Last night I attended the local vigil held by the LGBTQ held in response to the tragedy in Orlando.

People spoke and reminded us all that violence is never the answer and that we all deserve to be who we are no matter who that is and be able to find acceptance.

To bring it to an end we all formed a giant circle and just took a long moment of silence looking at each other with the intent of healing. There were many across untold number of cities that formed their own rings.

Rings of healing in a time of shock and tragedy.

Rings of people forgetting about the hate in order to heal the pain.

Linking rings together forms chains. We are all connected and last night there was a chain of healing created by all who attended these vigils.

As assuring as it is when we show up in time of tragedy to show our support for anyone or anything, why does it take the tragedy for us to take time out and find some people to form a healing ring with?

Anything we give our energy to we give our energy to.

What do you give your energy to that makes you feel as though you are part of a healing ring in an unseen chain?

How many chains are you connected to?

Leadership is a buzz word too often thrown around by consultants to show what they think they know.

It’s thrown around by CEO’s who still don’t fully understand what it looks like in living action.

Leadership has noting to do with business or governance, it is a quality of being and is a set of authentic behaviors that must be embraced by choice.

You can’t train it and many are born with it only to have it go unrecognized because they have no title, nor do they seek title.

No one can teach you to be a leader they can only assist you in discovering the leader you are when you allow yourself to be as it’s needed by the life you have created around you.

I have a new chain I connected to in The Change Team. A healing ring connected to many other healing rings.

A chain that spreads out like a web with many souls connected in common purpose whether they know each other or not in the flesh. Each speaking well adding to the majick that will bring us to a changed world that is already changing. It’s happening slowly and is picking up steam with every chain of healing rings that connects and simply keeps doing what they do.

We will reach a day where violence against the LBGTQ community will end and we will reach a day where we forget the hate and heal the world wide pain that is the source of the worldwide violence.

You, you may say. I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one.

Our numbers are growing my fellow dreamers and remember

And if you feel you can’t go on

I’ll be there to be strong becasue together we’re going to make it through

When the night turns into dawn it’s another victory won and I know I can carry on

This second set of lyrics aren’t as famous yet, so here is the rest of the song below.

I talk to a lot of people who are desperate to change the world and change it now.

It’s common among those who go through the awakening process to have a strong desire to live in a different world and to take part in creating it. I’ve talked to people from across the globe all with the same life mission. Each one going about it in a different way.

The most common thing I have noticed among these awakened souls, most of them are broke. A lot of them have grown to hate money. They tend to speak unkindly about those who are still in what is.

Karmic Law reminder.

Let go of what was.

Embrace what is.

Make changes for what will be.

There is a lot going on all over the world right now leading towards this “change” in humanity. However we can never forget to embrace what is.

Speak well, live well, talk mad shit, deal with mad shit.

I say that a lot. I like to remind myself.

There is nothing to be gained by holding hate for what is. Each of us wander and no one is lost.

I understand where the anger comes from in looking at the world today for the awakened soul.

It’s anger at yourself for not waking up sooner.

It’s anger at yourself for not recognizing everyone has the birthright to live as they will.

It’s self loathing for not being able to reconcile embracing what is while slowly making changes in the way you live to become an example by living your talk.

Been there, done that, got the T-Shirt.

I was trying to get back to the book this morning however this was bugging me.

I was introduced to Bitcoin recently. It’s an open source stock market of sorts and Bitcoins are security bonds that are used as currency or stock. You have to buy them or earn them or get a handout from someone. Yep, sounds just like cash to me.

It’s the same as money only no banks, however it’s the same game of the haves and the have nots. There’s nothing noble about it. In fact I’ve noticed a sense of superiority or the idea of being better than everyone not using it within the Bitcoin community.

Who are any of us to judge any other?

It is a segregated community because it does take regular money to buy into the new game with slightly different rules.

Money isn’t a bad thing, it’s what you do to earn it and what you do with it. Money is another form of energy and until someone builds something that does not require a buy in as Bitcoin does, money is not going away anytime soon.

Embrace what is while slowly making changes for what will be.

The truth is.

It has infinite expressions.

There’s ways of telling the truth.

One can be blunt in ones expression of the truth or one can take one on an adventure of a story to reveal the truth with a softer touch. One can use humor to soften the blow and even music can reveal the truth with a mind at ease.

The truth is.

It’s not personal and it’s not something anyone can own. These things I’ve said before. The truth is the key to every door. In honest expression of who you think you are is where you find the freedom to be the change you would like to see in the world.

Wisdom is revealed in experience and in learning from it or that of another in how one chooses to live life. The wise are those who follow wise guidance even their own. Why wouldn’t I do for me what I am saying you should do for you?

Empathy is taking that moment to think what if it was me?

The truth is there is nothing new and everything is a rehash of something else.

The truth is you are the story you live.

Live a good story and give yourself memories worth commemorating by sharing them and allowing the story of you to live on through as many who share it.

The truth is each of us is living a tale we never stop telling. Some of us write it down for the rest to read, most don’t and that’s OK.

