When I first moved to my place, a two story house, bidwell park across the backyard, when I moved on, I cried years of joy. That was in February.

I’m a thinker.

I find my thinking makes others think.

No one ever died from thinking.

What they were thinking, that’s another story.

I don’t like this one.

I say this as I wake up.

Then I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace I my heart, mind and soul.

Then I’m grateful for everything that keep this now going.

Throughout the day I say these.

I was looking up why this dude died yesterday.

He had cancer.

And other sci-fi shows. Sci-fi is my favorite.

I’m an empath.

When they go to sleep it’s easier for me because they’re asleep and peaceful.

When they wake up. They repress shit that makes empaths not feel too well.

Stuff starts with chicken cubed.

Garlic

Paprika

Salt

Cream cheese

Coconut oil

Sesame oil

Red potatoes

Parmesan cheese

Mozzarella

Provolone

White sharp cheddar

I use a wok.

In the wok I start the cream cheese and oils low heat stirring. Don’t stop stirring.

When the cheese is melted put the chicken in the wok.

Add in parmesan.

Keep stirring.

Have the potatoes done before you start the chicken. Mashed 5 lbs.

Spread the mashed potatoes in casserole dish.

Spread the chicken and sauce over the potatoes.

Cover with cheese.

Put in oven until the cheese is melted.

Enjoy.

I’m excited by my life.

A city for the future is built underground.

Weather I getting insane. It’s easier to cool and heat a place underground.

We would save on energy costs.

I’m a jr.

1 Beyond the law.

It’s a movie that had a dude go undercover to bust bikers. It’s a true story and out 498 arrests they had 2 get off, the rest were convicted.

2 Ghost in the shell, anime.

I watched this in the 90’s. It had me thinking for days and a I rewatched the film several times.

3 Nefarious

Sean Patrick flannery gave an outstanding performance as he allowed the demon to take his place. I can’t prove it, but I’d bet, and I’m not a betting man, I’d bet it was a demon for the roll. I’ve been possessed and I’ve exorcised demons out of people.

4 cabin in the woods

There can’t be a sequel because they earth got destroyed. It was an original take on the cabin in the woods and it was good.

5 clerks 3

The first film Kevin Smith ever made, the rest were just movies.

6 Indiana Jones 5

It was the ending.

7 the last starfighter

I want to be recruited by the star league to fight against Xur and the Kodan armada.

8 star gate

I want to find the real one.

9 star trek motion picture

It was a voyage into voyager as Kirk and crew were finally on the big screen.

10 star wars the original where Guido didn’t shoot at all, he got shot.

I was 3 and this film has shaped my life in ways I can’t even begin to explain without talking for hours.

What don’t I enjoy about writing?

Nothing.

I live in Chico California. It’s about 90 miles north of Sacramento.

Chico sits at the base of the Sierra Nevada mountains and the Sacramento river. Farming for days.

Chico has one of the largest city parks in the USA. Bidwell park starts in Chico and stretches into the foothills of the Sierra Nevada mountains.

Where I live, I can see the park from my backyard. Less than a block away.

I walk to Safeway and the tobacco shop, and the weed store. I use my electric scooter to get to work.

Why would I not love living right here, right now?

There’s no place I’d rather be.

Thank you Jesus Jones for the lyric.

Positive is an opinion.

Negative is an opinion.

Emotions are neither positive or negative.

They simply are.

If one feels sadness over loss, why?

If one feel happy, why?

That will tell you everything you need to know.

I don’t plan anything, I just want and do what I need to do in order to get what I want.

Too many people use the word truth when speaking opinion.

The whole personal truth lie is what is to blame.

Star wars was the first film I saw that personal truth was a lie.

Obi wan Kenobi talks about how from a certain point of view it was true.

One point of view is an opinion.

One must look from at least 3 points of view to understand the truth.

People don’t like the truth so they invent a personal truth.

That’s a lie.

Anytime anyone doesn’t like the truth and decides that this what they are going believe instead of accepting the truth…

Does anyone see what’s wrong with this?

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

I bring peace to myself by forgiving everyone of everything. 

This allows me to put peace in my heart,  mind, and soul. 

This is where peace should be built, inward. 

