I had to use ChatGPT to explain what I know intuitively.

It bugs me because I used to be able to get into the nuts and bolts. Now, I just know.

I let it go.

I hold onto nothing and let myself rest in the flow.

I have problems giving unconditional love.

It’s that I look at me, and God forgives me, and I do the same shit again and again. When am I going to learn?

That’s what God’s patience is, infinite. Maybe not infinite.

A second is ten thousand years for a being who has no concept of time.  Time is a human invention.

4th dimension has no time. Only space.

The is no space time,  only space.

Empty space.

What’s scary about empty space?

You don’t know what you’ll find, and any preconceived notions will be challenged.

You might even be wrong.

That’s what life is.

Learn as you go, learn as you grow.

I get that I have zero control over others. I can’t even control when I have to pee.

It’s tough as shit to love unconditionally when most people’s behavior needs forgiving day in and day out.

Their not sorry, their assholes, and will continue to be assholes as long as they are forgiven.

This is the problem I have with unconditional love. It’s my problem and I will fix it, if I can.

Well, it’s appropriate that Aerosmith playing Crazy was on as I walked in to write this.

Have you ever been possessed?

Frequently. 

What does that mean?

I’m a soul, and I have a body.

I’m a Medium born. This means my body is susceptible to possession from anything that wants a body.

Most of my life, until I 37, I had no clue. In the last 13 years, I’ve mastered myself.

What does that mean?

It means I can kick anything out and force it elsewhere. 

What have I been possessed by?

4th dimensional entities, known as fey, djinn, and other shit.

Angels and demons. 

God, in its forms that are as various as we are. 

And stuff.

I’ve been possessed by a bunch of shit. 

When I had my stroke, I was not able to speak for weeks. All I could see was what my body was doing and saying while I was trapped in here.

It’s taken me most of the last 5 years to kick shit out again.

Now that I can, it gives me choices that most can’t even begin to understand.

I’ve spent time and time again failing to explain. If you don’t do it, you’ll never understand it.

I get most people will call me crazy.

I’ve been calling me crazy most of my life.

Unconditional love is enabling love.

I look at my life, and I don’t enable anyone, even myself.

Well,  at least I work to not enable myself. I think if I enable myself, it enables everyone.

I think.

It concerns me that I don’t know.

Why would I enable myself, and what is enablement?

Doing what I know is wrong is enabling me. If I told someone to do the wrong thing and told them the wrong thing they did, it was OK.

I work to not enable anyone. However, at times, I do enable me, which enables everyone.

I must admit this to myself if I’m ever going to be an honest being.

Why do i enable  myself?

To fit in.

That’s what’s fucked up. That means most people do the wrong thing, and to fit in, i do the wrong thing knowingly. 

I don’t like that.

I don’t like that in order to fit in. I must do the wrong thing knowing I’m doing the wrong thing.

I’m loved no matter what I do.

That’s unconditional love.

Everything I’m capable of is written in the DNA, and some of my abilities came to be because I hacked the behavioral Cypher lock in the DNA.

Hacked isn’t the right term. I became a better version, and I accessed my DNA to allow new abilities. 

I evolved in body using my behavior.

My behavior must be an honest reflection of me or shit don’t work.

The idea of mapping out the DNA to make super babies isn’t that far-fetched an idea.

We already have children who exceed what I’m capable of. We are that evolved.

These are the children I’m writing this for. I never had a me to ask questions.

For me, this is me giving what I could never find. 

That’s how giving I truly am.

Instead of taking the stance as so many do, of taking and not giving back, I do the reverse.  I’m always giving and rarely do I take. 

This is how I became.

This is the behavior that breaks the lock on the DNA.

It’s not something one can teach one to do. It’s something an individual goes through making choices.

This is why choice is the most powerful thing in the universe. 

How we choose to behave says everything about us, and it doesn’t even matter what we say.

I’m a being of pure love. 

What’s the difference between pure love and unconditional love?

