The Idea of the Deconstruction of the Human Condition

The idea of deconstruction is not a new one. Taking something apart to see how it works. Studying the smaller parts to better understand the sum and how all the parts work together.

To understand yourself you must deconstruct yourself and understand everything that goes into you being you. What are all the parts that go into the projection of self that is your ego or the idea that is you.

I like to explain things as simply as possible, using the fewest words possible. I like to work under the idea that if you can’t explain it simply in your own words than you don’t get it. That’s my way of saying

“Don’t expect me to quote other people much.”

I began the deconstruction of me when my 3rd wife had told me that her friends didn’t like the way I spoke. I had a habit of sounding authoritative in everything I had to say, leaving little room to question the content based on the delivery in my tone and posture.

I asked myself why I spoke this way all the time.

The beginning of the answer was readily available as the memory of working in a call center for the third time came up in my minds eye.

While I was in training at United Healthcare, I was told I am the expert and to not sound like I am the expert causes the customer to lose confidence in the answers I’m providing to their questions. I later became a supervisor and would coach my representatives on their delivery using this concept. During the 4 years of 40 or more hours a week of speaking to people this way, it became my normal way of speaking.

Our environment does have an effect and sometimes a profound one. My ego had developed this form of communication due to the environment that paid for my life. It also happened to be the environment I spent the most time in during the years I spent there. Answering this one question was just the beginning of the deconstruction of me and why I speak the way I do.

I am a nonconformist by nature. My dedication to myself to be an individual and to never go along with the crowd comes from my Hungarian DNA.

I did some research and I was happy to find out there are millions of people who live life from this rugged individualistic view. However for me, the only Hungarians I had ever met were my mom’s side of the family.

My mother is the youngest of 5 female Hungarians with a Hungarian father. My grandfather was a brilliant man. He was a WWII veteran of the United States Army. A decorated veteran who was a warrior to the core. He was well known before meeting my grandmother to be a bar brawler. If a fight broke out in a bar my grandfather might have started it and even if he didn’t he was going to get in the middle of it.

The first time my grandparents met, they didn’t actually meet. Grandpa had grabbed Grandma’s purse to hit someone with. They met a week or two later and in that first meeting Grandpa told her he was going to marry her. 3 Months later they were married.

My mother and all 4 of my aunts are brilliant minded women. They married very intelligent men, all of them. When I was a kid, I was the kind of kid who read the encyclopedia for fun.

I am that kind of brilliant myself.

At 9 I was reading Bruce Lee’s Jeet Kune Do. At 4 my dad caught me watching an advanced economics class on public access and then I turned around and explained it to him off the lecture portion alone.

There is a legitimate reason I feel comfortable being a teacher and a guide. However it wasn’t until I took this journey started by my 3rd wife’s questions that I learned just how different I really am and how intelligent I am. It’s why I thank her now for the hell it was then to find the reasons why I was such a pain in her ass in simply being me.

Even as a child I spent most of my time alone and liked it that way. In fact the only times I ever felt lonely was around other people. I felt that way because I never really fit in unless I blended into the background. I had to work at not talking in order to be accepted.

In the time I spent by myself I was often engaged in mind feeding exercises or working on the martial arts stuff I read for 3 years from age 9- 12. I was creating my own martial art based on the formless ideas Bruce Lee had opened my mind to at 9. I practiced alone and no one has seen my form accept one time when I was 14. That was the last fight I have ever allowed myself to be in.

I didn’t like what happened later that day after that one fight at lunch. In the physical education class I was in the kid I had fought was in that class also. When his name was called another kid yelled out “YEAH AND THAT SMALL GUY OVER THERE KICKED THE SHIT OUT OF HIM AT LUNCH!”

I felt how humiliated he was and after that I never wanted to make anyone feel that again. I failed for many years at that, however it was never a result from engaging in physical violence to this day.

I am 41 as I write this and I am proud of the fact I have never had to hit somebody or get hit by someone.

I have continued my study of martial arts over my life in various forms and in spending time with martial artists who have studied a variety of forms, never telling them I had my own form I had been working on since I was a kid. I had no interest in showing it to them or in sparring to prove myself. I know I can defend myself if needed and I work at making sure it is not needed.

Unlike my grandfather I chose to become a man of peace. Typical Hungarian choice. However like my grandfather, I did choose military service. I spent 4 years in the United States Air Force. Those 4 years had a lasting impression on my projection of self ever since.

Arrogance speaks from a place of what a human being might do or might be capable of.

Confidence speaks from experience of what a human being has done or is doing.

I never want to be a man who sold it because it sounded good at the time or because I was trying to provide a new way or some crazy ego driven shit such as that. I don’t see myself as anything other than a human being who just happened to be born with this intellect and the life to maximize it’s potential, however in true Hungarian fashion, I did it my way and not in any traditional fashion.

My self dedication to being an individual is what led me here and understanding why I always felt this way from the core of my being was a journey I wasn’t even close to ready to take until I was 36.

The answer to the question who am I and what can I realistically do about it led me on quite the journey indeed and I doubt even I can sum it up in a few words. As you can see already it’s a complex answer with many facets to examine. You’re not that different from me in that regard. We are the same. The sum total of our life experience and what we have decided to do with and about it and is who we are right now.

As simple as we would like life to be, we are complex creatures who take refuge in simplicity. Life is complicated at times and often it’s a complexity of our own design that serves a purpose we may or may not understand until we take the journey to know ourselves to understand why it is so complex. Your web of complexity is certain to be different than mine, even if we share the same types of experiences that taught us who to become now and why.

Our identity and sense of self is never set and always in a state of refinement and never has a set definition.

One of my earliest memories was when my mom took me to see Star Wars in 1977.

While many day dreamed of becoming Luke Skywalker or Han Solo, I had picked out Obi Wan Kenobi as my favorite. He let Vader kill him. He could have won the fight, but decided to sacrifice his life for something bigger than himself.

Most 3 year old’s would not have keyed in on that, I get that, I’m odd. This film also solidified my love for this medium of storytelling and I have seen over 5,000 movies. I have dyslexia and ADHD, making reading a chore instead of the pleasure so many others find it to be. If there’s a film version, I’ll skip the book every time.

As a child I was watching post apocalyptic films such as The Planet of Apes series and Logan’s Run and was understanding the concepts buried within. I watched cartoons as well and it was the exposure to Anime in the form of a cartoon called Star Blazers that I found a cartoon I got in the deeper concepts and ideas being explored. I was also a big fan of Robotech for the same reason when it hit the USA when I was a kid. I’m still a big fan of Tom & Jerry and the Looney Toons. My tastes are as eclectic as I am.

What I always found fascinating in Merry Melodies, as it is also known, is that the characters such as Yosemite Sam, Marvin the Martian, Elmer Fudd and any “antagonist” character were often not that smart and easily defeated by their over confidence in every circumstance. Just as Tom was often outsmarted by Jerry, Bugs and crew had a way of making the opposition look stupid.

What does any of this have to do with deconstructing the human condition?

Each of us is a make up of everything we have been exposed to whether we like it or not.

Think of it like this. I was learning at an early age that to hunt for sport was stupid. I was learning at an early age to be a bully was stupid. I was learning at an early age the only weapon you need is your mind and that it’s better to out smart them then try to beat them at their own game.

It’s why I always say “I play the player not the game.”

In studying the oppositions tendencies, they show you how to beat them while you sit back and watch. The opposition is often confident in it’s strategy and rarely uses much imagination as it believes itself to be superior or it would not have engaged in the activity to begin with. This is often due to a history of getting away with it.

I have noticed frequently in my life that when facing a bully, standing up to them screws with their heads. Refusing to play the part of the willing prey for them seems to make them stop in their tracks. It confuses them.

While not always, I have found many who take the bully approach are not that smart. I have also noticed that it typically stems from feelings of inadequacy and insecurity. The activity of putting others down or pushing them around or emotionally abusing them is often done to make the abuser or bully feel superior and reinforce their ego projection.

I have often found myself in the right place at the right time to teach the bully a lesson. I use my mind and I never engage in violence and refuse to do so. I live life by one rule.

Stay out of jail and if you like it, do it again, if you don’t then don’t do it again.

A simple rule that makes some complex situations easy to walk away from. If I continue on this track what is the likelihood I could end up in jail?

Anytime violence is involved or the threat of it, the chances you will end up in jail go up. This to me is a good deterrent. I have heard enough stories from those who have gone to know I will not enjoy the experience.

The understood possible consequence is enough for me. Some people have no problem thinking it will never happen to them or have no issues with going to jail or prison. I am not one of them. Here is why.

I love my freedom. I love that as long as I am out of prison my life can take really interesting turns at any given moment in time that can lead to some fun. I have explored the concept of the possible turns my life could take behind bars and I did not like any of them in just the idea of the possibilities.

Why take chances if you are not willing to face the consequences for your choices?

It’s why one of my favorite questions is why do we get mad at the cop for catching us?

What was it that made us think we didn’t deserve to get caught?

What made us think we were above the law?

What does that say about the psychological make up of the career criminal?

What does that say about the individual who only occasionally breaks a law here or there?

What does that say about you if you decide to break a law and think you should get away with it regardless of your reasoning?

I learned at an early age that if you didn’t caught you wouldn’t get in trouble. However I also learned that a falsely accused man can still serve the time.

I was going to a Baptist school for 1st through 3rd grade. During that time in the United States beating a kids ass with
a big wooden paddle was not considered child abuse, it was called correcting the child.

At this school whenever somebody just said I did something wrong, that was all it took for me to get paddled. On many occasions I had done nothing wrong and was not believed. I was beaten anyway. At times sent home with a letter to be signed by my parents to make sure I got spanked there too.

At one point after listening to me, my mother told me to tell the principal that they were not allowed to spank me any more.

The next time some one made something up to get me in trouble, I told this to the principal who called my mother. She verified what I was saying was true and then he asked her to come down to the school to spank me herself. To this day my mother feels guilty that it ever happened, any of it. I’m over it. It showed me at an early age that it was OK to stand up for myself even if the results ended in a beating anyway.

I switched schools and went to a public school starting in the 4th grade. The physical abuse had stopped and I was about to get a lesson in emotional abuse that set the course for the rest of my life where sarcasm became my trademark for too many years.

For the next 3 years of elementary school the other kids liked to a play game called “how long will it take to make him cry?” I heard every kind of insult and was happy to be going to a different junior high than the rest of my class.

I never had that problem again and those who tried met a razor sharp wit that still has yet to get my ass handed to me, though I came close a time or two.

It was my childhood that heavily influenced the father I became and continue to refine.

By today’s standards thankfully this behavior by the Baptist school is considered child abuse. I used to spank my son. Not hard, just enough to get his attention. I stopped as he got older and we could talk it out. His nick name is The Dude and no it is not because of the film THE BIG LEBOWSKI. At the time I had not yet seen the film. I got it from a friend whose children my 2nd wife and I provided day care for while I was going back to school online to get an Associates Degree in business management using my G.I. Bill from my time in the Air Force.

I use the nick name as a form of behavioral identity management. I attached behaviors to what it means to be The Dude. It includes things such as saying please and thank you and being a friend to everyone.

It means not being rude and other things we have all agreed are proper behavior for getting along with other people and obeying the rules.

Since my son was 4 instead of punishing him, I spend roughly 90 seconds reminding him what it means to be The Dude and he auto corrects and seldom acts up or out. He’s 11 now and is one the most well behaved and well adjusted kids you would ever want to meet.

I have yet to have other people complain to me about his behavior for any reason.

In fact when we were going through the terrible toddler stage and I was a single dad at the time, I would pick him up at daycare and see the behavior of the other children his age and realized he was easy in comparison. He has had his moments, however they have been few and far between and nothing any other kid including myself didn’t do from time to time.

He needs his reminder on occasion and he goes right back to being him. I look at who he is becoming and feel good about applying behavioral psychology the way I have with him.

He is taking his 3rd musical instrument and is in wrestling in school with his mom. It’s why I feel good about where he is as I write this. He has 2 half sisters that are older. When he lived with me he missed them a lot. I know they missed him too. His step dad is a decent man and fellow veteran. Army instead of Air Force and a decent human being. I am happy she married him. I don’t miss her. She is a decent mother.

Next.

As you can see giving my sons ego the concept of being The Dude gave him parameters to use in behavior that leaves him with plenty of room to explore who he can become. My son and I have few shared interests and I never played a musical instrument or got involved in athletics. I am proud him.

I love seeing him being his own person instead of trying to be what he thinks I would want him to be or what I would have been. I can’t help but to feel this is also a result of being the rugged individualism embracing idealist I am. I want to him to find his own identity and be his own individual as much as I want to be mine.

It is a distinct difference to the relationship I had with my father. For years my dad was upset that I never went into his business as a contractor. I have heard many stories from many sons whose dads wanted them to be the replacement version of them in society once they were gone.

Their idea whether they knew it or not was of having some sense of immorality. I carry on through my seed. In some ways I am doing the same thing with my son only instead of being a carbon copy of me I hope he does stuff because he really wants to or likes it and not just because he thinks it will make me happy. As long as he faces the consequences for his actions honestly, I will always be a proud father.

Now I have never wanted to be the “do as I say not as I do” kind of dad. My own dad was like that and I still call it the Hypocrites Oath. Since becoming a father I have made a lot of changes in my own behavior to be a better example of walking the talk to my son and his sisters, my stepdaughters, who had chosen of their own free will to call me dad. I am not saying I have been perfect at it, however it is at the front of my mind.

Would I want my kids to see this or do this?

If the answer is no, I either don’t do it or make sure they never find out. I am still human and have my things I like to do that are for adults only.

However I make sure those activities are never witnessed by them. If they decide to do some of this stuff once they turn 18, cool, I can’t say shit. That is the exact attitude I took once I turned 18.

I was in the Air Force and there was no way I was ever letting my parents tell me what to do ever again. I had been looking forward to that moment once I realized legally they could never tell me what to do again.

Most of this behavior is stuff we have agreed we shouldn’t do in front of anyone much less kids.

The biggest change for me in becoming a father was giving up drinking and realizing I had been an alcoholic. I had an easy time giving up booze.

The military had taught me the value of self discipline while at the same time creating the alcoholic I became. I still have yet to receive any addiction counseling nor have I ever gone to any meetings for any type of addiction. I found once I had fully committed to the decision it was easy. However there have been rare occasions when in troubled times the idea of a drink has crossed my mind.

Understanding why you do the things you do gives you the opportunity to be prepared when someone starts to question the intent behind anything you do or say.

The only thing I truly know is myself and I work hard to understand why it is I might be doing or saying anything. This exercise in self awareness and understanding oneself before responding to anything can be very revealing about the rest of you as well.

I say to know and understand thyself is to understand the rest as well.

Even in my stubborn as any mule individualism, I must still accept the universal truth that I’m as human as you are and that means there are some basic things we all share in common.

I am not that special in my humanness, even though I have found myself to be uncommon in the way I have embraced it and the decisions I make about what to do with it. I shy away from adoration. It makes me uncomfortable. I am not any better than anyone and I dislike being elevated by other people in the view they sometimes take of me.

While I acknowledge that my chosen representation of who I am is not typical by a long shot, I do hold that it is an absolute truth that any has the potential to be as I choose to be.

It is all about the choices we make in our every word and thought and action. The beauty of it is that you don’t have to become as I am. There is a lot of work that goes into being this guy that some might not want to do and that is quite OK. Having free will means having the gift and the right to choose what kind of existence you have.

There are things that are beyond our control that will happen at times. However it’s in how we view looking back that tells us about who we are right now. The emotion we attach to the memory and the rationalization we give for choosing that is our choice and that choice can be changed at any time.

I have often been known to say “There’s only one thing for sure about me, and that’s nothing’s for sure about me.”

The most beautiful gift each of us has as a human being is the ability to grow and learn and become something more than the sum of our experience based on what we choose to do about and with it.

The only true constant in existence is change. Change is the basis for existence. If there was no change there would be no existence.

Evolve in your thinking, evolve physically or die out. Evolution is life, life is evolution. The Universe is in a constant state of evolution and becoming and so are we not just in life but as a species.

While attending the private school they gave us tests. My reading comprehension and other comprehension scores were at the PhD level as it was the highest score they had. If it doesn’t make sense to me it doesn’t make sense.

I was left in the same grade and when I moved to public school they refused my mother’s request to have me tested for advance classes then known as the G.A.T.E. Program. I never did well in school and while the other kids were still trying to figure out the concepts we had just learned, I already had them down and was using them as a springboard in my internal thinking of what I could do with these concepts that was far beyond anything going on in the class.

I was already doing probability figures in my head.

I was 7 when I first started these self guided mental exercises.

The thought never occurred to me that I was that different and I thought everyone did it and kept it to themselves. To me I was normal. To my teachers I was lazy.

My mother also asked I be tested for ADHD and was again denied and I was labeled lazy. I was bored and could never see the value in doing homework the way it was prescribed. In junior high I failed math classes because I was trying to rewrite the math. In high school I nearly flunked out my junior year and went to a continuation high school for kids with behavioral issues and pregnant teens.

I was allowed to work at my own pace and no homework. I graduated 6 months early and hung around to cross the stage with my friends at the end of the year. During that time I got involved with student government and became the student representative for my school at the board of education meetings. That early lesson I got about standing up for myself was about to piss off the entire school board in one fatal shot.

During one of the meetings, we were going over the teacher’s policy for the district. It was the rules the teachers were supposed to be following. I noticed several things that I had witnessed being ignored and led to my failing classes and said so.

I spoke my mind and called out the schools where I had attended that I saw this happen before my very eyes and I suggested that the board be more concerned with enforcing this policy than the policy itself from the student perspective. They were not amused to be hearing this from my 17 year old
mouth.

Did I mention I am infamous for calling it like I see it regardless who it might upset?

It’s a behavioral trait I still embrace today. Here’s why.

It is my belief that right makes might not the other way around. I also truly believe that nothing can stand against the truth. I take my stands based on careful consideration of what is the right thing to do in this situation and why?

I had an ex girlfriend tell me once she only argued if she knew she was right. She was studying to become an attorney and I won maybe 2 arguments during the year and a half we were together. It is guidance I have been using for more then 15 years as I have picked my battles knowing I had already won before I ever started.

Why set yourself up for a loss if you can help it?

People have wished me dead for this more times than I can count. I am intelligent and capable of explaining my point in a way that it can not be denied other than you don’t like it. It’s a skill I’ve worked my entire life to master.

I got early training with my mother’s Hungarian sisters and their husbands and my cousins. Let me see if I can explain a typical family get together for this group of Hungarians.

In this family when we get together we share what we’ve learned about the world and how we think it could be done better in the craziest, yet most intelligent fashion I have ever seen.

If you were going to run at the mouth you had to be prepared to explain where your view came from. You had to be able to show how you came to it through experience and your own choice or you were summarily dismissed an no longer allowed to talk.

It was explained that unless you take the time to examine it and have some basis tied to it in experience that led you to think this way you were a slave to whatever anyone might try to sell you. It’s a thought process I used to listen to when I was 5 and they thought I was sleeping.

The education behind the arguments I overheard and eventually joined in included the following areas, philosophy, real estate, psychology, economics, political science, being debated by college graduates in these areas and a school teacher turned text book salesman, brassy broad, Air Force Vietnam war officer, housewife, contractor, 2 of them and whatever the rest of us were into at that time.

I had a lot of really intelligent and well educated by school and life human beings to mold and shape who I became before I entered the United States Air Force at age 17.

Hungarians at the genetic level have a predisposition to be in the never ending quest to quench the never ending thirst to learn and still be an individual. The military was going to be a test of that. Over the next 4 years I did find a way to fit in and stand out at the same time.

At the core of my being I am a protector. This happened due to a traumatic experience I had at age 5 where I was unable to protect someone. The trauma set the course for everything I studied in martial arts to be able to protect. Because the individual I could not protect then was a female child, I am protective of women and children.

Something I have to check myself on even to this day. If I see a woman in trouble I dawn my cape as Captain Save a Ho or put on my armor and mount my horse to save the damsel in distress.

I have gotten better about it over the years, however it is still known to add a complication to my life here and there.

Most of my friends are women and most of them have endured some form of abuse physical and/or emotional at some point.

I went to basic training at age 17 after my parents signed a waiver to let me go 2 and a half months before my 18th birthday. I had never really been away from home and never on my own before this experience.

When I think back to the day I swore my oath, I can almost hear it as if I was there again. I remember thinking about the words I spoke. I understood what I was saying and the commitment I was making and who I was making it to.

In my own words I would say that I swore an oath to the land and the people of this country to defend them against all enemies both foreign and domestic and that I would only follow lawful orders and I would be expected to know the difference and act accordingly.

My oath wasn’t to the government, it was to the land and the people.

Long story short, there was a time in basic training my mom had been calling the base to check on me. When the instructors called me in the office and told me to go call her, I asked them if the others were going to be able to go too. They said no. I asked why should I be allowed if we aren’t all going.

I had shown I understood that in being there, I was a part of the flight not to be singled out for any special treatment regardless of whether or not my mom thought so. I showed my ability to put myself at the same level as the other young men around me going through the experience with me. To be fair to my mom, I had just spent a week transitioning to a new flight after spending a few days in the hospital with strep throat.

I had been technically recycled to a new flight and from day one of training they programmed it into us that this was our biggest fear. I had not failed at anything, however I had spent one day too long in the hospital and had missed too much in the way of training to stay with my original flight.

My instructor who had to send me out of his flight was not happy to be doing this. I’d been a good airman and I wasn’t being disciplined. The only thing I had done close to wrong was get sick. I would like to say it softened the blow and didn’t bother me. It did bother me.

Psychologically speaking I had been in a traumatic situation forming bonds with the people around me for mutual support. I say traumatic due to finding it traumatic to have people screaming in your face on occasion. If you enjoy being on the other end of having yourself, your family and the family pets insulted in creative ways at high volume a few inches away from your face, seek help.

To maintain ones military discipline and learn to let it roll on by as if it was nothing was one way of preparing us to stay level headed in the midst of chaos. I knew it was a game of psychological breakdown and restructuring and played their game their way because I had sworn an oath to do so.

I understood what was happening around me was exactly what I signed up for and there was no sense in complaining. Logic said, I signed on the line and my ass was no longer mine. I could plainly see I was not being singled out unless I made the mistake of sticking out.

Everyone was getting yelled at from time to time. There were no blanket parties and I did not hear about it happening while I was in the Air Force. We were never threatened with physical violence and every instructor I had was a decent human being with an incredibly difficult job to do in a short period of time.

The men and women who I spent time with at Lackland AFB from June 16th to August 7th of 1992 were absolute professionals. From the instructors to the staff at the hospital and every enlisted person and officer I dealt with. I unknowingly at the time could sense the dedication it took and the time lost with family to make sure these 50 guys who never met, turned into a cohesive unit able to manage their own morale and support each other to ensure every one made it and do it in 6 weeks.

The men and women of every service branch who serve as basic training instructors have one of the most demanding jobs I have ever seen and one of the most important jobs in the United States military. When the veil dropped on graduation day and they could let up, we saw the more human side of the Godzilla’s that had been breathing fire down our necks and in our faces. I knew it had been a game of sorts and these were master level players I was honored and privileged to learn from.

I started smoking cigarettes at age 13. The first time I lit up it was as if I had taken my first real breath. I didn’t cough or get queasy, I had just found the only best friend and life long addiction I need. In basic training I was not allowed to touch a cigarette much less smoke one.

I left Lackland on August 7th and arrived at Keesler AFB in Biloxi Mississippi and by the end of the day I bought a carton and a zippo. I was there to spend the next 6 months learning to become a Wideband Equipment Systems Specialist. I didn’t know what that meant at the time either. It’s why I was at Technical school until February 13th 1993.

Don’t worry at some point this abstract journey will make sense. I am left handed and right brained and live in the abstract. These were the things I had to revisit to understand who I became later and why.

I found out after coming back to school after taking a couple weeks of leave to go home that sometimes it’s better to shut up than tell the truth. The entire student population at Keesler was given two weeks off around the Christmas holiday. I flew home for the first time in six months. It was fun seeing people and at the same time, I saw why I left this small college town to begin with. I was happy with the decision I’d made and was happy to go back to school.

Before I left I had folded a pair of pants over the back of my chair and draped the shirt for my uniform over the back as well. When I returned I found out they were going to give me a letter of counseling for this. I challenged it with my training manager who referred me up to the chief training manager. He had told me that none of his managers would have written me up for that, if that was indeed all that was wrong with my room.

He asked if I was calling his managers liars. I said “No sir, you are.”

He was not amused. About 15 minutes later I had moved to the commanding officers office and had been upgraded to a letter of reprimand. I lost off base privileges and the ability to wear civilian clothes for the next 6 weeks. I was also assigned R.M.T. which technically stands for Remedial Military Training and was known by the students as Rakes, Mowers and Trash. My mouth cost me good on that one.

I fought the law and the law won that time.

When it came to my studies I was put through 3 months of accelerated advanced electronic theory and then 3 months of learning the equipment I might see out on the job. It was there I learned what Boolean algebra is and how to convert digital to analog and back using conversion math, using Binary, Oct, and Hexadecimal.

I learned the design of the modern day signal that is used for every form of communication there is and how to manipulate it in a myriad of ways. It was my job to know how to do it and they trained me well.

Everything I was learning was just more conditioning of this human to be what the Air Force needed me to be. We often condition ourselves for events in the future with no real understanding of what our life is leading us to. We do this so that we are prepared in the moment for what ever that moment turns into.

Believe it or not this is still answering the question as to why I speak to people the way I do regardless of venue or who they think they are in the moment.

How we say it is often more important then what we say. How we speak says a lot about us to the audience and their view is out of our control.

At 18 years old the Air Force shipped me to Patrick AFB in Cocoa Beach Florida. I took advantage of the fact that from my second floor dorm room, it took me 5 minutes to walk to the beach. I fell in love with being this close to the ocean. I have never slept better than I did those months with my window open hearing the waves crashing on the beach. The nights I had trouble sleeping I walked along the beach working out whatever it was that was keeping me up.

I’ve always used self cognitive therapy to understand what was going on in my life. I’ve always found time to talk to myself and see if I could get and keep my head on straight as the most valuable time alone anyone could ever take. It is in these self therapy sessions I adjusted the behavior seen by the rest so that I could better fit in and be accepted by the crowd I found myself in.

While I like being alone, I like getting along when my life does require I be around people.

I’ve always been something of a chameleon in viewing life like this. Though one place I didn’t really blend in and my sticking out worked in my favor was at the Inner Room.

It was a strip club a few miles from the base and a couple blocks off the beach. I’d never been to strip club before and with my Christian up bringing I felt like I was getting away with doing something wrong, which of course made it even better in my opinion at the time.

If you think I’m about to tell some wild tales, wrong answer, please try again. The experience I had as I look back is typically Hungarian in my interactions with these women, many of whom adopted me as a kid brother.

Hungarians are known for both respecting and lusting after women. What this created in me is a man who feels guilty about finding women physically desirable. What that looked like was an 18 year old maintaining eye contact with half naked women a few nights a week for a few months.

I always notice the physical attributes that I find visually pleasing, however I still respect those attributes belong to a complex human being. I feel bad about the idea of fantasizing about a woman.

I did a lot of asking questions and listening with the women of the Inner Room. Many of these women would shoot you in a dark alley and never ask a single question if they didn’t know you. It was a dark side of the life they led doing the job they did at the time. I met veterans, college students working towards a PhD is psychology, single mothers doing the best they could and others. In fact some of them were doing exactly what they enjoyed doing for a living.

During the many hours of education I was getting the lessons they were teaching became some of the most valuable things I ever learned. They taught me how to be a man women would want. They told me all the behavior that made women want to walk away. As the Air Force had just got done teaching me what it meant to be an Airman, these women were teaching me what to took to be a man.

I remember the one recurring theme in these many hours of education was confidence. As human beings we respond to confident people. Whether or not people think you are confident begins with how you speak and your body language as you do so.

A lesson introduced by family by example.

Explained by women in a strip club.

A reminder in the form of a job and a lifetime of just doing it without ever stopping to remember where I even got the idea, much less how it became the way I talked for the most part for most of my life.

I wear a Nike shirt for a night shirt and have a Nike hat I wear on occasion to remind me to just do it, whatever it is.

It was a lot of things over time that when my 3rd wife asked the question when I was 36 that started a journey that had me wondering why I do all of the things I do, the deconstruction of myself had begun.

In answering one “why” I had answered several others and being me it was something new to learn. The challenge of learning who I had become and why in the totality of who I am became an obsession. I can honestly say I had become obsessed with who I was and why I was they way I was and why so many people for the first time seemed to really have a problem with it. I learned it was basically my 3rd wife who had the biggest problem with it.

Had she never had the problem with who I was, I never would’ve taken this journey and I will always be grateful for the time we had for what it was, regardless of some of the things that happened that made ending it the healthiest thing either of us could do for ourselves and each other.

I still tend to speak with confidence and come off authoritative at times. I’ve noticed how people react to it and work diligently at toning it down to better fit the moment and the context of the surroundings and who I am engaged with and why.

I have learned to adjust my projection to get the reflections I desire to notice and turn around. I adjusted my projection to allow the room of mirrors that is my current life to rarely have a distorted view. The reflections these days are clear. I had to drop certain people from my life and noticed it was my unclear projection of self that is what they were reflecting back at me.

I had finally unlocked my myself and became my key to the door that led to my authentic representation of self and freed me from the prison of attempting to be anything less. In order to find acceptance we often create a prison that is the image of self we project that is not who we truly are.

It’s why so many say “No one gets me.”

Please complain, but only if you have a solution

A complaint not followed up with a solution is whining.

A complaint followed up with a solution means you have a valid complaint. Here’s why.

If it can be fixed then something is happening that is causing stress. This stress is causing an emotional stir in the ocean within. This stress could be showing up in physical symptoms.

This is about emotional and mental health not about anything being right or wrong.

What is causing the stress?

Why is it causing stress?

What can realistically be done to change the situation to discontinue the feeling of stress?

When I was working in the corporate world I was asked since I had seemed to think I had all the answers to go with all my complaints to do something about it and was given the project of redesigning the operating model for customer service for a fortune 100 company.

Using this as an example let’s walk through my thought process and see if we can find the holes.

Most of the complaints centered around not enough face time between supervisors and representatives and supervisors taking up to 30 escalated calls a day.

Before redesigning this model I was such a regular at the bar I went to after work that after I had stopped going for a year, I made it one night and before I could even open the door my usual drink was on the bar waiting for me.

Anyone think this is healthy behavior?

I was stressed out because my people were in my face about needing my time and my bosses were in my face because my people were in my face. I was getting yelled at 30 times a day by customers. I was not the only one. It had become the norm in the call center.

Most of my leadership material came from the my design model to make it better for everyone involved. The solution I came up with was to add something old and give it a twist. A few years before I started at the company they used to have a lead position to assist the supervisor so they could focus on the people.

Adding the lead I added defined roles and responsibilities for us to work in a synergistic union with the core idea being training the lead to be me. I always felt part of my job was to train my replacement and if I was as good as I could be I would have more than one waiting in the wings for when I moved up.

Adding the lead gave me more float time to float from representative to representative to check in and see how they were doing. It gave me more time to get to know them as human beings and see the stress they were under and gave me opportunities to alleviate that stress if possible. With this company I had spent a year on the phones as a rep and understood the pressures of the job. Did I mention it was health insurance customer service?

When dealing with peoples money and their health empathy was at the core of everything we trained our people to provide our customers with. Taking my favorite interview question and my favorite answer to that question left me with some integrity to walk.

What is willful ignorance and how is it abusive?

To be willfully ignorant one has to choose to ignore what is presented before them.

This is often a result of not wanting to deal with whatever it is they are choosing to ignore.

One who refuses to deal with things abuses themselves and projects that abuse into the shared reality.

The abuse comes in the form of self talk that allows for harm filled behavior to continue.

We are all connected and what we do to ourselves is felt by all on the subconscious level. It’s easy to make the decision to ignore that fact of existence.

To ignore that fact allows the one making that decision to ignore the actual harm they do and to be selfish in their desires and use many rationalizations and justifications for it. This is where the idea of earning more than others and just playing the game as it is comes into lay to absolve one of guilt.

The problem is life is not a game and the score some rack up comes at great cost for many so few can elevate themselves in willful ignorance.

Willfully ignoring that in order to climb in status one must crush others to do so and hold them down with everything it takes if they want to keep their status.

This is what makes social media so dangerous.

If you look around at all of your social media outlets from a detached view you will note it is more of a popularity contest than anything else.

Otherwise why would we keep track of how many friends, connection, followers we have?

Why even have a mechanism for counting likes and stuff?

Without the intent of producing the result, the result is hierarchy based on social acceptance or to say it’s high school rules. If you aren’t one of the cool kids, well the cool kids will push you out and work at making you see just how uncool they think you are.