Building it inward allows one to be at peace instead of waiting for peace.

That simple.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose

Any working in the armed sevices have my admiration.

They take the bullets so we don’t have to.

I’ve dreamed of opening a shop full of actual weird shit.

Not the shit you can find in any mall.

Not shit that was created to be mass produced.

Just weird shit.

I carry my bag of crystals in my pocket daily.

If people could take the truth, that’s what I would change.

I would have had a different name because my father got raised different.

I’m a Jr.

My dad would have said some shit to someone about his 4yr old watching an advanced economics class on TV.

When he the 4yr old, me, could explain it in his own words, my dad would have been proud instead of feeling I showed him up.

When I had the tests that showed I’m a genius,  I would have graduated college at 13-14 years old.

Instead I failed at school. I’m a genius. 

Albert Einstein anyone?

I would have had people looking to me for answers. And they would have listened.

And we would be happier as a people.

Last night, I made a tri tip sirloin.

I put salt on it.

Then covered it in sesame oil.

Then a stick of garlic butter on top.

Baste every half hour.

170 degrees for the first 2 hours. 

200 degrees for a hour and half.

270 degrees for half an hour.

Red potatoes

Cream cheese

Salt

Rosemary

Mashed potatoes.

Sweet corn

Shitake mushrooms

Shallots

Garlic butter 2 bricks

Let the mushrooms and the shallots sit for a bit then add water, some, then add corn.

Croissant rolls.

Chocolate cream pie for desert.

Why go out when I cook this well.

https://screenrant.com/arnold-schwarzenegger-sabotage-agatha-christie-remake-career-change/

I couldn’t care less about this story. If I could care less, we would be getting into the negative caring region.

How does this story connect with my life?

It’s simple.

I used to watch everything Arnold did. Now, I don’t.

However, recently I watched to The Terminator movies.  So Google,  I hit Google and looked at the first story I found. 

AI knows what I watch. Even if I find it uninteresting.

I like to keep AI guessing about what I’m doing.

If I think I can,  I probably can’t.

Oh well, back to the drawing board.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose

1. When I wake up, no day is ever guaranteed.
2. Having the first morning smoke with a C4, grape.
3. Playing my stupid game that takes strategy to work the game.
4. Working with disabled veterans.
5. Sitting on the porch having a smoke.
6. When I make something tasty and delightful.
7. Kona coffee with honey and dark chocolate almond milk.
8. Sitting in the park.
9. Playing Frisbee golf with a friend.
10. Talking with my son.
11. George Carlin, Richard Pryor, Bill Hicks, Christopher Titus, Lily Tomlin, Lucille Ball, and others
12. That women exist.
13. That some have married me. 4
14. That some have dated me.
15. When I’m talking with someone and they get that first realization. It’s a beautiful moment to share.
16. When I have realizations. The universe unfolds before my eyes kind of thing.
17. Sex. I haven’t had it for 10 years, but I do remember it made me happy.
18. A milk shake from Big Al’s in Chico California.  The only shake you need a spoon to drink it.  If you tried drinking it through a straw, your brain would have an aneurysm.
19. Taking a bike ride through the park.
20. Rock n Roll
21. Doing stuff for others.
22. My nightly routine.
23. Writing.
24. When people comment
25. When my heart Chakra lights up for no apparent reason.
26. When I get a message from anyone.
27. Knowing I’m doing my best daily, even though it doesn’t feel like it. Tough to explain, you’d have to on this side to understand.
28. Knowing I’m blessed in everything I do.
29. Knowing I teach those who understand,  not those who can afford it. I do it for free.
30. Knowing I’m teaching myself through all of you.

Every day when I wake up, I say, “I woke up today, the rest is gravy.”

Knowing my day will be gravy from the start allows me to be at peace and allow life to inspire joy, or sadness, and anger, depending on what I experience throughout my day.

The idea that I can choose to be happy is ridiculous,  meaning worthy of ridicule.

I feel my life authenticly.

I’m not a coward who is afraid of feeling pain, or anger, and sorrow.

I feel it all as my life gives me the experience to feel.

I’m an empathic amplifier. Meaning when a random emotion hits me, it hits hard. It’s why I work at my peace.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.  You know I am.