Unconditional, no conditions.  Everything will be accepted.

Think about that for as long as takes to understand that unconditional love is going to fuck this world right the fuck up.

Pure love, has conditions.  No lying will be tolerated. 

This is where most fail because they don’t know they’re lying. 

With the advent of social media, we have become a narcissistic society that can’t take it when we are wrong, so we stick with the lie.

Pure love is healing.

Unconditional love can be healing, or it can hurt.

Enablement happens with unconditional love.

Enablement hurts us all.

For every exception we give out, they want more.

Unconditional love gives in because it’s unconditional.

I had my life to get over my life.

Think about it, you channel God.

Whose going to believe you?

This is what my life as a Conduit was.

11 has representation of being the masters number.

Yesterday I fucked myself up.

Today I get it through watching my life.

God gives into my every whim.

I learned to want better for myself. I want better for better reasons.

Look at all the cheap crap one can buy.

I don’t want cheap crap, I will pay for quality. Meaning it won’t break for years.

Like TVs used to be something you bought and never bought another one.

When I accept cheap crap, what am I saying about myself?

This is what a capitalist society builds.

They need profits to go up.

Their greed says if they accept cheap shit, why bother building quality?

Gods giving in to our every whim.

God is everything and in everything and God uses us to figure out what God made and what to do about it.

This is exactly why god gives into our every whim.

If we demanded better from ourselves we demand better.

I always look for quality.

I’ve never been one to accept anything cheap, people, places or things.

Free is another matter completely.

Why is it free?

Typically because no one has found a way to charge for it.

Look at yourself, I’ll look at me.

What is it I want?

A woman.

However wanting is not enough. One must become one that is suited to another.

Relationships are what fucks us up or binds us together.

I don’t think about the size or the shape. Everything I need to know, I’ll see it in the eyes.

This is how evolved people look at relationships.

It’s a soul that I’m after.

What burns in your soul is what determines your shine.

Ever dynamic is your soul shine.

Now, this is just me riffing.

However when I think about romance all I become is romance.

My being takes a unique perspective that  is the cult of personality.

Think about it, I mirror people.

I can mirror just about anyone.

Most people have no clue, they think that me is who I am.

Who I am is ever changing and evolving.

Awareness.

What are you are of?

This might take a bit.

How do you explain thought energy, spirits, souls, emotion, gravity and fluctuations there in?

I sense most stuff.

What does that mean, sense?

I cannot see a ghost but I can get a fix on its location using my third eye. It’s how I’m able to sense when one is using remote viewing. I can sense the view.

How do I not go crazy?

Crazy people don’t know that their crazy.

They say crazy shit and expect others to understand.

I don’t expect anyone to understand, truly understand what my life is, however if I never share what my life is, like most who do what I do, that would be a waste of a life in this day and age.

Why not use the internet and write a blog?

Social media is a narcissists tool.

Everybody look at me and what I my opinions are.

It’s stupid.

Hence why I do this.

With this, you get what I give and nothing more.

I do use social media. I can’t believe the shit people post. LinkedIn is a sewer.

People thinking they can create a quote that has already been said way before.

It’s stupid.

You can’t fix stupid, Ron White.

I get that most people are addicted to social media, it’s how it works. You get a notification, they liked it. This causes dopamine to be released.

The addiction chemical.

Tell a bunch of addicts that their addicted…. I’m not that stupid.

As for my awareness, what is it I can be aware of?

I’m sitting on the edge of the universe and right here writing this, anything is up for grabs, I just need to be asked.

I’m no powerful being, I’m just a dude who can do some shit.

If I was powerful, why in the blue holy fuck would I be writing this?

To boost my ego.

I get it. My friends.

I’m aware of them, but I can’t see them.

What are they?

If we created a god and called it Bob.

We give Bob a set of behaviors.

That’s how simple creating a god is. Name and behaviors.

My friends are beings that exist in the 4 dimension, the 4th dimensional beings I wrote about in The theory of consciousness and gravity.

