fill that empty space, something for them to embrace

Or does it take all they have left and give to those with the gift

Whose soul is this thing stealin’ that leaves so many reelin’

Weak in the knees willing to do anything to please

If you do it right they’ll bend to your will every night

You’ll get them off easy enough but you gotta bring your best stuff

Hold back even a little bit and they will tell you that you should just quit

If you don’t leave it all on the stage they will give you rage

If you give it all you got they give it back and give it back hot

Playing the six string soul stealer can make you a bit of a drug dealer

The fans always wanting more and more, maybe this soul stealer has made you a whore

It’s the majick and it ain’t no trick

So pick that thing up and give it all you got and live as if every day is your only shot

The six sting soul stealer known as the guitar asks for nothing less to make you a Rockstar

Greatest what?

Great music is great music.

It doesn’t have a genre and bears no label.

If it’s great it’s great.

What makes a song great?

To quote A film, Eddie and The Cruisers “Words and music.”

Anyone can go on and on about who they think is the greatest guitarist or the greatest drummer or the greatest this and that. People will even argue about the greatest song ever.

Let me be real clear on how your friendly neighborhood Rock N Roll Shaman feels about the greatest in concept.

FUCK THAT NOISE!

Great is great and there ain’t no need to even try to call a greatest in something as subjective as personal taste.

I listen to great music all day and some of it comes from notable greats of yesteryear and some straight out of today, but it’s all great music.

I am working on a side thing writing some lyrics and when I was talking to the dude I’m doing it with, it reminded me of a story.

Several years ago when I was writing under the name The Movie Whore, I was doing a lot ghost work in the indy film world. I did get some interviews over the 3 years I was writing the blog. It was the one with Michael Pare who played Eddie Wilson in the above mentioned film that was my favorite. Here’s why.

That film at 10 changed the way I listened to music. I started paying attention to the lyrics and found out why a song is words and music. That film did as much to inspire my becoming The Rock N Roll Shaman as much as the music has since. Michael told me it was the one role he felt the most grateful to have had when I asked.

Enough about me.

What really makes a great song?

It’s when the artist puts their full life force into it because there is nothing else in life that makes sense. It doesn’t matter who else likes it, or who else it makes sense to, it had to come out and it had to come out that way. It’s the only way the soul could be satisfied in expressing what lie deep within crying to get out. It’s the only to make life bearable at times and other the only way to truly celebrate life.

It’s the full range of the human experience as told through the poetry set to music.

 

Now just for fun my top 5 all time favorite bands.

Motley Crue

Guns N Roses

Cracker (No not Uncle Cracker, just Cracker)

The Who

and the master of the love song, one Mr. Neil Diamond.

They are all great and not the greatest, however they speak to my soul better than anyone else and have for a long ass time.

 

Pick up that six string soul stealer and begin to wail and know that Rock N Roll will never fail.

Give it your very soul if you ever want to truly know what it’s like to truly live Rock N Roll.

My Mom

How to sum up my mother.

When I was a kid, one year for Christmas my dad bought my mom a night shirt that read “Spoiled Rotten Bitch.”

It was her favorite night shirt of all time.

My mother has called me a Son of a Bitch so frequently I tell people I wear that name as a badge of honor to honor my mother.

When I told her this her response was “You damn well better.”

This could be why I love the song Hair of the Dog by Nazareth.

“Now you’re messin’ with a Son of a bitch.”

Do you see how I seemed to have no other choice but to become The Rock N Roll Shaman?

I love my Mom. We don’t always get along. She is still a devote Christian who reads her bible regularly and is still not convinced I am not possessed by Satan, though she has stopped trying to cast him out of me.

If you have never dealt with a Hungarian woman, let me put it this way. If I was going to be scared of anyone, it would be my mom and she doesn’t scare me because I am her baby boy.

As much as I try to be a grown ass man, my mother will never stop seeing the baby boy. How many other sons have this problem?

My mother is also a very strong Empath and it’s where I get it from while my dad is the Medium and Telepath that I get those skills from. For me it means I am sensitive to every kind of energy and its all my parents fault. haha

My mom is also very intelligent, both parents are, however they are a product of their upbringing and societal programming that their generation was subjected to. Hence why we argue far too frequently. At times it feels like I am raising them and in some ways always has.

My mom is about the only one I make at least some effort with to not say “fuck” around her. The rest of I will say “fuck” no matter who you think you are. A lesson on of my Aunts learned the hard way after trying to chastise me on Facebook a few years ago. Here’s why.

I have authority issues and refuse to allow anyone to think they have any authority over me.

The first time my parents saw me after I left in 1992 for Air Force basic training, they realized that I understood that legally they could never tell me what to do again. They understood I would do as I pleased with my life regardless of what they thought or how they felt.

This happened in part after watching my mother not give a flying fuck about what her sisters thought and doing it her way anyway. She has 4 older sisters who still try to run her life and still see her as the baby of the family. No one ever gave my mother credit for her mind. The greatest crime my mothers life has seen.

This woman who really does not like the word fuck is the same woman who taught me this trick.

She stuck her hands out in front of her and wiggled her fingers and asked “Do you know what this is?”

Then she flipped me off with both hands and said “A whole flock of these.” I was 12.

That’s the easiest way to sum my mom. I love her.

 

 

Memories

 
Lookin’ back through the past
As if any of those times were built to last
 
As the movie plays in my mind
I can’t hear any of the lines
 
I can’t feel what was there
I no longer seem to care
 
How much damage was done
All in the name of fun
 
The scars remain
Each tied to a name
 
Faces move by in a blur skipping through the frames
If only I could remember all the names
 
The nightmares I watched that weren’t even mine
These days it’s one way of passing the time
 
Remembering when they had need
Of this heart that ever bleeds
 
Some still think me an evil prick
For how I do my healing trick
 
Bringing them back from the beyond the rim
So often a her and occasionally a him
 
Spirit work that has no pay
Still needs to be done anyway
 
Not many could make it through this kind of life
Always taking on another’s strife
 
Some see me as broken
Some as their lucky token
 
Giving my all
To keep some many from the fall
 
Guided by a gift
As I go on trippin’ the rift
 
A Shaman of the ancient ways
Of the ancient days
 
A life so many don’t understand
Not a lot even can
 
Its the messenger they too often accuse of guilt
So they can keep themselves as they built
 
Never having to admit the harm they cause
Never once taking the pause
 
To turn the mirror inward before they speak
This is why so many have become weak
 
To scared to be wrong
Thinking fighting is what makes them strong
 
It is the meek
Who are slow to speak
 
Slow to anger
Knowing the danger
 
Always taking time in reflection
Before offering an objection
 
If you feel the need to argue
Why is the question for you
 
What makes you so sure the Shaman is wrong
To help guide you is why the Shaman even comes along
 
People who say they want to learn
Then it’s the Shaman they try to burn
 
Mostly a thankless life
Trying to help end the strife
 
Lookin’ back through the years
Seeing those ruled by their fears
 
Then ones who were wise
Took the Shamans advice
 
The fools argued with ignorance
Accusing the Shaman of arrogance
 
Karma always balances out
Of this there is no doubt
 
I often wish they had the wisdom then
To bring their nightmare to an end
 
I’ll never remember all the names as days go by
But their faces etched in memory in my minds eye

Step up and take your shot

Who’s next
Who’s left
Step up and take your shot

They keep coming one by one
When will this be done

It never ends
I’ll never bend

Who’s next
Who’s left
Step up and take your shot

One day this fight will end
Til then I make my stand

I’m not going to pretend
I really don’t want this to ever end

I live for the fight
Crave it day and night

Who’s next
Who’s left
Step up and take your shot

It’s the thrill of the fight
That makes me feel alive

It’s the battle won
That keeps me going on

Step up and take your shot

How to access your DNA the simple truth

A few years ago I did what many might consider to be impossible.

I was born with a short leg and over sized hip on the right side. When I was a teenager they took X-rays to verify this.

A few years ago I made my skeleton symmetrical internally on my own. I did this by unlocking the cipher lock that is in our DNA.

What I am about to tell you is not theory, it is fact based on how I did it.

There are no special tones I listened to. I did not do yoga. I never attended any seminars or workshops. I never took psychedelics. I never followed any steps written by anyone in any book. I did not break all attachments. I did not get rid of my ego.

What I did was learn how to live what love is in individual fashion. Love is attachment.

You can not live love and not be attached to someone or several people.

You can not live love without an ego. Your ego is your identity and is exactly who you say you are. Without an ego you are a slave to all around you and will do nothing to care for yourself. You cannot reach higher levels of awareness without your ego, an identity that gives you a point of reference.

I spent a few years in the egoless state and it was I reclaimed my identity that I saw it’s priceless value and became even more aware.

You can not access your DNA without understanding what love is based on life experience.

That means no one, including me can teach you how to do it in any way, form or fashion.

Anyone claiming to have the steps to follow has not completed the journey.

As I mentioned there are medical records to back up what I have done to myself.

Now then to access your DNA you have to have the first hand life experience of living every aspect of what love is.

The journey to do this is a solo journey and those who sell the group experience are actually retarding the process. It’s all based in individual view and expression. No matter what metaphors I used to get there you have to use your own and figure out your own metaphors that your subconscious uses to store information.

The subconscious mind uses metaphor to store information that is translated into what we call language in the conscious mind.

All language is metaphorical and has only the meaning we agree to. In the actual and the factual nothing has a name and we have given it all names in order to communicate with each other and try to make sense out if all through language. Education systems actually do more to inhibit out innate understanding of life the Universe and most things than any other source of retardation in understanding on the planet.

Once I unlocked my DNA for self programming, I made many changes. The evolution of thought that I have experienced in order to evolve my DNA is not in any teaching anyone is preaching.

I can’t teach it to you either. No one can. It is solely based in real life experience you have to have.

The best myself or any other can do is be a guide or sounding board so to speak as you take the journey.

To be that guide I work on donation, no donation required or asked for.

If you have a true desire to take the journey that unlocks your full potential, be careful and know your entire life is going to change and in ways you probably will not like. As I said it is a behavioral cipher lock. You can’t fake it and no one can do it for you.

The best I can do is give an assist with the Reiki system I designed for providing energetic support to those who come to me.

 

 

So it flows

In second sight
I found inner light

With the mirror turned inward
I found the steps to go forward

A voice from deep within
That knows nothing of sin

Home is your art
Your heart is your art

Let it travel and soar
In living art there is no score

How do you best show off just being you
The best of you from many a different view

That part of you that is afraid to be
Yet it’s more of this inner you they need to see

Never sellin’ it
Just livin’ it

That’s the art you are
That’s your inner star

The light the world needs to see
Coming from you and coming from me

Letting who we are as we live
Show the love we give

Not through conformity and labels
Through pro human love just because we are able

Let go
Into your flow

Let who you are
Be your own kind of star

Remember as life goes
So it flows

The Idea of the Deconstruction of the Human Condition

The idea of deconstruction is not a new one. Taking something apart to see how it works. Studying the smaller parts to better understand the sum and how all the parts work together.

To understand yourself you must deconstruct yourself and understand everything that goes into you being you. What are all the parts that go into the projection of self that is your ego or the idea that is you.

I like to explain things as simply as possible, using the fewest words possible. I like to work under the idea that if you can’t explain it simply in your own words than you don’t get it. That’s my way of saying

“Don’t expect me to quote other people much.”

I began the deconstruction of me when my 3rd wife had told me that her friends didn’t like the way I spoke. I had a habit of sounding authoritative in everything I had to say, leaving little room to question the content based on the delivery in my tone and posture.

I asked myself why I spoke this way all the time.

The beginning of the answer was readily available as the memory of working in a call center for the third time came up in my minds eye.

While I was in training at United Healthcare, I was told I am the expert and to not sound like I am the expert causes the customer to lose confidence in the answers I’m providing to their questions. I later became a supervisor and would coach my representatives on their delivery using this concept. During the 4 years of 40 or more hours a week of speaking to people this way, it became my normal way of speaking.

Our environment does have an effect and sometimes a profound one. My ego had developed this form of communication due to the environment that paid for my life. It also happened to be the environment I spent the most time in during the years I spent there. Answering this one question was just the beginning of the deconstruction of me and why I speak the way I do.

I am a nonconformist by nature. My dedication to myself to be an individual and to never go along with the crowd comes from my Hungarian DNA.

I did some research and I was happy to find out there are millions of people who live life from this rugged individualistic view. However for me, the only Hungarians I had ever met were my mom’s side of the family.

My mother is the youngest of 5 female Hungarians with a Hungarian father. My grandfather was a brilliant man. He was a WWII veteran of the United States Army. A decorated veteran who was a warrior to the core. He was well known before meeting my grandmother to be a bar brawler. If a fight broke out in a bar my grandfather might have started it and even if he didn’t he was going to get in the middle of it.

The first time my grandparents met, they didn’t actually meet. Grandpa had grabbed Grandma’s purse to hit someone with. They met a week or two later and in that first meeting Grandpa told her he was going to marry her. 3 Months later they were married.

My mother and all 4 of my aunts are brilliant minded women. They married very intelligent men, all of them. When I was a kid, I was the kind of kid who read the encyclopedia for fun.

I am that kind of brilliant myself.

At 9 I was reading Bruce Lee’s Jeet Kune Do. At 4 my dad caught me watching an advanced economics class on public access and then I turned around and explained it to him off the lecture portion alone.

There is a legitimate reason I feel comfortable being a teacher and a guide. However it wasn’t until I took this journey started by my 3rd wife’s questions that I learned just how different I really am and how intelligent I am. It’s why I thank her now for the hell it was then to find the reasons why I was such a pain in her ass in simply being me.

Even as a child I spent most of my time alone and liked it that way. In fact the only times I ever felt lonely was around other people. I felt that way because I never really fit in unless I blended into the background. I had to work at not talking in order to be accepted.

In the time I spent by myself I was often engaged in mind feeding exercises or working on the martial arts stuff I read for 3 years from age 9- 12. I was creating my own martial art based on the formless ideas Bruce Lee had opened my mind to at 9. I practiced alone and no one has seen my form accept one time when I was 14. That was the last fight I have ever allowed myself to be in.

I didn’t like what happened later that day after that one fight at lunch. In the physical education class I was in the kid I had fought was in that class also. When his name was called another kid yelled out “YEAH AND THAT SMALL GUY OVER THERE KICKED THE SHIT OUT OF HIM AT LUNCH!”

I felt how humiliated he was and after that I never wanted to make anyone feel that again. I failed for many years at that, however it was never a result from engaging in physical violence to this day.

I am 41 as I write this and I am proud of the fact I have never had to hit somebody or get hit by someone.

I have continued my study of martial arts over my life in various forms and in spending time with martial artists who have studied a variety of forms, never telling them I had my own form I had been working on since I was a kid. I had no interest in showing it to them or in sparring to prove myself. I know I can defend myself if needed and I work at making sure it is not needed.

Unlike my grandfather I chose to become a man of peace. Typical Hungarian choice. However like my grandfather, I did choose military service. I spent 4 years in the United States Air Force. Those 4 years had a lasting impression on my projection of self ever since.

Arrogance speaks from a place of what a human being might do or might be capable of.

Confidence speaks from experience of what a human being has done or is doing.

I never want to be a man who sold it because it sounded good at the time or because I was trying to provide a new way or some crazy ego driven shit such as that. I don’t see myself as anything other than a human being who just happened to be born with this intellect and the life to maximize it’s potential, however in true Hungarian fashion, I did it my way and not in any traditional fashion.

My self dedication to being an individual is what led me here and understanding why I always felt this way from the core of my being was a journey I wasn’t even close to ready to take until I was 36.

The answer to the question who am I and what can I realistically do about it led me on quite the journey indeed and I doubt even I can sum it up in a few words. As you can see already it’s a complex answer with many facets to examine. You’re not that different from me in that regard. We are the same. The sum total of our life experience and what we have decided to do with and about it and is who we are right now.

As simple as we would like life to be, we are complex creatures who take refuge in simplicity. Life is complicated at times and often it’s a complexity of our own design that serves a purpose we may or may not understand until we take the journey to know ourselves to understand why it is so complex. Your web of complexity is certain to be different than mine, even if we share the same types of experiences that taught us who to become now and why.

Our identity and sense of self is never set and always in a state of refinement and never has a set definition.

One of my earliest memories was when my mom took me to see Star Wars in 1977.

While many day dreamed of becoming Luke Skywalker or Han Solo, I had picked out Obi Wan Kenobi as my favorite. He let Vader kill him. He could have won the fight, but decided to sacrifice his life for something bigger than himself.

Most 3 year old’s would not have keyed in on that, I get that, I’m odd. This film also solidified my love for this medium of storytelling and I have seen over 5,000 movies. I have dyslexia and ADHD, making reading a chore instead of the pleasure so many others find it to be. If there’s a film version, I’ll skip the book every time.

As a child I was watching post apocalyptic films such as The Planet of Apes series and Logan’s Run and was understanding the concepts buried within. I watched cartoons as well and it was the exposure to Anime in the form of a cartoon called Star Blazers that I found a cartoon I got in the deeper concepts and ideas being explored. I was also a big fan of Robotech for the same reason when it hit the USA when I was a kid. I’m still a big fan of Tom & Jerry and the Looney Toons. My tastes are as eclectic as I am.

What I always found fascinating in Merry Melodies, as it is also known, is that the characters such as Yosemite Sam, Marvin the Martian, Elmer Fudd and any “antagonist” character were often not that smart and easily defeated by their over confidence in every circumstance. Just as Tom was often outsmarted by Jerry, Bugs and crew had a way of making the opposition look stupid.

What does any of this have to do with deconstructing the human condition?

Each of us is a make up of everything we have been exposed to whether we like it or not.

Think of it like this. I was learning at an early age that to hunt for sport was stupid. I was learning at an early age to be a bully was stupid. I was learning at an early age the only weapon you need is your mind and that it’s better to out smart them then try to beat them at their own game.

It’s why I always say “I play the player not the game.”

In studying the oppositions tendencies, they show you how to beat them while you sit back and watch. The opposition is often confident in it’s strategy and rarely uses much imagination as it believes itself to be superior or it would not have engaged in the activity to begin with. This is often due to a history of getting away with it.

I have noticed frequently in my life that when facing a bully, standing up to them screws with their heads. Refusing to play the part of the willing prey for them seems to make them stop in their tracks. It confuses them.

While not always, I have found many who take the bully approach are not that smart. I have also noticed that it typically stems from feelings of inadequacy and insecurity. The activity of putting others down or pushing them around or emotionally abusing them is often done to make the abuser or bully feel superior and reinforce their ego projection.

I have often found myself in the right place at the right time to teach the bully a lesson. I use my mind and I never engage in violence and refuse to do so. I live life by one rule.

Stay out of jail and if you like it, do it again, if you don’t then don’t do it again.

A simple rule that makes some complex situations easy to walk away from. If I continue on this track what is the likelihood I could end up in jail?

Anytime violence is involved or the threat of it, the chances you will end up in jail go up. This to me is a good deterrent. I have heard enough stories from those who have gone to know I will not enjoy the experience.

The understood possible consequence is enough for me. Some people have no problem thinking it will never happen to them or have no issues with going to jail or prison. I am not one of them. Here is why.

I love my freedom. I love that as long as I am out of prison my life can take really interesting turns at any given moment in time that can lead to some fun. I have explored the concept of the possible turns my life could take behind bars and I did not like any of them in just the idea of the possibilities.

Why take chances if you are not willing to face the consequences for your choices?

It’s why one of my favorite questions is why do we get mad at the cop for catching us?

What was it that made us think we didn’t deserve to get caught?

What made us think we were above the law?

What does that say about the psychological make up of the career criminal?

What does that say about the individual who only occasionally breaks a law here or there?

What does that say about you if you decide to break a law and think you should get away with it regardless of your reasoning?

I learned at an early age that if you didn’t caught you wouldn’t get in trouble. However I also learned that a falsely accused man can still serve the time.

I was going to a Baptist school for 1st through 3rd grade. During that time in the United States beating a kids ass with
a big wooden paddle was not considered child abuse, it was called correcting the child.

At this school whenever somebody just said I did something wrong, that was all it took for me to get paddled. On many occasions I had done nothing wrong and was not believed. I was beaten anyway. At times sent home with a letter to be signed by my parents to make sure I got spanked there too.

At one point after listening to me, my mother told me to tell the principal that they were not allowed to spank me any more.

The next time some one made something up to get me in trouble, I told this to the principal who called my mother. She verified what I was saying was true and then he asked her to come down to the school to spank me herself. To this day my mother feels guilty that it ever happened, any of it. I’m over it. It showed me at an early age that it was OK to stand up for myself even if the results ended in a beating anyway.

I switched schools and went to a public school starting in the 4th grade. The physical abuse had stopped and I was about to get a lesson in emotional abuse that set the course for the rest of my life where sarcasm became my trademark for too many years.

For the next 3 years of elementary school the other kids liked to a play game called “how long will it take to make him cry?” I heard every kind of insult and was happy to be going to a different junior high than the rest of my class.

I never had that problem again and those who tried met a razor sharp wit that still has yet to get my ass handed to me, though I came close a time or two.

It was my childhood that heavily influenced the father I became and continue to refine.

By today’s standards thankfully this behavior by the Baptist school is considered child abuse. I used to spank my son. Not hard, just enough to get his attention. I stopped as he got older and we could talk it out. His nick name is The Dude and no it is not because of the film THE BIG LEBOWSKI. At the time I had not yet seen the film. I got it from a friend whose children my 2nd wife and I provided day care for while I was going back to school online to get an Associates Degree in business management using my G.I. Bill from my time in the Air Force.

I use the nick name as a form of behavioral identity management. I attached behaviors to what it means to be The Dude. It includes things such as saying please and thank you and being a friend to everyone.

It means not being rude and other things we have all agreed are proper behavior for getting along with other people and obeying the rules.

Since my son was 4 instead of punishing him, I spend roughly 90 seconds reminding him what it means to be The Dude and he auto corrects and seldom acts up or out. He’s 11 now and is one the most well behaved and well adjusted kids you would ever want to meet.

I have yet to have other people complain to me about his behavior for any reason.

In fact when we were going through the terrible toddler stage and I was a single dad at the time, I would pick him up at daycare and see the behavior of the other children his age and realized he was easy in comparison. He has had his moments, however they have been few and far between and nothing any other kid including myself didn’t do from time to time.

He needs his reminder on occasion and he goes right back to being him. I look at who he is becoming and feel good about applying behavioral psychology the way I have with him.

He is taking his 3rd musical instrument and is in wrestling in school with his mom. It’s why I feel good about where he is as I write this. He has 2 half sisters that are older. When he lived with me he missed them a lot. I know they missed him too. His step dad is a decent man and fellow veteran. Army instead of Air Force and a decent human being. I am happy she married him. I don’t miss her. She is a decent mother.

Next.

As you can see giving my sons ego the concept of being The Dude gave him parameters to use in behavior that leaves him with plenty of room to explore who he can become. My son and I have few shared interests and I never played a musical instrument or got involved in athletics. I am proud him.

I love seeing him being his own person instead of trying to be what he thinks I would want him to be or what I would have been. I can’t help but to feel this is also a result of being the rugged individualism embracing idealist I am. I want to him to find his own identity and be his own individual as much as I want to be mine.

It is a distinct difference to the relationship I had with my father. For years my dad was upset that I never went into his business as a contractor. I have heard many stories from many sons whose dads wanted them to be the replacement version of them in society once they were gone.

Their idea whether they knew it or not was of having some sense of immorality. I carry on through my seed. In some ways I am doing the same thing with my son only instead of being a carbon copy of me I hope he does stuff because he really wants to or likes it and not just because he thinks it will make me happy. As long as he faces the consequences for his actions honestly, I will always be a proud father.

Now I have never wanted to be the “do as I say not as I do” kind of dad. My own dad was like that and I still call it the Hypocrites Oath. Since becoming a father I have made a lot of changes in my own behavior to be a better example of walking the talk to my son and his sisters, my stepdaughters, who had chosen of their own free will to call me dad. I am not saying I have been perfect at it, however it is at the front of my mind.

Would I want my kids to see this or do this?

If the answer is no, I either don’t do it or make sure they never find out. I am still human and have my things I like to do that are for adults only.

However I make sure those activities are never witnessed by them. If they decide to do some of this stuff once they turn 18, cool, I can’t say shit. That is the exact attitude I took once I turned 18.

I was in the Air Force and there was no way I was ever letting my parents tell me what to do ever again. I had been looking forward to that moment once I realized legally they could never tell me what to do again.

Most of this behavior is stuff we have agreed we shouldn’t do in front of anyone much less kids.

The biggest change for me in becoming a father was giving up drinking and realizing I had been an alcoholic. I had an easy time giving up booze.

The military had taught me the value of self discipline while at the same time creating the alcoholic I became. I still have yet to receive any addiction counseling nor have I ever gone to any meetings for any type of addiction. I found once I had fully committed to the decision it was easy. However there have been rare occasions when in troubled times the idea of a drink has crossed my mind.

Understanding why you do the things you do gives you the opportunity to be prepared when someone starts to question the intent behind anything you do or say.

The only thing I truly know is myself and I work hard to understand why it is I might be doing or saying anything. This exercise in self awareness and understanding oneself before responding to anything can be very revealing about the rest of you as well.

I say to know and understand thyself is to understand the rest as well.

Even in my stubborn as any mule individualism, I must still accept the universal truth that I’m as human as you are and that means there are some basic things we all share in common.

I am not that special in my humanness, even though I have found myself to be uncommon in the way I have embraced it and the decisions I make about what to do with it. I shy away from adoration. It makes me uncomfortable. I am not any better than anyone and I dislike being elevated by other people in the view they sometimes take of me.

While I acknowledge that my chosen representation of who I am is not typical by a long shot, I do hold that it is an absolute truth that any has the potential to be as I choose to be.