You are not alone and how long can you run
It’s much to late if you dont know what you’ve got ’til it’s gone
Once upon a time you were a child but that was yesterday
Believed that magic in your heart would never fade away

But hold your head up high and let your spirits fly
Keep hope alive yes deep inside and your dreams will never die

What is it you’re running from or to?

What is it around you that makes you feel the need to get away?

Everyday is a day of growth and learning and we can be the child at the start of everyday and grow to maturity throughout the day.

There is magic and there is Majick. Here’s the difference.

The magic we are familiar with often involves rituals and invocations and offerings to appease gods and stuff such as that.

Majick is the spell you weave with your every word that creates the path you follow in life. Hold the dream alive inside and allow your thoughts to be your prayers and choose how you speak carefully to bring those dreams to life through shared creation. As independent in thought as we can be, we must share in the creation process in order to bring any dream to life.

Oooh take a breath, close your eyes you’re on the road again
And then you realize they’ve brought you back to life again
Something’s never change but if you fantasize
You’ll feel it deep inside yourself and then you’ll realize

When you feel it coming
When you hear the sound
You’ll always laugh when you wanna cry
And then you’ll know it deep inside

When you step back far enough from your life and your view of it, you can find the cosmic joke.

You can find how the life and dream you saw dying is often brought back to life after removing some people from your life so the ones who have a similar vision can step in so you can bring it to life together.

When you have doubt in your dream you will be faced with those who doubt you in the reflections of you that pop up until you learn to say “fuck it I’m doin’ it anyway.”

At times it might require a change in direction in order to make that dream a reality. Often that change in direction allows for others dreams to become as well. The more people you have working together to bring a similar vision to life, the grander that vision and dream can become as it evolves through the Majick of your support and the work you do together.

It does take real work for real Majick. The spell weaving of our words only sets us in motion to allow the Universe, God, whatever helps you sleep better, guide us in becoming the human we need to be in order to do the work to bring the dream to life. The Majick is always in us and is about us becoming the projection of our desire, not just the wanting of it and excepting it to come, the real work of becoming so that your projection will find the reflections that have a similar vision.

Everything I know, what I know is true
Everyone of us is inside of you
We are one
We are one

You are me, I am you
What you see, is all true

I sat on a bench and talked to myself yesterday. It looked like I was talking to a friend of mine. During the conversation we both mentioned it more than once “It’s nice to talk to me.”

We are all connected and given the flesh and the ego process to develop an individual view that allows new and different ways of discovering the same universal or absolute truths, however expressing them in infinite ways.

You are me and I am you and we are one.

It’s “I’m in it for the sum” at the end of the day regardless of the work I do that day for the some that make their way to me or I them or us as one simply finding each other finally.

Far too often we question the simplicity as if it has to be more complex than it is. I work at accepting the simplicity that life can be and when I say simple I do not mean easy.

We are one.

Every generation
Blames the one before
And all of their frustrations
Come beating on your door

I know that I’m a prisoner
To all my Father held so dear
I know that I’m a hostage
To all his hopes and fears

Forget blame and think about taking responsibility for things you have done and do.

Think of it as owning your choices and giving yourself the opportunity to make different ones instead of saying “It’s the way it is.”

I talk to a lot of younger adults mostly in their in early to mid 20’s and I find the number one frustration they have is with the idea of authority. That anyone is entitled to tell them what to do or how to do it. My dad was raised that authority rules and you do as you’re told no questions asked. An idea many my age and older still hold dear as they feel as though it’s now their turn to be the authority.

Many feeling held hostage to ideas an concepts that this younger generation can’t stand and I am with them.

Crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thought
Stilted conversations
I’m afraid that’s all we’ve got

You say you just don’t see it
He says it’s perfect sense
You just can’t get agreement
In this present tense
We all talk a different language
Talking in defense

There are times in life I write things down because I need to get it out and I know that saying it out loud to someone will simply lead to more frustration.  I said it in a piece a couple days ago, for some it would take an act of God to get them to open their minds to something different than what they think they know.

While the older generation tries to use authority, the younger generation responds to leadership.

The language of authority is refusing to budge and refuses to acknowledge much less answer questions about the choices they make.

The language of leadership is always looking for ways to do it better and listens to any who have an idea.

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
It’s the bitterness that lasts

So don’t yield to the fortunes
You sometimes see as fate
It may have a new perspective
On a different date
And if you don’t give up, and don’t give in
You may just be O.K.

As long as we argue, nothing gets done.

There is a very personal meaning for me in this second stanza.

We talk at times about people who sell out. We do it as a matter of judgement because we feel we have the moral high ground to do so. To me there is observation and there is judgement and the two can seem as though they are one in the same at times. I often find what we learn as time goes on can have a profound impact on what it is we thought we observed when then.

I always say “Rest, but never quit.”

Say it loud, say it clear
You can listen as well as you hear
It’s too late when we die
To admit we don’t see eye to eye

It is too frequent that we only listen to find our opportunity to say what we wanted to say and do not allow what is being said to really be heard. We already made up our minds about what we wanted to say and no one is going to change it.

We’ve all done it and I personally work at it as I catch myself from time to time.

We always take for granted that tomorrow will come and we will have another chance at it. We never know for sure what tomorrow will bring.

