Say it loud and clear

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door

I know that I’m a prisoner
To all my Father held so dear
I know that I’m a hostage
To all his hopes and fears

Forget blame and think about taking responsibility for things you have done and do.

Think of it as owning your choices and giving yourself the opportunity to make different ones instead of saying “It’s the way it is.”

I talk to a lot of younger adults mostly in their in early to mid 20’s and I find the number one frustration they have is with the idea of authority. That anyone is entitled to tell them what to do or how to do it. My dad was raised that authority rules and you do as you’re told no questions asked. An idea many my age and older still hold dear as they feel as though it’s now their turn to be the authority.

Many feeling held hostage to ideas an concepts that this younger generation can’t stand and I am with them.

Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
I’m afraid that’s all we’ve got

You say you just don’t see it
He says it’s perfect sense
You just can’t get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defense

There are times in life I write things down because I need to get it out and I know that saying it out loud to someone will simply lead to more frustration.  I said it in a piece a couple days ago, for some it would take an act of God to get them to open their minds to something different than what they think they know.

While the older generation tries to use authority, the younger generation responds to leadership.

The language of authority is refusing to budge and refuses to acknowledge much less answer questions about the choices they make.

The language of leadership is always looking for ways to do it better and listens to any who have an idea.

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It’s the bitterness that lasts

So don’t yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different date
And if you don’t give up, and don’t give in
You may just be O.K.

As long as we argue, nothing gets done.

There is a very personal meaning for me in this second stanza.

We talk at times about people who sell out. We do it as a matter of judgement because we feel we have the moral high ground to do so. To me there is observation and there is judgement and the two can seem as though they are one in the same at times. I often find what we learn as time goes on can have a profound impact on what it is we thought we observed when then.

I always say “Rest, but never quit.”

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It’s too late when we die
To admit we don’t see eye to eye

It is too frequent that we only listen to find our opportunity to say what we wanted to say and do not allow what is being said to really be heard. We already made up our minds about what we wanted to say and no one is going to change it.

We’ve all done it and I personally work at it as I catch myself from time to time.

We always take for granted that tomorrow will come and we will have another chance at it. We never know for sure what tomorrow will bring.

This song was written by a son to his father. So many children and parents have problems in finding that equal ground. I know at times I still do with my own parents, however I work at making sure it doesn’t get in the way as much as I can.

I also work at with my son to never have it become something that relates to this song.

I work at it.

It takes work and an open mind to attempt to understand their side and find new and different ways of explaining myself.

That’s not with parents alone, that’s humanity and every human relationship regardless of the title we give to the others involved.

Family.

Coworkers.

Friends.

Governments.

It’s the choices we make when we don’t see eye to eye that define who we are in the moment. We can either work at resolution or revolution.

I choose resolution in the living years before it’s too late.

It’s a kind of Majick

One dream, one soul, one prize,
One goal, one golden glance of what should be,

What should be?

Depends on who you ask.

Each one of us has a dream, that something that if only….

It can drive us to think it’s what should be as if somehow we are entitled to it.

What’s the prize for you?

What’s the goal of what you think should be?

Who does it benefit?

In sessions I often tell people to think about what it is you want most in life and then ask yourself why you want it.

One shaft of light that shows the way,
No mortal man can win this day,

You are that one shaft of light showing yourself the way. Your light illuminates your path and is what projects what reflects back at you.

When you realize it’s not a game or a war you see there’s nothing to win. We have war because we refuse to put an end to the war within. With the martial art I designed there is one core philosophy.

If you ever put yourself in the position to use it, than you need to back track your steps and see where it could have been avoided.

Wars not make one great.

Yoda

You find your own greatness in bringing peace to yourself and being a living example of it. Hardest lesson for a man like me to live. I have a warriors heart. It has never been physical combat that I sought. It was the war of ideas that is the battlefield I chose for my life for many years. As I continue to allow myself to learn and grow through the ever evolving circumstances of my life, I find no desire to even debate these days.

There’s nothing to be won.

An open  mind will listen and ask questions. A closed mind will fight it and there is nothing you can do except plant the seed and walk away.

When I think about the line “No mortal man can win this day” it reminds me we each have free will and it would take an act of God to change some peoples minds.

The bell that rings inside your mind,
Is challenging the doors of time,

The waiting seems eternity,
The day will dawn of sanity,

Time is a location.

A set of coordinates for an event.

All that exists is now and it’s eternal and ever evolving and changing.

Sanity begins in doing something different to get different results.

This flame that burns inside of me,
I’m hearing secret harmonies

Secret, interesting word to me.

The things we keep secret are for protection, whether it be for our protection or to protect someone else. I live a life of keeping other peoples secrets because it goes with the job. Part of what I do is assist you in building your life and figuring out the best way to protect that life you are building. It’s not easy to keep some secrets that you can see will have such a profound impact on the rest of the world. However it has to wait until the world is ready to hear it.

No one is unreachable, they are only on their part of their path that means for now, they are not for you or your message. We each wander and none are lost. We each make progress at the rate we learn from our own experiences. We discourage ourselves more than others when we expect them to see it our way.

There is an art to giving people the small pieces they need in the moment that will allow them to grow at their rate not ours. It is an art that I don’t think any of us ever truly masters. I haven’t and work at it daily.

It is allowing yourself to be led as a teacher by being a student in learning what the needs in front of you really are by listening. Those are the secret harmonies that allow for a connection to be built that allows for greater things to happen.

This rage that lasts a thousand years,
Will soon be done, done,

Rage sown will be reaped.

Rage reaped will hurt and cause untold harm and can and often hits more than you alone.

Too often rage begets rage and on this world it has lasted longer than a thousand years.

Will it soon be done?

How will it come to an end?

One by one?

A big event that shocks the world into peace?

Global annihilation from nuclear war?

There is more than one way to bring something to an end.

It’s a kind of magic

Magic is illusion and slight of hand.

Majick is very real and easier than we want it to be. It takes no ritual, no spells, no wands, no wizards or witches, no incantations, no herbs, no sacrifices of any kind.

Majick in not black or white or gray or any other color.

True majick is as easy as speaking.

Every thing you say gives life to your life.

Every word is felt regardless of it being heard. That’s the majick that makes the world go round.

We all feel we know who is full of it and who isn’t. We like to think we aren’t even though most of us are without realizing it.

It’s the only way I can explain how Donald Trump and Hillary Clinton are even in the running and why Bernie Sanders is favorites of people who dropped out of the political and corporate games and have no special interest to be served as their interest is in the sum, not the some.

That’s the closest you will get to me talking politics for very good reasons.

If we want see change in the world we have to elect people who are not the same thing we have been dealing with for decades.

Don and Hill are the same old same old and Bernie is not.

I’m all in favor of change and I’m sick and tired of the same old same old.

Your choice is your and in this we have the power to condemn each other or give each other hope by the choice of who we put in office.

For my worldwide audience, if one of the first two gets elected, who can I come live with outside of the USA?

Bernie is an end to the rage.

That’s the closest you will get to me talking politics for very good reasons.

I am done with rage and the cage it creates.

Love and blessings to you all.

Your freedom comes from within

I won’t let you down
I will not give you up
Gotta have some faith in the sound
It’s the one good thing that I’ve got
I won’t let you down
So please don’t give me up
‘Cause I would really, really love to stick around, oh yeah

I’m in the business of empowering people and assisting them in lifting themselves up to the life they feel belongs to them. When I think about what it would look like for me to let someone down, the thing that keeps coming back is that if I ever quit what I do. I can think of more than a few who have told me on too many occasions to never stop because of what I did for them.

People have invested in me as much as I’ve invested in them in the emotional strength we share. A strength built on a connection of pure love. A connection built on not giving up no matter where your life or mine is in the moment that is now.

I think about the last sound I heard that gave me something to believe in and have faith in. It’s Brother from the Mother ship. He has a powerful voice and the lyrics he seeks to bring to life with his voice are truly inspiring. I have faith in the sound of his music and the trans-formative effect it has already been having on me.

I use music quite a bit to help maintain and re-align my view of life and what I am doing with and about mine.

Each of us has someone or few people in our lives that are a source of inspiration. People who get us to look inward and see what they see in us and encourage us to bring more of that to the surface. My life is blessed to have several who love me greatly and are always bringing better and better out of me by showing me what they see that inspires them.

I work at making sure I’m doing the same for them.

These are the people I love to have around me.

Heaven knows I was just a young boy
Didn’t know what I wanted to be
To win the race? A prettier face!
Brand new clothes and a big fat place
But today the way I play the game is not the same
No way
Think I’m gonna get myself happy

I joined the US Air Force at 17 after graduating High School 6 months early. I had no clue what I wanted to do and the idea of more school was totally unappealing to me.

As time went on in life and I moved from military life back to civilian life I found the desire to win that rat race so many run and to wear nice clothes and live in a nice home.

I had it too.

At 23 I was managing 350 people and generating $30-50 million dollars a month in sales for my companies client after I edited and rewrote some of their sales scripts. My company was getting $2-3 million dollars a month from the client due to how efficiently I ran my phone sales floor as a manager.

Where it all went down hill was a pretty face that broke my heart.