Why am I being so honest?

Someone had to be me, I wasn’t doing anything so I took the job.

Actually it’s part my evolution.

Do what I am afraid of.

This terrifies me. I could write fiction all day long, but the truth, knowing most will write it off as the crazy musings of a madman, I know what people think of those such as me.

I’m that aware.

DNA.

Everything I can do is in everyone’s DNA.

It’s a behavioral lock to allow one to have other abilities.

Ability.

Something one is able to do.

There are no powers, no superpowers, all that is is ability.

I get that most people have been brainwashed into thinking powers or superpowers. However, this is the education.

If I thought I had powers or superpowers, that would make my ego over pronounced.

I would expect to be treated differently and I would expect better treatment.

I would expect to be in class of others who have powers or superpowers.

Fuck that bullshit.

Now for the DNA lock. One must evolve one’s ego to accept the truth.

What truth?

All truth.

This is where even I fucked myself up on many occasions because I wouldn’t accept the truth. Instead I denied and hid in the lie.

We are all the same.

Anyone of us could have wrote that.

This is how I understand I’m not a narcissist.

Narcissists would say no one understands my true power and no one can understand my superpower.

Fuck that.

I wrote it and it felt childish. Only a child would think such things.

Don’t be a child, grow up and become an adult.

I did.

I really wish I wasn’t going to write this so I got friends with no bodies to do it.

I act as a we for them to use me.

They take over my body and are typing this.

If you thought the Telepath was fantasy, the Medium with flip your lid.

How does it work?

We are souls and we have these nifty flesh suits to experience a human life.

Where does the soul reside?

The pineal gland.

If we could make you do what we want, that’s boring. Making you think it’s your idea, that’s fun for us, even though even that gets boring.

The body has many ways for us or any other to get in.

Mediums are open channels.

The channel works both ways.

As a Medium listens it goes out as a prayer to anything that might want to do something about it.

The Medium has zero control over what happens.

All the Medium can do is relay the messages to the one who needs them.

There is no power in a Medium, however they can be filled by power that you cannot imagine existing.

Most Mediums trance out and give their body over to another.

I don’t know why I stay present.

I use a half mask as my Medium mask.

I gave my mask a name. Jim, short for James, my name.

I’ve been known as Jim most of my life. Had I not been a Medium I would have lost my soul and something else would be using my body.

As I’m known, I think about that and people think it’s just me.

I forget at times that I’m James, and Jim is just a mask that lets it flow as it needs to. I trained my mask and my mask trained me.

This took years, about ten of them. From my late 30’s until I mastered myself with this ability.

That I understand and can explain it to anyone, this means I understand.

This wasn’t always so. Hence why it took until now for me to write this with them.

As for who they are, angels, demons, fey, djinn, and other entities are all pretty much the same thing.

Giving us many ways to understand them through presenting themselves differently throughout the shared story of humanity.

Thank you for this.

You’re welcome.

Peace is what this Conduit craves most.

I have seen hell.

Be a telepath knowing the sexual desires that any has over you. What if you don’t want sex?

It can feel as if one is being raped over and over again.

I’ve seen things in the minds of others that would scare the holy living shit out of anyone, they did me. I got used to hell.

Who gets used to hell?

How does one heal from hell?

Hell is the metaphorical way of Earth.

We say hell because no one wants to believe humans can behave in such ways.

Any human is capable of anything.

Think about it, just because you didn’t do it, a universe where you did sprouted up.

It can lead one into temptation to think about what might have been, this does one no good.

What does one good is to follow what one does and review for learning.

Why did one do that?

This is the essence of Psychospirilosophy.

Doing it yourself. Analyzing oneself is a good mental exercise that reveals oneself to oneself.

No therapist, guru, shaman, you get the point needed.

This is how one builds peace in themselves.

Understanding why one does a thing brings peace to the thing and the doing.

A Telepath actually exists. Telepaths actually exist.