It is all about the choices we make in our every word and thought and action. The beauty of it is that you don’t have to become as I am. There is a lot of work that goes into being this guy that some might not want to do and that is quite OK. Having free will means having the gift and the right to choose what kind of existence you have.

There are things that are beyond our control that will happen at times. However it’s in how we view looking back that tells us about who we are right now. The emotion we attach to the memory and the rationalization we give for choosing that is our choice and that choice can be changed at any time.

I have often been known to say “There’s only one thing for sure about me, and that’s nothing’s for sure about me.”

The most beautiful gift each of us has as a human being is the ability to grow and learn and become something more than the sum of our experience based on what we choose to do about and with it.

The only true constant in existence is change. Change is the basis for existence. If there was no change there would be no existence.

Evolve in your thinking, evolve physically or die out. Evolution is life, life is evolution. The Universe is in a constant state of evolution and becoming and so are we not just in life but as a species.

While attending the private school they gave us tests. My reading comprehension and other comprehension scores were at the PhD level as it was the highest score they had. If it doesn’t make sense to me it doesn’t make sense.

I was left in the same grade and when I moved to public school they refused my mother’s request to have me tested for advance classes then known as the G.A.T.E. Program. I never did well in school and while the other kids were still trying to figure out the concepts we had just learned, I already had them down and was using them as a springboard in my internal thinking of what I could do with these concepts that was far beyond anything going on in the class.

I was already doing probability figures in my head.

I was 7 when I first started these self guided mental exercises.

The thought never occurred to me that I was that different and I thought everyone did it and kept it to themselves. To me I was normal. To my teachers I was lazy.

My mother also asked I be tested for ADHD and was again denied and I was labeled lazy. I was bored and could never see the value in doing homework the way it was prescribed. In junior high I failed math classes because I was trying to rewrite the math. In high school I nearly flunked out my junior year and went to a continuation high school for kids with behavioral issues and pregnant teens.

I was allowed to work at my own pace and no homework. I graduated 6 months early and hung around to cross the stage with my friends at the end of the year. During that time I got involved with student government and became the student representative for my school at the board of education meetings. That early lesson I got about standing up for myself was about to piss off the entire school board in one fatal shot.

During one of the meetings, we were going over the teacher’s policy for the district. It was the rules the teachers were supposed to be following. I noticed several things that I had witnessed being ignored and led to my failing classes and said so.

I spoke my mind and called out the schools where I had attended that I saw this happen before my very eyes and I suggested that the board be more concerned with enforcing this policy than the policy itself from the student perspective. They were not amused to be hearing this from my 17 year old
mouth.

Did I mention I am infamous for calling it like I see it regardless who it might upset?

It’s a behavioral trait I still embrace today. Here’s why.

It is my belief that right makes might not the other way around. I also truly believe that nothing can stand against the truth. I take my stands based on careful consideration of what is the right thing to do in this situation and why?

I had an ex girlfriend tell me once she only argued if she knew she was right. She was studying to become an attorney and I won maybe 2 arguments during the year and a half we were together. It is guidance I have been using for more then 15 years as I have picked my battles knowing I had already won before I ever started.

Why set yourself up for a loss if you can help it?

People have wished me dead for this more times than I can count. I am intelligent and capable of explaining my point in a way that it can not be denied other than you don’t like it. It’s a skill I’ve worked my entire life to master.

I got early training with my mother’s Hungarian sisters and their husbands and my cousins. Let me see if I can explain a typical family get together for this group of Hungarians.

In this family when we get together we share what we’ve learned about the world and how we think it could be done better in the craziest, yet most intelligent fashion I have ever seen.

If you were going to run at the mouth you had to be prepared to explain where your view came from. You had to be able to show how you came to it through experience and your own choice or you were summarily dismissed an no longer allowed to talk.

It was explained that unless you take the time to examine it and have some basis tied to it in experience that led you to think this way you were a slave to whatever anyone might try to sell you. It’s a thought process I used to listen to when I was 5 and they thought I was sleeping.

The education behind the arguments I overheard and eventually joined in included the following areas, philosophy, real estate, psychology, economics, political science, being debated by college graduates in these areas and a school teacher turned text book salesman, brassy broad, Air Force Vietnam war officer, housewife, contractor, 2 of them and whatever the rest of us were into at that time.

I had a lot of really intelligent and well educated by school and life human beings to mold and shape who I became before I entered the United States Air Force at age 17.

Hungarians at the genetic level have a predisposition to be in the never ending quest to quench the never ending thirst to learn and still be an individual. The military was going to be a test of that. Over the next 4 years I did find a way to fit in and stand out at the same time.

At the core of my being I am a protector. This happened due to a traumatic experience I had at age 5 where I was unable to protect someone. The trauma set the course for everything I studied in martial arts to be able to protect. Because the individual I could not protect then was a female child, I am protective of women and children.

Something I have to check myself on even to this day. If I see a woman in trouble I dawn my cape as Captain Save a Ho or put on my armor and mount my horse to save the damsel in distress.

I have gotten better about it over the years, however it is still known to add a complication to my life here and there.

Most of my friends are women and most of them have endured some form of abuse physical and/or emotional at some point.

I went to basic training at age 17 after my parents signed a waiver to let me go 2 and a half months before my 18th birthday. I had never really been away from home and never on my own before this experience.

When I think back to the day I swore my oath, I can almost hear it as if I was there again. I remember thinking about the words I spoke. I understood what I was saying and the commitment I was making and who I was making it to.

In my own words I would say that I swore an oath to the land and the people of this country to defend them against all enemies both foreign and domestic and that I would only follow lawful orders and I would be expected to know the difference and act accordingly.

My oath wasn’t to the government, it was to the land and the people.

Long story short, there was a time in basic training my mom had been calling the base to check on me. When the instructors called me in the office and told me to go call her, I asked them if the others were going to be able to go too. They said no. I asked why should I be allowed if we aren’t all going.

I had shown I understood that in being there, I was a part of the flight not to be singled out for any special treatment regardless of whether or not my mom thought so. I showed my ability to put myself at the same level as the other young men around me going through the experience with me. To be fair to my mom, I had just spent a week transitioning to a new flight after spending a few days in the hospital with strep throat.

I had been technically recycled to a new flight and from day one of training they programmed it into us that this was our biggest fear. I had not failed at anything, however I had spent one day too long in the hospital and had missed too much in the way of training to stay with my original flight.

My instructor who had to send me out of his flight was not happy to be doing this. I’d been a good airman and I wasn’t being disciplined. The only thing I had done close to wrong was get sick. I would like to say it softened the blow and didn’t bother me. It did bother me.

Psychologically speaking I had been in a traumatic situation forming bonds with the people around me for mutual support. I say traumatic due to finding it traumatic to have people screaming in your face on occasion. If you enjoy being on the other end of having yourself, your family and the family pets insulted in creative ways at high volume a few inches away from your face, seek help.

To maintain ones military discipline and learn to let it roll on by as if it was nothing was one way of preparing us to stay level headed in the midst of chaos. I knew it was a game of psychological breakdown and restructuring and played their game their way because I had sworn an oath to do so.

I understood what was happening around me was exactly what I signed up for and there was no sense in complaining. Logic said, I signed on the line and my ass was no longer mine. I could plainly see I was not being singled out unless I made the mistake of sticking out.

Everyone was getting yelled at from time to time. There were no blanket parties and I did not hear about it happening while I was in the Air Force. We were never threatened with physical violence and every instructor I had was a decent human being with an incredibly difficult job to do in a short period of time.

The men and women who I spent time with at Lackland AFB from June 16th to August 7th of 1992 were absolute professionals. From the instructors to the staff at the hospital and every enlisted person and officer I dealt with. I unknowingly at the time could sense the dedication it took and the time lost with family to make sure these 50 guys who never met, turned into a cohesive unit able to manage their own morale and support each other to ensure every one made it and do it in 6 weeks.

The men and women of every service branch who serve as basic training instructors have one of the most demanding jobs I have ever seen and one of the most important jobs in the United States military. When the veil dropped on graduation day and they could let up, we saw the more human side of the Godzilla’s that had been breathing fire down our necks and in our faces. I knew it had been a game of sorts and these were master level players I was honored and privileged to learn from.

I started smoking cigarettes at age 13. The first time I lit up it was as if I had taken my first real breath. I didn’t cough or get queasy, I had just found the only best friend and life long addiction I need. In basic training I was not allowed to touch a cigarette much less smoke one.

I left Lackland on August 7th and arrived at Keesler AFB in Biloxi Mississippi and by the end of the day I bought a carton and a zippo. I was there to spend the next 6 months learning to become a Wideband Equipment Systems Specialist. I didn’t know what that meant at the time either. It’s why I was at Technical school until February 13th 1993.

Don’t worry at some point this abstract journey will make sense. I am left handed and right brained and live in the abstract. These were the things I had to revisit to understand who I became later and why.

I found out after coming back to school after taking a couple weeks of leave to go home that sometimes it’s better to shut up than tell the truth. The entire student population at Keesler was given two weeks off around the Christmas holiday. I flew home for the first time in six months. It was fun seeing people and at the same time, I saw why I left this small college town to begin with. I was happy with the decision I’d made and was happy to go back to school.

Before I left I had folded a pair of pants over the back of my chair and draped the shirt for my uniform over the back as well. When I returned I found out they were going to give me a letter of counseling for this. I challenged it with my training manager who referred me up to the chief training manager. He had told me that none of his managers would have written me up for that, if that was indeed all that was wrong with my room.

He asked if I was calling his managers liars. I said “No sir, you are.”

He was not amused. About 15 minutes later I had moved to the commanding officers office and had been upgraded to a letter of reprimand. I lost off base privileges and the ability to wear civilian clothes for the next 6 weeks. I was also assigned R.M.T. which technically stands for Remedial Military Training and was known by the students as Rakes, Mowers and Trash. My mouth cost me good on that one.

I fought the law and the law won that time.

When it came to my studies I was put through 3 months of accelerated advanced electronic theory and then 3 months of learning the equipment I might see out on the job. It was there I learned what Boolean algebra is and how to convert digital to analog and back using conversion math, using Binary, Oct, and Hexadecimal.

I learned the design of the modern day signal that is used for every form of communication there is and how to manipulate it in a myriad of ways. It was my job to know how to do it and they trained me well.

Everything I was learning was just more conditioning of this human to be what the Air Force needed me to be. We often condition ourselves for events in the future with no real understanding of what our life is leading us to. We do this so that we are prepared in the moment for what ever that moment turns into.

Believe it or not this is still answering the question as to why I speak to people the way I do regardless of venue or who they think they are in the moment.

How we say it is often more important then what we say. How we speak says a lot about us to the audience and their view is out of our control.

At 18 years old the Air Force shipped me to Patrick AFB in Cocoa Beach Florida. I took advantage of the fact that from my second floor dorm room, it took me 5 minutes to walk to the beach. I fell in love with being this close to the ocean. I have never slept better than I did those months with my window open hearing the waves crashing on the beach. The nights I had trouble sleeping I walked along the beach working out whatever it was that was keeping me up.

I’ve always used self cognitive therapy to understand what was going on in my life. I’ve always found time to talk to myself and see if I could get and keep my head on straight as the most valuable time alone anyone could ever take. It is in these self therapy sessions I adjusted the behavior seen by the rest so that I could better fit in and be accepted by the crowd I found myself in.

While I like being alone, I like getting along when my life does require I be around people.

I’ve always been something of a chameleon in viewing life like this. Though one place I didn’t really blend in and my sticking out worked in my favor was at the Inner Room.

It was a strip club a few miles from the base and a couple blocks off the beach. I’d never been to strip club before and with my Christian up bringing I felt like I was getting away with doing something wrong, which of course made it even better in my opinion at the time.

If you think I’m about to tell some wild tales, wrong answer, please try again. The experience I had as I look back is typically Hungarian in my interactions with these women, many of whom adopted me as a kid brother.

Hungarians are known for both respecting and lusting after women. What this created in me is a man who feels guilty about finding women physically desirable. What that looked like was an 18 year old maintaining eye contact with half naked women a few nights a week for a few months.

I always notice the physical attributes that I find visually pleasing, however I still respect those attributes belong to a complex human being. I feel bad about the idea of fantasizing about a woman.

I did a lot of asking questions and listening with the women of the Inner Room. Many of these women would shoot you in a dark alley and never ask a single question if they didn’t know you. It was a dark side of the life they led doing the job they did at the time. I met veterans, college students working towards a PhD is psychology, single mothers doing the best they could and others. In fact some of them were doing exactly what they enjoyed doing for a living.

During the many hours of education I was getting the lessons they were teaching became some of the most valuable things I ever learned. They taught me how to be a man women would want. They told me all the behavior that made women want to walk away. As the Air Force had just got done teaching me what it meant to be an Airman, these women were teaching me what to took to be a man.

I remember the one recurring theme in these many hours of education was confidence. As human beings we respond to confident people. Whether or not people think you are confident begins with how you speak and your body language as you do so.

A lesson introduced by family by example.

Explained by women in a strip club.

A reminder in the form of a job and a lifetime of just doing it without ever stopping to remember where I even got the idea, much less how it became the way I talked for the most part for most of my life.

I wear a Nike shirt for a night shirt and have a Nike hat I wear on occasion to remind me to just do it, whatever it is.

It was a lot of things over time that when my 3rd wife asked the question when I was 36 that started a journey that had me wondering why I do all of the things I do, the deconstruction of myself had begun.

In answering one “why” I had answered several others and being me it was something new to learn. The challenge of learning who I had become and why in the totality of who I am became an obsession. I can honestly say I had become obsessed with who I was and why I was they way I was and why so many people for the first time seemed to really have a problem with it. I learned it was basically my 3rd wife who had the biggest problem with it.

Had she never had the problem with who I was, I never would’ve taken this journey and I will always be grateful for the time we had for what it was, regardless of some of the things that happened that made ending it the healthiest thing either of us could do for ourselves and each other.

I still tend to speak with confidence and come off authoritative at times. I’ve noticed how people react to it and work diligently at toning it down to better fit the moment and the context of the surroundings and who I am engaged with and why.

I have learned to adjust my projection to get the reflections I desire to notice and turn around. I adjusted my projection to allow the room of mirrors that is my current life to rarely have a distorted view. The reflections these days are clear. I had to drop certain people from my life and noticed it was my unclear projection of self that is what they were reflecting back at me.

I had finally unlocked my myself and became my key to the door that led to my authentic representation of self and freed me from the prison of attempting to be anything less. In order to find acceptance we often create a prison that is the image of self we project that is not who we truly are.

It’s why so many say “No one gets me.”

Please complain, but only if you have a solution

A complaint not followed up with a solution is whining.

A complaint followed up with a solution means you have a valid complaint. Here’s why.

If it can be fixed then something is happening that is causing stress. This stress is causing an emotional stir in the ocean within. This stress could be showing up in physical symptoms.

This is about emotional and mental health not about anything being right or wrong.

What is causing the stress?

Why is it causing stress?

What can realistically be done to change the situation to discontinue the feeling of stress?

When I was working in the corporate world I was asked since I had seemed to think I had all the answers to go with all my complaints to do something about it and was given the project of redesigning the operating model for customer service for a fortune 100 company.

Using this as an example let’s walk through my thought process and see if we can find the holes.

Most of the complaints centered around not enough face time between supervisors and representatives and supervisors taking up to 30 escalated calls a day.

Before redesigning this model I was such a regular at the bar I went to after work that after I had stopped going for a year, I made it one night and before I could even open the door my usual drink was on the bar waiting for me.

Anyone think this is healthy behavior?

I was stressed out because my people were in my face about needing my time and my bosses were in my face because my people were in my face. I was getting yelled at 30 times a day by customers. I was not the only one. It had become the norm in the call center.

Most of my leadership material came from the my design model to make it better for everyone involved. The solution I came up with was to add something old and give it a twist. A few years before I started at the company they used to have a lead position to assist the supervisor so they could focus on the people.

Adding the lead I added defined roles and responsibilities for us to work in a synergistic union with the core idea being training the lead to be me. I always felt part of my job was to train my replacement and if I was as good as I could be I would have more than one waiting in the wings for when I moved up.

Adding the lead gave me more float time to float from representative to representative to check in and see how they were doing. It gave me more time to get to know them as human beings and see the stress they were under and gave me opportunities to alleviate that stress if possible. With this company I had spent a year on the phones as a rep and understood the pressures of the job. Did I mention it was health insurance customer service?

When dealing with peoples money and their health empathy was at the core of everything we trained our people to provide our customers with. Taking my favorite interview question and my favorite answer to that question left me with some integrity to walk.

What is willful ignorance and how is it abusive?

To be willfully ignorant one has to choose to ignore what is presented before them.

This is often a result of not wanting to deal with whatever it is they are choosing to ignore.

One who refuses to deal with things abuses themselves and projects that abuse into the shared reality.

The abuse comes in the form of self talk that allows for harm filled behavior to continue.

We are all connected and what we do to ourselves is felt by all on the subconscious level. It’s easy to make the decision to ignore that fact of existence.

To ignore that fact allows the one making that decision to ignore the actual harm they do and to be selfish in their desires and use many rationalizations and justifications for it. This is where the idea of earning more than others and just playing the game as it is comes into lay to absolve one of guilt.

The problem is life is not a game and the score some rack up comes at great cost for many so few can elevate themselves in willful ignorance.

Willfully ignoring that in order to climb in status one must crush others to do so and hold them down with everything it takes if they want to keep their status.

This is what makes social media so dangerous.

If you look around at all of your social media outlets from a detached view you will note it is more of a popularity contest than anything else.

Otherwise why would we keep track of how many friends, connection, followers we have?

Why even have a mechanism for counting likes and stuff?

Without the intent of producing the result, the result is hierarchy based on social acceptance or to say it’s high school rules. If you aren’t one of the cool kids, well the cool kids will push you out and work at making you see just how uncool they think you are.

You can watch the flocks as they metaphorically french kiss each others assholes.It actually gets to be kind of sickening to see. Here’s why.

They do it for image and don’t really give a shit as long as it keeps their post flowing and the numbers going they will kiss any ass they have to. If someone disagrees the flock moves in to help them ignore and bury the opposing view in a layer of asshole french kissing.

For me I see it and I see everything wrong with the world. I see grown ass men and women acting like scared little children in front of the world showing exactly how loving and caring they are not unless you agree with their every word. If not they choose to ignore you and hope you go away.

If you blow smoke up their ass and praise and praise them they will return the favor and blow even more smoke up your ass for the sake of their online image.

Here’s a fun fact about Max.

I am an Empath.

What that means is that I am so sensitive to emotional energy I know exactly how they feel behind the words they try to use to mask it. You leave an energy imprint as the energy transfer from the keyboard into the cyber world where it is stored and kept. Any reading it will feel it whether they know it or not.

It’s why I pretty much know how people feel about my writing and what I have to say in comments where ever I might be leaving one or a few regardless of what they say.

Any Empath will pick it up the same as I do. I laugh at when people think they can hide how they feel when the worst way to keep anything from an Empath is to try and repress or suppress the emotion, we key on that the hardest.

It’s why Empaths are so adept at calling bullshit and never missing.

Even more fun is if the emotion is aimed at me I can feel it even if we never speak or see each other. I may not know who you are, but I feel you.

Ignore that fact if you choose, however it doesn’t stop it from being true.

An Empath is reading everyone all the time because there is no real off switch. There is only narrowing the focus and if an Empath is focused on you in a discussion, they know everything you don’t want them to.

If it’s a Telepath you are dealing with, they have a good idea of what you are going to do before you do.

A Telepath is in your subconscious mind.

Ignore that fact if you choose however it does not stop it from being true.

The first person you abuse when you choose to ignore is yourself. That abuse spreads from you in your behavior to live your choice to ignore. Your words and actions will abuse anyone who drops the veil of that willful ignorance and allows you to see the abuse you inflict.

Willful ignorance is delusional behavior in psychological terms. Delusion behavior is not healthy behavior.

Academic Vs Experienced

Just who in the blue holy fuck do you think you are?

That is the question that can can come up when we hear or read something we don’t like.

It is usually something that is counter to what we hold dear as far as knowledge and/or understanding of it. No one likes to be wrong and it is difficult to respond instead of react. Before one can respond one has to let what was said sink in and think about it to attempt to understand why it was said as well as what was said.

One who refuses to let it sink in reacts from a defensive stance.

The nature of the question itself is to discredit the source so the message can be ignored or fought.

Debate is a fight.

If you can’t provide a counter and choose to ignore what was said you have shown how exactly how true it was and you lost the fight.

Currently the most important war on the planet is a war of ideas.

A war with many sides as there are many with ideas to be heard and evaluated.

A war has one rule, win at all costs.

That’s what war is.

The planet is going through an evolution of thought.

This is what fuels the war.

The two main factions in this war are those who desire to keep things as they are with the same social hierarchies that allow people to act as authority and use this delusion of having a place of prominence to use behavioral abuse to maintain this delusion of authority.

The other side is tired of the oppression and seeks new avenues that allow all to flourish and destroys the idea of authority and replaces it with leadership.

Authority is abuse driven.

In order to have your authority mean something you have to provide examples in the way of actions that show there are consequences for going against the authority.

It’s the only way to keep oneself seen as the authority because their punishments get carried out. This creates a fear response in order to keep the masses docile and make anyone think twice about challenging the authority of whoever has decided they are the authority.

Academia is one of the most abusive environments one can be in. The constant fight for recognition and funding of ones research will cause one to act as if one thinks one is an authority and one will engage in abusive behavior to maintain that delusion of authority.

This retards progress as now those who are supposed be leading the way of progress will stunt it with will and intent to protect their precious research that they hope is going to fund their life.

History shows that there are many many times where progress was made because one rejected academic authority. One went against the authority and found something better. This threatens the lives of the academics who build their life with the idea of becoming an authority in their field.

History also shows many of these people who made progress were often abused at first by the academic community. Shunned and treated as if they were crazy.

It is the authority driven academic structure that does more to hold back and retard progress than any other single source.

I came to this conclusion after years of debate with academics and the experienced alike.

I find those who never get out of the academic life never understand what it is they are studying or teaching to it’s fullest extent because they lack experience. The uneducated have and advantage over the educated. No preconceived ideas to overcome and unlearn.

Experience is the greatest teach there is and it can’t be found in a book or lecture or an article.

I always wanted to be a teacher as kid. It’s the academic community that changed my mind. When i saw the epic amount of bullshit I would have to tolerate and then would be expected to dish out, I moved on.

It’s the song Are you Experienced by Jimi Hendrix that really comes to mind.

If you can just get your mind together
then come across to me
We’ll hold hands an’ then we’ll watch the sun rise
from the bottom of the sea
But first
Are You Experienced?
Ah! Have you ever been experienced?
Well, I have
I know, I know
you’ll probably scream n’ cry
That your little world won’t let go
But who in your measly little world are trying to prove that
You’re made out of gold and -a can’t be sold
So-er, Are You Experienced?
Ah! Have you ever been experienced?
Well, I have
Ah, let me prove it to you
I think they’re calling our names
Maybe now you can’t hear them, but you will
if you just take hold of my hand
Ah! But Are You Experienced?
Have you ever been experienced?
That little world won’t let go.

That little world is a world of fear that keeps one from growing. Intellectual explorations have been know to be referred to dives. I remember in a discussion once I had mention I reached the bottom of the ocean and the response was to call me a liar.

That’s because if someone reaches the bottom they have gone deeper than you have and in the world of academics that is a threat to ones authority and therefore a threat to ones livelihood. .

The experienced meets someone who has gone deeper and asks questions to see if the experience is worth what was learned.

The academic will compare what they found in books and the experienced will tell you the story of their life.

The academic speaks in the theoretical and uses rhetoric to convince others of understanding. The experienced gives it to you down and dirty as simply put as they can. The academic will charge you cash up front and the experienced might ask you to buy them a cup of coffee.

The academic needs structure for the dialog to happen, The experienced will talk to anyone who will give them the time of day.

The academic forms circles with clones and will circle the wagons anytime the idea of their authority is challenged.

The experienced will take on all comers.

The academic is the arrogance that speaks to what might be and the experienced is the confidence that doesn’t need back up because it’s based on what is.

Academics is the sell job and first they sell themselves on the idea that they are indeed the authority.

The experienced doesn’t give two fucks about authority and is only speaking because they experienced it to understand it.

The war of ideas is the war between the academic and the experienced.

Fun part is the experienced have much greater numbers who don’t care about notoriety and fame. They are too busy teaching what they have learned in their daily life with everyone they talk to.

They reach greater understanding at much faster rates than the academic can ever hope to achieve.

 

Independent in thought, Interdependent in reality

I’m a straight stone cold individualist.

The moment I find people around me giving me the sincerest form of flattery by taking on some of my mannerisms of speech, I change the way I talk so I can continue to be different. Some people say this looks like a mental illness to them, however here is the sanity of it in it’s intent and purpose.

Getting lost in a sea of clones is not my idea of a good time. However at the same time no matter how independent any of us is in thought we can not escape that in reality we are interdependent on each other for life.

This is inescapable truth.

There is no such thing as being a self made anything. Other people had to exist for you to have the experiences that you used to create the idea of you that is who you are right now.

Independent in thought, Interdependent in reality

This quote sums up leadership in one shot in my opinion. Here’s why.

True leadership simply sees a need and either does something about it or finds the right people to get it done.

That’s it.

A true leader is in service by the very definition of identifying and fulfilling needs.

A true leader is in service at all times to everything around them.

You can only truly lead from the middle. It’s where you have the best view of everything going on. The view will always be skewed however from the middle you get a better idea of the needs to be filled and who can do it if you can’t.

Leadership understands the interdependence that is the reality of life.

Everything we do is an inspired action. Something inspired us to do whatever it is we are doing and at times that influence is coming from multiple places.

Even though we are independent in making the choice to engage in action, without the others, there is nothing.

We are all connected and each of us at the center of our own tribe so to speak. A tribe that is always in a circle with no one really in charge however everyone has a role so to speak.