Today I don’t play games, I play the players.

One of my skills allows me to “mirror” people. I have a good idea of their intent and have an annoying way of cutting them off at the pass. It freaks people out when I call them out for what they are doing.

To them there is no way I should have a clue.

I get myself happy when I see the growth take place in front of me as I work with clients. Over the last few years I have worked with more than a thousand people as they worked at empowering themselves to be who they are and find the joy in their life or walk away from the misery. It was more of a temporary partnership and the hardest thing I face on a professional level is often clients want to stay around in my life and I appreciate them each and every one for so much more than that.

It’s bitter sweet for me when they reach that point where they no longer need me. I truly care about each and everyone of them however there are others who need what I do and I move on. What makes me happy is when I do hear from them from time to time and they tell me where they are in life and how much better their life has become.

All we have to see
Is that I don’t belong to you
And you don’t belong to me

As a species we are obsessed with the concept of “mine.”

My parents, my kids, my friends, my car, my house, my cat, my wife, my husband.

The only thing we truly own is our view of life.

Even these bodies we are simply using to enjoy the human ride while we are here before we go back to where ever it is that helps you sleep better at night.

I say my clients at times, I don’t own them, they don’t own me even though they do pay me.

Your company does not own you.

We belong to ourselves and we share who that is because if we think about giving it to someone then we give them power over us. We unknowingly often attempt to take power over others without realizing it.

I think there’s something you should know
I think it’s time I stopped the show
There’s something deep inside of me
There’s someone I forgot to be

Whether we like to admit or not, we put on a show for people frequently in life.

We show them what we think will bring them in and keep them around.

We show them we are here and nothings wrong.

We show them everything except what is going on inside.

Stop the show and look within to see who you forgot to be.

For me, I sometimes to forget to simply be me as I get too focused on work and need to remember the little things I do that often touch lives I will never see in a session however needed it anyway.

You have no idea how many lives you’ve touched or inspired. Most of us have no clue. Were too busy simply being who we are from deep inside to care about numbers such as those.

It’s the number 1 that means the most to me.

Not being number 1, moving from 1 to another, 1 at a time.

Freedom
You’ve got to give for what you take

There are so many ways to interpret this last one that I leave it up to you to tell me what it means to you to give the freedom you take.

What does your riptide look like?

I like to step on cracks
I go against the odds

Look at your life for a minute.

When the odds are against you, what do you do?

While you think about it, here’s what I do and why.

I’ve always been one to like it when the odds are stacked against me. It started when I was a kid playing with the kids in my neighborhood. We played war and chased each other around with toy guns. It was usually the other kids against me until it had to be the other kids against me.

I like to look at going against the odds as the opportunity to bring forth my best in the situation.

To this day I accidentally sneak up on and scare people after learning to move quietly as a kid playing a game.

What is it in your life that you feel the odds are against you?

What is it going to take from within you to beat those odds?

These are questions we ask ourselves daily without thinking about it in these terms. We think about what need to do in order to do what we want while taking care of our needs at the same time.

Your needs and wants will be different than mine and that’s a good thing for all of us.

It inspires people to see others step out and be the underdog. You don’t do it to inspire them, that’s a side effect of finding within whatever it takes from you to reach that goal or bring that dream to life.

I leave when others stay
I never re-decide

Think about it from the aspect of what you feel is holding you back from bringing the dream to life.

At times it requires us to leave jobs, marriages and/or friendships behind.

Once you choose a goal, changing your mind is the fastest way to make sure you never reach it.

I often find the most confusing thing for me in life is narrowing down the options and finding the best course to make the dream a reality. Often we allow ourselves to be pulled in many directions as we figure out where that path is to take us on the journey we want to take.

Think about it for yourself for a while.

What do you need to leave behind to move forward?

I don’t mind if you wait
But I don’t waste my time

Patience is my biggest challenge on a daily basis. However there is a time to lose ones patience based on the circumstances one finds oneself in.

Often we find ourselves saying I’m waiting on this or that in order to do this or that. We give ourselves an out to sit back and wait for something majickal or miraculous to happen.

I tend to write a lot. Here’s why.

I’m always finding inspiration that “moves” me to write. It comes in many forms. Each of us is inspired to do something by something. Following that inspiration takes work. That work can have some aspects to it that at times feels as though it is in the way of us doing more of what we want.

That work is what you were inspired to do. Instead of wasting time arguing with yourself over it, just do it.

I wear a Nike hat to remind me of that.

I remember when it used to be easy
I remember when it wasn’t so hard

When I worked in the corporate world it was easy most days. However it didn’t start out that way. I had a learning curve.

It got easier because I had a defined set of parameters to work within. I do some of my best work in doing the work for other people. I find it’s easier for me to use the guidelines others need fulfilled than my own.

My problem is I am aware of what I am able to do and often try to go in every direction with it at once. I think a lot of us go through this. We see all the options and know our capabilities and don’t want to limit ourselves out of fear of missing out on something.

I won’t justify
The way I live my life
‘Cause I’m the one livin’ it
Feelin’ it, tastin’ it

I have no problem explaining it, however justification implies you’re doing something wrong.

Only you ever truly know what feels right to you and why.

When we allow other people to tell us it’s wrong to live the way we do, it can be for a myriad of reasons depending on the life we are leading. It’s not about us, more often than not it’s about them.

We often project our own issues on other people. When I see some one working at the life they desire, I ask what I can do to be of assistance.

Asking each other to justify the lives we lead is how we know we are not comfortable with our own life. If you are focused on your life and building your life you don’t have time to worry about what others are doing unless it directly affects you.

That’s not a license to ignore people. It takes other people to assist you in building our life. It takes being willing to ask for assistance.

With the type of work I do, it’s new to a lot of people. Mediums channeling the higher self.

I get it, when I realized it’s what I do, it was a little freaky to me too and I do it.

One thing I have been searching for is a business manager who understands what I do and can translate that to people who don’t understand it.

I have found me talking about it leaves people with mixed reactions. Here’s why.

We have a habit of wanting a second opinion or to hear about the experience someone else had. We have trust issues as a species. Me included.

We want a history or proven track record or we fear we are going to be taken advantage of.

We want something concrete we can see or touch for verification.

None of you has been on this side to see it from my side. A lot of you can’t even imagine what it would really be like to be a Medium. Sure we have some stories and movies and TV shows we use as reference instead of talking to the people who do it.

None of us has been on your side of it with what you do and why you do it the way you do.

Does it frustrate you when people ask you to prove yourself?

Honest question.

It is often frustrating when we feel as though we are in a never ending cycle of proving ourselves over and over again. It can feel as though we never stop paying our dues.

We all go through it and it often can lead to leaving behind the naysayers to embrace the people who get it and offer us support in a myriad of fashions.

The infinite faces of love

I often say there is but one emotion and it’s love and the others are but it’s infinite faces or something close. I’m always looking for better ways to express myself.

People often recommend books to me. I don’t think I have ever really explained how much reading and studying I have done in my life.

I was born with an intellect that allowed me to read books and not thumb though them as the other kids did.

I read the dictionary.

I read the entire encyclopedia series.

I read every martial arts and eastern philosophy book in the Hooker Oak Elementary school library.

I read mythology books.

I read my moms college text books on astronomy.

I read books on everything.

I read a lot of fantasy fiction.

I read a lot of science fiction.

I’ve seen over 5,000 movies.

I am always looking to get into deep discussions every time I talk to anyone. That’s not new.

In some way, some form or some fashion I am constantly studying everything in the world around me. I am always seeing where I can make changes in me to allow for the life I desire to be here now.

I have talked about the Cinematic View I use. If life was a movie, your story will never go outside the context of your character.

Who you are behind the mask, your true intent behind your life whether you admit it to yourself or anyone else is the life that plays out around you.

To make changes to your story, first make changes to your character.

I hit a point where my capacity for storage is maxed out, no pun intended. I have studied so much, taken so much in, that now my learning is often done in the moment through realization of things only studied and now being understood.

I find if it’s a new process I need to learn I’m able to adapt with no problem as I often find it’s more of an update to something I have already done. Something I have already studied and now here’s the application so that I can understand what I absorbed and why I retained it.

There are somethings I studied as a child and unconsciously applied that I still live.

Bruce Lee spoke of being limitless.

I impose some limits on myself based on the story I want that shapes the character I am becoming. There are experiences I’ve never had that I can pass on thank you.

There are experiences I’ve had, I would very much like to have again. The character I choose to be in the authentic representation of me is what allows the story I desire to take shape and be filled in by The Big U or that improv creative producer out there everywhere.

You are a being of love and limitless.

You have infinite options to choose the form of love you are.

Have fun figuring out what works for you.

If you don’t like your story, make changes in your character.

Know your needs

The line between need and want is easy to allow to become a gray fog a mile wide.

Last night as a crowd of young adults got out of a cab, I observed their character in nothing more than a glance.

To prove me right 2 of them ended up coming over and talking to me and what I read in a glance was confirmed.

I read people that fast.

I read your soul energy which is the totality of your emotional self in the moment.

I never get details, I get an emotional imprint of who you are not what you have been through or are going through.

I don’t know you or your life experience however I understand who you are underneath all of it.