This song was written by a son to his father. So many children and parents have problems in finding that equal ground. I know at times I still do with my own parents, however I work at making sure it doesn’t get in the way as much as I can.

I also work at with my son to never have it become something that relates to this song.

I work at it.

It takes work and an open mind to attempt to understand their side and find new and different ways of explaining myself.

That’s not with parents alone, that’s humanity and every human relationship regardless of the title we give to the others involved.

Family.

Coworkers.

Friends.

Governments.

It’s the choices we make when we don’t see eye to eye that define who we are in the moment. We can either work at resolution or revolution.

I choose resolution in the living years before it’s too late.

One dream, one soul, one prize,
One goal, one golden glance of what should be,

What should be?

Depends on who you ask.

Each one of us has a dream, that something that if only….

It can drive us to think it’s what should be as if somehow we are entitled to it.

What’s the prize for you?

What’s the goal of what you think should be?

Who does it benefit?

In sessions I often tell people to think about what it is you want most in life and then ask yourself why you want it.

One shaft of light that shows the way,
No mortal man can win this day,

You are that one shaft of light showing yourself the way. Your light illuminates your path and is what projects what reflects back at you.

When you realize it’s not a game or a war you see there’s nothing to win. We have war because we refuse to put an end to the war within. With the martial art I designed there is one core philosophy.

If you ever put yourself in the position to use it, than you need to back track your steps and see where it could have been avoided.

Wars not make one great.

Yoda

You find your own greatness in bringing peace to yourself and being a living example of it. Hardest lesson for a man like me to live. I have a warriors heart. It has never been physical combat that I sought. It was the war of ideas that is the battlefield I chose for my life for many years. As I continue to allow myself to learn and grow through the ever evolving circumstances of my life, I find no desire to even debate these days.

There’s nothing to be won.

An open  mind will listen and ask questions. A closed mind will fight it and there is nothing you can do except plant the seed and walk away.

When I think about the line “No mortal man can win this day” it reminds me we each have free will and it would take an act of God to change some peoples minds.

The bell that rings inside your mind,
Is challenging the doors of time,

The waiting seems eternity,
The day will dawn of sanity,

Time is a location.

A set of coordinates for an event.

All that exists is now and it’s eternal and ever evolving and changing.

Sanity begins in doing something different to get different results.

This flame that burns inside of me,
I’m hearing secret harmonies

Secret, interesting word to me.

The things we keep secret are for protection, whether it be for our protection or to protect someone else. I live a life of keeping other peoples secrets because it goes with the job. Part of what I do is assist you in building your life and figuring out the best way to protect that life you are building. It’s not easy to keep some secrets that you can see will have such a profound impact on the rest of the world. However it has to wait until the world is ready to hear it.

No one is unreachable, they are only on their part of their path that means for now, they are not for you or your message. We each wander and none are lost. We each make progress at the rate we learn from our own experiences. We discourage ourselves more than others when we expect them to see it our way.

There is an art to giving people the small pieces they need in the moment that will allow them to grow at their rate not ours. It is an art that I don’t think any of us ever truly masters. I haven’t and work at it daily.

It is allowing yourself to be led as a teacher by being a student in learning what the needs in front of you really are by listening. Those are the secret harmonies that allow for a connection to be built that allows for greater things to happen.

This rage that lasts a thousand years,
Will soon be done, done,

Rage sown will be reaped.

Rage reaped will hurt and cause untold harm and can and often hits more than you alone.

Too often rage begets rage and on this world it has lasted longer than a thousand years.

Will it soon be done?

How will it come to an end?

One by one?

A big event that shocks the world into peace?

Global annihilation from nuclear war?

There is more than one way to bring something to an end.

It’s a kind of magic

Magic is illusion and slight of hand.

Majick is very real and easier than we want it to be. It takes no ritual, no spells, no wands, no wizards or witches, no incantations, no herbs, no sacrifices of any kind.

Majick in not black or white or gray or any other color.

True majick is as easy as speaking.

Every thing you say gives life to your life.

Every word is felt regardless of it being heard. That’s the majick that makes the world go round.

We all feel we know who is full of it and who isn’t. We like to think we aren’t even though most of us are without realizing it.

It’s the only way I can explain how Donald Trump and Hillary Clinton are even in the running and why Bernie Sanders is favorites of people who dropped out of the political and corporate games and have no special interest to be served as their interest is in the sum, not the some.

That’s the closest you will get to me talking politics for very good reasons.

If we want see change in the world we have to elect people who are not the same thing we have been dealing with for decades.

Don and Hill are the same old same old and Bernie is not.

I’m all in favor of change and I’m sick and tired of the same old same old.

Your choice is your and in this we have the power to condemn each other or give each other hope by the choice of who we put in office.

For my worldwide audience, if one of the first two gets elected, who can I come live with outside of the USA?

Bernie is an end to the rage.

That’s the closest you will get to me talking politics for very good reasons.

I am done with rage and the cage it creates.

Love and blessings to you all.

I won’t let you down
I will not give you up
Gotta have some faith in the sound
It’s the one good thing that I’ve got
I won’t let you down
So please don’t give me up
‘Cause I would really, really love to stick around, oh yeah

I’m in the business of empowering people and assisting them in lifting themselves up to the life they feel belongs to them. When I think about what it would look like for me to let someone down, the thing that keeps coming back is that if I ever quit what I do. I can think of more than a few who have told me on too many occasions to never stop because of what I did for them.