Whether we like it or not life is a shared reality created by all of us which means we all share the responsibility of why the world looks the way it does.

I am not overly joyed about it myself some days, however it does not change this simple yet powerful truth.

Our reality is dependent upon the choices each of us make in thought and action and spoken words.

Majick is every word we speak that is the never ending spell we weave.

It’s the Karmic Law equivalent of saying we reap what we sow and that includes every word that comes out of our mouths

We also reap from what we allow to be sown within us.

Independent in thought, Interdependent in reality

Instead of thinking about planting a seed of what you want to do, think of it as throwing it up in the air with those who have similar end goals in mind. Let it be molded and shaped by as many who share the end goal view as you can find.

Each of you independent in your being and what brought you to the view that you just happen to share with those who can be of assistance in the interdependent area of building anything in life.

Any questions?

Unfortunately for some facts exist

Intellectual debate is often theoretical debate with the idea that no facts exist.

Yes, you read that right, people with will and intent assert no facts exist and then expect something productive to happen.

Yes, the behavior is as childish as it reads.

To assert that no fact exists on a particular topic is to avoid actually having to take a stand and therefore run the risk of being wrong. The academic community exists in the realm of no facts when it comes to psychology and philosophy.

They are always quick with the Socrates quote that says “Wisdom comes from knowing I know nothing.” Here’s why that is a cowards cop out and not wise at all.

Aristotle said “Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.”

Max J. Carter said “If knowledge is power, than wisdom is understanding.”

To know yourself and understand yourself is to understand the rest as well. We like to pretend that not everything applies to everyone and somethings only apply to us. This is the great lie we sell ourselves on.

Those who would want to argue that would do so wanting to have something that was unique to them and would take a narcissistic view to even consider arguing.

It takes a great act of willful ignorance to create a delusion where you refuse to accept something as fact when it is indeed fact and the only reason you don’t want to agree is because it destroys the theoretical position.

 

Is being nice instead of honest the obstacle in the way of progress?

What is authority?

In concept it’s when one is given or assigns oneself to a position to rule over others and or enforce rules in a variety of possible ways.

Authority in concept is about wielding power over others.

Authority in concept is the right to abuse anyone who objects to the authority

Does anyone have the right to wield power over anyone else?.

Once one has become recognized as authority one by the nature of being an authority must fight those who oppose their authority and authoritative stance or ideals that they profess as the authority.

To allow oneself to become an authority on a subject is to say one can not be challenged in any way shape form or fashion.

How could this possibly become an obstacle in the way of progress?

There are more than a few in the academic community who are shunned by the academic authorities for saying that the Theory of Relativity is wrong based on the fact that light particles have mass and therefore the strongest force of connected gravity can change the speed at which those particles move.

Or to say the assertion that light speed is fixed is false and the speed of light is actually variable.

Why does this happen?

It happens so that those who dedicated their life to becoming an authority based on Einstein’s work are now no longer the authority and their perceived power and control over the academic community is threatened.

In order to retain their authority they must have those who don not agree shunned and their character assassinated if at all possible in order to keep others from following suit which will kill their authority.

Does this create an obstacle for progress?

How could it not?

A theory is good until it can be proven wrong and then it must be abandon in order to make progress and go in new directions that allow new theories to be proven as true.

When it comes to throwing opinions back and forth in exploration at some point one must admit facts exist when they are met with them or they are choosing to live in a delusional state that is harmful for society as a whole.

To get into the exploration and deny truth as it is discovered is the act of a cowardly child who desires to have their opinion mean more than the truth and this is what is called delusional behavior driven by a narcissistic need to have the truth be their own personal thing.

There is nothing healthy about this behavior.

Truth crushes opinion as it should so that learning and growth can take place.

Truth is not built through opinion, it is discovered in proving the opinion right or wrong and this is a simple fact of life no matter how unpleasant anyone finds it.

The most dangerous thing we do in any discussion face to face, online, any discussion is to validate an opinion in order to be nice instead of correcting the opinion with the simple truth should it be known.

How this creates obstacles is that it allows for the opinion to have greater weight than the truth and progress is retarded instead of made. The growth and learning of the one who is receiving the nicety of being lied to instead of corrected is now stunted and it will be more difficult for them to accept the truth.

Now this person feels validated in their opinion they will become defensive and use the history of having their opinion validated instead of corrected as truth. This one will now experience emotional distress when faced with the truth and one will inflict harm on those who attempt to tell them the truth as they reject it in  myriad of ways.

This is why I say I am nice until it is time to be kind, you know honest.

Being nice can often lead to long suffering even though the intent is to avoid hurting someone’s feelings, all one has done is set them up for greater pain and allowed them to live in ignorance of their own suffering and the suffering they spread.

In a recent discussion someone told me there is no absolute truth.

This is a delusional statement based in fear of being wrong and losing one’s status in the eyes of others. This is delusional thinking at it’s finest. This can lead to developing a narcissistic view that says anyone declaring that truth exists is the enemy and must be stopped from assaulting people with the truth because there is no truth in their eyes.

This is the behavior that is the obstacle to progress.

No really what’s an Empath? Evolution, aliens, or is God to blame?

Currently around 10% of the world’s population classifies as Empath.

With a population of over 7 billion that’s over 700 million.

That’s 1 out of every 10 people.

That’s 10% of the population who can take on your emotions as their own.

That’s 1 out of every 10 people that everyone simply feels better to be around.

That’s people who represent as manic depressive simply out of a lack of knowing what they do and psychology ignoring it even exists.

Even Empaths who have mastered their genetic trait have moments and days of difficulty in managing this trait.

Think about people you know that simply seem to change the air when they are present. People that you inexplicably always seem to feel better around with nothing more than their silent presence. It’s highly likely this human being is internally dealing with the sadness and anger being suppressed or repressed in the room. The rest of the room is getting their natural high so to speak.

This human being is most likely an Empath whether they know it or not. I was 37 before I stopped telling myself it was all in my head. I had been reading people with a depth and accuracy that scared them. I found out later many things that I was told I had been wrong about in the moment, had in fact been true. When I started seeing the truth of myself in being an Empath, I felt sane for the first time in my life.

At first I didn’t have a name for it or a reason why. My exploration led me through the modern new age landscape and across religion and mythology. I’ve heard theories that involve aliens and star seeds.

Every culture and history has records of people like myself who have an inexpiable knowing. People who are in tune with the infinite flow of life force energy.

Think of the concept of Divine Energy as pure love and Sacred Energy as unconditional love. The Divine Light and the Sacred Darkness from which it was born.

It’s all metaphor.

An Empath has a genetic predisposition to unconditional love in their natural way of being. They will engage in acts of sacrifice without even thinking about their own well-being. They act selflessly to the point of self-harm. They are nurturing to the point of enabling if they do not learn self-discipline with their giving nature.

We each have our things in life that are the little things that can makes us feel loved. The things that bring us joy when others do them for and sometimes to us.

1 out of 10 people lives and breathes to do these things for the people around them. They are absolutely sincere in those things they do to attempt to brighten the days of all round them.

1 in 10 people is a natural born behavioral cognitive therapist that provides an emotional clearing and balancing with every visit, whether it be hanging out as friends or talking at work, it is the nature of their being and happens in every conversation.

1 out 10 people can feel every lie in the room. Natural born lie detectors.

1 out of 10 people simply know things that defy our current scientific understanding. They read emotional energy and translate emotional concepts that have no other way of being expressed.

Think of the concept of the “Unwritten Language” as emotion. The telepathic communication that is often spoke of is a sharing of emotional concepts and images. It very rarely involves any cohesive conscious formed thought.

No matter how good these 1 out of every 10 people are at emotional translations, on occasion something gets lost in translation.

In my early research to try and find an explanation for why I am able to what I do, I found a lot of people looking for any reason that would allow them to forsake their humanity. On some level I could understand why. On some level I didn’t feel exactly human anymore. This has everything to do with programming.

Until I was 37 and realized I am an Empath, I would have been every bit as skeptical as those I sometimes come face to face with. In fact at first I wished it was all untrue and that I was crazy. For the first 37 years I had done a good job of pretending. However this thing called experience kept happening that would never allow me to place a veil over my own eyes again.

I have had thousands upon thousands of shared experiences to show me I do exactly what I say I do. I was not in search of further evidence I was in search of others and an explanation as to where it came from and why.

The first somewhat cohesive group that I found was an email group. They were big fans of Lemuria and that we are Lemurians. I wasn’t buying it and moved on quickly.

One of the most psychologically harmful places I found online was the Otherkin group I spent a short period of time in. There are subcultures within the Otherkin culture that allow you to profess to be anything non human. Vampire, Lycanthrope, Angel, Fey, Dragon and a myriad of other things and these people do truly believe that’s what they are. It was disturbing the level of disconnection from the idea of being human that these people embraced.

I moved on to a place I felt comfortable for the first time however it wasn’t long before I pissed off most of the group by simply being me.

As I said Empaths represent 1 out of every 10 humans. A group of over 9,000 is a unique experience indeed.

The match that lit the rocket on the tactical nuke that destroyed my bridge to this group was my integrity.

Not the first time that’s happened in my life.

I said before I call being public, coming out of the basement. These people were happy to stay chained up in the basement like freaks to be ashamed of. I never could be and here’s why.

People unconsciously sense the unconditional loving and accepting nature of an Empath and find themselves divulging the most intimate details of their life to a total stranger they feel inexplicably drawn to. Every Empath I have ever met has said this happens to them frequently.

These people often look puzzled and are left forever wondering why they met that one person that one time and told them what they did. I like being able to explain it to them in the moment. I like being acknowledged for my being beyond a mysterious figure one time met. I like letting people know next time they’ll know who to look for and where I can be found.

My desire to be out and open about my being made most of the group really upset. There are many occasions in which someone such as myself is honest and open about what they do and they are diagnosed as mentally ill. They have their kids taken away. They lose their jobs, their friends and even their family will back away from them.

100 years ago they would have burned us at the stake.

Due to the fear of the unknown by 9 out of 10 people 1 out of 10 people are afraid to acknowledge their own being.

The majority of the 9,000 Empaths in this group only acknowledged their being in this group and chose to live a lie of pretending to be 9 out of 10 people. They only felt safe in the group. They had heard the stories of being locked up in mental hospitals, some of them in the group had even had that experience and it was why they chose to stay in the basement.

I understand why they live their choice.

My choice was the beginning of what led to my 3rd divorce, my 2nd wife used it to take our son out of my care more than once, I have lost long time friends and my mom has finally stopped trying to cast Satan out of me.

I understand why they live their choice.

After the nuke went off destroying that bridge, I found myself in a smaller group for Empaths on Facebook. I quickly became the go to guy to figure things out. I was made an admin and spent roughly the next year or so working with 5 to 15 people a day teaching them to manage their being better.

It was in the time spent there answering their questions I got my answers.

The most common mistake I’ve seen in attempting to answer the question of why am I like this is that God must somehow be involved.

I’m a Shaman which means I am equal parts Scientist and Spiritualist.

I’m my own biggest skeptic.

Why do Empaths exist and where do they come from?

In simplest terms it is the next evolutionary stage of our species and 1 out of 10 people are early risers so to speak and over time 99 out of 100 people being born will be Empaths.

It’s genetic.

Empaths are adept at blending spirituality and science. They are adept at seeing ways to create technology that will allow for the luxuries we all enjoy while at the same time doing less harm to the Earth and each other. The world we live in is changing on an ideological level and the people are changing at the genetic level to follow suit.

9 out of 10 people might not like it.

1 out of 10 people exist anyway and the numbers are ever growing with every child born.

We might already be at the 2 out of 10 mark or higher.

An Empath is a Peacekeeper by nature. They will always look for the simplest solution to bring about a peaceful resolution.

This uncanny ability to find the simple solution regardless of the complexity of the emotional web of attachments to the issue is often resisted and seen as idealistic. Here’s why.

We justify or to say declare an act of justice be done in order to validate our emotional response to any given situation. We hold on to the emotion until the justice we seek is done. We have determined justice must be served in order to justify the emotional attachment.

As a negotiator or unbiased arbitrator over seeing negotiations an Empath can suck the emotion out of the discussion and infuse it with their peace and clarity of mind. They will sense any and all deception in the room and keep the negotiations honest and maintain and level playing field.

There are 1 out of every ten people that can do this.

These 1 out of 10 can also clear up miscommunication due to a lack of understanding and translate intent in the event of poor word choice. It happens.

1 out 10 people on this planet right now are born healers. It is frequent that Empaths go into healthcare or a service industry of some sort. Empaths who take up Reiki are often astonished by their early results with little or no formal training. Here’s why.

Reiki literally means vital soul energy. That’s it.

Soul energy is dense emotional energy with a conscious self awareness. Empaths instinctively teach themselves how to use this energy for all manners of healing.

1 out of every 10 people are Empaths however not all Empaths are the same. There are various levels of sensitivity and awareness that goes with it.

The Sage: Those people who just seem to know stuff and they can’t even tell you how they know however they always happen to be right.

The Chameleon: Such experts at mirroring what is around them it is almost as if they wear your personality for a bit. Think of it from the perspective that what we attach emotion to is part of how we build our personality or identity. The Chameleon will often have people never sure about who they are really dealing with almost sensing that the mirror is often if not always active.

The Physical Empath: These people take on the physical pain form others to give them relief. It is possible that some people who suffer from Fibromyalgia are actually Physical Empaths. A Physical Empath will also give their physical energy to those around them.

The Beast Master: Animals use emotional conceptual communication just like we do. It’s easy for some Empaths to understand and communicate with animals.

The Tree Hugger: Soul energy and emotional energy are the same and Animism states everything has a soul. Some Empaths are able to communicate with all manner of plant life. This is why I say Vegans are murderers too.

The Earth Whisperer: They predict earthquakes and other natural disasters with startling accuracy. These Empaths are finally tuned in to Mother Earth.

The Psychometrist: Has such a high sensitivity that these people can read layers deep through residual energy of any object or photo. They can give you a good idea what happened somewhere based on the energy left behind.

Precog: The advanced warning system. Sometimes it comes in dreams, sometimes with waking visions and other times it is the emotion only which leaves nothing but guess work as to what the event is.

Mediums and Ghost Whisperers: A Medium will channel and a Ghost whisperer will not and both have a sensitivity to free floating soul forms.

The Telepath: The Telepath is in the subconscious mind and is way ahead of where you think you are. They know what you’re planning before you tell yourself what you are planning. The idea of trying to lie to a Telepath is laughable. They know your intent no matter how good the lie is. They can also pull the truth right out of your mind and speak it.

It is often that an Empath will possess more than one of these skills and some of the 1 out 10 do all 10.

700 million people who can do at least 2 or 3 things on this list. 10% of the population.

I’ve already blamed evolution for creating 1 out of 10 people who represent as Empath. It’s genetic. Look at our history and see it littered with violence for every reason.

In nature we will see animals adapt to survive through evolutionary changes physically and at times in behavior. On the everything is a species of life scale we are no different.

1 out of 10 of us has a natural neutral first response before the fight or flight response is engaged. It’s that extra second to see what happens next or decide to ask for clarification before making a rash decision based on limited information in the moment. It’s a natural instinct to assess in the moment and respond versus react at the instinctual level.

1 out of 10 of us has an intent towards peace gained through understanding the whole of the situation. No one taught us to do it, we are simply born with this as our internal guiding light. If the species evolves to become more like this it reduces the probability for frequency of violence.

If a species evolves to resist authority and embrace leadership they become highly resistant to subjugation through propaganda also known as marketing. When a species evolves to the point where they can feel the harm they inflict they tend to auto correct their behavior with less need of external guidance or rules. 1 out of 10 of us already live this way and have since birth.

700 million humans already fit the bill.

The cognitive function also must advance in order to manage the amount of information being translated at the conscious level. The heighten conscious awareness needs the high level of intellect or it would leave the human in a catatonic state of neural overload.

It is with this evolution of intellect that the true value of peace and collaboration is not an idea, to them it’s a foregone conclusion as the only true solution.

As the generations get closer to the 1 out of every 10 versions of human on the planet we can see the change in attitude in the Millennials.

In one of my favorite New Age metaphors they call the Millennials the Indigo Children. Many children today would be called Rainbows. The Indigo Children are supposed to change the world for the Rainbow Children.

In the really real world this is nothing more than a metaphor for evolution that has been romanticized for marketing purposes.

Emotional and thought energy has no mass and therefore is not effected by gravity. That means that distance has no relevance as travel of emotional or thought energy is instantaneous.

Questions

What if emotional energy and gravity worked in similar ways?

What if 1 out of 10 people simply have a stronger emotional gravity core acting as an emotional singularity?

What if the soul is emotional energy and this advancements allows the soul to be taking in more life force energy from everything around us in various forms and transforms it within in us to radiate pure love energy around us to all that would need it?

Think of it as an emotional energy recycling system. A system that is based on life force energy that would naturally lead to an evolutionary advancement extending the length of ones life. Always taking in energy to replace that which is given.

1 out of 10 people are basically recycling generators of life force energy.

That’s the simplest scientific inhuman description of what is an Empath.

Leading by value and investigative thinking

If I do not feel like you care about me, I am going to give you my bare minimum and nothing else.

If I do not feel like you want to know anything about me, I am going to be completely apathetic towards you and anything you want.

If I do not feel valued by you, I will not value anything you have to offer me.

We all do this.

We all feel this way and if you want to lead, it has to start with you and it has to start with you caring about them and letting that show. You have to show them you care about them to your own detriment.

You have to show them you will sacrifice your wants and your needs to make sure they are taken care of.

You have to actually care about them more than you care about you. If you cannot do that, you cannot lead a rock.

People will do what you say because of your title, but you will never actually lead them because there is a huge difference between compliance and following a leader.

Remember the concept, the king serves his subjects.

To best serve your direct reports you have to know what they need as an individual human being to perform better. Each of us is different and it takes different motivations. For some people just hearing thank you on occasion is all they need. Some people need someone to dump on and vent their work frustrations to. Having that person around makes the job easier, does it not?

The point here is that you need to figure out how to be what they need when they need it and that is not an easy thing to do. It gets easier the better you know your people. It becomes easier to anticipate their reactions and gage your message based on how you have seen them receive like messages. Your experience with them will be your greatest teacher in how to inspire and motivate them.

Pay attention when they think you are not. You will be surprised at what you learn. Ask them questions about themselves and the stuff they keep on their desk. Listen to what they say and if need be make notes when you get back to your desk.

You will only be as good as you prepare to be.

This means that before every interaction with a direct report you need to prepare for it by reviewing everything you know and thinking about what you want this interaction to be. Remember you have the responsibility of exemplifying the standard of what this interaction should be. You cannot break. You have to be prepared for anything.

What do you know about what is going in Bob’s life right now?

What message do I want to convey to Bob?

How does Bob respond to this type of discussion?

What questions is Bob likely to ask?

How am I going to answer those questions?

These are all things that should be a part of your mental checklist every time you stop by to chat with someone.

What will surprise you is when you start doing this to your spouse and your friends after doing at work all day for a while. This approach changed the way I interact with people and I would say based on my experience it has made me a better father, a better friend and a better leader in whatever I choose to do.

Define a customer.

This is my all-time favorite interview question to ask. The answer I am looking for is this.

Everyone you interact with is a customer and every human interaction is a customer service interaction.

Think about that perspective for minute or thirty.

Managing in difficult situations for an Empath

I have been mentoring Empaths for several years. I work with them at developing techniques for managing their ability to take on the emotions of others and wear them as their own.

It’s what an Empath does and it can make life difficult at times just to get through the day.

For an Empath intent is crucial in managing your energy and your natural born ability. The intent you set with your energy can and will effect the nature of how your day flows.

One of the most difficult situations for any Empath is when they are in crowds or stuck inside somewhere and there are more than one human being present with repressed or suppressed emotions. Every Empath I have ever spoken to (Thousands) has said the same thing about social situation indoors.

“Everyone is having a good time and I don’t know whether to kill them all or cry non stop.”

I’m committed to a life of non violence as a Pacifist and I often have to take a minute when I start feeling angry and ask myself “Is this mine?”

I have noticed anytime thoughts of violence arise, I can look around at who is in the room and often know who it is that harbors these desires to lash out physically. It then becomes an internal conflict to right myself and center myself and be less impacted by the situation. I often find once I get outside and away from the human being who is repressing or suppressing these violent desires, I feel fine for the most part and I am able to shake off what was never mine to begin with.

If an Empath does not remove themselves from the environment there is potential to lose that inner conflict and have those emotions fill you and be projected through your behavior that most people would find to be uncharacteristic for you.

Here’s a tip I use in setting my intent before I go out anywhere.

Where am I going and why?

I use my born ability to reach out from within to check the situation ahead of time by taking an emotional read. A blind feeling of what I could be walking into. You are going to get a median read of the overall and I find at times I get a read of individuals the universe is lining through synchronicity for us to engage.

It takes work to not let this advanced read create expectations and remain in the now. It takes work to let now unfold as it goes as it flows. These advanced readings are a mix and that means there is a lot of wiggle room.

If I am going to the store I set my intent to get in and out with as little interaction as possible. If I have the opportunity to assist someone while I am out, I will, however I deserve a break as much as any of us. People will approach an Empath and not even understand why they are doing it at the conscious level. They are being unconsciously guided to the Empath.

When I got out on Friday nights for my community service night I am very clear with the intents I set to align my energy for the night and leave the rest of my life behind for the night. I am not going out for me, I am going out for whoever needs what I provide and I have no control over who might walk up to give me 5 minutes of their time.

I always set an intent to avoid violence if at all possible.

I set my intent to be of service to those with a true need.

I set my intent to transmute any emotional energy I take on into pure healing love energy and let that be what flows through me and from me.

Even with the precautions I take, I find at times I have to walk away from the crowd for a minute or 5 and check myself with what I am feeling.

Remember being an Empath is nothing more than a genetic evolution and over the next 20 years the numbers are going to increase exponentially as the evolution of our species continues.

Empaths are not aliens, Empaths are not angels, Empaths are not a spiritual warriors with a mission handed to them by God, Empaths are not gods, Empaths are genetically evolved human beings.

If you are an Empath or not sure but this article has you asking the question, please feel free to contact me and I am happy to be of service.

Family and what they teach us

My dad has Parkinson’s Disease.

My dad’s legs don’t work so well and he is supposed to use a walker, he doesn’t and at times it feels as though the roles have reversed. I get why though.

As a contractor my dad was a power horse. His own boss specializing in home remodel and repair work. Part of my inner drive to never let anything knock me down for longer than about a second comes from him. If you go around Chico and ask people my dad did work for or people who have known him, they will tell you he was one of if not thee best at what he did in town.

They will also tell you he is one of the finer human beings you could hope to meet. For along time I wondered if they knew who they were talking about. Here’s why.

I saw him at the end of the day when the tank was empty. He worked 6 days a week often. Starting to see where my work ethic comes from?

I never got to see what they were talking about until I was around 13 or 14 and I started working with him on the weekends and during the summer. My last buzz on strategizing your day as you go came from lessons of watching my dad and working with him.

The results of any job always begins in your prep work. I must have heard it a thousand times. To give you an idea of how physically strong he was at one point in time.

We working on a Church here in town and my dad handed me the hopper to spray some mud. The hopper was a big bucket attached to air hose and trigger nozzle. It looked like a ray gun with a bucket of thick heavy ass mud attached to the top and an air hose coming out the back.

I took it and sprayed for a few minutes with one hand and then had to switch. After about ten minutes and my dad seeing I was not going to get it done he took it back and then I watched. He held that thing like it was nothing and ran it for as long as he needed to.

That day I realized that if he ever hit someone full force, he had the power to kill in one punch. My dad is only 5’6″.

He taught me a lot over the those years before I went into the Air Force at 17.

One of the lessons he and mom taught me was to take care of whoever ends up crossing your path simply because you can.

My dad was a wrestler in high school and studied a little martial arts. He was his own mechanic for many years. There was very little he couldn’t fix on his own.

My dad is also one of the more brilliant minds I have ever met. He pissed people off a lot because he could pick most things with little instruction and run with them as if he was seasoned pro. Something else I inherited.

In fact with no college degree he was the top tool salesman for Hilti tools back in the early 80’s as a traveling salesman.It pissed off every single college grad he worked with, including his boss.

My dad is also a Medium and a Telepath and my mom is an Empath. That’s how I got the 3 in one at birth.

In my dads lineage is a Cherokee medicine woman who walked the Trail of Tears. Back when he was a child the court house where the records of that were kept, burned down and because of racism my grandmother kept the Cherokee lineage a secret for my dad’s sake as a child.

My dad’s dad has never been sick a day in his life, not even a cold.

Even though he is supposed to, my dad won’t stay down. He refuses to use his walker until he falls down again which is at least a few times a week. At times it takes me and my mom to get him back up. He has a fake hip and his legs are going faster and faster as time goes on.

He is still in good spirits most days as long as he can clean the kitchen and make dinner and sneak out on his own to run errands and feel productive. Without that he would have died already, just that kind of man.

It’s not easy to watch Mr. Invincible fall a part right before your eyes.

I can see how much closer he is to needing to be in a wheelchair and that will totally kill his spirit and he and I have talked about it. He was the one who told me it would probably mean his end if he couldn’t feel like he could get out on his own anymore.

There is a lot I will always carry with me that are things my dad used to say.

Work smarter not harder.

If not now, when.

I’ll call you Dr Whatshisnuts when you call me Contractor Carter.

He has no respect for title. He sees us all as equal and none of is entitled to special treatment no matter what degree you have or how many years you spent to get it. That was your choice and gains you no privilege over the rest.

Never let anyone get anything over on you.

Never take any shit.

Never start it, but finish it and there is no such thing as fair fight.

Reach out the hand of help as often as you see the opportunity.

You ever hit a woman I might kill you.

Do it better than I did.

Do it smarter than I did.

No matter what you are doing you bust your ass to be the best at it and fuck ’em if they can’t keep up.

Never stay down.

Never quit.