It’s what allows me to assist you in creating the true projection that is you underneath the scars of life experience.

The Law Of Reflection says the mirror always lies.

The people around you reflect who you are projecting and you reflect who they are projecting. Neither ever knowing the totality of each other and the experiences that shaped who you are projecting.

The Law of Reflection is based on making the needed changes in you to allow the life you desire to be reflected back at you.

You become your desire.

For a Brother of mine that is becoming something he has been looking for. What that is going to do for his life is going to be an honor and a privilege to be a part of.

With what I do I rarely get to be there as that life you dreamed of unfolds.

The majick that is my life is being able to watch the growth that will open the door to that hall of mirrors. It takes love and pure intent to really be what some one needs versus what they could be for you.

It takes setting aside your wants and at times your own needs. What that looks like is always based on what’s happening and what brought us to this place.

The greatest reward makes an impact and the greatest impact is never made in your life alone.

To reap the greatest reward one must sow with purpose and intent and exercise patience to allow the seed to grow.

We sow our lives with every word we speak whether we like it or not.

Our true intent is always felt regardless of the words we use or the mask we wear.

Every one of us could benefit from having a business manager to assist us in the business of managing our lives.

That person that is not only there for emotional support, they also understand your vision of the life you’re creating in becoming what you desire most.

More like a life manager.

That’s not always going to be someone you are romantic with and at times it’s better it isn’t.

The partner you share your bed with is there to ground you as well as assist you in shining bright.

We all want to have someone to share our bed with and when we find one that brings out who we were too afraid to be we find other people to assist us in being that while we look forward to sleep with the one who inspired it.

We have many partners in our life that we assist as much as they assist us.

What I’ve always needed is what I do for other people.

What I’ve always wanted was someone to do for me what I do.

I’m having it reflected back at me, what I’ve become and the clarity of my projection is why I’m at peace with my life as it’s unfolding though I’m two steps away from hitting the panic button.

Faith isn’t faith until it’s all you’re holding onto.

Faith and belief are two different things.

We want to believe.

We need to have faith in ourselves first and in others as they results come in to build it.

Blind faith can and sometimes is rewarded and usually isn’t as blind as we pretend.

Nothing happens by chance and every circumstance is an opportunity to grow.

I am wise, however I’m not overly educated.

It always seemed to me that the sign of true intellect is not what you have studied, it’s in expressing yourself in a way anyone can understand.

It’s not in making it so complex they rely on you, it’s in making it so simple they don’t need to rely on you.

With every single client my goal is make sure you don’t need me in the fewest sessions possible. I have worked with people for months and some years and some in one session.

It all depends on you and the work you put it into you before we start and the work you do as we work together.

I need clients.

I need a manager.

I want to keep pretending I can do it on my own.

We all want to pretend we are doing it on our own.

I’m done pretending.

 

What connection are you looking for

Give me what I could never ask for
Give me the drug you know I’m after
Connect me and you could be my chemical

Think about it for a minute.

What is it you want but could never ask for?

I have a few things on that list and I understand why each of them is on that list. I use myself as an example to create a connection through understanding. Though the experiences are different the lessons learned are often the same.

What is the drug I’m after?

I self medicate using coffee, dark chocolate almond milk, nicotine and marijuana.

Each a drug.

Each of us has a list of drugs we take and don’t even think twice about because we associate the word “drug” with substances.

TV is a drug.

Facebook is a drug.

Porn is a drug.

Movies are a drug.

Music is a drug.

Anything that causes a chemical change in the brain is a drug and is mind altering.

Sex is a drug.

Exercise is a drug.

Yoga is a drug.

Meditation is a drug.

Prayer is a drug.

Anything that causes a chemical change in the brain is a drug and is mind altering.

Any questions so far?

The drug I use other drugs for, the thing we all chase no matter how we do it is bliss.

Not love, bliss.

We search out for that blissful feeling that makes everything perfect no matter how fucked things might be. When you find that in a conversation, it’s a drug once experienced that is very difficult to let go of.

I’ve noticed people who get that blissful feeling from me often have a hard time letting me go.

For example there is a woman I’ve tried to kick out of my life who still reads all of this stuff. She did not provide that same blissful feeling in return. It was all work to put up with her.

There is no bliss within her so she has none to share and instead looks to feed off the bliss of others. My inner bliss is a connection to the universal consciousness. It’s a sea of never ending bliss that I rarely allow myself to remember I can experience at any time.

Bliss is a drug.

You can’t ask for bliss.

No matter what it is you do, the real drug we are all after is bliss.

I am the bliss for others that I seek for myself. I became what I desire most and find the ability to find it everywhere no matter how bad things might be around me or how other things may seem.

As I become my desire the mirrors of that desire keep popping up to remind me I made it to the room my projection has opened to me.

I have attracted nothing. I have even seen it everywhere I go in who talks to me and who doesn’t. I see it in the conversations we have. It’s why I feel the law of a attractions is a lie and the law of reflections is closer to the actuality of life.

We reap what we sow not what we want.

Our thoughts create our reality not our desires.

Our desires shape what thoughts we allow.

Our thoughts become the words and actions that are reflected back at us.

What is it you want so much that you would become it to have it in your life?

Figure out what that is and you found your purpose in life.

Only you can figure it out for you.

What are you afraid of?

I am a man who walks alone
And when I’m walking a dark road
At night or strolling through the park

When the light begins to change
I sometimes feel a little strange
A little anxious when it’s dark.

The light we become is born from our darkness. We put things in  our darkness we would not want the rest of the world to see out of fear of being judged and seen as if there is something wrong with us.

We always walk alone in our darkness whether we walk the streets or take a stroll through any park. It doesn’t matter if it’s day or night our darkness is always around us.

 Have you run your fingers down the wall
And have you felt your neck skin crawl
When you’re searching for the light ?
Sometimes when you’re scared to take a look
At the corner of the room
You’ve sensed that something’s watching you.

No one likes to be watched unless they have put themselves at the center of things. When we sense the unseen taking interest in us it can sometimes bring about fear. You feel it there, however you can’t see it or touch it and it can be unnerving.

I always say that if there was a personification of God it would make God the ultimate stalker. That idea of something or someone ever present ever watching is a scary one when we are not at peace with who we are and the things we do when we are alone.

However we always get a sense of the people we meet.

We are spirits wrapped in flesh and we are all connected.

I say everything in existence is a face and facet of what God truly is. We have a lower self that enjoys all the pleasures the flesh has to offer. No matter how dark the desire is, the flesh can find a way to enjoy it.

The higher self is our connection to what some call the Universal Consciousness and I call the Big U. I call it the Big U because it’s all of you in spirit. We are a hive mind that takes the form of flesh to enjoy what individuality is and can be.

 Watching horror films the night before
Debating witches and folklore
The unknown troubles on your mind
Maybe your mind is playing tricks
You sense,and suddenly eyes fix
On dancing shadows from behind.

At times setting ourselves up to be scared can be fun.

A scared woman will cuddle closer to the one next to her.

A scared man will cuddle closer to the one next to him.

I’ve had a lot of conversations about Majick recently. Real Majick not illusion, not some long forgotten secret art, something we all do every day in every way without realizing it most of the time.

The Universe manifests for us and will allow us to think we are doing it ourselves and play into our ego expression.

This often leads many to feeling as though they are Wizards or Sorcerers or Witches and for some, they go off the deep end and think they are a god or a Djinn or something other than human.

We want to feel as though we have the power because we fear being weak. Funny thing is the ultimate power in the Universe is choice. Our choices create the path before us.

Karmic Law says and science has proven, our thoughts create our realities.

I forget who I was talking to the other night who said “Our thoughts are our prayers and our words our spells.”

Wise words and a simple way to view the Majick we all do.

When one becomes their light, they leave their darkness behind.

For me, I am a recovering sex addict. So for me I became a Tantra master in order to leave my desires at home and I go out in search of growth, learning, friendship, family and pure love connections.

My darkness is nothing for any to see except those I become lovers with. I have no need to be a lover with every woman and I’m not into men. I’ve thought about it, simply not my thing. However I enjoy hanging out with gay men, they tend to be entertaining. They also have strength and courage as many of them came out to families who don’t get them.

I respect them, they have been through some shit and probably take more than they should from a world still homophobic.

What’s to be afraid of?

I often find those who experience homophobia are often denying the desires they have within them.

Courage is not the absence of fear it’s knowing you’re afraid and saying “Fuck this shit, I’m doing it anyway.”

“I’m going to be me anyway”

“I’m going to talk to ______ anyway.”

“Fuck fear!”

It’s finding a way to do what you’re afraid of not because the fear is gone, you do it because you refuse to let fear run your life. I often find on the other side of my fears is the life I never would have thought I could have.

It’s scary to do what I do in this world as it is. It’s scary to tell the world “I’ll give you the benefit of what and who I am and what I can do without ever asking for anything in return.”

My desire is to never let fear make my choice.

My choice is to stand, face my fears and do it anyway.

As for what I keep in my darkness, my peace and my side of bliss.

It’s what creates that bliss in the light I choose to be. I give all that I am to any around.