You can watch the flocks as they metaphorically french kiss each others assholes.It actually gets to be kind of sickening to see. Here’s why.

They do it for image and don’t really give a shit as long as it keeps their post flowing and the numbers going they will kiss any ass they have to. If someone disagrees the flock moves in to help them ignore and bury the opposing view in a layer of asshole french kissing.

For me I see it and I see everything wrong with the world. I see grown ass men and women acting like scared little children in front of the world showing exactly how loving and caring they are not unless you agree with their every word. If not they choose to ignore you and hope you go away.

If you blow smoke up their ass and praise and praise them they will return the favor and blow even more smoke up your ass for the sake of their online image.

Here’s a fun fact about Max.

I am an Empath.

What that means is that I am so sensitive to emotional energy I know exactly how they feel behind the words they try to use to mask it. You leave an energy imprint as the energy transfer from the keyboard into the cyber world where it is stored and kept. Any reading it will feel it whether they know it or not.

It’s why I pretty much know how people feel about my writing and what I have to say in comments where ever I might be leaving one or a few regardless of what they say.

Any Empath will pick it up the same as I do. I laugh at when people think they can hide how they feel when the worst way to keep anything from an Empath is to try and repress or suppress the emotion, we key on that the hardest.

It’s why Empaths are so adept at calling bullshit and never missing.

Even more fun is if the emotion is aimed at me I can feel it even if we never speak or see each other. I may not know who you are, but I feel you.

Ignore that fact if you choose, however it doesn’t stop it from being true.

An Empath is reading everyone all the time because there is no real off switch. There is only narrowing the focus and if an Empath is focused on you in a discussion, they know everything you don’t want them to.

If it’s a Telepath you are dealing with, they have a good idea of what you are going to do before you do.

A Telepath is in your subconscious mind.

Ignore that fact if you choose however it does not stop it from being true.

The first person you abuse when you choose to ignore is yourself. That abuse spreads from you in your behavior to live your choice to ignore. Your words and actions will abuse anyone who drops the veil of that willful ignorance and allows you to see the abuse you inflict.

Willful ignorance is delusional behavior in psychological terms. Delusion behavior is not healthy behavior.

Academic Vs Experienced

Just who in the blue holy fuck do you think you are?

That is the question that can can come up when we hear or read something we don’t like.

It is usually something that is counter to what we hold dear as far as knowledge and/or understanding of it. No one likes to be wrong and it is difficult to respond instead of react. Before one can respond one has to let what was said sink in and think about it to attempt to understand why it was said as well as what was said.

One who refuses to let it sink in reacts from a defensive stance.

The nature of the question itself is to discredit the source so the message can be ignored or fought.

Debate is a fight.

If you can’t provide a counter and choose to ignore what was said you have shown how exactly how true it was and you lost the fight.

Currently the most important war on the planet is a war of ideas.

A war with many sides as there are many with ideas to be heard and evaluated.

A war has one rule, win at all costs.

That’s what war is.

The planet is going through an evolution of thought.

This is what fuels the war.

The two main factions in this war are those who desire to keep things as they are with the same social hierarchies that allow people to act as authority and use this delusion of having a place of prominence to use behavioral abuse to maintain this delusion of authority.

The other side is tired of the oppression and seeks new avenues that allow all to flourish and destroys the idea of authority and replaces it with leadership.

Authority is abuse driven.

In order to have your authority mean something you have to provide examples in the way of actions that show there are consequences for going against the authority.

It’s the only way to keep oneself seen as the authority because their punishments get carried out. This creates a fear response in order to keep the masses docile and make anyone think twice about challenging the authority of whoever has decided they are the authority.

Academia is one of the most abusive environments one can be in. The constant fight for recognition and funding of ones research will cause one to act as if one thinks one is an authority and one will engage in abusive behavior to maintain that delusion of authority.

This retards progress as now those who are supposed be leading the way of progress will stunt it with will and intent to protect their precious research that they hope is going to fund their life.

History shows that there are many many times where progress was made because one rejected academic authority. One went against the authority and found something better. This threatens the lives of the academics who build their life with the idea of becoming an authority in their field.

History also shows many of these people who made progress were often abused at first by the academic community. Shunned and treated as if they were crazy.

It is the authority driven academic structure that does more to hold back and retard progress than any other single source.

I came to this conclusion after years of debate with academics and the experienced alike.

I find those who never get out of the academic life never understand what it is they are studying or teaching to it’s fullest extent because they lack experience. The uneducated have and advantage over the educated. No preconceived ideas to overcome and unlearn.

Experience is the greatest teach there is and it can’t be found in a book or lecture or an article.

I always wanted to be a teacher as kid. It’s the academic community that changed my mind. When i saw the epic amount of bullshit I would have to tolerate and then would be expected to dish out, I moved on.

It’s the song Are you Experienced by Jimi Hendrix that really comes to mind.

If you can just get your mind together
then come across to me
We’ll hold hands an’ then we’ll watch the sun rise
from the bottom of the sea
But first
Are You Experienced?
Ah! Have you ever been experienced?
Well, I have
I know, I know
you’ll probably scream n’ cry
That your little world won’t let go
But who in your measly little world are trying to prove that
You’re made out of gold and -a can’t be sold
So-er, Are You Experienced?
Ah! Have you ever been experienced?
Well, I have
Ah, let me prove it to you
I think they’re calling our names
Maybe now you can’t hear them, but you will
if you just take hold of my hand
Ah! But Are You Experienced?
Have you ever been experienced?
That little world won’t let go.

That little world is a world of fear that keeps one from growing. Intellectual explorations have been know to be referred to dives. I remember in a discussion once I had mention I reached the bottom of the ocean and the response was to call me a liar.

That’s because if someone reaches the bottom they have gone deeper than you have and in the world of academics that is a threat to ones authority and therefore a threat to ones livelihood. .

The experienced meets someone who has gone deeper and asks questions to see if the experience is worth what was learned.

The academic will compare what they found in books and the experienced will tell you the story of their life.

The academic speaks in the theoretical and uses rhetoric to convince others of understanding. The experienced gives it to you down and dirty as simply put as they can. The academic will charge you cash up front and the experienced might ask you to buy them a cup of coffee.

The academic needs structure for the dialog to happen, The experienced will talk to anyone who will give them the time of day.

The academic forms circles with clones and will circle the wagons anytime the idea of their authority is challenged.

The experienced will take on all comers.

The academic is the arrogance that speaks to what might be and the experienced is the confidence that doesn’t need back up because it’s based on what is.

Academics is the sell job and first they sell themselves on the idea that they are indeed the authority.

The experienced doesn’t give two fucks about authority and is only speaking because they experienced it to understand it.

The war of ideas is the war between the academic and the experienced.

Fun part is the experienced have much greater numbers who don’t care about notoriety and fame. They are too busy teaching what they have learned in their daily life with everyone they talk to.

They reach greater understanding at much faster rates than the academic can ever hope to achieve.

 

Independent in thought, Interdependent in reality

I’m a straight stone cold individualist.

The moment I find people around me giving me the sincerest form of flattery by taking on some of my mannerisms of speech, I change the way I talk so I can continue to be different. Some people say this looks like a mental illness to them, however here is the sanity of it in it’s intent and purpose.

Getting lost in a sea of clones is not my idea of a good time. However at the same time no matter how independent any of us is in thought we can not escape that in reality we are interdependent on each other for life.

This is inescapable truth.

There is no such thing as being a self made anything. Other people had to exist for you to have the experiences that you used to create the idea of you that is who you are right now.

Independent in thought, Interdependent in reality

This quote sums up leadership in one shot in my opinion. Here’s why.

True leadership simply sees a need and either does something about it or finds the right people to get it done.

That’s it.

A true leader is in service by the very definition of identifying and fulfilling needs.

A true leader is in service at all times to everything around them.

You can only truly lead from the middle. It’s where you have the best view of everything going on. The view will always be skewed however from the middle you get a better idea of the needs to be filled and who can do it if you can’t.

Leadership understands the interdependence that is the reality of life.

Everything we do is an inspired action. Something inspired us to do whatever it is we are doing and at times that influence is coming from multiple places.

Even though we are independent in making the choice to engage in action, without the others, there is nothing.

We are all connected and each of us at the center of our own tribe so to speak. A tribe that is always in a circle with no one really in charge however everyone has a role so to speak.

Whether we like it or not life is a shared reality created by all of us which means we all share the responsibility of why the world looks the way it does.

I am not overly joyed about it myself some days, however it does not change this simple yet powerful truth.

Our reality is dependent upon the choices each of us make in thought and action and spoken words.

Majick is every word we speak that is the never ending spell we weave.

It’s the Karmic Law equivalent of saying we reap what we sow and that includes every word that comes out of our mouths

We also reap from what we allow to be sown within us.

Independent in thought, Interdependent in reality

Instead of thinking about planting a seed of what you want to do, think of it as throwing it up in the air with those who have similar end goals in mind. Let it be molded and shaped by as many who share the end goal view as you can find.

Each of you independent in your being and what brought you to the view that you just happen to share with those who can be of assistance in the interdependent area of building anything in life.

Any questions?

Unfortunately for some facts exist

Intellectual debate is often theoretical debate with the idea that no facts exist.

Yes, you read that right, people with will and intent assert no facts exist and then expect something productive to happen.

Yes, the behavior is as childish as it reads.

To assert that no fact exists on a particular topic is to avoid actually having to take a stand and therefore run the risk of being wrong. The academic community exists in the realm of no facts when it comes to psychology and philosophy.

They are always quick with the Socrates quote that says “Wisdom comes from knowing I know nothing.” Here’s why that is a cowards cop out and not wise at all.

Aristotle said “Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.”

Max J. Carter said “If knowledge is power, than wisdom is understanding.”

To know yourself and understand yourself is to understand the rest as well. We like to pretend that not everything applies to everyone and somethings only apply to us. This is the great lie we sell ourselves on.

Those who would want to argue that would do so wanting to have something that was unique to them and would take a narcissistic view to even consider arguing.

It takes a great act of willful ignorance to create a delusion where you refuse to accept something as fact when it is indeed fact and the only reason you don’t want to agree is because it destroys the theoretical position.

 

Is being nice instead of honest the obstacle in the way of progress?

What is authority?

In concept it’s when one is given or assigns oneself to a position to rule over others and or enforce rules in a variety of possible ways.

Authority in concept is about wielding power over others.

Authority in concept is the right to abuse anyone who objects to the authority

Does anyone have the right to wield power over anyone else?.

Once one has become recognized as authority one by the nature of being an authority must fight those who oppose their authority and authoritative stance or ideals that they profess as the authority.

To allow oneself to become an authority on a subject is to say one can not be challenged in any way shape form or fashion.

How could this possibly become an obstacle in the way of progress?

There are more than a few in the academic community who are shunned by the academic authorities for saying that the Theory of Relativity is wrong based on the fact that light particles have mass and therefore the strongest force of connected gravity can change the speed at which those particles move.

Or to say the assertion that light speed is fixed is false and the speed of light is actually variable.

Why does this happen?

It happens so that those who dedicated their life to becoming an authority based on Einstein’s work are now no longer the authority and their perceived power and control over the academic community is threatened.

In order to retain their authority they must have those who don not agree shunned and their character assassinated if at all possible in order to keep others from following suit which will kill their authority.

Does this create an obstacle for progress?

How could it not?

A theory is good until it can be proven wrong and then it must be abandon in order to make progress and go in new directions that allow new theories to be proven as true.

When it comes to throwing opinions back and forth in exploration at some point one must admit facts exist when they are met with them or they are choosing to live in a delusional state that is harmful for society as a whole.

To get into the exploration and deny truth as it is discovered is the act of a cowardly child who desires to have their opinion mean more than the truth and this is what is called delusional behavior driven by a narcissistic need to have the truth be their own personal thing.

There is nothing healthy about this behavior.

Truth crushes opinion as it should so that learning and growth can take place.

Truth is not built through opinion, it is discovered in proving the opinion right or wrong and this is a simple fact of life no matter how unpleasant anyone finds it.

The most dangerous thing we do in any discussion face to face, online, any discussion is to validate an opinion in order to be nice instead of correcting the opinion with the simple truth should it be known.

How this creates obstacles is that it allows for the opinion to have greater weight than the truth and progress is retarded instead of made. The growth and learning of the one who is receiving the nicety of being lied to instead of corrected is now stunted and it will be more difficult for them to accept the truth.

Now this person feels validated in their opinion they will become defensive and use the history of having their opinion validated instead of corrected as truth. This one will now experience emotional distress when faced with the truth and one will inflict harm on those who attempt to tell them the truth as they reject it in  myriad of ways.

This is why I say I am nice until it is time to be kind, you know honest.

Being nice can often lead to long suffering even though the intent is to avoid hurting someone’s feelings, all one has done is set them up for greater pain and allowed them to live in ignorance of their own suffering and the suffering they spread.

In a recent discussion someone told me there is no absolute truth.

This is a delusional statement based in fear of being wrong and losing one’s status in the eyes of others. This is delusional thinking at it’s finest. This can lead to developing a narcissistic view that says anyone declaring that truth exists is the enemy and must be stopped from assaulting people with the truth because there is no truth in their eyes.

This is the behavior that is the obstacle to progress.

No really what’s an Empath? Evolution, aliens, or is God to blame?

Currently around 10% of the world’s population classifies as Empath.

With a population of over 7 billion that’s over 700 million.

That’s 1 out of every 10 people.

That’s 10% of the population who can take on your emotions as their own.

That’s 1 out of every 10 people that everyone simply feels better to be around.

That’s people who represent as manic depressive simply out of a lack of knowing what they do and psychology ignoring it even exists.

Even Empaths who have mastered their genetic trait have moments and days of difficulty in managing this trait.

Think about people you know that simply seem to change the air when they are present. People that you inexplicably always seem to feel better around with nothing more than their silent presence. It’s highly likely this human being is internally dealing with the sadness and anger being suppressed or repressed in the room. The rest of the room is getting their natural high so to speak.

This human being is most likely an Empath whether they know it or not. I was 37 before I stopped telling myself it was all in my head. I had been reading people with a depth and accuracy that scared them. I found out later many things that I was told I had been wrong about in the moment, had in fact been true. When I started seeing the truth of myself in being an Empath, I felt sane for the first time in my life.

At first I didn’t have a name for it or a reason why. My exploration led me through the modern new age landscape and across religion and mythology. I’ve heard theories that involve aliens and star seeds.

Every culture and history has records of people like myself who have an inexpiable knowing. People who are in tune with the infinite flow of life force energy.

Think of the concept of Divine Energy as pure love and Sacred Energy as unconditional love. The Divine Light and the Sacred Darkness from which it was born.

It’s all metaphor.

An Empath has a genetic predisposition to unconditional love in their natural way of being. They will engage in acts of sacrifice without even thinking about their own well-being. They act selflessly to the point of self-harm. They are nurturing to the point of enabling if they do not learn self-discipline with their giving nature.

We each have our things in life that are the little things that can makes us feel loved. The things that bring us joy when others do them for and sometimes to us.

1 out of 10 people lives and breathes to do these things for the people around them. They are absolutely sincere in those things they do to attempt to brighten the days of all round them.

1 in 10 people is a natural born behavioral cognitive therapist that provides an emotional clearing and balancing with every visit, whether it be hanging out as friends or talking at work, it is the nature of their being and happens in every conversation.

1 out 10 people can feel every lie in the room. Natural born lie detectors.

1 out of 10 people simply know things that defy our current scientific understanding. They read emotional energy and translate emotional concepts that have no other way of being expressed.

Think of the concept of the “Unwritten Language” as emotion. The telepathic communication that is often spoke of is a sharing of emotional concepts and images. It very rarely involves any cohesive conscious formed thought.

No matter how good these 1 out of every 10 people are at emotional translations, on occasion something gets lost in translation.

In my early research to try and find an explanation for why I am able to what I do, I found a lot of people looking for any reason that would allow them to forsake their humanity. On some level I could understand why. On some level I didn’t feel exactly human anymore. This has everything to do with programming.

Until I was 37 and realized I am an Empath, I would have been every bit as skeptical as those I sometimes come face to face with. In fact at first I wished it was all untrue and that I was crazy. For the first 37 years I had done a good job of pretending. However this thing called experience kept happening that would never allow me to place a veil over my own eyes again.

I have had thousands upon thousands of shared experiences to show me I do exactly what I say I do. I was not in search of further evidence I was in search of others and an explanation as to where it came from and why.

The first somewhat cohesive group that I found was an email group. They were big fans of Lemuria and that we are Lemurians. I wasn’t buying it and moved on quickly.

One of the most psychologically harmful places I found online was the Otherkin group I spent a short period of time in. There are subcultures within the Otherkin culture that allow you to profess to be anything non human. Vampire, Lycanthrope, Angel, Fey, Dragon and a myriad of other things and these people do truly believe that’s what they are. It was disturbing the level of disconnection from the idea of being human that these people embraced.

I moved on to a place I felt comfortable for the first time however it wasn’t long before I pissed off most of the group by simply being me.

As I said Empaths represent 1 out of every 10 humans. A group of over 9,000 is a unique experience indeed.

The match that lit the rocket on the tactical nuke that destroyed my bridge to this group was my integrity.

Not the first time that’s happened in my life.

I said before I call being public, coming out of the basement. These people were happy to stay chained up in the basement like freaks to be ashamed of. I never could be and here’s why.

People unconsciously sense the unconditional loving and accepting nature of an Empath and find themselves divulging the most intimate details of their life to a total stranger they feel inexplicably drawn to. Every Empath I have ever met has said this happens to them frequently.

These people often look puzzled and are left forever wondering why they met that one person that one time and told them what they did. I like being able to explain it to them in the moment. I like being acknowledged for my being beyond a mysterious figure one time met. I like letting people know next time they’ll know who to look for and where I can be found.

My desire to be out and open about my being made most of the group really upset. There are many occasions in which someone such as myself is honest and open about what they do and they are diagnosed as mentally ill. They have their kids taken away. They lose their jobs, their friends and even their family will back away from them.

100 years ago they would have burned us at the stake.

Due to the fear of the unknown by 9 out of 10 people 1 out of 10 people are afraid to acknowledge their own being.

The majority of the 9,000 Empaths in this group only acknowledged their being in this group and chose to live a lie of pretending to be 9 out of 10 people. They only felt safe in the group. They had heard the stories of being locked up in mental hospitals, some of them in the group had even had that experience and it was why they chose to stay in the basement.

I understand why they live their choice.

My choice was the beginning of what led to my 3rd divorce, my 2nd wife used it to take our son out of my care more than once, I have lost long time friends and my mom has finally stopped trying to cast Satan out of me.

I understand why they live their choice.

After the nuke went off destroying that bridge, I found myself in a smaller group for Empaths on Facebook. I quickly became the go to guy to figure things out. I was made an admin and spent roughly the next year or so working with 5 to 15 people a day teaching them to manage their being better.

It was in the time spent there answering their questions I got my answers.

The most common mistake I’ve seen in attempting to answer the question of why am I like this is that God must somehow be involved.

I’m a Shaman which means I am equal parts Scientist and Spiritualist.

I’m my own biggest skeptic.

Why do Empaths exist and where do they come from?

In simplest terms it is the next evolutionary stage of our species and 1 out of 10 people are early risers so to speak and over time 99 out of 100 people being born will be Empaths.

It’s genetic.

Empaths are adept at blending spirituality and science. They are adept at seeing ways to create technology that will allow for the luxuries we all enjoy while at the same time doing less harm to the Earth and each other. The world we live in is changing on an ideological level and the people are changing at the genetic level to follow suit.

9 out of 10 people might not like it.

1 out of 10 people exist anyway and the numbers are ever growing with every child born.

We might already be at the 2 out of 10 mark or higher.

An Empath is a Peacekeeper by nature. They will always look for the simplest solution to bring about a peaceful resolution.

This uncanny ability to find the simple solution regardless of the complexity of the emotional web of attachments to the issue is often resisted and seen as idealistic. Here’s why.

We justify or to say declare an act of justice be done in order to validate our emotional response to any given situation. We hold on to the emotion until the justice we seek is done. We have determined justice must be served in order to justify the emotional attachment.

As a negotiator or unbiased arbitrator over seeing negotiations an Empath can suck the emotion out of the discussion and infuse it with their peace and clarity of mind. They will sense any and all deception in the room and keep the negotiations honest and maintain and level playing field.

There are 1 out of every ten people that can do this.

These 1 out of 10 can also clear up miscommunication due to a lack of understanding and translate intent in the event of poor word choice. It happens.

1 out 10 people on this planet right now are born healers. It is frequent that Empaths go into healthcare or a service industry of some sort. Empaths who take up Reiki are often astonished by their early results with little or no formal training. Here’s why.

Reiki literally means vital soul energy. That’s it.

Soul energy is dense emotional energy with a conscious self awareness. Empaths instinctively teach themselves how to use this energy for all manners of healing.

1 out of every 10 people are Empaths however not all Empaths are the same. There are various levels of sensitivity and awareness that goes with it.

The Sage: Those people who just seem to know stuff and they can’t even tell you how they know however they always happen to be right.

The Chameleon: Such experts at mirroring what is around them it is almost as if they wear your personality for a bit. Think of it from the perspective that what we attach emotion to is part of how we build our personality or identity. The Chameleon will often have people never sure about who they are really dealing with almost sensing that the mirror is often if not always active.

The Physical Empath: These people take on the physical pain form others to give them relief. It is possible that some people who suffer from Fibromyalgia are actually Physical Empaths. A Physical Empath will also give their physical energy to those around them.

The Beast Master: Animals use emotional conceptual communication just like we do. It’s easy for some Empaths to understand and communicate with animals.

The Tree Hugger: Soul energy and emotional energy are the same and Animism states everything has a soul. Some Empaths are able to communicate with all manner of plant life. This is why I say Vegans are murderers too.

The Earth Whisperer: They predict earthquakes and other natural disasters with startling accuracy. These Empaths are finally tuned in to Mother Earth.

The Psychometrist: Has such a high sensitivity that these people can read layers deep through residual energy of any object or photo. They can give you a good idea what happened somewhere based on the energy left behind.

Precog: The advanced warning system. Sometimes it comes in dreams, sometimes with waking visions and other times it is the emotion only which leaves nothing but guess work as to what the event is.

Mediums and Ghost Whisperers: A Medium will channel and a Ghost whisperer will not and both have a sensitivity to free floating soul forms.

The Telepath: The Telepath is in the subconscious mind and is way ahead of where you think you are. They know what you’re planning before you tell yourself what you are planning. The idea of trying to lie to a Telepath is laughable. They know your intent no matter how good the lie is. They can also pull the truth right out of your mind and speak it.

It is often that an Empath will possess more than one of these skills and some of the 1 out 10 do all 10.

700 million people who can do at least 2 or 3 things on this list. 10% of the population.

I’ve already blamed evolution for creating 1 out of 10 people who represent as Empath. It’s genetic. Look at our history and see it littered with violence for every reason.

In nature we will see animals adapt to survive through evolutionary changes physically and at times in behavior. On the everything is a species of life scale we are no different.

1 out of 10 of us has a natural neutral first response before the fight or flight response is engaged. It’s that extra second to see what happens next or decide to ask for clarification before making a rash decision based on limited information in the moment. It’s a natural instinct to assess in the moment and respond versus react at the instinctual level.

1 out of 10 of us has an intent towards peace gained through understanding the whole of the situation. No one taught us to do it, we are simply born with this as our internal guiding light. If the species evolves to become more like this it reduces the probability for frequency of violence.

If a species evolves to resist authority and embrace leadership they become highly resistant to subjugation through propaganda also known as marketing. When a species evolves to the point where they can feel the harm they inflict they tend to auto correct their behavior with less need of external guidance or rules. 1 out of 10 of us already live this way and have since birth.

700 million humans already fit the bill.

The cognitive function also must advance in order to manage the amount of information being translated at the conscious level. The heighten conscious awareness needs the high level of intellect or it would leave the human in a catatonic state of neural overload.

It is with this evolution of intellect that the true value of peace and collaboration is not an idea, to them it’s a foregone conclusion as the only true solution.

As the generations get closer to the 1 out of every 10 versions of human on the planet we can see the change in attitude in the Millennials.

In one of my favorite New Age metaphors they call the Millennials the Indigo Children. Many children today would be called Rainbows. The Indigo Children are supposed to change the world for the Rainbow Children.

In the really real world this is nothing more than a metaphor for evolution that has been romanticized for marketing purposes.

Emotional and thought energy has no mass and therefore is not effected by gravity. That means that distance has no relevance as travel of emotional or thought energy is instantaneous.

Questions

What if emotional energy and gravity worked in similar ways?

What if 1 out of 10 people simply have a stronger emotional gravity core acting as an emotional singularity?

What if the soul is emotional energy and this advancements allows the soul to be taking in more life force energy from everything around us in various forms and transforms it within in us to radiate pure love energy around us to all that would need it?

Think of it as an emotional energy recycling system. A system that is based on life force energy that would naturally lead to an evolutionary advancement extending the length of ones life. Always taking in energy to replace that which is given.

1 out of 10 people are basically recycling generators of life force energy.

That’s the simplest scientific inhuman description of what is an Empath.

Leading by value and investigative thinking

If I do not feel like you care about me, I am going to give you my bare minimum and nothing else.

If I do not feel like you want to know anything about me, I am going to be completely apathetic towards you and anything you want.

If I do not feel valued by you, I will not value anything you have to offer me.

We all do this.

We all feel this way and if you want to lead, it has to start with you and it has to start with you caring about them and letting that show. You have to show them you care about them to your own detriment.

You have to show them you will sacrifice your wants and your needs to make sure they are taken care of.

You have to actually care about them more than you care about you. If you cannot do that, you cannot lead a rock.

People will do what you say because of your title, but you will never actually lead them because there is a huge difference between compliance and following a leader.

Remember the concept, the king serves his subjects.

To best serve your direct reports you have to know what they need as an individual human being to perform better. Each of us is different and it takes different motivations. For some people just hearing thank you on occasion is all they need. Some people need someone to dump on and vent their work frustrations to. Having that person around makes the job easier, does it not?

The point here is that you need to figure out how to be what they need when they need it and that is not an easy thing to do. It gets easier the better you know your people. It becomes easier to anticipate their reactions and gage your message based on how you have seen them receive like messages. Your experience with them will be your greatest teacher in how to inspire and motivate them.

Pay attention when they think you are not. You will be surprised at what you learn. Ask them questions about themselves and the stuff they keep on their desk. Listen to what they say and if need be make notes when you get back to your desk.

You will only be as good as you prepare to be.

This means that before every interaction with a direct report you need to prepare for it by reviewing everything you know and thinking about what you want this interaction to be. Remember you have the responsibility of exemplifying the standard of what this interaction should be. You cannot break. You have to be prepared for anything.

What do you know about what is going in Bob’s life right now?

What message do I want to convey to Bob?

How does Bob respond to this type of discussion?

What questions is Bob likely to ask?

How am I going to answer those questions?

These are all things that should be a part of your mental checklist every time you stop by to chat with someone.

What will surprise you is when you start doing this to your spouse and your friends after doing at work all day for a while. This approach changed the way I interact with people and I would say based on my experience it has made me a better father, a better friend and a better leader in whatever I choose to do.

Define a customer.

This is my all-time favorite interview question to ask. The answer I am looking for is this.

Everyone you interact with is a customer and every human interaction is a customer service interaction.

Think about that perspective for minute or thirty.

Managing in difficult situations for an Empath

I have been mentoring Empaths for several years. I work with them at developing techniques for managing their ability to take on the emotions of others and wear them as their own.

It’s what an Empath does and it can make life difficult at times just to get through the day.

For an Empath intent is crucial in managing your energy and your natural born ability. The intent you set with your energy can and will effect the nature of how your day flows.

One of the most difficult situations for any Empath is when they are in crowds or stuck inside somewhere and there are more than one human being present with repressed or suppressed emotions. Every Empath I have ever spoken to (Thousands) has said the same thing about social situation indoors.

“Everyone is having a good time and I don’t know whether to kill them all or cry non stop.”

I’m committed to a life of non violence as a Pacifist and I often have to take a minute when I start feeling angry and ask myself “Is this mine?”

I have noticed anytime thoughts of violence arise, I can look around at who is in the room and often know who it is that harbors these desires to lash out physically. It then becomes an internal conflict to right myself and center myself and be less impacted by the situation. I often find once I get outside and away from the human being who is repressing or suppressing these violent desires, I feel fine for the most part and I am able to shake off what was never mine to begin with.

If an Empath does not remove themselves from the environment there is potential to lose that inner conflict and have those emotions fill you and be projected through your behavior that most people would find to be uncharacteristic for you.

Here’s a tip I use in setting my intent before I go out anywhere.

Where am I going and why?

I use my born ability to reach out from within to check the situation ahead of time by taking an emotional read. A blind feeling of what I could be walking into. You are going to get a median read of the overall and I find at times I get a read of individuals the universe is lining through synchronicity for us to engage.

It takes work to not let this advanced read create expectations and remain in the now. It takes work to let now unfold as it goes as it flows. These advanced readings are a mix and that means there is a lot of wiggle room.

If I am going to the store I set my intent to get in and out with as little interaction as possible. If I have the opportunity to assist someone while I am out, I will, however I deserve a break as much as any of us. People will approach an Empath and not even understand why they are doing it at the conscious level. They are being unconsciously guided to the Empath.

When I got out on Friday nights for my community service night I am very clear with the intents I set to align my energy for the night and leave the rest of my life behind for the night. I am not going out for me, I am going out for whoever needs what I provide and I have no control over who might walk up to give me 5 minutes of their time.

I always set an intent to avoid violence if at all possible.

I set my intent to be of service to those with a true need.

I set my intent to transmute any emotional energy I take on into pure healing love energy and let that be what flows through me and from me.

Even with the precautions I take, I find at times I have to walk away from the crowd for a minute or 5 and check myself with what I am feeling.

Remember being an Empath is nothing more than a genetic evolution and over the next 20 years the numbers are going to increase exponentially as the evolution of our species continues.

Empaths are not aliens, Empaths are not angels, Empaths are not a spiritual warriors with a mission handed to them by God, Empaths are not gods, Empaths are genetically evolved human beings.

If you are an Empath or not sure but this article has you asking the question, please feel free to contact me and I am happy to be of service.

Family and what they teach us

My dad has Parkinson’s Disease.

My dad’s legs don’t work so well and he is supposed to use a walker, he doesn’t and at times it feels as though the roles have reversed. I get why though.

As a contractor my dad was a power horse. His own boss specializing in home remodel and repair work. Part of my inner drive to never let anything knock me down for longer than about a second comes from him. If you go around Chico and ask people my dad did work for or people who have known him, they will tell you he was one of if not thee best at what he did in town.

They will also tell you he is one of the finer human beings you could hope to meet. For along time I wondered if they knew who they were talking about. Here’s why.

I saw him at the end of the day when the tank was empty. He worked 6 days a week often. Starting to see where my work ethic comes from?

I never got to see what they were talking about until I was around 13 or 14 and I started working with him on the weekends and during the summer. My last buzz on strategizing your day as you go came from lessons of watching my dad and working with him.

The results of any job always begins in your prep work. I must have heard it a thousand times. To give you an idea of how physically strong he was at one point in time.

We working on a Church here in town and my dad handed me the hopper to spray some mud. The hopper was a big bucket attached to air hose and trigger nozzle. It looked like a ray gun with a bucket of thick heavy ass mud attached to the top and an air hose coming out the back.

I took it and sprayed for a few minutes with one hand and then had to switch. After about ten minutes and my dad seeing I was not going to get it done he took it back and then I watched. He held that thing like it was nothing and ran it for as long as he needed to.

That day I realized that if he ever hit someone full force, he had the power to kill in one punch. My dad is only 5’6″.

He taught me a lot over the those years before I went into the Air Force at 17.

One of the lessons he and mom taught me was to take care of whoever ends up crossing your path simply because you can.

My dad was a wrestler in high school and studied a little martial arts. He was his own mechanic for many years. There was very little he couldn’t fix on his own.

My dad is also one of the more brilliant minds I have ever met. He pissed people off a lot because he could pick most things with little instruction and run with them as if he was seasoned pro. Something else I inherited.

In fact with no college degree he was the top tool salesman for Hilti tools back in the early 80’s as a traveling salesman.It pissed off every single college grad he worked with, including his boss.

My dad is also a Medium and a Telepath and my mom is an Empath. That’s how I got the 3 in one at birth.

In my dads lineage is a Cherokee medicine woman who walked the Trail of Tears. Back when he was a child the court house where the records of that were kept, burned down and because of racism my grandmother kept the Cherokee lineage a secret for my dad’s sake as a child.

My dad’s dad has never been sick a day in his life, not even a cold.