He taught me a lot that I still use today. He taught me a lot I still pass on to others today.

It’s going to be real weird for real long time when he goes. I will miss him however I will always be grateful I spent these last few years taking care of him as much as he will let me. We have a better relationship now than we ever did.

A lot of the issues I help people though often start with family. My dad and I lost a lot of years that some of you can still have with a father or a mother. Don’t wait until the last few years.

As dad always says, if not now, when.

You’re only as good as you prepare to be

I can’t tell you how many times while working with my dad off and on over the 20 years he was considered to be one of the best contractors in Chico, that he told me the results are in your prep work.

When I say I am a master intuitive it is because I no longer think and let my intuition guide all I do. I trained me to do that and I can’t train you to do it. No one can. Here’s why.

No one reads what is going on in you and your life as well as you can. Others can read the energy and the intent of you and whatever it is you ask them about, however to develop your own intuition rests squarely on you. Only you can live the experiences that allow you to strengthen your reading abilities that strengthens your intuitive self and allows you to become more intuitive and less lost in thought.

As Russell Targ a physicist who worked with other physicists for over 20 years being funded by the C.I.A suggests all you need is one other personal you are reading to let you know if you got it right. The work Russell did with the C.I.A. was centered around remote viewing but also covered many other abilities that have been called psychic abilities however are the natural intuitive self that any can tap into.

To become a master intuitive you take it from the one on one and practice with everyone. There will be a lot of trial and error as you learn how to read any one with high accuracy.

The intuitive self is 10 times more efficient than the thinking self could ever dream of being as that time thinking is removed and things come in an instant with no thought required. The prep work you put into becoming a master takes years. I got a lot wrong before I could fully trust and rely on my intuition to never miss.

I have mentioned before when I sit down to write these buzzes I never think I just throw up a title and see where it takes me.

It took me years of preparation and work to be able to do it this way. The reason I am as good at it as I am is because of the all the years of prep work that have gone into it. It’s the work I have always put into me that is the reason why I became a master intuitive.

Whatever it is that you want to master it starts with the prep work which always involves working on you.

Why relationships must be fluid or they are destined to fail

I found myself in a discussion about being concrete or cementing relationships. Here’ why that is setting yourself up for failure.

The human is a emotional creature and emotion flows and never sets still. In relationships whether they are business or personal require flexibility and fluidity.

This is why we often ask “Why can’t you go with the flow?”

Often a question asked to someone who has hardened and closed their mind to what is before them.

When working with clients as a consultant or one on one for self development the term flow comes up frequently.

Let’s use beBee as an example.

The flow of your feed is quite fluid based on many factors that move things about and your passion. You make an investment of your time that is always flowing forward and at times a buzz can elicit an emotional response.

At times when we read the buzzes of others we become emotional because we are emotional creatures.

Now onto the Air Force.

I was a Combat Communications guy and there was an offshoot of this called Tactical Communications.

Their job was to be able to flow with the front line as it moved. This mean they had to be at the ready at all times as combat goes on to move themselves and their equipment with the flow of combat.

Now onto managing a call center.

Our traffic or call flow required we be fluid with our management of that traffic as we could not turn the flow of incoming calls off. At times this meant asking for flexibility with the front line people to stay and work overtime or at times go home early due to a lack of call flow.

We trained our representatives to have a flow to their calls. In the medical insurance game of United Healthcare it mean training them to extend empathy with the customer and that meant at times moving at with the customers flow.

Now onto nature.

The seasons flow into each other.

Everything is existence has a flow and nothing ever exists in a state of stasis no matter how still it appears.

Change is existence and existence is change. To resist the flow is to resist the very nature of existence.

Consciousness flows in streams of thoughts.

Now onto friendship.

Our friends to tend be the ones we flow best with in various areas of life where we share passions A.K.A interests.

We work with our friend to understand the emotion flowing from them at times and that requires us to be fluid in the moment to adjust to be a better friend and give what is needed.

When we become rigid in our thinking or representation of self we often alienate people.

Now onto romantic relationships.

We flow as one in the sexual embrace when we surrender our hearts and souls to our partner.

We tend to couple off with the one who brings the best flow of emotions from us that we call being happy or content. The one we can let go and flow with without needing any structure to define it. We just flow well with this one.

In all of these examples anytime we meet with something that has become rigid or hardened it fucks up our flow as we are flowing creatures. It’s why we respond to music so well as feel it flowing through us and sometimes inspiring us to get up and dance.

The essence of the Reiki work I do with clients is all about opening their flow of energy and assisting them in balancing that flow better.

With businesses I consult with it is all about creating a better flow for their business that has less stoppage in productivity.

Everything is all about creating better flows and remaining fluid in the moment to adjust to maintain the flow we desire.

This just happens to be how it actually works no matter how much some people want to be rigid in their thinking attempting to control life when in reality everything is out of control and control is an illusion that creates delusional thinking.

Any questions or thoughts on flow?

The Mantra of the moment

Doing what I do in the lives of my clients presents a challenge to me in how I view myself and my dedication to my own individualism.

The challenge is this.

Let each client get a different set of mantras and what not that best suits who they are and avoid the confines of conformity in using the same material over and over.

For me it gets boring to simply give each person the same canned speech or set of mantras and other tools I provide my clients with for managing their life better without needing me or anyone else. I cherish my being an individual and part of what I assist my clients with is becoming more at home with and embracing the individual they are. To me the greatest disservice I could do for one of my clients is to give them something everyone else gets and make clones out of them all.

I have said often that i see even my own material as a jumping off point for finding new ways of expressing it and simplifying the expression to reach a larger audience. I would be acting as a great fool to rely on them having the same education or years of study I have.

What I find disturbing in the personal growth arena is the trend to create your own set of whatever and teach that to people making them clones of your system. Creating your tribe so to speak and deeming yourself the head of the tribe. I thought about doing this and every time I could not avoid feeling as though I was taking on narcissistic behavior and encouraging that through my example to my clients and friends and the world at large and most importantly, my son.

When I created The Martial Art of Thought Protection through Right Action I set a very clear intent for myself.

Create something that does not require any one to follow me to use.

Create something that encourages individualism yet provide a loose structure of behavior most would agree is healthy for the sum and the individual alike.

Create something that acknowledges the importance of faith in ones life without preaching any particular brand of it.

With clients I have often found the mantras are developed as we work together so that it is something personal to them and easier for them to remember to use.

The Mantra I use frequently is “Mine is to reveal not to preach.”

A Shaman is a teacher not a preacher.

A Shaman understands that everything we need to know we already know and it is through experience this is revealed.

A Shaman reveals what lay behind the veil not a preacher of the veil.

A Mantra can be anything in the fewest words it takes to set your intent that guides your behavior.

What Mantra do you have for yourself for what you are living now?

What is the Essence of the condition of being Human?

To answer this one question we must also answer the question of what was the essence that preceded the existence of our current Universe.

For lack of a better word, God is that essence that preceded the existence we know now. The essence that was God made itself into matter with all the encoding for what we know as existence. This is the only explanation that makes sense and would also mean that God is in everything.

The reason mathematically we have such a difficult time proving anything is due to organized chaos. Not total chaos, however a structure that allows for our own free will in creating the shared reality we call life.

In order for there to be any order within the chaos there must be set parameters that keep existence from unmaking itself. This cannot have simply happened on accident. It is evidence that God is the universe and we are part of that God that uses us to figure out what it made and what to do about it.

Outside of these bodies we are nothing more than emotional energy with self-awareness.

The Essence of the condition of being Human is forgetting all that to explore what God created in a way that can only be done by doing what we do here.

Or to say forget about going on a quest to be more spiritual and realize you are a spirit who came here to learn how to be human. A journey that incorporates a system that is much simpler than we would like to believe because it reveals how much power we have over our lives.

I have always been a big fan of using elementary deductive reasoning. Once you eliminate the impossible, whatever is left no matter how improbable must be true.

It doesn’t matter if a machine or mathematical equation can substantiate it. We have the ability to reason for a reason.

Philosophy and physics are one in the same.

We are made of emotional energy and give ourselves a total wipe and allow the emotional imprints of the totality of our parents emotional selves at the time of conception begin the emotional imprint for who will be.

Gravity connects all things.

At the center of the Universe is a super massive singularity or black hole. It works on a vortex.

At the center of our galaxy is a massive singularity that works on a vortex.

At the center of the smallest subatomic particle is a gyre or a subatomic black hole that works on a vortex.

Forget size and realize it does not matter and only has value due to the limited senses we have in this form called human.

Within the center of the gyre is a consciousness that understands what particle it is creating and communicates with the other gyres to align to create what we call matter. A projection of energy given form based on set parameters yet with an element of chaos.

That element of chaos is what allows for diversity in all things. Think of it as an evolving algorithm with set tolerances and every variable is variable and in a constant state of change.

Our emotional imprint meets with matter and DNA programming begins. The cipher lock that will unlock our full potential begins to form in the DNA strands themselves. As an energetic lock there is no physical science that can match simply becoming the necessary behavioral version of you that unlocks the full potential and the lock begins being built by who your parents were.

This is the short version of what the essence of the condition of being human is.

While there are others who will go on and one about aspects of self or shadow selves or any number of things that in order for them to hold true deems you must follow their system must be false due to the existence of organized chaos to keep all from becoming the same.

Or to say the only way to truly do it is to let you guide you through you and every journey while having some experiences that are similar is different and no two journeys should ever be the same or organized chaos and free will do not exist. To imply that anyone of us is capable of providing “Thee” path is an extreme form of narcissism bordering on the level of a God Complex.

We all see the same truths in life yet we all see and experience them differently based on our choices in who make ourselves to become through the way we speak. Our words carry emotion behind them and that emotion will bounce back at some point.

Altering ones behavior really is as simple as improving yourself talk and being aware of every word you say and the power it has to come back and slap you upside the head.

Our essence is always creating our existence and that is the essence of the condition of being human.

Why is the road to hell paved with good intentions?

Let’s stop and think about it.

I look back at the white lies I told out of the good intent to spare someone’s feelings and what I found out later was that it actually hurt them a lot more in the long run.

It’s why I feel that anything less than being honest is creating suffering or enabling suffering to continue.

We hurt the ones we love with the truth to get them to stop hurting themselves and/or other people.

The pain of the truth is temporary and ends rather quickly while the suffering of deceit never ends until the truth is revealed and the deception comes to an end.

This is why I always say “I am nice until it’s time to be kind, you know, honest.”

There is no kindness in lies.

There is no compassion in lies and we often will tell that white lie to avoid dealing with the reaction we think or feel we are going to get out of fear.

Their is no mercy in lies.

Their is no love for another in lies.

If you feel the need to bend the truth to accomplish a goal why?

If you feel you can’t get it done with the truth why?

Have you ever called someone negative for being honest?

Why did you do it?

The hardest part people have after their awakening is often they are called negative because they can no longer stomach deception in any form. Part of the awakening process is shedding oneself of all deception and embracing being honest in every expression of self.

Is anyone entitled to get away with lying?

Black, white and grey and the war of ideas

I have often laughed in the face of people who tell me the world is not black and white and there are many shades of grey. Here’s why.

Right and wrong do exist.

Grey areas are the ones where we are not sure what is the right thing to do. The right things to do often depends on the situation we find ourselves in.

I often find that when I feel the need to say this is a grey area, I am avoiding taking a stance out of fear of being wrong.

I use me as an example because if I started calling some of you out by name, you might get upset and rightly so.

I use the tool Psychospirilosophy to help me figure out what the right thing to do is so I understand why it is the right thing to do.

For those unfamiliar with my work here is what Psychospirilosophy is.

Psychology: Is there anyone who thinks it’s a bad idea to understand from a psychological aspect why you are doing what you are doing?

Spirituality: As long as what you are doing does not include killing animals and people, have something.

Philosophy: For me it’s the personal philosophies we develop by saying “I always say this” regarding summing up the talk we say we are walking less we be seen as a hypocrite.

It’s a tool for self exploration and being able to better provide yourself with an answer to the question “What am I doing and why?”

I have often said there are no general catch all approaches to life and that everything is dependent on the moment. There are always exceptions to every rule we try and create as life is a fluid thing always flowing forward and never still and never moving in reverse.

When I am trying to figure out if what I am doing or about to do is the right thing, I forget about grey and go the silver mirror of inner refection.

Why do we agree to disagree?

I find it is often because we are in disagreement about what is right and what is wrong and are in the grey battlefield where the war of ideas takes place. This is often called debate.

Anyone who thinks debate is not a fight is fooling themselves.

The entire point of debate is to find out what is right and what is wrong for the issue being debated.

Unfortunately for some right and wrong do exist and the ambiguity of grey does more harm to the sum than good. Here’s why.

Often in online discussion many of the readers never comment. You never really know who is reading and how many are being influenced by the ongoing debate.

In a recent buzz I said that everyone has the power to influence everyone they come in contact with in life.

It’s why as soon as I see someone being called or referring to themselves as an “Influencer” I found someone to ignore as I will never recommend to blindly follow a title.

In this case it is a title used for marketing purposes to drive up the public image of the one being given the title.

This also degrades the rest as it is saying that if you do not have this title why should anyone listen to you?

Consensus does not make truth.

I can’t tell you how many peoples faces I have openly laughed in when they try to use the consensus argument. Here’s why.

They have just shown they do not think for themselves and act as a great fool blindly following the crowd.

The reason people do this online is all about image and lacks any true substance.

This is one time I am going to use a name without gaining consent first.

For over a year Jivana Kennedy came at me with everything she had in debate in Linkedin’s largest group.

I respect Jivana immensely because she always stood her ground and never backed down an inch. We rarely agreed on anything and Jivana never left it to the audience to decide.

She took the hard road of taking a stand on her own and never went looking for anyone to come in and back her up in a debate.

Honestly I miss her. I never had a greater adversary in the realm of debate and because she pushed so hard, it pushed me to bring out my best. This often led me to going in new directions and these debates became explorations where everyone following had the opportunity to learn right along with us as we fought it out.

Thank you Jivana, you made a better human out of me.

When you start asking your friends to come in and help you in a debate it means you know your position is weak and want to gang up on someone to shove it down their throats.

This is often what trolls do to attempt to discredit someone.

If you need back up, you are telling the world you cannot stand on your own. You are telling the world you are weak and acting from a place of insecurity and fear.

I say this right or correct based on using the Psychospirilosophy tool.

I cannot think of one spiritual path that says to lie.

I cannot think of one spiritual path that is not dedicated to discovering truth.

I cannot think of one spiritual path that says to protect your online or professional image.

We live in a day and age where the grey area has become about our image and creating an image that gets people to follow us and heap praise upon us in order to create more business opportunities.

Anytime you let your bank account make your decision you ave already lost the war of ideas.

You are operating from a fear or lack mentality. You fear that admitting that you are wrong will have people choosing to go with someone else.

It takes an act of humility, strength and courage to admit your wrong.

Someone once told me that Jivnana was giving me a lot of free work on self development and I disagreed.

I was wrong.

She absolutely did what she does as a professional in those debates and assisted me as I was helping myself to find direction and find new and different ways of presenting myself and my ideas.

Thank you Jivana and I hope you are still giving as good as you get because you are a strong and courageous human who will take a stand and never back down. While I rarely agreed with you I respect you for never agreeing to disagree.

If you don’t like my approach I suggest looking Jivana up and giving her a shot at assisting you in helping yourself.

You will never find anyone who will work as hard as I do to bring out your best. I don’t think she is on beBee, however you can find her on Linkedin and I would love to see her here on beBee as she has a true gift for doing similar work to what I do.

I haven’t spoken to this woman in well over a year and I think it is the right thing to do to show that there are people out there who disagree with me that I do respect.

I think it would be wrong of me to never bring her name up and give her the credit she earned for everything she did for me by challenging me at every turn to be better and bring it from within and find the strength I may have forgotten was there.

A credit to humanity and I will always be grateful for the battles we fought against each other in the war of ideas.

The Idea of Addiction

Life is addiction and addiction is life. There is no such thing as a human without at least one addiction.

Addiction can be physical or psychological or both.

I understand why I am addicted to tobacco beyond the physical nicotine addiction.

I understand why I became addicted to the internet.

I understand why I became addicted to alcohol.

I understand why I became addicted to working out.

I understand why I became addicted to prescription pain killers.

I understand why I became addicted to meditation.

I understand why I became addicted to love.

We are emotional creatures.

We get addicted to anything that makes us feel good.

We get addicted to that which makes us feel nothing at all.

Depending on the experiences of your individual life you will be addicted and are addicted to more than one thing.

I am currently addicted to tobacco, coffee, music, writing, dark chocolate, meditation and some stuff I’m forgetting.

Without music I am anxious.

Without tobacco, I can’t focus and my sensitivity gets stronger to the point where I can physically feel emotional energy.

When I write it feels good. I have been writing 6 days a week for the most part for over 3 years.

If I don’t have my dark chocolate almond milk for my coffee, I don’t feel like me.

I meditate off and on throughout my day and will spend hours ignoring my life in favor of the escape meditation can be and often is.

I think you get the point of just how simple the idea of addiction is and that we are all addicts and that life in part is a matter of picking the addictions you like and anyone who doesn’t like it can fuck off.

The addicts credo.

There is no great psychological or spiritual or philosophical mystery to addiction. We get addicted to that which assists in dealing with life or allows us to escape dealing with life.

TV and films and books are also addiction sources said the recovered film addict who has seen over 5 thousand movies. I use to rent 15 a week and watch them all. I turned this addiction into a blog for 3 years called The Movie Whore.

Say what you want about the name, people in the film industry I interviewed, they loved it. I wrote every day and became addicted to the persona of The Movie Whore as much as I was addicted to the films that inspired the personas formation.

As much as I would like to say it was a public image persona, it was just a name for my film addiction that allowed me to attempt to make my addiction productive and therefore validating the behavior that led to the name being used. I mentioned earlier I wanted to be a film producer. My addiction turned blog, led to me becoming a film producer.

Sometimes addiction can lead to a productive life. It depends on the addiction and what you do with it.

Did I mention I’m a workaholic?

In my corporate days, if I was on salary, I worked a lot of overtime.

When I drove a taxi, I worked 6 days a week, working 18 hour shifts for a few months.

As a stay at home dad and house husband a day off didn’t exist in my world.

I’m still addicted to working and have had to teach myself when to relax and let go of it. As you can see by my confession, I’m still working on it.

I told you I’m as flawed as you are. For the most part, I’m at peace with my flaws and the ones that still stir up internal conflict, well that’s between me and myself.

As far as picking my addictions goes, well I feel good about that too. Here’s why.

The playlists of music I listen to all day and night are as ever evolving as I am.

The playlist I listen to most is “The Church of Rock ‘N’ Roll” to signify these are the songs I use to align or define my ego expression.

The play list changes from time to time. I will be listening to the lyrics and find a certain song no longer applies to how I choose to view life and it gets dropped. I will create a radio station to give myself the opportunity to hear something new or at least new to me. At times songs from this exercise find their way to the list.

The other playlist I listen to daily is called “Turn the mirror inward” and is the one I listen to as I begin my last meditation of the day to get ready for bed. With my dyslexia it makes reading more work than relaxing or a form of escapism.

I find with music the visual journey in my mind’s eye often takes me through my own history and remembering why this song applies.

I use music to reinforce my personal behavioral program choices.

I use music to assist me in managing me.

I exercise discernment in what music I allow to possibly plant a seed with the lyrics.

I pick music that reinforces my individuality and my choice to be a nonconformist in the idea of being a slave to cultural trends.

I pick music that reminds me, only I know me and fully understand who I am and why I chose to be this way in this moment.

I pick music that reminds me none of us is any better than any other.

I pick music that reminds me as a species we are all in this together.

The point is, I pick music based on what I like singing along with on occasion. I pick music with lyrics that remind me why I even fell in love with music to begin with.

I would feel like I was trying to pull a fast one f I did not talk about my tobacco addiction. I have heard all I am going to hear in the way of reasons why I should quit. Here’s why.

I like it.

Here’s the real self-rationalization I use to feel OK with myself and my choice to remain addicted to tobacco.

My dad is a smoker. I grew up in the 70′ and 80’s and parents smoked inside the house. In fact people smoked in restaurants, bowling alleys, bars and even in the grocery store. You couldn’t go anywhere and not be around someone smoking except the movie theater and church, at least the ones I went to as a kid.

At age 13 I stole a pack of my dad’s cigarettes. I put that first one to my lips and lit it. I took my first drag and inhaled. I felt like I had just taken my first real breath. I didn’t cough or get queasy. I liked it the first time I tried it and have been basically smoking for 29 years. I had to quit in basic training and that lasted 7 weeks. I quit at age 31 after my son had been born. It lasted two months.

I quit smoking at age 37 for about 2 months. I did well until my 3rd wife wanted to still have our “going to bed” cigarette and the “after sex” cigarette. I started sneaking cigarettes behind her back and lying about my smoking.

Typical addict behavior.

I’ve always worked at not speaking in anger. I always used going out to have a smoke as a way to keep it from coming out. To give myself time to think and calm down, I smoked and paced while talking to myself.

I am not quitting in the foreseeable future. I’ve designed my diet and workout routine around combating the health effects of smoking tobacco.

I understand as long as I continue to use tobacco there is currently no way to totally eliminate the dangerous possible side effects.

The first step I took towards reducing those effects was to switch to rolling my own with organic tobacco. I noticed right away that the tobacco was stronger and had a stronger effect.

I naturally started smoking less. When I roll a cigarette it might take me anywhere from 1-2 hours to smoke that full cigarette. When I buy a pack of smokes, I smoke a pack a day. When I roll my own organic tobacco cigarettes I smoke between 5 and 7 a day.

I work to keep it at the 5, but shit happens. Financially this also was a good option.

Let’s say a pack of decent smokes is $5 for the sake of this example. I pay $10 for a pouch currently. A pouch contains 50 papers or the equivalent of 2 and a half packs of cigarettes. A pouch lasts me 7-10 days.

A pack a day at $5 over 7 days is $35 and a pouch for $10 that lasts that same 7 days is all the math this addict needed to look at.

An addict will look into every detail of feeding their addiction, to make sure they can. This math means more money to spend on the dietary needs that will also assist in reducing the unhealthy effects.

I want to take time to point out there are a ton of other chemicals in most prepackaged cigarettes sold today in the United States. I removed smoking those chemicals from my addiction. While I know of no study to show it, I do feel this also reduced the health risks by perhaps 50% as a result. I smoke fewer cigarettes and eliminated smoking the chemicals and now only smoke organic tobacco.

This is addict logic and thinking. It’s probably closer to 10% reduction, however an addict will lie like a motherfucker to themselves and the world to feel OK with feeding the addiction. It is ego driven behavior in every way.

I have a high antioxidant diet with foods and herbs known to assist in proper digestion and flushing out toxins from the body. The foundation of my diet is pink crystal Himalayan salt.

Its structure is cube shape which is what makes it the perfect purifying agent. I recommend doing your own research into this salt and make your own choice. It’s also known to aid in breaking addiction.

I could give you pages of why I smoke in great detail, however I think we get the point about what addiction is and what it can look like in living action.

Take some time and think about the things you do to check out or to feel good and you will find your addictions.

As soon as you start finding yourself rationalizing it or attempting to justify it, you will know you have found your addictions.

We each have our addictions and we have our reasons for this one or that one. As long as it works for you and you’re not inflicting harm on others, fuck yourself up all you want in my opinion.

Simply understand there will be consequences and be prepared to deal with them. This is why there are some substances I will not try even once. Anything can become addictive and moderation is all about self-discipline and owning your choices instead of looking for excuses.

I feel I am as responsible as I can be in the choices I’ve made with the addictions I have in my life.

I take time to think and examine the reasons why I engage in these addictions every time I do it. I know every time I abuse a substance or engage in behavior that could be harmful to myself and take precautions to limit the harm that might and can be done to me with my choices.

I exercise self-discipline to act in moderation with the understanding as to why I am engaging my will power to not use this or that at any given moment.

I choose to use whatever it is I am using to feel good or escape dealing with life or to feel nothing.

I choose the amount of the substance or the length of time I use to escape life or feel good or feel nothing.

It is the things we feel we need others to say is OK that is an indicator what we are doing might in fact not be healthy for us. Addiction has infinite forms.

The only way to truly fight addiction is to stop fighting it and start managing it with will and intent to the healthiest possible level you feel fine defending. The choice is to manage it or be a slave to it.

The choice is to own it and figure out why it’s there to begin with, in order to give you options in deciding what to do about it.

The only way to truly give up an addiction is to have the desire to do so first. You must see it as not being fun anymore. You must see it for what it is.

You must be totally committed to the choice to never use again. Making someone go to rehab has a low probability of removing the specific addiction/s. One must make the choice of their own free will if the addiction is to be broken.

I made a commitment to not drink because I never wanted my children to see me drunk ever again. I made that decision after they saw me throwing up drunk on the side of the road. I felt as if I was a bad dad.

While I still drink on rare occasion, I have gotten drunk one time since that night.

That one time was at a party with no children present and my kids were gone for the weekend. I was so embarrassed by my behavior, I never drink more than 3. Those 3 drinks might give me a buzz, however I never will allow myself to get drunk.

I never went AA. I never sought out a support group or counseling.

I took ownership of it and took my power back.

In my mid 20’s I developed a prescription pain pill addiction as a result of an injury that became a source of chronic pain. I dislocated two ribs between my right shoulder blade and my spine. At the time I had no insurance and was not making enough money to afford a DR.

It was 2 months before I had the injury looked at and another year before it was treated. As a result I had developed scarring in the muscle under my right shoulder blade and it became a daily source of pain. My average pain level was 5 on good days, an 8 on bad days and on average between 6 and 7 using the 1-10 pain scale.

I am not sure there is an adequate way to describe what living with chronic pain is. If you have never dealt with chronic pain, it is difficult to imagine a physical pain that never goes away.

I sustained more soft tissue back injuries over the years and my short leg was causing the nerves to get twisted up in my lower spine. It also had caused twisting in the muscles and my spine.