Tonight I’m taking my Magic cards out to hang with some new friends who also play Magic: The Gathering. I’m bringing bliss with me, the bliss I find in allowing my higher self to connect me to the bliss all around and within us.

I’m also looking forward to kickin’ some ass on the table.

If you’re going to play a game, play to win. The only game I play right now is Magic: The Gathering and I look forward to the gathering around the park bench tonight.

I go out in the dark because there is nothing fear but fear itself as JFK once said.

I’m also nocturnal and I spend most of my day giving my energy to my parents so they can do what they need to do. It drains me all day long and I sleep off and on through out the day.

Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a constant fear, thought you heard
Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a phobia that someone’s always there.

I find comfort that there is always something or someone there. Understanding we are never truly alone and that loneliness is nothing more than a choice.

What are you afraid of?

Face your fears.

Whisper if you feel me.

These boots walk over no one

When I go out to do what I do I strap my boots on. The boots I wear I received 24 years ago in June. They’re my basic training combat boots from the Air Force.

I thought about using the song THESE BOOTS ARE MADE FOR WALKING, to tell this tale, however I found the song has no relation to me and my boots.

I walk all over no one and see no reason to ever to do that.

I walk to people and I walk away, to walk all over is to insist the need for vengeance or vindication or a sense of victory.

The victory is when the war within comes to an end and you can walk away because there is nothing to fight or fight for.

I wear my boots to remind me of where I came from.

To remind me that the Air Force taught me integrity.

To remind me to walk my talk.

To remind me to live my integrity.

I am in an entirely new line of service to the people and the land and my boots help me remember that.

Friday night a Brother reminded me who I was and who I have become when he said “Warrior Love”

I replied “I am on the pure love mission but you stay on warrior duty.”

It’s a new role for me. I have a warriors heart and always have. However the time for me came to be nothing more than a teacher and a guide. I am no healer and I am no protector and I am no longer the warrior I was.

I’ll confess I have studied martial arts for decades and I have the ability to rip an attackers throat out based on the warrior I was.  I am not interested and if I could, I would forget everything I know about physical combat, all combat for that matter.

I’m a Hippy with a Rock ‘N’ Roll heart. A man of peace. A man of love, the pure love the world needs more of. I’m not even interested in debate.

My style of fighting for my life these days is to simply say here I am and if you can’t hang with me, walk away, because I am going now where.

I find the people who have a hard time being around me are fighting their own war and I have no desire to be apart of it. Instead I like to help people see how to end that internal conflict as this reflection has no rage to project.

There is a difference between standing your ground and refusing to move and fighting.

Look at Gandhi.

A man of peace who never fought, he stood his ground and refused to be moved. If I am in the home of another you bet your ass I leave if they ask.

However stadnin’ out on the street, I am not going anywhere. I am going back again and again. I found a new favorite Friday night place to hang out and talk to people outside. It upset some people who like to use it as their personal feeding ground.

Feeding off the energy of others. Me I find my presence negates their feeding.

Like it says in HUNGER STRIKE, I won’t feed on the powerless.

Some people have no problem feeding on anyone and the powerless make it easier and sweeter to stalk. There are Empaths who like to feed off your light to fuel their dark desires.

They often make themselves the center of things and show off and draw attention to themselves.

When you watch someone trying to feed all night in this manner it’s pathetic. You see how hollow they are allowing them selves to be the mirror of your light in order to feed on you.

It’s disgusting.

It’s the lowest form of using the gift it is to be an Empath.

It’s inhuman and vampiric in nature. These would be the energy vampires you hear about. Nothing more than Empaths who have decided to feed off the energy of people without giving back.

I stood my ground Friday night and did no fighting. I stood my ground and ruined the feeders feast and I will be around to make sure that one never feeds around me again.

I don’t have to fight, I just have to show up and let it flow.

A Taltos is often their communities early warning system, feeling what’s coming from a mile away giving the community time to prepare. In history a Hungarian King was thought to be Taltos as his early warning prepared the country to fight off would be invaders who thought it was easy pickings.

I wear boots to remind me to live my integrity and walk my talk.

The Love is Free the Sex you Pay for

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I’m a Hippy with a Rock ‘N’ Roll heart.

I look back at the free love movement from decades ago and I can clearly see why it failed.

Today I wander about and talk with many and the common theme is psychedelic drugs and taking that kind of trip to expand consciousness and awareness. For me total sobriety is what most describe an acid trip as.

I was born with that total awareness.

The drugs are a cheat and a shortcut to use instead of doing the work. I’ve spoken with many who have taken so much LSD that it has forever changed them and not in helpful ways.

Cosmic Alchemy 101.

To receive one must give.

When we shortcut it we give up chunks of ourselves to what or whoever we are using to shortcut it.

Some use sex.

In fact there was a guy, you know someone who will fuck you because they can, that was selling sex as a way to super-consciousness with the idea that a man should only orgasm once a year.

Quick biology lesson.

For men it’s actually healthy to orgasm several times a week and reduces prostate swelling over time. It actually keeps the prostate functioning better over time.

Another part of Tantric art is to self induce the orgasmic state alone with out the pay off. To me that’s selfishness to only experience growth on your own for yourself.

The free love movement of long ago included fuckin’ anyone because “Hey man it’s all about the love so why not?”

Here’s why not.

In sex we exchange pieces of our souls with each other. Over time we become ingrained into each other and telepathic communication increases. When we give our bodies to whoever, we’re creating a chaotic mess within us and sharing those we have taken on with whoever we are exchanging pieces with now.

We are the sum of all we take on and in.

We fracture our soul and give away facets of our soul in exchange for a fuck, an orgasm that we feel entitled to because it was consensual and it was legal so why not.

You can damage your soul to the point where no matter how good you look on the outside you need to take on more and more from others. What does this look like?

We don’t always exchange the best of us for the best of them. Often one gets the best of it and the other is left with the rest of it or worse yet, left feeling hollow as if there was no return, no exchange.

People who use people for their good time rarely if ever give anything back. They take and take and take.

The other night I set myself with the intent to give pure love. I received it back up until I met one human. After that I had nothing left to give as this human unknowingly drained me out. They thought they were doing me some good and it backfired.

The intent was a good one, however they made an assumption about what I needed instead of talking to me to find out.

Then I was led into an environment that for me is harmful. Again an assumption was made without finding out why I stay outside and don’t go in.

Again the intent was to attempt to assist me, instead it injured me and required I take protective measures to protect myself.

I often find myself in position to teach other teachers and guide other guides. I often find myself showing the masters that they have become masters for themselves and need no further teaching or guidance.

If you think about the idea of community and mix it with the idea of it taking a village to raise a child, you begin to see that a lot of what we think of as a good time is harmful to the community and the children born from it and in it.

A child conceived while in altered states brought on through the use of drugs and alcohol will have a profound effect on the child created. Who you are in that moment has a profound effect on the child conceived.

Our essence begins with the emotional state in it’s totality of our parents, we are the essence of them preceding our existence in conception.

Being free with love negates protecting oneself, being free with sex gives pieces of ourselves away that may never be found again.

To me it has nothing to do with morality and everything to do with understanding how energy  works.

It has nothing to do with being a downer on the party and everything to do with understanding the cost of the so called fun.

We grew up waiting for our turn to get drunk, throw up and be somebody.

We grew up waiting for our turn to take Acid or Mushrooms or DMT.

Personally I want to try Mushrooms and DMT, however I will never touch Acid.

It takes a village and this is what our villages have been producing. People, human beings hell bent on destroying their bodies, minds and souls because it’s what they grew up watching.

Whisper if you feel me.

It’s time for change

I heard some kids telling me
How they’ve lost all the faith, in the way
They’ve been talking world peace
And the wars in the streets

It was 27 years ago that Motley Crue first released this song. I remember buying the Dr. Feelgood album on cassette with Jimi Hendrix Are You Experienced. The first two cassettes I ever bought.

This was the last song on the album. I was 15 and I was one of those kids who had lost faith in the way. I find it disturbing that nearly 3 decades later the song is as relevant today as it was in 1989.

Look around at all the violence in the world and so much of it taking place on the streets not between soldiers, between kids with guns and the adults who hold the reigns and keep pumping them full of whatever it takes to keep them fighting whoever they want fought.

Old, tired fools tell our future
With tarot cards, and lie of crime

We hear it and see it all the time, yet we keep going along with it out of fear of the unknown and the easiness of cold comfort. For the most part as long as we can watch TV or goof off online, we really don’t care to do anything that might upset that comfort.

Even when we see it right in front of us and have irrefutable evidence shoved in our faces, we would rather turn the blind eye than actually do something that might upset what is.

I feel the the future
In the hands of our youth
No more lies

I like spending time with younger adults in their early 20’s. I feel the honesty in them and the desire to do something, maybe not knowing what, however feeling the dire need that something has to be done.

It starts with honesty.

Honestly I get along better with people half my age than I do with people my own age. Being a teacher, it’s easier to teach a mind that is not already made up. It is easier to reach a mind that is still open to new possibilities.

A revolution, or reach out
And touch the day
We’re overdue, child

Change
Now it’s time for change
Nothing stays the same
Now it’s time for change

I’m a man of peace. When I speak of revolution I speak of a revolution of ideas with no violence.