People have invested in me as much as I’ve invested in them in the emotional strength we share. A strength built on a connection of pure love. A connection built on not giving up no matter where your life or mine is in the moment that is now.

I think about the last sound I heard that gave me something to believe in and have faith in. It’s Brother from the Mother ship. He has a powerful voice and the lyrics he seeks to bring to life with his voice are truly inspiring. I have faith in the sound of his music and the trans-formative effect it has already been having on me.

I use music quite a bit to help maintain and re-align my view of life and what I am doing with and about mine.

Each of us has someone or few people in our lives that are a source of inspiration. People who get us to look inward and see what they see in us and encourage us to bring more of that to the surface. My life is blessed to have several who love me greatly and are always bringing better and better out of me by showing me what they see that inspires them.

I work at making sure I’m doing the same for them.

These are the people I love to have around me.

Heaven knows I was just a young boy
Didn’t know what I wanted to be
To win the race? A prettier face!
Brand new clothes and a big fat place
But today the way I play the game is not the same
No way
Think I’m gonna get myself happy

I joined the US Air Force at 17 after graduating High School 6 months early. I had no clue what I wanted to do and the idea of more school was totally unappealing to me.

As time went on in life and I moved from military life back to civilian life I found the desire to win that rat race so many run and to wear nice clothes and live in a nice home.

I had it too.

At 23 I was managing 350 people and generating $30-50 million dollars a month in sales for my companies client after I edited and rewrote some of their sales scripts. My company was getting $2-3 million dollars a month from the client due to how efficiently I ran my phone sales floor as a manager.

Where it all went down hill was a pretty face that broke my heart.

Today I don’t play games, I play the players.

One of my skills allows me to “mirror” people. I have a good idea of their intent and have an annoying way of cutting them off at the pass. It freaks people out when I call them out for what they are doing.

To them there is no way I should have a clue.

I get myself happy when I see the growth take place in front of me as I work with clients. Over the last few years I have worked with more than a thousand people as they worked at empowering themselves to be who they are and find the joy in their life or walk away from the misery. It was more of a temporary partnership and the hardest thing I face on a professional level is often clients want to stay around in my life and I appreciate them each and every one for so much more than that.

It’s bitter sweet for me when they reach that point where they no longer need me. I truly care about each and everyone of them however there are others who need what I do and I move on. What makes me happy is when I do hear from them from time to time and they tell me where they are in life and how much better their life has become.

All we have to see
Is that I don’t belong to you
And you don’t belong to me

As a species we are obsessed with the concept of “mine.”

My parents, my kids, my friends, my car, my house, my cat, my wife, my husband.

The only thing we truly own is our view of life.

Even these bodies we are simply using to enjoy the human ride while we are here before we go back to where ever it is that helps you sleep better at night.

I say my clients at times, I don’t own them, they don’t own me even though they do pay me.

Your company does not own you.

We belong to ourselves and we share who that is because if we think about giving it to someone then we give them power over us. We unknowingly often attempt to take power over others without realizing it.

I think there’s something you should know
I think it’s time I stopped the show
There’s something deep inside of me
There’s someone I forgot to be

Whether we like to admit or not, we put on a show for people frequently in life.

We show them what we think will bring them in and keep them around.

We show them we are here and nothings wrong.

We show them everything except what is going on inside.

Stop the show and look within to see who you forgot to be.

For me, I sometimes to forget to simply be me as I get too focused on work and need to remember the little things I do that often touch lives I will never see in a session however needed it anyway.

You have no idea how many lives you’ve touched or inspired. Most of us have no clue. Were too busy simply being who we are from deep inside to care about numbers such as those.

It’s the number 1 that means the most to me.

Not being number 1, moving from 1 to another, 1 at a time.

Freedom
You’ve got to give for what you take

There are so many ways to interpret this last one that I leave it up to you to tell me what it means to you to give the freedom you take.

I like to step on cracks
I go against the odds

Look at your life for a minute.

When the odds are against you, what do you do?

While you think about it, here’s what I do and why.

I’ve always been one to like it when the odds are stacked against me. It started when I was a kid playing with the kids in my neighborhood. We played war and chased each other around with toy guns. It was usually the other kids against me until it had to be the other kids against me.

I like to look at going against the odds as the opportunity to bring forth my best in the situation.

To this day I accidentally sneak up on and scare people after learning to move quietly as a kid playing a game.

What is it in your life that you feel the odds are against you?

What is it going to take from within you to beat those odds?

These are questions we ask ourselves daily without thinking about it in these terms. We think about what need to do in order to do what we want while taking care of our needs at the same time.

Your needs and wants will be different than mine and that’s a good thing for all of us.

It inspires people to see others step out and be the underdog. You don’t do it to inspire them, that’s a side effect of finding within whatever it takes from you to reach that goal or bring that dream to life.

I leave when others stay
I never re-decide

Think about it from the aspect of what you feel is holding you back from bringing the dream to life.