Too open answered a question for me.

I’m curious about everything.

From what I understand, I’m not alone in this, ADHD,  and add people have this as a common trait.

Do your good deeds in private.

Let your good deeds go unseen.

If you do good,  don’t tell anyone.

I could go on to show you how this truth is often ignored because some ego needs everyone to know, which is bragging.

Humility not hubris.

Hubris is telling people what good deeds you’ve done. 

Humility let’s your good deeds go unnoticed.

To ask this question is hubris talking to hubris.

I work at being humble. I work at being meek.

Meaning I can fuck shit up, but I don’t unless there’s a damn good reason to.

For me, it would have to be a committee before I would purposefully fuck shit up.

I work towards the betterment of humanity.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose

Long brown hair.

Blue eyes with gold fleck that makes my eyes change colors.

5 foot 9 inches tall, medium build.

Beard with Grey in it.

I haven’t kept up with any traditions.

I’m anti-tradition.

If one sees a tradition, one should ask why until one gets to the bottom of it.

Most traditions are emotional,  could be wise, could be foolish, asking why gets you there.

No day is promised.

Every day, I wake up the rest of the day no matter what it holds, is gravy.

It’s the sinple things that make life gravy or not so gravy.

I like to keep things simple so if I’m heading to a not so gravy day, I’m one simple thing away from a gravy day.

I’m a rarity.

I studied martial arts at 9.

I studied Eastern philosophy starting at age 9.

I’m a telepath.  Meaning I don’t read your mind, but I know what you keep secret. I block it out because you deserve to have your thoughts not being read.

I’m an empathic amplifier.  I become the “better” version of you, both bad qualities and good.

I channel the higherself for everyone I meet.

I call it being a Conduit.

I’m a conduit for all kinds of energy.

I’m a rarity.

So rare that most people dont think I exist,  but i do.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

That would be stupid

I’m may be as crazy as bat shit gets, but I’m a long motherfuckin way from being stupid.

I would go and visit Robert The Doll.

It is a toy that has been possessed by an entity of unknown origin.

I would love to dialogue with Robert The Doll.

I’m a medium.

My names is James.

Nicknames open doors for things to get in.

Think about it.

I have and do.

Jim is the name of my medium mask.

I channel you.

Any of you in with.

First, I would abolish rulers.

We can use councils of odd numbers.

Using odd numbers will break any tie.

This is as simple as it gets.

We need to do away with demographics and advertising.

Every study shows I’m right.

Demographics is why racism still exists and will continue until we stop categorizing people based on skin tone.

The fact that once you look at one thing, you get advertised about that thing in every way it comes. 

Why do we put up with it?

Personally, I don’t. 

I don’t watch ads for anything unless I’m working with a client and the TV is on. At home, I watch movies with no ads. I listen to music with no ads.

I’m creating a social network with no ads. It will cost $1 USD a month. $12 USD a year.

The news is supposed to be facts, uninteresting facts about the world we live in. 

The news is not supposed to be opinion driven.

Just the facts.

Let’s get back to news being done right. 

Fuck off with your special interest stories, give us the facts and nothing more.

Fuck off with your opinions,  because they only matter to you and whoever you can get to listen to you.

That’s not news.

Narcissism is a mental illness. 

This needs to be treated as such.

This means if one gets a diagnosis of narcissism,  that means you can’t trust them.

It means they will do the most evil thing you can’t imagine anyone doing, just to get what they want.

We should take narcissists out and put them in communities where they will be locked up to make it safer for everyone else.

They used to be called asylums in the USA.

The stock markets need to close.

There are no shareholders.

Shareholders are the reason why employees get treated like shit.

Shareholders are the reason why employees are not paid what they’re worth. It goes to the shareholders.

Anyone who owns stock is a shareholder.

They get paid for doing absolutely nothing.

Everyone works.

Everyone works.

I’m tired of seeing the homeless in the park littering it up. If they had jobs…

However they are content being homeless.

Here’s what we do with that.

Reservations come to mind. The shittiest land we could give the native Americans.

Move the homeless out, and they can’t be part of society. If they want to work, give them a place,  clothes, and transportation of some sort.