If we look at history, violence begets violence. It’s undeniable. Yet still we fight thinking at some point it will achieve peace.

What in the holy blue hell is wrong with us?

It’s time for change. A change in philosophical ideology. A change in allowing religion to be an excuse for hate.

I am a man of God and I can see where religion has done more to bring us to the brink of destroying ourselves more than any other influence.

History is littered with the deaths of millions over whose God is the right one and whose book is the right one.

In my opinion every organized religion should be banned.

I am a man of God and not an atheist and I am not suggesting a new religion by any means. I use Rock ‘N’ Roll.

I talk to more and more people who are against religion and for spirituality. Spirituality is an individual relationship between you and God and does not need a hall or a choir and God doesn’t need or want our money.

Change is inevitable. The options for us is to change our ways or destroy ourselves. Seems pretty simple.

The future is in the hands of our young however we need the old people to get out of the way and step down and let the new blood run free.

In my twenties I got a fortune 100 company to do it my way. At twenty I had the Us Air Force telling me they were going to do it my way after seeing the results.

I am not that special. There are a ton of people in their 20’s that could have mass influence in turning this around if we just get out of their way. Give them guidance, however let them do it their way and see what happens.

Change is inevitable. Change is existence. With out change there is no existence.

Perhaps the greatest impact that can be made in this world can be made by the 20 somethings of the world.

Those who can do, those who can’t teach. I teach.

Renewal of life and stuff

As an Empath I can feel the rebirth that is spring. I can feel life coming back to that which lay dormant for the winter. I can feel that urge to get it on and produce more life.

I feel as though we originally came up with the Goddess Ishtar (pronounced Easter) to give us a metaphor to explain this overwhelming feeling of fertile of life all around us as the seasons change.

We have the opportunity to renew or lives every day, however we often wait for occasions such as full moons and the like to give us a structure to transmute ourselves through. We are obsessed with the timing of things.

The simplest way to encourage our own renewing of our life is to simply embrace the following Karmic Law.

Accept what is, let go of what was and make changes for what will be. 

If we are holding on to the past we are not allowing ourselves to move forward and we keep ourselves stuck. We often want everything to change except us. My biggest continuous struggle with my own path is to make changes in me.

When we accept ourselves for who we are we can become complacent. We can become bored and we seek out something to spark life into us again.

Often we seek out the same old vices instead of trying something new and letting our life become something different the moment we make that choice. That choice sets our subconscious into motion for us to do things behind our back in front of our face to create the desire to change our projection to match the reflection of our desire.

Simply wanting it will bring it to you in a way, a form or a fashion, however until we become what is needed to have our desire it will never live up to it and always leave us wanting more.

This is why I do not support the law of attraction, it seeks to be a work around to actually doing the work to become your hearts true desire to turn the reflections around to match your projection.

Think of it as a character in a film. When the character says or does something out of context for that character, we call it bad film making. Life is about becoming the ever evolving, ever changing character that allows for the pursuit of your hearts true desires.

The Cinematic view simply stated says that our character, our projection of self will allow what story unfolds in our life. Who we show ourselves to be is what allows The Big U to manifest the opportunities to take our character on an adventure.

In my research on myself and what a Taltos is, I came across something that explained me to myself however I did not want to readily embrace.

I was a workaholic most of my life. I liked working 70 hours a week and that it gave me the excuse to be recluse. I like my solitude, always have.

A Taltos never asks for anything in exchange for whatever it is we do for you. We take what is offered and if nothing is offered, oh well. Embracing my being in a world that revolves around getting paid, well let’s say it’s not as easy to accept.

We live in a society of compensation for everything. I did something now give me my reward. Sometimes that compensation is in telling people about that thing we did just because we could. We seek to have our ego stroked and have recognition for being us.

In this time of re-birthing maybe we should slow down and think about what our hearts true desire is and what changes to make in ourselves to become to projection that will turn that reflection around.

The lessons of the past

A memory that once hurt to think about can become a lesson.

It’s often not easy to see the lesson to be learned through the pain that was endured that is attached to that memory. One must detach emotionally from the memory and look at it from multiple angles and examine the depth of the situation.

We got hurt and we hold onto that emotion to stay shallow in our understanding of that moment. In order to dive into the depth we must let go of emotion and attempt to understand what we see as a result.

Grosse Point Blank put it best.

I say forget about forgiving and just accept.

At times the lesson is to see what we survived, not as a victim, as a survivor who was in a situation and found a way out.

That takes strength and acts of courage for some who survive horrific things and find a way to keep on keepin’ on.

I always say “Forget about the hate and heal the pain.”

Often our anger stems from pain. We use the mask of anger to feel strong. Feeling hurt, feels weak at times. We use anger to feel strong and seek retribution.

Somehow we think this will make the hurt go away or at least now they hurt too.

This kind of thinking will destroy humanity.

Big picture view shows if we are all acting like this, it explains the wars and the clear path we seem to be on to destroy ourselves in the name of whatever is the reason to kill this week.

Forget about the hate and heal the pain.

Whisper if you feel me.

The Battle is Won

When there’s nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
One more son
If you can hold on
If you can hold on, hold on
I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know – no you don’t, you don’t
I wanna shine on in the hearts of men
I wanna mean it from the back of my broken hand

I will never know how many people I have actually helped.

I do know that each of them was at a point where holding on felt like an option that was being taken away.

The energy work I do allows me to take the total emotional you in one shot and give you strength and peace and clarity in return. It’s something most Empaths do simply as a matter of their being.

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Most Empaths have a life that has them seeing people coming to them when they are heart broken for a myriad of reasons.

You start to feel old when you have taken on so much and given so much.

It also tends to give Empaths an edge.

People will want to spend time with an Empath and not realize why they are doing it.

They want that good feeling they get every time they are around or talk to the Empath in their life. At times as an Empath you develop personality quirks that discourages people from wanting to be around you.

Every interaction for an Empath has the potential to be a drain on them.

We do it to protect ourselves. If we don’t we spend all our time working out your emotional issues.

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don’t you put me on the back burner
You know you got to help me out
You’re gonna bring yourself down

No one ever says “Yo my life is fucked, however take your sweet ass time to getting around to me.”

We can become even more frustrated when no one seems to see the urgency we feel.

We can feel ignored or even as though we may not even exist.

When we don’t get what we are looking for, what we feel we need, sometimes we can get spiteful.

These changes ain’t changing me
The gold-hearted boy I used to be

My mother tells a story that even when I was 3 and 4 I could just sense she was feeling sad and I would come give her a hug. Being an Empath means I feel what you need emotionally much clearer than you could ever tell anyone. At times a hug isn’t it. At times it’s a hammer shot of clarity.

People will wallow in self pity and misery and the best thing you can do for them is to give them that hammer shot up side the head. It’s not an easy thing to do as we often get a lash out reaction.

Tough shit, if you care enough to be there, you care enough to be honest instead of feeding the suffering.

Love is not always a cuddly thing and sometimes tough love comes in the form of hard truth.

We often don’t want to hear the truth we want to stay in the hell we created for ourselves.

We don’t want to do the work ourselves, we want someone to show up and save our ass.

I got soul, but I’m not a soldier

The difference between a warrior and a soldier is a soldier is ordered into battle a warrior chooses their battles.

Life is a war.

The battles are fought daily and the war never ends.

Life is a war of ideas.

Look around and see the truth for yourself.

Do you fight the battles you are told to fight or the ones you choose?

Your only weapon is your mind.

How sharp is your sword?

Who wields the sword you are?

Over and in, last call for sin
While everyone’s lost, the battle is won
With all these things that I’ve done
All these things that I’ve done

To win your own inner battles at times everyone else has to lose so you can take care of you.

Your life is a culmination of all these things you have done. However this does not absolve the rest of the world for turning their back on you.

No one accomplishes great things on their own. No one.

Anyone in history or in current day that has notoriety for their accomplishments has not done one damn thing on their own. They had assistance, a lot of it.

For you to get where you are you had assistance and a lot of it.

How often do you think about the assistance your life has been given from a big picture view?

How often do you step outside yourself to look at your life?

How often do think about yourself as it was someone else and then think about what you would think about that person?

How can you be honest with yourself if you don’t?

Whisper if you feel me.

You be the Captain

And the men who hold high places
Must be the ones who start
To mold a new reality

If those we give authority over us to rule do not begin the change at the top it takes a lot longer and looks more like a revolution.

That raises the chances of something violent happening.

I’m opposed to violence.

If you look back at the French Revolution it was those at the top who refused to mold a new reality for the betterment of the sum that were executed.

Again I’m opposed to violence and will never support any violent action taken by anyone, though it can’t be ignored that I am a rarity and many people don’t have a problem with violence.

In fact our leaders in the USA encourage it through the wars they send our troops into and ask the American people to support the choice of violence.

The men and women who hold high places must be the ones to start to mold a new reality to put an end to the violence and find solutions that don’t involve dropping bombs and sending young adults to die.

The blacksmith and the artist
Reflect it in their art
They forge their creativity

Film makers, TV content providers, musicians, gun makers and others forge the mentality that comes from the top.

I see the newest gun looks like a cell phone.

It has a handle that folds down and fires two shots.