Even though he is supposed to, my dad won’t stay down. He refuses to use his walker until he falls down again which is at least a few times a week. At times it takes me and my mom to get him back up. He has a fake hip and his legs are going faster and faster as time goes on.

He is still in good spirits most days as long as he can clean the kitchen and make dinner and sneak out on his own to run errands and feel productive. Without that he would have died already, just that kind of man.

It’s not easy to watch Mr. Invincible fall a part right before your eyes.

I can see how much closer he is to needing to be in a wheelchair and that will totally kill his spirit and he and I have talked about it. He was the one who told me it would probably mean his end if he couldn’t feel like he could get out on his own anymore.

There is a lot I will always carry with me that are things my dad used to say.

Work smarter not harder.

If not now, when.

I’ll call you Dr Whatshisnuts when you call me Contractor Carter.

He has no respect for title. He sees us all as equal and none of is entitled to special treatment no matter what degree you have or how many years you spent to get it. That was your choice and gains you no privilege over the rest.

Never let anyone get anything over on you.

Never take any shit.

Never start it, but finish it and there is no such thing as fair fight.

Reach out the hand of help as often as you see the opportunity.

You ever hit a woman I might kill you.

Do it better than I did.

Do it smarter than I did.

No matter what you are doing you bust your ass to be the best at it and fuck ’em if they can’t keep up.

Never stay down.

Never quit.

He taught me a lot that I still use today. He taught me a lot I still pass on to others today.

It’s going to be real weird for real long time when he goes. I will miss him however I will always be grateful I spent these last few years taking care of him as much as he will let me. We have a better relationship now than we ever did.

A lot of the issues I help people though often start with family. My dad and I lost a lot of years that some of you can still have with a father or a mother. Don’t wait until the last few years.

As dad always says, if not now, when.

You’re only as good as you prepare to be

I can’t tell you how many times while working with my dad off and on over the 20 years he was considered to be one of the best contractors in Chico, that he told me the results are in your prep work.

When I say I am a master intuitive it is because I no longer think and let my intuition guide all I do. I trained me to do that and I can’t train you to do it. No one can. Here’s why.

No one reads what is going on in you and your life as well as you can. Others can read the energy and the intent of you and whatever it is you ask them about, however to develop your own intuition rests squarely on you. Only you can live the experiences that allow you to strengthen your reading abilities that strengthens your intuitive self and allows you to become more intuitive and less lost in thought.

As Russell Targ a physicist who worked with other physicists for over 20 years being funded by the C.I.A suggests all you need is one other personal you are reading to let you know if you got it right. The work Russell did with the C.I.A. was centered around remote viewing but also covered many other abilities that have been called psychic abilities however are the natural intuitive self that any can tap into.

To become a master intuitive you take it from the one on one and practice with everyone. There will be a lot of trial and error as you learn how to read any one with high accuracy.

The intuitive self is 10 times more efficient than the thinking self could ever dream of being as that time thinking is removed and things come in an instant with no thought required. The prep work you put into becoming a master takes years. I got a lot wrong before I could fully trust and rely on my intuition to never miss.

I have mentioned before when I sit down to write these buzzes I never think I just throw up a title and see where it takes me.

It took me years of preparation and work to be able to do it this way. The reason I am as good at it as I am is because of the all the years of prep work that have gone into it. It’s the work I have always put into me that is the reason why I became a master intuitive.

Whatever it is that you want to master it starts with the prep work which always involves working on you.

Why relationships must be fluid or they are destined to fail

I found myself in a discussion about being concrete or cementing relationships. Here’ why that is setting yourself up for failure.

The human is a emotional creature and emotion flows and never sets still. In relationships whether they are business or personal require flexibility and fluidity.

This is why we often ask “Why can’t you go with the flow?”

Often a question asked to someone who has hardened and closed their mind to what is before them.

When working with clients as a consultant or one on one for self development the term flow comes up frequently.

Let’s use beBee as an example.

The flow of your feed is quite fluid based on many factors that move things about and your passion. You make an investment of your time that is always flowing forward and at times a buzz can elicit an emotional response.

At times when we read the buzzes of others we become emotional because we are emotional creatures.

Now onto the Air Force.

I was a Combat Communications guy and there was an offshoot of this called Tactical Communications.

Their job was to be able to flow with the front line as it moved. This mean they had to be at the ready at all times as combat goes on to move themselves and their equipment with the flow of combat.

Now onto managing a call center.

Our traffic or call flow required we be fluid with our management of that traffic as we could not turn the flow of incoming calls off. At times this meant asking for flexibility with the front line people to stay and work overtime or at times go home early due to a lack of call flow.

We trained our representatives to have a flow to their calls. In the medical insurance game of United Healthcare it mean training them to extend empathy with the customer and that meant at times moving at with the customers flow.

Now onto nature.

The seasons flow into each other.

Everything is existence has a flow and nothing ever exists in a state of stasis no matter how still it appears.

Change is existence and existence is change. To resist the flow is to resist the very nature of existence.

Consciousness flows in streams of thoughts.

Now onto friendship.

Our friends to tend be the ones we flow best with in various areas of life where we share passions A.K.A interests.

We work with our friend to understand the emotion flowing from them at times and that requires us to be fluid in the moment to adjust to be a better friend and give what is needed.

When we become rigid in our thinking or representation of self we often alienate people.

Now onto romantic relationships.

We flow as one in the sexual embrace when we surrender our hearts and souls to our partner.

We tend to couple off with the one who brings the best flow of emotions from us that we call being happy or content. The one we can let go and flow with without needing any structure to define it. We just flow well with this one.

In all of these examples anytime we meet with something that has become rigid or hardened it fucks up our flow as we are flowing creatures. It’s why we respond to music so well as feel it flowing through us and sometimes inspiring us to get up and dance.

The essence of the Reiki work I do with clients is all about opening their flow of energy and assisting them in balancing that flow better.

With businesses I consult with it is all about creating a better flow for their business that has less stoppage in productivity.

Everything is all about creating better flows and remaining fluid in the moment to adjust to maintain the flow we desire.

This just happens to be how it actually works no matter how much some people want to be rigid in their thinking attempting to control life when in reality everything is out of control and control is an illusion that creates delusional thinking.

Any questions or thoughts on flow?

The Mantra of the moment

Doing what I do in the lives of my clients presents a challenge to me in how I view myself and my dedication to my own individualism.

The challenge is this.

Let each client get a different set of mantras and what not that best suits who they are and avoid the confines of conformity in using the same material over and over.

For me it gets boring to simply give each person the same canned speech or set of mantras and other tools I provide my clients with for managing their life better without needing me or anyone else. I cherish my being an individual and part of what I assist my clients with is becoming more at home with and embracing the individual they are. To me the greatest disservice I could do for one of my clients is to give them something everyone else gets and make clones out of them all.

I have said often that i see even my own material as a jumping off point for finding new ways of expressing it and simplifying the expression to reach a larger audience. I would be acting as a great fool to rely on them having the same education or years of study I have.

What I find disturbing in the personal growth arena is the trend to create your own set of whatever and teach that to people making them clones of your system. Creating your tribe so to speak and deeming yourself the head of the tribe. I thought about doing this and every time I could not avoid feeling as though I was taking on narcissistic behavior and encouraging that through my example to my clients and friends and the world at large and most importantly, my son.

When I created The Martial Art of Thought Protection through Right Action I set a very clear intent for myself.

Create something that does not require any one to follow me to use.

Create something that encourages individualism yet provide a loose structure of behavior most would agree is healthy for the sum and the individual alike.

Create something that acknowledges the importance of faith in ones life without preaching any particular brand of it.

With clients I have often found the mantras are developed as we work together so that it is something personal to them and easier for them to remember to use.

The Mantra I use frequently is “Mine is to reveal not to preach.”

A Shaman is a teacher not a preacher.

A Shaman understands that everything we need to know we already know and it is through experience this is revealed.

A Shaman reveals what lay behind the veil not a preacher of the veil.

A Mantra can be anything in the fewest words it takes to set your intent that guides your behavior.

What Mantra do you have for yourself for what you are living now?

What is the Essence of the condition of being Human?

To answer this one question we must also answer the question of what was the essence that preceded the existence of our current Universe.

For lack of a better word, God is that essence that preceded the existence we know now. The essence that was God made itself into matter with all the encoding for what we know as existence. This is the only explanation that makes sense and would also mean that God is in everything.

The reason mathematically we have such a difficult time proving anything is due to organized chaos. Not total chaos, however a structure that allows for our own free will in creating the shared reality we call life.

In order for there to be any order within the chaos there must be set parameters that keep existence from unmaking itself. This cannot have simply happened on accident. It is evidence that God is the universe and we are part of that God that uses us to figure out what it made and what to do about it.

Outside of these bodies we are nothing more than emotional energy with self-awareness.

The Essence of the condition of being Human is forgetting all that to explore what God created in a way that can only be done by doing what we do here.

Or to say forget about going on a quest to be more spiritual and realize you are a spirit who came here to learn how to be human. A journey that incorporates a system that is much simpler than we would like to believe because it reveals how much power we have over our lives.

I have always been a big fan of using elementary deductive reasoning. Once you eliminate the impossible, whatever is left no matter how improbable must be true.

It doesn’t matter if a machine or mathematical equation can substantiate it. We have the ability to reason for a reason.

Philosophy and physics are one in the same.

We are made of emotional energy and give ourselves a total wipe and allow the emotional imprints of the totality of our parents emotional selves at the time of conception begin the emotional imprint for who will be.

Gravity connects all things.

At the center of the Universe is a super massive singularity or black hole. It works on a vortex.

At the center of our galaxy is a massive singularity that works on a vortex.

At the center of the smallest subatomic particle is a gyre or a subatomic black hole that works on a vortex.

Forget size and realize it does not matter and only has value due to the limited senses we have in this form called human.

Within the center of the gyre is a consciousness that understands what particle it is creating and communicates with the other gyres to align to create what we call matter. A projection of energy given form based on set parameters yet with an element of chaos.

That element of chaos is what allows for diversity in all things. Think of it as an evolving algorithm with set tolerances and every variable is variable and in a constant state of change.

Our emotional imprint meets with matter and DNA programming begins. The cipher lock that will unlock our full potential begins to form in the DNA strands themselves. As an energetic lock there is no physical science that can match simply becoming the necessary behavioral version of you that unlocks the full potential and the lock begins being built by who your parents were.

This is the short version of what the essence of the condition of being human is.

While there are others who will go on and one about aspects of self or shadow selves or any number of things that in order for them to hold true deems you must follow their system must be false due to the existence of organized chaos to keep all from becoming the same.

Or to say the only way to truly do it is to let you guide you through you and every journey while having some experiences that are similar is different and no two journeys should ever be the same or organized chaos and free will do not exist. To imply that anyone of us is capable of providing “Thee” path is an extreme form of narcissism bordering on the level of a God Complex.

We all see the same truths in life yet we all see and experience them differently based on our choices in who make ourselves to become through the way we speak. Our words carry emotion behind them and that emotion will bounce back at some point.

Altering ones behavior really is as simple as improving yourself talk and being aware of every word you say and the power it has to come back and slap you upside the head.

Our essence is always creating our existence and that is the essence of the condition of being human.

Why is the road to hell paved with good intentions?

Let’s stop and think about it.

I look back at the white lies I told out of the good intent to spare someone’s feelings and what I found out later was that it actually hurt them a lot more in the long run.

It’s why I feel that anything less than being honest is creating suffering or enabling suffering to continue.

We hurt the ones we love with the truth to get them to stop hurting themselves and/or other people.

The pain of the truth is temporary and ends rather quickly while the suffering of deceit never ends until the truth is revealed and the deception comes to an end.

This is why I always say “I am nice until it’s time to be kind, you know, honest.”

There is no kindness in lies.

There is no compassion in lies and we often will tell that white lie to avoid dealing with the reaction we think or feel we are going to get out of fear.

Their is no mercy in lies.

Their is no love for another in lies.

If you feel the need to bend the truth to accomplish a goal why?

If you feel you can’t get it done with the truth why?

Have you ever called someone negative for being honest?

Why did you do it?

The hardest part people have after their awakening is often they are called negative because they can no longer stomach deception in any form. Part of the awakening process is shedding oneself of all deception and embracing being honest in every expression of self.

Is anyone entitled to get away with lying?

Black, white and grey and the war of ideas

I have often laughed in the face of people who tell me the world is not black and white and there are many shades of grey. Here’s why.

Right and wrong do exist.

Grey areas are the ones where we are not sure what is the right thing to do. The right things to do often depends on the situation we find ourselves in.

I often find that when I feel the need to say this is a grey area, I am avoiding taking a stance out of fear of being wrong.

I use me as an example because if I started calling some of you out by name, you might get upset and rightly so.

I use the tool Psychospirilosophy to help me figure out what the right thing to do is so I understand why it is the right thing to do.

For those unfamiliar with my work here is what Psychospirilosophy is.

Psychology: Is there anyone who thinks it’s a bad idea to understand from a psychological aspect why you are doing what you are doing?

Spirituality: As long as what you are doing does not include killing animals and people, have something.

Philosophy: For me it’s the personal philosophies we develop by saying “I always say this” regarding summing up the talk we say we are walking less we be seen as a hypocrite.

It’s a tool for self exploration and being able to better provide yourself with an answer to the question “What am I doing and why?”

I have often said there are no general catch all approaches to life and that everything is dependent on the moment. There are always exceptions to every rule we try and create as life is a fluid thing always flowing forward and never still and never moving in reverse.

When I am trying to figure out if what I am doing or about to do is the right thing, I forget about grey and go the silver mirror of inner refection.

Why do we agree to disagree?

I find it is often because we are in disagreement about what is right and what is wrong and are in the grey battlefield where the war of ideas takes place. This is often called debate.

Anyone who thinks debate is not a fight is fooling themselves.

The entire point of debate is to find out what is right and what is wrong for the issue being debated.

Unfortunately for some right and wrong do exist and the ambiguity of grey does more harm to the sum than good. Here’s why.

Often in online discussion many of the readers never comment. You never really know who is reading and how many are being influenced by the ongoing debate.

In a recent buzz I said that everyone has the power to influence everyone they come in contact with in life.

It’s why as soon as I see someone being called or referring to themselves as an “Influencer” I found someone to ignore as I will never recommend to blindly follow a title.

In this case it is a title used for marketing purposes to drive up the public image of the one being given the title.

This also degrades the rest as it is saying that if you do not have this title why should anyone listen to you?

Consensus does not make truth.

I can’t tell you how many peoples faces I have openly laughed in when they try to use the consensus argument. Here’s why.

They have just shown they do not think for themselves and act as a great fool blindly following the crowd.

The reason people do this online is all about image and lacks any true substance.

This is one time I am going to use a name without gaining consent first.

For over a year Jivana Kennedy came at me with everything she had in debate in Linkedin’s largest group.

I respect Jivana immensely because she always stood her ground and never backed down an inch. We rarely agreed on anything and Jivana never left it to the audience to decide.

She took the hard road of taking a stand on her own and never went looking for anyone to come in and back her up in a debate.

Honestly I miss her. I never had a greater adversary in the realm of debate and because she pushed so hard, it pushed me to bring out my best. This often led me to going in new directions and these debates became explorations where everyone following had the opportunity to learn right along with us as we fought it out.

Thank you Jivana, you made a better human out of me.

When you start asking your friends to come in and help you in a debate it means you know your position is weak and want to gang up on someone to shove it down their throats.

This is often what trolls do to attempt to discredit someone.

If you need back up, you are telling the world you cannot stand on your own. You are telling the world you are weak and acting from a place of insecurity and fear.

I say this right or correct based on using the Psychospirilosophy tool.

I cannot think of one spiritual path that says to lie.

I cannot think of one spiritual path that is not dedicated to discovering truth.

I cannot think of one spiritual path that says to protect your online or professional image.

We live in a day and age where the grey area has become about our image and creating an image that gets people to follow us and heap praise upon us in order to create more business opportunities.

Anytime you let your bank account make your decision you ave already lost the war of ideas.

You are operating from a fear or lack mentality. You fear that admitting that you are wrong will have people choosing to go with someone else.

It takes an act of humility, strength and courage to admit your wrong.

Someone once told me that Jivnana was giving me a lot of free work on self development and I disagreed.

I was wrong.

She absolutely did what she does as a professional in those debates and assisted me as I was helping myself to find direction and find new and different ways of presenting myself and my ideas.

Thank you Jivana and I hope you are still giving as good as you get because you are a strong and courageous human who will take a stand and never back down. While I rarely agreed with you I respect you for never agreeing to disagree.

If you don’t like my approach I suggest looking Jivana up and giving her a shot at assisting you in helping yourself.

You will never find anyone who will work as hard as I do to bring out your best. I don’t think she is on beBee, however you can find her on Linkedin and I would love to see her here on beBee as she has a true gift for doing similar work to what I do.

I haven’t spoken to this woman in well over a year and I think it is the right thing to do to show that there are people out there who disagree with me that I do respect.

I think it would be wrong of me to never bring her name up and give her the credit she earned for everything she did for me by challenging me at every turn to be better and bring it from within and find the strength I may have forgotten was there.

A credit to humanity and I will always be grateful for the battles we fought against each other in the war of ideas.

The Idea of Addiction

Life is addiction and addiction is life. There is no such thing as a human without at least one addiction.

Addiction can be physical or psychological or both.

I understand why I am addicted to tobacco beyond the physical nicotine addiction.

I understand why I became addicted to the internet.

I understand why I became addicted to alcohol.

I understand why I became addicted to working out.

I understand why I became addicted to prescription pain killers.

I understand why I became addicted to meditation.

I understand why I became addicted to love.

We are emotional creatures.

We get addicted to anything that makes us feel good.

We get addicted to that which makes us feel nothing at all.

Depending on the experiences of your individual life you will be addicted and are addicted to more than one thing.

I am currently addicted to tobacco, coffee, music, writing, dark chocolate, meditation and some stuff I’m forgetting.

Without music I am anxious.

Without tobacco, I can’t focus and my sensitivity gets stronger to the point where I can physically feel emotional energy.

When I write it feels good. I have been writing 6 days a week for the most part for over 3 years.

If I don’t have my dark chocolate almond milk for my coffee, I don’t feel like me.

I meditate off and on throughout my day and will spend hours ignoring my life in favor of the escape meditation can be and often is.

I think you get the point of just how simple the idea of addiction is and that we are all addicts and that life in part is a matter of picking the addictions you like and anyone who doesn’t like it can fuck off.

The addicts credo.

There is no great psychological or spiritual or philosophical mystery to addiction. We get addicted to that which assists in dealing with life or allows us to escape dealing with life.

TV and films and books are also addiction sources said the recovered film addict who has seen over 5 thousand movies. I use to rent 15 a week and watch them all. I turned this addiction into a blog for 3 years called The Movie Whore.

Say what you want about the name, people in the film industry I interviewed, they loved it. I wrote every day and became addicted to the persona of The Movie Whore as much as I was addicted to the films that inspired the personas formation.

As much as I would like to say it was a public image persona, it was just a name for my film addiction that allowed me to attempt to make my addiction productive and therefore validating the behavior that led to the name being used. I mentioned earlier I wanted to be a film producer. My addiction turned blog, led to me becoming a film producer.

Sometimes addiction can lead to a productive life. It depends on the addiction and what you do with it.

Did I mention I’m a workaholic?

In my corporate days, if I was on salary, I worked a lot of overtime.

When I drove a taxi, I worked 6 days a week, working 18 hour shifts for a few months.

As a stay at home dad and house husband a day off didn’t exist in my world.

I’m still addicted to working and have had to teach myself when to relax and let go of it. As you can see by my confession, I’m still working on it.

I told you I’m as flawed as you are. For the most part, I’m at peace with my flaws and the ones that still stir up internal conflict, well that’s between me and myself.

As far as picking my addictions goes, well I feel good about that too. Here’s why.

The playlists of music I listen to all day and night are as ever evolving as I am.

The playlist I listen to most is “The Church of Rock ‘N’ Roll” to signify these are the songs I use to align or define my ego expression.

The play list changes from time to time. I will be listening to the lyrics and find a certain song no longer applies to how I choose to view life and it gets dropped. I will create a radio station to give myself the opportunity to hear something new or at least new to me. At times songs from this exercise find their way to the list.

The other playlist I listen to daily is called “Turn the mirror inward” and is the one I listen to as I begin my last meditation of the day to get ready for bed. With my dyslexia it makes reading more work than relaxing or a form of escapism.

I find with music the visual journey in my mind’s eye often takes me through my own history and remembering why this song applies.

I use music to reinforce my personal behavioral program choices.

I use music to assist me in managing me.

I exercise discernment in what music I allow to possibly plant a seed with the lyrics.

I pick music that reinforces my individuality and my choice to be a nonconformist in the idea of being a slave to cultural trends.

I pick music that reminds me, only I know me and fully understand who I am and why I chose to be this way in this moment.

I pick music that reminds me none of us is any better than any other.

I pick music that reminds me as a species we are all in this together.

The point is, I pick music based on what I like singing along with on occasion. I pick music with lyrics that remind me why I even fell in love with music to begin with.

I would feel like I was trying to pull a fast one f I did not talk about my tobacco addiction. I have heard all I am going to hear in the way of reasons why I should quit. Here’s why.

I like it.

Here’s the real self-rationalization I use to feel OK with myself and my choice to remain addicted to tobacco.

My dad is a smoker. I grew up in the 70′ and 80’s and parents smoked inside the house. In fact people smoked in restaurants, bowling alleys, bars and even in the grocery store. You couldn’t go anywhere and not be around someone smoking except the movie theater and church, at least the ones I went to as a kid.

At age 13 I stole a pack of my dad’s cigarettes. I put that first one to my lips and lit it. I took my first drag and inhaled. I felt like I had just taken my first real breath. I didn’t cough or get queasy. I liked it the first time I tried it and have been basically smoking for 29 years. I had to quit in basic training and that lasted 7 weeks. I quit at age 31 after my son had been born. It lasted two months.

I quit smoking at age 37 for about 2 months. I did well until my 3rd wife wanted to still have our “going to bed” cigarette and the “after sex” cigarette. I started sneaking cigarettes behind her back and lying about my smoking.

Typical addict behavior.

I’ve always worked at not speaking in anger. I always used going out to have a smoke as a way to keep it from coming out. To give myself time to think and calm down, I smoked and paced while talking to myself.

I am not quitting in the foreseeable future. I’ve designed my diet and workout routine around combating the health effects of smoking tobacco.

I understand as long as I continue to use tobacco there is currently no way to totally eliminate the dangerous possible side effects.

The first step I took towards reducing those effects was to switch to rolling my own with organic tobacco. I noticed right away that the tobacco was stronger and had a stronger effect.

I naturally started smoking less. When I roll a cigarette it might take me anywhere from 1-2 hours to smoke that full cigarette. When I buy a pack of smokes, I smoke a pack a day. When I roll my own organic tobacco cigarettes I smoke between 5 and 7 a day.

I work to keep it at the 5, but shit happens. Financially this also was a good option.

Let’s say a pack of decent smokes is $5 for the sake of this example. I pay $10 for a pouch currently. A pouch contains 50 papers or the equivalent of 2 and a half packs of cigarettes. A pouch lasts me 7-10 days.

A pack a day at $5 over 7 days is $35 and a pouch for $10 that lasts that same 7 days is all the math this addict needed to look at.

An addict will look into every detail of feeding their addiction, to make sure they can. This math means more money to spend on the dietary needs that will also assist in reducing the unhealthy effects.

I want to take time to point out there are a ton of other chemicals in most prepackaged cigarettes sold today in the United States. I removed smoking those chemicals from my addiction. While I know of no study to show it, I do feel this also reduced the health risks by perhaps 50% as a result. I smoke fewer cigarettes and eliminated smoking the chemicals and now only smoke organic tobacco.

This is addict logic and thinking. It’s probably closer to 10% reduction, however an addict will lie like a motherfucker to themselves and the world to feel OK with feeding the addiction. It is ego driven behavior in every way.

I have a high antioxidant diet with foods and herbs known to assist in proper digestion and flushing out toxins from the body. The foundation of my diet is pink crystal Himalayan salt.

Its structure is cube shape which is what makes it the perfect purifying agent. I recommend doing your own research into this salt and make your own choice. It’s also known to aid in breaking addiction.

I could give you pages of why I smoke in great detail, however I think we get the point about what addiction is and what it can look like in living action.

Take some time and think about the things you do to check out or to feel good and you will find your addictions.

As soon as you start finding yourself rationalizing it or attempting to justify it, you will know you have found your addictions.

We each have our addictions and we have our reasons for this one or that one. As long as it works for you and you’re not inflicting harm on others, fuck yourself up all you want in my opinion.

Simply understand there will be consequences and be prepared to deal with them. This is why there are some substances I will not try even once. Anything can become addictive and moderation is all about self-discipline and owning your choices instead of looking for excuses.

I feel I am as responsible as I can be in the choices I’ve made with the addictions I have in my life.

I take time to think and examine the reasons why I engage in these addictions every time I do it. I know every time I abuse a substance or engage in behavior that could be harmful to myself and take precautions to limit the harm that might and can be done to me with my choices.

I exercise self-discipline to act in moderation with the understanding as to why I am engaging my will power to not use this or that at any given moment.

I choose to use whatever it is I am using to feel good or escape dealing with life or to feel nothing.

I choose the amount of the substance or the length of time I use to escape life or feel good or feel nothing.

It is the things we feel we need others to say is OK that is an indicator what we are doing might in fact not be healthy for us. Addiction has infinite forms.

The only way to truly fight addiction is to stop fighting it and start managing it with will and intent to the healthiest possible level you feel fine defending. The choice is to manage it or be a slave to it.

The choice is to own it and figure out why it’s there to begin with, in order to give you options in deciding what to do about it.

The only way to truly give up an addiction is to have the desire to do so first. You must see it as not being fun anymore. You must see it for what it is.

You must be totally committed to the choice to never use again. Making someone go to rehab has a low probability of removing the specific addiction/s. One must make the choice of their own free will if the addiction is to be broken.

I made a commitment to not drink because I never wanted my children to see me drunk ever again. I made that decision after they saw me throwing up drunk on the side of the road. I felt as if I was a bad dad.

While I still drink on rare occasion, I have gotten drunk one time since that night.

That one time was at a party with no children present and my kids were gone for the weekend. I was so embarrassed by my behavior, I never drink more than 3. Those 3 drinks might give me a buzz, however I never will allow myself to get drunk.

I never went AA. I never sought out a support group or counseling.

I took ownership of it and took my power back.

In my mid 20’s I developed a prescription pain pill addiction as a result of an injury that became a source of chronic pain. I dislocated two ribs between my right shoulder blade and my spine. At the time I had no insurance and was not making enough money to afford a DR.

It was 2 months before I had the injury looked at and another year before it was treated. As a result I had developed scarring in the muscle under my right shoulder blade and it became a daily source of pain. My average pain level was 5 on good days, an 8 on bad days and on average between 6 and 7 using the 1-10 pain scale.

I am not sure there is an adequate way to describe what living with chronic pain is. If you have never dealt with chronic pain, it is difficult to imagine a physical pain that never goes away.

I sustained more soft tissue back injuries over the years and my short leg was causing the nerves to get twisted up in my lower spine. It also had caused twisting in the muscles and my spine.

If you have never experienced chronic pain, there is no way to describe the feeling of temporary relief from that pain. I had made the decision to give up prescription pain killers after I gave up drinking.

I gave up the pills with the cigarettes and coffee all on the same day while still married to my second wife. I went back to coffee after a few days. Over the next several years my pain level steadily increased, however I still have yet to use prescription pain killers to this day except on one occasion. I felt hung-over the next day and haven’t taken anything harder than ibuprofen in 5 years.

At age 36 I found myself driving a taxi. At the end of my shifts when I got home it was frequent that I could barely stand to be on my feet long enough to make it into the house.

The pain in my lower back was a ten. I started using marijuana for pain relief. It wasn’t doing much due to the level of pain I was in. By this time in my life my daily pain was an 8 on average. My good days were the 6 and 7’s and the bad days felt like 11.

I still refused to use prescription painkillers because of my past addiction and not wanting to relive it even though my life had become a torture chamber and it was my own body that was torturing me.

It was during the next 3 years I developed a psychological addiction to marijuana. I still use marijuana medicinally and on occasion I smoke for recreational use with intent. Most of the marijuana smoking I do is medicinal and I do not smoke enough to get high or stoned.

I also prefer strains that have a lower psychoactive effect.

At this time I have difficulty finding the strains I know work best for me medicinally. Due to this I measure out what I am smoking based on the effect the strain I am using has. I take the view of looking at it as dosages based on desired result and known effects of the strain I am using.

I would prefer to have 4 strains available for medicinal use. I have ADHD to the extreme. I need one strain that assists with focus and does not get me high so I can be productive. I need a strain that is strong and turns my brain to mush so I can sleep through the night and get the rest I need. Without it I skim sleep and wake frequently through the night and never get much rest.

The other two strains are for the same purposes and there to have something to switch back and forth to keep my tolerance lower for these strains. I have found just as with any other substance, continued use of one strain will build a tolerance and it will take higher doses of that substance to gain the desired result.

In walks addiction.

My life has shown me I am prone to addictive behavior. I own it and manage it to attempt to not develop unhealthy behaviors that go along with the things I use to deal with life or escape it on occasion. Before I could ever manage it myself I had to acknowledge the choice was mine and if I want to abuse, I will and no one can stop me except for me.

Even in the act of reaching out for someone to tell you not to do what you are thinking, you are making the choice to deter the desire over simply giving into it.

I understand addiction because I’m an addict and I live with my addictions and own them for what they are and manage them to reduce the harm they can and will inflict upon me and my life.

I’m still dealing with chronic pain as the muscles in my body adjust to the lengthening of my short leg, however now my daily average is 5 and on good days it’s a 4 and I barely notice it and on bad days it’s an 8 and I meditate most of the day to escape the pain.

I had lived with my twisted physical form for 39 years and it has been 2 and a half years since the day I had finished the internal process of lengthening my leg and fixing my oversize hip.

That is 39 years of muscle retraining I am in the middle of still. I am still a ways off from full recovery and I am not sure if I will ever fully physically recover.

How many people do you know that have done this to themselves?

I do know that I am in much less pain and I manage it much better than I used to. I also feel good about the way I manage myself in avoiding addictive behavior and use of self-discipline and exercising my power of choice. Or to say I never once bought into the idea that a lot recovery programs use in giving it over to a higher power.

If God resides within everything and everyone, than we are our higher power and that power is the power to choose for ourselves.

If I had the personal will power to break my own addictions by choice and stay clean, anyone can do it. I feel anything else is a cop out or attempt to take the idea of having that kind of power over your life away.

I want to add this piece from poet Marianne Williamson:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God. You’re playing small doesn’t serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Enough said on addiction and your power to be an addict or not is your power to choose.

Are you valid or seeking validation?

It is often that when we venture off into the online world and start talking, we are seeking validation.

Everyone does it.

We like recognition.

It feels pleasant.

So what?

Leading a life seeking that recognition builds a cage and a limiting way to live and view how of you can best contribute to any given thing at any given time.

Let’s examine 3 questions I use in Enlightened View buzz and see why I use them and call it the enlightened view.

Why one?

This sends one on an exploration of understanding what one’s intent is to even speak in the first place.

If the answer to why me is to show off and seek recognition for showing off it reduces the likelihood of one needing to speak and one having something that actually has much to do with the topic or where the discussion is and where it is going.

One is seeking to have one’s ego stroked.

Why here?

Could it be better to take it in and discuss it elsewhere before offering my view?

I’m putting something out there for all to see. How will they possibly perceive me and what I have to say?

Is it for them or me that I am doing it here?

If it’s for me why?

Why now?

Am I reacting or responding and how is this contribution valuable for everyone who will read it?

Too often in online discussion we get locked into who is commenting and forget the much larger audience who never says a word.

One of my skills allows me to set the size of the hive mind that becomes a faceless single stream of consciousness that flows through my medium mask. It allows me to get a median read on the reaction of the larger audience and gauge my own commenting accordingly.

I use this skill in everything I write.

In order for this skill to work I have to drop my ego out and often find myself taking up unpopular positions with the few who are commenting. The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few or the one and need trumps want every day of the week and twice on Sunday.

What do people need to read in order to understand it better?

That’s making it about we and setting aside the me for the sake of the we.

Seeking validation or credit or recognition is all about the me.

Why one?

Why here?

Why now?

Is it for me or we?

The enlightened view is all about the we.

The Revolution that never was

The Beatles are arguably one of if not the most influential band in Rock ‘N’ Roll history. This buzz is not about that argument. This buzz is about one song that keeps influencing me almost daily.

You say you want a revolution
Well, you know
We all want to change the world
You tell me that it’s evolution
Well, you know
We all want to change the world

The only revolution I ever desire to give my voice or energy to is the revolution of art and the ongoing war of ideas.