If they don’t want to work, they can’t come into our cities.

As I said, if they want to work, they get a free place for showering and stuff.  They get a weeks worth of clothes for summer and winter.

To give them a leg up, rent free. As they’re working, they can save up to get a better place.

If they don’t want to be a productive member of society, they get nothing from society.

That we allow people to live in our streets is the most pathetic thing I’m guilty of. So are the rest of you.

I want to talk about something else. However, I’ve been homeless.

Just a shower would have been amazing.

Sleeping in my car for 3 months,  I’ll never do it again. There’s no reason that anyone should be homeless if they have a job. 

What in the blue holy fuck is going on with cinema?

It’s all the same shit with new wrappers.

I want something original.  Or at least an attempt.

This remake bullshit, reimagining fuck offs, this shit drives me insane.

How many batman’s do we really need?

I could go on,  but I won’t.

I used to write a movie blog. The Movie Whore.  See the Pic

I like a variety of stuff to listen to from music to movies to people and stuff.

It could be chocolate donuts,  or brownies, or Johnsonville cheddar brats, at fettuccine and noodles, or eggs with sausage.

I don’t find comfort in food.

No one should.

It’s not healthy eating habits.

I don’t know. I just like it.

I do love dogs,  however I’m more like a cat.

When I want love, I will get love and I will critique you in how well you love me ao you can love me better next time, or there won’t be a next time because you understand that this ludicrous. 

That’s what cats are like.

If they don’t want love, it’s all claws and hissing.  A cat will fuck you up worse than a dog.

I’ve seen cats pick on dogs.

I truly love cats, all cats, everything in the feline family. 

Playing stupid games on my phone.

Otherwise I have ADHD,  having to wait is the hardest thing I can do.

It’s why I work at my patience daily for years.

I’m a Táltos.

People come to me to get the answers.

I work my ass off to make sure what they need is what they get, and if I falter, they pay the price.

Then I go on social media, and the amount of bullshit that has people snowed is insurmountable.

I tell the truth to everyone.

I’m never dishonest.

That gets to me, the people that lie and think they’re doing good.

It’s what bothers me the most.

People are lying and getting whatever they want.

I’m honest, and I get kind of what I want.

Life is not fair, and it’s not a game.

When do we realize life is not a game?

But people like certainty, they want everything to go as they planned.

Wake the fuck up people.

Nothing is certain other than change.

The only constant in the universe is change.

What makes any think they have Control over change?

Stupidity is what it is.

I seek truth wherever it might be found.

Why do we seek?

Your answer is for you alone.

The world.

I’d like to meet each and every one of you from this planet.

We all do, or we get worse.

It’s our choice, and our choices that make our life.

Make wise choices.

None.

I don’t like to be comfortable,  if I’m comfy. I’m asleep.

Uncomfortable,  I’m awake.

Take the double meaning.

I dream of traveling in outer space.

I would give away everything to live in harmony with the rest of the world.

I love blues based rock n roll.

Why would anyone consider themselves an authority on any given subject?

That would be opinion.

I don’t do opinions. 

The whole idea of romance is a marketing tool to get people to buy shit.

Show her your love with a gift from Kay Jewelers. 

I could go on and on and on and on.

Romance is a marketing tool used to get people to buy things for the ones they love.

Romance is the word used by propagandists to get you to feel as if you need to buy something to show her you love her.

There’s 3 perspectives to show you the truth.

All day every day.

I just don’t do it on social media because then I would be bragging.

Don’t brag unless you’ve done something that makes you think, if I saw someone else…

It scares me how many people think civil war is a good thing.

Those people have never fought on a war and seen someone’s head get blown off.

I have listened to many war time veterans who saw combat.

One dude, he was the only survivor from a battle in a village. To watch him explain it, he was there in that moment stuck in time.

That’s where I come in. I cleared him out and it never pained him again.

I’m a healer.  Soul healer. 

I fix souls.

The art of leading to the answer, yet not giving the answer and making them figure it out on their own.

It takes a tremendous amount of patience.

Bruce Lee,  I’m sure some of you have heard of him.

He said he couldn’t teach anyone a thing, he could only make them think, and even that was an attempt to make them think.