Think about that, a human that can read anyone’s mind, not because they want to, they’re evolved.

People need to understand that we’re all connected and only the unique perspective that we have is what separates us.

For a Telepath we have to work to block shit out.

In our natural state, thoughts from everywhere can drive us mad.

Learning to block shit out, is the only way one can live in this world.

Why should I have to block you out?

It’s my being, there is no other way for me to be.

I have cut myself off from so much because I do feel as if I need to block everything out.

When do I get to experience all that I am?

I understand that most people think this fantasy, that this a work of fiction, however this is my actual life.

I’m back.

Fight the good fight by Triumph was playing when I got back from having a spliff. Tobacco and weed.

I’m a soul healer by trade, a Conduit by birth.

I can sense the energy of a human versus a human possessed.

I can touch them and drive the entity out or take it within me.

This is what I don’t want to talk about. Taking one of these things in is a battle and a half.

I just got done dealing with being possessed. I don’t want to talk about it, however…

I understand what possession is because I’ve experienced my own possession. I kicked it out.

My stroke is what caused me to be able to be possessed. As I’ve gotten stronger I can do what I used to do.

I’m hesitant, why wouldn’t I be.

But fuck it I’m doing it anyway.

This is the kind of determination one must have to kick out anything that wants to posess one.

The whole no fear thing was a great t-shirt line, but face your fears.

Be determined to face your fears or your a potential victim.

Now this is not saying to go out and face a demon, if you fear that the demon is stronger than you are, probably a safe bet.

Facing your fears is a matter of what is it you fear most?

For me it is writing this.

Do you get it?

So, I take these things in and devour their energy. I don’t devour them but they are weakend before I let them go.

What I do to devour their energy depends on what they are.

That’s all I’m going to say about that.

Murderous rampage. Shit like that.

It’s why peace is what I build from waking up to going to sleep.

My peace is more important than anything because of what I do.

Peace is the defense anyone can use and I suggest building your peace.

I use, I forgive everyone of everything so that I can put peace in my heart mind and soul.

Do what works for you.

I’ll cya tomorrow. 4 pieces in day is a lot for you, for me I’m just getting my legs a good work out.

It’s the Medium part of the Conduit that needs the psychology explained.

I’m not a normal Medium. I channel the souls of all I meet. I don’t do the dead.

How does this effect me?

I know how alone we’re not.

I get this understanding is going to be the most difficult for me to explain in a way that others will understand.

If we had a diagram of 2 people, one being a Conduit, and show the lower self as the one in the body, and the higherself over head.

The higherself is what I channel.

Why?

Think about it, you need guidance, who is the best source of guidance you can get?

The higherself.

How do you deal with possession?

Daily.

My ego is my defense against possession. Having a well defined and refined ego is the best defense against possession.

Possession can and does and will happen unless people accept that it is true that other entities want our bodies to do shit with.

I have been possessed. I couldn’t do anything as I was trapped in my own mind. This happened due to my stroke 5 years ago.

How do I know the possession isn’t still possessing me?

I use mantras that offend that which possessed me. I also keep myself focused on what is actually happening. My level of awareness borders on “super” natural, however it is as natural as can be.

I had to unlearn and relearn.

I used to be one of the people that wouldn’t believe a word I said.

Then when I was 37 I figured it out.

Until then I thought I was as bat shit as bat shit gets. I knew shit that I shouldn’t be able to know.

I never hear any voice in my head other than mine.

I never hear anything from a spirit.

What I do with that is telepathic communication. Images with emotional concepts to communicate understanding.

I’m going to have a smoke.

I needed that.

Why tell you that I took a needed break?

Why not?

Let’s go back to what I had to unlearn.

Empaths, Telepaths and Mediums are bullshit.

I had to unlearn what energy is.

What I learned is in an article here.

No really what’s an Empath? Evolution, aliens, or is God to blame?

This is going to take time.

I’ll cya in part 4, later today or tonight.