It’s been said that storytellers rule the world. Storytelling is an art form that belongs in the hands of the artists. For over 300 years we had a period of time we call the renaissance where the storytellers and the artists led a revolution in the evolution of thought.

In order for a species to evolve, their thinking must evolve as well. When I daydream about the revolution that never was, I see a bloodless evolution of the species. The world is changing and the human species is changing along with it. It’s the wave of change of the generation and the day.

We are not merely wanting to change the world anymore, we are changing it every day.

But when you talk about destruction
Don’t you know that you can count me out

I’m a pacifist by choice after training myself in martial arts and in a way making a weapon of myself. I have had to use it once and that was enough for me to easily choose a life of non violence. If you have never come within seconds of killing someone one there is no way to explain how you see yourself after that moment. If you have never taken a life, ditto.

Too many veterans live with the PTSD that moment causes. Too many don’t get the care they need. Too many are homeless.

Whether it helps or not, can we stop killing each other for a day please and thank you.

Don’t you know it’s gonna be alright
Alright, alright

I often refer to the song Carry On as the song that keeps me going while waiting for other dreamers to join the us that is ever growing us that all listen to Imagine by John Lennon as a sacred song of holy worship.

You say you got a real solution
Well, you know
We’d all love to see the plan
You ask me for a contribution
Well, you know
We’re all doing what we can

There is no master plan that anyone of us could devise that would really work. It has to be designed as it fits as we go. Massive world change takes time and small steps.

Take the time to think globally and be a part of the ongoing refinement that is our shared evolution of thought and then do something locally with it.

But if you want money for people with minds that hate
All I can tell you is brother you have to wait

Forget about the hate and heal the pain.

Don’t you know it’s gonna be alright
Alright, alright, al…

It’s the only way it will ever be alright.

You say you’ll change the constitution
Well, you know
We all want to change your head
You tell me it’s the institution
Well, you know
You’d better free your mind instead

Who knows what form change is going to take?

I have a few ideas.

No one human has the right to dictate life for the rest.

If you think it should be you, please get your head examined immediately. You have lost touch with reality.

But if you go carrying pictures of Chairman Mao
You ain’t going to make it with anyone anyhow

Take out Chairman Mao and insert vile politician or head of whatever country works for you.

Don’t you know know it’s gonna be alright
Alright, alright

It’s going to be alright when we work to make it so.

 

Blinded by Romantic Love

A hopeless romantic without a partner by my side
Makes it nearly unbearable the is life ride

Even though one is whole
To be joined is one’s only goal

Side by side souls mated
By choice alone are we fated

It’s torture not to feel her touch her warm embrace
It’s endless suffering not to be face to face

I feel so weak when it comes to you
The only one who can hurt me it is true

You stole my heart in one glance
In your arms I became a slave to your trance

I look for every way
To make this pain go away

Yet I know it will only end
In your arms again

What will it take to to get you to see
What your absence is doing to me

You consume my heart and my every thought
This is why I fought

I have never felt so lonely
Wanting you as my only

I feel as though I have gone insane
A man possessed in your name

You have stolen my heart
You are my art

The only thing that brings out my creative side
In this darkness waiting for the shifting side

I want to forget how to behave
I want to rant and rave

So much work I put into taming me
All undone by thee

I want to grab you and pull you to me to find sweet bliss
By shoring with you our first kiss

It’s the love of romance of this you can trust
Unconditional love mixed with lust

I want to worship at the temple of my Goddess
I want to give you my gentle caress

I want to ravage you all night long
It’s to you my lust belongs

I am a man who wants only one by my side
One to live out the rest of this life’s ride

It’s you I want as the Queen of my Universe
You living Goddess of this verse

Please end my pain
And take me into your arms again

I feel so crazy and insane
Loving you like this is no game

Emotional Intelligence = Empathic Intuition

They are the same thing.

When you allow yourself to engage in empathy you open the empathic ability each of us has to a certain degree. In doing this you learn to translate emotion and the intent behind it. This is the basis of intuition, to be able to read between the lines so to speak to understand what isn’t being said or better understand why it is being said to begin with.

As you choose to engage in Empathy more often you hone the intuitive self and create a skill in reading people and situations. Being able to intuitively take a reading of a person or group with out having to engage, merely viewing and opening yourself up to the emotional wave/s present.

For an Empath emotional intelligence is who they are personified.

When you can take on the emotions of others it gives you an insight into them and what is causing it. Think of an Empath as the equivalent of an Empathic Wizard so to speak. The etymology of the word Wizard from old English simply means Wise. Over the centuries we have given this word new meaning attaching the ideas of wizardry and magic however originally the Wizard was the wisest person around.

Wisdom often comes from understanding why we feel what we do.

I always say “If knowledge is power than wisdom is understanding.”

The intuitive self is often much wiser than the thinking self as it is often restricted by learned process. Intuition guides you from within without need for lengthy explanations, you simply “know” what is going on and are better able to hone in on the wisest course of action.

How does this aid in business?

The more you hone your intuition the less time you lose in making a decision you feel confident about.

The more you open yourself to the empathic nature we all share the easier it is to communicate and often you find yourself being more direct and simple with your communication.

You think less and your honed intuition, which could also be called your instincts, will give you the feeling as though you are thinking faster when in reality you are giving more trust to your own subconscious programming that you build over time to build faith in your intuition.

That takes experience to build and no one can teach you a course on it or give it to you in a book.

It’s simply a matter of setting the intent to allow yourself to be more open to what you are feeling coming from others and investigating through questions to learn to translate the emotion better and in doing so developing the intuitive skill.

Part of what I do is assisting people in opening up to their intuitive self and assisting them in becoming more accurate in their reading of emotion and building a honed skill.

In the thousands of students I have had I often find honing and mastering this skill gives them more confidence and they are not as easily shaken by someone projecting in an unhealthy way and are better prepared to deal with the situation and bring it to a peaceful resolution as they have trained themselves to understand where it is coming from regardless of the words used.

This is also the gateway to climbing the ladder of conscious level awareness and as you engage you will become more and more consciously aware of a lot of things. I have found that having someone to be the mirror you bounce your reading ability off of as it grows can assist in avoiding some unpleasant moments through a misread as you develop the skill.

This is also part of becoming unified in mind, body and spirit and reaching the enlightened view or what is commonly called enlightenment.

We are emotional creatures and it is only in embracing that and learning to understand each others emotions and why they are there that we become wise.

The Theory of Consciousness and Connected Gravity?

I have a reputation for being direct. This is a definite departure as I venture into the unknown.

In taking this trip into the unknown I need some assistance and welcome all who want to take a stab at seeing what we can discover working together.

Where do we start?

In my opinion I think the first place to start is the gyre.

In simplest terms a gyre is a subatomic sized singularity or black hole that works on a vortex.

In my mind the only thing that makes sense is that everything is connected through gravity.

Science has proven there is a thin electromagnetic field that surrounds our human form and that we never actually touch anything though it feels as though we do.

Key part there is the word “magnetic” for me.

A field that is a unique gravitational signature that tells existence what our form is and how to respond to it physically as well as setting limits for the physical form.

In my thinking it is the gyre that is the only thing that makes sense as the source that creates this field around our form.

As I am going here I want to take a moment here to remind myself as I type, this is all theory and I am open to the ideas of the rest.

The gyre is smaller than the DNA strands that tell our body what form to take as well as bunch of other stuff, what is it that tells the DNA strands to form?

This is where I get into the what if realm with no way to really know if I am right or wrong. I am not even sure there is a way to prove it.

What if within the gyre is a consciousness?

What if the gyres work in unison communicating with each other to work together?

That would mean that gravity is a living a force. I have never had that thought before I just wrote it.

How do we prove or disprove that gravity is a living force with consciousness that we simply do not yet understand?

This would be the jumping off point where I am asking for assistance in discovery and building the Theory of Consciousness and Connected Gravity.

For me this also answers the question of organized chaos and why the universe works even when the math can not explain it. The free will of the consciousness within gravity to screw with us when we think math will give us the answer that eludes our grasp. That little chaos factor that keeps popping up.

We have been given the ability to reason for a reason and I ask that we all bring reason to this discussion and respect that each of us in charting into unknown territory as far as I know.

Who wants to chase the white rabbit with me?

Building confidence through better self talk

I frequently say that self talk is the most important talk there is in life.

It’s the talk that defines us and our life. It’s the perception we create of who we are and where our life is and where it has been and where it going. Self talk is the character refining and defining that we do as the story that is our life unfolds.

I use what I call The Cinematic View.

The story of one’s life will always be in the context of one’s character. One’s self talk is describing who that character is and defines at times the limits of where one’s life can go. If one is telling oneself that one is always “this,” then one will always be that.

Henry Rollins in an interview was asked how he managed to have such a varied career. He basically said that it didn’t matter what he was offered the answer was yes and he would figure it out as he went. This led to writing a script for the first time, acting for the first time and a lot of firsts that have become things Henry has done in stretches to pay the bills and what not.

A fine example of modern day Bardism if there ever was one. Never allowing oneself to become imprisoned by the idea of not being able to do something just because the experience is lacking. Telling oneself that one is capable and will always find a way to figure it out no matter what “it” is.

This is may not be good to use as a marketing point, however in life it will open doors you never thought were possible. It leaves the story of your life open ended and able to take turns and plot twists that keep it interesting and keep you moving. It is a frame of mind that allows life to be an endless adventure while picking up skill after skill along the way.

Before you can live it you have to tell yourself that you are living it and that next adventure is always around the next corner. You have to tell yourself you are capable of living it.

This is where daily mantras come in handy.

I am wise.
I work smart.
I am kind.

Say it enough day in and day out and it will become what one one truly is. Building your own mantras is an exercise in claiming your power and taking it back to manage your life in the way that suits you best. It’s the self talk you create to create your life.

To build more confidence, talk about the you that is confident and why that confidence exists. Take small steps coming out of your comfort zones into other areas. The more experience you rack up the more you have to remind yourself about in times of doubt.

If for some reason you can’t find anything good to say about you to you, hit me up, it’s one of the many things I do. I see the capability in all, the potential is in all of us. Reaching that potential takes work. It takes trial and error. It means taking our lumps and figuring out how to do it better next time.

Just remember never to discourage anyone making progress and that starts with yourself and your self talk.

How music saved my life

A few years ago I came one good hard push on a dagger away from ending my life. In fact I stood in my living room with a 14″ dagger on 3 separate occasions ready to kill myself. Here’s what stopped me.

When I awoke to the fact I am an Empath, Telepath and a Medium, I started talking about it and telling people.

I lost every close friend I had save one who was on the other side of the country. My 3rd wife who is also an Empath became abusive because she lied about her being and thought I should too. My parents decided I was under the influence of Satan. My 2nd wife used it to try and take my son out of my care. She lost that court battle.

That was the first of 3 shrinks I saw who have all given me a clean bill of mental health.

The ridicule of being told I was crazy or full of shit or that my X-Men powers are something people should run away from led to me wanting to kill myself.

What stopped me each time was 3 songs that became anthems in my life.

Freak Like Me by Halestorm.

Thank you Lizzy Hale for writing that one even though you had no idea who would grab on to it as a song of hope. Many of us have been made to feel as though we should be freaks locked up in the basement hidden from the world.

We Are The Others by Delain.

Thank you Charlotte Wessels for writing another song you had no idea would become a song of hope for a bunch of people who felt and often still feel like others and are made to feel as they don’t belong.

Born This Way by Lady Gaga.

Thank you Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta because I and so many others were simply born this way and deserve the same respect and acceptance as any human being. Again we were not the ones the song was being sung about however it became a song of hope and inspiration for us.

The kind of ridicule and abuse people such as myself have taken and at times still take led to me wanting to end my life and has done the same for countless others.

For me after the 3rd time, I made a promise to myself to never think about suicide ever again. As a symbolic gesture of this, I took the dagger I was going thrust into my heart and wrapped it up in a towel and threw it in a dumpster.

I haven’t felt suicidal since no matter how much ridicule and abuse I have taken in the last 3 years since.

#Halestorm

#Delain

#LadyGaga

 

One Love One Race is how to live Pro Human

For a long time I have heard the mantra “One Love” and it wasn’t until the last few years I really started thinking about it and what it means and could mean.

They idea of us all being one connected consciousness and yet still have the ability to be individuals is mind boggling at best until you really experience it. As simple as I could explain it here, it has no value unless you experience it.

There is no modern wisdom or ancient wisdom that is going to change the world in a book or a blog piece or singular performance of any kind. People who make a living off seminars and books who say other wise get really pissed off when I let that secret out in the way I shred the veil so to speak.

Wisdom can only be gained through experience and is unique to the individual view that are the stories of ones life that led one to the wisdom they guide their life by.

Love is honest in all things.

My one on one work has always been 99% charity work. I have quoted prices to 3 people in 2 years and generally if you hit me up on any social network I am on with a question I will answer it and if it turns into a discussion and more of them I never stop to think about charging.

There was a woman a couple years ago that I did a lot of session work with and it helped her career as a life coach quite a bit. When I asked her what she would charge for what she received she said somewhere around $400- $500 an hour. Her name is Amy Fiedler and she is good. She had left a recommendation for me on the profile I chose to delete when I left Linkedin for a couple months for personal reasons.

I could give a list of professional women in the guidance arena who have been my charity clients on a regular for the last 2 or 3 years.  When I am not doing that I am taking at least 6 women in my life at a time as something of a surrogate boyfriend. I do all the boyfriend jobs except sex and it stays off the table.

The faces have been changing since I was 12 however it often feels like the same 6 women are always in my life with others dropping in here and there.

I spend a lot time empowering them to be the strong human beings they are. I also hear all the broken heart stories and do a lot hugging as they cry. I also have a weird way of knowing exactly when to check on them.

These women are always the best part of my life because they always bring out the best in me.

Since embracing the one love idea and incorporating it with being an Empath it has done nothing but create more and more wonderful intimate friendships in my life with wonderful human beings who just happen to be women.

I thought I was crazy for 37 years. Then I realized it was real, the nightmare I went to sleep at night to escape.

Not knowing I was a Telepath for 37 years and not knowing I am an Empath meant when the women of my life told me the horror stories no one should ever have to live through, I saw it and felt it with them as if I was them down to physical sensations.

Waking nightmare depending on who I was around as I would also know their darkest of desires and things no human should ever want to do to another human.

When you can see where the desire comes from in the pain that created it, you really start thinking about what you can do if anything to:

1. Make the nightmare go away.

2. Never have to see it again unless it’s necessary.

I have a very twisted sense of humor in order to survive what I have seen and felt. The longer I live my life living my integrity living my individual expression of love in the flesh, the more one love is the only love we truly need and what we need to be giving more of to the sum of us all.

That love does not know age or skin color or borders or language or gender. That love is.

I am curious if there is a debatable argument to be made.

The questions for exploration in my mind are as follows.

What is the human value with the idea of keeping society going and not repeating our history of violence is there to the idea of race beyond only being human?

If we want to stop killing each other what is the value of borders?

If we are to be Pro Human why does gender matter unless sex is on the table?

If we are to say fuck it to the dark mirror of fear, what is the value of any label we use other than human?

If sex is on the table, gender and gender identification matter.

Where does it matter in life any other time if we are to treat each other with one love as one race?

What is the human value of hate?

Does hate versus hate in your opinion do anyone any good?

Does the idea of forget the hate and heal the pain sound good to you for humanity?

Are you beginning to see why I say one love one race is to be pro human and that is what it means to be so human.

The basis of intuition and the power of your voice

In the last 5 years I have dedicated myself to taking my intuitive skills and making them razor sharp as well as understanding how it works and why.

My dad asked me this morning as I was talking to him about some of the difficulties of living life as the Empath I am. When he asked who I go to, I had to stop and think.

I spend most of my time mentoring other people and helping them better understand where it comes from and how to manage it better and sharpen the ability into a skill set. Somewhere over the last 5 years I became an expert on the subject while all I was trying to do was mange me better.

Let’s take a few here to examine a little closer what intuition is and how the power of your voice effects it.

Your voice is a signal and the volume and emotion you put into every word is the power you give your voice, more so than the actual words spoken.

In the Air Force I studied “the signal” which is the wave of energy that carries data across the world and through the entirety of existence. Your voice is every bit as much a signal carrying data across the world and through the entirety of existence.

Though the volume dies out, the emotion carries on and is felt world wide even though most never recognize it at the conscious level. We have felt every word everyone has said in the world since we were born.

We ignore most of this information and it is stored away in the subconscious until it becomes relevant to our life.

The basis of intuition starts here.

When you instantly feel as though you can or can’t trust someone it is due to feeling everything they have ever said. It’s the subconscious now finding that stored away information relevant.

Think about this way.

When we speak a lie we have an emotional tremor line that goes out with our lie that tells the world we are full of shit and the world responds accordingly if they are listening to their intuition. That inner voice that is rarely ever wrong.

Thought and emotional energy has no mass and therefore travels instantaneously across any distance. It’s why I often say the distance is only in our mind. When we speak the emotion and thoughts behind our words hit before we finish speaking.

This would be where we get that feeling of knowing where someone is heading and at times say “Let me cut you off right there.” We do this because we have already felt the entirety of their speech and the emotions and concepts behind it. When we are allow ourselves to give into this intuitive way of reading people we can often jump ahead in the conversation.

It can also lead to some rude behavior at times. Even though we can feel where it is going it is considered to be respectful to allow people to finish. Empaths and Telepaths have hard time with this. They are often already ahead of where the discussion is and it takes exercising self discipline and patience in order to not be rude and say “Let me cut you off right there.”

This is why an intuitive consultant can consult in industries they have no experience in. They allow themselves to be a conduit for what you already know and are ignoring within. There have been many times in my life I have been discussing something with someone and I am able to assist them in making huge strides forward in their projects and what not in 5 minutes or less frequently.

I understand why this upsets people who do not believe intuition is a real thing and would prefer to write it off as mysticism or call it anything but credible. I understand why intuitives get ridiculed in social media and other areas of life. I understand why intuitives are treated with skepticism and animosity at times.

It looks like it all comes easy to us with little to no effort.

Wrong.

It takes a lot of work to master the intuitive nature of oneself that never ends. A lot of intuitives spend their life in a state of hyper vigilance. The more you advance the intuitive side of yourself the more susceptible you can become to what is commonly referred to as psychic attacks.

Be as skeptical as you want, it does exist and ignoring it makes you that much more susceptible to it. It’s not a matter of belief it’s a matter of fact.

In the USA the government has been using people such as myself for decades and has spent millions if not billions in researching how to use it for spy activity.

This was the discussion I had with 2 different CIA agents and one Assassin. The Assassin used to be a teacher at one of the schools the governments recruit from.

Using an advanced intuitive makes interrogation easy and can break through any training one has been given to resit being interrogated. This is what both CIA agents explained to me as to why it is used.

The Assassin was the one who explained to me that most of what the school taught was the basic concepts and then it was a lot of self work by the students to master the skills. This means no one can give it to you in a book or a workshop or a seminar and it relies solely on understanding the concepts are indeed fact and then doing the work yourself. Most of that work is done with a partner in order to build each others skills up.

You get random visits from two CIA agents and an Assassin and see how long it takes you to reveal this where some of your understanding comes from. For me those conversations were more than 5 years ago.

It actually did wonders for me in assisting me in removing my own skepticism about my own being and why I have been doing a lot of this since birth.

If it’s true then why doesn’t the government say something?

“Hi public, we have been lying about this thing we have been hiding for decades…”

Get the point.

The reaction would be sure to cause even more distrust in the government than what already exists and I figure with Trump in office our government is already becoming a farce that the rest of the world is having trouble respecting.

To sum up.

Your voice travels far beyond it’s ability to be heard and is felt worldwide. We are all intuitive to some extent and can strengthen that through self exercise with a little guidance from someone who knows what they are doing and has mastered these skills.

Those who become masters of their intuition are some of the most efficient people in thought, word and action and can often assist anyone in making huge strides forward in whatever it is they wish to accomplish.

For all you skeptics out there, don’t knock it until you have tried it, as you are only limiting yourself and weakening your own intuitive abilities.

Do you know what it’s like?

I listen to the song WHAT IT’S LIKE by Everlast as a reminder to engage empathy and that doing that is acting with mindfulness.

We’ve all seen the man at the liquor store beggin’ for your change
The hair on his face is dirty, dreadlocked and full of mange
He asked a man for what he could spare with shame in his eyes
“Get a job, you fuckin’ slob”‘s all he replied
[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in his shoes
‘Cause then you really might know what it’s like to sing the blues
Then you really might know what it’s like [4x]

Ever been that guy or gal to tell a homeless person to get a job and that it’s all their fault they are homeless?

Ever been so foolish to think that people are responsible for their own lives and you have no responsibility to anyone but you?

Ever been turned down for assistance because you are not a minority?

Ever been vilified for being you?

Mary got pregnant from a kid named Tom who said he was in love
He said, “Don’t worry about a thing, baby doll, I’m the man you’ve been dreamin’ of.”
But three months later he said he won’t date her or return her call
And she sweared, “God damn if I find that man I’m cuttin’ off his balls.”
And then she heads for the clinic and she gets some static walkin’ through the door.
They call her a killer, and they call her a sinner, and they call her a whore
[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in her shoes
‘Cause then you really might know what it’s like to have to choose
Then you really might know what it’s like [4x]

Ever stepped up to the plate to be a man?

Ever claimed to a spiritual person and then judge a young woman who decides to get an abortion?

Ever been that young woman who needed more than anything to have someone exercise some empathy?

I’ve seen a rich man beg
I’ve seen a good man sin
I’ve seen a tough man cry
I’ve seen a loser win
And a sad man grin
I heard an honest man lie

I’ve been that guy.

I’ve seen the good side of bad
And the down side of up
And everything between
I licked the silver spoon
Drank from the golden cup
Smoked the finest green

Been that guy too.

I stroked the baddest dimes
At least a couple of times
Before I broke their heart

I am not happy I was that guy once.

You know where it ends
Yo, it usually depends
On where you start

For every success story of someone making it out of poverty there are countless more horror stories of those who don’t even if they work their asses off and do all the same things those success stories did.

Typically speaking, born poor, die poor.

I knew this kid named Max
He used to get fat stacks
Out on the corner with drugs
He liked to hang out late
He liked to get shit faced
And keep pace with thugs
Until late one night
There was a big gun fight
Max lost his head
He pulled out his Chrome .45
Talked some shit
And wound up dead
And now his wife and his kids
Are caught in the midst
Of all of his pain
You know it comes that way
At least that’s what they say
When you play the game
[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to wake up to hear the news
‘Cause then you really might know what it’s like to have to lose
Then you really might know what it’s like [3x]
To have to lose…

Let me tell you a story about the dumbest guy I ever met. Not me this time though the song uses my name.
I knew this guy in high school and then didn’t see him for over twenty years. A couple of years ago we reconnected through Facebook one day. I found out the day we started hanging out again that he had been a drug dealer since high school. I had no clue in high school.

I smoked weed twice in high school and one of those times I was pretty sure I smoked oregano.

As we were hanging out and bringing our friendship current, he told me a story about how he got on the radar of the F.B.I. He started dating one of their informants. A woman testifying against a crystal meth ring.

Here’s why he’s the dumbest guy I ever met.

Over the next year I spent most of our time together trying to talk him out of remaining in the drug game.

During that year I spent a lot of time in his garage with thugs and stone cold killers. He was still dating her and his felonious friends had no idea.

I tried to get through to him that she was telling the F.B.I. everything to build organized crimes cases against the organized crime parties he was doing business with and that was the mob, the Bloods and the Crypts, biker gangs and the Mexican Mafia. He was connected to all of them and was doing business with all of them.

She often had access to his phone and he even had told me more than he caught her copying stuff of his phone.

He had it in his head he was too good to ever get caught.

I haven’t spoken to him in over a year because I didn’t want to go to jail or get shot in the cross fire should his business associates ever find out about his F.B.I. informant girlfriend.

He refused to understand the F.B.I. was letting him do business to rack up evidence. He thought he was really getting away with outsmarting the F.B.I.

Willful stupidity and willful ignorance is the worst kind of both.

I hope he wised up and decided to fly straight. If not…

Righteous Debauchery and The Slow Seduction

As the sun sets and Saturday night begins the longer you wait the better the sin. This is why patience is a virtue.

I posted that status update on Twitter and Facebook and it got me to thinking.

Part of learning Tantra is learning patience. I like to think of what I call The Slow Seduction.

There is an art to seducing with love and not animal lust. It all depends on the pay off you are looking for. I am looking for the kind of sex that you can’t describe however always leaves you wanting more and only wanting it from that one.

Let me talk to you men out there about how to slowly seduce the woman in your life whether it is your girlfriend or your wife.

The Slow Seduction starts with eye contact and keeping it no matter how desirable you find her flesh and no matter how much of it is exposed at the time. A lesson I learned from half naked dancers at a strip club one summer and believe me their flesh made it a difficult lesson to master. I’m still human.

Conversation.

Talk about what matters to you and listen to what matters to her. Speak from the heart about what makes your heart bleed and what motivates you to do what you do and less about what you do. Let them feel it coming from the inside as you expose your soul through your tales told.

This is also known as intimacy and creating it between the two of you.

This is not something you do going out to dinner in a room full of people or in a bar or anywhere there are crowds. You do this somewhere that the two of you can easily focus on each other without distraction. This is why I like walks in the park or finding a place in the park to just sit and talk.

Neil Diamond sings the art of love is who you share it with. I call him the master of all love songs for a reason.

When it comes to romance, it is sharing everything without holding back that shows how vulnerable you are ready to be. It’s in that vulnerability where the intimacy grows and the bond between you both strengthens.

I tell the women in my life who are looking for a man to look for man with the slow hand and an easy touch. A gentleman is gentle and if you are truly opening yourself to someone, a look can do more than any touch.

Then gentlest of touch and taking your time allows passion to build and it is the time you invest in taking your time for the rest that leads to the best.

This is the nice of saying make the foreplay last as long as you can and be gentle. Once you get to that moment where the love making begins, take your time and enjoy the sin.

If you can do this for a wife or girlfriend on a regular basis she will appreciate you forever and a day.

After that it is all about whatever the two of you desire to explore as the beasts come forth to play with each other enjoying the dark desires you share.

Sex, drugs and Rock ‘N’ Roll.

Sex: Be responsible.

Drugs: Use moderation.

Rock ‘N’ Roll: Well it did get its name for having sex in a car.

This is why I’m The Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman by life not choice.

Learn to like being corrected if you desire to grow and learn in life

In my mid 20’s I had a fiery passionate relationship with a woman who taught me much in life.

She would correct me as we would talk and I got upset the first time until she said this “I’m trying to make sure you don’t sound like an idiot to everyone else. It’s important to get it right or you do a lot of harm.”

After that I thanked her and have often thanked people who are able to correct me if I am in error.

I work at being accurate and often upset people by correcting what they had no idea was wrong. That’s what Shaman’s do, they give you accurate guidance regardless of what any book says.

It is much more important to the sum of existence to be right than to be liked or respected. When we are incorrect and get others to follow our incorrectness we harm the sum of existence and often inflict suffering on others.

When we allow ourselves to be corrected we show true humility and a true desire to grow and learn. Anything else is defending the image we have created for whatever reason and refuse the correction out of fear of losing status.

Not an opinion. That is a statement of universal and absolute truth of living as a human being.

Shaman’s are supposed to lay it out like that. It’s the lies we live that damage our souls and allow us to inflict damage on each other’s souls. That is not healthy for the sum total.

This is why I say “Unfortunately for some facts do exist.”

It’s why I use this quote from Spock “The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few or the one.”

It’s absolutely selfish to attempt to make an opinion carry more weight than actual truth. It’s selfish manipulation for the sake of self and self alone in order to gain or maintain status in any given society.

I am picky about where I comment as my brand is not about commenting, it’s about teaching for free and never asking for the donations I make a living off of.

If one sees oneself as a teacher first one has refused to learn the master lesson of teaching.

One who is a master of teaching is always the student first, yet not too humble to think one has nothing to teach.

That carries no label and is a mode of life.

While I use the title Shaman there are many who are as wise as I am and have different ways of expressing the same universal absolute truths of existence who use different titles or no title at all. My local family and friends here in Chico, California has more than a few of them. When I hang out with the people I love most, I am hanging out with peers.

The only peer pressure in our peer group is to love more and to do it from the core. One love, one race is our mantra.

We learn and grow with each other in every moment shared. We allow ourselves to be corrected by each other and often give thanks for the correction.

We meet eye to eye with arms wide open for a big ol’ love hug to keep sharing with all we meet eye to eye with open arms.

Love is honest in all things and anytime you deceive you are not loving others, you are hurting them and causing them to suffer.

Again this just happens to be how it actually works. It’s nothing new by an infinite shot.

We all float like butterflies and it is delivering the sting of the truth that transforms us from butterfly to bee in metaphor.

The butterfly is a metaphor for transformation.

When we allow ourselves to be corrected we allow ourselves to be transformed in the moment.

In time

I had one come after me
Wanted to bind and own me

Then I remembered where I last felt free
In the arms of another she

Feeling fully restored
Now I am a little bored

Lost in eyes that saw me true
Lost in the others view

I never tried to find this place
That I live in after an embrace

Patience comes with ease
As I wait for what made me weak in the knees

It’s been so long since I have tasted something like this
I call it peace with a side of bliss

It makes it easy to find my way
Even when playing in the sway

Every muse leaves their mark
On the artists heart that is where she lit the spark

Feeling at home in my own skin
Seeing without seeing sin

Reclaimed my darkness as my own
My sacred space that is my creative home

I need no other to join me in this space
I found me whole behind my own face

In time one might join me of her own choice
Using the power of her own voice

The last the dared to try and bind me
Never again in the darkness will find me

The one who set me free
Is always free with or without me

I have no desire to own thee
I accept that which comes willingly

To find the love I have to share
With one who will take the dare

To meet me in the dark
To see what might spark

I sit and wait
As the muse does hesitate

What fate shall become of me
As I dream of thee

In time the story will unfold
What doe this story hold

Only two will know
And only if they join their flow

The flow of love that springs from within
The flow between two that can find no sin

No games ever played
What stands in our way will be slayed

The beast stirs within
Waiting to begin

In time
Will she choose to be mine

A choice
Made by her voice

Ever waiting
For the muse to stop hesitating

Changing your instincts

Here’s the instincts I changed and have been teaching people to change for more than a decade.

Fight or flight.

We are all familiar with the basic concept of the choice we each make when faced with opposition or the unknown. We either fight it at first or walk away from it and dismiss it completely.

My clients often get this simple guidance where fear is concerned. “Fuck fear!”

In fact one of my former clients got it this morning while I was having my morning coffee and a spliff, catching up with all that happened while I slept.

Using the Psychospirilosophy tool allows anyone to change this fight or flight response to a neutral investigative response. Here’s why and how it works.

The tool asks you to run through these 3 processes of thought.

Psychologically speaking is what I am thinking or thinking about doing healthy. This begins the exploration of how one got to this moment to feel the way one does about what one is thinking or feeling. It allows one the opportunity to look inward and understand oneself and one’s intent better.

I have always said that as long as your spiritual path does not require you to kill animals or people, have something, I don’t care what.

Taking the time to explore whether or not what one is thinking or thinking about doing is in accordance with the spiritual path one has chosen can reveal much about why one is feeling the way one is feeling. One’s faith is tested in walking the talk of that chosen spiritual path.

Faith is tested by life frequently and it is either strengthened or destroyed in these moments of testing and can be renewed or reshaped as experience teaches one if one’s faith is blind or false or holds true based on one’s chosen spiritual path and how one lives it.

Why does a thought or feeling about something seem to have me questioning my faith?

It is often that among different faiths and spiritual paths that the concepts are similar when it comes to living a spiritually aligned life.

Taking time to investigate the faith of another can often lead to a strengthening of ones own faith and foster understanding instead of creating friction.

My own personal philosophy that sends me on the dive to investigate first is that to understand oneself in the moment is to understand the rest sharing it with you.

Letting the understanding that we are all human and if it makes sense to me it might make sense to anyone. The key question for me is always how would I feel if someone said it to me?

Taking yourself out of the issue and taking the opportunity to engage in the exercise of empathy creates mindfulness and raises awareness.

Patience exercised is patience cultivated. The more you engage in the investigate process the more it becomes the natural instinct.

Anyone can use the Psychospirilosophy tool and most of us do without realizing to a certain extent. I just gave it a clever name.

It takes work to change oneself.

It takes a choice made repeatedly to create routine that becomes an instinct.

The power is always yours and that power is the power of choice.