I work to make people think, I make the attempt.

People never cease to amaze how centered they are on themselves. 

I have a student learning life isn’t about him. He’s taking punishment that he’s dishing out on himself to get himself the learn.

I channel the higherself. You talk to you through me.

Your higherselves are the greatest teachers I have honor and privilege to channel.

It’s a privilege to do what I do.

When I wake up I have a habit of saying I woke today, the rest is gravy.

No day is ever promised to anyone of us.

That we wake up, that’s a miracle I’m and of itself..

That’s where gratitude comes from. Being by yourself with no social media.

You have to be grateful without telling a soul.

You can tell people, but if you truly are grateful, it’s a personal thing, and no one knows what you have to be grateful for other than God, the universal  consciousness,  the  big u.

Why tell people?

That’s not being humble. That’s hubris. Meaning if tell everyone on social media how grateful you are,  you showing off.

That’s not what spirituality is. That’s the opposite of what spirituality is.

And if one wants to argue,  bring it.

Yes.

It’s my life.

I got born a Táltos,  the only way one van be Táltos is to be born one.

I don’t know what the other Táltos mission is. Mine is to channel God,  the universal consciousness,  the big u.

I never wanted to channel anything, much less the holy of holies.

However, it has its perks.

Try arguing with God and see how that works?

God speaks through me, as me. Posession 101.

God possesses people the same way demons do.

Now, I get that most people, think I’m guano.

Oh well, it’s still true.

Ask questions about your life and see what happens.

I dare you.

I know what will happen, you get the best advice money can’t buy.

It’s my day, every day.

I wake up, and I say, “I woke up today, and the rest is gravy.”

No day is a given. We should be grateful simply to be alive.

Complications are the “devils” tool.

Metaphor.

Think about your life and what you think is complicated.

I’ll do my life.

Nothing is complicated until we make it needlessly so.

I see so many needless complications in every society.

This is how I start my day.

I have a smoke with two hits of weed, or hash, or keef. This helps me calm down after I wake up.

It takes me an hour to wake up and shake off the shit I took on while I slept.

I’m an empath, and this is part of my self care.

Then breakfast. Egg and two sausage. I cook.

I cook the sausage then I add some butter for the egg, that has milk,Worcestershire sauce, garlic powder,  Paprika, Himalayan salt, rosemary, and Turmeric.

You can’t say you eat anything that is good for you unless you know what’s in it.

Then, I pace and sit and wonder while I go about my day.

If I need to go to the store,  I walk. I use my bag that slings across my back.

Or, if I don’t need the bag, I carry whatever it is in my hands.

I let my life determine my work out.

At work, I’ll mop and do laundry, and do dishes or whatever else these veterans need me to do.

I let my life determine my work out.

I don’t need to worry about my weight, I eat sensibly and avoid sugar mist the time.

I don’t drink because alcohol destroys the brain and pickles the body.

I do drink coffee,  3 cups a day. I use honey, and dark chocolate almond milk.

I do this because I have ADHD.  Coffee helps me focus, and the dark chocolate helps with emotional balancing.

Every part if my day i work at being at peace. 

I forgive everyone of everything throughout the day every day. 

This is how I build peace within myself.

At night I smoke and I put 4-6 hits of only weed so I can sleep.

I have ADHD.  If I don’t smoke weed,  I get 3 hours of broken sleep a day, and I usually will be up for a day and half through the full moon.

With weed, I sleep 6-8 hours getting solid sleep.

I care for myself well.

I like being well.

I speak well.

I live well.

Have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose.

Stupid game on my phone.

Not scrambled, folded with extra butter.

The way my Grandma Marie used to make me when I was a child.

He wasn’t my hero, he was a tremendously gifted philosopher.

After I read his book, I devoured everything I could on eastern philosophy, and martial arts.

I have an I.Q. of 215.

I never liked the movies, I loved his philosophy.

I’ve read that the Hungarians were nomads that came from the Ural mountains.

If one can find another land that nomads won’t ever give up, nice try.

Hungarians have been conquered more than most. Because they have no qualms with marrying their captors,  they have Asian, Persian, and Eastern European. 

This where I, a Hungarian,  want to visit.