At times it requires us to leave jobs, marriages and/or friendships behind.

Once you choose a goal, changing your mind is the fastest way to make sure you never reach it.

I often find the most confusing thing for me in life is narrowing down the options and finding the best course to make the dream a reality. Often we allow ourselves to be pulled in many directions as we figure out where that path is to take us on the journey we want to take.

Think about it for yourself for a while.

What do you need to leave behind to move forward?

I don’t mind if you wait
But I don’t waste my time

Patience is my biggest challenge on a daily basis. However there is a time to lose ones patience based on the circumstances one finds oneself in.

Often we find ourselves saying I’m waiting on this or that in order to do this or that. We give ourselves an out to sit back and wait for something majickal or miraculous to happen.

I tend to write a lot. Here’s why.

I’m always finding inspiration that “moves” me to write. It comes in many forms. Each of us is inspired to do something by something. Following that inspiration takes work. That work can have some aspects to it that at times feels as though it is in the way of us doing more of what we want.

That work is what you were inspired to do. Instead of wasting time arguing with yourself over it, just do it.

I wear a Nike hat to remind me of that.

I remember when it used to be easy
I remember when it wasn’t so hard

When I worked in the corporate world it was easy most days. However it didn’t start out that way. I had a learning curve.

It got easier because I had a defined set of parameters to work within. I do some of my best work in doing the work for other people. I find it’s easier for me to use the guidelines others need fulfilled than my own.

My problem is I am aware of what I am able to do and often try to go in every direction with it at once. I think a lot of us go through this. We see all the options and know our capabilities and don’t want to limit ourselves out of fear of missing out on something.

I won’t justify
The way I live my life
‘Cause I’m the one livin’ it
Feelin’ it, tastin’ it

I have no problem explaining it, however justification implies you’re doing something wrong.

Only you ever truly know what feels right to you and why.

When we allow other people to tell us it’s wrong to live the way we do, it can be for a myriad of reasons depending on the life we are leading. It’s not about us, more often than not it’s about them.

We often project our own issues on other people. When I see some one working at the life they desire, I ask what I can do to be of assistance.

Asking each other to justify the lives we lead is how we know we are not comfortable with our own life. If you are focused on your life and building your life you don’t have time to worry about what others are doing unless it directly affects you.

That’s not a license to ignore people. It takes other people to assist you in building our life. It takes being willing to ask for assistance.

With the type of work I do, it’s new to a lot of people. Mediums channeling the higher self.

I get it, when I realized it’s what I do, it was a little freaky to me too and I do it.

One thing I have been searching for is a business manager who understands what I do and can translate that to people who don’t understand it.

I have found me talking about it leaves people with mixed reactions. Here’s why.

We have a habit of wanting a second opinion or to hear about the experience someone else had. We have trust issues as a species. Me included.

We want a history or proven track record or we fear we are going to be taken advantage of.

We want something concrete we can see or touch for verification.

None of you has been on this side to see it from my side. A lot of you can’t even imagine what it would really be like to be a Medium. Sure we have some stories and movies and TV shows we use as reference instead of talking to the people who do it.

None of us has been on your side of it with what you do and why you do it the way you do.

Does it frustrate you when people ask you to prove yourself?

Honest question.

It is often frustrating when we feel as though we are in a never ending cycle of proving ourselves over and over again. It can feel as though we never stop paying our dues.

We all go through it and it often can lead to leaving behind the naysayers to embrace the people who get it and offer us support in a myriad of fashions.

The line between need and want is easy to allow to become a gray fog a mile wide.

Last night as a crowd of young adults got out of a cab, I observed their character in nothing more than a glance.

To prove me right 2 of them ended up coming over and talking to me and what I read in a glance was confirmed.

I read people that fast.

I read your soul energy which is the totality of your emotional self in the moment.

I never get details, I get an emotional imprint of who you are not what you have been through or are going through.

I don’t know you or your life experience however I understand who you are underneath all of it.

It’s what allows me to assist you in creating the true projection that is you underneath the scars of life experience.

The Law Of Reflection says the mirror always lies.

The people around you reflect who you are projecting and you reflect who they are projecting. Neither ever knowing the totality of each other and the experiences that shaped who you are projecting.

The Law of Reflection is based on making the needed changes in you to allow the life you desire to be reflected back at you.

You become your desire.

For a Brother of mine that is becoming something he has been looking for. What that is going to do for his life is going to be an honor and a privilege to be a part of.

With what I do I rarely get to be there as that life you dreamed of unfolds.

The majick that is my life is being able to watch the growth that will open the door to that hall of mirrors. It takes love and pure intent to really be what some one needs versus what they could be for you.

It takes setting aside your wants and at times your own needs. What that looks like is always based on what’s happening and what brought us to this place.

The greatest reward makes an impact and the greatest impact is never made in your life alone.

To reap the greatest reward one must sow with purpose and intent and exercise patience to allow the seed to grow.

We sow our lives with every word we speak whether we like it or not.

Our true intent is always felt regardless of the words we use or the mask we wear.

Every one of us could benefit from having a business manager to assist us in the business of managing our lives.

That person that is not only there for emotional support, they also understand your vision of the life you’re creating in becoming what you desire most.