If you have never experienced chronic pain, there is no way to describe the feeling of temporary relief from that pain. I had made the decision to give up prescription pain killers after I gave up drinking.

I gave up the pills with the cigarettes and coffee all on the same day while still married to my second wife. I went back to coffee after a few days. Over the next several years my pain level steadily increased, however I still have yet to use prescription pain killers to this day except on one occasion. I felt hung-over the next day and haven’t taken anything harder than ibuprofen in 5 years.

At age 36 I found myself driving a taxi. At the end of my shifts when I got home it was frequent that I could barely stand to be on my feet long enough to make it into the house.

The pain in my lower back was a ten. I started using marijuana for pain relief. It wasn’t doing much due to the level of pain I was in. By this time in my life my daily pain was an 8 on average. My good days were the 6 and 7’s and the bad days felt like 11.

I still refused to use prescription painkillers because of my past addiction and not wanting to relive it even though my life had become a torture chamber and it was my own body that was torturing me.

It was during the next 3 years I developed a psychological addiction to marijuana. I still use marijuana medicinally and on occasion I smoke for recreational use with intent. Most of the marijuana smoking I do is medicinal and I do not smoke enough to get high or stoned.

I also prefer strains that have a lower psychoactive effect.

At this time I have difficulty finding the strains I know work best for me medicinally. Due to this I measure out what I am smoking based on the effect the strain I am using has. I take the view of looking at it as dosages based on desired result and known effects of the strain I am using.

I would prefer to have 4 strains available for medicinal use. I have ADHD to the extreme. I need one strain that assists with focus and does not get me high so I can be productive. I need a strain that is strong and turns my brain to mush so I can sleep through the night and get the rest I need. Without it I skim sleep and wake frequently through the night and never get much rest.

The other two strains are for the same purposes and there to have something to switch back and forth to keep my tolerance lower for these strains. I have found just as with any other substance, continued use of one strain will build a tolerance and it will take higher doses of that substance to gain the desired result.

In walks addiction.

My life has shown me I am prone to addictive behavior. I own it and manage it to attempt to not develop unhealthy behaviors that go along with the things I use to deal with life or escape it on occasion. Before I could ever manage it myself I had to acknowledge the choice was mine and if I want to abuse, I will and no one can stop me except for me.

Even in the act of reaching out for someone to tell you not to do what you are thinking, you are making the choice to deter the desire over simply giving into it.

I understand addiction because I’m an addict and I live with my addictions and own them for what they are and manage them to reduce the harm they can and will inflict upon me and my life.

I’m still dealing with chronic pain as the muscles in my body adjust to the lengthening of my short leg, however now my daily average is 5 and on good days it’s a 4 and I barely notice it and on bad days it’s an 8 and I meditate most of the day to escape the pain.

I had lived with my twisted physical form for 39 years and it has been 2 and a half years since the day I had finished the internal process of lengthening my leg and fixing my oversize hip.

That is 39 years of muscle retraining I am in the middle of still. I am still a ways off from full recovery and I am not sure if I will ever fully physically recover.

How many people do you know that have done this to themselves?

I do know that I am in much less pain and I manage it much better than I used to. I also feel good about the way I manage myself in avoiding addictive behavior and use of self-discipline and exercising my power of choice. Or to say I never once bought into the idea that a lot recovery programs use in giving it over to a higher power.

If God resides within everything and everyone, than we are our higher power and that power is the power to choose for ourselves.

If I had the personal will power to break my own addictions by choice and stay clean, anyone can do it. I feel anything else is a cop out or attempt to take the idea of having that kind of power over your life away.

I want to add this piece from poet Marianne Williamson:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God. You’re playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Enough said on addiction and your power to be an addict or not is your power to choose.

Are you valid or seeking validation?

It is often that when we venture off into the online world and start talking, we are seeking validation.

Everyone does it.

We like recognition.

It feels pleasant.

So what?

Leading a life seeking that recognition builds a cage and a limiting way to live and view how of you can best contribute to any given thing at any given time.

Let’s examine 3 questions I use in Enlightened View buzz and see why I use them and call it the enlightened view.

Why one?

This sends one on an exploration of understanding what one’s intent is to even speak in the first place.

If the answer to why me is to show off and seek recognition for showing off it reduces the likelihood of one needing to speak and one having something that actually has much to do with the topic or where the discussion is and where it is going.

One is seeking to have one’s ego stroked.

Why here?

Could it be better to take it in and discuss it elsewhere before offering my view?

I’m putting something out there for all to see. How will they possibly perceive me and what I have to say?

Is it for them or me that I am doing it here?

If it’s for me why?

Why now?

Am I reacting or responding and how is this contribution valuable for everyone who will read it?

Too often in online discussion we get locked into who is commenting and forget the much larger audience who never says a word.

One of my skills allows me to set the size of the hive mind that becomes a faceless single stream of consciousness that flows through my medium mask. It allows me to get a median read on the reaction of the larger audience and gauge my own commenting accordingly.

I use this skill in everything I write.

In order for this skill to work I have to drop my ego out and often find myself taking up unpopular positions with the few who are commenting. The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few or the one and need trumps want every day of the week and twice on Sunday.

What do people need to read in order to understand it better?

That’s making it about we and setting aside the me for the sake of the we.

Seeking validation or credit or recognition is all about the me.

Why one?

Why here?

Why now?

Is it for me or we?

The enlightened view is all about the we.

The Revolution that never was

The Beatles are arguably one of if not the most influential band in Rock ‘N’ Roll history. This buzz is not about that argument. This buzz is about one song that keeps influencing me almost daily.

You say you want a revolution
Well, you know
We all want to change the world
You tell me that it’s evolution
Well, you know
We all want to change the world

The only revolution I ever desire to give my voice or energy to is the revolution of art and the ongoing war of ideas.

It’s been said that storytellers rule the world. Storytelling is an art form that belongs in the hands of the artists. For over 300 years we had a period of time we call the renaissance where the storytellers and the artists led a revolution in the evolution of thought.

In order for a species to evolve, their thinking must evolve as well. When I daydream about the revolution that never was, I see a bloodless evolution of the species. The world is changing and the human species is changing along with it. It’s the wave of change of the generation and the day.

We are not merely wanting to change the world anymore, we are changing it every day.

But when you talk about destruction
Don’t you know that you can count me out

I’m a pacifist by choice after training myself in martial arts and in a way making a weapon of myself. I have had to use it once and that was enough for me to easily choose a life of non violence. If you have never come within seconds of killing someone one there is no way to explain how you see yourself after that moment. If you have never taken a life, ditto.

Too many veterans live with the PTSD that moment causes. Too many don’t get the care they need. Too many are homeless.

Whether it helps or not, can we stop killing each other for a day please and thank you.

Don’t you know it’s gonna be alright
Alright, alright

I often refer to the song Carry On as the song that keeps me going while waiting for other dreamers to join the us that is ever growing us that all listen to Imagine by John Lennon as a sacred song of holy worship.

You say you got a real solution
Well, you know
We’d all love to see the plan
You ask me for a contribution
Well, you know
We’re all doing what we can

There is no master plan that anyone of us could devise that would really work. It has to be designed as it fits as we go. Massive world change takes time and small steps.

Take the time to think globally and be a part of the ongoing refinement that is our shared evolution of thought and then do something locally with it.

But if you want money for people with minds that hate
All I can tell you is brother you have to wait

Forget about the hate and heal the pain.

Don’t you know it’s gonna be alright
Alright, alright, al…

It’s the only way it will ever be alright.

You say you’ll change the constitution
Well, you know
We all want to change your head
You tell me it’s the institution
Well, you know
You’d better free your mind instead

Who knows what form change is going to take?

I have a few ideas.

No one human has the right to dictate life for the rest.

If you think it should be you, please get your head examined immediately. You have lost touch with reality.

But if you go carrying pictures of Chairman Mao
You ain’t going to make it with anyone anyhow

Take out Chairman Mao and insert vile politician or head of whatever country works for you.

Don’t you know know it’s gonna be alright
Alright, alright

It’s going to be alright when we work to make it so.

 

Blinded by Romantic Love

A hopeless romantic without a partner by my side
Makes it nearly unbearable the is life ride

Even though one is whole
To be joined is one’s only goal

Side by side souls mated
By choice alone are we fated

It’s torture not to feel her touch her warm embrace
It’s endless suffering not to be face to face

I feel so weak when it comes to you
The only one who can hurt me it is true

You stole my heart in one glance
In your arms I became a slave to your trance

I look for every way
To make this pain go away

Yet I know it will only end
In your arms again

What will it take to to get you to see
What your absence is doing to me

You consume my heart and my every thought
This is why I fought

I have never felt so lonely
Wanting you as my only

I feel as though I have gone insane
A man possessed in your name

You have stolen my heart
You are my art

The only thing that brings out my creative side
In this darkness waiting for the shifting side

I want to forget how to behave
I want to rant and rave

So much work I put into taming me
All undone by thee

I want to grab you and pull you to me to find sweet bliss
By shoring with you our first kiss

It’s the love of romance of this you can trust
Unconditional love mixed with lust

I want to worship at the temple of my Goddess
I want to give you my gentle caress

I want to ravage you all night long
It’s to you my lust belongs

I am a man who wants only one by my side
One to live out the rest of this life’s ride

It’s you I want as the Queen of my Universe
You living Goddess of this verse

Please end my pain
And take me into your arms again

I feel so crazy and insane
Loving you like this is no game

Emotional Intelligence = Empathic Intuition

They are the same thing.

When you allow yourself to engage in empathy you open the empathic ability each of us has to a certain degree. In doing this you learn to translate emotion and the intent behind it. This is the basis of intuition, to be able to read between the lines so to speak to understand what isn’t being said or better understand why it is being said to begin with.

As you choose to engage in Empathy more often you hone the intuitive self and create a skill in reading people and situations. Being able to intuitively take a reading of a person or group with out having to engage, merely viewing and opening yourself up to the emotional wave/s present.

For an Empath emotional intelligence is who they are personified.

When you can take on the emotions of others it gives you an insight into them and what is causing it. Think of an Empath as the equivalent of an Empathic Wizard so to speak. The etymology of the word Wizard from old English simply means Wise. Over the centuries we have given this word new meaning attaching the ideas of wizardry and magic however originally the Wizard was the wisest person around.

Wisdom often comes from understanding why we feel what we do.

I always say “If knowledge is power than wisdom is understanding.”

The intuitive self is often much wiser than the thinking self as it is often restricted by learned process. Intuition guides you from within without need for lengthy explanations, you simply “know” what is going on and are better able to hone in on the wisest course of action.

How does this aid in business?

The more you hone your intuition the less time you lose in making a decision you feel confident about.

The more you open yourself to the empathic nature we all share the easier it is to communicate and often you find yourself being more direct and simple with your communication.

You think less and your honed intuition, which could also be called your instincts, will give you the feeling as though you are thinking faster when in reality you are giving more trust to your own subconscious programming that you build over time to build faith in your intuition.

That takes experience to build and no one can teach you a course on it or give it to you in a book.

It’s simply a matter of setting the intent to allow yourself to be more open to what you are feeling coming from others and investigating through questions to learn to translate the emotion better and in doing so developing the intuitive skill.

Part of what I do is assisting people in opening up to their intuitive self and assisting them in becoming more accurate in their reading of emotion and building a honed skill.

In the thousands of students I have had I often find honing and mastering this skill gives them more confidence and they are not as easily shaken by someone projecting in an unhealthy way and are better prepared to deal with the situation and bring it to a peaceful resolution as they have trained themselves to understand where it is coming from regardless of the words used.

This is also the gateway to climbing the ladder of conscious level awareness and as you engage you will become more and more consciously aware of a lot of things. I have found that having someone to be the mirror you bounce your reading ability off of as it grows can assist in avoiding some unpleasant moments through a misread as you develop the skill.

This is also part of becoming unified in mind, body and spirit and reaching the enlightened view or what is commonly called enlightenment.

We are emotional creatures and it is only in embracing that and learning to understand each others emotions and why they are there that we become wise.

The Theory of Consciousness and Connected Gravity?

I have a reputation for being direct. This is a definite departure as I venture into the unknown.

In taking this trip into the unknown I need some assistance and welcome all who want to take a stab at seeing what we can discover working together.

Where do we start?

In my opinion I think the first place to start is the gyre.

In simplest terms a gyre is a subatomic sized singularity or black hole that works on a vortex.

In my mind the only thing that makes sense is that everything is connected through gravity.

Science has proven there is a thin electromagnetic field that surrounds our human form and that we never actually touch anything though it feels as though we do.

Key part there is the word “magnetic” for me.

A field that is a unique gravitational signature that tells existence what our form is and how to respond to it physically as well as setting limits for the physical form.

In my thinking it is the gyre that is the only thing that makes sense as the source that creates this field around our form.

As I am going here I want to take a moment here to remind myself as I type, this is all theory and I am open to the ideas of the rest.

The gyre is smaller than the DNA strands that tell our body what form to take as well as bunch of other stuff, what is it that tells the DNA strands to form?

This is where I get into the what if realm with no way to really know if I am right or wrong. I am not even sure there is a way to prove it.

What if within the gyre is a consciousness?

What if the gyres work in unison communicating with each other to work together?

That would mean that gravity is a living a force. I have never had that thought before I just wrote it.

How do we prove or disprove that gravity is a living force with consciousness that we simply do not yet understand?

This would be the jumping off point where I am asking for assistance in discovery and building the Theory of Consciousness and Connected Gravity.

For me this also answers the question of organized chaos and why the universe works even when the math can not explain it. The free will of the consciousness within gravity to screw with us when we think math will give us the answer that eludes our grasp. That little chaos factor that keeps popping up.

We have been given the ability to reason for a reason and I ask that we all bring reason to this discussion and respect that each of us in charting into unknown territory as far as I know.

Who wants to chase the white rabbit with me?

Building confidence through better self talk

I frequently say that self talk is the most important talk there is in life.

It’s the talk that defines us and our life. It’s the perception we create of who we are and where our life is and where it has been and where it going. Self talk is the character refining and defining that we do as the story that is our life unfolds.

I use what I call The Cinematic View.

The story of one’s life will always be in the context of one’s character. One’s self talk is describing who that character is and defines at times the limits of where one’s life can go. If one is telling oneself that one is always “this,” then one will always be that.

Henry Rollins in an interview was asked how he managed to have such a varied career. He basically said that it didn’t matter what he was offered the answer was yes and he would figure it out as he went. This led to writing a script for the first time, acting for the first time and a lot of firsts that have become things Henry has done in stretches to pay the bills and what not.

A fine example of modern day Bardism if there ever was one. Never allowing oneself to become imprisoned by the idea of not being able to do something just because the experience is lacking. Telling oneself that one is capable and will always find a way to figure it out no matter what “it” is.

This is may not be good to use as a marketing point, however in life it will open doors you never thought were possible. It leaves the story of your life open ended and able to take turns and plot twists that keep it interesting and keep you moving. It is a frame of mind that allows life to be an endless adventure while picking up skill after skill along the way.

Before you can live it you have to tell yourself that you are living it and that next adventure is always around the next corner. You have to tell yourself you are capable of living it.

This is where daily mantras come in handy.

I am wise.
I work smart.
I am kind.

Say it enough day in and day out and it will become what one one truly is. Building your own mantras is an exercise in claiming your power and taking it back to manage your life in the way that suits you best. It’s the self talk you create to create your life.

To build more confidence, talk about the you that is confident and why that confidence exists. Take small steps coming out of your comfort zones into other areas. The more experience you rack up the more you have to remind yourself about in times of doubt.

If for some reason you can’t find anything good to say about you to you, hit me up, it’s one of the many things I do. I see the capability in all, the potential is in all of us. Reaching that potential takes work. It takes trial and error. It means taking our lumps and figuring out how to do it better next time.

Just remember never to discourage anyone making progress and that starts with yourself and your self talk.

How music saved my life

A few years ago I came one good hard push on a dagger away from ending my life. In fact I stood in my living room with a 14″ dagger on 3 separate occasions ready to kill myself. Here’s what stopped me.

When I awoke to the fact I am an Empath, Telepath and a Medium, I started talking about it and telling people.

I lost every close friend I had save one who was on the other side of the country. My 3rd wife who is also an Empath became abusive because she lied about her being and thought I should too. My parents decided I was under the influence of Satan. My 2nd wife used it to try and take my son out of my care. She lost that court battle.

That was the first of 3 shrinks I saw who have all given me a clean bill of mental health.

The ridicule of being told I was crazy or full of shit or that my X-Men powers are something people should run away from led to me wanting to kill myself.

What stopped me each time was 3 songs that became anthems in my life.

Freak Like Me by Halestorm.

Thank you Lizzy Hale for writing that one even though you had no idea who would grab on to it as a song of hope. Many of us have been made to feel as though we should be freaks locked up in the basement hidden from the world.

We Are The Others by Delain.

Thank you Charlotte Wessels for writing another song you had no idea would become a song of hope for a bunch of people who felt and often still feel like others and are made to feel as they don’t belong.

Born This Way by Lady Gaga.

Thank you Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta because I and so many others were simply born this way and deserve the same respect and acceptance as any human being. Again we were not the ones the song was being sung about however it became a song of hope and inspiration for us.

The kind of ridicule and abuse people such as myself have taken and at times still take led to me wanting to end my life and has done the same for countless others.

For me after the 3rd time, I made a promise to myself to never think about suicide ever again. As a symbolic gesture of this, I took the dagger I was going thrust into my heart and wrapped it up in a towel and threw it in a dumpster.

I haven’t felt suicidal since no matter how much ridicule and abuse I have taken in the last 3 years since.

#Halestorm

#Delain

#LadyGaga

 

One Love One Race is how to live Pro Human

For a long time I have heard the mantra “One Love” and it wasn’t until the last few years I really started thinking about it and what it means and could mean.

They idea of us all being one connected consciousness and yet still have the ability to be individuals is mind boggling at best until you really experience it. As simple as I could explain it here, it has no value unless you experience it.

There is no modern wisdom or ancient wisdom that is going to change the world in a book or a blog piece or singular performance of any kind. People who make a living off seminars and books who say other wise get really pissed off when I let that secret out in the way I shred the veil so to speak.

Wisdom can only be gained through experience and is unique to the individual view that are the stories of ones life that led one to the wisdom they guide their life by.

Love is honest in all things.

My one on one work has always been 99% charity work. I have quoted prices to 3 people in 2 years and generally if you hit me up on any social network I am on with a question I will answer it and if it turns into a discussion and more of them I never stop to think about charging.

There was a woman a couple years ago that I did a lot of session work with and it helped her career as a life coach quite a bit. When I asked her what she would charge for what she received she said somewhere around $400- $500 an hour. Her name is Amy Fiedler and she is good. She had left a recommendation for me on the profile I chose to delete when I left Linkedin for a couple months for personal reasons.

I could give a list of professional women in the guidance arena who have been my charity clients on a regular for the last 2 or 3 years.  When I am not doing that I am taking at least 6 women in my life at a time as something of a surrogate boyfriend. I do all the boyfriend jobs except sex and it stays off the table.

The faces have been changing since I was 12 however it often feels like the same 6 women are always in my life with others dropping in here and there.

I spend a lot time empowering them to be the strong human beings they are. I also hear all the broken heart stories and do a lot hugging as they cry. I also have a weird way of knowing exactly when to check on them.

These women are always the best part of my life because they always bring out the best in me.

Since embracing the one love idea and incorporating it with being an Empath it has done nothing but create more and more wonderful intimate friendships in my life with wonderful human beings who just happen to be women.

I thought I was crazy for 37 years. Then I realized it was real, the nightmare I went to sleep at night to escape.

Not knowing I was a Telepath for 37 years and not knowing I am an Empath meant when the women of my life told me the horror stories no one should ever have to live through, I saw it and felt it with them as if I was them down to physical sensations.

Waking nightmare depending on who I was around as I would also know their darkest of desires and things no human should ever want to do to another human.

When you can see where the desire comes from in the pain that created it, you really start thinking about what you can do if anything to:

1. Make the nightmare go away.

2. Never have to see it again unless it’s necessary.

I have a very twisted sense of humor in order to survive what I have seen and felt. The longer I live my life living my integrity living my individual expression of love in the flesh, the more one love is the only love we truly need and what we need to be giving more of to the sum of us all.

That love does not know age or skin color or borders or language or gender. That love is.

I am curious if there is a debatable argument to be made.

The questions for exploration in my mind are as follows.

What is the human value with the idea of keeping society going and not repeating our history of violence is there to the idea of race beyond only being human?

If we want to stop killing each other what is the value of borders?

If we are to be Pro Human why does gender matter unless sex is on the table?

If we are to say fuck it to the dark mirror of fear, what is the value of any label we use other than human?

If sex is on the table, gender and gender identification matter.

Where does it matter in life any other time if we are to treat each other with one love as one race?

What is the human value of hate?

Does hate versus hate in your opinion do anyone any good?

Does the idea of forget the hate and heal the pain sound good to you for humanity?

Are you beginning to see why I say one love one race is to be pro human and that is what it means to be so human.

The basis of intuition and the power of your voice

In the last 5 years I have dedicated myself to taking my intuitive skills and making them razor sharp as well as understanding how it works and why.

My dad asked me this morning as I was talking to him about some of the difficulties of living life as the Empath I am. When he asked who I go to, I had to stop and think.

I spend most of my time mentoring other people and helping them better understand where it comes from and how to manage it better and sharpen the ability into a skill set. Somewhere over the last 5 years I became an expert on the subject while all I was trying to do was mange me better.

Let’s take a few here to examine a little closer what intuition is and how the power of your voice effects it.

Your voice is a signal and the volume and emotion you put into every word is the power you give your voice, more so than the actual words spoken.

In the Air Force I studied “the signal” which is the wave of energy that carries data across the world and through the entirety of existence. Your voice is every bit as much a signal carrying data across the world and through the entirety of existence.

Though the volume dies out, the emotion carries on and is felt world wide even though most never recognize it at the conscious level. We have felt every word everyone has said in the world since we were born.

We ignore most of this information and it is stored away in the subconscious until it becomes relevant to our life.

The basis of intuition starts here.

When you instantly feel as though you can or can’t trust someone it is due to feeling everything they have ever said. It’s the subconscious now finding that stored away information relevant.

Think about this way.

When we speak a lie we have an emotional tremor line that goes out with our lie that tells the world we are full of shit and the world responds accordingly if they are listening to their intuition. That inner voice that is rarely ever wrong.

Thought and emotional energy has no mass and therefore travels instantaneously across any distance. It’s why I often say the distance is only in our mind. When we speak the emotion and thoughts behind our words hit before we finish speaking.

This would be where we get that feeling of knowing where someone is heading and at times say “Let me cut you off right there.” We do this because we have already felt the entirety of their speech and the emotions and concepts behind it. When we are allow ourselves to give into this intuitive way of reading people we can often jump ahead in the conversation.

It can also lead to some rude behavior at times. Even though we can feel where it is going it is considered to be respectful to allow people to finish. Empaths and Telepaths have hard time with this. They are often already ahead of where the discussion is and it takes exercising self discipline and patience in order to not be rude and say “Let me cut you off right there.”

This is why an intuitive consultant can consult in industries they have no experience in. They allow themselves to be a conduit for what you already know and are ignoring within. There have been many times in my life I have been discussing something with someone and I am able to assist them in making huge strides forward in their projects and what not in 5 minutes or less frequently.

I understand why this upsets people who do not believe intuition is a real thing and would prefer to write it off as mysticism or call it anything but credible. I understand why intuitives get ridiculed in social media and other areas of life. I understand why intuitives are treated with skepticism and animosity at times.

It looks like it all comes easy to us with little to no effort.

Wrong.

It takes a lot of work to master the intuitive nature of oneself that never ends. A lot of intuitives spend their life in a state of hyper vigilance. The more you advance the intuitive side of yourself the more susceptible you can become to what is commonly referred to as psychic attacks.

Be as skeptical as you want, it does exist and ignoring it makes you that much more susceptible to it. It’s not a matter of belief it’s a matter of fact.

In the USA the government has been using people such as myself for decades and has spent millions if not billions in researching how to use it for spy activity.

This was the discussion I had with 2 different CIA agents and one Assassin. The Assassin used to be a teacher at one of the schools the governments recruit from.

Using an advanced intuitive makes interrogation easy and can break through any training one has been given to resit being interrogated. This is what both CIA agents explained to me as to why it is used.

The Assassin was the one who explained to me that most of what the school taught was the basic concepts and then it was a lot of self work by the students to master the skills. This means no one can give it to you in a book or a workshop or a seminar and it relies solely on understanding the concepts are indeed fact and then doing the work yourself. Most of that work is done with a partner in order to build each others skills up.

You get random visits from two CIA agents and an Assassin and see how long it takes you to reveal this where some of your understanding comes from. For me those conversations were more than 5 years ago.

It actually did wonders for me in assisting me in removing my own skepticism about my own being and why I have been doing a lot of this since birth.

If it’s true then why doesn’t the government say something?

“Hi public, we have been lying about this thing we have been hiding for decades…”

Get the point.

The reaction would be sure to cause even more distrust in the government than what already exists and I figure with Trump in office our government is already becoming a farce that the rest of the world is having trouble respecting.

To sum up.

Your voice travels far beyond it’s ability to be heard and is felt worldwide. We are all intuitive to some extent and can strengthen that through self exercise with a little guidance from someone who knows what they are doing and has mastered these skills.

Those who become masters of their intuition are some of the most efficient people in thought, word and action and can often assist anyone in making huge strides forward in whatever it is they wish to accomplish.

For all you skeptics out there, don’t knock it until you have tried it, as you are only limiting yourself and weakening your own intuitive abilities.

Do you know what it’s like?

I listen to the song WHAT IT’S LIKE by Everlast as a reminder to engage empathy and that doing that is acting with mindfulness.