Cold Comfort

Cold comfort
A last resort
 
A place to run and hide
When you need a break from the tide
 
We all have that day
That we need to get out of sway
 
Taking time to decompress
Letting go of all the stress
 
Needing time in solitude
Is not rude
 
Sometimes it’s the seclusion
That stops the explosion
 
Alone in the dark
A day in a park
 
Getting away from it all
To bring you out of the stall
 
That feels like a downward spiral into the pit
That has us wanting to forget
 
It’s in surrender to what is creeping up within
That the rise up will begin
 
Relight the fire
That will take you higher
 
Never feel as though you are being rude
When you need that solitude
 
Take the time you need to feel like you
And fix your view
 
That let’s you see letting go of what was that kept hurting you
Brings in something new
 
Something that appreciates all you are
Sees that bright inner star
 
To have that one must let go of the past
To have a shot at something that will last
 
Cold comfort
Is the last resort
 
That gives you the chance to be free
And find that which will always support thee

History and Skin

Skin By Sixx: A.M. and why I listen at least once a day to this song.
Paint yourself a picture
Of what you wish you looked like
Maybe then they just might
Feel an ounce of your pain
I am Shaman by birth not choice. I always wanted write fiction and make movies and music and stuff. I am working that into my life.
The things that hurt the most is that being born the Taltos I am means I often happen to be right and I never feel the need to be right.
I can’t even begin to describe the amount of loss that has brought to me in life. It’s pretty much why I spend so much time in solitude and have taught myself to enjoy it.
They say wisdom is for the world and I rarely meet any as wise as I am and most of the time it’s why I alienate people and they find reasons to exclude me from their lives.
You never get used to that when you do truly love people or you never would have said a word.
It’s as unfair to me as it feels to the people I call out on their bullshit even when they have no idea they are full of shit.
Born doin’ this.
At 43 it ain’t going anywhere.
Come into focus
Step out of the shadows
It’s a losing battle
There’s no need to be ashamed
I am never going to apologize for being able to be correct because I channel Source wisdom.
I was born with a short leg that I fixed myself internally.
Since then I have tasted more pain and suffering from exclusion for being right than anything else in my life.
Yet I still keep bringing it from within with everything I have got to live the love people talk about and I back up in action daily.
‘Cause they don’t even know you
All they see is scars
They don’t see the angel
Living in your heart
Let them find the real you
Buried deep within
Let them know with all you’ve got
That you are not your skin
I don’t know how to not love all of you.
Some of you I dislike at times and some of you have lost my respect for the lack of respect you show for yourself and others. However I guarantee you if you ever needed anything and I could do it, it’s done.
I used to give free cab rides to an ex girlfriend and check in on her after we broke up because she had no one else doing it.
I forgave a man who assaulted a woman close to me and then later he ended up helping me nurse a broken heart that this woman broke.
I have given away roughly $5 million in free energy work and counseling over the last few years and most of that, 99% of it to women in or coming out of abusive relationships.
I give most of my physical energy to my dad who has Parkinson’s to keep him out of a wheel chair. Part of my energy healing technique.
I accelerate people though the awakening process. My energy gives people a total ramp up just hanging out with me.
I made myself a conduit for this so I just radiate it. There is a big boost of it going into this.
I do nothing but give in my life.
And the next set of lyrics applies to this as well.
When they start to judge you
Show them your true colors
And do unto others
As you’d have done to you
I give without reservation or question or expectation because I can.
Just rise above this
Kill them with your kindness
Ignorance is blindness
They’re the ones that stand to lose
My kindness is my honesty. It’s that honesty and being an open channel that allows me to remove ignorance and drop the veil.
What people stand to lose is their ability to lie to themselves about who they are and who they have been and the effect their choices have on the sum.
They see the suffering they inflict on others.
They lose irresponsibility.
They lose the ignorance that was their bliss.
They lose their innocence as they judge themselves. I hold judgement for no one. I always say judge thyself alone and be forgiving and change the choices you make to avoid that guilt from ever creeping up from within again.
‘Cause they don’t even know you
All they see is scars
They don’t see the angel
Living in your heart
Let them find the real you
Buried deep within
Let them know with all you’ve got
That you are not your skin
Nothing centers me more and faster than this song.
Cried the first dozen times I listened to it and still do on occasion.

 

Lost in you

Getting lost
Has no cost

It’s a way
To understand the sway

Finding direction
Through inner reflection

First let go
Into the flow

See where it takes you
Let it change your view

Let it bring out
The things you doubt

That you can do
See what’s really in you

Let go of their view
It will only fuck you

If you’re going to bring it true from the deep within
Forget about the idea of sin

Let passions fire
Rise higher and higher

Let what fuels the fire
Become your living desire

To fly like the fire bird
Soaring ever higher with every word

Let it pour from your soul
Knowing you are whole

Letting your wants for fleshly pleasure
Be with one you will always treasure

Let that lust fly
And take it beyond the sky

Connect and mate our souls in loves embrace
Let it take you every place

That place you never thought you could go
Come on and let go

Let’s find the night
To be in delight

Starting with the never ending conversation
That leads to the ultimate sexual relation

A bond built on trust
So you can fully unleash the lust

Get lost in the eyes
Never in lies

Let go into the we
And tell me what you see

In your eyes I get lost
And to stay there I would pay any cost

In your arms freedom found
No I’m totally unbound

I might be intense
From me you will never need defense

Now I am lost in you
Come get lost in me too

Take a Stand

In life we have those times
When we feel the need to cross those lines
 
The ones others create and then expect
That we all show them respect
 
Even when they themselves show no respect to anyone
They talk about “Hey I ‘m having fun”
 
Not caring who they hurt
They are lower than dirt
 
These are the people who cause suffering for others
All our sisters and brothers
 
The have no place to cry foul or lash out
Simply because they can’t take what they have been dishing out
 
When you take a stand against those like this
It’s easy to hit and never miss
 
Beware the fury of the meek
Who are anything but weak
 
When one gives it over to higher power
Time after time and hour after hour
 
There are times
When the higher power says no destroy their lines
 
This is when you have no guilt
Destroying all they built
 
They built by feeding off others
Our sisters and our brothers
 
They put themselves first in all things
Then cry like a little bitch when hit with their reaping
 
They sowed in pain
Causing suffering for others in vain of their own name
 
Let there tears fall in lonely dark places
Let them remember all the faces
 
Of those they scorned and tossed aside
As if it was just part of the ride
 
Take a stand when you see the bullshit
Or you are part of it
 
Call them out every time
Fuck their made up lines
 
No one deserves respect
It something you earn not expect
 
Take a stand even on your own
When you stand for what’s right you never stand alone
 
When the gloves come off one who is meek
Then we see who truly is weak

To be

There is a sound
That when it comes around
 
Some run to find any noise they can
As a silent moment arrived and began
 
In silence nothing blocks out
The things that never need to shout
 
The feeling we try to ignore
Kept behind our silver door
 
A place to hide
The things that cause a shift in the tide
 
While we wear a mask
For any given task
 
Wishing someone would see what it meant
Why we are not broken but a little bent
 
In those moments of silent clarity
Look for the rarity
 
That reveals the change in history
As you live a similar story
 
See the changes in you
Turning the mirror inward to view
 
Let the silence seep in
So the real journey can begin
 
Journey through your sacred dark
To find out what makes you spark
 
Rip off the mask
No matter the task
 
Be your living art
Every day from the start
 
Every breath refining the design
Every thought and every spoken line
 
Creating the art they all take in
Never finding an end
 
To all the possibility
Regardless of the probability
 
Live in evolution
To live art’s revolution
 
Then when silence comes again
Let the fun begin
 
Mastering your sacred space
Making it truly your own place
 
Never again living in fear of the dark
Diving deep to light your own spark
 
Break the dark mirror
Known as fear
 
Live free
To be
 
To be

At the end of the silver line

At the end of the silver line there is a woods for those out of the game
A place that has no name

A place to find serenity
A place that lives in eternity

In my Dojo I sit meditating
Sitting and waiting

At peace with creation
In bliss with a side of elation

No need to knock there is no door
Come take up a place next to me on the floor

Tell me what brought you here
Now that we know you have conquered fear

If you have a secret
A regret

You’ll never make it off the line
You’ll be tied to it in your mind

Let go of who you have been
Forgive yourself for the sin

Live in the now the never ends
To break free of the line and find the woods of legend

Out of the game
In the woods with no name

A place to explore
What you never could before

It’s not heaven and it’s not hell
It’s the place of the never ending spell

The only thing missing in this verse
Is a queen to be the center of my universe

One who enjoys these woods I found
One who is willing to stick around

One that knows how to share bliss
Without even one kiss

One who feels me from the core
To even find my Dojo missing a door

Synchronicity
Simplicity

When the mirror retracts
And there are no more acts

When all that’s left is me and you
I look forward to that view

Though still from time to time
I look to see if anyone is coming down the line

Always people crossing from side to side
Based on their own inner tide

But one done with the game
Looking for the woods with no name

This one I cannot find
Though I still look from time to time

Then it’s back to my Dojo and my own bliss
The game is nothing I miss

When Silver met Gold

The silver mirror reflects true that which is deep inside of you.
It’s not pure gold but it’s pure and true.

Loved by a silver heart
Is to be loved by living art

A love that loves you more
That has a golden key to unlock this loves door

A golden heart hidden within the sacred dark
Is what it takes to truly get this silver heart to spark

It’s when I reflect what’s within you
That I repeatedly fall in love with you

It’s what I see in the darkest part of you
That so few ever get to view

That dropped my mirror
You saw me clear

Silver met gold
In tale to ever be retold

Mirror broke mirror
With love not fear

The passions flame that rises for this golden heart
Let’s me let her be free as her own living art

For all of She
Has now become a reflection of thee

The Muse Strikes

The Muse strikes in the day and the night

She strikes beyond sight

She strikes at the core

She opens the creativity door

In the darkest part of your soul and being

Bringing to life something new worth seeing

Maybe a new twist on an old time

Maybe something new with and old twist in mind

When she strikes with love

It’s twice she strikes of this you can be sure of

Once that has you falling

Finding new poetic ways of calling

Then as the gypsy heart the muse she is gone

And the poetry is spewed forth and cried through until dawn

Broken hearts

Create great art

Fools whose hearts sing

Can be ever creating

It’s in the loss

You find the cost

The one you hoped not to pay

As you fell for the muse anyway

Each and every muse had me when our eyes met

Something I’ll never regret

Let what awaken with each one

Never come undone

Let these muses be free

To inspire all of thee

If you be loved by one you be loved by all

Let yourself ever fall

My best advice

Because it’s never the same trip twice

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The Black Dragon has tales to tell

The dragon that hoards is the draconian way of oppression.  The draconian way of hoarding secrets and wealth is to keep the dragon from having to use the dragons true power for its true purpose.

 

The dragon that creates for all is the draconian way of true nobility. It’s the draconian way of using the dragons true power for it’s true purpose as the dragon was born to keep the creating going. The dragon exists to keep existence infinite by fueling the fires of creation that keep the universe in state of constant evolution or change.

 

The dragons fire as it applies to spiritual growth is for stripping away that which is unnecessary to reveal new enlightenments in life. The fire of the dragon reveals new understandings and new things to view and new ways to view them.  The dragon that walks the true draconian way is the dragon that shares freely and allows those who will understand to do so and those who won’t, won’t.

The dragon teaches the power of the voice and how every discussion is sown within all for the dragons fire to reveal. The dragons lesson is to speak well to create well for the sum. Every word is an addition to the never ending spell that creates the path before us and all paths cross at some point. This is the essence of the Majick of the Black Dragon.

It doesn’t take perfection

It doesn’t take perfection

To win my affection

Is doesn’t take direction

To get my attention

Just be who you are

Show me that inner star

Show me the love you live

And I will give give give

To put a smile on your face

In every sacred space

The space we share

If you dare

Could become and embrace driven by lust

However it is never a must

Share with me your presence

To give me presents

Give me your attention

Even if you can’t give me your affection

I will never give direction

As you are already perfection

If you ask my advice

I will always think twice

I never want to be the one and it ain’t no joke

That left your heart broke

I love hard and with all I got

Now matter the spot

I keep my hands to myself

Until you pull me off the shelf

I work for your trust

Not your lust

I will take it if given

And I’ll take you to heaven

A trip for two

No one else gets to view

Your presence is the gift to my soul

But I don’t need you to make me whole

If you get me to break and make the first move

Hold on for one hell of a groove

Patience is a virtue

Yes it’s true

The longer you wait to give in

The better the sin

Righteous debauchery when soul and flesh combine

I am going enjoy taking my time

Make it last

To give you a reason to look at the past

I am no whore

Just want to make sure you’ll want more

Even if it never gets that far

I love you for your inner star

I always want you presence

I don’t need any presents

Be your own version of perfection

And you will always get my attention

soulflower

Holding sacred space for every face

When you fall in love every day
You love living this way
It only takes one look
To get hooked
You hear a voice
There’s no other choice
They say it takes a fool
Fuck that rule
It’s the wise
That falls for what’s behind the eyes
When you love like this
You never need even a kiss
You love to the core of the soul
Never feeling unwhole
Loving with your whole being
All that you are seeing
Heart wide open
And they all are chosen
It’s the beauty seen within
That never let’s you sin
Even in the lovers embrace
It’s always face to face
Eye to eye locked in the lovers gaze
That removes ever last bit of haze
It’s a love that grows
Every time it shows
Always connected
Never neglected
Every day in love with life
Even without a husband or a wife
Without a lover to share your bed
A love that never be tested
In love with life and who you are
Allows you to see their star
With any and all
You leap into love and never fall
Every being
Becomes worth seeing
Picking just one
Can never be done
Keep me as long as you can stand me
Know the love will always be
When you live in love with all
You love all eternal
Never do you taste heartache
Unless it be for their sake
Hurting with or for them
Removing all the thorns from your stem
Always a rose in bloom
For all you have room
Holding the most sacred of space
For all you meet face to face
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Evolving star

In the darkest part of the dark
Is where you light the spark

The light that grows
As it flows

It’s where the light goes to refine
To change its shine

To bring to life something new
From a different view

Wearing it like it fits
No matter how much fire the dragon spits

It’s in heart of the dark
That’s where true art finds its spark

Livin’ in the sway
All night and day

Flowin’ on that ocean
Known as emotion

Never afraid to bring forth something new
And let it be something for all to view

Let the fire burn bright
So what if it gives some a fright

Live what brings passion flame
Always evolving and never the same

Let yourself go
Get into the flow

Forget about thinkin’ your way through
Let the art live through you

Give in
As if you are already forgiven

Enjoy what’s in the dark
That gives your living art its spark

Never feel shame for who you are
And let yourself be that star

Live the story
Fuck off the idea of glory

Make your choices and lay in your bed
Then sleep as if you were dead

When you rise reborn as someone new
Who has a slightly different view

Let is come from deep within
And never let it feel like sin

Be the living art
Live your new part

Never let it be pretend
Never feel the need to defend

It’s only in the dark
You can change your spark

Never go in fear
Never stop a single tear

Let if flow from the core
That opens every door

Love yourself true
No matter the living art view

Never forget who you are
An ever evolving star

soulstar

There is an Angel down

If you have not had a chance to listen to the album Joanne by one Stefani Joanne Angelina Germanotta AKA Lady GaGa then you are missing out on her best album to date. It is a soul to soul connection with every song, at least is for this Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman.

The song Angel Down has become one of my favorites in the now and has been since the first time I listened to it shortly after the album came out. I have it on repeat while I am writing this buzz. When we get into the lyrics I think you will understand why.

I have a vested interest in social media. Keep that in mind as we go. I will be and do every time I hear this song.

I confess I am lost
In the age of the social
On our knees, take a test
To be lovin’ and grateful

I am a master intuitive and there is no lying to me and I know exactly what happens and why.

It’s too often in all of social media that people feel fine about tearing others down and doing everything they can to discredit people.

I am as honest as it gets. I do not lie.

There are times I feel lost in the age of the social.

These games that get played screw with peoples livelihoods and at some point will involve a lawsuit or worse someone will commit suicide and it will get out which social media platform they were on.

We have seen the stories of teens killing themselves over social media bullying.

I have a vested interest as a Brand Ambassador in the success of beBee.

I want beBee to succeed. I want America to love beBee the way I do.

America is the most sue happy country in the world. I do not want to see beBee go down because some people feel as though they can go around and try to ruin others.

Let’s not get lost in the age of the social and remember this is not a game and real people are on every social media site and what goes on does effect their lives.

This is a great community for building your personal brand.

Personal.

Person.

I swore an oath when I went in the Air Force to uphold the Constitution meaning I would give my life for the freedom of speech. The freedom of speech is not the freedom to slander.

I talk beBee up everywhere and that includes the radio interview I did today that was all about me. I talk about beBee with my friends and family. I talk about it every Friday night during my community service night at The Bassmint in Chico, California.

I don’t get on my knees for anyone for any reason. I am grateful to people who give me reason to be grateful.

I spend a lot of my time in charity/free work showing my love for humanity.

I live my love for humanity.

Shots were fired on the street
By the church where we used to meet
Angel down, angel down
But the people just stood around

It’s been said by more than a few in more than a few different ways that the worst thing we can do in the face of what we know to be wrong is to do and say nothing.

It’s the most damaging thing we can do and the most inhumane thing we can do is to ignore and turn a blind eye for any reason. There is absolutely no excuse if we are to say we love people and want to be seen as someone who wants to help.

The most savage thing we do is sit back and watch or laugh or join in to fit in with people who think slander is OK and find every way they can do it whether it is overt or subtle.

Even worse than that is when we meet hate with hate. This is why I have ignored everything about our president and the protesters who hate as much as he does and fill the air with rage that helps no one and brings us closer and closer to violence and the spilling of blood.

I’m a believer, it’s a trial
Foolish and weaker, oh, oh, oh
I’d rather save an angel down
I’m a believer, it’s chaos
Where are our leaders? Oh, oh, oh
I’d rather save an angel down

I have said it many time that title has nothing to do with leadership and it doesn’t. Title is authority and behavior determines leadership.

Where are our leaders who will show the people how to protest in peace. Where is the Gandhi and MLK of our day?

At times I feel the need to get involved and speak my mind to knock off all the fuckin hate and get the fuck over the past.

I quote the film Network. “I’m mad as hell and I’m not going to take this anymore.”

I am mad because it hurts.

It’s heartbreaking the things that go on in our world. It’s heartbreaking the foolish and the weak think hate is the answer.

It takes a great fool who is insecure and weak to use hate and slanderous speech thinking it will make anything better.

It’s chaos they drive with their hate speech and their slander. Causing fear to run through everywhere that anyone of us will be their next target. It makes it worse when nothing is said or done about it. That makes it look like it is OK and is supported by many.

Simple fact of humanity and how the human mind and emotions work and are manipulated to oppress.

I spend most my time looking for people who need someone to assist them when they are that angel down. 99.999% of the time I do it for free because of my love for humanity and my dedication as a Shaman has not one thing to do with making money.

I’ve done it that way my entire life and if anyone wants to hire someone to check my life story out use the name James Clayton Carter Jr, the name I was born with. Max is my professional name. I guarantee every word I have written in the last few years is 100% true, every word.

I guarantee you will find people who will tell you if you ever need someone go to me first because you will not have to go any further if there is something I can do to help no matter what it cost me. I have been living that for 42 years.

I am always looking for the angel down.

Doesn’t everyone belong
In the arms of the sacred
Why do we pretend we’re wrong?
Has our young courage faded?

It takes courage to embrace those in pain and who are wearing the mask of anger.

There are no toxic people, only people who are unwell in need of love and understanding so maybe they can heal and stop all the hate and anger and slanderous speech.

Everyone belongs here on this earth wherever it is they are right now because this whole planet is our home. We are one human race.

Why do we pretend that is wrong?

Why do we pretend we can say who belongs where and who should be allowed and who should be included?

Why do any of us pretend we have the right to exclude anyone from anything?

That takes being coward to exclude people. A coward is someone who let’s fear make their decisions.

Save that angel
Hear that angel
Catch my angel

We are here on this Earth to be human beings.

We are here to learn what it means to be decent human beings and to find a way to keep this thing called humanity going.

Not an opinion and I just happen to be a Shaman born connected to the infinite giving me the ability to give that answer regardless of what any book says. I just happen to be #BornThisWay.

We are here to hear each other and catch each other when we fall. We are here to save each other and not inflict the pain we feel any deserves or to take advantage of each other because we can and because it works and is legal.

Any questions.

 

#LadyGaga #AngelDown #ProHuman #RockAndRollShaman #BornThisWay

I got love for all your hate

I got no hate to give

Hate is no way to live

I got love for all your hate

You can do it too, it’s not too late

One love

Needs no shove

One race

In every human face

Meet eye to eye with open arms

There is no need to do harm

Share the love in every embrace

With each and every human face

One love is one race

We live in every place

History can bite my ass

Holding on to it shows you have no class

It holds hate and creates more

Closing love’s door

Fuck the hate of the past

Don’t let it last

Heal the pain

To become sane

Hate only breeds hate

That is a dead end fate

One love is what we need

One race of only the human breed

It’s not too late

To keep on creating this new kind of fate

It’s a shared reality

Let’s not let it become fatality

Change your view

To heal the pain inside of you

One love one race

Love every human no matter the face

History is a prison

History is a prison.

History keeps us from growing.

History keeps us divided.

We are a species that is evolving and in order to do that we must let go of history and become something more than we have been.

One Human Race.

That means history based on culture and location and who originated where has to be let go of so we can be one race united in human interests first and foremost.

Anything else keeps us divided and using history as an excuse to not be one race united.

One love means one race.

I myself have in my ancestry African blood, Asian blood, Middle Eastern blood, East Indian Blood, Eastern and Western European blood and Native American blood.

It could be why I don’t really care about cultural history or who came from where as my ancestors didn’t seem to give a fuck either.

What I do care about is human beings in the now.

In the United States we are on the verge of Civil War 2 because we care more about history than we do each other as human beings. We care more about who did what to who and when than we do about caring about what we can do in the now to be united as one race worldwide.

We have let history keep us divided and keep hate alive instead of learning our lesson from history that holding on to the past only keeps us divided and keeps us from becoming a one world united as one race with one love.

I am pro human and fuck anything more than that.

Anything more than that is what has led us to the brink of Civil War 2 in the USA.

If you are going to say One Love that means One Race too.

One human race.

Raising your vibration and becoming awake begins in letting go of history and living in the now. This is what I have been teaching as a Shaman for years and living my entire life. Maybe my diverse genetics has something to do with that, maybe not.

It also means that gender only matters if sex is on the table.

Every single one of us has both feminine and masculine energy to balance out in order to achieve living unified in mind body and spirit.

The shift in consciousness we are going through is about transcending duality and embracing unity. Living in androgyny unless sex is involved. That’s what living awake means.

I’m a citizen of the world.

My history spans the globe through my blood. Down to my DNA, the very building blocks of who I am screams from within to forget the hate of the past and heal the pain in the now. Screams.

It’s individual choice. I can’t make the choice for you and you can’t make the choice for others.

There is a lot we could be doing if we were not prisoners of history. If you would like me to come and speak to any size group please email me at maxpoppasmokecarter@gmail.com.

If you are ever in Chico California on a Friday night, come down to The Bassmint DJ dance club and I will be outside waiting for you, whoever you are.

If you want some one on one video session time with me, please feel free to find me on Skype. facebook:maxpoppasmokecarter

One on one I work by donation. Yeah I know people will take advantage of that and I don’t give a fuck. It’s called being a Shaman and living what that title means.

#ProHumanSoHuman #OneLoveOneRace #RockAndRollShaman

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Life and The Zero Sum Game

Life is not a game.

There is nothing to win.

It’s not a competition.

There are no places and no prizes.

That said.

I often meet people who do treat life as if it is a game. When I engage with these people, I make them play my game instead.

I call it The Zero Sum Game.

The rules are simple.

I win or no one wins because when I win everyone wins.

I win when you realize this is not a game, it’s life and to treat it as a game is to give yourself every excuse to abuse people without guilt and instead pat yourself on the back for your gamesmanship.

When I win, everyone wins.

We are all connected and the more of us that stop playing games the more of us there are that become intolerant of the game players. The more of us there are playing The Zero Sum Game.

At that point it’s exponential in growth and all that resist change are destroyed by those who will no longer put up with treating life as game.

Don’t hate the player destroy the desire to ever see it as a game again.

How you do that is by showing them all the damage they inflict by treating it as a game.

You shred the veil of their delusions with will and intent with the fewest words possible and let them deal with it.

Then sit back and get ready for the intellectual fight that you have already won because your intent is in the best interest of the sum.

Seeing life as a game is for the some.

The some versus the sum.

In any debate the some will always have its ass handed to it mightily by the sum.

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How to raise your vibration, the simple truth

In the fewest words possible.

Embrace life with unconditional love.

What does that mean?

When one loves without conditions one gives love selflessly to all one encounters.

Love has many faces and fear is the dark mirror of love.

Love is a fierce defender that will rage in defense of the weak and the long suffering.

Love mourns and loves the sweetness for the mourning knowing it would’t have hurt so much had so much joy not been achieved.

Love is patient to seek understanding and passes no judgement.

Love is merciful and will be quick with the brutal truth to end the long suffering of deceit.

Love knows no deception and will call it out every time love is met by it.

Love cannot turn a blind eye to suffering and do nothing about it.

Love is a friend to all and seeks to reveal the connection already there.

Love is considerate and thinks before love speaks or acts.

Love is honesty in all things.

Love is not always nice and can be down right vicious in the face of deception.

Love forgets we have an identity/ego and a life to think about protecting and acts selflessly.

This is unconditional love.

If you are going to love unconditionally you don’t think about the venue or your career or making a living in what you do and say. You do it because you love everyone and set your intent to be of best benefit to the sum letting love guide your wisdom.

This is the simplest way in the simplest metaphors that I can explian this concept. This is the simplest way I have found in all my surfing of the Universal Consciousness and all my years of studying religious text and philosophy followed by thousands of discussions on the subject.

What strikes me as curious is why anyone would want to debate it?

The only thing that bounces back when I put that out through the Universal Consciousness is this.

Fear.

Fear that it is true and one will look at one’s life and begin to judge oneself and will attempt to blame the author rather than deal with one’s guilt.

Fear that one will see the suffering that one has inflicted in life on other ones.

Fear that one will lose one’s status.

Fear that one will lose one’s possessions.

Fear that one will be injured emotionally and/or physically.

Fear that one is unforgivable.

Fear that one will standout.

Fear that one is incapable of such love.

Fear keeps one’s vibration low and causes one to inflict harm on oneself and other one’s with a list of excuses as to why.

Fear will cause one to look for fault in everything one sees so that one never has to show unconventional love.

I am sure this could be a much longer piece and in the comments I am happy to get deep into this discussion as I always have been for 42 years and counting.

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If Knowledge is Power than Wisdom is Understanding

Here’s why.

I started my day out with the following quote.

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I didn’t think about it, I just looked for this exact quote to set the tone of my day. I look back hours later and realize I set the process of my thinking and my doing to be one of explaining that which I understand as simply as I can.

Knowledge is highly overrated. Here’s why.

You can pass a test and never actually understand the material. Without understanding the material you do not know if the knowledge you coughed up is true or false. If you don’t know how to apply it to your life the knowledge is useless and has now taken up space in your brain that could have been better used.

If there is no understanding what the nature of the power of this knowledge is one will never wield that power without inflicting mass damage. Here’s why.’

Every word is felt regardless of ever being heard and the concepts tied to that emotion are passed through all ones around the world. All ones are connected and thoughts and words and actions are felt by all ones whether they are consciously aware of it or not.

All ones are responsible for creating the shared reality.

What this means in plain English is that everything you do effects everyone else in some way and your ignorance of that will not let you escape Karmic Law in reaping what you have sown.

You can’t ignore a fundamental law of how existence actually works because you don’t like it or do not wish to face the consequences of your actions and no one ever truly gets away with anything.

All those who inflict pain and suffering will have it inflicted upon them. if you manipulate people you will be manipulated by other people.

No one is the master of any destiny in a shared reality.

No one has the right to attempt to wield authority over anyone else without facing the consequences of an uprising.

Every empire has suffered the same fate.

It is inescapable.

The moment you decide to build an empire you have sealed its destruction. The only way to build an empire and a legacy that will stand the test of time is to elevate yourself and your life above all other life allowing you to justify the means that allow you to end up at the top. The means to this end can only involve creating an enemy and an inferior that you convince other people is inferior and that you are superior.

That enemy will resist and eventually destroy your empire.

You inflict emotional damage in the form of character attacks designed to sway popularity. You create the enemy in degrading to elevate yourself. The greater suffering you inflict the less in the way of numbers it will take to defeat you. You are indeed inflicting suffering by devaluing the worth of other lives that do not see it your way.

Suffering can only be inflicted through deception.

One who wields deception wields power that understands only one thing, the attempt to control what others do or think.

What knowledge do you seek to wield as power and why?

The only reason we ever create something in a complex fashion is to show off and gratify ourselves and ask others to shower us with words of adoration and praise.

When we seek to make it as simple as we can we seek for people to think “Why the fuck didn’t I think of that?”

If you never inspire this, you never explained it simply enough.

 

The value of minimalism

One thing I have enjoyed being homeless the last couple years is having the perfect excuse to enjoy being the minimalist I’ve always been.

Las time I checked, life is a temporary condition and we don’t even take our bodies with us. Why is it we insist anyone needs to own anything from a what fucking good has it done our species perspective with the psychospirilosophic  view as viewed by your friendly neighborhood Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman.

I remember George Carlin did this bit on stuff.

Your stuff is stuff and other peoples stuff is shit.

My stuff and your shit.

 

Here’s the pretty lies about stuff.

I worked hard to have all this stuff.

I deserve this stuff because I earned it.

My stuff shows the value and worth of my life.

My stuff shows how successful I am.

If had no stuff I would have no life,

My dad watches this reality show where these guys drive around and buy junk and resell it as antiques.

Quick lesson in value and what it actually is.

A thing only has the value that you place on it and can convince other people that it has the same value to them. You lie and get other people to share in your delusion that this thing holds any value. You tell a story and use emotional triggers and talk about how you need this in order to do this or that and create a fable to justify your ownership of a thing and what it will take for you to let that thing go.

That’s what value is in application and execution as it applies to stuff.

The only reason to argue with me is because you just started feeling guilty about all the stuff around you and it’s easier to talk shit about the Shaman than to look honestly at yourself. Or to say if you feel the need to argue I already know your argument and the inspiration or intent behind it.

I have been working on a project that is the Psychospirilosophic view of Wicca often called witchcraft. Wicca has one major thing that they call “Do no harm.”

Take a look around at the stuff around you and take a few minutes to think about where the materials come to make it and who made it so all you had to do was buy it.

If it was made in China it was probably made under slave conditions.

If is has any plastic that means that untold amounts of pollution was released into the atmosphere to create that thing.

How much harm was done to have it shipped to the store where you bought it?

Any human being alive does harm just in being alive. however that is not a license to be gluttonous and greedy. A thinking human who cares about something other than themselves works at minimizing the harm their life causes by learning to live without so much stuff.

A selfish human will go on and on about having the right to do as they will and who am I to judge them for leading such an excessive life style that takes and takes and creates more and more harm to satisfy their desire to have more stuff.

I am not offering condemnation, I am offering observation based on results.

Let’s apply psychology to this issue of stuff and the mass acquiring of it.

One who defines themselves through their belongings sees no value in themselves.

If they did they would not need symbols of status known as stuff to impress themselves and others with their life. They idea that one needs to acquire stuff in order to have their life show value is operating from a lack state of mind. They lack stuff and only stuff will make their life whole and give it meaning.

It is insecurity based on the idea that if they do not have as much stuff or cooler stuff than others than their life has been wasted and they have no value as a human.

This is actually how we treat each other and the only goal of marketing and branding.

To shame one into keeping up with the Jones’. To use emotional triggers to convince one that if one does not have stuff or this particular stuff one has not done well as a human.

Success means you wear these clothes, drive this car, have this phone, have this house, have this and have that.

The only goal of marketing and branding is to create a perceived emotional result that the product or service is supposed to give you.

It is in being a minimalist that I study my own motivation behind every thing I buy to have as my stuff. One who understands why they do what they do understands why any human would do what they do.

I stop and think about why I want something.

What is the result I am looking for in having this thing?

If I get this thing will it really make my life better?

If I am using this thing as a reward to motivate myself, why am I not motivated to begin with?

From a spiritual point of view, I often find tales of those with much are cautionary tales of how having much does not bring joy into one’s life and one’s who care greatly about possessions will act in inhuman ways to acquire and keep what they say is theirs. Many of these tales are told to show the corruption of the soul when one becomes obsessed with acquiring material wealth and possessions to define one’s life.

For me personally the value in being a minimalist is this. I don’t worry or stress about anything happening to all my stuff.

My philosophical quote that I create to remind myself of these things is “The value of my life is the impact I make in the lives of others regardless of how much stuff I ever have.”

Life is a temporary condition.

There is no way around that absolute fact of actual truth.

Since life is temporary what makes us think we own anything if it will be here after we are gone?