More like a life manager.

That’s not always going to be someone you are romantic with and at times it’s better it isn’t.

The partner you share your bed with is there to ground you as well as assist you in shining bright.

We all want to have someone to share our bed with and when we find one that brings out who we were too afraid to be we find other people to assist us in being that while we look forward to sleep with the one who inspired it.

We have many partners in our life that we assist as much as they assist us.

What I’ve always needed is what I do for other people.

What I’ve always wanted was someone to do for me what I do.

I’m having it reflected back at me, what I’ve become and the clarity of my projection is why I’m at peace with my life as it’s unfolding though I’m two steps away from hitting the panic button.

Faith isn’t faith until it’s all you’re holding onto.

Faith and belief are two different things.

We want to believe.

We need to have faith in ourselves first and in others as they results come in to build it.

Blind faith can and sometimes is rewarded and usually isn’t as blind as we pretend.

Nothing happens by chance and every circumstance is an opportunity to grow.

I am wise, however I’m not overly educated.

It always seemed to me that the sign of true intellect is not what you have studied, it’s in expressing yourself in a way anyone can understand.

It’s not in making it so complex they rely on you, it’s in making it so simple they don’t need to rely on you.

With every single client my goal is make sure you don’t need me in the fewest sessions possible. I have worked with people for months and some years and some in one session.

It all depends on you and the work you put it into you before we start and the work you do as we work together.

I need clients.

I need a manager.

I want to keep pretending I can do it on my own.

We all want to pretend we are doing it on our own.

I’m done pretending.

Give me what I could never ask for
Give me the drug you know I’m after
Connect me and you could be my chemical

Think about it for a minute.

What is it you want but could never ask for?

I have a few things on that list and I understand why each of them is on that list. I use myself as an example to create a connection through understanding. Though the experiences are different the lessons learned are often the same.

What is the drug I’m after?

I self medicate using coffee, dark chocolate almond milk, nicotine and marijuana.

Each a drug.

Each of us has a list of drugs we take and don’t even think twice about because we associate the word “drug” with substances.

TV is a drug.

Facebook is a drug.

Porn is a drug.

Movies are a drug.

Music is a drug.

Anything that causes a chemical change in the brain is a drug and is mind altering.

Sex is a drug.

Exercise is a drug.

Yoga is a drug.

Meditation is a drug.

Prayer is a drug.

Anything that causes a chemical change in the brain is a drug and is mind altering.

Any questions so far?

The drug I use other drugs for, the thing we all chase no matter how we do it is bliss.

Not love, bliss.

We search out for that blissful feeling that makes everything perfect no matter how fucked things might be. When you find that in a conversation, it’s a drug once experienced that is very difficult to let go of.

I’ve noticed people who get that blissful feeling from me often have a hard time letting me go.

For example there is a woman I’ve tried to kick out of my life who still reads all of this stuff. She did not provide that same blissful feeling in return. It was all work to put up with her.

There is no bliss within her so she has none to share and instead looks to feed off the bliss of others. My inner bliss is a connection to the universal consciousness. It’s a sea of never ending bliss that I rarely allow myself to remember I can experience at any time.

Bliss is a drug.

You can’t ask for bliss.

No matter what it is you do, the real drug we are all after is bliss.

I am the bliss for others that I seek for myself. I became what I desire most and find the ability to find it everywhere no matter how bad things might be around me or how other things may seem.

As I become my desire the mirrors of that desire keep popping up to remind me I made it to the room my projection has opened to me.

I have attracted nothing. I have even seen it everywhere I go in who talks to me and who doesn’t. I see it in the conversations we have. It’s why I feel the law of a attractions is a lie and the law of reflections is closer to the actuality of life.

We reap what we sow not what we want.

Our thoughts create our reality not our desires.

Our desires shape what thoughts we allow.

Our thoughts become the words and actions that are reflected back at us.

What is it you want so much that you would become it to have it in your life?

Figure out what that is and you found your purpose in life.

Only you can figure it out for you.

I am a man who walks alone
And when I’m walking a dark road
At night or strolling through the park

When the light begins to change
I sometimes feel a little strange
A little anxious when it’s dark.

The light we become is born from our darkness. We put things in  our darkness we would not want the rest of the world to see out of fear of being judged and seen as if there is something wrong with us.

We always walk alone in our darkness whether we walk the streets or take a stroll through any park. It doesn’t matter if it’s day or night our darkness is always around us.

 Have you run your fingers down the wall
And have you felt your neck skin crawl
When you’re searching for the light ?
Sometimes when you’re scared to take a look
At the corner of the room
You’ve sensed that something’s watching you.

No one likes to be watched unless they have put themselves at the center of things. When we sense the unseen taking interest in us it can sometimes bring about fear. You feel it there, however you can’t see it or touch it and it can be unnerving.

I always say that if there was a personification of God it would make God the ultimate stalker. That idea of something or someone ever present ever watching is a scary one when we are not at peace with who we are and the things we do when we are alone.

However we always get a sense of the people we meet.

We are spirits wrapped in flesh and we are all connected.

I say everything in existence is a face and facet of what God truly is. We have a lower self that enjoys all the pleasures the flesh has to offer. No matter how dark the desire is, the flesh can find a way to enjoy it.