We’ve all seen the man at the liquor store beggin’ for your change
The hair on his face is dirty, dreadlocked and full of mange
He asked a man for what he could spare with shame in his eyes
“Get a job, you fuckin’ slob”‘s all he replied
[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in his shoes
‘Cause then you really might know what it’s like to sing the blues
Then you really might know what it’s like [4x]

Ever been that guy or gal to tell a homeless person to get a job and that it’s all their fault they are homeless?

Ever been so foolish to think that people are responsible for their own lives and you have no responsibility to anyone but you?

Ever been turned down for assistance because you are not a minority?

Ever been vilified for being you?

Mary got pregnant from a kid named Tom who said he was in love
He said, “Don’t worry about a thing, baby doll, I’m the man you’ve been dreamin’ of.”
But three months later he said he won’t date her or return her call
And she sweared, “God damn if I find that man I’m cuttin’ off his balls.”
And then she heads for the clinic and she gets some static walkin’ through the door.
They call her a killer, and they call her a sinner, and they call her a whore
[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in her shoes
‘Cause then you really might know what it’s like to have to choose
Then you really might know what it’s like [4x]

Ever stepped up to the plate to be a man?

Ever claimed to a spiritual person and then judge a young woman who decides to get an abortion?

Ever been that young woman who needed more than anything to have someone exercise some empathy?

I’ve seen a rich man beg
I’ve seen a good man sin
I’ve seen a tough man cry
I’ve seen a loser win
And a sad man grin
I heard an honest man lie

I’ve been that guy.

I’ve seen the good side of bad
And the down side of up
And everything between
I licked the silver spoon
Drank from the golden cup
Smoked the finest green

Been that guy too.

I stroked the baddest dimes
At least a couple of times
Before I broke their heart

I am not happy I was that guy once.

You know where it ends
Yo, it usually depends
On where you start

For every success story of someone making it out of poverty there are countless more horror stories of those who don’t even if they work their asses off and do all the same things those success stories did.

Typically speaking, born poor, die poor.

I knew this kid named Max
He used to get fat stacks
Out on the corner with drugs
He liked to hang out late
He liked to get shit faced
And keep pace with thugs
Until late one night
There was a big gun fight
Max lost his head
He pulled out his Chrome .45
Talked some shit
And wound up dead
And now his wife and his kids
Are caught in the midst
Of all of his pain
You know it comes that way
At least that’s what they say
When you play the game
[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to wake up to hear the news
‘Cause then you really might know what it’s like to have to lose
Then you really might know what it’s like [3x]
To have to lose…

Let me tell you a story about the dumbest guy I ever met. Not me this time though the song uses my name.
I knew this guy in high school and then didn’t see him for over twenty years. A couple of years ago we reconnected through Facebook one day. I found out the day we started hanging out again that he had been a drug dealer since high school. I had no clue in high school.

I smoked weed twice in high school and one of those times I was pretty sure I smoked oregano.

As we were hanging out and bringing our friendship current, he told me a story about how he got on the radar of the F.B.I. He started dating one of their informants. A woman testifying against a crystal meth ring.

Here’s why he’s the dumbest guy I ever met.

Over the next year I spent most of our time together trying to talk him out of remaining in the drug game.

During that year I spent a lot of time in his garage with thugs and stone cold killers. He was still dating her and his felonious friends had no idea.

I tried to get through to him that she was telling the F.B.I. everything to build organized crimes cases against the organized crime parties he was doing business with and that was the mob, the Bloods and the Crypts, biker gangs and the Mexican Mafia. He was connected to all of them and was doing business with all of them.

She often had access to his phone and he even had told me more than he caught her copying stuff of his phone.

He had it in his head he was too good to ever get caught.

I haven’t spoken to him in over a year because I didn’t want to go to jail or get shot in the cross fire should his business associates ever find out about his F.B.I. informant girlfriend.

He refused to understand the F.B.I. was letting him do business to rack up evidence. He thought he was really getting away with outsmarting the F.B.I.

Willful stupidity and willful ignorance is the worst kind of both.

I hope he wised up and decided to fly straight. If not…

Righteous Debauchery and The Slow Seduction

As the sun sets and Saturday night begins the longer you wait the better the sin. This is why patience is a virtue.

I posted that status update on Twitter and Facebook and it got me to thinking.

Part of learning Tantra is learning patience. I like to think of what I call The Slow Seduction.

There is an art to seducing with love and not animal lust. It all depends on the pay off you are looking for. I am looking for the kind of sex that you can’t describe however always leaves you wanting more and only wanting it from that one.

Let me talk to you men out there about how to slowly seduce the woman in your life whether it is your girlfriend or your wife.

The Slow Seduction starts with eye contact and keeping it no matter how desirable you find her flesh and no matter how much of it is exposed at the time. A lesson I learned from half naked dancers at a strip club one summer and believe me their flesh made it a difficult lesson to master. I’m still human.

Conversation.

Talk about what matters to you and listen to what matters to her. Speak from the heart about what makes your heart bleed and what motivates you to do what you do and less about what you do. Let them feel it coming from the inside as you expose your soul through your tales told.

This is also known as intimacy and creating it between the two of you.

This is not something you do going out to dinner in a room full of people or in a bar or anywhere there are crowds. You do this somewhere that the two of you can easily focus on each other without distraction. This is why I like walks in the park or finding a place in the park to just sit and talk.

Neil Diamond sings the art of love is who you share it with. I call him the master of all love songs for a reason.

When it comes to romance, it is sharing everything without holding back that shows how vulnerable you are ready to be. It’s in that vulnerability where the intimacy grows and the bond between you both strengthens.

I tell the women in my life who are looking for a man to look for man with the slow hand and an easy touch. A gentleman is gentle and if you are truly opening yourself to someone, a look can do more than any touch.

Then gentlest of touch and taking your time allows passion to build and it is the time you invest in taking your time for the rest that leads to the best.

This is the nice of saying make the foreplay last as long as you can and be gentle. Once you get to that moment where the love making begins, take your time and enjoy the sin.

If you can do this for a wife or girlfriend on a regular basis she will appreciate you forever and a day.

After that it is all about whatever the two of you desire to explore as the beasts come forth to play with each other enjoying the dark desires you share.

Sex, drugs and Rock ‘N’ Roll.

Sex: Be responsible.

Drugs: Use moderation.

Rock ‘N’ Roll: Well it did get its name for having sex in a car.

This is why I’m The Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman by life not choice.

Learn to like being corrected if you desire to grow and learn in life

In my mid 20’s I had a fiery passionate relationship with a woman who taught me much in life.

She would correct me as we would talk and I got upset the first time until she said this “I’m trying to make sure you don’t sound like an idiot to everyone else. It’s important to get it right or you do a lot of harm.”

After that I thanked her and have often thanked people who are able to correct me if I am in error.

I work at being accurate and often upset people by correcting what they had no idea was wrong. That’s what Shaman’s do, they give you accurate guidance regardless of what any book says.

It is much more important to the sum of existence to be right than to be liked or respected. When we are incorrect and get others to follow our incorrectness we harm the sum of existence and often inflict suffering on others.

When we allow ourselves to be corrected we show true humility and a true desire to grow and learn. Anything else is defending the image we have created for whatever reason and refuse the correction out of fear of losing status.

Not an opinion. That is a statement of universal and absolute truth of living as a human being.

Shaman’s are supposed to lay it out like that. It’s the lies we live that damage our souls and allow us to inflict damage on each other’s souls. That is not healthy for the sum total.

This is why I say “Unfortunately for some facts do exist.”

It’s why I use this quote from Spock “The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few or the one.”

It’s absolutely selfish to attempt to make an opinion carry more weight than actual truth. It’s selfish manipulation for the sake of self and self alone in order to gain or maintain status in any given society.

I am picky about where I comment as my brand is not about commenting, it’s about teaching for free and never asking for the donations I make a living off of.

If one sees oneself as a teacher first one has refused to learn the master lesson of teaching.

One who is a master of teaching is always the student first, yet not too humble to think one has nothing to teach.

That carries no label and is a mode of life.

While I use the title Shaman there are many who are as wise as I am and have different ways of expressing the same universal absolute truths of existence who use different titles or no title at all. My local family and friends here in Chico, California has more than a few of them. When I hang out with the people I love most, I am hanging out with peers.

The only peer pressure in our peer group is to love more and to do it from the core. One love, one race is our mantra.

We learn and grow with each other in every moment shared. We allow ourselves to be corrected by each other and often give thanks for the correction.

We meet eye to eye with arms wide open for a big ol’ love hug to keep sharing with all we meet eye to eye with open arms.

Love is honest in all things and anytime you deceive you are not loving others, you are hurting them and causing them to suffer.

Again this just happens to be how it actually works. It’s nothing new by an infinite shot.

We all float like butterflies and it is delivering the sting of the truth that transforms us from butterfly to bee in metaphor.

The butterfly is a metaphor for transformation.

When we allow ourselves to be corrected we allow ourselves to be transformed in the moment.

In time

I had one come after me
Wanted to bind and own me

Then I remembered where I last felt free
In the arms of another she

Feeling fully restored
Now I am a little bored

Lost in eyes that saw me true
Lost in the others view

I never tried to find this place
That I live in after an embrace

Patience comes with ease
As I wait for what made me weak in the knees

It’s been so long since I have tasted something like this
I call it peace with a side of bliss

It makes it easy to find my way
Even when playing in the sway

Every muse leaves their mark
On the artists heart that is where she lit the spark

Feeling at home in my own skin
Seeing without seeing sin

Reclaimed my darkness as my own
My sacred space that is my creative home

I need no other to join me in this space
I found me whole behind my own face

In time one might join me of her own choice
Using the power of her own voice

The last the dared to try and bind me
Never again in the darkness will find me

The one who set me free
Is always free with or without me

I have no desire to own thee
I accept that which comes willingly

To find the love I have to share
With one who will take the dare

To meet me in the dark
To see what might spark

I sit and wait
As the muse does hesitate

What fate shall become of me
As I dream of thee

In time the story will unfold
What doe this story hold

Only two will know
And only if they join their flow

The flow of love that springs from within
The flow between two that can find no sin

No games ever played
What stands in our way will be slayed

The beast stirs within
Waiting to begin

In time
Will she choose to be mine

A choice
Made by her voice

Ever waiting
For the muse to stop hesitating

Changing your instincts

Here’s the instincts I changed and have been teaching people to change for more than a decade.

Fight or flight.

We are all familiar with the basic concept of the choice we each make when faced with opposition or the unknown. We either fight it at first or walk away from it and dismiss it completely.

My clients often get this simple guidance where fear is concerned. “Fuck fear!”

In fact one of my former clients got it this morning while I was having my morning coffee and a spliff, catching up with all that happened while I slept.

Using the Psychospirilosophy tool allows anyone to change this fight or flight response to a neutral investigative response. Here’s why and how it works.

The tool asks you to run through these 3 processes of thought.

Psychologically speaking is what I am thinking or thinking about doing healthy. This begins the exploration of how one got to this moment to feel the way one does about what one is thinking or feeling. It allows one the opportunity to look inward and understand oneself and one’s intent better.

I have always said that as long as your spiritual path does not require you to kill animals or people, have something, I don’t care what.

Taking the time to explore whether or not what one is thinking or thinking about doing is in accordance with the spiritual path one has chosen can reveal much about why one is feeling the way one is feeling. One’s faith is tested in walking the talk of that chosen spiritual path.

Faith is tested by life frequently and it is either strengthened or destroyed in these moments of testing and can be renewed or reshaped as experience teaches one if one’s faith is blind or false or holds true based on one’s chosen spiritual path and how one lives it.

Why does a thought or feeling about something seem to have me questioning my faith?

It is often that among different faiths and spiritual paths that the concepts are similar when it comes to living a spiritually aligned life.

Taking time to investigate the faith of another can often lead to a strengthening of ones own faith and foster understanding instead of creating friction.

My own personal philosophy that sends me on the dive to investigate first is that to understand oneself in the moment is to understand the rest sharing it with you.

Letting the understanding that we are all human and if it makes sense to me it might make sense to anyone. The key question for me is always how would I feel if someone said it to me?

Taking yourself out of the issue and taking the opportunity to engage in the exercise of empathy creates mindfulness and raises awareness.

Patience exercised is patience cultivated. The more you engage in the investigate process the more it becomes the natural instinct.

Anyone can use the Psychospirilosophy tool and most of us do without realizing to a certain extent. I just gave it a clever name.

It takes work to change oneself.

It takes a choice made repeatedly to create routine that becomes an instinct.

The power is always yours and that power is the power of choice.

Cold Comfort

Cold comfort
A last resort
 
A place to run and hide
When you need a break from the tide
 
We all have that day
That we need to get out of sway
 
Taking time to decompress
Letting go of all the stress
 
Needing time in solitude
Is not rude
 
Sometimes it’s the seclusion
That stops the explosion
 
Alone in the dark
A day in a park
 
Getting away from it all
To bring you out of the stall
 
That feels like a downward spiral into the pit
That has us wanting to forget
 
It’s in surrender to what is creeping up within
That the rise up will begin
 
Relight the fire
That will take you higher
 
Never feel as though you are being rude
When you need that solitude
 
Take the time you need to feel like you
And fix your view
 
That let’s you see letting go of what was that kept hurting you
Brings in something new
 
Something that appreciates all you are
Sees that bright inner star
 
To have that one must let go of the past
To have a shot at something that will last
 
Cold comfort
Is the last resort
 
That gives you the chance to be free
And find that which will always support thee

History and Skin

Skin By Sixx: A.M. and why I listen at least once a day to this song.
Paint yourself a picture
Of what you wish you looked like
Maybe then they just might
Feel an ounce of your pain
I am Shaman by birth not choice. I always wanted write fiction and make movies and music and stuff. I am working that into my life.
The things that hurt the most is that being born the Taltos I am means I often happen to be right and I never feel the need to be right.
I can’t even begin to describe the amount of loss that has brought to me in life. It’s pretty much why I spend so much time in solitude and have taught myself to enjoy it.
They say wisdom is for the world and I rarely meet any as wise as I am and most of the time it’s why I alienate people and they find reasons to exclude me from their lives.
You never get used to that when you do truly love people or you never would have said a word.
It’s as unfair to me as it feels to the people I call out on their bullshit even when they have no idea they are full of shit.
Born doin’ this.
At 43 it ain’t going anywhere.
Come into focus
Step out of the shadows
It’s a losing battle
There’s no need to be ashamed
I am never going to apologize for being able to be correct because I channel Source wisdom.
I was born with a short leg that I fixed myself internally.
Since then I have tasted more pain and suffering from exclusion for being right than anything else in my life.
Yet I still keep bringing it from within with everything I have got to live the love people talk about and I back up in action daily.
‘Cause they don’t even know you
All they see is scars
They don’t see the angel
Living in your heart
Let them find the real you
Buried deep within
Let them know with all you’ve got
That you are not your skin
I don’t know how to not love all of you.
Some of you I dislike at times and some of you have lost my respect for the lack of respect you show for yourself and others. However I guarantee you if you ever needed anything and I could do it, it’s done.
I used to give free cab rides to an ex girlfriend and check in on her after we broke up because she had no one else doing it.
I forgave a man who assaulted a woman close to me and then later he ended up helping me nurse a broken heart that this woman broke.
I have given away roughly $5 million in free energy work and counseling over the last few years and most of that, 99% of it to women in or coming out of abusive relationships.
I give most of my physical energy to my dad who has Parkinson’s to keep him out of a wheel chair. Part of my energy healing technique.
I accelerate people though the awakening process. My energy gives people a total ramp up just hanging out with me.
I made myself a conduit for this so I just radiate it. There is a big boost of it going into this.
I do nothing but give in my life.
And the next set of lyrics applies to this as well.
When they start to judge you
Show them your true colors
And do unto others
As you’d have done to you
I give without reservation or question or expectation because I can.
Just rise above this
Kill them with your kindness
Ignorance is blindness
They’re the ones that stand to lose
My kindness is my honesty. It’s that honesty and being an open channel that allows me to remove ignorance and drop the veil.
What people stand to lose is their ability to lie to themselves about who they are and who they have been and the effect their choices have on the sum.
They see the suffering they inflict on others.
They lose irresponsibility.
They lose the ignorance that was their bliss.
They lose their innocence as they judge themselves. I hold judgement for no one. I always say judge thyself alone and be forgiving and change the choices you make to avoid that guilt from ever creeping up from within again.
‘Cause they don’t even know you
All they see is scars
They don’t see the angel
Living in your heart
Let them find the real you
Buried deep within
Let them know with all you’ve got
That you are not your skin
Nothing centers me more and faster than this song.
Cried the first dozen times I listened to it and still do on occasion.

 

Lost in you

Getting lost
Has no cost

It’s a way
To understand the sway

Finding direction
Through inner reflection

First let go
Into the flow

See where it takes you
Let it change your view

Let it bring out
The things you doubt

That you can do
See what’s really in you

Let go of their view
It will only fuck you

If you’re going to bring it true from the deep within
Forget about the idea of sin

Let passions fire
Rise higher and higher

Let what fuels the fire
Become your living desire

To fly like the fire bird
Soaring ever higher with every word

Let it pour from your soul
Knowing you are whole

Letting your wants for fleshly pleasure
Be with one you will always treasure

Let that lust fly
And take it beyond the sky

Connect and mate our souls in loves embrace
Let it take you every place

That place you never thought you could go
Come on and let go

Let’s find the night
To be in delight

Starting with the never ending conversation
That leads to the ultimate sexual relation

A bond built on trust
So you can fully unleash the lust

Get lost in the eyes
Never in lies

Let go into the we
And tell me what you see

In your eyes I get lost
And to stay there I would pay any cost

In your arms freedom found
No I’m totally unbound

I might be intense
From me you will never need defense

Now I am lost in you
Come get lost in me too

Take a Stand

In life we have those times
When we feel the need to cross those lines
 
The ones others create and then expect
That we all show them respect
 
Even when they themselves show no respect to anyone
They talk about “Hey I ‘m having fun”
 
Not caring who they hurt
They are lower than dirt
 
These are the people who cause suffering for others
All our sisters and brothers
 
The have no place to cry foul or lash out
Simply because they can’t take what they have been dishing out
 
When you take a stand against those like this
It’s easy to hit and never miss
 
Beware the fury of the meek
Who are anything but weak
 
When one gives it over to higher power
Time after time and hour after hour
 
There are times
When the higher power says no destroy their lines
 
This is when you have no guilt
Destroying all they built
 
They built by feeding off others
Our sisters and our brothers
 
They put themselves first in all things
Then cry like a little bitch when hit with their reaping
 
They sowed in pain
Causing suffering for others in vain of their own name
 
Let there tears fall in lonely dark places
Let them remember all the faces
 
Of those they scorned and tossed aside
As if it was just part of the ride
 
Take a stand when you see the bullshit
Or you are part of it
 
Call them out every time
Fuck their made up lines
 
No one deserves respect
It something you earn not expect
 
Take a stand even on your own
When you stand for what’s right you never stand alone
 
When the gloves come off one who is meek
Then we see who truly is weak

To be

There is a sound
That when it comes around
 
Some run to find any noise they can
As a silent moment arrived and began
 
In silence nothing blocks out
The things that never need to shout
 
The feeling we try to ignore
Kept behind our silver door
 
A place to hide
The things that cause a shift in the tide
 
While we wear a mask
For any given task
 
Wishing someone would see what it meant
Why we are not broken but a little bent
 
In those moments of silent clarity
Look for the rarity
 
That reveals the change in history
As you live a similar story
 
See the changes in you
Turning the mirror inward to view
 
Let the silence seep in
So the real journey can begin
 
Journey through your sacred dark
To find out what makes you spark
 
Rip off the mask
No matter the task
 
Be your living art
Every day from the start
 
Every breath refining the design
Every thought and every spoken line
 
Creating the art they all take in
Never finding an end
 
To all the possibility
Regardless of the probability
 
Live in evolution
To live art’s revolution
 
Then when silence comes again
Let the fun begin
 
Mastering your sacred space
Making it truly your own place
 
Never again living in fear of the dark
Diving deep to light your own spark
 
Break the dark mirror
Known as fear
 
Live free
To be
 
To be

At the end of the silver line

At the end of the silver line there is a woods for those out of the game
A place that has no name

A place to find serenity
A place that lives in eternity

In my Dojo I sit meditating
Sitting and waiting

At peace with creation
In bliss with a side of elation

No need to knock there is no door
Come take up a place next to me on the floor

Tell me what brought you here
Now that we know you have conquered fear

If you have a secret
A regret

You’ll never make it off the line
You’ll be tied to it in your mind

Let go of who you have been
Forgive yourself for the sin

Live in the now the never ends
To break free of the line and find the woods of legend

Out of the game
In the woods with no name

A place to explore
What you never could before

It’s not heaven and it’s not hell
It’s the place of the never ending spell

The only thing missing in this verse
Is a queen to be the center of my universe

One who enjoys these woods I found
One who is willing to stick around

One that knows how to share bliss
Without even one kiss

One who feels me from the core
To even find my Dojo missing a door

Synchronicity
Simplicity

When the mirror retracts
And there are no more acts

When all that’s left is me and you
I look forward to that view

Though still from time to time
I look to see if anyone is coming down the line

Always people crossing from side to side
Based on their own inner tide

But one done with the game
Looking for the woods with no name

This one I cannot find
Though I still look from time to time

Then it’s back to my Dojo and my own bliss
The game is nothing I miss

When Silver met Gold

The silver mirror reflects true that which is deep inside of you.
It’s not pure gold but it’s pure and true.

Loved by a silver heart
Is to be loved by living art

A love that loves you more
That has a golden key to unlock this loves door

A golden heart hidden within the sacred dark
Is what it takes to truly get this silver heart to spark

It’s when I reflect what’s within you
That I repeatedly fall in love with you

It’s what I see in the darkest part of you
That so few ever get to view

That dropped my mirror
You saw me clear

Silver met gold
In tale to ever be retold

Mirror broke mirror
With love not fear

The passions flame that rises for this golden heart
Let’s me let her be free as her own living art

For all of She
Has now become a reflection of thee

The Muse Strikes

The Muse strikes in the day and the night

She strikes beyond sight

She strikes at the core

She opens the creativity door

In the darkest part of your soul and being

Bringing to life something new worth seeing

Maybe a new twist on an old time

Maybe something new with and old twist in mind

When she strikes with love

It’s twice she strikes of this you can be sure of

Once that has you falling

Finding new poetic ways of calling

Then as the gypsy heart the muse she is gone

And the poetry is spewed forth and cried through until dawn

Broken hearts

Create great art

Fools whose hearts sing

Can be ever creating

It’s in the loss

You find the cost

The one you hoped not to pay

As you fell for the muse anyway

Each and every muse had me when our eyes met

Something I’ll never regret

Let what awaken with each one

Never come undone

Let these muses be free

To inspire all of thee

If you be loved by one you be loved by all

Let yourself ever fall

My best advice

Because it’s never the same trip twice

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The Black Dragon has tales to tell

The dragon that hoards is the draconian way of oppression.  The draconian way of hoarding secrets and wealth is to keep the dragon from having to use the dragons true power for its true purpose.

 

The dragon that creates for all is the draconian way of true nobility. It’s the draconian way of using the dragons true power for it’s true purpose as the dragon was born to keep the creating going. The dragon exists to keep existence infinite by fueling the fires of creation that keep the universe in state of constant evolution or change.

 

The dragons fire as it applies to spiritual growth is for stripping away that which is unnecessary to reveal new enlightenments in life. The fire of the dragon reveals new understandings and new things to view and new ways to view them.  The dragon that walks the true draconian way is the dragon that shares freely and allows those who will understand to do so and those who won’t, won’t.

The dragon teaches the power of the voice and how every discussion is sown within all for the dragons fire to reveal. The dragons lesson is to speak well to create well for the sum. Every word is an addition to the never ending spell that creates the path before us and all paths cross at some point. This is the essence of the Majick of the Black Dragon.

It doesn’t take perfection

It doesn’t take perfection

To win my affection

Is doesn’t take direction

To get my attention

Just be who you are

Show me that inner star

Show me the love you live

And I will give give give

To put a smile on your face

In every sacred space

The space we share

If you dare

Could become and embrace driven by lust

However it is never a must

Share with me your presence

To give me presents

Give me your attention

Even if you can’t give me your affection

I will never give direction

As you are already perfection

If you ask my advice

I will always think twice

I never want to be the one and it ain’t no joke

That left your heart broke

I love hard and with all I got

Now matter the spot

I keep my hands to myself

Until you pull me off the shelf

I work for your trust

Not your lust

I will take it if given

And I’ll take you to heaven

A trip for two

No one else gets to view

Your presence is the gift to my soul

But I don’t need you to make me whole

If you get me to break and make the first move

Hold on for one hell of a groove

Patience is a virtue

Yes it’s true

The longer you wait to give in

The better the sin

Righteous debauchery when soul and flesh combine

I am going enjoy taking my time

Make it last

To give you a reason to look at the past

I am no whore

Just want to make sure you’ll want more

Even if it never gets that far

I love you for your inner star

I always want you presence

I don’t need any presents

Be your own version of perfection

And you will always get my attention

soulflower

Holding sacred space for every face

When you fall in love every day
You love living this way
It only takes one look
To get hooked
You hear a voice
There’s no other choice
They say it takes a fool
Fuck that rule
It’s the wise
That falls for what’s behind the eyes
When you love like this
You never need even a kiss
You love to the core of the soul
Never feeling unwhole
Loving with your whole being
All that you are seeing
Heart wide open
And they all are chosen
It’s the beauty seen within
That never let’s you sin
Even in the lovers embrace
It’s always face to face
Eye to eye locked in the lovers gaze
That removes ever last bit of haze
It’s a love that grows
Every time it shows
Always connected
Never neglected
Every day in love with life
Even without a husband or a wife
Without a lover to share your bed
A love that never be tested
In love with life and who you are
Allows you to see their star
With any and all
You leap into love and never fall
Every being
Becomes worth seeing
Picking just one
Can never be done
Keep me as long as you can stand me
Know the love will always be
When you live in love with all
You love all eternal
Never do you taste heartache
Unless it be for their sake
Hurting with or for them
Removing all the thorns from your stem
Always a rose in bloom
For all you have room
Holding the most sacred of space
For all you meet face to face
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Evolving star

In the darkest part of the dark
Is where you light the spark

The light that grows
As it flows

It’s where the light goes to refine
To change its shine

To bring to life something new
From a different view

Wearing it like it fits
No matter how much fire the dragon spits

It’s in heart of the dark
That’s where true art finds its spark

Livin’ in the sway
All night and day

Flowin’ on that ocean
Known as emotion

Never afraid to bring forth something new
And let it be something for all to view

Let the fire burn bright
So what if it gives some a fright

Live what brings passion flame
Always evolving and never the same

Let yourself go
Get into the flow

Forget about thinkin’ your way through
Let the art live through you

Give in
As if you are already forgiven

Enjoy what’s in the dark
That gives your living art its spark

Never feel shame for who you are
And let yourself be that star

Live the story
Fuck off the idea of glory

Make your choices and lay in your bed
Then sleep as if you were dead

When you rise reborn as someone new
Who has a slightly different view

Let is come from deep within
And never let it feel like sin

Be the living art
Live your new part

Never let it be pretend
Never feel the need to defend

It’s only in the dark
You can change your spark

Never go in fear
Never stop a single tear

Let if flow from the core
That opens every door

Love yourself true
No matter the living art view

Never forget who you are
An ever evolving star

soulstar

There is an Angel down

If you have not had a chance to listen to the album Joanne by one Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta AKA Lady GaGa then you are missing out on her best album to date. It is a soul to soul connection with every song, at least is for this Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman.