I wonder how many people will get shot for pulling out a cell phone that isn’t a gun.

If I was a cop I would be scared.

Our obsession with finding new and different ways of killing each other is a direct reflection of the wars that go on for whatever reason.

We have the technology for building non lethal combat weapons. Yet we have people using 3D printers to create firearms.

The blacksmith is merely reflecting what the people who hold high places have in their hearts.

We have a ton of movies and video games dedicated to killing. Celebrating it even. Desensitizing us all to violence.

Even in music there are those who sing to burn it all down or rise up against.

Philosophers and plowmen
Each must know his part
To sow a new mentality

Political pundits do a great job of giving the public reasons to support wars and violence. The press in general.

Philosophers offering their interpretation of world events and why it should be happening or why we should look at going another direction.

They sow the ideas in the minds of many. They also have the power to sow better ideas aimed at finding solutions to help us all get along and see we are all in this together as one world whether we like or not.

We don’t need a captain and we all draw the chart with our every word and thought and action.

I write a lot on the topic of love.

If we are not going to mold a new reality closer to the heart now, when are we?

If we are not going to forge with creativity that new mentality closer to the heart now, when are we?

If we are not going to sow a new mentality closer to the heart now, when are we?

If not now, when?

My dad used to say that all the time.

It takes all of us to save us all.

Normal is just a uniform

There was a time in my life a few years ago that I considered suicide as an option. Here’s why.

I had awaken to my being an Empath and Medium. I lost every friend I ever had and lost my marriage all because I refused to hide being what I am. There were 3 songs that kept me from doing myself in.

WE ARE THE OTHERS by Delain is one of those songs.

Just so you all know, as a symbolic gesture to commit to never thinking about suicide again, I took the dagger I was going to use and wrapped it up and tossed it in a dumpster.

As simple as air in your lungs,
As simple as words on your lips,
And no one should take that away,
No one should argue this
Now with our heads up high,
We’ll carry on,
And carry out,
That we won’t let them get us down
Or wear us out
‘Cause we are not alone…

Originally this song was not written to be an anthem for those who feel different because they are Empaths and a lot of people still don’t get what that is and treat Empaths as if they were crazy.

A big part of my life the last few years has been working with people who are awakening to being an Empath.

I’ve seen groups as big as 20,000 and was an admin in a group of over 1,000.

A lot of people who are full blown Empaths who don’t realize it are often misdiagnosed with conditions such as bi-polar disorder, schizophrenia and others. They are medicated and told they are ill and that something is wrong with them.

If they assert anything else they run the risk of being hospitalized.

I have 2 causes that I dedicate my life’s work to.

Raising the awareness of what I call the Genetic Jump. As I see it we are in the midst of our species taking an evolutionary jump forward. Empaths are just a natural result of our evolution, no more no less.

My other cause is putting an end to Domestic Abuse/Violence.

The abuse does not have to be physical to leave its scars. Many of the Empaths I’ve worked with have also been survivors of domestic abuse.

Every time I share this song with another Empath or group of Empaths, they feel as if they found an anthem to cling on to and inspire them to keep on keepin’ on.

We are the others,
We are the cast-outs,
We’re the outsiders
But you can’t hide us
We are the others
We are the cast-outs
You’re not out there on your own
If you feel mistreated
Torn and cheated
You are not alone
We are the others

I’m not sure if I could ever truly find the words to adequately describe what it’s like to feel so different from so many yet at the same time still be just as human as any other.

Feeling like an outsider and a cast out is something I dealt with on a social level off and on throughout my life. Typical school shit and what not.

It wasn’t until I publicly said “I am an Empath” that I truly began to truly feel what it’s like to feel cast out.

I also found that I was not alone. I have been in several groups over the last few years where Empaths support each other and teach other how to manage our being better and make the gift less of a curse in our lives.

None of you are alone.

Normal is not the norm,
It’s just a uniform…
(We are the others)
Forget about the norm
(We’re the outsiders)
Take off your uniform,
(We are the others)
We are all beautiful,
(We are the others)

Normal is an idea, a dream that never was.

None of us is normal.

We’ve created this idea of what normal is and wear the uniform hoping no one will find out how not normal we are.

You don’t have to be an Empath to feel not normal.

Many people feel not normal.

Fuck normal.

The truest beauty of anyone of us is what comes from within us.

Fuck the nifty flesh suit.

It’s what’s in your soul that brings the beauty from within to the surface.

Whisper if you feel me.

Be the me that is we

IN THE MEANTIME by Space Hog is about the we as much as the you and me.

When I do Soul Readings I channel your higher self and the me becomes the we. It has given me and interesting view to see the world through the eyes of so many over the years.

It has also given me as much appreciation for the we as I have for the me and the you.  It’s being able to this that has me saying 1 and makes 3, you, me and the we.

Think about the relationships in your life. Does your projection change based on the nature of the relationship?

The ego steps back and becomes what will get us through this situation or in essence we cease to be the me and become the we.

This song gives me the reminder of how much more gets done for the sum by the we than the me could ever do. Here’s why.

And in the end we shall achieve in time, the thing we call divine
When all the stars will smile for me
Then all is well and well is all for all, and forever after
Maybe in the meantime wait and see . . .

We shall achieve.

Well is all for all.

Enough said.

We love the all, the all of you
Our lands are green, and sky is blue
When all in all, we’re just like you
We love the all you

Human is human and I don’t care if you’re male, female, hetro, homo, trans, undecided, young, old, and I really don’t give a shit about the pigmentation of your skin, human is human.

I don’t care about religion or what this god or that god or this prophet or this holy fucker over there said.

Human is human.

We are all human and any other label pass that point is egocentric identification to create our individuality and really doesn’t makes us any better or any worse than anyone else.

Human is human.

And when I cry for me I cry for you, with tears of holy joy
For all the days you’ve still to come
And did I ever say I’d never play, or fly towards the sun
Maybe in the meantime somethings missing

We all cry for the same reasons.

No one had tougher than anyone else.

Emotional pain is not a competition sport.

We overcome ourselves more than we overcome anything else and the first one to start with a “What about this person over here…..”

Fuck off and find something better to do with your time.

Human is human.

Sure there are people who do some extraordinary things, however every human is capable of the same thing, doing something extraordinary.

We give our ability to do this away every time we let it be me and you and not the we we can be.

We love the all, the all of you

Find the we in the me and find the way to create better future days.

Whisper if you feel me.

Now never ends, so what are you waiting for

Time is more or a less a figment of our imagination.

We created it to make sense of our memories and to keep track of our lives.

All that really exists is now and it is infinite.

I call it the never ending now or the progressive moment, whatever you want to call it, we’re always in it right now.

RIGHT NOW by Van Halen (Van Hagar) captures the essence of what now is. Here’s why.

Don’t wanna wait til tomorrow,
Why put it off another day?
One more walk through problems,
Built up, and stand in our way ,ah
One step ahead, one step behind me
Now you gotta run to get even
Make future plans, don’t dream about yesterday

Our ego or who we think we are is defined by the things we allow ourselves to become emotionally attached to.

As long as we put off letting it go and hold on to it, maybe we can do something about it tomorrow or when we feel better about it, however for now, we are holding on to it.

We often are what stands in our way due to our unwillingness to let it go and change our view and move forward.

We cling to the past as if it is some sort of shield against what is happening right now.

We cling to the past to define who we are and why.

We cling to the past to avoid making any real changes in our lives and our projection of self or ego.

We spend so much time dwelling on the problem we miss the solutions and find ourselves falling further and further behind in where we think our life should be.

Our life progresses upon the path we lay out for ourselves. We make that path with our words and our thoughts in every moment of the never ending now.

We get stuck when we stop planning and dreaming ahead to revel in the history of who we have been or sometimes lost in it trying to figure out who we have become.

Miss the beat, you lose the rhythm,
And nothing falls into place, no
Only missed by a fraction,
Slipped a little off your pace, oh,
The more things you get, the more you want,
Just trade in one for the other,
Workin so hard, to make it easier,

Life has a flow and a music to it.

When you are in time or in step with the beat of your life, things move well and right along. When we stop we lose our rhythm and find ourselves out of place for what we were heading to before we stopped.

The endless hunger of want is something each of us deals with. I have noticed for myself the truth of the lyrics in my life as it has been and is on occasion.

There is a cosmic alchemy of sort to life.

To get “________” what are you willing to give up?

My old man always said work smarter not harder.

How I’ve used that in life is to realize I have a sharper intuition than my conscious mind could ever think me into or out of. I’m usually as surprised as everyone else by what comes out of my mouth. I trust myself to say what is needed more or less and not worry about offending or insulting anyone, just trusting whatever comes out will be honest.

When we stop to think before we speak it is usually so we don’t have to deal with the reaction or response we think is most likely.

 Right now, hey
It’s your tomorrow
Right now,
C’mon, it’s everything
Right now,
Catch that magic moment, and do it right,
Right now
Right now, oh, Right now
It’s what’s happening?
Right here and now
Right now
It’s right now
Oh,
Tell me, what are you waiting for
Turn this thing around

Whisper if you feel me.