The higher self is our connection to what some call the Universal Consciousness and I call the Big U. I call it the Big U because it’s all of you in spirit. We are a hive mind that takes the form of flesh to enjoy what individuality is and can be.

 Watching horror films the night before
Debating witches and folklore
The unknown troubles on your mind
Maybe your mind is playing tricks
You sense,and suddenly eyes fix
On dancing shadows from behind.

At times setting ourselves up to be scared can be fun.

A scared woman will cuddle closer to the one next to her.

A scared man will cuddle closer to the one next to him.

I’ve had a lot of conversations about Majick recently. Real Majick not illusion, not some long forgotten secret art, something we all do every day in every way without realizing it most of the time.

The Universe manifests for us and will allow us to think we are doing it ourselves and play into our ego expression.

This often leads many to feeling as though they are Wizards or Sorcerers or Witches and for some, they go off the deep end and think they are a god or a Djinn or something other than human.

We want to feel as though we have the power because we fear being weak. Funny thing is the ultimate power in the Universe is choice. Our choices create the path before us.

Karmic Law says and science has proven, our thoughts create our realities.

I forget who I was talking to the other night who said “Our thoughts are our prayers and our words our spells.”

Wise words and a simple way to view the Majick we all do.

When one becomes their light, they leave their darkness behind.

For me, I am a recovering sex addict. So for me I became a Tantra master in order to leave my desires at home and I go out in search of growth, learning, friendship, family and pure love connections.

My darkness is nothing for any to see except those I become lovers with. I have no need to be a lover with every woman and I’m not into men. I’ve thought about it, simply not my thing. However I enjoy hanging out with gay men, they tend to be entertaining. They also have strength and courage as many of them came out to families who don’t get them.

I respect them, they have been through some shit and probably take more than they should from a world still homophobic.

What’s to be afraid of?

I often find those who experience homophobia are often denying the desires they have within them.

Courage is not the absence of fear it’s knowing you’re afraid and saying “Fuck this shit, I’m doing it anyway.”

“I’m going to be me anyway”

“I’m going to talk to ______ anyway.”

“Fuck fear!”

It’s finding a way to do what you’re afraid of not because the fear is gone, you do it because you refuse to let fear run your life. I often find on the other side of my fears is the life I never would have thought I could have.

It’s scary to do what I do in this world as it is. It’s scary to tell the world “I’ll give you the benefit of what and who I am and what I can do without ever asking for anything in return.”

My desire is to never let fear make my choice.

My choice is to stand, face my fears and do it anyway.

As for what I keep in my darkness, my peace and my side of bliss.

It’s what creates that bliss in the light I choose to be. I give all that I am to any around.

Tonight I’m taking my Magic cards out to hang with some new friends who also play Magic: The Gathering. I’m bringing bliss with me, the bliss I find in allowing my higher self to connect me to the bliss all around and within us.

I’m also looking forward to kickin’ some ass on the table.

If you’re going to play a game, play to win. The only game I play right now is Magic: The Gathering and I look forward to the gathering around the park bench tonight.

I go out in the dark because there is nothing fear but fear itself as JFK once said.

I’m also nocturnal and I spend most of my day giving my energy to my parents so they can do what they need to do. It drains me all day long and I sleep off and on through out the day.

Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a constant fear, thought you heard
Fear of the dark, fear of the dark
I have a phobia that someone’s always there.

I find comfort that there is always something or someone there. Understanding we are never truly alone and that loneliness is nothing more than a choice.

What are you afraid of?

Face your fears.

Whisper if you feel me.

When I go out to do what I do I strap my boots on. The boots I wear I received 24 years ago in June. They’re my basic training combat boots from the Air Force.

I thought about using the song THESE BOOTS ARE MADE FOR WALKING, to tell this tale, however I found the song has no relation to me and my boots.

I walk all over no one and see no reason to ever to do that.

I walk to people and I walk away, to walk all over is to insist the need for vengeance or vindication or a sense of victory.

The victory is when the war within comes to an end and you can walk away because there is nothing to fight or fight for.

I wear my boots to remind me of where I came from.

To remind me that the Air Force taught me integrity.

To remind me to walk my talk.

To remind me to live my integrity.

I am in an entirely new line of service to the people and the land and my boots help me remember that.

Friday night a Brother reminded me who I was and who I have become when he said “Warrior Love”

I replied “I am on the pure love mission but you stay on warrior duty.”

It’s a new role for me. I have a warriors heart and always have. However the time for me came to be nothing more than a teacher and a guide. I am no healer and I am no protector and I am no longer the warrior I was.

I’ll confess I have studied martial arts for decades and I have the ability to rip an attackers throat out based on the warrior I was.  I am not interested and if I could, I would forget everything I know about physical combat, all combat for that matter.

I’m a Hippy with a Rock ‘N’ Roll heart. A man of peace. A man of love, the pure love the world needs more of. I’m not even interested in debate.

My style of fighting for my life these days is to simply say here I am and if you can’t hang with me, walk away, because I am going now where.

I find the people who have a hard time being around me are fighting their own war and I have no desire to be apart of it. Instead I like to help people see how to end that internal conflict as this reflection has no rage to project.