The song Angel Down has become one of my favorites in the now and has been since the first time I listened to it shortly after the album came out. I have it on repeat while I am writing this buzz. When we get into the lyrics I think you will understand why.

I have a vested interest in social media. Keep that in mind as we go. I will be and do every time I hear this song.

I confess I am lost
In the age of the social
On our knees, take a test
To be lovin’ and grateful

I am a master intuitive and there is no lying to me and I know exactly what happens and why.

It’s too often in all of social media that people feel fine about tearing others down and doing everything they can to discredit people.

I am as honest as it gets. I do not lie.

There are times I feel lost in the age of the social.

These games that get played screw with peoples livelihoods and at some point will involve a lawsuit or worse someone will commit suicide and it will get out which social media platform they were on.

We have seen the stories of teens killing themselves over social media bullying.

I have a vested interest as a Brand Ambassador in the success of beBee.

I want beBee to succeed. I want America to love beBee the way I do.

America is the most sue happy country in the world. I do not want to see beBee go down because some people feel as though they can go around and try to ruin others.

Let’s not get lost in the age of the social and remember this is not a game and real people are on every social media site and what goes on does effect their lives.

This is a great community for building your personal brand.

Personal.

Person.

I swore an oath when I went in the Air Force to uphold the Constitution meaning I would give my life for the freedom of speech. The freedom of speech is not the freedom to slander.

I talk beBee up everywhere and that includes the radio interview I did today that was all about me. I talk about beBee with my friends and family. I talk about it every Friday night during my community service night at The Bassmint in Chico, California.

I don’t get on my knees for anyone for any reason. I am grateful to people who give me reason to be grateful.

I spend a lot of my time in charity/free work showing my love for humanity.

I live my love for humanity.

Shots were fired on the street
By the church where we used to meet
Angel down, angel down
But the people just stood around

It’s been said by more than a few in more than a few different ways that the worst thing we can do in the face of what we know to be wrong is to do and say nothing.

It’s the most damaging thing we can do and the most inhumane thing we can do is to ignore and turn a blind eye for any reason. There is absolutely no excuse if we are to say we love people and want to be seen as someone who wants to help.

The most savage thing we do is sit back and watch or laugh or join in to fit in with people who think slander is OK and find every way they can do it whether it is overt or subtle.

Even worse than that is when we meet hate with hate. This is why I have ignored everything about our president and the protesters who hate as much as he does and fill the air with rage that helps no one and brings us closer and closer to violence and the spilling of blood.

I’m a believer, it’s a trial
Foolish and weaker, oh, oh, oh
I’d rather save an angel down
I’m a believer, it’s chaos
Where are our leaders? Oh, oh, oh
I’d rather save an angel down

I have said it many time that title has nothing to do with leadership and it doesn’t. Title is authority and behavior determines leadership.

Where are our leaders who will show the people how to protest in peace. Where is the Gandhi and MLK of our day?

At times I feel the need to get involved and speak my mind to knock off all the fuckin hate and get the fuck over the past.

I quote the film Network. “I’m mad as hell and I’m not going to take this anymore.”

I am mad because it hurts.

It’s heartbreaking the things that go on in our world. It’s heartbreaking the foolish and the weak think hate is the answer.

It takes a great fool who is insecure and weak to use hate and slanderous speech thinking it will make anything better.

It’s chaos they drive with their hate speech and their slander. Causing fear to run through everywhere that anyone of us will be their next target. It makes it worse when nothing is said or done about it. That makes it look like it is OK and is supported by many.

Simple fact of humanity and how the human mind and emotions work and are manipulated to oppress.

I spend most my time looking for people who need someone to assist them when they are that angel down. 99.999% of the time I do it for free because of my love for humanity and my dedication as a Shaman has not one thing to do with making money.

I’ve done it that way my entire life and if anyone wants to hire someone to check my life story out use the name James Clayton Carter Jr, the name I was born with. Max is my professional name. I guarantee every word I have written in the last few years is 100% true, every word.

I guarantee you will find people who will tell you if you ever need someone go to me first because you will not have to go any further if there is something I can do to help no matter what it cost me. I have been living that for 42 years.

I am always looking for the angel down.

Doesn’t everyone belong
In the arms of the sacred
Why do we pretend we’re wrong?
Has our young courage faded?

It takes courage to embrace those in pain and who are wearing the mask of anger.

There are no toxic people, only people who are unwell in need of love and understanding so maybe they can heal and stop all the hate and anger and slanderous speech.

Everyone belongs here on this earth wherever it is they are right now because this whole planet is our home. We are one human race.

Why do we pretend that is wrong?

Why do we pretend we can say who belongs where and who should be allowed and who should be included?

Why do any of us pretend we have the right to exclude anyone from anything?

That takes being coward to exclude people. A coward is someone who let’s fear make their decisions.

Save that angel
Hear that angel
Catch my angel

We are here on this Earth to be human beings.

We are here to learn what it means to be decent human beings and to find a way to keep this thing called humanity going.

Not an opinion and I just happen to be a Shaman born connected to the infinite giving me the ability to give that answer regardless of what any book says. I just happen to be #BornThisWay.

We are here to hear each other and catch each other when we fall. We are here to save each other and not inflict the pain we feel any deserves or to take advantage of each other because we can and because it works and is legal.

Any questions.

 

#LadyGaga #AngelDown #ProHuman #RockAndRollShaman #BornThisWay

I got love for all your hate

I got no hate to give

Hate is no way to live

I got love for all your hate

You can do it too, it’s not too late

One love

Needs no shove

One race

In every human face

Meet eye to eye with open arms

There is no need to do harm

Share the love in every embrace

With each and every human face

One love is one race

We live in every place

History can bite my ass

Holding on to it shows you have no class

It holds hate and creates more

Closing love’s door

Fuck the hate of the past

Don’t let it last

Heal the pain

To become sane

Hate only breeds hate

That is a dead end fate

One love is what we need

One race of only the human breed

It’s not too late

To keep on creating this new kind of fate

It’s a shared reality

Let’s not let it become fatality

Change your view

To heal the pain inside of you

One love one race

Love every human no matter the face

History is a prison

History is a prison.

History keeps us from growing.

History keeps us divided.

We are a species that is evolving and in order to do that we must let go of history and become something more than we have been.

One Human Race.

That means history based on culture and location and who originated where has to be let go of so we can be one race united in human interests first and foremost.

Anything else keeps us divided and using history as an excuse to not be one race united.

One love means one race.

I myself have in my ancestry African blood, Asian blood, Middle Eastern blood, East Indian Blood, Eastern and Western European blood and Native American blood.

It could be why I don’t really care about cultural history or who came from where as my ancestors didn’t seem to give a fuck either.

What I do care about is human beings in the now.

In the United States we are on the verge of Civil War 2 because we care more about history than we do each other as human beings. We care more about who did what to who and when than we do about caring about what we can do in the now to be united as one race worldwide.

We have let history keep us divided and keep hate alive instead of learning our lesson from history that holding on to the past only keeps us divided and keeps us from becoming a one world united as one race with one love.

I am pro human and fuck anything more than that.

Anything more than that is what has led us to the brink of Civil War 2 in the USA.

If you are going to say One Love that means One Race too.

One human race.

Raising your vibration and becoming awake begins in letting go of history and living in the now. This is what I have been teaching as a Shaman for years and living my entire life. Maybe my diverse genetics has something to do with that, maybe not.

It also means that gender only matters if sex is on the table.

Every single one of us has both feminine and masculine energy to balance out in order to achieve living unified in mind body and spirit.

The shift in consciousness we are going through is about transcending duality and embracing unity. Living in androgyny unless sex is involved. That’s what living awake means.

I’m a citizen of the world.

My history spans the globe through my blood. Down to my DNA, the very building blocks of who I am screams from within to forget the hate of the past and heal the pain in the now. Screams.

It’s individual choice. I can’t make the choice for you and you can’t make the choice for others.

There is a lot we could be doing if we were not prisoners of history. If you would like me to come and speak to any size group please email me at maxpoppasmokecarter@gmail.com.

If you are ever in Chico California on a Friday night, come down to The Bassmint DJ dance club and I will be outside waiting for you, whoever you are.

If you want some one on one video session time with me, please feel free to find me on Skype. facebook:maxpoppasmokecarter

One on one I work by donation. Yeah I know people will take advantage of that and I don’t give a fuck. It’s called being a Shaman and living what that title means.

#ProHumanSoHuman #OneLoveOneRace #RockAndRollShaman

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Life and The Zero Sum Game

Life is not a game.

There is nothing to win.

It’s not a competition.

There are no places and no prizes.

That said.

I often meet people who do treat life as if it is a game. When I engage with these people, I make them play my game instead.

I call it The Zero Sum Game.

The rules are simple.

I win or no one wins because when I win everyone wins.

I win when you realize this is not a game, it’s life and to treat it as a game is to give yourself every excuse to abuse people without guilt and instead pat yourself on the back for your gamesmanship.

When I win, everyone wins.

We are all connected and the more of us that stop playing games the more of us there are that become intolerant of the game players. The more of us there are playing The Zero Sum Game.

At that point it’s exponential in growth and all that resist change are destroyed by those who will no longer put up with treating life as game.

Don’t hate the player destroy the desire to ever see it as a game again.

How you do that is by showing them all the damage they inflict by treating it as a game.

You shred the veil of their delusions with will and intent with the fewest words possible and let them deal with it.

Then sit back and get ready for the intellectual fight that you have already won because your intent is in the best interest of the sum.

Seeing life as a game is for the some.

The some versus the sum.

In any debate the some will always have its ass handed to it mightily by the sum.

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How to raise your vibration, the simple truth

In the fewest words possible.

Embrace life with unconditional love.

What does that mean?

When one loves without conditions one gives love selflessly to all one encounters.

Love has many faces and fear is the dark mirror of love.

Love is a fierce defender that will rage in defense of the weak and the long suffering.

Love mourns and loves the sweetness for the mourning knowing it would’t have hurt so much had so much joy not been achieved.

Love is patient to seek understanding and passes no judgement.

Love is merciful and will be quick with the brutal truth to end the long suffering of deceit.

Love knows no deception and will call it out every time love is met by it.

Love cannot turn a blind eye to suffering and do nothing about it.

Love is a friend to all and seeks to reveal the connection already there.

Love is considerate and thinks before love speaks or acts.

Love is honesty in all things.

Love is not always nice and can be down right vicious in the face of deception.

Love forgets we have an identity/ego and a life to think about protecting and acts selflessly.

This is unconditional love.

If you are going to love unconditionally you don’t think about the venue or your career or making a living in what you do and say. You do it because you love everyone and set your intent to be of best benefit to the sum letting love guide your wisdom.

This is the simplest way in the simplest metaphors that I can explian this concept. This is the simplest way I have found in all my surfing of the Universal Consciousness and all my years of studying religious text and philosophy followed by thousands of discussions on the subject.

What strikes me as curious is why anyone would want to debate it?

The only thing that bounces back when I put that out through the Universal Consciousness is this.

Fear.

Fear that it is true and one will look at one’s life and begin to judge oneself and will attempt to blame the author rather than deal with one’s guilt.

Fear that one will see the suffering that one has inflicted in life on other ones.

Fear that one will lose one’s status.

Fear that one will lose one’s possessions.

Fear that one will be injured emotionally and/or physically.

Fear that one is unforgivable.

Fear that one will standout.

Fear that one is incapable of such love.

Fear keeps one’s vibration low and causes one to inflict harm on oneself and other one’s with a list of excuses as to why.

Fear will cause one to look for fault in everything one sees so that one never has to show unconventional love.

I am sure this could be a much longer piece and in the comments I am happy to get deep into this discussion as I always have been for 42 years and counting.

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If Knowledge is Power than Wisdom is Understanding

Here’s why.

I started my day out with the following quote.

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I didn’t think about it, I just looked for this exact quote to set the tone of my day. I look back hours later and realize I set the process of my thinking and my doing to be one of explaining that which I understand as simply as I can.

Knowledge is highly overrated. Here’s why.

You can pass a test and never actually understand the material. Without understanding the material you do not know if the knowledge you coughed up is true or false. If you don’t know how to apply it to your life the knowledge is useless and has now taken up space in your brain that could have been better used.

If there is no understanding what the nature of the power of this knowledge is one will never wield that power without inflicting mass damage. Here’s why.’

Every word is felt regardless of ever being heard and the concepts tied to that emotion are passed through all ones around the world. All ones are connected and thoughts and words and actions are felt by all ones whether they are consciously aware of it or not.

All ones are responsible for creating the shared reality.

What this means in plain English is that everything you do effects everyone else in some way and your ignorance of that will not let you escape Karmic Law in reaping what you have sown.

You can’t ignore a fundamental law of how existence actually works because you don’t like it or do not wish to face the consequences of your actions and no one ever truly gets away with anything.

All those who inflict pain and suffering will have it inflicted upon them. if you manipulate people you will be manipulated by other people.

No one is the master of any destiny in a shared reality.

No one has the right to attempt to wield authority over anyone else without facing the consequences of an uprising.

Every empire has suffered the same fate.

It is inescapable.

The moment you decide to build an empire you have sealed its destruction. The only way to build an empire and a legacy that will stand the test of time is to elevate yourself and your life above all other life allowing you to justify the means that allow you to end up at the top. The means to this end can only involve creating an enemy and an inferior that you convince other people is inferior and that you are superior.

That enemy will resist and eventually destroy your empire.

You inflict emotional damage in the form of character attacks designed to sway popularity. You create the enemy in degrading to elevate yourself. The greater suffering you inflict the less in the way of numbers it will take to defeat you. You are indeed inflicting suffering by devaluing the worth of other lives that do not see it your way.

Suffering can only be inflicted through deception.

One who wields deception wields power that understands only one thing, the attempt to control what others do or think.

What knowledge do you seek to wield as power and why?

The only reason we ever create something in a complex fashion is to show off and gratify ourselves and ask others to shower us with words of adoration and praise.

When we seek to make it as simple as we can we seek for people to think “Why the fuck didn’t I think of that?”

If you never inspire this, you never explained it simply enough.

 

The value of minimalism

One thing I have enjoyed being homeless the last couple years is having the perfect excuse to enjoy being the minimalist I’ve always been.

Las time I checked, life is a temporary condition and we don’t even take our bodies with us. Why is it we insist anyone needs to own anything from a what fucking good has it done our species perspective with the psychospirilosophic  view as viewed by your friendly neighborhood Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman.

I remember George Carlin did this bit on stuff.

Your stuff is stuff and other peoples stuff is shit.

My stuff and your shit.

 

Here’s the pretty lies about stuff.

I worked hard to have all this stuff.

I deserve this stuff because I earned it.

My stuff shows the value and worth of my life.

My stuff shows how successful I am.

If had no stuff I would have no life,

My dad watches this reality show where these guys drive around and buy junk and resell it as antiques.

Quick lesson in value and what it actually is.

A thing only has the value that you place on it and can convince other people that it has the same value to them. You lie and get other people to share in your delusion that this thing holds any value. You tell a story and use emotional triggers and talk about how you need this in order to do this or that and create a fable to justify your ownership of a thing and what it will take for you to let that thing go.

That’s what value is in application and execution as it applies to stuff.

The only reason to argue with me is because you just started feeling guilty about all the stuff around you and it’s easier to talk shit about the Shaman than to look honestly at yourself. Or to say if you feel the need to argue I already know your argument and the inspiration or intent behind it.

I have been working on a project that is the Psychospirilosophic view of Wicca often called witchcraft. Wicca has one major thing that they call “Do no harm.”

Take a look around at the stuff around you and take a few minutes to think about where the materials come to make it and who made it so all you had to do was buy it.

If it was made in China it was probably made under slave conditions.

If is has any plastic that means that untold amounts of pollution was released into the atmosphere to create that thing.

How much harm was done to have it shipped to the store where you bought it?

Any human being alive does harm just in being alive. however that is not a license to be gluttonous and greedy. A thinking human who cares about something other than themselves works at minimizing the harm their life causes by learning to live without so much stuff.

A selfish human will go on and on about having the right to do as they will and who am I to judge them for leading such an excessive life style that takes and takes and creates more and more harm to satisfy their desire to have more stuff.

I am not offering condemnation, I am offering observation based on results.

Let’s apply psychology to this issue of stuff and the mass acquiring of it.

One who defines themselves through their belongings sees no value in themselves.

If they did they would not need symbols of status known as stuff to impress themselves and others with their life. They idea that one needs to acquire stuff in order to have their life show value is operating from a lack state of mind. They lack stuff and only stuff will make their life whole and give it meaning.

It is insecurity based on the idea that if they do not have as much stuff or cooler stuff than others than their life has been wasted and they have no value as a human.

This is actually how we treat each other and the only goal of marketing and branding.

To shame one into keeping up with the Jones’. To use emotional triggers to convince one that if one does not have stuff or this particular stuff one has not done well as a human.

Success means you wear these clothes, drive this car, have this phone, have this house, have this and have that.

The only goal of marketing and branding is to create a perceived emotional result that the product or service is supposed to give you.

It is in being a minimalist that I study my own motivation behind every thing I buy to have as my stuff. One who understands why they do what they do understands why any human would do what they do.

I stop and think about why I want something.

What is the result I am looking for in having this thing?

If I get this thing will it really make my life better?

If I am using this thing as a reward to motivate myself, why am I not motivated to begin with?

From a spiritual point of view, I often find tales of those with much are cautionary tales of how having much does not bring joy into one’s life and one’s who care greatly about possessions will act in inhuman ways to acquire and keep what they say is theirs. Many of these tales are told to show the corruption of the soul when one becomes obsessed with acquiring material wealth and possessions to define one’s life.

For me personally the value in being a minimalist is this. I don’t worry or stress about anything happening to all my stuff.

My philosophical quote that I create to remind myself of these things is “The value of my life is the impact I make in the lives of others regardless of how much stuff I ever have.”

Life is a temporary condition.

There is no way around that absolute fact of actual truth.

Since life is temporary what makes us think we own anything if it will be here after we are gone?

The only reason psychologically speaking to acquire mass amounts of stuff is to show one’s superiority over other ones. The behavior is 100% driven by insecurity and fear of how one will be seen by other ones. Again this is an inescapable fact of actual truth.

The value of being a minimalist is being able to see the value in one without needing a bunch of stuff to validate one’s existence.

The stuff we think we own says more about us on a psychological level than most of us are comfortable with admitting to ourselves much less anyone else.

No one wants to admit they were taken in by the pretty lies when the ugly truth shows up.

Thankfully the truth doesn’t give a fuck and exists as truth anyway.

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A patient mind reaps the greatest reward

That’s Karmic Law which means it’s how existence actually works and there are no shortcuts around it and any book anywhere that says different is flat out wrong.

It’s why these people who are posting these posters that say good things come to those who go work their ass off is about the most moronic thing I see on a regular basis as it is exactly the opposite of how the universe actually works which means these people have no clue what they are talking about and are actually inflicting great amounts of deceptive harm.

Poster quotes such as that create the worst kind of addiction there is on this planet, workaholics are people who never switch off and never ever actually live their life. They turn themselves into machines who will succeed at all costs and then give up more than they know in their pursuit.

Patience exercised is patience cultivated.

When one applies patience to ones thoughts and actions one sees it’s value in the results. My dad always told me to work smarter not harder. It takes a patience mind to find the most efficient way to accomplishing anything. It takes patience to achieve true mastery and provide something of quality with a priceless value that one puts a price tag on anyway. You don’t achieve quality and you don’t become the best of you without great amounts of patience.

One who waits is a fool or wise depending on what it is they are waiting for.

The fool waits only long enough to find the next logic task.

The wise waits to see if a better way can be found.

In waiting the fool is waiting to be fed.

In waiting the wise are looking for better ways to feed themselves.

The fool exercises needed patience often out of lack of options.

The wise rarely need patience as it becomes their mode of life.

If one is to give the Universe a fair shot at manifesting something for them it takes patience to stay out of the way.

Figure out your desire and than let it go and do as the Beatles sang and let it be.  Trying to cheat the system or speed things up because you really want it and never letting go of the desire distorts it and perverts the manifestation to teach you to let it go and let it be.

Patience is selflessness and impatience is selfishness. Often in life what we are waiting on in order for an easier transition of our story that is our life is for other characters to be ready themselves. When we rush and allow the not so perfect fit be what we take because we don’t want to wait, we fuck our hearts right in the ass.

I don’t care how vulgar or offensive you find that concept as I find impatience to be just as vulgar in the behavior that spews forth due to it. Or to say I wanted you to feel my disgust with the impatient people of the world  by giving you something that should be a revolting idea in your mind.

In using behavioral psychology I made an outright attempt with will and intent to manipulate you based on my current understanding of how a large chunk of the populace would respond to the idea of their heart getting fucked in the ass.

This is the distortion of my own impatience not taking the time to be much more eloquent, instead, opting to bring one thunderous shot right to the dome.

Or perhaps it’s not impatience and it’s not distorted. Perhaps my desire for efficiency allows me to be creative in making an impact in the fewest words possible.

The point I am making is that I am willing to look in and do some guess work about me on my own before any of you ever read this.

Answering the question “Why in the blue holy fuck does a Shaman swear so fucking much?”

I’m not your average Shaman and I work at being an individual and not being like everyone else.

I also have a standing belief that there is no such thing as bad words and anyone who says different is brainwashed.

If you have followed my work at all, I take a stand just by standing most days and offering my opinion on anything.

Take 5 minutes and think who you could be if it went right for you.

Start asking yourself more often “What could go right next?”

A patient mind reaps the greatest reward. It’s how the universe actually works and there is no way around it.  I don’t make up the laws existence, I live by them and learn from them so I can live better.

Give it a shot, what could go right?

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Story, Character and Context

The Holy of holy trinities for filmmakers and storytellers of every kind is the concepts of Story, Character and Context and how they work together in your narrative to create a story that captivates and entertains an audience or sees them playing MST3K the home edition, talking mad shit about your shit.

I’m The Movie Whore, I edit scripts and sit in the shadows as a Creative Film Producer.

The first, last and most important thing anyone in film needs to understand is the relationship between context and character as it applies to the story. Producers, Directors, Writers, Actors, Costume Designers, Set Designers, Special Effects Creators and everyone else needs to understand these concepts for a film to become something that marvels audiences for decades. To even have a chance at creating something that reaches in and takes the emotional investment that audience feels is an art form.

The films we associate with greatness are the ones that get that emotional investment from us in some way, form or fashion that makes it unforgettable and leaves a lasting imprint on our very soul. It could be a great Comedy or a great Horror or a great Scifi film that left us emotionally connected to the experience caught forever in time by the magic of movies.

Storytelling is an art form not a business model. This is why right now one of my favorite known directors is Christopher Nolan. All his work has an artistry to it that shows a mastery of context and character and how to create stories I can’t forget.

As for one of my all time favorite directors, you have probably never heard of.

I met Dom Portalla over 8 years ago when I had first started using the name The Movie Whore and one of his actors approached me. Dom had finished his first feature length film, DUALITY. Ken, the actor who played dual roles in the film as twin brothers asked me for some notes on the film. I didn’t write a critics review. I wrote a critique on technique and art. I watched the movie two or thee times to make sure I had everything that would be beneficial to the filmmaker while noting the stuff done well. In this case I had discovered a man with an eye behind the camera like few others in history, a true artist with a true gift for visual storytelling.

We’ve lost touch over the years however I know Dom is out there somewhere right now either shooting something or working on shooting something. It’s in his blood and who he is and he could never find happiness in life doing anything else. That’s what it takes to become a great filmmaker.

You make movies because you can’t imagine doing anything else and being happy. It’s why I edit scripts and take on other Creative Producer work as it comes. A Creative Producer is your Quality assurance person who protects the quality and integrity of the art while being able to translate it to a financially viable result.

Too often too much of the art is lost in favor of the business and the formula that is the reason why I stopped watching and have seen very little that Hollywood has offered up over the last several years.

OK asshole what in the blue holy fuck is all this story and context shit?

Take a moment and look at your life as a movie right now as you are reading this. Your character is reading some blog piece, why?

What is it about you that it makes sense that you are sitting here reading this right now?

How did your character get to this point in your story?