The only reason psychologically speaking to acquire mass amounts of stuff is to show one’s superiority over other ones. The behavior is 100% driven by insecurity and fear of how one will be seen by other ones. Again this is an inescapable fact of actual truth.

The value of being a minimalist is being able to see the value in one without needing a bunch of stuff to validate one’s existence.

The stuff we think we own says more about us on a psychological level than most of us are comfortable with admitting to ourselves much less anyone else.

No one wants to admit they were taken in by the pretty lies when the ugly truth shows up.

Thankfully the truth doesn’t give a fuck and exists as truth anyway.

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A patient mind reaps the greatest reward

That’s Karmic Law which means it’s how existence actually works and there are no shortcuts around it and any book anywhere that says different is flat out wrong.

It’s why these people who are posting these posters that say good things come to those who go work their ass off is about the most moronic thing I see on a regular basis as it is exactly the opposite of how the universe actually works which means these people have no clue what they are talking about and are actually inflicting great amounts of deceptive harm.

Poster quotes such as that create the worst kind of addiction there is on this planet, workaholics are people who never switch off and never ever actually live their life. They turn themselves into machines who will succeed at all costs and then give up more than they know in their pursuit.

Patience exercised is patience cultivated.

When one applies patience to ones thoughts and actions one sees it’s value in the results. My dad always told me to work smarter not harder. It takes a patience mind to find the most efficient way to accomplishing anything. It takes patience to achieve true mastery and provide something of quality with a priceless value that one puts a price tag on anyway. You don’t achieve quality and you don’t become the best of you without great amounts of patience.

One who waits is a fool or wise depending on what it is they are waiting for.

The fool waits only long enough to find the next logic task.

The wise waits to see if a better way can be found.

In waiting the fool is waiting to be fed.

In waiting the wise are looking for better ways to feed themselves.

The fool exercises needed patience often out of lack of options.

The wise rarely need patience as it becomes their mode of life.

If one is to give the Universe a fair shot at manifesting something for them it takes patience to stay out of the way.

Figure out your desire and than let it go and do as the Beatles sang and let it be.  Trying to cheat the system or speed things up because you really want it and never letting go of the desire distorts it and perverts the manifestation to teach you to let it go and let it be.

Patience is selflessness and impatience is selfishness. Often in life what we are waiting on in order for an easier transition of our story that is our life is for other characters to be ready themselves. When we rush and allow the not so perfect fit be what we take because we don’t want to wait, we fuck our hearts right in the ass.

I don’t care how vulgar or offensive you find that concept as I find impatience to be just as vulgar in the behavior that spews forth due to it. Or to say I wanted you to feel my disgust with the impatient people of the world  by giving you something that should be a revolting idea in your mind.

In using behavioral psychology I made an outright attempt with will and intent to manipulate you based on my current understanding of how a large chunk of the populace would respond to the idea of their heart getting fucked in the ass.

This is the distortion of my own impatience not taking the time to be much more eloquent, instead, opting to bring one thunderous shot right to the dome.

Or perhaps it’s not impatience and it’s not distorted. Perhaps my desire for efficiency allows me to be creative in making an impact in the fewest words possible.

The point I am making is that I am willing to look in and do some guess work about me on my own before any of you ever read this.

Answering the question “Why in the blue holy fuck does a Shaman swear so fucking much?”

I’m not your average Shaman and I work at being an individual and not being like everyone else.

I also have a standing belief that there is no such thing as bad words and anyone who says different is brainwashed.

If you have followed my work at all, I take a stand just by standing most days and offering my opinion on anything.

Take 5 minutes and think who you could be if it went right for you.

Start asking yourself more often “What could go right next?”

A patient mind reaps the greatest reward. It’s how the universe actually works and there is no way around it.  I don’t make up the laws existence, I live by them and learn from them so I can live better.

Give it a shot, what could go right?

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Story, Character and Context

The Holy of holy trinities for filmmakers and storytellers of every kind is the concepts of Story, Character and Context and how they work together in your narrative to create a story that captivates and entertains an audience or sees them playing MST3K the home edition, talking mad shit about your shit.

I’m The Movie Whore, I edit scripts and sit in the shadows as a Creative Film Producer.

The first, last and most important thing anyone in film needs to understand is the relationship between context and character as it applies to the story. Producers, Directors, Writers, Actors, Costume Designers, Set Designers, Special Effects Creators and everyone else needs to understand these concepts for a film to become something that marvels audiences for decades. To even have a chance at creating something that reaches in and takes the emotional investment that audience feels is an art form.

The films we associate with greatness are the ones that get that emotional investment from us in some way, form or fashion that makes it unforgettable and leaves a lasting imprint on our very soul. It could be a great Comedy or a great Horror or a great Scifi film that left us emotionally connected to the experience caught forever in time by the magic of movies.

Storytelling is an art form not a business model. This is why right now one of my favorite known directors is Christopher Nolan. All his work has an artistry to it that shows a mastery of context and character and how to create stories I can’t forget.

As for one of my all time favorite directors, you have probably never heard of.

I met Dom Portalla over 8 years ago when I had first started using the name The Movie Whore and one of his actors approached me. Dom had finished his first feature length film, DUALITY. Ken, the actor who played dual roles in the film as twin brothers asked me for some notes on the film. I didn’t write a critics review. I wrote a critique on technique and art. I watched the movie two or thee times to make sure I had everything that would be beneficial to the filmmaker while noting the stuff done well. In this case I had discovered a man with an eye behind the camera like few others in history, a true artist with a true gift for visual storytelling.

We’ve lost touch over the years however I know Dom is out there somewhere right now either shooting something or working on shooting something. It’s in his blood and who he is and he could never find happiness in life doing anything else. That’s what it takes to become a great filmmaker.

You make movies because you can’t imagine doing anything else and being happy. It’s why I edit scripts and take on other Creative Producer work as it comes. A Creative Producer is your Quality assurance person who protects the quality and integrity of the art while being able to translate it to a financially viable result.

Too often too much of the art is lost in favor of the business and the formula that is the reason why I stopped watching and have seen very little that Hollywood has offered up over the last several years.

OK asshole what in the blue holy fuck is all this story and context shit?

Take a moment and look at your life as a movie right now as you are reading this. Your character is reading some blog piece, why?

What is it about you that it makes sense that you are sitting here reading this right now?

How did your character get to this point in your story?

Character and identity are one in the same as it applies to storytelling. Somewhere in your life along the way you made an emotional connection to something and that became part of how you explain who you are to people through the things in life you love. These are the things that define who we think we are and who create our character to be while God, The Universe, whatever helps you sleep better at night fills in the rest so our character can have an ongoing story.

If you love Rock ‘N’ Roll it’s not likely you are going to meet very many people who don’t and be able to connect with them and their story that is their life.

That is context.

What makes sense for this character based on who this character is. It makes little sense for someone who is afraid of ever doing anything on their own to ever find the opportunity to do it without being afraid. The idea in their own mind will always produce the same option until the fear is overridden and resolved so now it makes sense for the character to do things on their own. They no longer fear it.

A film is often a showing of character refining or revealing moments in the characters life. There is someone deep within all of us that is who is revealed to us through experience. Our character is always in a state of evolution as we make choices to either keep our character similar because we like the story/life we are living or we make the choice to make changes in us to change our story/life.

My life dedicated to film has revealed more for me in understanding the character I am by looking at the characters I love. Here’s why.

Rocky Balboa was a guy who didn’t even think he was that good but went for it and took it seriously when given the opportunity and then was given a second shot and became the champ. He had a little old man in his corner to bring it out of him when he didn’t see it in himself.

Andy Dufresne was a man thrown in prison for a crime he didn’t commit and he never let it break him. He found a way to win his freedom and even set it up to meet up with his best friend at the end.

Jon Critchon was shot to other side of the universe and hunted for the knowledge in his head that could create the ultimate weapon. Jon always did exactly what he felt was the right thing in the moment for what was going on around him. He agonized over decisions with a humanness that made him a hero.

Bill S. Preston Esquire and Ted Theodore Logan said “Be excellent to each other.” What a great way to live.

What does it mean, really, to be excellent to each other?

What does excellence from you look like when you step outside yourself?

Lloyd Dobler was into something new he felt was the future in kick boxing. He was tirelessly dedicated to it. He also had the balls to stand outside with that boom box.

Blake Gardner had and audience he talked to and he referred to people in his life as “Sidekick” “Love interest” and “Nefarious Character.” As a Medium I have a sense of the other-side that is very much aware of us and watches us. If you ever feel like some unseen audience is laughing, it probably is. God is the ultimate stalker and ever present, everywhere and sees every little thing we ever do and there is no way to hide.

What God saw us do is between us and God to work out.

James T Kirk is a fictional character. William Shatner is an actor who plays James Kirk.

However my favorite totally ridiculous thought when it comes to Star Trek and William Shatner is this.

What if he really is James Tiberius Kirk traveled back in time and he secretly worked with Gene to create Star Trek to plant the seed of a brighter future for our world or all would be lost?

There are Star Trek fans out there who will read that and think that narrative has possibility.

Kirk did one thing really well, he listened to the people he trusted first and then made a decision. He acknowledged the weight that rested on his shoulders and let it be what chilled him out and focused him to find the best of all possible solutions.

What you allow to be sown within you is what you and the rest of us will reap from you.

Choose your films carefully as you do as the door mouse said and feed your head. Thank you to Jefferson Airplane for a lyric that reminds everything we take in, is what we feed our head.

Feed yourself well and it will come out in your projection of self and the way you define who your character is in this movie we call life. The reflections of yourself you see in others is what will tell you if you like yourself or not. To change any story you must first make changes in the character who is living that story or it’s nothing more than an out of context fantasy.

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A life without pain?

The title alone has my mind reciting The Princess Bride and I’ll paraphrase “Life is pain and anyone telling you different is trying to sell you something.”

That was my answer when someone asked me the question “What would your life be without pain?”

Here are other answers.

Over.

Boring.

Here’s why.

I’m an Empath who also takes on physical pain to give people relief as I start to feel their pain for them. Holy magical bullshit batman!

No it really happens and my Mom does it too. It runs on her side of the of the family through her father and our Hungarian ancestors.A life without pain would mean no one I know was in pain either.

As the emotional Empath I am I often take on pain for those closest to me in times of need. A life without pain means they have healed themselves too.

Hunger pains. A life with out pain would mean I had found some way to never have to eat again or at least not go hungry.

Sore muscles from working out. A life without pain means I am wrong about it being a good thing to always be a little sore to remind yourself you did work out today and got in a good one.

“A man who is master of himself can end a sorrow as easily as he can invent a pleasure.”
― Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray

Pain is a state of mind and as Queen once sang it is “so close to pleasure” you can get lost in the swirl of it all and be tossed about the ocean of emotion in ways that leave you looking for shore and solid ground.

What is a life without pain to you?

 

 

What could go right?

Most of my life I often held the view of “Hope for the best, expect the worst and plan accordingly.”

Not a fun way to live. It has you looking at everything that can go wrong which can cause your subconscious mind to allow you to do things to face those possibilities. I have often said you will do things behind your back in front of your face.

We all have those moments where we are looking at ourselves wondering why we just did or said that.

I accepted that in order to continually grow through life I would be continually in a state of self observation and reflection in order to find the growth opportunity in the moment. That takes work.

That takes continuous work that never really ends.

What I think is always subject to change, however how I think never changes.

How you organize your thought process is what creates the reality to give you something to think about to see if maybe some changes within in are on the menu for the day. My thought process has always been to take in everything from as many sources and views as I can find on one topic and then examine it and see what feels right for me and my life. I work to understand the emotional attachment that others apply when stating their position and make attempts to care as they do and see how that makes me feel about myself. When a new view presents itself, I take a moment to work my process to see if an adjustment is needed or desired and why.

I have worked diligently to attempt to take the idea of judgement out of my thought process even when looking at myself and instead of judging myself and finding me guilty, I instead change the process to find opportunity for inner change to promote growth that will help me feel better about who I choose to be and how I choose to represent that.

The most difficult part of my process for me is to keep it in the now and not allow history to define anything in the present. The challenge is to remember the concepts of the lessons learned and wisdom gained without having to tie it to history. Living in the now, understanding it is all that exists.

If you need history teach you over and over again the same lessons, why in the holy blue fuck did you not learn it the first time?

For me that answer is because I am human, however it’s no excuse to not make the effort to not need the history to be repeated or reviewed all the time in order to get better from myself.

At some point you just remember that your intuition will tell you if what’s in front of you feels right and why. To get there takes seeing how many times in the past you didn’t trust you and how it went. Once you learn to trust you in the now there is no need to look back.

Everything I do as a teacher and a guide is to turn you inward to build faith in you and your ability to make good choices and say fuck the bullshit in life to be the you that makes you one of your top 5 favorite people in the world. It’s not because you think that highly of yourself, you become one your favorite people because you understand you have to take care of you to be able to be a gift to those you would give yourself to.

In giving of yourself, you do that every time you are in the presence of or interact with others in any way shape, form or fashion.

What are you giving the world?

I ask myself that question throughout the day before I even dare allow myself to speak.

I set the intent in life to be love in living action and thought and speech. I set the intent for my being to be a gift of love in it’s purest form to any and all I encounter.

To live up to that intent is not always warm and fuzzy and it’s not always fun. However it produces results in life that touch lives that touch lives that touch lives. That’s my plan to change the world by being the change I want to see in the world.

Living love in every form it can take in your life gives you endless opportunities to grow and become as needed for those in need to be of service to anyone and everyone that crosses your path.

Regardless of how you identify yourself in gender these are the concepts I apply to what it means to be a King or Queen in this world. To live in service to each other in love because it takes us all to save all of us.

Love says what could go right because love will fight to fix it anytime something goes go wrong.

What could go right in your life today?

Are you gonna work for it to go right?

Are you going to align your thought process to see what could go right in your life today?

Are you going to ignore what could go wrong and instead see what could go right?

 

This is one of those days in life I can sincerely type this out and meant it.

Thank you to everything for everything.

It’s how I acknowledge I am grateful for everything that ever happened in my life to lead me to this moment right now. It’s a lot of work to truly have this gratitude in my heart to share with all of you and I and grateful to myself for seeing the value of doing the work in me to be this man.

Big love bomb of a hug sent out to all world wide. Pass it along as you enjoy today’s ride.

Do something, anything

I found an incredibly good reason to spend a lot less time online and a lot more time in my community doing something locally to make a global impact.

Every community has centers that need volunteers who desire to be part of healing and growth and as a result making an impact in lives that can make an impact in other lives and it’s exponential.

What’s nice is the place I found to go be part of what’s going on is walking distance and for me that’s an added bonus. As I have been slowly rehabbing my legs my number 1 enemy to my recovery has been the car. I was talking with someone I got to for advice and a view adjustment.

Yeah I have someone I go to.

I feel like a hypocrite when I drive. If I had a bike, I would ride. In my younger years I often forsake the car in favor of a bike. It was when I started losing mobility that I found myself riding less and driving more. One of the things I missed the most over the last few years I have not been able to get around is how active I used to be.

We often run and hide from the guilt we feel for not doing something, anything to make an impact. Some of us let it beat the holy fuck out of us until it motivates us to do something, anything to make that guilt go away and stay there. Some of us dance around it, bobbing and weaving to avoid that sinking feeling our stomach that comes up every time we ignore something we could be doing to be of service to our community and in doing so be of service to own lives.

I find for myself it’s a soul saving experience to go out and give of yourself in your community and the soul you save is your own. I’m at my worst when I feel as though I am not making enough of an impact and feeling as though I could be doing more. It creates a self loathing that can sometimes fuck with my head and the way I express myself. It happens to us all. We are human and it’s how the human works to get better from the human.

We do things behind our backs in front of our faces all the time to set ourselves up for moments we might let fear keep us from.

I had one of those moments recently and I am so happy with myself for my shenanigans that yesterday, gave my life direction it sorely needed as to how I can be of better service to my community. It led me to place where there is always going to be a need for people who give a fuck.

I often put myself in a bubble and ignore the world because I do care and I often find myself wrecking myself in the way I allow it to effect me. I feel powerless to do anything and get myself locked in a cage of pain and rage that keeps me from acting.

That’s not doing anyone any good. While it is important to see what’s going on and allow it to touch your humanity and pain you as it should, that pain is not something to revel in or wrap yourself in. That pain once experienced best serves you by stepping out of it with a pragmatic view.

“What can I actually do?”

Asking yourself this one question is an act of preparation to do something. It opens you to doing instead of talking or in my case writing and then being left with a twisting feeling of guilt that binds you up from the inside and can twist your view of you and the rest.

For some it’s  going to a local Jesus center and volunteering as a server.

For some it’s volunteering at their kids school.

For some it’s spending time moving around and finding different places to be of service.

Do something, anything that gets you out in your community and away from your computer, phone and TV and I guarantee you will thank yourself for the relief from the guilt you are trying to ignore right now.

I’m off to finish preparing for my day at a local community center giving what I got to whoever shows up.

I feel better already knowing that’s my plan to act locally understanding it will make a global impact.

Your life, make your choices and live with them accordingly.

For those of you wondering who is the Life Coach Max goes to?

More to come later after she’s done with me.

My human selfishness.

How to build yourself up

This is something I wrote for myself as a daily affirmation and I figured wtf, why not share.

I trust myself to understand my life and my view of existence. 

I trust myself to enjoy all that comes my way.

I trust myself to know how to exercise discipline and discernment under the concept of moderation.

I trust myself to be without limit or restriction. 

I trust myself to live the words I have laid out for this life. 

I trust myself to always pay it forward. 

I trust my power and my choices in how I wield it. 

I trust myself to be meek. 

I trust myself and the reflections that brings before me. 

Live in love

Love Wrapped in flesh

Love can take any form between any two of us

Live in love and romance is semantics

Live in love and always find the form you need as you need

Live in love and find a soul to swap pieces with because emotion flows like a stream not an ocean of endless swells of highs and lows

Live in love and heal thyself to inspire healing in others

Live and give in love to reap occasional bliss when sowers sow alike

Live in love to teach love in living

Live in love to love life

Live in love to live

Live in love

Live

I know this sounds weird, but…

The other day a friend of mine asked me if I noticed anything weird. I had to ask him his definition of weird. Here’s why.

I find myself a rarity in some of the things I have done and witnessed and people I have known. How many people do you know that were born with a short leg and lived with it for 39 years and at age 42 both legs are the same length and the over sized hip I was born with matches the other one now. A miracle in the eyes of some and a total defiance of everything science and modern medicine thinks it knows.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

It was over a decade ago when I was going through some physical therapy after a car accident and they put me one of those industrial electro-stimulation units. The man running the machine had to set it beyond the danger settings before I could feel anything. I remember he commented that he had never seen anyone with such a high pain tolerance in his life. He said on a 1-10 scale my 8 would be off most peoples scales. My 10 would kill most people.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

While I was undergoing the internal metamorphosis of making my skeleton symmetrical my pain went to 11 on my 1-10 scale and stayed there for over a year. Prior to that I had been living with my daily pain hitting 10 and I often woke up to an 8. The short leg and over-sized hip coupled with several back injuries had left my body twisted and broken. I had a limp and could barely stand to be on my feet for longer than 15 minutes. During the process I felt as though I was the walking dead. My head was never clear as the pain never ceased.

It’s been more than 2 years and on occasion I stick my legs out in front of me to make sure it wasn’t all a dream.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

Frequently in my life I have the following happen.

I am sitting around and I feel this need to go somewhere and I am filled with a feeling and I go that place and I run into some one and have a conversation. At some point they say “I’ve been praying/wishing/hoping/wanting for someone to talk to about this.”

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

I frequently freak out my friends when I hit them up out of no where asking them what’s wrong and something is.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

I have had men and women alike approach me claiming to be a variety of deities and creatures from mythology.

To date I was hired and fired in the same week by a man claiming to be a Genie.

I had the Goddess Isis in the form of a French woman tell me my soul had been spread across the globe and she was going to bring it back together and bring me back to life with a magic blowjob.

I had Loki show up my doorstep in the form of a young man who had been abusing too many drugs.

I had a phone call with the Universes Super Being in the form of an inventor in New York.

I had a self proclaimed Demon Slayer sitting in my living room once.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

I have people hit me up from across the world to get my advice in dealing with psychic attacks and developing their intuitive skills. I have people hit me from across the world telling me they don’t know why they are contacting me they just feel drawn to me for some reason.

What do think you got that is weirder than that?

I channel Archangels and the higher-selves of the rest of you.

What do think you got that’s weirder than that?

Realize there is metric fuck ton of much weirder shit I left out.

I hope all of who read this realize there is nothing weird in your life that is going to be weirder than anything I have seen or live with daily.

If you think no one else is going to understand, give your friendly neighborhood Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman a shot at it. I am willing to bet I can help you feel less weird about whatever it is and help you make sense of it.

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Don’t you think you can save you?

I had a consult the other day and what I do as a Shamanic guide/coach is teach you how to save your own ass and never need me or someone like me again. I find this song for me is one I sing to myself when I am up in the air and feeling as though this is the conversation I need to have with someone else. The Angel and the Gambler from Iron Maiden to me is the conversation between the higher self and the gambler that is the mind.

Roll of the dice
Take a spin of the wheel
Out of your hands now
So how do you feel but you’re never gonna win
You’d better go back again

How often in life do we see things going right and look for the other shoe to drop?

We set ourselves up for failure when we think like this. Simply because we think positive all the time does not mean shit is not going to go sideways some days. When the moment comes that feels like a kick in the chest, that has you looking at every other time you got knocked down, instead of looking at getting knocked down look at how you got the fuck up every time.

In some pursuits we go back as many times as it takes to get it done.

Do you feel lucky?
Or do you feel scared
Take what luck brings
And the devil may care
But you’re down on your luck
Will the next day bring?

When do you feel lucky?

When things go right.

When do we get scared?

When we think about what can go wrong.

Tomorrow is never set and is always an opportunity.

Adrift on the ocean
Afloat on the daydream
Or lost in a maze
Or blind in the haze
So what does it matter
So why don’t you answer
So why did you send
An angel to mend

There are times in life I found myself totally confused and lost in my life and trying to figure what in the blue holy fuck was going on and why should I even bother any more. We all have these little moments in life. For me I often find myself hearing the words “I was just praying/wishing/hoping/wanting/whatever to have someone like you show up to talk to about this.” I often wonder what the inner dialog is after those conversations as people still wrestle with what we talked about.

Best make decisions
Before it’s too late
Take all your chances
Take all hold of the reins
A roll of the dice
Ahead of the game again

Nothing to lose
But so much to gain
A little danger
It goes without saying
But what do you care
You’re gonna go in the end

I have always lived life at full speed and taking every spontaneous turn that came up for a side adventure on the journey of life. I own every decision I make and let go of every decision I can’t, you know other peoples.

Any time you think you have something to lose, you do. Any time you think you have something to gain, you do.

The only thing in life we have no choice about is death, the rest is optional. We will die at some point. Get the fuck over it and live.

Gate open to heaven
Is ready and waiting
Or straight down to hell
Can go there as well

My view of heaven on earth for me personally includes living away from most of you and hiding out on a small farm or something like that. Somewhere I can e self contained and talk to people when I want to or they find me. For me hell on earth would be living in a large city.

Adjust for your idea of heaven and hell accordingly and realize that’s the result your aiming for as you build your life.

I’ll suffer my craving
My soul not worth saving
So why don’t you go
Just leave well alone

Don’t you think I’m a saviour
Don’t you think I could save you
Don’t you think I could save your life

We can fall into a pit of self doubt and beat the fuck out ourselves better than anyone could ever do it to us.

Look in the mirror and say “I can save my life.”

Repeat this until you truly feel it.

Predator, Prey and Human Being

We act in inhuman ways towards each other daily without realizing that we treat people as prey and we are the cunning predator.

Our eyes are in front. We are a predatory species. Killing is in our DNA. It’s in our nature to kill.

Vegans can french kiss my ass hole on their stance that they don’t kill to live. Here’s why.

Animism simply stated, every thing is alive and has a soul. Even studies have shown that plants, even the ones we eat, respond to emotional stimuli which means yes they are emotional beings that we kill and eat no different than a cow or pig or chicken.

I love a rare steak or burger and if it’s bloody, all the better. I’m never going to feel bad about that and at the same time if you can’t stand eating meat I don’t care, however don’t go all fuckin’ holier than thou about it making you a better human being and that you no longer kill to live.

End your delusion vegans and grow up.

God made us predators so it totally fails the logic filter if you try to tell me God said we need to be vegetarians or vegans or whatever the new trend is this week.

I made a killing!

I killed them!

I am going to kill it!

None of these are referring to people or animals however are expressions commonly used. Even in our language in life and how we view it, we are killers, every last one of us.

That we don’t run around killing each other is a very good thing and what makes us inferior to the animals is we will kill each other when there is no need to. I meant to use the word inferior. Here’s why.

A superior species lives harmoniously within it’s ecosystem and modifies itself to maintain balance and harmony with its surroundings. Governments have been shutting down research since the 70’s that would’ve already had us off oil completely.

Tesla’s free energy technology was suppressed in the name of greed alone. It means we never needed nuclear energy and could have avoided 3 Mile Island, Chernobyl and Fukishima, all nuclear meltdowns that we will not know in our lifetimes what the true damage done is.

We are killers. We are killing our world as long as we allow things such as the internal combustion engine and nuclear energy. We are killing our world as long we continue to ignore using hemp to replace oils based and wood based products with a renewable resource that renews annually.

Marijuana was made illegal so that the logging industry would thrive as well as the emerging pharmaceutical industry. A known cure for cancer suppressed so people could be tortured in the name of greed.

Predator preying on the weak and sick.

The human is a savage and all you have to do to see it is get real honest about the damage we do simply to get through the day and get over it.

Next, do better than we did yesterday or die trying.

If I had to kill my own food, I would live off eggs for protein. I like that someone gets paid to butcher meat and love that I can pay for the blissful ignorance of never meeting my meal. If I did, I know me, it would become a pet and pets are family and we don’t kill our family or so I’m told.

How many times have you thought about doing something you would never actually do?

How many times have you been scared by your own dark side?

How often do you really feel like a savage emotional creature who just happens to be human?

How often do you lie to yourself about it and pray no one ever finds out how savage you can really be?

Romantic love is who you share the savage with because the beasts play well together. It’s driven by primal lust we call seduction and passion but awakens a sexual beast that must be satiated. When you find that with someone, learn to adjust over time as it will be rough at first, however for that kind of lovemaking, definitely worth it.

 

 

 

The Art of the Radio DJ

How many of you need to look up the name Wolfman Jack?

If it’s any of you than there is a lost art you have never had in your life. The Radio DJ was the Pastor and the music from the prophets is what they explained to the congregation of listeners to be a translator of the Rock Gods and the messages sent forth through their prophets.

The only 3 Radio DJ’s I will not turn the dial on is Alice Cooper, Nikki Sixx and Dee Snider. Today’ Radio DJ’s don’t know shit about what it means to live Rock ‘N’ Roll. The only other Radio DJ I’ve met worth two shits goes by the name Meat Wad. Read Rock ‘N’ Roll Karma to see why.

Howard Stern, Mark and Brian, Bob and Tom and others killed the Art of the Radio DJ and made it the old radio shows from when radio was born that took in the ratings and cut the people off from the Rock Gods. It became about the DJ not the music. If it’s not about the music the DJ sucks donkey dicks in Tijuana on the weekends for fun in my Rock Shaman opinion.

Anyone who was watching what I posted on Facebook today should have seen this coming from a mile a way.

Former Baptist Preacher turned comedian paid me a visit as a Medium today to remind me of a few lessons he taught that I lived.

 

Yes I am going to make you look up the Wolfman yourself.

If you have to watch TV try That Metal Show.

I am heading back to Youtube and offensive comedians from my childhood.

You do your thing on a Sunday and this is what a Rock Shaman does.

If the Radio DJ doesn’t know shit about living Rock ‘N’ Roll, that Radio DJ is needs to back to Church.

For me when I go to Church I like it heavy.

 

Remember kids when all else fails say “Fuck it” to something and do it anyway.

However never fart on the snare drum.

If you need more than some kick ass rock and a movie quote or two, you’re trying too hard.

And here’s a lesson in why.

In closing this service of The Church of Rock ‘N’ Roll.org

This has been message brought to you by The Church of Rock ‘N’ Roll.org

to show why I’m

The Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman

and you’re whoever you’re pretending to be online.

Remember we’re all blessed, so do us all a favor and act like it.

Of the Gods that never were and have always been

A world within but unknown

Making sure you reap as you have sown

Some try to cheat existence

Trying to tip the balance

A secret game being played

Even though it is fully displayed

Guardians walk among you

Who have the over head view

They see every move made

Even the ones not displayed

A secret world exists within but unknown

Those who walk both sides know not what it means to be alone

Always aware 

Of what is always there

The ignorance you have is bliss

Be quite certain of this

The other side has many dangers for sure

For the unknowing adventurer

Drop the veil for a peek

Of that which I speak

Be warned that what you see

Has already been watching thee

Waiting for the moment to show you

What it has seen from its view

The first few are always a fun ride

Just to make you think it’s safe on the other side

The next few trips

Will include some slips

To make you question

The messengers intention

That mystic thing you can’t see

That has always been watching thee

It will always lie 

It will with what it shows your eyes

It will always be true from some view

What is laid out before you

When the Demon sucks you in

It looks like an Angel to begin

Promises of glory

And a really good story

Soon you find

The Demon left you behind

No longer can you see it’s face

Yet you feel the laughter from the forbidden place

The place it led you to

To fuck endlessly with your view

There’s a reason for the lock on the door

It’s so the other side you can ignore

When you walk both worlds you long for that door to someday close

The one you were born with open to you, not one you chose

It’s simply tragic

That we have forgotten the Majick

Of the Gods that never were and have always been

The ones here until it ends that were here to watch it begin

The ones who answer prayers given in no gods name

They answer wishes and wants the same

They are what you resist

That will always persist

The nameless force

That seems to take your life off course and on course

What could it be 

These gods we can not see

Is it Angels and Demons under control

Of God and the Devil each living a role

To keep it all going and in balance

Do they work together by chance

Who keeps them in check for the job they do

Managing existence for me and you

Of the Gods that never were and have always been

The ones here until it ends that were here to watch it begin

 

The War of Art

I found me today

I was right here where I stay

No more reflection

Only a projection

No more mask

For any given task

Only letting go

Only letting it flow

Who knows what path lay ahead

Walking through the walking dead

Swimming in a sea of lies

Time standing still as it flies

It’s called now

That’s how

A moment of frozen motion

Powered by emotion

Truth is beauty

Love is duty

It is the beauty

That drives the duty

In the war of art we have only just begun to fight

You haven’t seen the brightest of our light

You haven’t met the darkest part of us that will always exist

The more you resist the more we persist

It’s our passion that burns our fire bright

It’s our love that will win this fight

You call it marketing and branding because everything needs to sell

I call it the Devil’s tools for creating an earthly hell

Who else would make it a need

To feed the greed

Who else would use your emotions against you to get you to buy in

Who else would convince you not going along is the sin

If not the Devil than who

Would use marketing and branding to get control over you

To convince you that you need that worthless thing

Who else would try to sell you everything

Who would give you tips and guides

On how to make it on the cool kids only ride

Playing on your fear of being alone

Tapping your fear of being totally unknown

Of being forgotten or lost

If you don’t go along with it, well that’s the cost

Got do it their way

If you think you are going to play

Art is an expression of love

That leaps blindly and never needs a shove

Unconditional love is as black as the Pit

It’s why only true artists use every bit of it

Whether it be light or dark

Anything lights our spark

Get’s the juices flowing

Get’s us up and going

On to the next creation with obsessive desire

That is the artists fire

Our flame never dies

Our art never lies

We don’t create to sell

We don’t live in that hell

It’s the heavenly view we see

Where we are already free

Free to be you and me

Free from conformity

It’s the artist war to fight

All of the day and all of the night

Art has already won

The lies falling apart and coming undone

This what the artist calls fun as they rage on

It’s what their art is built upon

A rage fueled by loves fire

Not some selfish desire

The artist is done reflecting

Now it’s time for some projecting

Why not go this way?

I was born long ago
I am the chosen I’m the one
I have come to save the day
And I won’t leave until I’m done
So that’s why you’ve got to try
You got to breath and have some fun
Though I’m not paid I play this game
And I won’t stop until I’m done

The spirit within crying out from within.

The spirit that connects us all has been there since the beginning and lives through us all.

Everybody trying to teach you anything about the never ending quest to being the best you that you can be will tell you to breathe. Letting go of your body and allowing it to control your breathing can set you in a relaxed state really fast.

Fun usually involves laughter which we have all heard for a long ass time is the best medicine. Life is not a job and you are not going to get paid for being you alone. We play the game to have a life to show off when we are not doing what we do to afford our life.