Caught in your creation as it’s seen through your third eye

THIRD EYE by Florence and the Machine is not only on my “ME” playlist, it also is one I use frequently to kick off my “Turn the mirror inward” playlist I listen to each night as I recenter myself. Here’s why.

Hey, look up!
Don’t make a shadow of yourself,
Always shutting out the light.
Caught in your own creation.

Our life, whether we like it or not is something of our own creation. Science has proven in recent years that our thoughts do indeed create our reality. We have a shared reality and that means this world as it is, we created it.

We can keep creating and create better than we’ve done.

Hey, look up!
You don’t have to be a ghost,
Here amongst the living.
You are flesh and blood!
And you deserve to be loved and you deserve what you are given.

So many feel like they’re stuck in the background and no one notices. Fuck that noise.

Too often we question the good things that come to us in life.

Too often we are looking for romantic love we forget to feel the love without romance all around us.

We are love at the core of our souls and to feel the love we give the love.

‘Cause your pain is a tribute
The only thing you let hold you
Wear it now like a mantle
Always there to remind you

If you never cared it wouldn’t hurt.

As long as you let it hurt, you definitely give a shit.

There is no escaping that.

As long you mask that hurt with anger, you ain’t dealin’ with jack shit or letting go of anything.

As long as you keep you there, there’ ain’t nobody that is gonna be getting close to you any time soon . You keep that reminder going so you revel in the pain that gives the reason to get angry and feel powerful.

As long as we own the pain we have a reason to hate.

‘Cause there’s a hole where your heart lies
And I can see it with my third eye.
And oh my touch, it magnifies
You pull away, you don’t know why.

As long as you hold onto the pain that perpetuates the hate there will be a hole in your heart. I look into your eyes and I can see straight into your soul.

Not as cool as it sounds, some of you are really fucked up inside. It is what is and some of you are incredible to look into.

I can see the pain through the hate no matter how hard someone brings it or throws it up as their mask. You can try to lie to this guy all you want and I don’t give two shits how many years you been doin’ it, I see right through you.

When we hurt, we feel weak and we attempt to project strength through anger and rage. We lash out as the savages we are. We pull away from that which could heal the hurt and we don’t know why.

It’s because the anger and rage makes us feel powerful.

Who doesn’t love to feel powerful?

Liars.

I am the same, I’m the same
I’m trying to change.

Carry On

There are few songs I have heard that are what I would call a perfect inspiration of hope.

IMAGINE by John Lennon is one of those songs, however that is not the one we are going to talk about today.

Bruce  Ciccarelli is a friend of mine and the song he wrote, CARRY ON is one I call the perfect companion piece to John Lennon’s IMAGINE. Here’s why.

There’s a light that’s shining
and there’s no denying it’s
burning bright in my soul

There’s a light that’s shining
and the warmth it’s providing
is bringing hope to me
Can I carry on

There is a light in us that we forget to acknowledge. It’s that light from the core that we often dim to fit in. The times I have been at my lowest in life, it was my own inner light that kept me going to just get through another day the best I could.

Too often in life we forsake our own inner glow to trade who we are for who “they” think we should be. Yes the infamous “they.”

Who are “they?”

If you feel like you can’t simply be you around some people, you found “they” or “them” as they are also known.

There’s a song that’s singing
and the words it’s bringing
are ringing loud in my mind

and the songs that’s singing
keeps me believing
in dreams of happy times
can I carry on

There are so many songs that each of us cling to that just seem to make everything better, even it’s only for a few minutes. There are songs that each of us listen to when we hit that point and need some hope and some inspiration to keep on keepin’ on.

And if you feel you can’t go on
I’ll be there to be strong
because together
we’re going to make it through

There’s no shame in needing a helping hand as you help yourself.

As a Taltos part of what I do is work with people as they get it back on track.

As an Empath I often give my strength to those I find in need while I hold the emotional turmoil for them.

It’s what an Empath is and what an Empath does.

When the night turns into dawn
It’s another victory won
and I know
I can carry on

I woke up today and the rest is gravy.

It doesn’t matter what happened yesterday because I survived to make it through to see another day.

For some, some days just waking up still alive is a victory in and of itself.

Break those chains that bind me
Break those walls that confine me
To a world spinning out of control

I often find the chains that bind me and the walls that confine me are my own doubts of whether or not I can do it.

How many Shamans you know that quote Rock ‘n’ Roll as the holiest of holy scriptures?

Another voice has spoken
to heal this heart that’s broken
with words of hope
to carry on

It’s the words we speak with the emotion behind them that can be the greatest healing that anyone could ever need. Our words have more power than we are comfortable with.

It means having to ignore the idea of saying “well don’t take it so personal.”

There are things that should be taken personally and some ignored, however when someone reaches out with a helping hand using words of hope, that has power to help you carry on. Shut the fuck up and listen.

Let it sink in.

Let the emotion behind the words wrap around you and move through you to give you that inspired and hope filled feeling that says

“Hell fuckin’ yes! Not only will I carry on, I’m gonna rock this bitch til the break of dawn and then do it again and again.”

I’m not your average Shaman.

 

Don’t Damn Me

DON’T DAMN ME by Guns ‘n’ Roses is the first song on the playlist simply titled “ME.” Here’s why.

Don’t damn me
When I speak a piece of my mind
‘Cause silence isn’t golden
When I’m holding it inside
‘Cause I’ve been where I have been
An I’ve seen what I have seen
I put the pen to the paper
‘Cause it’s all a part of me

Be it a song or casual conversation
To hold my tongue speaks
Of quiet reservations
Your words once heard
They can place you in a faction
My words may disturb
But at least there’s a reaction

Experience is the greatest teacher there is. We like to share our experiences with each other to show what we’ve learned. We also shape our opinions based on our experience.

How often do you remain silent simply because you figure the person or people you’re around will probably give you some shit?

We start doing this in grammar school and continue through middle school/junior high and on through high school and throughout life. Try and deny it all you want however think about the last time you held your tongue and why.

We often seek to validate ourselves through sharing our experiences and our views with other people in hopes of finding someone else who sees that way too. When we find an opposing view we often too quickly damn people for thinking the way the way do.

Some people say if you have nothing nice to say don’t say a word.

Fuck that noise. I say if have nothing nice to say, make damn sure it’s true. Here’s why.

The temporary sting of the truth hurts less and is over rather quickly where as the suffering of deceit even in lies of omission is cruel and long lasting.

I often think about the words I know will disturb when I am posting a status update on any particular topic and sometimes find myself in debate with someone who I pissed off.

Honestly I just told all of you that most of you still behave as children no matter how old you are. I am self aware and realize that might hit a nerve, at least it’s a reaction and it means there must be some truth to my words.

Sometimes I wanna kill
Sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna destroy
Sometimes I wanna cry
Sometimes I could get even
Sometimes I could give up
Sometimes I could give
Sometimes I never give a fuck

No shit really, me too. Who hasn’t lived this list?

It’s only for a while
I hope you understand
I never wanted this to happen
Didn’t want to be a man
So I hid inside my world
I took what I could find
I cried when I was lonely
I fell down when I was blind

No one ever really wants to grow up.

To grow up and become a man or a woman is put aside childish things and take responsibility for your actions and words.

For me to become a man, I became a father.

I look back at my life and at 25 I was with a woman who was 10 years older than me and she had 3 teenagers. I stepped up and into the role of stepdad. At 25 I took it very seriously. To this day when I run into that woman’s sister, she still tells me I was the best thing that happened to her sister and her kids.

If you want to know what it really means to man up, it means to step and be a father even if the kids aren’t yours. That wasn’t the only time I took on that role and I do have a son of my own.

In life we often find ourselves locked into our own world trying to figure it out and find some way to do something about it. In life there will be tears on occasion, we’re human. In life we will stumble and fall. It’s unavoidable.

Life moves forward, never in reverse and there is no pause button and we get no do overs.

How can I ever satisfy you
An how can I ever make you see
That deep inside we’re all somebody
An it don’t matter who you wanna be
But now I gotta smile
I hope you comprehend
For this man can say it happened
‘Cause this child has been
condemned
So I stepped into your world
I kicked you in the mind
An I’m the only witness
To the nature of my crime

I take a lot of shit for being very honest about being a Taltos and what that means.

It means as an Empath, I know what you’re feeling regardless of what you say or try to show.

As a Telepath I can see into your subconscious mind.

As a Medium there are things without bodies that use my mouth to speak on occasion.

In all honesty, I simply share my experience to show my understanding. Since I started being public and honest about those things above 4 years ago, I lost everything including a marriage. Just the historical facts of my life.

I also spent those 4 years working with many Empaths and teaching them how to better manage the gift to make it less of a curse.

I’m proud of the work I’ve done to help other people simply because I was there and so were they and I just happened to be able to give them what they needed.

There are times in conversations that we miss what someone may have said at the conscious level, however the idea still gets planted and has time to grow.

But look at what we’ve done
To the innocent and young
Whoa listen to who’s talking
‘Cause we’re not the only ones
The trash collected by the eyes
And dumped into the brain
Said it tears into our
conscious thoughts
You tell me who’s to blame

Look at kids these days carrying smartphones and looking down and not looking at each other or talking to each other.

Look at what we teach our young through our example.