Character and identity are one in the same as it applies to storytelling. Somewhere in your life along the way you made an emotional connection to something and that became part of how you explain who you are to people through the things in life you love. These are the things that define who we think we are and who create our character to be while God, The Universe, whatever helps you sleep better at night fills in the rest so our character can have an ongoing story.

If you love Rock ‘N’ Roll it’s not likely you are going to meet very many people who don’t and be able to connect with them and their story that is their life.

That is context.

What makes sense for this character based on who this character is. It makes little sense for someone who is afraid of ever doing anything on their own to ever find the opportunity to do it without being afraid. The idea in their own mind will always produce the same option until the fear is overridden and resolved so now it makes sense for the character to do things on their own. They no longer fear it.

A film is often a showing of character refining or revealing moments in the characters life. There is someone deep within all of us that is who is revealed to us through experience. Our character is always in a state of evolution as we make choices to either keep our character similar because we like the story/life we are living or we make the choice to make changes in us to change our story/life.

My life dedicated to film has revealed more for me in understanding the character I am by looking at the characters I love. Here’s why.

Rocky Balboa was a guy who didn’t even think he was that good but went for it and took it seriously when given the opportunity and then was given a second shot and became the champ. He had a little old man in his corner to bring it out of him when he didn’t see it in himself.

Andy Dufresne was a man thrown in prison for a crime he didn’t commit and he never let it break him. He found a way to win his freedom and even set it up to meet up with his best friend at the end.

Jon Critchon was shot to other side of the universe and hunted for the knowledge in his head that could create the ultimate weapon. Jon always did exactly what he felt was the right thing in the moment for what was going on around him. He agonized over decisions with a humanness that made him a hero.

Bill S. Preston Esquire and Ted Theodore Logan said “Be excellent to each other.” What a great way to live.

What does it mean, really, to be excellent to each other?

What does excellence from you look like when you step outside yourself?

Lloyd Dobler was into something new he felt was the future in kick boxing. He was tirelessly dedicated to it. He also had the balls to stand outside with that boom box.

Blake Gardner had and audience he talked to and he referred to people in his life as “Sidekick” “Love interest” and “Nefarious Character.” As a Medium I have a sense of the other-side that is very much aware of us and watches us. If you ever feel like some unseen audience is laughing, it probably is. God is the ultimate stalker and ever present, everywhere and sees every little thing we ever do and there is no way to hide.

What God saw us do is between us and God to work out.

James T Kirk is a fictional character. William Shatner is an actor who plays James Kirk.

However my favorite totally ridiculous thought when it comes to Star Trek and William Shatner is this.

What if he really is James Tiberius Kirk traveled back in time and he secretly worked with Gene to create Star Trek to plant the seed of a brighter future for our world or all would be lost?

There are Star Trek fans out there who will read that and think that narrative has possibility.

Kirk did one thing really well, he listened to the people he trusted first and then made a decision. He acknowledged the weight that rested on his shoulders and let it be what chilled him out and focused him to find the best of all possible solutions.

What you allow to be sown within you is what you and the rest of us will reap from you.

Choose your films carefully as you do as the door mouse said and feed your head. Thank you to Jefferson Airplane for a lyric that reminds everything we take in, is what we feed our head.

Feed yourself well and it will come out in your projection of self and the way you define who your character is in this movie we call life. The reflections of yourself you see in others is what will tell you if you like yourself or not. To change any story you must first make changes in the character who is living that story or it’s nothing more than an out of context fantasy.

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A life without pain?

The title alone has my mind reciting The Princess Bride and I’ll paraphrase “Life is pain and anyone telling you different is trying to sell you something.”

That was my answer when someone asked me the question “What would your life be without pain?”

Here are other answers.

Over.

Boring.

Here’s why.

I’m an Empath who also takes on physical pain to give people relief as I start to feel their pain for them. Holy magical bullshit batman!

No it really happens and my Mom does it too. It runs on her side of the of the family through her father and our Hungarian ancestors.A life without pain would mean no one I know was in pain either.

As the emotional Empath I am I often take on pain for those closest to me in times of need. A life without pain means they have healed themselves too.

Hunger pains. A life with out pain would mean I had found some way to never have to eat again or at least not go hungry.

Sore muscles from working out. A life without pain means I am wrong about it being a good thing to always be a little sore to remind yourself you did work out today and got in a good one.

“A man who is master of himself can end a sorrow as easily as he can invent a pleasure.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

Pain is a state of mind and as Queen once sang it is “so close to pleasure” you can get lost in the swirl of it all and be tossed about the ocean of emotion in ways that leave you looking for shore and solid ground.

What is a life without pain to you?

 

 

What could go right?

Most of my life I often held the view of “Hope for the best, expect the worst and plan accordingly.”

Not a fun way to live. It has you looking at everything that can go wrong which can cause your subconscious mind to allow you to do things to face those possibilities. I have often said you will do things behind your back in front of your face.

We all have those moments where we are looking at ourselves wondering why we just did or said that.

I accepted that in order to continually grow through life I would be continually in a state of self observation and reflection in order to find the growth opportunity in the moment. That takes work.

That takes continuous work that never really ends.

What I think is always subject to change, however how I think never changes.

How you organize your thought process is what creates the reality to give you something to think about to see if maybe some changes within in are on the menu for the day. My thought process has always been to take in everything from as many sources and views as I can find on one topic and then examine it and see what feels right for me and my life. I work to understand the emotional attachment that others apply when stating their position and make attempts to care as they do and see how that makes me feel about myself. When a new view presents itself, I take a moment to work my process to see if an adjustment is needed or desired and why.

I have worked diligently to attempt to take the idea of judgement out of my thought process even when looking at myself and instead of judging myself and finding me guilty, I instead change the process to find opportunity for inner change to promote growth that will help me feel better about who I choose to be and how I choose to represent that.

The most difficult part of my process for me is to keep it in the now and not allow history to define anything in the present. The challenge is to remember the concepts of the lessons learned and wisdom gained without having to tie it to history. Living in the now, understanding it is all that exists.

If you need history teach you over and over again the same lessons, why in the holy blue fuck did you not learn it the first time?

For me that answer is because I am human, however it’s no excuse to not make the effort to not need the history to be repeated or reviewed all the time in order to get better from myself.

At some point you just remember that your intuition will tell you if what’s in front of you feels right and why. To get there takes seeing how many times in the past you didn’t trust you and how it went. Once you learn to trust you in the now there is no need to look back.

Everything I do as a teacher and a guide is to turn you inward to build faith in you and your ability to make good choices and say fuck the bullshit in life to be the you that makes you one of your top 5 favorite people in the world. It’s not because you think that highly of yourself, you become one your favorite people because you understand you have to take care of you to be able to be a gift to those you would give yourself to.

In giving of yourself, you do that every time you are in the presence of or interact with others in any way shape, form or fashion.

What are you giving the world?

I ask myself that question throughout the day before I even dare allow myself to speak.

I set the intent in life to be love in living action and thought and speech. I set the intent for my being to be a gift of love in it’s purest form to any and all I encounter.

To live up to that intent is not always warm and fuzzy and it’s not always fun. However it produces results in life that touch lives that touch lives that touch lives. That’s my plan to change the world by being the change I want to see in the world.

Living love in every form it can take in your life gives you endless opportunities to grow and become as needed for those in need to be of service to anyone and everyone that crosses your path.

Regardless of how you identify yourself in gender these are the concepts I apply to what it means to be a King or Queen in this world. To live in service to each other in love because it takes us all to save all of us.

Love says what could go right because love will fight to fix it anytime something goes go wrong.

What could go right in your life today?

Are you gonna work for it to go right?

Are you going to align your thought process to see what could go right in your life today?

Are you going to ignore what could go wrong and instead see what could go right?

 

This is one of those days in life I can sincerely type this out and meant it.

Thank you to everything for everything.

It’s how I acknowledge I am grateful for everything that ever happened in my life to lead me to this moment right now. It’s a lot of work to truly have this gratitude in my heart to share with all of you and I and grateful to myself for seeing the value of doing the work in me to be this man.

Big love bomb of a hug sent out to all world wide. Pass it along as you enjoy today’s ride.

Do something, anything

I found an incredibly good reason to spend a lot less time online and a lot more time in my community doing something locally to make a global impact.

Every community has centers that need volunteers who desire to be part of healing and growth and as a result making an impact in lives that can make an impact in other lives and it’s exponential.

What’s nice is the place I found to go be part of what’s going on is walking distance and for me that’s an added bonus. As I have been slowly rehabbing my legs my number 1 enemy to my recovery has been the car. I was talking with someone I got to for advice and a view adjustment.

Yeah I have someone I go to.

I feel like a hypocrite when I drive. If I had a bike, I would ride. In my younger years I often forsake the car in favor of a bike. It was when I started losing mobility that I found myself riding less and driving more. One of the things I missed the most over the last few years I have not been able to get around is how active I used to be.

We often run and hide from the guilt we feel for not doing something, anything to make an impact. Some of us let it beat the holy fuck out of us until it motivates us to do something, anything to make that guilt go away and stay there. Some of us dance around it, bobbing and weaving to avoid that sinking feeling our stomach that comes up every time we ignore something we could be doing to be of service to our community and in doing so be of service to own lives.

I find for myself it’s a soul saving experience to go out and give of yourself in your community and the soul you save is your own. I’m at my worst when I feel as though I am not making enough of an impact and feeling as though I could be doing more. It creates a self loathing that can sometimes fuck with my head and the way I express myself. It happens to us all. We are human and it’s how the human works to get better from the human.

We do things behind our backs in front of our faces all the time to set ourselves up for moments we might let fear keep us from.

I had one of those moments recently and I am so happy with myself for my shenanigans that yesterday, gave my life direction it sorely needed as to how I can be of better service to my community. It led me to place where there is always going to be a need for people who give a fuck.

I often put myself in a bubble and ignore the world because I do care and I often find myself wrecking myself in the way I allow it to effect me. I feel powerless to do anything and get myself locked in a cage of pain and rage that keeps me from acting.

That’s not doing anyone any good. While it is important to see what’s going on and allow it to touch your humanity and pain you as it should, that pain is not something to revel in or wrap yourself in. That pain once experienced best serves you by stepping out of it with a pragmatic view.

“What can I actually do?”

Asking yourself this one question is an act of preparation to do something. It opens you to doing instead of talking or in my case writing and then being left with a twisting feeling of guilt that binds you up from the inside and can twist your view of you and the rest.

For some it’s  going to a local Jesus center and volunteering as a server.

For some it’s volunteering at their kids school.

For some it’s spending time moving around and finding different places to be of service.

Do something, anything that gets you out in your community and away from your computer, phone and TV and I guarantee you will thank yourself for the relief from the guilt you are trying to ignore right now.

I’m off to finish preparing for my day at a local community center giving what I got to whoever shows up.

I feel better already knowing that’s my plan to act locally understanding it will make a global impact.

Your life, make your choices and live with them accordingly.

For those of you wondering who is the Life Coach Max goes to?

More to come later after she’s done with me.

My human selfishness.

How to build yourself up

This is something I wrote for myself as a daily affirmation and I figured wtf, why not share.

I trust myself to understand my life and my view of existence. 

I trust myself to enjoy all that comes my way.

I trust myself to know how to exercise discipline and discernment under the concept of moderation.

I trust myself to be without limit or restriction. 

I trust myself to live the words I have laid out for this life. 

I trust myself to always pay it forward. 

I trust my power and my choices in how I wield it. 

I trust myself to be meek. 

I trust myself and the reflections that brings before me. 

Live in love

Love Wrapped in flesh

Love can take any form between any two of us

Live in love and romance is semantics

Live in love and always find the form you need as you need

Live in love and find a soul to swap pieces with because emotion flows like a stream not an ocean of endless swells of highs and lows

Live in love and heal thyself to inspire healing in others

Live and give in love to reap occasional bliss when sowers sow alike

Live in love to teach love in living

Live in love to love life

Live in love to live

Live in love

Live

I know this sounds weird, but…

The other day a friend of mine asked me if I noticed anything weird. I had to ask him his definition of weird. Here’s why.

I find myself a rarity in some of the things I have done and witnessed and people I have known. How many people do you know that were born with a short leg and lived with it for 39 years and at age 42 both legs are the same length and the over sized hip I was born with matches the other one now. A miracle in the eyes of some and a total defiance of everything science and modern medicine thinks it knows.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

It was over a decade ago when I was going through some physical therapy after a car accident and they put me one of those industrial electro-stimulation units. The man running the machine had to set it beyond the danger settings before I could feel anything. I remember he commented that he had never seen anyone with such a high pain tolerance in his life. He said on a 1-10 scale my 8 would be off most peoples scales. My 10 would kill most people.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

While I was undergoing the internal metamorphosis of making my skeleton symmetrical my pain went to 11 on my 1-10 scale and stayed there for over a year. Prior to that I had been living with my daily pain hitting 10 and I often woke up to an 8. The short leg and over-sized hip coupled with several back injuries had left my body twisted and broken. I had a limp and could barely stand to be on my feet for longer than 15 minutes. During the process I felt as though I was the walking dead. My head was never clear as the pain never ceased.

It’s been more than 2 years and on occasion I stick my legs out in front of me to make sure it wasn’t all a dream.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

Frequently in my life I have the following happen.

I am sitting around and I feel this need to go somewhere and I am filled with a feeling and I go that place and I run into some one and have a conversation. At some point they say “I’ve been praying/wishing/hoping/wanting for someone to talk to about this.”

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

I frequently freak out my friends when I hit them up out of no where asking them what’s wrong and something is.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

I have had men and women alike approach me claiming to be a variety of deities and creatures from mythology.

To date I was hired and fired in the same week by a man claiming to be a Genie.

I had the Goddess Isis in the form of a French woman tell me my soul had been spread across the globe and she was going to bring it back together and bring me back to life with a magic blowjob.

I had Loki show up my doorstep in the form of a young man who had been abusing too many drugs.

I had a phone call with the Universes Super Being in the form of an inventor in New York.

I had a self proclaimed Demon Slayer sitting in my living room once.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

I have people hit me up from across the world to get my advice in dealing with psychic attacks and developing their intuitive skills. I have people hit me from across the world telling me they don’t know why they are contacting me they just feel drawn to me for some reason.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

I channel Archangels and the higher-selves of the rest of you.

What do think you got that’s weirder than that?

Realize there is metric fuck ton of much weirder shit I left out.

I hope all of who read this realize there is nothing weird in your life that is going to be weirder than anything I have seen or live with daily.

If you think no one else is going to understand, give your friendly neighborhood Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman a shot at it. I am willing to bet I can help you feel less weird about whatever it is and help you make sense of it.

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Don’t you think you can save you?

I had a consult the other day and what I do as a Shamanic guide/coach is teach you how to save your own ass and never need me or someone like me again. I find this song for me is one I sing to myself when I am up in the air and feeling as though this is the conversation I need to have with someone else. The Angel and the Gambler from Iron Maiden to me is the conversation between the higher self and the gambler that is the mind.

Roll of the dice
Take a spin of the wheel
Out of your hands now
So how do you feel but you’re never gonna win
You’d better go back again

How often in life do we see things going right and look for the other shoe to drop?

We set ourselves up for failure when we think like this. Simply because we think positive all the time does not mean shit is not going to go sideways some days. When the moment comes that feels like a kick in the chest, that has you looking at every other time you got knocked down, instead of looking at getting knocked down look at how you got the fuck up every time.

In some pursuits we go back as many times as it takes to get it done.

Do you feel lucky?
Or do you feel scared
Take what luck brings
And the devil may care
But you’re down on your luck
Will the next day bring?

When do you feel lucky?

When things go right.

When do we get scared?

When we think about what can go wrong.

Tomorrow is never set and is always an opportunity.

Adrift on the ocean
Afloat on the daydream
Or lost in a maze
Or blind in the haze
So what does it matter
So why don’t you answer
So why did you send
An angel to mend

There are times in life I found myself totally confused and lost in my life and trying to figure what in the blue holy fuck was going on and why should I even bother any more. We all have these little moments in life. For me I often find myself hearing the words “I was just praying/wishing/hoping/wanting/whatever to have someone like you show up to talk to about this.” I often wonder what the inner dialog is after those conversations as people still wrestle with what we talked about.

Best make decisions
Before it’s too late
Take all your chances
Take all hold of the reins
A roll of the dice
Ahead of the game again

Nothing to lose
But so much to gain
A little danger
It goes without saying
But what do you care
You’re gonna go in the end

I have always lived life at full speed and taking every spontaneous turn that came up for a side adventure on the journey of life. I own every decision I make and let go of every decision I can’t, you know other peoples.

Any time you think you have something to lose, you do. Any time you think you have something to gain, you do.

The only thing in life we have no choice about is death, the rest is optional. We will die at some point. Get the fuck over it and live.

Gate open to heaven
Is ready and waiting
Or straight down to hell
Can go there as well

My view of heaven on earth for me personally includes living away from most of you and hiding out on a small farm or something like that. Somewhere I can e self contained and talk to people when I want to or they find me. For me hell on earth would be living in a large city.

Adjust for your idea of heaven and hell accordingly and realize that’s the result your aiming for as you build your life.

I’ll suffer my craving
My soul not worth saving
So why don’t you go
Just leave well alone

Don’t you think I’m a saviour
Don’t you think I could save you
Don’t you think I could save your life

We can fall into a pit of self doubt and beat the fuck out ourselves better than anyone could ever do it to us.

Look in the mirror and say “I can save my life.”

Repeat this until you truly feel it.

Predator, Prey and Human Being

We act in inhuman ways towards each other daily without realizing that we treat people as prey and we are the cunning predator.

Our eyes are in front. We are a predatory species. Killing is in our DNA. It’s in our nature to kill.

Vegans can french kiss my ass hole on their stance that they don’t kill to live. Here’s why.

Animism simply stated, every thing is alive and has a soul. Even studies have shown that plants, even the ones we eat, respond to emotional stimuli which means yes they are emotional beings that we kill and eat no different than a cow or pig or chicken.

I love a rare steak or burger and if it’s bloody, all the better. I’m never going to feel bad about that and at the same time if you can’t stand eating meat I don’t care, however don’t go all fuckin’ holier than thou about it making you a better human being and that you no longer kill to live.

End your delusion vegans and grow up.

God made us predators so it totally fails the logic filter if you try to tell me God said we need to be vegetarians or vegans or whatever the new trend is this week.

I made a killing!

I killed them!

I am going to kill it!

None of these are referring to people or animals however are expressions commonly used. Even in our language in life and how we view it, we are killers, every last one of us.

That we don’t run around killing each other is a very good thing and what makes us inferior to the animals is we will kill each other when there is no need to. I meant to use the word inferior. Here’s why.

A superior species lives harmoniously within it’s ecosystem and modifies itself to maintain balance and harmony with its surroundings. Governments have been shutting down research since the 70’s that would’ve already had us off oil completely.

Tesla’s free energy technology was suppressed in the name of greed alone. It means we never needed nuclear energy and could have avoided 3 Mile Island, Chernobyl and Fukishima, all nuclear meltdowns that we will not know in our lifetimes what the true damage done is.

We are killers. We are killing our world as long as we allow things such as the internal combustion engine and nuclear energy. We are killing our world as long we continue to ignore using hemp to replace oils based and wood based products with a renewable resource that renews annually.

Marijuana was made illegal so that the logging industry would thrive as well as the emerging pharmaceutical industry. A known cure for cancer suppressed so people could be tortured in the name of greed.

Predator preying on the weak and sick.

The human is a savage and all you have to do to see it is get real honest about the damage we do simply to get through the day and get over it.

Next, do better than we did yesterday or die trying.

If I had to kill my own food, I would live off eggs for protein. I like that someone gets paid to butcher meat and love that I can pay for the blissful ignorance of never meeting my meal. If I did, I know me, it would become a pet and pets are family and we don’t kill our family or so I’m told.

How many times have you thought about doing something you would never actually do?

How many times have you been scared by your own dark side?

How often do you really feel like a savage emotional creature who just happens to be human?

How often do you lie to yourself about it and pray no one ever finds out how savage you can really be?

Romantic love is who you share the savage with because the beasts play well together. It’s driven by primal lust we call seduction and passion but awakens a sexual beast that must be satiated. When you find that with someone, learn to adjust over time as it will be rough at first, however for that kind of lovemaking, definitely worth it.

 

 

 

The Art of the Radio DJ

How many of you need to look up the name Wolfman Jack?

If it’s any of you than there is a lost art you have never had in your life. The Radio DJ was the Pastor and the music from the prophets is what they explained to the congregation of listeners to be a translator of the Rock Gods and the messages sent forth through their prophets.

The only 3 Radio DJ’s I will not turn the dial on is Alice Cooper, Nikki Sixx and Dee Snider. Today’ Radio DJ’s don’t know shit about what it means to live Rock ‘N’ Roll. The only other Radio DJ I’ve met worth two shits goes by the name Meat Wad. Read Rock ‘N’ Roll Karma to see why.

Howard Stern, Mark and Brian, Bob and Tom and others killed the Art of the Radio DJ and made it the old radio shows from when radio was born that took in the ratings and cut the people off from the Rock Gods. It became about the DJ not the music. If it’s not about the music the DJ sucks donkey dicks in Tijuana on the weekends for fun in my Rock Shaman opinion.

Anyone who was watching what I posted on Facebook today should have seen this coming from a mile a way.

Former Baptist Preacher turned comedian paid me a visit as a Medium today to remind me of a few lessons he taught that I lived.

 

Yes I am going to make you look up the Wolfman yourself.

If you have to watch TV try That Metal Show.

I am heading back to Youtube and offensive comedians from my childhood.

You do your thing on a Sunday and this is what a Rock Shaman does.

If the Radio DJ doesn’t know shit about living Rock ‘N’ Roll, that Radio DJ is needs to back to Church.

For me when I go to Church I like it heavy.

 

Remember kids when all else fails say “Fuck it” to something and do it anyway.

However never fart on the snare drum.

If you need more than some kick ass rock and a movie quote or two, you’re trying too hard.

And here’s a lesson in why.

In closing this service of The Church of Rock ‘N’ Roll.org

This has been message brought to you by The Church of Rock ‘N’ Roll.org

to show why I’m

The Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman

and you’re whoever you’re pretending to be online.

Remember we’re all blessed, so do us all a favor and act like it.

Of the Gods that never were and have always been

A world within but unknown

Making sure you reap as you have sown

Some try to cheat existence

Trying to tip the balance

A secret game being played

Even though it is fully displayed

Guardians walk among you

Who have the over head view

They see every move made

Even the ones not displayed

A secret world exists within but unknown

Those who walk both sides know not what it means to be alone

Always aware 

Of what is always there

The ignorance you have is bliss

Be quite certain of this

The other side has many dangers for sure

For the unknowing adventurer

Drop the veil for a peek

Of that which I speak

Be warned that what you see

Has already been watching thee

Waiting for the moment to show you

What it has seen from its view

The first few are always a fun ride

Just to make you think it’s safe on the other side

The next few trips

Will include some slips

To make you question

The messengers intention

That mystic thing you can’t see

That has always been watching thee

It will always lie 

It will with what it shows your eyes

It will always be true from some view

What is laid out before you

When the Demon sucks you in

It looks like an Angel to begin

Promises of glory

And a really good story

Soon you find

The Demon left you behind

No longer can you see it’s face

Yet you feel the laughter from the forbidden place

The place it led you to

To fuck endlessly with your view

There’s a reason for the lock on the door

It’s so the other side you can ignore

When you walk both worlds you long for that door to someday close

The one you were born with open to you, not one you chose

It’s simply tragic

That we have forgotten the Majick

Of the Gods that never were and have always been

The ones here until it ends that were here to watch it begin

The ones who answer prayers given in no gods name

They answer wishes and wants the same

They are what you resist

That will always persist

The nameless force

That seems to take your life off course and on course

What could it be 

These gods we can not see

Is it Angels and Demons under control

Of God and the Devil each living a role

To keep it all going and in balance

Do they work together by chance

Who keeps them in check for the job they do

Managing existence for me and you

Of the Gods that never were and have always been

The ones here until it ends that were here to watch it begin

 

The War of Art

I found me today

I was right here where I stay

No more reflection

Only a projection

No more mask

For any given task

Only letting go

Only letting it flow

Who knows what path lay ahead

Walking through the walking dead

Swimming in a sea of lies

Time standing still as it flies

It’s called now

That’s how

A moment of frozen motion

Powered by emotion

Truth is beauty

Love is duty

It is the beauty

That drives the duty

In the war of art we have only just begun to fight

You haven’t seen the brightest of our light

You haven’t met the darkest part of us that will always exist

The more you resist the more we persist

It’s our passion that burns our fire bright

It’s our love that will win this fight

You call it marketing and branding because everything needs to sell

I call it the Devil’s tools for creating an earthly hell

Who else would make it a need

To feed the greed

Who else would use your emotions against you to get you to buy in

Who else would convince you not going along is the sin

If not the Devil than who

Would use marketing and branding to get control over you

To convince you that you need that worthless thing

Who else would try to sell you everything

Who would give you tips and guides

On how to make it on the cool kids only ride

Playing on your fear of being alone

Tapping your fear of being totally unknown

Of being forgotten or lost

If you don’t go along with it, well that’s the cost

Got do it their way

If you think you are going to play

Art is an expression of love

That leaps blindly and never needs a shove

Unconditional love is as black as the Pit

It’s why only true artists use every bit of it

Whether it be light or dark

Anything lights our spark

Get’s the juices flowing

Get’s us up and going

On to the next creation with obsessive desire

That is the artists fire

Our flame never dies

Our art never lies

We don’t create to sell

We don’t live in that hell

It’s the heavenly view we see

Where we are already free

Free to be you and me

Free from conformity

It’s the artist war to fight

All of the day and all of the night

Art has already won

The lies falling apart and coming undone

This what the artist calls fun as they rage on

It’s what their art is built upon

A rage fueled by loves fire

Not some selfish desire

The artist is done reflecting

Now it’s time for some projecting