I love learning.

I channel.

I teach in order to learn.

Works like this.

The deal I set with the universal conciseness,  I can learn anything as long as it is shared with at least one person.

I share with everyone writing this blog.

Zeus and His Daughters has more truth in it than I can say.

That’s your decision to accept or deny based on your life.

This is why i love being me.

I’m doing what I want to do.

Not everything, but that will simply a matter of time.

I love taking care of disabled veterans.

I love writing my books.

I love my life.

What else do i use daily?

My life.

I use my life daily to help those who need assistance.

I have a favorite category of moments.

My son.

Catching him as his mother through him as the midwife did this Kung fu move to get the placenta out.

Playing Kung fu death grip with him on my lap when was not even 1.

His first day of school. He looked at me as if to say, “I’m here dad, get the fuck out of here, you can’t stay,  this is for me.”

Everytime we did the dude routine.

Everytime we do the “have a blessed one and be excellent on purpose “

“Be bodacious. “

“Fuck yeah”

Watching him grow has been a privilege and an honor.

I love being The Dudes Dad.

It’s against my nature to tell what good deeds I did today.

Let your good deeds be done in secret.

One should never boast about one’s good deeds.

Doesn’t matter how you say it, it’s true, damn true.

Now that I got that out of the way, my day was nothing but good deeds all day.

It started with a friend who needed to go to Walmart.  My friend is a disabled Navy veteran. 

I borrowed my roommates car, an Audi. The same make and model my friend used to drive.

We went to Walmart and the scooters we’re being charged. So I pushed my friend through Walmart for about an hour.

Then we went and got Chinese food. My favorite. 

I love my friend, and I got to make him happy today.

Then, right after I got home, a friend of mine FaceTimed me, and we spent a good hour talking.

My friend is an author as well.  We shared writing tips,  and I shared with him the last book I ever read by Pete Conrad,  THE SUICIDE FLOWERS, you can find it on Amazon. 

Pete has no clue that I’m doing this. That’s the secret to this good deed.

I love my friend, and I love Pete Conrad. 

Then I wrote part 4 of Zues and His Daughters.  I wrote it before I wrote this. 

It’s kind of my daily thing.

I used to write 6 articles daily.

I may not go that bat shit,  but I can write a motherfuck ton.

That is my passion.

I just got done writing Zeus and His Daughters for the night, and I saw this.

I work at myself to be a better human daily.

I believe that can make a difference for a few.

I’m reminded of the starfish story.

Some dude sees some child tossing starfish into the ocean.

He says “You can’t get them all, so why try?”

The child said “I made a difference to this one,  and this one,  and this one.” As they tossed more.

I know I can’t make a difference for the world, but I can make a difference in the lives I touch. 

That’s good enough for me.

Every season has something to offer.

In the summer, we get to go swimming.

In the fall, the leaves turn and everything looks beautiful.

I’m the winter, it gets cold and i can wear my coat.

I’m the spring, we get to watch life cone through again.

I van for anything I set my mind to, with music it gets done faster.

I’ve used tag lines before. Let me give you an example or a few.

The Movie Whore.

I watch the shittiest movies so you don’t have to.

This blog.

My LinkedIn in profile says this under my name.

The teacher’s teacher, the guides guide, and the master’s master.

Of course I know I’m not a master, but with LinkedIn,  who the fuck cares?

When I wrote the Soldiers For Peace blog.

Peace is our passion.

I used to write adverting for bebee.com for free.

Be a bee that flowers the garden, and one will be a bee to remember. 

For me, my tag line, what tag line, I come up with the lines at the drop of a hat.

If one disrespects another, it is because they have no self-respect.

When one gives respect, one gets respect.

If one needs to be disciplined by another, it means they failed to discipline themselves. 

Discipline is hard word work.

That’s why so many fail.

If one manages oneself, one knows their in a flow of life with different points of interest along the way.

Life is a journey without a destination,  but don’t forget the points of interest.

This is where one can learn as long as one is clueless.

If one thinks one knows something, they’ll never learn.

Two more things.

I let go of everything.

Say it until you do it.

What comes back is yours that you must deal with in order for your evolution to begin.