Even if you don’t have kids, they see you and want to be like you. It doesn’t matter if you don’t want to be a role model, to any child any adult they see is a role model and you don’t get to choose, they do.

Monkey see,monkey do. What do the monkeys see you doing?

I know you don’t wanna hear me cryin’
An I know you don’t wanna hear me deny
That your satisfaction lies in your ILLUSIONS
But your delusions are yours and not mine
We take for granted we know the whole story
We judge a book by its cover
And read what we want
Between selected lines

I have seen these people who insist the meaning of life is to be happy. Do you have any idea the state of total fuckin’ delusion it takes to be continuously happy?

I do, I tried it and my response is fuck that noise. Life is messy and you are not always going to be happy. Get the fuck over it.

How often do you dig deeper into any issue before runnin’ at the mouth about what you think?

How often to you only pay attention to that which reinforces your view and ignore that which might give you pause?

Don’t hail me
An don’t idolize the ink
Or I’ve failed in my intentions
Can you find the missing link
Your only validation is living your own life

Vicarious existence is a fucking waste of time
So I send this song to the offended
I said what I meant and I’ve never pretended
As so many others do intending just to please
If I damned your point of view
Could you turn the other cheek

No one deserves to be elevated above any other for any reason.

No one else is living your life.

No one else is there when it’s you all alone.

No one knows what you know about you and why you do the things you do. So fuck anyone off who can’t take you being you, doin’ it your way because it works for you.

I realize it’s probably difficult to accept a Shaman who says fuck as much as I do, doin’ it my way anyway.

George Thorogood once said “Rock is supposed to be dirty.”

The true difference between debate and argument is this. In debate you can listen to someone damn your point of view to hell and back and instead of getting pissed off, you find the counter point to their every point. It really is that simple, not easy by an infinite shot, however quite simple.

But don’t damn me
When I speak a piece of my mind
‘Cause silence isn’t golden
When I’m holding it inside
‘Cause I’ve been where I have been
An I’ve seen what I have seen
I put the pen to the paper
‘Cause it’s all a part of me
Don’t damn me
I said don’t damn me
I said don’t hail me
Don’t damn me

This song is one I have been listening to for so long that the lyrics have become a part of how I view the world, though I would choose different words to describe my view.

Find your view in your words that makes sense to you and fuck ’em if that can’t hang with it.

Life is beautiful even at SIXX: AM

Nikki Six is a prolific songwriter as the main writing force in Motley Crue for over 3 decades. As Motley wraps up their career, Nikki isn’t done and SIXX: AM is his new band. When he wrote his autobiography called THE HEROINE DIARIES, well of course he wrote and recorded an album to go with it.

I remember the first time I heard LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL. I heard the road map to life in Nikki’s words. I listen to the song at least once a day. Here’s why.

You can’t quit until you try
You can’t live until you die
You can’t learn to tell the truth
Until you learn to lie

Perfect lyrics filled with absolute irrefutable truth. It takes wisdom to understand the truth of these words. Nikki Sixx is the kind of cat who lives it before he ever puts the pen to paper.

Some would say how could live after dying?

Ever kill your ego?

It’s a metaphorical death of self that leads to greater understanding of who you truly are and what your options are to do something with it.

As the Shaman I am, I had to go through the process of totally destroying my ego and reconstructing it. It’s taken about 4 years and this blog is the result.

I’m a spiritual guide and teacher and it is something that I never wanted to be. I was born a Taltos which comes from Hungarian history and is a genetically born Shaman. The me I had become before I learned this about myself 4 years ago, was not happy to learn this.

To become who I am, I had to kill who I was so to speak. Your ego is the definition of your projected self or to say the idea of you. You can kill that and bring it back to life as many times as it takes to finally bring forth the true you from within. Until you do that, you don’t live, you survive life.

I know some things that you don’t
I’ve done things that you won’t

I’ve noticed something over the years. When someone says I know things you don’t, people tend to get defensive automatically. Here’s why.

You challenge their ego and everything they might hold sacred and dear. To most people the idea of learning something that changes everything is a scary thought. We like to have what we think to be the truth to never be altered because it is part of what gives us comfort in life.

It is our source of strength to an extent, this view that may or may not be totally out of whack with what actually is. The only way to know the truth of any one thing is to detach from it and view it with out bias.

Some say that’s impossible. I have done things that you won’t such as destroying my ego removing all attachment from all things.

The cruelest thing we do as human beings to each other, is to insist that since we ourselves can’t do it or haven’t done it then neither can anyone else. We throw up walls and cast insults on those who can do what we can’t instead of accepting it. We do this out of fear of being inferior.

None is any better than any other. It doesn’t matter what anyone is capable of, they are no better and should never be elevated above the rest. When you do this to a human you inflate their ego and give them the potential to become narcissistic or develop a God complex.

This why I call physicians by name. It’s why I refuse to use any title when addressing anyone. The work you chose to put into your life to become what you are does not require the rest of us to treat you any better than anyone else.

It disgusts me the way our society treats celebrity as demi gods.

I dig Nikki’s music, however he’s also a dad and I would be willing to bet that being a husband and a father has become a bigger part of who Nikki is compared to who he was before that first child was born.

I have watched masses of people quote celebrities as scripture bearing prophets. I don’t see musicians as prophets. They are people with a gift for teaching through experience and then singing about it.

In days long gone it was the Bard and the Minstrel who traveled from town to town to share their tales through story and song to teach and entertain the people.

The modern day Bards have become our rock gods and goddesses and we do this to them unfairly. They are just as human as we are.

 Just open your eyes
And see that life is beautiful.
Will you swear on your life,
That no one will cry at my funeral?

Speaking for myself, looking back at my life, at my funeral there won’t be a dry eye in the house. Some say that is an arrogant fuckin statement. I say talk to people who’ve known me over the years and ask them if it’s true.

How do you feel about your own funeral?

It’s the life you lead and how beautiful you try to make it for those around you that will determine how many eyes are dry and how many let a river of tears come forth because of the hole now left in those lives.

That life is work, it doesn’t just happen, it’s created through the living example of you that you allow yourself to be.

NIN says bow down before the one you serve

As a Taltos, (Hungarian genetically born Shaman) I have a way of finding the spiritual truth in just about anything. You would be surprised how much of our life is spiritually driven even if we don’t think of it in those terms. I am not talking religion, in fact I would like to see every religion wiped off the face of the planet.

Let’s take a look at HEAD LIKE A HOLE by Nine Inch Nails and see if there might be some spiritual truth.

God money I’ll do anything for you.
God money just tell me what you want me to.
God money nail me up against the wall.
God money don’t want everything he wants it all.

“God money” is a concept that we live without even thinking about it. We need money to live in this social paradigm of human existence right now.

What can you do without money?

Think about what it is you put yourself through for a job or to just survive another day for some.

People sell their bodies for money.

We justify selling our lives to our jobs because we need the money.

Some of us never stop doing whatever it takes to get God money in our pockets because we want it all and right now God money is the only way to get it.

God money’s not looking for the cure.
God money’s not concerned with the sick among the pure.
God money let’s go dancing on the backs of the bruised.
God money’s not one to choose

Pharmaceutical companies have been working to keep Marijuana illegal for several decades because it cures cancer and all they do is treat it with expensive drugs and torturous treatments such as Chemotherapy. If you have never seen what someone goes through when they are receiving Chemo treatments, it’s inhuman.

What does it take to accumulate large amounts of money?

Typically speaking you will have other people working for you and make that money off their backs as your slaves. We call them employees and even though it is their work that accumulates our God money we keep the biggest chunks for ourselves and pay them the bare minimum of what we can get away with while worshiping our God money, because as long as we have it, we can do whatever we want.

Get a good enough lawyer and you can get away with murder, just ask O.J. Simpson.

Got enough money and you can make sure you don’t have to pay taxes, ask Donald Trump.

Money is our God in this current social paradigm. Everything is about the bottom line and how much will it make me.

Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Head like a hole.
Black as your soul.
I’d rather die than give you control.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
Bow down before the one you serve.
You’re going to get what you deserve.
You know who you are.

Think of the CEO’s and the like that run businesses large and small. I have seen the same behavior from the guy who owns a local bar or two as I have from the CEO of a multi-billion dollar corporation.

Their head is like a hole, a black hole sucking in everything around them for them. They feel good about the way they don’t have to do jack shit but can tell everyone that works for them what to do or take their livelihood and basically their life away.

Take away a human beings ability to afford to live and you take their life.

Think about the number of massive lay offs over the last several years. Think about the number of people in the USA alone who had to apply for extensions on unemployment benefits.

The rich bitch about the poor living off the government tit when they are the ones who put it in our mouth by taking away the God money and keeping it for themselves.

If you want to bow down and worship the God money, you’ll get what you deserve, that cold lonely empty feeling that won’t go away no matter how many things you buy or fake friends you have because, well you have money and they should be lucky you even let them hang out with you.

If you look at the idea of greed and then look at our current socioeconomic landscape, it’s hard to miss how soulless we are as a people in search of God money.

Do you serve God money?

Nine Inch Nails: Head Like a Hole (Remastered) from Nine Inch Nails on Vimeo.