None us ever stops until we hit the final dirt nap.

I don’t know why we always cry
This we must leave and get undone
We must engage and rearrange
And turn this planet back to one
So tell me why we got to die
And kill each other one by one
We’ve got to love and rub-a-dub
We’ve got to dance and be in love

Look at your life and what you have in it.

Look for the things in your life that make you happy.

What is it again you have to cry about?

Sure you can come up with a list if you want and it will all be valid.

So what?

You have to build your recovery from within.

You have to find the strength from within to overcome.

You must let go of the past and the ideas that anything is holding you back before you can propel forward.

The best way to learn more is engage with real people in discussion about real things if we are every going to fix the issues and make it better for the sum.

I’m a pacifist. It does not mean I don’t know how to defend myself if needed, it means I choose to find every other option first and let my own skills only come forth when everything else has failed.

Dancing is the best soul and body in one nourishing exercise there is. It allows the mind to let go of the body and let the music move you.

But what I really want to know is
Are you gonna go my way ?

Something no one can deny is that we all know better than we often behave and it won’t get any better until we find the way through peace and love and understanding and stop the violence.

I wander but I am not lost

Wandered the dark
Made it my home

Kick back the lights to their home
That wander in lost and alone

Went to the light
For the first time experienced fright

Decided to walk the silver line
Keep things from crossing from time to time

Found my way to the forest
I needed the rest

Time off from the endless war
That for me is such a bore

I wander through the trees
Looking for others like me

‘Tis the masters that I seek
Those who know how to be meek

With this forest as my home
Never am I alone

There is life at every turn
From the birds to the fern

I came here in despair
Unable to find any like me out there

I come to the edge from time to time
To look for another coming down the silver line

Come now and take your rest
Prepare we do for the final test

To go back from whence we came
To help them all become the same

You and The Big U

Understanding through deconstruction

I use the term The Big U for the connection to God, The Universe or whatever helps you sleep better at night. Here’s why.

Mind = Flesh

Soul = What powers the flesh.

Spirit = The higher self connection to God, The Universal Consciousness, whatever helps you sleep better at night.

Now if we get a little more detailed and stay in the base view that is Psychospirilosophy I think we might be able to explain this in a way that will clear it up for some of you that made it abundantly clear to me how simple life is.

Mind and soul are the small you.

Your Higher self is the Big U.

I pray to the I am that I am to provide for my life. 

I am asking my higher self to let Gods will move through me to fulfill the desires I have.

I ask The Big U to drop whatever you need to heal your soul in your lap. 

I am asking your higher self to help you out on your behalf because I see the need for the healing only you can do for you and you are not connecting for some reason to the guidance within.

Can someone please explain to me why we need religion in any form?

I remembered my Gandhi last night.

God has no religion. 

It’s as Lynyrd Skynyrd put it.

All you need is in your soul. 

Within your soul is the connection to God you will never find out here. Within you is the power to save yourself by allowing yourself to be guided from within to those with similar view and values that will support you in your being.

The Big U guides the little you from within you if you know how to listen.

If not call a Shaman, it’s what we do, we teach you how to listen to yourself.

To bring out your best

Come together over love

No need to shove

Let it come from within

For the feeling to begin

It’s love it’s true

That is inside of me and you

When we forget the past and embrace the flow

That love will grow

As we give it amplifies

To make sure that this love never dies

Never let your light dim day or night

Don’t let them tempt you into a fight

Beam your love every where you go

To increase the world flow

It’s the cure for societal ills

That can’t be cured with pills

It’s the notion 

Of the language of emotion

Speak with love and yes it’s true

You’ll find majick hiding inside of you

Let love be your guide

And wisdom flows from inside

Let love flow

And it will grow

Put it to the test

To bring out your best

 

 

 

Skulls and Roses

Pick your death and live accordingly

The Skull and the Rose

Is the reason for this prose

One for Death’s mask

One for Life’s task

If you look behind mask

You find the task

It’s not to come and claim you at the end

That is the task of my friend

Life has to wear a scary mask

On occasion for a given task

To scare you

Into a different view

That leads to making a choice

A different way to use your voice

To bring into your flower

Something of true power

In Life’s task

Life dawns Death’s mask

The skull to scare you of the end

The rose to remind you embrace the beauty around you my friend

In each of us is a flower

A Soul Flower

It can bloom in infinite ways

Depending on what you feed it throughout the days

When we get hurt its true

We can grow thorns that prick you

The Skull and the Rose

Often inspire prose

How much have you read

Out of fear of becoming dead

What you feed you mind

Comes through the bloom in time

Feed it with the beauty of life and love

And give Death’s mask a shove

See what lie within

It is Life there with a grin

I say fear the Reaper never more

Let him come knock at the door

A teacher and a guide

No matter the ride

Something we all have in common

Even if you’re a Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman

Though it’s true when loved ones get that final healing

It can leave us reeling

Just remember this

They now live in sweet bliss

Touch the bliss with in you

To see it from their view

It will dry the tears

And chase away the fears

You will see

The endless beauty

Life and Death the endless dance

Life and Death the endless romance

The Skull and the Rose

Might not be the only reason for this rose

From the Light to the Pit and back

When it came time 

To let my light shine

I was afraid, yes it’s true

And I dove into the Pit out of view

I feared myself to be

A false light that would mislead thee

In the Pit was where I thought I belonged

Though to be in the Light was what my heart longed

I put on a Silver mask

For my next task

To see from every view

That my light was true

I took off my mask

For my next task

To be in the light

Day and night

Never to deceive

No matter the spell I weave

I’ll never really forget

What I saw in the Pit

It showed me how to be

A better light for thee

A better teacher

Never a preacher

A better guide

To help you reveal what is inside

Yes it’s true, the light in me is the light in you

Shine for me and I’ll shine for you

 

They say “The Devil is in the details”

Here’s why that is a true statement.

If knowledge is power than wisdom is understanding.

That’s an original Max J. Carter quote.

I have been using that for several years after spending more than 15 with the riddle if knowledge is power than what is wisdom?

I posed this riddle to many over those 15 years as I also spent time in inner refection with it myself.

Wisdom understands which knowledge is the false details of complexity that is The Devil’s tool to keep you from the simplicity of understanding.

They have done research studies to back up what I’m about to say.

If you feel the need to argue, ask yourself why and act accordingly.

Intelligent people do not do well in school.

It takes a lower level intellect to memorize for a test later. The science has come back on this. It is a fact and not an opinion.

The higher the level of intellect the greater the desire to use what is presented as a jumping off point. The higher the intellect the greater the desire for simplicity.

It takes a simple mind to make something complex so that it can feel good about itself in showing off.

It takes a complex mind to make it as simple as possible so that more can be stored.

When you allow yourself to get bogged down in the details of knowledge you give up memory space. You fill your hard drive with knowledge that could have been better saved for future understanding.

The search for knowledge alone is a fools quest as it limits the true power of the mind for creative exploration and expression.

To seek understanding is to seek wisdom and allows you to apply what knowledge is truly needed and simplify concepts to simple understandings. It is allowing for the mysterious ways of God and the beautiful bliss of ignorance. The more you learn the more you understand how evil it is to live.

I have a gift of sight that removes the beautiful ignorant bliss life can be. There is a bliss that can be found within and it’s not easy to find. One must remove all ignorance to embrace the beauty of the truth.

God is love and we are made manifest of that love to be that love in various forms we call individuality.

The Devil is in every detail that removes that understanding from our minds.

For The Devil there is no greater joy to steal than that of inner exploration and self realization of what lives within each and every one of us.

God is that feeling that comes from within when everything feels right.

The Devil is in the outer details that tell you why you should ignore that feeling.

A simple understanding that you either have the experience to understand or you are going to see what some book says to explain it further or let it settle in and let go for a while and see what bubbles up on the topic.

The choice is always yours to seek within to find understanding or to seek out here and be tempted by every Devilish detail.

Have fun with whatever you choose, I’m enjoying my choices.

Shaman

It days gone by

The Shaman has yet to die

A figure that endures the test of time

Sometimes a gift passed down family lines

Walker of both worlds and a healing guide

Never really taking a side

When you walk with the spirits and can see their plan

You understand why a Shaman would choose to take a stand

So much of the other side is there to tempt you

To lead you away from the inner view

To seduce into thinking there are ways to cheat and jump ahead

Ways that too often leave you dead

Dead inside because you gave it all away

To that you thought would save the day

Only you can do you the favor

Of being your own savior

If you make the choice that leads to self destruction

That’s avoiding the inner instruction

All the Shaman can do is plant the seed in one

The work to make it grow is your deed to be done

If you need a guide to figure out an issue

A Shaman can help you adjust your view

The soul is what a Shaman helps you heal

Your inner knowing a Shaman helps you reveal

A teacher and guide

No matter the ride

Using metaphor

Sometimes myth and lore

A story teller whose stories have a point

Though they might be shared over a joint

When the student is ready the teacher will appear

And when the teacher arrives often the student fills with fear

Not knowing what lessons are left

Knowing it will always be a test

It’s always better to ask questions than to argue

It’s the only way to understand another view

Learn as you go

You will always grow

Fight the mirror in front of you

Be bound by your chosen view

Only you can set you free

It’s how you live that turns the key

Walking what you have spoken

Even if you thought you were only jokin’

 

 

The Law of Reflection and The Cinematic View

I wanted to get deeper into what I call The Cinematic View.

There are many rock bands that will tell you they’ve lived their THIS IS SPINAL TAP moments. For those who don’t know, the film is a fake documentary about a fake rock band on tour. Life imitates art and art imitates life.

Could it be that life and art are one in the same?

Could it be that you and I are living performance art pieces?

Could it be that there is an unseen audience watching the show we put on?

Think about how your memory leaves out huge chunks of what would be the boring stuff in life. Yet the exciting highlights and things that are character defining moments are forever caught in the highlight real that is the film of your life.

Movies and TV shows only give the highlights of the characters’ lives and often only one short piece of it at that. They leave out all the mundane day to day to stuff that the characters are normally dealing with. You know the boring hum drum routine that so many of us find ourselves in. It can have you feeling as though your life is the film GROUNDHOG’S DAY, living the same day over and over with little to no change.

The Cinematic View simply stated was beautifully illustrated by this film. To change the story, make changes in your character. It was not until the main character had made a real authentic change in himself that he was able to progress his story.

No one wants to sit around and watch me write this stuff and I don’t blame them, I am on this side and it’s the only reason I enjoy it.

How much of your life would be boring as hell to watch?

Be honest, it would be a huge chunk for most people to most people.

We thrive on dialog and action. The conversations we have and who we have them with are character refining moments. I say refining instead of defining with intent. We always have the power to change our character.

The film of life sees each of us as the star of our movie, however when we join together our role can sometimes change and it’s in these role changes that define who we are in the moment. There is no script for life and we can’t feed the lines we want to hear to the other players on the stage. The story creates itself in the moment as each speaks and the reactions and responses come forth.

Let’s say you want to be me. First I would say you have chosen the fools road to wisdom. Here’s why.

I used to tell people that the trick to being me was to talk mad shit and then try to live it. Here’s why that is a bad idea. Ever spend too much time dealing with mad shit.

I created a character that forever had a chip on his shoulder looking for anything to challenge for the sake of challenging it. I did say the fool’s road to wisdom.

I now say to live well, speak well.

Before you can learn why I changed myself you might need some of the same foolish experiences to gain the wisdom to understand why you are making certain changes in yourself.

To change your story, you have to change your character and yourself talk is how you refine who you think you are. It’s how you refine your projection to be able to better handle it being reflected back at you.

The faces on the mirrors may change as you do and that’s OK, sometimes you need new characters in order to have a new story to live.

What is it you desire most in life to do every day?

That’s the cornerstone of your character. That’s the reason for your character to even exist and have a story to tell. After you figure that out, The Big U has a way of dropping everything you need into your life to live that character to its fullest and live story worthy of remembering and sharing with others.

Who will tell the story of you?

They all will.

You leave a story of you with everyone you meet.

Yeah, but what do YOU think

Shame

I’ve spent my life in the endless discussion that is the question “Why are we here and what in the blue holy hell can we really do about it?”

I always find I enjoy finding new discussion partners who can keep it on topic and can avoid taking it or making it a personal thing. The one thing I can’t tolerate however is when someone refuses to share their thoughts and instead only spits up what they have been fed and never take the time to think and really understand it from their own unique perspective.

The ability to express yourself as yourself is the foundation of creativity. To dive within you and use your view to narrow it down to the simplest understanding you need to you get the majickal and ever elusive “it” is the gift of individuality and identity. It’s the refinement of who you think you are that is the ego expression of self also known as your identity.

That’s owning your free will and understanding the power you wield. It is the way you create your image prison that is the things you say you will and won’t do and the behavior you will and will not tolerate. Without that cage to protect you there is nothing in place to ever reject anything for any reason and you would get yourself killed real fast.

Using the Psychospirilosophy view let’s dive a little deeper shall we.

Remember all Psychospirilosophy says is that you should have a psychological understanding of why you do what you do and that you should have something spiritual in your life, whatever it is and our personal philosophies in life is the talk we say we are walking. It’s a view and a tool.

Why would you regurgitate instead of offering your own real thoughts in a discussion?

Fear.

“What if I’m wrong?”

Than you have given yourself the opportunity to learn and grow. That’s a gift that never stops giving when you really seek to understand it from within instead of playing it shallow.

“They said it better than I could.”

That is negative self talk that diminishes the light you can be. This is also a fear that is used to feed off ignorance and steal your power and your light.

To be ignorant only means you have yet to understand something from within. You have yet to have the experience to unlock the inner knowing.

We are all ignorant of a list of things.

There is no shame in ignorance.

Shame can only be found in pride. If we are too proud to claim our ignorance we live in the shame of never learning or growing.

When you take the time to discover your own unique way of seeing things you empower yourself and those around you. The example you set silently gives them permission figure out what their way of seeing it is. It allows them the opportunity to see they can refine their own ideas and still keep their individual view.

When we choose to use the words of another, we forsake our own gift of individual understanding.

We give our power to think for ourselves to someone else.

We give our ability to be a bright shining light to anyone who will take the stage in our place.

Mind Sex 101

Mind sex

There is an art to seduction that is slow and patient and built upon a conversation that never ends.

The intent behind the conversation is not to lead to physical seduction. The intent is to explore and allow yourself to come alive from the inside. When you connect at the higher levels of understanding it builds a stronger emotional bond. It leads to a more intimate connection that has you sharing the depths of yourself instead of playing it shallow just to get laid.

You can feel a sexual attraction to many. Lust has no rules and your inner beast of desire likes to feed in more than one way.

Lust is easy.

An honest conversation is vulnerability.

An intent to know and be known tears down the walls of insecurity and who you are from the core comes forward.

An intent to know and be known in the now in the flow is a sweet surrender to what the Big U is showing you.

When you set that kind if intent and let go, the conversation may take breaks, however it never ends. When you allow yourself to be this vulnerable silence can be comfortable.

Here’s the catch.

You have to be able to be this deep with yourself first.

If you can’t accept and love you as you are, no one else will either.

Be the love you wish you had and find the love that will never stop talking.

How loud is the love in your life

The band who wrote this song might use the name Placebo, however I guarantee you can find a true cure for what ails you in the lyrics of this one.

Love on an atom, love on a cloud
To see the birth of all that isn’t now
Can you imagine a love that is so proud?
It never has to question why or how
Total abandon the love in my dreams
When I wake up I’m soaking in my sheets

From the fabric of existence in the smallest part of us to the outer rim of existence one thing binds it all together, love.

Take a step within yourself and look for the core of who you are and find the birth of who you are ever becoming and find the true being of love you wish you could be. That bright shining star that makes no excuses and laughs at fear and dives head first when you feel that drive from within.

Be who you wish you could be.

That takes a profound acceptance of just how amazing each of us can be when we get out of our own way and make it about giving the love not searching for it. A love so proud it walks in and spreads itself around any and every where it goes.

You bring that kind of love from within and the fire that burns never ends. It will fill your dreams with wondrous sights and when the flame burns that hot you can’t help but to sweat from your own heat.

When you live that kind of love and you meet a reflection of your projection that matches it in every way, dive away into the love found and know its a shared heart and two souls that can start to build a connection of a unified projection. A we that is a little of each and a sum of both. However before you can unite with another and have it be a flow of ease, one must unify one within.

That is the proud love of self love that is born of all that isn’t now.

Now is the expression of that love as it has grown from within.

Now is never ending and ever changing.

It’s a flow of life and a flow of love that always leaps with out a shove. It sees and feels where it is needed and moves one into word and action from within. Not caring why or how, simply flowing and growing and letting the flow determine the nature of the show.

The show is life’s theater and we are all stars on the stage.

For all of our youth
We have craved them
Their beauty and their truth

So we name them
And somehow they pull us through
We have craved them
For all of our youth

The reflections of ourselves we find ourselves in love with over the course of life each have a beauty and truth that reveals who we were back then that leaves us ever craving to be that person again. The face will always change but the love is always the same.

It’s the ones that brought out our best and put us tho the test to really be it from within. The only way to have it now is to let go of days and love gone by and embrace who you are on your own.

To see you can be that person with or without the love you think you need.

Once you do that and you find another who seems to make it less work and more fun to be that human being and you find you speak each others minds, that is the partner in life you find while you’re busy doing something else.

When that love connects it can be loud beyond loud.

Breathe
Believe
We are loud like love

Connected by a thread

Connected by a thread

Alive or dead

Found in every form that can be taken

Eternally dancing and making

In a flow

That just says go

And it runs on its own

From what we have sown

Letting it unfold

Though it has been foretold

Not even a day in advance

Before the beginning of this dance

A conversation with no ending

Neither one ever pretending

The night I had is still going

Though I am finally slowing

I haven’t slept at all

However I am beginning to stall

Connected by a thread

No matter where each lay their head

It just flows

As it goes

It brings forth my light

Be it day or night

When I looked at the stars last night

Poetry spewed forth about the dark and the light

As I watched the sunrise

It was with new eyes

Seeing every bit of beauty to be found

As I took a drive all around

I know where home is now

I leave it to the Big U on the how

Follow the signs

As we move through time

Being who we are 

Shining bright from the inner star

Two lights will collide

And it will be a sweet ride

Connected by a thread and not by chance

Always meant to do this dance

Now that I have seen day turn to night

And night to day before my waking sight

I go off to find the sweetest dreams you wished for me

I hope you found them for thee

 

Violence begets violence

It’s been a rough day for a lot of people who are grieving lost ones.

Yet another round of senseless killing in France and what is it that drives all this death and destruction?

Pain.

I always say forget the hate and heal the pain.

The hate comes from pain and suffering.

When we live in suffering the only thing that can make the pain stop at times is anger and rage. It gets used to spread that pain and suffering around as it did in Nice France.

It has been happening around the world a lot more frequently. We have had it happen in Turkey and other places around the world.

Why?

Pain.

The thing we never look at in violent crimes is the total history of what led to the event.  We fail to look at all the details that create the desire within one to strike out in rage and take life.

The one thing that none of us wants to admit is that any of us are capable of committing acts of atrocity. The one thing we want to turn a blind eye to is looking deep into the issue to find the source of pain that blurs the lines and brings the rage that only knows how to do one thing, destroy.

Days like today will have many calling for blood and laying blame so vengeance can be taken.

Violence begetting violence.

At some point we have to break the cycle or we will destroy ourselves.

How do we do it?

The bottom line is that we have to set aside the idea of countries and race and embrace the truth of one human race and act accordingly.

In steps what that looks like is forgiveness through understanding.

It’s the last thing any who lost someone wants to hear. I understand why.

I would ask of all to not only send the healing love and prayers to those who lost people in France but to also put the intent into sending that healing energy to every man woman and child on the planet.

I would ask all of you to stop asking for more violence.

I’m a veteran.

I’m a warrior.

What a warrior desires above all else is peace.

I look at my update feed on all my social media outlets and the thing that disgusts me most of all is those who ask for violence to be carried out.

Violence begets violence until we say “No more.”

No longer will we let violence beget violence.

No more will we cry out for vengeance.

No more we will ignore the pain that brings the violence.

No more violence.

Dive within to your very core to find the love that is there to send to all those in need.

I am.

If you don’t agree with me, please tell me why.

oneearthfamily

hate

 

What if you met the Devil?

devil

Please allow me to introduce myself
I’m a man of wealth and taste
I’ve been around for a long, long year
Stole many a man’s soul and faith

And I was ’round when Jesus Christ
Had his moment of doubt and pain
Made damn sure that Pilate
Washed his hands and sealed his fate

I’ve asked myself this question many times over.

I seen it in thousands of ways and with a conversation that for me is all about sitting down and hearing the Devil’s side of the story. In all those day dreams the one thing I could never escape was the idea of just how fucked up the Devil’s job is.

Someone has to do it right?

However does this mean we should have sympathy for the Devil as the Rolling Stones suggest?

The opening of this song recounts the tale of Jesus being nailed to a cross and the man who had to be the one to do it. If you are not familiar with the story, the dude who got nailed saw it coming from a mile away and knew it was part of his destiny. Someone had to fulfill it and be the bad guy or there could be no hero or in case of this story, no savior.

I stuck around St. Petersburg
When I saw it was a time for a change
Killed the Tsar and his ministers
Anastasia screamed in vain

I rode a tank
Held a general’s rank
When the blitzkrieg raged
And the bodies stank

I watched with glee
While your kings and queens
Fought for ten decades
For the gods they made

I shouted out,
“Who killed the Kennedys?”
When after all
It was you and me

We can look back and see every kind of horror that we can dish out to each other and it would be really nice if we had a Devil to blame for the atrocities of man. The Devil in us all is something we struggle with. Yet if we look back to our own worst behavior or daydreams of things we never did, that’s the Devil Inside that INXS talks about.

Just as every cop is a criminal
And all the sinners saints
As heads is tails
Just call me Lucifer

Cause I’m in need of some restraint
So if you meet me
Have some courtesy
Have some sympathy, and some taste

Use all your well-learned politesse
Or I’ll lay your soul to waste

Before embracing the Shaman I am, I was brought up Baptist. It happens and I’m feeling much better now.

The use of the name Lucifer to give the Devil a face and a personification gives us someone to blame.

When you take the inner dive that is guided by your higher self it can feel like a guided tour of hell from Lucifer himself. You’re showing yourself through your idea of living hell and living heaven that all there truly is in life is decisions and consequences. You build your hell or free yourself to your heaven on earth by the choices you make and the consequences you face for making those choices.

Do as you will and remember you will reap what you sow whether you want to or not. Think of it as the basic understanding to be nice or there are consequences you will face at some point in time.

This concept is the basic underlying concept of every religion ever created. It also covers every philosophy ever written and every story we tell.

Be nice or have your soul laid to waste.

Pleased to meet you
Hope you guessed my name, oh yeah
But what’s puzzling you
Is the nature of my game,

Tell me baby, what’s my name
Tell me honey, can ya guess my name

Tell me baby, what’s my name
I tell you one time, you’re to blame

To me I found in life the Devil is any thing that has you feeling tempted to do something you know better than to do.

Karmic Law states we are responsible for our lives.  My gift allows me to go back and see why your life or mine is exactly where it is. However I need the focus of questions or it’s all to immense to try and describe however I can see it anyway. When I say go back I often find myself behind the eyes of another viewing outward.

A Shaman lives with one foot on the other-side and one foot on this side. When you add being a Medium into the mix, my teachers were the Ascended Masters and what some would call the Arch Angels.

Karmic Law is Karmic Law and it defies the Law of Physics and Human beings.

If we create our shared reality with our thoughts we are the Devil to blame for why our world looks the way it does.

Empath: This our being in being

I feel your pain
Without even knowing your name

What you thought you were hiding
Is now within me residing.

I take it as my own
So you will not feel alone

My gift is my curse
That I describe with this verse

As each day passes
I reach out and feel the masses

When I go out alone
I get buried under things unshown

It’s hard not to let in
All these things you hide within

I may not know you
But I’ll always feel you

I don’t try to shield
I simply yield

I take it for a while
So I can see you smile

You never have to ask
My being is this task

I’ve done it my entire life
Holding everybody’s strife

I ask for nothing in return
But I do yearn

To have one by my side
To help me take it all in stride

I’m a teacher and a guide
In the war I no longer reside

Teaching others to inspire
To reach from need and not desire

Guiding others to a new path
One absent of destructive wrath

From my hearts bottomless well
Comes the infinite healing swell

My love for all is never ending
In this I am never pretending

I am Empath born with a gift
I am Empath we heal the rift

The one between the heart and the mind
Your true self I help you find

Come to me without fear
So you can see things clear

Share your pain with me
As you do we are a we

Two souls synched as one
Have no fear it can be undone

I can read your soul
I can help you be whole

I know you behind the mask
This is this beings task

To see passed your life
To see what is under the strife

What you thought was lost
I can give back at no cost

Just come and take my hand
Together let us stand

Take my strength as yours
Let me heal those soul sores

There may be scars left behind
They are there to remind

Things you should not do
Now that I have restored you

When you find your way to me
It’s your soul I always see

I feel you at any distance
I have since first glance

This is my gift
It acts quite swift

I do it because I care
It’s my gift to share

Refuse it don’t you dare
Don’t let it give you a scare

If you run from me
I will not chase thee

I will let you be
As you walk away from me

It breaks my heart every time
They turn and leave me behind

It’s a gift and a curse
Some days are better and some worse

Depends on what you think you are hiding
That now is within me residing

In a glance

In a glance

Knowing it’s not random chance

In the the longer look

Seeing the beginning of a new chapter in life’s book

What will be written as the flow goes on

Remains hidden and can feel more like a song

A gentle rhythm and words so sweet

It moves through you and puts you on your feet

As the confusion sets in

It’s time for the dance to begin

Let yourself go

Let the music of life flow

Feel the love from head to toe

Feel yourself lost in the flow

Don’t stop to think

That’s how you sink

As you go through your day

Let the music of inner love move you on your way

As the story unfolds in words and actions

Refining projections during inner reflections

It causes a ripple felt far and wide

What you bring from the inside

To connect in the moment shared

Even if you might be a little scared

To let down your guard

Sometimes can be hard

However it is  must

If anything is to ever be built on trust

If a story worth sharing is be written

Fear must be shed and forgotten

Let go

Let it flow

Trust your inner voice

To guide you through every choice

And the chapter fills itself in

With tales of glory and sin

The journey with no true end

Simply a transformation for another chapter to begin

In this new chapter my life writes

I look forward to taking in the sights

Losing myself in the musical flow

Knowing none of it is a show

It’s a tell

The result of life’s spell

Woven with words an emotion

Carrying me across the ocean

The sea of souls fed by rivers of streams

Ever moving with hopes and dreams

It’s never random chance

That I stop and take a glance

In the depth of my view

I found me in you

 

 

 

The eternal connection of infinite reflection

These eyes of mine

See the other side of the line

Into the dark places we wish we could forget

The things we may still regret

They see the fullness of the light

That you are for others sight

They see you perfectly flawed

It’s your imperfections that leaves me in awe

Sometimes that’s impressive

Sometimes it’s depressive

Does it bring a smile when you show your ass

Does it bring out wrath

Whether it be silly ass or smart ass

Dumb ass, jack ass or wise ass

Some asses get smacked and others kissed

It all depends on what was hit and who got missed

When I see the show

That comes from the inner glow

It’s pleasure to stand back and see

What these eyes of mine find before me

When it comes from the core

Are the shows that make me want more, more, more

I see behind the mask 

Of your given task

When you bring it true

I see me in you

Seeing the soul within

That is where we all begin

The eternal connection

Of infinite reflection

Remembering how to feel: Dealing with being an Empath

The biggest disconnect happens when it is difficult at best for a non Empath to understand what an Empath is, much less find a way to relate. It is what it is.

An Empath will take on the emotions associated with PTSD from someone who is repressing or suppressing those feelings. When I say take on the emotions, that means the Empath is left within themselves to connect to memories of their own as to why they feel the way they do now that they are feeling what you were and now are not.

Over time the techniques an Empath can use to shield themselves stop working. I have found the only true defense that an Empath has is pure apathy or pure logic absent of any emotion.

For the Empath anything else and the emotions of all around us will have some influence in how we feel in any social engagement. Think of it in simplest terms of having a sexual partner who will always go with whatever your thing is. They key in on what takes you there and ride the wave with you.

For the Empath this is not always a fun ride depending on what takes some people there. It usually also means any traumatic sexual issues from the past are going to be felt, not known, felt by the Empath you share your body with.

For those who are also Telepathic, they get the addition of seeing it and reliving it as if was them. They get a mind’s eye view of the moment and the feeling attached to it.

It’s why Empaths are social creatures, however will be very selective about who they allow in their space.

It is possible for an Empath to overload and take on too much and have their own emotions shut down. If an Empath finds themselves in a location where they cannot escape those with unresolved issues the logic zone or peace becomes the natural state as they are constantly surrounded by emotions they do not wish to take on.

It can make refining ones idea of self interesting as identity is emotional attachments or the things we truly care about. The things that make us say I, me or my. The things that bring us to life and remind us we are still alive and we still have our own emotional core.

Being an Empath is a different kind of life. Not a better or worse one, it’s different. It’s a different way to experience life with full depth of feeling and understanding. It’s a life that leads to many answers that come in the form of questions. Endless discovery. Endless beauty even though at times the suffering of others becomes our problem to deal with simply because we showed up.

We may only be 10% or so of the population, however that still means there are over 700 million of us on the planet and more being born every day. It’s part of our genetic evolution as a species.

The Endless Dance of Life and Death

There is an endless dance

It has nothing to do with romance

It’s beat starts in the heart

The beginning of all living art

The birth of the inner fire

That is desire

Desire to touch and hold

Desire to break every mold

Desire to be

Desire to see

Desire to hear and be heard

Desire to stand out from the herd

Desire to live 

Desire to give

Desire that creates the life that has us afraid

Of the day it’s in the ground we are laid

The music of all life around

Regardless of the nature of the sound

Ever wonder why

How will I die

Does knowing it will some day end

Add value to the time as you spend

The finite numbers of days that is your life

Or does it cause you strife

Life and Death are two sides of the same coin it is true

One can not exist without the other no matter your chosen view

I say pick your death and live accordingly

And Death can be quite the guide acting quite supportingly

Death is nothing more than a transformation

To something that is quite beyond imagination

Life as we know it just another form

To ride the emotional love storm

That is the endless dance

That sometimes involves romance

Otherwise what’s the point

Of taking on flesh and living down here in this joint

Enjoy the dance

Treasure each romance

Live to die some day

It’s going to happen anyway

Pick your Death and let that choice guide your turns

As your guided to what makes your soul burn

Come alive from inside

To make it a kick ass ride

Giving yourself quite the highlight reel in the rear view

When you got the time to hang out with you

I am off to dance to the music I live

It’s my gift to me to give

Find your flow

And dancing through life you will go

 

 

The inner cage of the beast called desire

In the light do we not dance with our darkness still

Is it not simply a matter of will

No matter how hot the fire

It’s still a choice when dealing with desire

Do you let the tiger out of the cage

Do you let the animal take the stage

Whether in darkness or in light

It’s an inner fight

No matter how hot the fire

Of the burning desire

Not every night

Is meant for that kind of delight

A patient mind they say reaps a great reward

Sounds like a good reason to sheath thy sword

I’m The Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman and not a monk or a priest

Some things can’t go unnoticed by the inner beast

Though it stays in its cage

It does so with a hint of rage

It wanted to come out and play

In no particular way

It was halted from within

Before anything could even begin

 

 

Independent in thought, Interdependent in reality

I’m a straight stone cold individualist.

The moment I find people around me giving me the sincerest form of flattery by taking on some of my mannerisms of speech, I change the way I talk so I can continue to be different. Some people say this looks like a mental illness to them, however here is the sanity of it in it’s intent and purpose.

Getting lost in a sea of clones is not my idea of a good time. However at the same time no matter how independent any of us is in thought we can not escape that in reality we are interdependent on each other for life.

This is inescapable truth.

There is no such thing as being a self made anything. Other people had to exist for you to have the experiences that you used to create the idea of you that is who you are right now.

middle lead

This quote sums up leadership in one shot in my opinion. Here’s why.

True leadership simply sees a need and either does something about it or finds the right people to get it done.

That’s it.

A true leader is in service by the very definition of identifying and fulfilling needs.

A true leader is in service at all times to everything around them.

You can only truly lead from the middle. It’s where you have the best view of everything going on. The view will always be skewed however from the middle you get a better idea of the needs to be filled and who can do it if you can’t.

Leadership understands the interdependence that is the reality of life.

Everything we do is an inspired action. Something inspired us to do whatever it is we are doing and at times that influence is coming from multiple places.

Even though we are independent in making the choice to engage in action, without the others, there is nothing.

We are all connected and each of us at the center of our own tribe so to speak. A tribe that is always in a circle with no one really in charge however everyone has a role so to speak.