There is a difference between standing your ground and refusing to move and fighting.

Look at Gandhi.

A man of peace who never fought, he stood his ground and refused to be moved. If I am in the home of another you bet your ass I leave if they ask.

However stadnin’ out on the street, I am not going anywhere. I am going back again and again. I found a new favorite Friday night place to hang out and talk to people outside. It upset some people who like to use it as their personal feeding ground.

Feeding off the energy of others. Me I find my presence negates their feeding.

Like it says in HUNGER STRIKE, I won’t feed on the powerless.

Some people have no problem feeding on anyone and the powerless make it easier and sweeter to stalk. There are Empaths who like to feed off your light to fuel their dark desires.

They often make themselves the center of things and show off and draw attention to themselves.

When you watch someone trying to feed all night in this manner it’s pathetic. You see how hollow they are allowing them selves to be the mirror of your light in order to feed on you.

It’s disgusting.

It’s the lowest form of using the gift it is to be an Empath.

It’s inhuman and vampiric in nature. These would be the energy vampires you hear about. Nothing more than Empaths who have decided to feed off the energy of people without giving back.

I stood my ground Friday night and did no fighting. I stood my ground and ruined the feeders feast and I will be around to make sure that one never feeds around me again.

I don’t have to fight, I just have to show up and let it flow.

A Taltos is often their communities early warning system, feeling what’s coming from a mile away giving the community time to prepare. In history a Hungarian King was thought to be Taltos as his early warning prepared the country to fight off would be invaders who thought it was easy pickings.

I wear boots to remind me to live my integrity and walk my talk.

I’m a Hippy with a Rock ‘N’ Roll heart.

I look back at the free love movement from decades ago and I can clearly see why it failed.

Today I wander about and talk with many and the common theme is psychedelic drugs and taking that kind of trip to expand consciousness and awareness. For me total sobriety is what most describe an acid trip as.

I was born with that total awareness.

The drugs are a cheat and a shortcut to use instead of doing the work. I’ve spoken with many who have taken so much LSD that it has forever changed them and not in helpful ways.

Cosmic Alchemy 101.

To receive one must give.

When we shortcut it we give up chunks of ourselves to what or whoever we are using to shortcut it.

Some use sex.

In fact there was a guy, you know someone who will fuck you because they can, that was selling sex as a way to super-consciousness with the idea that a man should only orgasm once a year.

Quick biology lesson.

For men it’s actually healthy to orgasm several times a week and reduces prostate swelling over time. It actually keeps the prostate functioning better over time.

Another part of Tantric art is to self induce the orgasmic state alone with out the pay off. To me that’s selfishness to only experience growth on your own for yourself.

The free love movement of long ago included fuckin’ anyone because “Hey man it’s all about the love so why not?”

Here’s why not.

In sex we exchange pieces of our souls with each other. Over time we become ingrained into each other and telepathic communication increases. When we give our bodies to whoever, we’re creating a chaotic mess within us and sharing those we have taken on with whoever we are exchanging pieces with now.

We are the sum of all we take on and in.

We fracture our soul and give away facets of our soul in exchange for a fuck, an orgasm that we feel entitled to because it was consensual and it was legal so why not.

You can damage your soul to the point where no matter how good you look on the outside you need to take on more and more from others. What does this look like?

We don’t always exchange the best of us for the best of them. Often one gets the best of it and the other is left with the rest of it or worse yet, left feeling hollow as if there was no return, no exchange.

People who use people for their good time rarely if ever give anything back. They take and take and take.

The other night I set myself with the intent to give pure love. I received it back up until I met one human. After that I had nothing left to give as this human unknowingly drained me out. They thought they were doing me some good and it backfired.

The intent was a good one, however they made an assumption about what I needed instead of talking to me to find out.

Then I was led into an environment that for me is harmful. Again an assumption was made without finding out why I stay outside and don’t go in.

Again the intent was to attempt to assist me, instead it injured me and required I take protective measures to protect myself.

I often find myself in position to teach other teachers and guide other guides. I often find myself showing the masters that they have become masters for themselves and need no further teaching or guidance.

If you think about the idea of community and mix it with the idea of it taking a village to raise a child, you begin to see that a lot of what we think of as a good time is harmful to the community and the children born from it and in it.

A child conceived while in altered states brought on through the use of drugs and alcohol will have a profound effect on the child created. Who you are in that moment has a profound effect on the child conceived.

Our essence begins with the emotional state in it’s totality of our parents, we are the essence of them preceding our existence in conception.

Being free with love negates protecting oneself, being free with sex gives pieces of ourselves away that may never be found again.

To me it has nothing to do with morality and everything to do with understanding how energy  works.

It has nothing to do with being a downer on the party and everything to do with understanding the cost of the so called fun.

We grew up waiting for our turn to get drunk, throw up and be somebody.

We grew up waiting for our turn to take Acid or Mushrooms or DMT.

Personally I want to try Mushrooms and DMT, however I will never touch Acid.

It takes a village and this is what our villages have been producing. People, human beings hell bent on destroying their bodies, minds and souls because it’s what they grew up watching.

Whisper if you feel me.