This Reiki recital is one i created more than 10 years ago.

Say it once a day to turn yourself into a healing generator.

The idea is to heal by healing.

I use the state of peace to transmute what i take in as an empath intonpure love healing energy that goes around the universe. 

It took years, so don’t let yourself discourage yourself.

That’s about it.

My clients.

I’m home care aide that works with disabled veterans.

I spend most of my time with old people,  people who understand respect.

That’s why I don’t like hanging out with most of the younger generation, they want respect, but they don’t give it.

I get that most people are on social media that wants one to delve into narcissism.

It is difficult to be on social media and not become a narcissist. 

I check myself for narcissism almost daily.

Why wouldn’t we all?

All it takes is being wrong and admitting it, even if it is only to yourself. 

I’ve changed my name before, and this is what it was.

James Carter, do you know how many James Carters there are?

I’m an author.

I figured if Michael J. Fox can do it, so can I.

The J stands for nothing in Micheal’s case.

As Mr. Fox has Parkinsons disease. He was a hero to my father.

My dad said if Michael J. Fox can get it, anyone can get it. It was a mantra he used, even though he wouldn’t say so.

I think I still have books on file with Max’s name.

Now, here is where it gets interesting.

I’m a medium.

I use a half mask as I channel, so I cut shit off if it needs to be done.

Max was the name I gave my mask.

The people who met Max, have zero clue who James is. I made sure they wouldn’t. 

I didn’t need people bothering my friends while I did shit that was dangerous.

If any of my friends knew what I was doing, well, they probably would have stepped back and watched.

I’m self conscious. 

If I was going to some guano crazy,  it was my responsibility,  no one else’s.

It was dangerous. I could have been killed more than once.

It’s just that l had shit to do and learn while I was doing shit. 

I’m vague on purpose,  because I don’t talk about others’ secrets.

People tell me their life story on a regular basis. I don’t ask, they just spill it.

Some people, it freaks them out,  some get it and find  comfort in me.

No judgment, I’m a Táltos not a judge.

However, most empaths have the same story.

Know you’re blessed and be excellent to prove it.

For me, it was Jeet Kune Do by Bruce Lee.

I never watched the movies. However, I adored his philosophy.

Take anything anyone will ever teach you and make it uniquely your own.

This has been my guiding light since I was 9.

While others were reading Where The Sidewalk Ends, I was deep into Eastern philosophy and martial arts.

Bruce was doing both.

Like the post is titled, I’m not normal.

Know you’re blessed and be excellent to prove it.

This will take a while, so get comfy, I’ve got a story to tell you about the last book I ever read and why.

It was more than 15 years ago that I met Pete  Conrad, he wrote the Suicide Flowers, the book, and the script.

When I met Pete,  I was using the name The Movie Whore. I wrote a film blog.

I’ve been using WordPress for close to 20 years.

Pete had an interview with Bruce Campbell, Evil Dead, the original, Ash vs The Evil Dead, that guy.  I was a fan of B.C. I used to go to his website frequently.

I put the interview up, and Pete and I became friends.

He sent me an autographed copy of The Suicide Flowers. I read it and fell in love with his work.

The story centered around a rock star nearing the end.  He does this publicity thing to meet a dude who has luekimia. He was a fan.

Throughout the book one can see it was a tale of personal strife. 

Pete’s cousins are Robert and Michael Cummings, better known as Rob Zombie and Spider from Powerman 5000.

Rob has zero contact with his family.  He doesn’t even talk to his brother.  Talks to his parents, and that’s about it.

Now, this was more than 15 years ago. Things may have changed.

Once I read the book, I started editing the script.  I became Pete’s editor. No pay, but I loved what I did.

Now, we were working to get this thing made, the script.

We went down to Hollywood. I saw the Great Kali, wrestler, and I got to meet Spider.

There was some shit that happened that was my responsibility,  well, we had this dinner.

After dinner I was standing outside the place next to The Troubadour, a rock bar. I was smoking a cigarette and Spider was telling me about this thing he and Pete were going to.

Then I said I’m from Chico,  and Spider got animated as fuck.

Told me how he almost died in Chico. I’m a telepath, I knew the moment he said it, what the punch line was.