I hung out with my tribe last night at the after party. It was fascinating to watch and see where I fit in perfectly. You know you found your tribe when time disappears and you appreciate that we are interdependent in the reality of life to really live. Being surrounded by individuals each and everyone distinct and their own kind of original, without the rest of the tribe it would be nothing.

Whether we like it or not life is a shared reality created by all of us which means we all share the responsibility of why the world looks the way it does.

I am not overly joyed about  it myself some days, however it does not change this simple yet powerful truth.

Our reality is dependent upon the choices each of us make in thought and action and spoken words.

Majick is every word we speak that is the never ending spell we weave.

It’s the Karmic Law equivalent of saying we reap what we sow and that includes every word that comes out of our mouths

We also reap from what we allow to be sown within us. Makes who you decide to let in your space a very important life choice.

infinite creators

Instead of thinking about planting a seed of what you want to do, think of it as throwing it up in the air with those who have similar end goals in mind. Let it be molded and shaped by as many who share the end goal view as you can find.  Each of you independent in your being and what brought you to the view that you just happen to share with those who can be of assistance in the interdependent area of building anything in life.

Any questions?

Time to begin

Is this a test

Like all the rest

Another lesson to remind

Of another time

Not handling it the same

Not giving into the game

Character refining moments are often spent alone

Deciding what to do about what was shown

It’s in these times in between examining all the pieces to paint a better picture stepping back

That we often see from the detached view things are all on track

Nothing out of place and everything where it belongs

Regardless of whether or not we’re face to face listening to the same songs

Things come together over course of many journey’s had  by wanderers and bards 

Similar souls who often first meet outside of bars

It is a tribe of souls who reflect each other true

Each having their own cinematic view

Bringing stories together to share the stage

It’s in making the art of living the performance art that’s becoming all the rage

It takes an independent view

That allows me to be me and you to be you

It takes a shared view of understanding and love

It’s a view that leaps without a shove

You can feel who shares it before you ever meet

You feel it with each and every heart beat

Masters of projecting and inner reflecting

Finding the mirrors of themselves are now intersecting

What they project 

When they connect

It all gets amplified

And felt world wide

Forming a chain and bonds felt in the soul

Even though each of us is whole

Getting linked to form the chain of love and kindness

However not out of ignorance or blindness

It’s been shown again and again

That it’s time for this show to really begin

I know this band of bards I call my friends

When they read this I hope they realize once we begin it never really ends

Go ahead and laugh and get it out

Remember there is no need to ever again doubt

And to the other 2 with whom I share an unbreakable knot

This is something for us 3 to never let be forgot

It’s a bond deeper than most and made by choice

Each of us accepting with our own voice

Once upon time I had no choice in who to trust

And now it’s whatever we 3 are doing or bust

For those of you who are wondering

Keep letting your mind go wandering

 

Majick Vs Magic

It is quite tragic

That so few understand true Majick

Magic is for amateurs who need the show

Majick is for those who found the flow

One is full of trappings and cages

One is how fools become sages

One has rules and steps to follow

It can often leave you feeling hollow

One says every word is your never ending spell

Each conversation and invocation of show and tell

We put on the mask 

For our given task

Let the words flow though

That will always be true

If your desire

Comes from a inner fire

That brings out  your best

No matter the test

If it calls upon the worst in you

Might wanna change your view

Speak well

Live well

That is is the simplicity of Majick

Versus the trappings and cages of magic

It’s based in one simple Karmic Law that is ever providing our direction

We reap what we sow in our every thought, word and action

Change the story that is on a repeat 

By changing what you say to the people you meet

Let them see your inner light shining true

More people will want to be around you

Those who can’t handle it

Are usually the ones full of shit

It’s no loss

To let them kindly fuck off

If you can’t be truly you

Who could ever be true to you

It’s tragic

How few embrace their true Majick

 

 

The only Meditation you’ll ever need

If you had the time to lose
An open mind and time to choose
Would you care to take a look
Or can you read me like a book

When you find yourself talking to your reflection in the mirror, you already have a good idea something is not right in your life. One of best pieces of dialog from the film HOLLOW MAN with Kevin Bacon was this line said by a character who had become invisible.

It’s amazing what you can do… when you don’t have to look at yourself in the mirror any more. …

We have all played that game of what if I was invisible what would I do?

I’m over it, so we’re not going to do that here.

To look deep within yourself takes an open mind and a patient mind to take the time to accept what is being shown to you by you for you.

I have often found this one simple meditation has done more for the thousands for people I have suggested it to than anything else they had tried.  Here’s how simple it is.

Repeat these words until you feel your body take over the breathing.

I let go of everything

Once you’re body has taken over the breathing, say this.

I go into the void of my own mind to learn what I need to know right now.

That’s it.

Can I tempt you come with me
Be Devil may care fulfill your dream
If I said I’d take you there
Would you go would you be scared

Don’t be afraid you’re safe with me
Safe as any soul can be… honestly
Just let yourself go

This meditation is a door way to allowing your higher self or your connection to the Universal Consciousness, The Big U or some might call it God that resides within each of us. It is this simple to establish that divine and sacred connection. That inner voice that you ignore and at times become fearful of is trying to get you to dive within instead of being led around by the nose out here.

You’re attempting to guide yourself to what is the best of yourself, flaws included to be something you love and embrace without giving two fucks about anyone who can’t handle who you really are. Only you can show you how to be that human being.

Anyone telling you different is trying to make a living off your ignorance.

At times it will feel like the Devil guiding you, however keep in mind we are under no obligation to be perfect and I find it’s healthy to pick the sins you like that you can live with and still look yourself in the mirror without feeling the need for one of those talks that for me starts out with “What in the blue holy fuck am I doing?”

That’s when I know I need to let myself go into my meditation so I can tell me exactly what in the blue holy fuck I am doing and what I can do about it.

Or to say I’ve been using this mediation for over 4 years myself.

Like a wolf in sheep’s clothing
You try to hide your deepest sins
Of all the things that you’ve done wrong
And I know where you belong

You’re being guided by yourself to learn to accept yourself or make changes. You will see every little dirty thing you ever did and learn to make peace with it. Think of it this way, it reinforces why there are certain things we won’t ever do again or won’t even think about doing or the things that if you don’t feel that bad about doing however may not admit to many people.

The fun part of the journey is learning you’re nowhere near as fucked up as you think you are or have been told you are.

Learning to love and accept you for who you know yourself to be is something only you can do.

The rest of us will never know you as well as you do. It is a fact and absolute truth of the human condition.

This meditation can assist in making that process more productive and faster depending on the choices you make in how you view what you show you.

Or to say once you start, there are no rules and there is only the box you create for yourself. A safe place in your mind for sanctuary that allows you to take rest during meditation instead of the endless journey of inner knowledge and understanding. A journey that will show you that no matter where you are in the progressive moment, you are exactly where you belong to learn the next lesson or live the reminder.

You put yourself in places for reasons you may not understand in the moment and it may take a while for enough pieces to fall into place for the organized chaos that is life to make sense in the big picture.

Time is always on my side

I always recommend this meditation as a sleep aid as it also sets the dream cycle for something productive and fun. Think of it as a lucid dreaming technique. It can also be used to set the beginning of doing a little Astral traveling.

Since you’re doing at bed time, the rest of your day is done and you now have no excuse.

Caught somewhere in time
Caught now in two minds!

It can feel as though you now understand what I mean about the progressive moment that never ends as time feels as though it comes to halt.

The awareness of the conscious and subconscious minds working in unison is not an easy one to get used to. However it allows for making changes in oneself happen much faster and with far greater results and less stumbling when walking the talk you lay out for yourself.

Self talk is the most important talk there is, be nice, be honest, be forgiving and accepting and talk yourself into the life you have dreamed of.

Pick your death and live accordingly

Pick your death and live accordingly

Love life.

That’s the metaphor I attach to the word “Live.”

We feel alive when we’re loving our life. That doesn’t always mean we’re happy about where our life is in the moment. I always maintain that there is only one emotion, love. The rest of what we call emotions is the infinite expressions or faces of love. If there was no love for anything, there would be no reason to shed tears.

I’ve learned a lot about loving life from death the concept and Death the personifications we have given to it. Every culture throughout history has had a face it has given to Death. If we can put a face on it and make it more human, it’s not as scary and maybe can be reasoned with.

Why do we fear death to begin with?

Because we are not exactly sure what happens afterwards.

Because we love life.

Because we fear how we are going to go.

I asked myself once if I could choose how to go out, what would I choose?

I’m a hopeless romantic by genetics and my mother amplified this by raising me on Neil Diamond.

The death I picked out centers around this for the life that leads to a unique ending.

I decided if I have a choice, I would choose to spend many years with the same woman by my side as my partner in life. Once we are ready to check out for good and go back to where it is we come from we will do so in one last lovers embrace. We will transcend the mortal death and simply ascend breaking apart into light during our last sharing of orgasmic bliss.

Pick your death and live accordingly.

Love your life based on the death you want.

What does a life look like to achieve this ending?

Have you read the rest of this blog?

Death is a healer and a guide to help us find better ways of enjoying the ride.

Besides without the idea of your life coming to an end one day wouldn’t it take some of the fun out of life?

Death makes life exciting, it makes us cherish those moments that we wish could live on forever.

Death is part of life and we can either live in fear of death or we can live a life that makes death a sweet release and transformation back to whatever it is we were before this life here and now.

Never forget the opposite of death is life.

What makes you want to live, you know, love life?

 

Death is a transformation

Death is a friend

Death is a healer

Death isn’t the end

It’s the great revealer

A change in form

Nothing to fear

Death is the norm

It’s always near

Like the caterpillar

In its cocoon

A butterfly interstellar

You’ll become soon

Death is friend with another side

Life is the name

From it so many hide

Or treat like a game

Only surviving from day to day

Playing by the rules and keeping scores

What death sees along that way

A long line of pimps and whores

If its life you want to live

Its the love you must give

If you don’t get it right

Have no fear my friend

Your death just might

Allow you to try again

The Living Spirit of Rock ‘N’ Roll

Quick history lesson.

Rock ‘N’ Roll got its name because it was the music people were fucking to in the back seats of cars across the nation.

Gene Simmons wasn’t inspired by The Beatles music to become a rock star, it was the screaming women that inspired the man to become The Demon on stage.

Last night someone tried to tell me Rock was dead.

The fuck it is.

Everywhere around the world people are going out getting drunk and fucking someone they wouldn’t have sober.

You can try and wrap it up anyway you want to feel better about it, however when you cut through it all, a drunken fuck is just that a drunken fuck.

While it could happen, there is most likely no love in the carnal act of a one night stand. It’s lust driven animal behavior and it feels good so we do it and find ways to make ourselves feel better about in the morning or we hate ourselves, the choice is ours.

Rock ‘N’ Roll Shaman people, at some point you had to see this coming from a mile away.

I know most of the time I am more reserved and make attempts to be clean and proper, however this Rock ‘N’ Roll.

George Throrgood put it best “Rock ‘N’ Roll is supposed to be dirty.”

The living spirit of Rock lives in our lust and our desire to party our asses of and enjoy some good old fashion visceral experience.

I’m no moralist, I’m a humanist. It’s healthy to cut loose once in a while. It’s good to let your hair down and let the beast come out and play, all I’m saying is know there will be shit to deal with so act accordingly to what you feel like dealing with in the morning.

As long as there are people out there somewhere trying desperately to get laid in bars, Rock ‘N’ Roll will never die.

As long as there are people who have had enough of being prim and proper and want to get visceral for the night, Rock ‘N’ Roll will live on.

The human will always be a savage and will always need an outlet for that savage and that is the heart and soul of Rock ‘n Roll.

Long live Rock ‘N’ Roll.

True Blue

Have you been to the dark side of the moon
Have you seen there is no spoon

Did you take the quest
Did you pass the test

Have you been insane
Have you played the game

Some say insanity is a bad thing
Some like the repeating

If you don’t like what keeps popping up
Try drinking from a different cup

If you like the things that happen on a repeat
Keep performing those feats

There is an insanity that is so ever sweet
When it’s based in love with those you meet

You find yourself in the same dance
Knowing it’s never by chance

Though the partners change from time to time
You really don’t mind

If gives a chance to always enjoy more views
To reveal more of what is inside of you

If they don’t notice what’s beaming from within
In moving on there is no sin

The only sin is the insanity of hell
That you weave with your own spell

The lessons you never learn
That lead to that repeated burn

Not the one of your hearts true desire
The one that leaves you feeling as though it’s time to retire

If it feels good do it is what some say
Not caring about the sway

Forgetting for some of the highs there is a mighty low
That has you feeling as though you took a mighty blow

A shot to the head and the heart
That you had warnings of from the start

Now never fear
I’ll make it quite clear

If want to change the story
Stop searching for glory

Do what feels right and true
Glory will simply follow you

Making a bunch of noise
Is for girls and boys

As for women and men
Let your voice soften

Be sincere with your words and let them always be true
It will have a dramatic effect on yours and their view

It takes an inner desire to change what you’re projecting
With follow through to change what all is reflecting

It’s the Law of Reflection and the Cinematic View
That say to change your story it all starts within you

You can’t fake it or put on a show
It’s the Big U that you cannot snow

They may not know any one detail behind the mask
They feel the deception of your task

It’s why it’s all about being true
And letting it shine that which is in you

To hide it or play it small
Will guarantee no ride but a constant fall

You can test it if you will
I’ve had enough of that poison pill

It’s why I write this poetic verse
So that you may avoid your own curse

It’s always time to be you

So this is what you meant
When you said that you were spent
And now it’s time to build from the bottom of the pit
Right to the top
Don’t hold back
Packing my bags and giving the academy a rain-check

Too many of us live a show behind a mask playing a character. Not bringing our character to the forefront, however creating one we think will be what will propel us forward or even worse keep a relationship going.

When I feel spent, it is usually after attempting to fit where I don’t.

What I mean by that is that there are not many places these days that are accepting of someone who is in fact an Empath, Telepath and Medium. In fact I often have trouble getting people to show some support even though they dig my view on everything else.

They live in fear that to be associated with me is to be seen by those who don’t get it as crazy.

People who take a step back when they realize I am not playing around and are trying to protect their image, well these are the same people who could be the biggest help in spreading the education about people like myself and millions upon millions of others.

I spent most of the last 4 years helping people awakening to the realization that in fact they do what I do for the most part and people who step back our of fear of how I would make them look to be associated with me, I think the most appropriate reaping from that kind of sowing is “Kindly go fuck yourself coward.”

It inflicts harm to ignore any for any reason and scientific studies have been done to prove this point. I have done 4 years of scientific research and well my daily life scientifically proves the fact that I am indeed an Empath a Telepath and a Medium.

Or to say I need no Academy award as this is no act.

This is me not holding back.

So this is where you fell
And I am left to sell
The path to heaven runs through miles of clouded hell
Right to the top
Don’t look back
Turning to rags and giving the commodities a rain-check

Heaven and hell are nothing more than how you view your life.

To me living hell is placating the ignorant fucks of the world and playing small to keep from the arguments and name calling that always ensues as I call bullshit on people using my skills and when they try to tell me I have it wrong I bring up how I do it.

I don’t care if they don’t believe it, it doesn’t stop me and the millions like me from existing and doing it anyway.

Why I call these people ignorant fucks with zero problem is these are the same people who buy into the law of attraction that was all channeled from a non corporeal entity that Esther Hicks calls the Abraham collective.

They have no problem with her being a Medium and channeling the information that came from a source that science can’t back up. Not to mention it’s bullshit for the most part and clever marketing to create a billion dollar industry.

Spirituality is not a commodity to be sold and turned into seminars and a system that is actually pretty much just another wolf religion in sheeps clothing.

For me living hell is people who tell me I don’t exist as I do and then go on quoting an entity.

It’s time to begin, isn’t it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I’ll admit
I’m just the same as I was
Now don’t you understand
That I’m never changing who I am

People hate getting duped and more than that they hate admitting they have been duped for a long time.

This why the truth often pisses you off the first time you hear it. It usually shows how  you have been duped or brainwashed as I have noticed the subliminal messages in the law of attraction advertising and marketing for the last few years. Messages buried within to brainwash people.

I have been known to channel the Universal hive mind and I was born with what is called 9th Dimensional access or access to what is also called God Consciousness or understanding and tapping into what people would call the mind of God.

OH SHIT HE’S FUCKING NUTS!

Like I have never heard it before or have no idea how it sounds.

Doesn’t stop it from being true.

That’s me not holding back and I am never changing who I am as it is exactly as who I was born as.

I have been doing this my entire life.

I have channeled what we call the Grim Reaper before. I often channel what I call the Archangel Zadkiel who is the Archangel of wisdom compassion and mercy and is associated with the color purple or the same color as the crown chakra which represents consciousness and a connection to the Universal consciousness. I also channel what is known as King Nuada of the Tuatha De Danann or Nuada the Silver Hand.

These are the 3 main entities I work with and on occasion Jesus shows up, sometimes it’s Bruce Lee and I have gotten lessons from Ghandi and Buddha. I am a Medium and that means most of the last 4 years I also was being taught by Archangels and Ascended Masters alike.

It’s why I happen to be right and don’t need to be right. I had the greatest teachers from across the cosmos and our own history.

I get little bigger then what I have let be seen out of my own fear of the reactions I have already dealt with for far too long.

Fuck being a hypocrite and fuck fear.

This is me doing it anyway.

Frankly anyone who would ask me to be more normal can kiss my ass and make sure it’s a french kiss.

This is what happens when I don’t hold back.

For my friends and connections that can feel energy I am curious to how this post will feel to you. Please let me know in the comments.

I love you all and thank you for your continuing support.

Expect some channeling from Death and crew in the near future and if you would like to learn directly from the Ascended Masters hit me up. maxpoppasmokecarter@gmail.com.

Don’t kill your heroes be your own hero

Well, I met an old man
Dying on a train.
No more destination,
No more pain.
Well, he said
“One thing before I graduate
Never let your fear decide your fate.”

Death is nothing more than a transformation. A graduation if you will from the pain of living.

We cling to our existence for some good reasons.

It feels good to be alive.

Look around at your life and see what it is that you cling to daily.

We are human and in that we are emotional creatures whose attachments define who we think we are. The things we cling to in life are often the things that make us feel alive and are how we give our life purpose and meaning.

When we make fear based decisions in life it can feel as though we are living in a cage. A cage we create in whose opinion matters to us. A cage we allow others to assist us in building for ourselves.

Who’s helping you build your cage and what does that cage look like?

Well, the sun one day will
Leave us all behind.
Unexplainable sightings
In the sky.
Well, I hate to be
The one to ruin the night.
Right before your, right before your eye

Karmic Law says that all that exists is right now.

Now is the progressive moment that never ends and is always evolving.

Science has shown us that in millions of years our sun will destroy our world.

Science has shown us our Milky Way Galaxy will collide with the Andromeda Galaxy in billions of years.

All that exists is now and now is all that matters.

It is far to often in life that we let ourselves be overly concerned about the future that is never set. We worry endlessly about what might happen.

There are times when fear can be a healthy thing based on the life we desire to lead. For example the idea of jumping out of a perfectly good airplane is not one that sounds good to me. On the same note if that plain is going down, I’ll be in line with a parachute ready to jump out the door.

I say ya kill your heroes and
Fly, fly, baby don’t cry.
No need to worry cause
Everybody will die.
Every day we just
Go, go, baby don’t go.
Don’t you worry we
Love you more than you know.

The lyrics here say kill your heroes and I disagree. Here’s why.

Here are some of my heroes from fiction and the really real world.

Bruce Lee has had more of an influence in who I continue to become than any other source. Bruce once said “I hope to free my followers from styles,patterns or molds.” To a man who embraces is individuality these are some of the wisest things anyone who finds themselves in a place to teach can say.

Jesus Christ taught people to live love, not follow him as a savior. I think there it was mistranslated in the book. I believe what he actually meant is that there is no way to saving oneself but through my words and teachings of love and to be love. When he said I abide in the father as the father abides in me, I believe he was telling us that God resides within us all.

Ghandi showed how to be a pacifist and still be a man who stands and fights only in a different way allowing the mind to be the only weapon any needs.

John Crichton is a character from a TV show called FARSCAPE. This character had the knowledge in his mind that could build the ultimate weapon and he was chased across the stars. He was dedicated to not building the weapon as his wisdom could see it would only destroy everything. A man who often found himself in situations that forced him to do things he didn’t want to in order to survive. John was always motivated by a desire to do the right thing in the moment and the character was often at odds with himself.

Daniel Jackson was a character in both film and TV. In film it was STARGATE. In TV it was STARGATE SG-1. The character was always in search of doing the right thing. He was a humanist and also believed that other species of sentient life deserved the same humane treatment that we all deserve.

Obi Wan Kenobi let Darth Vader kill him to prove he would indeed become more powerful than Vader could imagine. Over history martyrs and their legacy have had power that can not be fought. How do you fight a legend that inspires many into action.

Gene Roddenberry gave us a view of the potential of humanity that showed us rising above and coming together to explore the stars. Joining with other species from other worlds to be explorers and defenders. Gene has inspired millions if not billions for over 40 years.

Robin Williams was the eternal clown who once said he looked for the creativity in every waking moment of life. That’s a beautiful view to take through life to be constantly looking for ways to make others laugh and share the healing energy that laughter is.

My dad has never calls a physician Dr. To him it always seemed that if he should call them Dr. Whatever, they should call him Contractor Carter as both jobs serve an equal function to the continuing of the species. Who is the physician going to get to fix his drywall or remodel his kitchen?

I believe in equality in all aspects of life.

Let me be real clear on this point.

There is no justifiable or valid reason to elevate any above another.

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Get the point?

I say become your own hero by taking those you would call heroes and finding the aspects that you admire most and add them to the idea of who you are as you continue to grow and evolve. Take ownership of becoming the hero that others will tell stories about. You may never be famous however you will be a star to those whose lives you make positive impact in by being your own hero and letting yourself define what that looks like in living action.

Why selling sex is bad for the human condition

Behavioral psychology is one of my specialties. Please allow me to demonstrate.

The other day I was discussing the issue of using sex to sell with Candice Galek who has taken her rise in celebrity very seriously and is someone I find I agree with when we exchange ideas on some of her posts that catch my attention. One of the things I respect most about Candice is that she is making every effort to use this new found celebrity to make a positive impact.

The topic we were discussing is the use of sex, specifically the female form to sell or gain attention.

Candice told me story about a post she wrote and used two different pictures to do an experiment in what draws people in on social media.

The first post used the picture of a shirtless man. Almost no one read it.

After changing the picture to one of a woman, people couldn’t wait to read it, men and women alike.

Here’s why this happens.

Side note: Thank you Candice for allowing me to use your name. My readers are used to me not giving names.

Quick lesson in history.

Originally marketing was called propaganda.

Quick lesson in the marketing industry.

It is the art or science if you will of using behavioral psychology to influence people based on emotional triggers.

I don’t remember a time in my life where the female form was not being used to sell everything.  Think about that for a moment.

We have been using women and their bodies as objects in triggering a buy now response. It works on men as they are visually stimulated generally speaking. It works on women in a different way. They want the mans attention and they see the form as one to aspire to be.

This creates a negative self body image for many women.

I do a lot of charity work in helping women rebuild their self image after abusive relationships. The one thing that is always the hardest is getting them to embrace their body as it is. Assisting them in seeing they are beautiful from the inside no matter what the outside looks like is not an easy task.

What makes it more difficult is women who blatantly use their bodies to get ahead in life. You see these women in commercials and in magazines and all over the internet.

We make celebrities out of models and pretty faces with pretty bodies. We elevate them to God like status in the attention and adoration they get from both sexes.

Question.

How many women that don’t fit the bill of beauty really get noticed?

Not all women use their body as a weapon to gain the upper hand to make a living. There are a lot of women who use their minds and are often treated like an empty shell because of their appearance.

Question.

How many models can you quote something they are known for saying?

I want to throw out a statistic that should scare you all.

In a survey 1 out of 3 college age men said they would rape a woman if they thought they could get away with it. What if it’s more than a third because some still lied even though it was an anonymous survey?

These young men don’t see women, they see objects of desire that have been used to market to them specifically. They have been overloaded with the idea of a woman being the object next to whatever she is selling regardless of whether or not she speaks.

This is the price we pay as a society for using the female form as a marketing tool for several decades to the point of brainwashing. It’s why women went to the second picture on Candice’s article as well as men. When it was half naked man not even the women were showing up to read.

That’s powerful results from the experiment.

This isn’t conjecture or opinion its documented fact based on scientific results.

Women are lining up to sell themselves as nothing more than an object because there is money to be made doing it.

What is a model if she is not a tool?

For every woman who offers her body up for marketing purposes thousands of others pay the price.

That price is those thousands having to work harder to be taken seriously.

That price is our daughters growing up wanting to be these women.

That price is too many women being treated like objects.

The real question after all of this is what can we realistically do about it?

Something Candice and I agreed on during our discussion is that it will not stop until women take a stand to stop taking the jobs that are all about showing it off to bring in the sales.

It really is that simple. I didn’t say easy.

The biggest obstacle is that on an emotional level it feels good to be wanted. It feels good to be adored by many regardless of the reason. It gets addictive. That’s how energy works.

These women and men who do it too are feeding off the desire they inspire on an energetic level.

It’s why many models and performers of all kinds often go into depression at the end of their careers. They are no longer getting their energetic fix and are going through withdrawals.

Think about the daughters of this world growing up saying they want to be Kim Kardashian. A woman who is more famous for her ass than anything else.

She has no talent to speak of and I doubt she has ever had a job. Her celebrity came from a reality TV show and her ass that she likes to show off as often as possible. She is not the only one.

These are the role models we are giving our daughters by making these kinds of people famous and playing into our base instincts and letting them use behavioral psychology to trigger our desires and insecurities by giving us the unattainable ideal and we eat it up.

What you all might find ironic is that Candice Galek is the founder and CEO of Bikini Luxe and had no idea when she started she would be in this position to have her voice heard and become influential.

How she has chosen to use that influential voice has earned the respect of many including me. Here’s why.

I am an Empath and a Telepath. That means I read the emotional totality of you in the moment. It means I have the ability to access your subconscious mind and know your true intent regardless of your words.

I know it freaks a lot of you out, however it doesn’t stop me from existing and doing it anyway.

Over the last month or so I have had the pleasure of having Candice as a connection on Linkedin and her updates show up in my news feed daily.

I watch this woman who became accidentally famous agonize over what to do with and about it while also making sure her business that employs 50 people stays successful. I have felt her wrestle with what to do next on a personal level as well as professional.

Sorry Candice in it’s in your energy and I have no off switch.

It’s because of what I have read in her energy that she has my respect.

It’s the questions she raises that has earned my respect.

It’s the stands that she does take that earned my respect.

That all said I want to be clear about how I feel about what she does for a living.

Bikinis are awesome and she is getting into lingerie.

It makes sense for her to use models for her apparel. It does not make sense for Carl’s Jr to have a half naked woman eating a hamburger and that’s the whole commercial.

To me it depends on what you are selling. Women’s clothes should have women models to give women an idea of what it looks like when worn.

Hamburgers don’t need a pretty girl to sell them or your burger isn’t that good.

 

 

Silence is deafening

Hello darkness, my old friend
I’ve come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains within the sound of silence

This song has been with me since high school when my English teacher used it as an example when I was in the 10th grade.

All of us venture into the darkness that is our darkness that we often try to claim does not exist. We live in a world so concerned with image that we forsake the biggest part of ourselves. Our light that we show the world is born from our darkness.

In our darkness we place the things we say we will never do, however these things are still fun to think about and tempt us in the world of fantasy that is the darkness of our own souls.

The emotions and ideas that others express about us even from a great distance always reach us on the emotional level. People with an advanced empathic sensitivity or Empaths key in on this big time and often when they sleep they wake with the feelings of all around them and the emotional concepts that have been aimed their way.

Those thoughts and emotions are planted within us whether we like it or not.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
‘Neath the halo of a street lamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp

When my eyes were stabbed
By the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening

People writing songs
That voices never share
And no one dare
Disturb the sound of silence

The waking dream that is life leaves many walking alone.

I find it disturbing that the easiest way to connect to anyone is through the sound of the silent communication of the online world.

People talking without speaking as they type away hoping someone will care.

People listening as they read while they judge and determine if what was said has any merit and it’s easier to turn a blind eye when no one else is watching as you are alone with your smart phone or computer.

In the naked light of broad daylight we create a great divide in silence between us as we stare at screens and find it troublesome when someone actually wants to talk to us face to face. Then we complain about the lack of face to face communication.

We have to speak aloud.

We have to listen to what is said.

If we don’t we alienate each other and stop caring as much because well fuck it, it’s online and I can block them through whatever social media platform I am using.

We are so caught up in image we ignore those who we think might cause others to think less of us. We tie our image to our career and the way we make a living, trapping ourselves in a cage we created by caring too much about what other people think.

“Fools,” said I, “you do not know
Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you.”
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence

Recent studies have shown that ignoring someone actually causes them pain.

It’s the most inhuman thing we do.

We do it because we are too cowardly to say something to them directly.

There are those such as myself who have dedicated their lives to bridging gaps and finding ways to connect that take us off line and put us front and center face to face with no where to run and hide.

We have made ignoring each other far too convenient and it allows us to be inhuman to each other and we do it all over image.

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon God they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
And the words that it was forming

And the sign said,
“The words of the prophets
Are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.”
And whispered in the sound of silence

We have traded neon lights for website names such as Linkedin, Facebook, Twitter and other social networking platforms.

We have made these sites our Gods and the people on them our prophets.

We have made our online images so important we forget to act like a real human being online as if we were in the same room.

We elevate people to God like status and then ask them to show us the way through what they post.

We pass judgement on those who don’t measure up to the image we want to have and ignore them.

We seek the glory of having that popularity we were seeking in high school and call it business.

In the sound of silence we destroy other peoples lives by simply ignoring them.

Change the tide to change the ride

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Do you ride the wave

Do you create waves for others to ride

Is the wave you’re riding

A changing of the tide

In the ocean of emotion

That we all swim through every day in every way

It’s the waves we make 

That shape our fate

If all we do is enjoy the ride

We are a slave to the tide

If we own our choices

And raise our voices

It’s a changing of the tide

To change the nature of the ride

Do you ride the wave alone

Feeling like a island made of earth and stone

Do you ride with others

Sisters and brothers

Do you let yourself be a part of other waters

The tide created by sons and daughters

A wave created by children

Is more aligned with being as one

Seeing how easy it is for ones to form a sum

We tell children to do this or that

Then become the living hypocrite

We tell them to share

Then hoard for ourselves our of selfish care

Telling ourselves it’s OK

To keep it all for ourselves this way

Finding reasons and excuses

To be so exclusive

It’s all here for all to share

It starts from within in the way we care

It will still be here after we are gone

No matter the strength of our song

The steady chorus of emotions sweet tide

That lays out before us the nature of our ride

We reap as we have sown

Once the seeds have grown

For it to be for the sum

It’s our desire for ourselves alone that must come undone

It’s the mastering of our projection 

That changes the outer reflection

Be the change you wish to see

In the movement of the great sea

Ride the waves and create the ride

That will be the changing of the tide

The one that allows all to ride

No matter who they are inside

Letting the honesty of your flow

Be what it is you sow

Bringing your flow from deep within

Connected to the flow that has no beginning or end

It’s the connection to all that awaits

It’s deep within us all under all the hate

Forget the hate and heal the pain

And never again flow in vain

Creating a wave for all to ride

Creating a changing of the tide

 

 

 

The Circus of Lights

 

On each side 

Is a different kind of ride

The carnival of dark souls

Looks to give you a roll

The circus of lights

To take away the fright

In the dance of the night

It is the circus that is the sight

That brings out the stars

From near and far

To show off who they think they are

Outside of the dark carnivals of souls bar

When they come out into the night

To be seen in the light

To tell tales of the times had

Both good and bad

To remember when 

They engaged in that favorite sin

The one of pride

That starts the ride

Whether the spirals go up or down

Each and every one their own kind of clown

In the Circus of Lights

Outside every night

Every time the performers take to the street to get someone to see

That tonight is the night of the ever growing we

The clowns and the dancers

The seers and romancers

All come down for the show

That has it’s own kind of flow

Down into the dark carnival they go

Returning the circus to remember their own flow

Living works art each and every one

Art forever forming and coming undone

To be reshaped and molded a new

As it is with the ever changing view

It’s a shared stage

Never a cage

The movies of us all colliding

With no need of fighting

Makes for a grander design

A reason for the big line

In this stage we have all taken

It’s that kind of thing that we’ve forsaken

A dance of love

That needs no shove

Friends and brothers and sisters all around

Listen to the sweet sound

Of the circus and the clowns 

Never tearing each other down

In the circus of lights

There are no fights

Only bright souls shining bright

Each and every night