I was an ass to him. I’ve apologized many times.

This story is why I never read another book unless I was editing for Pete.  Then I wrote my own books and I had a wonderful mentor.

Thank you for everything Pete Conrad, know you’re loved by many. Know you’re blessed and be excellent to prove it. 

Each and every one of us human beings has one thing in common, we’re all souls.

It’s why I don’t get racism.

We are all the same.

We have different faces, but each and every one of us is the same.

Why do we put anyone in a pedestal?

Why would anyone think they’re special?

Why would anyone think they have the right to anything?

All we have the right to do is survive.

We have a bill of privileges,  not a bill of rights.

It works in our best interest to work together to solve the world’s problems.

It’s a we thing.

It takes we the people to get off our asses and do shit.

I just wrote a whole thing on fear, and I realized I have nothing to fear but fear itself. Yeah, I know JFK said it first, but who wrote the speech?

Who wrote those words that we all remember?

The thing is, there truly are people that want us to be afraid.

Fear is the dark mirror of love.

Fear gets us loving ourselves first and foremost.

I don’t like fear. If I think for a moment u have anything to fear, fuck it in doing it anyway.

That’s what courage is.

Fuck it, I’m doing it.

That’s what I don’t understand anymore.

I don’t understand why we let them make us afraid.

I get guns and bombs, and that shit, I’m not stupid.

What if you had nothing to fear?

What would you do?

Where does fear come from?

That’s how I got over my fears.

Look at this way, I used to be afraid of needles, spiders, creepy crawly things, anything happening to my son, a lot of stuff.

What was I afraid of truly?

I was afraid I couldn’t control anything.

Then, I learned that control is an illusion.

The thing is we can’t control our own bodies.

What in the blue holy fuck makes anyone think they have any control whatsoever?

When I learned nothing is in control and everything is organized chaos, I understood there was nothing to be afraid of.

Everything works out the way it should. Not the way we think it should, but everything we think we control puts it out of our limits.

There is nothing to fear.

Fear is the dark mirror of love.

Fear is what makes us think of ourselves first and foremost. Letting opportunity skip right the fuck on by.

If we give love, we get love.

If we love ourselves, we love everyone else, because we’re all the same.

We each have different faces, but our souls are all the same.

This is why I have no fear of anything.

I know that I’m blessed, and I’m excellent to prove it.

Why should I fear anything?

I like telling the truth.

Let me explain.

I’m a Táltos,  a soul healer, and I channel the universal consciousness.

Throughout my life, I’ve always worked to be correct when I’m talking to anyone. If I’m incorrect, I get to learn what the correct thing is.

I look at my life and most people don’t like being corrected and I don’t like it.

They treat me as if I’m the devil, and all I do is tell the truth.

So how do you know it’s the truth?

I channel the universal conciousness, God. Who else knows the truth?

However, my life is joy filles because I always tell the truth.

Look at your life,  I’ll use mine since I’m me.

I work at my life, and life is my life’s work.

Everything I do is managed. 

I manage to wake up on time most days.

I manage to keep my place clean.

I manage my work schedule.

I manage to find time off.

I manage to relax.

Well, not so much relax,  I work at relaxing.

All of that management falls directly on me, it’s my responsibility to manage myself.

Why do I need to unplug?

Every couple of months, I do a staycation and talk to zero people so that i can recharge.

How do I know when that time is?

Every couple of months.

It’s worked into my life.

I think long-term.

I get that most people have a complex life of their own doing, yet they don’t see it.

I live a simple life.

I  have a complex mind, I like to keep things simple.

Know you’re blessed and be excellent to prove it.

I look at the friend I am.

I’m high school, I used to pick up a buddy on the way to school, and it was way out of my way. The guy reminded me of it a couple years ago.

When a buddy was having trouble with his wife, I told him what he needed to hear, not what he wanted to hear. They’re still married. This happened more than 15 years ago.

I gave my roommate some crystals to help him out. He’s an empath.

The thing is, a true friend does this and more. They think about what their friend needs first and foremost.

This is why intelligent people don’t have many friends.

I have 2 or 3 that i see regularly, and they give me what I give.

Know you’re blessed and be excellent to prove it.